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Near the verge of a bold promontory stands the hotel, and looks  southeastward over a sweep of sea unbroken

to the horizon.  Behind it  stretches the vast forest, which after two hundred years has resumed  the  sterile coast

wrested from it by the first Pilgrims, and has begun  to  efface the evidences of the inroad made in recent years

by the bold  speculator for whom Jocelyn's is named.  The young birches and spruces  are breast high in the

drives and avenues at Jocelyn's; the low  blackberry vines and the sweet fern cover the carefullygraded

sidewalks,  and obscure the divisions of the lots; the children of the  boarders have  found squawberries in the

public square on the spot  where the bandstand  was to have been.  The notion of a seaside  resort at this point

was  courageously conceived, and to a certain  extent it was generously  realized.  Except for its remoteness

from the  railroad, a drawback which  future enterprise might be expected to  remedy in some way, the place

has  many natural advantages.  The broad  plateau is cooled by a breeze from  the vast forests behind it, which

comes laden with health and freshness  from the young pines; the sea at  its feet is warmed by the Gulf Stream

to  a temperature delicious for  bathing.  There are certainly mosquitoes from  the woods; but there are

mosquitoes everywhere, and the report that  people have been driven  away by them is manifestly untrue, for

whoever  comes to Jocelyn's  remains.  The beach at the foot of the bluff is almost  a mile at its  curve, and it is

so smooth and hard that it glistens like  polished  marble when newly washed by the tide.  It is true that you

reach  it  from the top by a flight of eighty steps, but it was intended to have  an elevator, like those near the

Whirlpool at Niagara.  In the mean  time  it is easy enough to go down, and the ladies go down every day,

taking  their novels or their needlework with them.  They have various  notions  of a bath: some conceive that

it is bathing to sit in the edge  of the  water, and emit shrieks as the surge sweeps against them;  others run

boldly in, and after a moment of poignant hesitation jump  up and down  halfadozen times, and run out; yet

others imagine it  better to remain  immersed to the chin for a given space, looking  toward the shore with  lips

tightly shut and the breath held.  But  after the bath they are all  of one mind; they lay their shawls on the  warm

sand, and, spreading out  their hair to dry, they doze in the sun,  in such coils and masses as the  unconscious

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figure lends itself to.  When they rise from their beds, they  sit in the shelter of the cliff  and knit or sew, while

one of them reads  aloud, and another stands  watch to announce the coming of the seals,  which frequent a reef

near  the shore in great numbers.  It has been said  at rival points on the  coast that the ladies linger there in

despair of  ever being able to  remount to the hotel.  A young man who clambered along  the shore from  one of

those points reported finding day after day the  same young lady  stretched out on the same shawl, drying the

same yellow  hair, who had  apparently never gone upstairs since the season began.  But  the  recurrence of this

phenomenon in this spot at the very moment when  the  young man came by might have been accounted for

upon other theories.  Jocelyn's was so secluded that she could not have expected any one to  find her there

twice, and if she had expected this she would not have  permitted it.  Probably he saw a different young lady

each time. 

Many of the same boarders come year after year, and these tremble  at the  suggestion of a change for the

better in Jocelyn's.  The  landlord has  always believed that Jocelyn's would come up, some day,  when times got

better.  He believes that the narrowgauge railroad  from New Leyden  arrested on paper at the disastrous

moment when the  fortunes of Jocelyn's  felt the general crashwill be pushed through  yet; and every summer

he  promises that next summer they are going to  have a steamlaunch running  twice a day from Leyden

Harbor.  But at  present his house is visited once  a day by a barge, as the New England  coastfolks call the

vehicle in  which they convey city boarders to and  from the station, and the old  frequenters of the place hope

that the  station will never be nearer  Jocelyn's than at present.  Some of them  are rich enough to afford a

sojourn at more fashionable resorts; but  most of them are not, though  they are often people of polite tastes

and of aesthetic employments.  They talk with slight of the large  wateringplaces, and probably they  would

not like them, though it is  really economy that inspires their  passion for Jocelyn's with most of  them, and they

know of the splendid.  weariness of Newport mostly by  hearsay.  New arrivals are not favored,  but there are

not often new  arrivals at Jocelyn's.  The chief business of  the barge is to bring  fresh meat for the table and the

gaunt bag which  contains the mail;  for in the first flush of the enterprise the place was  made a  postoffice,

and the landlord is postmaster; he has the help of  the  ladyboarders in his official duties. 

Scattered about among the young birches there are several of those  pine  frames known as shells, within easy

walk of the hotel, where  their  inmates board.  They are picturesque interiors, and are on  informal terms  with

the public as to many domestic details.  The lady  of the house,  doing her back hair at her dressingroom glass,

is  divided from her  husband, smoking at the parlor fireplace, only by a  partition of  unlathed studding.  The

arrest of development in these  shells is  characteristic of everything about the place.  None of the

improvements  invented since the hard times began have been added to  Jocelyn's;  lawntennis is still unknown

there; but there is a  croquetground before  the hotel, where the short, tough grass is kept  in tolerable order.

The  wickets are pretty rusty, and it is usually  the children who play; but  toward the close of a certain,

afternoon a  young lady was pushing the  balls about there.  She seemed to be going  over a game just played,

and  trying to trace the cause of her failure.  She made bad shots, and  laughed at her blunders.  Another young

lady  drooped languidly on a bench  at the side of the croquetground, and  followed her movements with

indifference. 

"I don't see how you did it, Louise," panted the player; "it's  astonishing how you beat me." 

The lady on the bench made as if to answer, but ended by coughing  hoarsely. 

"Oh, dear child!" cried the first, dropping her mallet, and running  to  her.  "You ought to have put on your

shawl!"  She lifted the knit  shawl  lying beside her on the bench, and laid it across the other's  shoulders,  and

drew it close about her neck. 

"Oh, don't!" said the other.  "It chokes me to be bundled up so  tight."  She shrugged the shawl down to her

shoulders with a pretty  petulance.  "If my chest's protected, that's all that's necessary."  But she made no

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look up at  her anxious friend. 

"Oh, but don't sit here, Louise," the latter pleaded, lingering  near her.  "I was wrong to let you sit down at all

after you had got  heated." 

"Well, Grace, I had to," said she who was called Louise.  "I was so  tired  out.  I'm not going to take more cold.  I

can always tell when I  am.  I'll put on the shawl in half a minute; or else I'll go in. 

I'm sure there's nothing to keep me out.  That's the worst of these  lonely places: my mind preys upon itself.

That's what Dr. Nixon  always  said: he said it was no use in air so long as my mind preyed  upon itself.  He said

that I ought to divert my mind all I could, and  keep it from  preying upon itself; that it was worth all the

medicine  in the world." 

"That's perfectly true." 

"Then you ought n't to keep reminding me all the time that I'm  sick.  That's what starts my mind to preying

upon itself; and when it  gets going  once I can't stop it.  I ought to treat myself just like a  well person;  that's

what the doctor said." 

The other stood looking at the speaker in frowning perplexity.  She  was a  seriousfaced girl, and now when

she frowned her black brows met  sternly  above her gray eyes.  But she controlled any impulse she had  to

severity,  and asked gently, "Shall I send Bella to you?" 

"Oh, no!  I can't make society out of a child the whole time.  I'll  just  sit here till the barge comes in.  I suppose

it will be as empty  as a  gourd, as usual."  She added, with a sick and weary negligence,  "I don't  even know

where Bella is.  She's run off, somewhere." 

"It's quite time she should be looked up, for tea.  I'll wander out  that  way and look for her."  She indicated the

wilderness generally. 

"Thanks," said Louise.  She now gratefully drew her shawl up over  her  shoulders, and faced about on the

bench so as to command an easy  view of  the arriving barge.  The other met it on her way to the place  in the

woods where the children usually played, and found it as empty  as her  friend had foreboded.  But the driver

stopped his horses, and  leaned out  of the side of the wagon with a little package in his hand.  He read the

superscription, and then glanced consciously at the girl.  "You're Miss  Breen, ain't you?" 

"Yes," she said, with ladylike sweetness and a sort of  businesslike  alertness. 

"Well," suggested the driver, "this is for Miss Grace Breen, M. D." 

"For me, thank you," said the young lady.  "I'm Dr. Breen."  She  put out  her hand for the little package from

the homoeopathic pharmacy  in Boston;  and the driver yielded it with a blush that reddened him to  his hair.

"Well," he said slowly, staring at the handsome girl, who  did not visibly  share his embarrassment, "they told

me you was the  one; but I could n't  seem to get it through me.  I thought it must be  the old lady." 

"My mother is Mrs. Breen," the young lady briefly explained, and  walked  rapidly away, leaving the driver

stuck in the heavy sand of  SeaGlimpse  Avenue. 

"Why, get up!" he shouted to his horses.  "Goin' to stay here all  day?"  He craned his neck round the side of the

wagon for a sight of  her.  "Well, dumm 'f I don't wish I was sick!  Steps along," he mused,  watching  the swirl

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With her face turned from him Dr. Breen blushed, too; she was not  yet so  used to her quality of physician that

she could coldly bear the  confusion  to which her being a doctor put men.  She laughed a little  to herself at  the

helplessness of the driver, confronted probably for  the first time  with a graduate of the New York

homoeopathic school;  but she believed  that she had reasons for taking herself seriously in  every way, and she

had not entered upon this career without definite  purposes.  When she was  not yet out of her teens, she had an

unhappy  love affair, which was  always darkly referred to as a disappointment  by people who knew of it at  the

time.  Though the particulars of the  case do not directly concern  this story, it may be stated that the  recreant

lover afterwards married  her dearest girlfriend, whom he had  first met in her company.  It was  cruel enough,

and the hurt went  deep; but it neither crushed nor hardened  her.  It benumbed her for a  time; she sank out of

sight; but when she  returned to the knowledge of  the world she showed no mark of the blow  except what was

thought a  strange eccentricity in a girl such as she had  been.  The world which  had known herit was that of

an inland New  England cityheard of her  definitely after several years as a student of  medicine in New

York.  Those who had more of her intimacy understood that  she had chosen  this work with the intention of

giving her life to it, in  the spirit  in which other women enter convents, or go out to heathen  lands; but

probably this conception had its exaggerations.  What was  certain was  that she was rich enough to have no

need of her profession as  a means  of support, and that its study had cost her more than the usual  suffering that

it brings to persons of sensitive nerves.  Some details  were almost insuperably repugnant; but in schooling

herself to them  she  believed that she was preparing to encounter anything in the  application  of her science. 

Her first intention had been to go back to her own town after her  graduation, and begin the practice of her

profession among those who  had  always known her, and whose scrutiny and criticism would be  hardest to

bear, and therefore, as she fancied, the most useful to her  in the  formation of character.  But afterwards she

relinquished her  purpose in  favor of a design which she thought would be more useful to  others: she  planned

going to one of the great factory towns, and  beginning practice  there, in company with an older physician,

among  the children of the  operatives.  Pending the completion of this  arrangement, which was  waiting upon

the decision of the other lady,  she had come to Jocelyn's  with her mother, and with Mrs. Maynard, who  had

arrived from the West,  aimlessly sick and unfriended, just as they  were about leaving home.  There was no

resource but to invite her with  them, and Dr. Breen was  finding her first patient in this unexpected  guest.  She

did not wholly  regret the accident; this, too, was useful  work, though not that she  would have chosen; but her

mother, after a  fortnight, openly repined, and  could not mention Mrs. Maynard without  some rebellious

murmur.  She was  an old lady, who had once kept a very  vigilant conscience for herself;  but after making her

life unhappy  with it for some threescore years, she  now applied it entirely to the  exasperation and

condemnation of others.  She especially devoted it to  fretting a New England girl's naturally  morbid sense of

duty in her  daughter, and keeping it in the irritation of  perpetual selfquestion.  She had never actively

opposed her studying  medicine; that ambition  had harmonized very well with certain radical  tendencies of her

own,  and it was at least not marriage, which she had  found tolerable only  in its modified form of widowhood;

but at every step  after the  decisive step was taken she was beset with misgivings lest  Grace was  not fully

alive to the grave responsibilities of her office,  which she  accumulated upon the girl in proportion as she

flung off all  responsibilities of her own.  She was doubtless deceived by that show  of  calm which sometimes

deceived Grace herself, who, in tutoring her  soul to  bear what it had to bear, mistook her tense effort for

spiritual repose,  and scarcely realized through her tingling nerves  the strain she was  undergoing.  In spite of

the bitter experience of  her life, she was still  very ardent in her hopes of usefulness, very  scornful of distress

or  discomfort to herself, and a little inclined  to exact the heroism she was  ready to show.  She had a child's

severe  morality, and she had hardly  learned to understand that there is much  evil in the world that does not

characterize the perpetrators: she  held herself as strictly to account  for every word and deed as she  held

others, and she had an almost  passionate desire to meet the  consequence of her errors; till that was  felt, an

intolerable doom  hung over her.  She tried not to be impulsive;  that was criminal in  one of her calling; and she

struggled for patience  with an endeavor  that was largely successful. 

As to the effect of her career outside of herself, and of those  whom her  skill was to benefit, she tried to think

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cause of woman, and she would not assume any duties  or  responsibilities toward it.  She thought men were as

good as women;  at least one man had been no worse than one woman; and it was in no  representative or

exemplary character that she had chosen her course.  At the same time that she held these sane opinions, she

believed that  she  had put away the hopes with the pleasures that might once have  taken her  as a young girl.  In

regard to what had changed the current  of her life,  she mentally asserted her mere nullity, her absolute

nonexistence.  The  thought of it no longer rankled, and that interest  could never be hers  again.  If it had not

been so much like  affectation, and so counter to  her strong aesthetic instinct, she  might have made her dress

somehow  significant of her complete abeyance  in such matters; but as it was she  only studied simplicity, and

as we  have seen from the impression of the  bargedriver she did not finally  escape distinction in dress and

manner.  In fact, she could not have  escaped that effect if she would; and it was  one of the indomitable

contradictions of her nature that she would not. 

When she came back to the croquetground, leading the little girl  by the  hand, she found Mrs. Maynard no

longer alone and no longer sad.  She was  chatting and laughing with a slim young fellow, whose gay  blue eyes

looked out of a sunburnt face, and whose straw hat, carried  in his hand,  exposed a closely shaven head.  He

wore a suit of gray  flannel, and Mrs.  Maynard explained that he was camping on the beach  at Birkman's

Cove, and  had come over in the steamer with her when she  returned from Europe.  She  introduced him as Mr.

Libby, and said, "Oh,  Bella, you dirty little  thing!" 

Mr. Libby bowed anxiously to Grace, and turned for refuge to the  little  girl.  "Hello, Bella!" "Hello!" said the

child.  "Remember me?"  The  child put her left hand on that of Grace holding her right, and  prettily  pressed

her head against the girl's arm in bashful silence.  Grace said  some coldly civil words to the young man:

without looking  at Mrs.  Maynard, and passed on into the house. 

"You don't mean that's your doctor?" he scarcely more than  whispered. 

"Yes, I do," answered Mrs. Maynard.  "Is n't she too lovely?  And  she's  just as good!  She used to stand up at

school for me, when all  the girls  were down on me because I was Western.  And when I came  East, this time,

I just went right straight to her house.  I knew she  could tell me  exactly what to do.  And that's the reason I'm

here.  I  shall always  recommend this air to anybody with lung difficulties.  It's the greatest  thing !  I'm almost

another person.  Oh, you need  n't look after her,  Mr. Libby!  There's nothing flirtatious about  Grace," said Mrs.

Maynard. 

The young man recovered himself from his absentminded stare in the  direction Grace had taken, with a frank

laugh.  "So much the better  for a  fellow, I should say!" 

Grace handed the little girl over to her nurse, and went to her own  room,  where she found her mother waiting

to go down to tea. 

"Where is Mrs. Maynard?" asked Mrs. Breen. 

"Out on the croquetground," answered the daughter. 

"I should think it would be damp," suggested Mrs. Green. 

"She will come in when the teabell rings.  She wouldn't come in  now, if  I told her." 

"Well," said the elder lady, "for a person who lets her doctor pay  her  board, I think 'she's very independent." 

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"I can't help it, Grace.  It's ridiculous,that's what it is; it's  ridiculous." 

"I don't see anything ridiculous in it.  A physician need not  charge  anything unless he chooses, or she; and if I

choose to make  Louise my  guest here it's quite the same as if she were my guest at  home." 

"I don't like you to have such a guest," said Mrs. Green.  "I don't  see  what claim she has upon your

hospitality." 

"She has a double claim upon it," Grace answered, with a flush.  "She is  in sickness and in trouble.  I don't see

how she could have a  better  claim.  Even if she were quite well I should consider the way  she had  been treated

by her husband sufficient, and I should want to  do  everything I could for her." 

"I should want her to behave herself," said Mrs. Breen dryly. 

"How behave herself?  What do you mean?" demanded Grace, with  guilty  heat. 

"You know what I mean, Grace.  A woman in her position ought to be  more  circumspect than any other

woman, if she wants people to believe  that her  husband treated her badly." 

"We ought n't to blame her for trying to forget her troubles.  It's  essential to her recovery for her to be as

cheerful as she can be.  I  know that she's impulsive, and she's free in her manners with  strangers;  but I suppose

that's her Westernism.  She's almost  distracted.  She was  crying half the night, with her troubles, and  kept Bella

and me both  awake." 

"Is Bella with her now?" 

"No," Grace admitted.  "Jane's getting her ready to go down with  us.  Louise is talking with a gentleman who

came over on the steamer  with her;  he's camping on the beach near here.  I didn't wait to hear  particulars." 

When the nurse brought the little girl to their door, Mrs. Green  took one  hand and Grace the other, and they

led her down to tea.  Mrs.  Maynard was  already at table, and told them all about meeting Mr.  Libby abroad. 

Until the present time she and Grace had not seen each other since  they  were at school together in

Southington, where the girl used to  hear so  much to the disadvantage of her native section that she would

hardly have  owned to it if her accent had not found her out.  It would  have been  pleasanter to befriend another

person, but the little  Westerner suffered  a veritable persecution, and that was enough to  make Grace her

friend.  Shortly after she returned home from school she  married, in that casual  and tentative fashion in which

so many  marriages seem made.  Grace had  heard of her as travelling in Europe  with her husband, from whom

she was  now separated.  She reported that  he had known Mr. Libby in his bachelor  days, and that Mr. Libby

had  travelled with them.  Mr. Maynard appeared  to have left to Mr. Libby  the arrangement of his wife's

pleasures, the  supervision of her  shopping, and the direction of their common journeys  and sojourns; and  it

seemed to have been indifferent to him whether his  friend was  smoking and telling stories with him, or going

with his wife  to the  opera, or upon such excursions as he had no taste for.  She gave  the  details of the

triangular intimacy with a frank unconsciousness; and  after nine o'clock she returned from a moonlight walk

on the beach  with  Mr. Libby. 

Grace sat waiting for her at the little one's bedside, for Bella  had been  afraid to go to sleep alone. 

"How good you are!" cried Louise, in a grateful undertone, as she  came  in.  She kissed Grace, and choked

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"Louise," said Grace sternly, "this is shameful!  You forget that  you are  married, and ill, too." 

"Oh, I'm ever so much better, tonight.  The air's just as dry!  And you  needn't mind Mr. Libby.  He's such an

old friend!  Besides,  I'm sure to  gain the case." 

"No , matter.  Even as a divorced woman, you oughtn't to go on in  this  way." 

"Well, I would n't, with every one.  But it's quite different with  Mr.  Libby.  And, besides, I have to keep my

mind from preying on  itself  somehow." 

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Mrs. Maynard sat in the sun on the seawardlooking piazza of the  hotel,  and coughed in the warm air.  She

told the ladies, as they came  out from  breakfast, that she was ever so much better generally, but  that she

seemed to have more of that tickling in her throat.  Each of  them advised  her for good, and suggested this

specific and that; and  they all asked  her what Miss Breen was doing for her cough.  Mrs.  Maynard replied,

between the paroxysms, that she did not know: it was  some kind of  powders.  Then they said they would think

she would want  to try something  active; even those among them who were homoeopathists  insinuated a fine

distrust of a physician of their own sex.  "Oh, it's  nothing serious,"  Mrs. Maynard explained.  "It's just

bronchial.  The  air will do me more  good than anything.  I'm keeping out in it all I  can." 

After they were gone, a queer, gaunt man came and glanced from the  doorway at her.  He had one eye in

unnatural fixity, and the other set  at  that abnormal slant which is said to qualify the owner for looking  round  a

corner before he gets to it.  A droll twist of his mouth  seemed partly  physical, but: there is no doubt that he

had often a  humorous intention.  It was Barlow, the manofallwork, who killed and  plucked the poultry,

peeled the potatoes and picked the peas, pulled  the sweetcorn and the  tomatoes, kindled the kitchen fire,

harnessed  the old splayfooted mare,  safe for ladies and children, and  intolerable for all others, which

formed the entire stud of the  Jocelyn House stables,dug the clams,  rowed and sailed the boat,  looked after

the bathhouses, and came in  contact with the guests at  so many points that he was on easy terms with  them

all.  This ease  tended to an intimacy which he was himself powerless  to repress, and  which, from time to time,

required their intervention.  He now wore a  simple costume of shirt and trousers, the latter terminated  by a

pair  of broken shoes, and sustained by what he called a single  gallows; his  broadbrimmed straw hat scooped

down upon his shoulders  behind, and in  front added to his congenital difficulty of getting people  in focus.

"How do you do, this morning, Mrs. Maynard?" he said. 

"Oh, I'm firstrate, Mr. Barlow.  What sort of day do you think  it's  going to be for a sail?" 

Barlow came out to the edge of the piazza, and looked at the sea  and sky.  "Firstrate.  Fog's most burnt away

now.  You don't often see  a fog at  Jocelyn's after ten o'clock in the mornin'." 

He looked for approval to Mrs. Maynard, who said, "That's so.  The  air's  just splendid.  It 's doing everything

for me." 

"It's these pine woods, back o' here.  Every breath on 'em does ye  good.  It's the balsam in it.  D' you ever try,"

he asked, stretching  his hand  as far up the piazzapost as be could, and swinging into a  conversational

posture,"d' you ever try whiskeygood odd Bourbon  whiskeywith white  pine chips in it?" 

Mrs. Maynard looked up with interest, but, shaking her head,  coughed for  no. 

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"What does it do?" she gasped, when she could get her breath. 

"Well, it's soothin' t' the cough, and it builds ye up, every ways.  Why,  my brother," continued the factotum,

"he died of consumption  when I was a  boy,reg'lar old New England consumption.  Don't hardly  ever hear

of it  any more, round here.  Well, I don't suppose there's  been a case of  reg'lar old New England

consumptionwell, not the old  New England kind  since these woods growed up.  He used to take  whiskey

with whitepine  chips in it; and I can remember hearin 'em say  that it done him more good  than all the

doctor's stuff.  He'd been out  to Demarary, and everywheres,  and he come home in the last stages, and  took up

with this whiskey with  whitepine chips in it.  Well, it's just  like this, I presume it's the  balsam in the chips.  It

don't make any  difference how you git the balsam  into your system, so 's 't you git  it there.  I should like to

have you  try whiskey with whitepine chips  in it." 

He looked convincingly at Mrs. Maynard, who said she should like to  try  it.  "It's just bronchial with me, you

know.  But I should like to  try  it.  I know it would be soothing; and I've always heard that  whiskey was  the

very thing to build you up.  But," she added, lapsing  from this  vision of recovery, "I couldn't take it unless

Grace said  so.  She'd be  sure to find it out." 

"Why, look here," said Barlow.  "As far forth as that goes, you  could  keep the bottle in my room.  Not but

what I believe in going by  your  doctor's directions, it don't matter who your doctor is.  I ain't  sayin'  nothin'

against Miss Breen, you understand?" 

"Oh, no!" cried Mrs. Maynard. 

"I never see much nicer ladies than her and her mother in the  house.  But you just tell her about the whiskey

with the whitepine  chips in it.  Maybe she never heard of it.  Well, she hain't had a  great deal of  experience

yet." 

"No," said Mrs. Maynard.  " And I think she'll be glad to hear of  it.  You may be sure I'll tell her, Mr. Barlow.

Grace is everything  for the  balsamic properties of the air, down here.  That's what she  said; and as  you say, it

doesn't matter how you get the balsam into  your system, so  you get it there." 

"No," said the factotum, in a tone of misgiving, as if the  repetition of  the words presented the theory in a new

light to him. 

"What I think is, and what I'm always telling Grace," pursued Mrs.  Maynard, in that confidential spirit in

which she helplessly spoke of  her  friends by their first names to every one, "that if I could once  get my

digestion all right, then the cough would stop of itself.  The  doctor  saidDr. Nixon, that isthat it was more

than half the  digestion any  way.  But just as soon as I eat anythingor if I  overeat a littlethen  that

tickling in my throat begins, and then I  commence coughing; and I'm  back just where I was.  It's the digestion.

I oughtn't to have eaten  that mince pie, yesterday." 

"No," admitted Barlow.  Then he said, in indirect defence of the  kitchen,  "I think you had n't ought to be out

in the night air,well,  not a great  deal." 

"Well, I don't suppose it does do me much good," Mrs. Maynard said,  turning her eyes seaward. 

Barlow let his hand drop from the piazza post, and slouched  indoors; but  he came out again as if pricked by

conscience to return. 

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"What cure him?" asked Mrs. Maynard. 

"The whiskey with the whitepine chips in it." 

"Cure who?" 

"My brother." 

"Oh!  Oh, yes!  But mine's only bronchial.  I think it might do me  good.  I shall tell Grace about it." 

Barlow looked troubled, as if his success in the suggestion of this  remedy were not finally a pleasure; but as

Mrs. Maynard kept her eyes  persistently turned from him, and was evidently tired, he had nothing  for  it but to

go indoors again.  He met Grace, and made way for her  on the  threshold to pass out. 

As she joined Mrs. Maynard, "Well, Grace," said the latter, "I do  believe  you are right.  I have taken some

more cold.  But that shows  that it does  n't get worse of itself, and I think we ought to be  encouraged by that.

I'm going to be more careful of the night air  after this." 

"I don't think the night air was the worst thing about it, Louise,"  said  Grace bluntly. 

"You mean the damp from the sand?  I put on my rubbers." 

"I don't mean the damp sand," said Grace, beginning to pull over  some  sewing which she had in her lap, and

looking down at it. 

Mrs. Maynard watched her a while in expectation that she would say  more,  but she did not speak.  "Oh,

well!" she was forced to continue  herself,  "if you're going to go on with that!" 

"The question is," said Grace, getting the thread she wanted,  "whether  you are going on with it." 

"Why, I can't see any possible harm in it," protested Mrs. Maynard.  "I suppose you don't exactly like my

going with Mr. Libby, and I know  that under some circumstances it would n't be quite the thing.  But  did n't I

tell you last night how he lived with us in Europe?  And  when  we were all coming over on the steamer

together Mr. Libby and Mr.  Maynard  were together the whole time, smoking and telling stories.  They were

the  greatest friends!  Why, it isn't as if he was a  stranger, or an enemy of  Mr. Maynard's." 

Grace dropped her sewing into her lap.  "Really, Louise, you're  incredible!"  She looked sternly at the invalid;

but broke into a  laugh,  on which Mrs. Maynard waited with a puzzled face.  As Grace  said nothing  more, she

helplessly resumed: 

"We did n't expect to go down the cliff when he first called in the  evening.  But he said he would help me up

again, andhe did, nicely.  I was n't exhausted a bit; and how I took more cold I can't  understand;  I was

wrapped up warmly.  I think I took the cold when I  was sitting  there after our game of croquet, with my shawl

off.  Don't  you think so?"  she wheedled. 

"Perhaps," said Grace. 

"He did nothing but talk about you, Grace," said Mrs. Maynard, with  a sly  look at the other.  "He's awfully

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"Louise," said the other, gravely ignoring these facts, "I never  undertook the care of you socially, and I object

very much to  lecturing  you.  You are nearly as old as I am, and you have had a  great deal more  experience of

life than I have."  Mrs. Maynard sighed  deeply in assent.  "But it does n't seem to have taught you that if you

will provoke people  to talk of you, you must expect criticism.  One  after another you've told  nearly every

woman in the house your  affairs, and they have all  sympathized with you and pitied you.  I  shall have to be

plain, and tell  you that I can't have them sneering  and laughing at any one who is my  guest.  I can't let you

defy public  opinion here." 

"Why, Grace," said Mrs. Maynard, buoyed above offence at her  friend's  words by her consciousness of the

point she was about to  make, "you defy  public opinion yourself a good deal more than I do,  every minute." 

"I?  How do I defy it?" demanded Grace indignantly. 

"By being a doctor." 

Grace opened her lips to speak, but she was not a ready person, and  she  felt the thrust.  Before she could say

anything Mrs. Maynard went  on:  "There isn't one of them that does n't think you're much more  scandalous

than if you were the greatest flirt alive.  But, I don't  mind them, and  why should you?" 

The serious girl whom she addressed was in that helpless subjection  to  the truth in which so many New

England women pass their lives.  She  could  not deny the truth which lurked in the exaggeration of these

words, and  it unnerved her, as the fact that she was doing what the  vast majority of  women considered

unwomanly always unnerved her when  she suffered herself  to think of it.  "You are right, Louise," she  said

meekly and sadly.  "They think as well of you as they do of me." 

"Yes, that's just what I said!" cried Mrs. Maynard, glad of her  successful argument. 

But however disabled, her friend resumed: "The only safe way for  you is  to take the ground that so long as

you wear your husband's name  you must  honor it, no matter how cruel and indifferent to you he has  been." 

"Yes," assented Mrs. Maynard ruefully, "of course." 

"I mean that you must n't even have the appearance of liking  admiration,  or what you call attentions.  It's

wicked." 

"I suppose so," murmured the culprit. 

"You have been brought up to have such different ideas of divorce  from  what I have," continued Grace, "that

I don't feel as if I had any  right  to advise you about what you are to do after you gain your  suit." 

"I shall not want to get married again for one while; I know that  much,"  Mrs. Maynard interpolated

selfrighteously. 

"But till you do gain it, you ought not to regard it as  emancipating you  in the slightest degree." 

"No," came in sad assent from the victim of the law's delays. 

"And I want you to promise me that you won't go walking with Mr.  Libby  any more; and that you won't even

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"Why, but Grace!" cried Mrs. Maynard, as much in amazement as in  annoyance.  "You don't seem to

understand!  Have n't I told you he was  a  friend of the family?  He's quite as much Mr. Maynard's friend as he

is  mine.  I'm sure," she added, "if I asked Mr. Libby, I should never  think  of getting divorced.  He's all for

George; and it's as much as I  can do  to put up with him." 

"No matter.  That does n't alter the appearance to people here.  I  don't  wish you to go with him alone any

more." 

"Well, Grace, I won't," said Mrs. Maynard earnestly.  "I won't,  indeed.  And that makes me think: he wanted

you to go along this  morning." 

"To go along?  Wanted me What are you talking about?" 

"Why, I suppose that's his boat, out there, now."  Mrs. Maynard  pointed  to a little craft just coming to anchor

inside the reef.  "He  said he  wanted me to take a sail with him, this morning; and he said  he would  come up

and ask you, too.  I do hope you'll go, Grace.  It's  just as  calm; and he always has a man with him to help sail

the boat,  so there  is n't the least danger."  Grace looked at her in silent  sorrow, and Mrs.  Maynard went on

with sympathetic seriousness: "Oh!  there's one thing I  want to ask you about, Grace: I don't like to have  any

concealments from  you."  Grace did not speak, but she permitted  Mrs. Maynard to proceed:  "Barlow

recommended it, and he's lived here a  great while.  His brother  took it, and he had the regular old New

England consumption.  I thought I  shouldn't like to try it without  your knowing it." 

"Try it?  What are you talking about, Louise?" 

"Why, whiskey with whitepine chips in it." 

Grace rose, and moved towards the door, with the things dropping  from her  lap.  One of these was a spool,

that rolled down the steps  and out upon  the sandy road.  She turned to pursue it, and recovered  it at the cost of

dropping her scissors and thimble out of opposite  sides of her skirt,  which she had gathered up apronwise to

hold her  work.  When she rose from  the complicated difficulty, in which Mrs.  Maynard had amiably lent her

aid, she confronted Mr. Libby, who was  coming towards them from the  cliff.  She gave him a stiff nod, and

attempted to move away; but in  turning round and about she had spun  herself into the folds of a stout  linen

thread escaping from its  spool.  These gyves not only bound her  skirts but involved her feet in  an

extraordinary mesh, which tightened at  the first step and brought  her to a standstill. 

Mrs. Maynard began to laugh and cough, as Mr. Libby came to her  friend's  help.  He got the spool in his hand,

and walked around her in  the  endeavor to free her; but in vain.  She extended him the scissors  with  the stern

passivity of a fate.  "Cut it," she commanded, and Mr.  Libby  knelt before her and obeyed.  "Thanks," she said,

taking back  the  scissors; and now she sat down again, and began deliberately to  put up  her work in her

handkerchief. 

"I 'll go out and get my things.  I won't be gone half a minute,  Mr.  Libby," said Mrs. Maynard, with her first

breath, as she vanished  indoors. 

Mr. Libby leaned against the post lately occupied by the factotum  in his  talk with Mrs. Maynard, and looked

down at Grace as she bent  over her  work.  If he wished to speak to her, and was wavering as to  the  appropriate

style of address for a handsome girl, who was at once  a young  lady and a physician, she spared him the agony

of a decision  by looking  up at him suddenly. 

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"I shall have to excuse myself," answered Grace, with a conscience  against saying she was sorry.  "I am a very

bad sailor." 

"Well, so am I, for that matter," said Mr. Libby.  "But it's smooth  as a  pond, today." 

Giice made no direct response, and he grew visibly uncomfortable  under  the cold abstraction of the gaze with

which she seemed to look  through  him.  "Mrs. Maynard tells me you came over with her from  Europe." 

'Oh yes!" cried the young man, the light of pleasant recollection  kindling in his gay eyes.  "We had a good

time.  Maynard was along:  he's  a firstrate fellow.  I wish he were here." 

"Yes," said Grace, "I wish so, too."  She did not know what to make  of  this frankness of the young man's, and

she did not know whether to  consider him very depraved or very innocent.  In her question she  continued to

stare at him, without being aware of the embarrassment to  which she was putting him. 

I heard of Mrs. Maynard's being here, and I thought I should find  him,  too.  I came over yesterday to get him

to go into the woods with  us." 

Grace decided that this was mere effrontery.  "It is a pity that he  is  not here," she said; and though it ought to

have been possible for  her to  go on and rebuke the young fellow for bestowing upon Mrs.  Maynard the

comradeship intended for her husband, it was not so.  She  could only look  severely at him, and trust that he

might conceive the  intention which she  could not express.  She rebelled against the  convention and against her

own weakness, which would not let her  boldly interfere in what she  believed a wrong; she had defied society,

in the mass, but here, with  this man, whom as an atom of the mass she  would have despised, she was

powerless. 

"Have you ever seen him?" Libby asked, perhaps clinging to Maynard  because he was a topic of conversation

in default of which there might  be  nothing to say. 

"No," answered Grace. 

"He 's funny.  He's got lots of that Western humor, and he tells a  story  better than any man I ever saw.  There

was one story of his"  "I have no sense of humor," interrupted Grace impatiently.  "Mr.  Libby,"  she broke

out, "I 'm sorry that you've asked Mrs. Maynard to  take a sail  with you.  The sea air"she reddened with the

shame of  not being able to  proceed without this wretched subterfuge"won't do  her any good." 

"Then," said the young man, "you must n't let her go." 

"I don't choose to forbid her," Grace began. 

"I beg your pardon," he broke in.  "I'll be back in a moment." 

He turned, and ran to the edge of the cliff, over which he  vanished, and  he did not reappear till Mrs. Maynard

had rejoined Grace  on the piazza. 

"I hope you won't mind its being a little rough, Mrs. Maynard," he  said,  breathing quickly.  "Adams thinks

we're going to have it pretty  fresh  before we get back." 

"Indeed, I don't want to go, then!" cried Mrs. Maynard, in petulant  disappointment, letting her wraps fall

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Mr. Libby looked at Grace, who haughtily rejected a part in the  conspiracy.  "I wish you to go, Louise," she

declared indignantly.  "I  will take the risk of all the harm that comes to you from the bad  weather."  She picked

up the shawls, and handed them to Mr. Libby, on  whom her eyes blazed their contempt and wonder.  It cost a

great deal  of  persuasion and insistence now to make Mrs. Maynard go, and he left  all  this to Grace, not

uttering a word till he gave Mrs. Maynard his  hand to  help her down the steps.  Then he said, "Well, I wonder

what  Miss Breen  does want." 

"I 'm sure I don't know," said the other.  "At first she did n't  want me  to go, this morning, and now she makes

me.  I do hope it is  n't going to  be a storm." 

"I don't believe it is.  A little fresh, perhaps.  I thought you  might be  seasick." 

"Don't you remember?  I'm never seasick!  That's one of the worst  signs." 

"Oh, yes." 

"If I could be thoroughly seasick once, it would be the best thing  I  could do." 

"Is she capricious?" asked Mr. Libby. 

"Grace?" cried Mrs. Maynard, releasing her hand halfway down the  steps,  in order to enjoy her

astonishment without limitation of any  sort.  "Grace capricious!" 

"Yes," said Mr. Libby, "that's what I thought.  Better take my hand  again," and he secured that of Mrs.

Maynard, who continued her  descent.  "I suppose I don't understand her exactly.  Perhaps she did  n't like my

not calling her Doctor.  I did n't call her anything.  I  suppose she  thought I was dodging it.  I was.  I should have

had to  call her Miss  Breen, if I called her anything." 

"She wouldn't have cared.  She is n't a doctor for the name of it." 

"I suppose you think it's a pity?" he asked. 

"What?" 

"Her being a doctor." 

"I'll tell her you say so." 

"No, don't.  But don't you?" 

"Well, I would n't want to be one," said Mrs. Mayward candidly. 

"I suppose it's all right, if she does it from a sense of duty, as  you  say," he suggested. 

"Oh, yes, she's all right.  And she's just as much of a girl as  anybody;  though she don't know it,"  Mrs.

Maynard added astutely.  "Why would n't  she come with us?  Were you afraid to ask her?" 

"She said she was n't a good sailor.  Perhaps she thought we were  too  young.  She must be older than you." 

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"She doesn't look old," returned Mr. Libby. 

"She's twentyeight.  How old are you?" 

"I promised the censustaker not to tell till his report came out." 

"What is the color of her hair?" 

"Brown." 

"And her eyes?" 

"I don't know!" 

"You had better look out, Mr. Libby!" said Mrs. Maynard, putting  her foot  on the ground at last. 

They walked across the beach to where his dory lay, and Grace saw  him  pulling out to the sail boat before she

went in from the piazza.  Then  she went to her mother's room.  The elderly lady was keeping  indoors,  upon a

theory that the dew was on, and that it was not  wholesome to go  out till it was off.  She asked, according to

her  habit when she met her  daughter alone, "Where is Mrs. Maynard?" 

"Why do you always ask that, mother?" retorted Grace, with her  growing  irritation in regard to her patient

intensified by the recent  interview.  "I can't be with her the whole time." 

"I wish you could," said Mrs. Breen, with noncommittal suggestion. 

Grace could not keep herself from demanding, "Why?" as her mother  expected, though she knew why too

well. 

"Because she wouldn't be in mischief then," returned Mrs. Breen. 

"She's in mischief now!" cried the girl vehemently; "and it's my  fault!  I did it.  I sent her off to sail with that

ridiculous Mr.  Libby!" 

"Why?" asked Mrs. Breen, in her turn, with unbroken tranquillity. 

"Because I am a, fool, and I couldn't help him lie out of his  engagement  with her." 

"Did n't he want to go?" 

"I don't know.  Yes.  They both wanted me to go with them.  Simpletons!  And while she had gone upstairs for

her wraps I managed  to make him  understand that I did n't wish her to go, either; and he  ran down to his  boat,

and came back with a story about its going to be  rough, and looked  at me perfectly delighted, as if I should be

pleased.  Of course, then, I  made him take her." 

"And is n't it going to be rough?" asked Mrs. Green. 

"Why, mother, the sea's like glass." 

Mrs. Breen turned the subject.  "You would have done better, Grace,  to  begin as you had planned.  Your going

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entirely liked in your taking up medicine.  There was sense in  that.  You had studied specially for it.  You could

have done good  there." 

"Oh, yes," sighed the girl, "I know.  But what was I to do, when  she came  to us, sick and poor?  I couldn't turn

my back on her,  especially after  always befriending her, as I used to, at school, and  getting her to  depend on

me." 

"I don't see how you ever liked her," said Mrs. Breen. 

"I never did like her.  I pitied her.  I always thought her a poor,  flimsy little thing.  But that ought n't to make

any difference, if  she  was in trouble." 

"No," Mrs. Breen conceded, and in compensation Grace admitted  something  more on her side: "She's worse

than she used to  be,sillier.  I don't  suppose she has a wrong thought; but she's as  light as foam." 

"Oh, it is n't the wicked people who, do the harm," said Mrs.  Green. 

"I was sure that this air would be everything for her; and so it  would,  with any ordinary case.  But a child

would take better care of  itself.  I have to watch her every minute, like a child; and I never  know what she  will

do next." 

"Yes; it's a burden," said Mrs. Breen, with a sympathy which she  had not  expressed before.  "And you're a

good girl, Grace," she added  in very  unwonted recognition. 

The grateful tears stole into the daughter's eyes, but she kept a  firm  face, even after they began to follow one

another down her  cheeks.  "And  if Louise had n't come, you know, mother, that I was  anxious to have some

older person with me when I went to Fall River.  I was glad to have this  respite; it gives me a chance to think.

I  felt a little timid about  beginning alone." 

"A man would n't," Mrs. Breen remarked. 

"No.  I am not a man.  I have accepted that; with all the rest.  I  don't  rebel against being a woman.  If I had been

a man, I should n't  have  studied medicine.  You know that.  I wished to be a physician  because I  was a woman,

and becausebecauseI had failed whereother  women's  hopes are."  She said it out firmly, and her

mother softened  to her in  proportion to the girl's own strength.  "I might have been  just a nurse.  You know I

should have been willing to be that, but I  thought I could be  something more.  But it's no use talking."  She

added, after an interval,  in which her mother rocked to and fro with a  gentle motion that searched  the joints of

her chair, and brought out  its most plaintive squeak in  pathetic iteration, and watched Grace, as  she sat

looking seaward through  the open window, "I think it's rather  hard, mother, that you should be  always talking

as if I wished to take  my calling mannishly.  All that I  intend is not to take it womanishly;  but as for not being

a woman about  it, or about anything, that's  simply impossible.  A woman is reminded of  her insufficiency to

herself every hour of the day.  And it's always a  man that comes to  her help.  I dropped some things out of my

lap down  there, and by the  time I had gathered them up I was wound round and round  with linen  thread so

that I could n't move a step, and Mr. Libby cut me  loose.  I  could have done it myself, but it seemed right and

natural that  he  should do it.  I dare say he plumed himself upon his service to me,  that would be natural,

too.  I have things enough to keep me meek,  mother!" 

She did not look round at Mrs. Breen, who said, "I think you are  morbid  about it." 

"Yes.  And I have the satisfaction of knowing that whatever people  think  of Louise's giddiness, I'm, a great

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women have n't done it, usually." 

"Now you are morbid." 

"Oh, yes!  Talk about men being obstacles!  It's other women!  There  isn't a woman in the house that would n't

sooner trust herself  in the  hands of the stupidest boy that got his diploma with me than  she would in  mine.

Louise knows it, and she feels that she has a  claim upon me in  being my patient.  And I 've no influence with

her  about her conduct  because she understands perfectly well that they all  consider me much  worse.  She

prides herself on doing me justice.  She  patronizes me.  She  tells me that I'm just as nice as, if I hadn't  'been

through all that.'"  Grace rose, and a laugh, which was half a  sob, broke from her. 

Mrs. Breen could not feel the humor of the predicament.  "She puts  you in  a false position." 

"I must go and see where that poor little wretch of a child is,"  said  Grace, going out of the room.  She returned

in an hour, and asked  her  mother for the arnica.  "Bella has had a bump," she explained. 

"Why, have you been all this time looking for her? 

"No, I couldn't find her, and I've been reading.  Barlow has just  brought  her in.  HE could find her.  She fell out

of a tree, and she's  frightfully bruised." 

She was making search on a closet shelf as she talked.  When she  reappeared with the bottle in her hand, her

mother asked, "Is n't it  very  hot and close?" 

"Very," said Grace. 

"I should certainly think they would perish," said Mrs. Breen,  hazarding  the pronoun, with a woman's

confidence that her interlocutor  would apply  it correctly. 

When Grace had seen Bella properly bathed and brownpapered, and in  the  way to forgetfulness of her

wounds in sleep, she came down to the  piazza,  and stood looking out to sea.  The ladies appeared one by one

over the  edge of the cliff, and came up, languidly stringing their  shawls after  them, or clasping their novels to

their bosoms. 

"There isn't a breath down there," they said, one after another.  The  last one added, "Barlow says it's the

hottest day he's ever seen  here." 

In a minute Barlow himself appeared at the head of the steps with  the  ladies' remaining wraps, and confirmed

their report in person.  "I  tell  you," he said, wiping his forehead, "it's a ripper." 

"It must be an awful day in town," said one of the ladies, fanning  herself with a newspaper. 

"Is that today's Advertiser, Mrs. Alger?" asked another. 

"Oh, dear, no! yesterday's.  We sha'n't have today's till this  afternoon.  It shows what a new arrival you are,

Mrs. Scottyour  asking." 

"To be sure.  But it's such a comfort being where you can see the  Advertiser the same morning.  I always look

at the Weather Report the  first thing.  I like to know what the weather is going to be." 

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"Well," Barlow interposed, jealous for Jocelyn's, "you can most  al'ays  tell by the look o' things." 

"Yes," said one of the ladies; "but I'd rather trust the Weather  Report.  It's wonderful how it comes true.  I don't

think there 's  anything that  you miss more in Europe than our American Weather  Report." 

"I'm sure you miss the oysters," said another. 

"Yes," the first admitted, "you do miss the oysters.  It was the  last of  the R months when we landed in New

York; and do you know what  we did the  first thing?  We drove to Fulton Market, and had one of  those

Fulton  Market broils!  My husband said we should have had it if  it had been  July.  He used to dream of the

American oysters when we  were in Europe.  Gentlemen are so fond of them." 

Barlow, from scanning the heavens, turned round and faced the  company,  which had drooped in several

attitudes of exhaustion on the  benching of  the piazza.  "Well, I can most al'ays tell about Jocelyn's  as good as

the  Weather Report.  I told Mrs. Maynard here this mornin'  that the fog was  goin' to burn off." 

"Burn off?" cried Mrs. Alger.  "I should think it had!" The other  ladies  laughed. 

"And you'll see," added Barlow, "that the wind 'll change at noon,  and  we'll have it cooler." 

"If it's as hot on the water as it is here," said Mrs. Scott, "I  should  think those people would get a sunstroke." 

"Well, so should I, Mrs. Scott," cordially exclaimed a little fat  lady,  as if here at last were an opinion in which

all might rejoice to  sympathize. 

"It's never so hot on the water, Mrs. Merritt," said Mrs. Alger,  with the  instructiveness of an old habitude. 

"Well, not at Jocelyn's," suggested Barlow.  Mrs. Alger stopped  fanning  herself with her newspaper, and

looked at him.  Upon her  motion, the  other ladies looked at Barlow.  Doubtless he felt that his  social

acceptability had ceased with his immediate usefulness.  But he  appeared  resolved to carry it off easily.

"Well," he said, "I suppose  I must go  and pick my peas." 

No one said anything to this.  When the factotum had disappeared  round  the corner of the house, Mrs. Alger

turned her head' aside, and  glanced  downward with an air of fatigue.  In this manner Barlow was  dismissed

from the ladies' minds. 

"I presume," said young Mrs. Scott, with a deferential glance at  Grace,  "that the sun is good for a person with

lungdifficulty." 

Grace silently refused to consider herself appealed to, and Mrs.  Merritt  said, "Better than the moon, I should

think." 

Some of the others tittered, but Grace looked up at Mrs. Merritt  and  said, "I don't think Mrs. Maynard's case

is so bad that she need  be  afraid of either." 

"Oh, I am so glad to hear it!" replied the other.  She looked  round, but  was unable to form a party.  By twos or

threes they might  have liked to  take Mrs. Maynard to pieces; but no one cares to make  unkind remarks  before

a whole company of people.  Some of the ladies  even began to say  pleasant things about Mr. Libby, as if he

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"I always like to see these fair men when they get tanned," said  Mrs.  Alger.  "Their blue eyes look so very

blue.  And the backs of  their  necksjust like my boys!" 

"Do you admire such a VERY fightingclip as Mr. Libby has on?"  asked Mrs. Scott. 

"It must be nice for summer," returned the elder lady. 

"Yes, it certainly must," admitted the younger. 

"Really," said another, "I wish I could go in the fightingclip.  One  does n't know what to do with one's hair at

the seaside; it's  always in  the way." 

"Your hair would be a public loss, Mrs. Frost," said Mrs. Alger.  The  others looked at her hair, as if they had

seen it now for the  first time. 

"Oh, I don't think so," said Mrs. Frost, in a sort of flattered  coo. 

"Oh, don't have it cut off!" pleaded a young girl, coming up and  taking  the beautiful mane, hanging loose

after the bath, into her  hand.  Mrs.  Frost put her arm round the girl's waist, and pulled her  down against her

shoulder.  Upon reflection she also kissed her. 

Through a superstition, handed down from mother to daughter, that  it is  uncivil and even unkind not to keep

saying something, they went  on  talking vapidities, where the same number of men, equally vacuous,  would

have remained silent; and some of them complained that the  nervous strain  of conversation took away all the

good their bath had  done them.  Miss  Gleason, who did not bathe, was also not a talker.  She kept a bright

eyed reticence, but was apt to break out in rather  enigmatical flashes,  which resolved the matter in hand into

an  abstraction, and left the  others with the feeling that she was a  person of advanced ideas, but  that, while

rejecting historical  Christianity, she believed in a God of  Love.  This Deity was said,  upon closer analysis, to

have proved to be a  God of Sentiment, and  Miss Gleason was herself a heroworshiper, or, more  strictly

speaking,  a heroineworshiper.  At present Dr. Breen was her  cult, and she was  apt to lie in wait for her idol,

to beam upon it with  her suggestive  eyes, and evidently to expect it to say or do something  remarkable,  but

not to suffer anything like disillusion or disappointment  in any  event.  She would sometimes offer it suddenly

a muddled depth of  sympathy in such phrases as, "Too bad!" or, "I don't see how you keep  up?" and darkly

insinuate that she appreciated all that Grace was  doing.  She seemed to rejoice in keeping herself at a

respectful  distance, to  which she breathlessly retired, as she did now, after  waylaying her at  the top of the

stairs, and confidentially darting at  her the words, "I'm  so glad you don't like scandal!" 

III.

After dinner the ladies tried to get a nap, but such of them as re  appeared on the piazza later agreed that it

was perfectly useless.  They  tested every corner for a breeze, but the wind had fallen dead,  and the  vast sweep

of sea seemed to smoulder under the sun.  "This is  what Mr.  Barlow calls having it cooler," said Mrs. Alger. 

"There are some clouds that look like thunderheads in the west,"  said  Mrs. Frost, returning from an excursion

to the part of the piazza  commanding that quarter. 

"Oh, it won't rain today," Mrs. Alger decided. 

"I thought there was always a breeze at Jocelyn's," Mrs. Scott  observed,  in the critical spirit of a recent

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"There always is," the other explained, "except the first week  you're  here." 

A little breath, scarcely more than a sentiment of breeze, made  itself  felt.  "I do believe the wind has

changed," said Mrs. Frost.  "It's  east."  The others owned one by one that it was so, and she  enjoyed the  merit

of a discoverer; but her discovery was rapidly  superseded.  The  clouds mounted in the west, and there came a

time  when the ladies  disputed whether they had heard thunder or not: a  faction contended for  the bowling

alley, and another faction held for  a wagon passing over the  bridge just before you reached Jocelyn's.  But

those who were faithful to  the theory of thunder carried the day  by a sudden crash that broke over  the forest,

and, dying slowly away  among the low hills, left them deeply  silent. 

"Some one," said Mrs. Alger, "ought to go for those children."  On  this  it appeared that there were two minds

as to where the children  were,  whether on the beach or in the woods. 

"Was n't that thunder, Grace?" asked Mrs. Breen, with the accent by  which  she implicated her daughter in

whatever happened. 

"Yes," said Grace, from where she sat at her window, looking  seaward, and  waiting tremulously for her

mother's next question. 

"Where is Mrs. Maynard?" 

"She is n't back, yet." 

"Then," said Mrs. Breen, "he really did expect rough weather." 

"He must," returned Grace, in a guilty whisper. 

"It's a pity," remarked her mother, "that you made them go." 

"Yes."  She rose, and, stretching herself far out of the window,  searched  the inexorable expanse of sea.  It had

already darkened at  the verge, and  the sails of some fishingcraft flecked a livid wall  with their white,  but

there was no small boat in sight. 

"If anything happened to them," her mother continued, "I should  feel  terribly for you." 

"I should feel terribly for myself," Grace responded, with her eyes  still  seaward. 

"Where do you think they went?" 

"I did n't ask," said the girl.  "I wouldn't," she added, in  devotion to  the whole truth. 

"Well, it is all of the same piece," said Mrs. Breen.  Grace did  not ask  what the piece was.  She remained

staring at the dark wall  across the  sea, and spiritually confronting her own responsibility, no  atom of which

she rejected.  She held herself in every way  responsible,for doubting  that poor young fellow's word, and

then for  forcing that reluctant  creature to go with him, and forbidding by her  fierce insistence any  attempt of

his at explanation; she condemned  herself to perpetual remorse  with even greater zeal than her mother  would

have sentenced her, and she  would not permit herself any respite  when a little sail, which she knew  for theirs,

blew round the point.  It seemed to fly along just on the  hither side of that mural  darkness, skilfully tacking to

reach the end of  thereef before the  wall pushed it on the rocks.  Suddenly, the long low  stretch of the  reef

broke into white foam, and then passed from sight  under the black  wall, against which the little sail still

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and to her ignorance they were safe.  But the  rain would  be coming in another moment, and Mrs. Maynard

would be  drenched; and  Grace would be to blame for her death.  She ran to the  closet, and  pulled down her

mother's Indiarubber cloak and her own, and  fled  outofdoors, to be ready on the beach with the wrap,

against their  landing.  She met the other ladies on the stairs and in the hall, and  they clamored at her; but she

glided through them like something in a  dream, and then she heard a shouting in her ear, and felt herself

caught  and held up against the wind. 

"Where in land be you goin', Miss Breen?" 

Barlow, in a long, yellow oilskin coat and sou'wester hat, kept  pushing  her forward to the edge of the cliff,

as he asked. 

"I'm going down to meet them!" she screamed. 

"Well, I hope you WILL meet 'em.  But I guess you better go back to  the  house.  Hey?  WUNT?  Well; come

along, then, if they ain't past  doctorin'  by the time they git ashore!  Pretty well wrapped up, any  way!" he

roared; and she perceived that she had put on her waterproof  and drawn  the hood over her head. 

Those steps to the beach had made her giddy when she descended with  leisure for such dismay; but now, with

the tempest flattening her  against  the staircase, and her gossamer clutching and clinging to  everysurface,

and again twisting itself about her limbs, she clambered  down as swiftly  and recklessly as Barlow himself,

and followed over  the beach beside the  men who were pulling a boat down the sand at a  run. 

"Let me get in!" she screamed.  "I wish to go with you!" 

"Take hold of the girl, Barlow!" shouted one of the men.  "She's  crazy." 

He tumbled himself with four others into the boat, and they all  struck  out together through the froth and swirl

of the waves.  She  tried to free  herself from Barlow, so as to fling the waterproof into  the boat.  "Take  this,

then.  She'll be soaked through!" 

Barlow broke into a grim laugh.  "She won't need it, except for a  windin'sheet!" he roared.  "Don't you see the

boat's drivin' right on  t'  the sand?  She'll be kindlin' wood in a minute." 

"But they're inside the reef!  They can come to anchor!" she  shrieked in  reply.  He answered her with a

despairing grin and a shake  of the head.  "They can't.  What has your boat gone out for, then?" 

"To pick 'em up out the sea.  But they'll never git 'em alive.  Look how  she slaps her boom int' the water!  Well!

He DOES know how  to handle a  boat!" 

It was Libby at the helm, as she could dimly see, but what it was  in his  management that moved Barlow's

praise she could not divine.  The boat  seemed to be aimed for the shore, and to be rushing, head  on, upon the

beach; her broad sail was blown straight out over her  bow, and flapped  there like a banner, while the heavy

boom hammered  the water as she rose  and fell.  A jagged line of red seamed the  breast of the dark wall

behind; a rending crash came, and as if fired  upon, the boat flung up her  sail, as a wild fowl flings up its wing

when shot, and lay tossing keel  up, on the top of the waves.  It all  looked scarcely a stone's cast away,  though

it was vastly farther.  A  figure was seen to drag itself up out of  the sea, and fall over into  the boat, hovering

and pitching in the  surrounding welter, and  struggling to get at two other figures clinging  to the wreck.

Suddenly the men in the boat pulled away, and Grace  uttered a cry of  despair and reproach: "Why, they're

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"Don't expect 'em to tow the wreck ashore in this weather, do ye?"  shouted Barlow.  "They've got the folks all

safe enough.  I tell ye I  see  'em!" he cried, at a wild look of doubt in.  her eyes.  "Run to  the  house, there, and

get everything in applepie order.  There's  goin' to be  a chance for some of your doctor'n',now, if ye know

how to  fetch folks  to." 

It was the little house on the beach, which the children were  always  prying and peering into, trying the lock,

and wondering what  the boat was  like, which Grace had seen launched.  Now the door  yielded to her, and

within she found a fire kindled in the stove,  blankets laid in order, and  flasks of brandy in readiness in the

cupboard.  She put the blankets to  heat for instant use, and prepared  for the work of resuscitation.  When  she

could turn from them to the  door, she met there a procession that  approached with difficulty,  heads down and

hustled by the furious blast  through which the rain now  hissed and shot.  Barlow and one of the boat's  crew

were carrying Mrs.  Maynard,and bringing up the rear of the huddling  oilskins and  sou'westers came Libby,

soaked, and dripping as he walked.  His eyes  and Grace's encountered with a mutual avoidance; but whatever

was  their sense of blame, their victim had no reproaches to make herself.  She was not in need of restoration.

She was perfectly alive, and  apparently stimulated by her escape from deadly peril to a vivid  conception of

the wrong that had been done her.  If the adventure had  passed off prosperously, she was the sort of woman to

have owned to  her  friend that she ought not to have thought of going.  But the event  had  obliterated these

scruples, and she realized herself as a hapless  creature who had been thrust on to dangers from which she

would have  shrunk.  "Well, Grace!" she began, with a voice arid look before which  the other quailed, "I hope

you are satisfied!  All the time I was  clinging to that wretched boat.  I was wondering how you would feel.

Yes, my last thoughts were of you.  I pitied you.  I did n't see how  you  could ever have peace again." 

"Hold on, Mrs. Maynard!" cried Libby.  "There's no, time for that,  now.  What had best be done, Miss Green?

Had n't she better be got up  to the  house?" 

"Yes, by all means," answered Grace. 

"You might as well let me die here," Mrs. Maynard protested, as  Grace  wrapped the blankets round her

dripping dress.  "I 'm as wet as  I can be,  now." 

Libby began to laugh at these inconsequences, to which he was  probably  well used.  "You would n't have time

to die here.  And we  want to give  this hydropathic treatment a fair trial.  You've tried  the douche, and  now

you're to have the pack."  He summoned two of the  boatmen, who had  been considerately dripping outside, in

order to  leave the interior to  the shipwrecked company, and they lifted Mrs.  Maynard, finally wrapped  in,

Grace's Indiarubber cloak, and looking  like some sort of strange,  huge chrysalis, and carried her out into  the

storm and up the steps. 

Grace followed last with Mr. Libby, very heavyhearted and reckless.  She  had not only that sore selfaccusal;

but the degradation of the  affair,  its grotesqueness, its spiritual squalor, its utter  gracelessness, its  entire want

of dignity, were bitter as death in her  proud soul.  It was  not in this shameful guise that she had foreseen  the

good she was to do.  And it had all come through her own wilfulness  and selfrighteousness.  The tears could

mix unseen with the rain that  drenched her face, but they  blinded her, and halfway up the steps she  stumbled

on her skirt, and  would have fallen, if the young man had not  caught her.  After that, from  time to time he put

his arm about her,  and stayed her against the gusts. 

Before they reached the top he said, "Miss Breen, I'm awfully sorry  for  all this.  Mrs. Maynard will be

ashamed of what she said.  Confound it!  If Maynard were only here!"  "Why should she be  ashamed?"

demanded Grace.  "If she had been drowned,  I should have  murdered her, and I'm responsible if anything

happens to  her,I am to  blame."  She escaped from him, and ran into the house.  He  slunk round  the piazza to

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"I wonder he let the others carry her up," said Miss Gleason. "Of  course,  he will marry her now,when she

gets her divorce."  She spoke  of Mrs.  Maynard, whom her universal toleration not only included in  the mercy

which the opinions of the other ladies denied her, but round  whom her  romance cast a halo of pretty

possibilities as innocently  sentimental as  the hopes of a young girl. 

IV.

The next morning Grace was sitting beside her patient, with whom  she had  spent the night.  It was possibly

Mrs. Maynard's spiritual  toughness  which availed her, for she did not seem much the worse for  her

adventure:  she had a little fever, and she was slightly hoarser;  but she had died  none of the deaths that she

projected during the  watches of the night,  and for which she had chastened the spirit of  her physician by the

repeated assurance that she forgave her  everything, and George Maynard  everything, and hoped that they

would  be good to her poor little Bella.  She had the child brought from its  crib to her own bed, and moaned

over  it; but with the return of day  and the duties of life she appeared to  feel that she had carried her

forgiveness far enough, and was again  remembering her injuries against  Grace, as she lay in her morning

gown on  the lounge which had been  brought in for her from the parlor. 

"Yes, Grace, I shall always say if I had died and I may die  yetthat I  did not wish to go out with Mr. Libby,

and that I went  purely to please  you.  You forced me to go.  I can't understand why  you did it; for I  don't

suppose you wanted to kill us, whatever you  did." 

Grace could not lift her head.  She bowed it over the little girl  whom  she had on her knee, and who was

playing with the pin at her  throat, in  apparent unconsciousness of all that was said.  But she had  really

followed it, with glimpses of intelligence, as children do, and  now at  this negative accusal she lifted her hand,

and suddenly struck  Grace a  stinging blow on the cheek. 

Mrs. Maynard sprang from her lounge.  "Why, Bella! you worthless  little  wretch!"  She caught her from

Grace's knee, and shook her  violently.  Then, casting the culprit from her at random, she flung  herself down

again in a fit of coughing, while the child fled to Grace  for  consolation, and, wildly sobbing, buried her face

in the lap of  her  injured friend. 

"I don't know what I shall do about that child!" cried Mrs.  Maynard.  "She has George Maynard's temper right

over again.  I feel  dreadfully,  Grace!" 

"Oh, never mind it," said Grace, fondling the child, and half  addressing  it.  "I suppose Bella thought I had

been unkind to her  mother." 

"That's just it!" exclaimed Louise.  "When you've been kindness  itself!  Don't I owe everything to you?  I

should n't be alive at this  moment if  it were not for your treatment.  Oh, Grace!"  She began to  cough again;  the

paroxysm increased in vehemence.  She caught her  handkerchief from  her lips; it was spotted with blood.  She

sprang to  her feet, and  regarded it with impersonal sternness.  "Now," she said,  "I am sick, and  I want a

doctor!" 

"A doctor," Grace meekly echoed. 

"Yes.  I can't be trifled with any longer.  I want a man doctor!" 

Grace had looked at the handkerchief.  "Very well," she said, with  coldness.  "I shall not stand in your way of

calling another  physician.  But if it will console you, I can tell you that the blood  on your  handkerchief means

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your friend  still, and I will do anything I can to help you." 

"Oh, Grace Breen!  Is that the way you talk to me?" whimpered Mrs.  Maynard.  "You know that I don't mean

to give you up.  I'm not a  stone;  I have some feeling.  I did n't intend to dismiss you, but I  thought  perhaps you

would like to have a consultation about it.  I  should think  it was time to have a consultation, should n't you?

Of  course, I'm not  alarmed, but I know it's getting serious, and I'm  afraid that your  medicine is n't active

enough.  That's it; it's  perfectly good medicine,  but it is n't active.  They've all been  saying that I ought to have

something active.  Why not try the whiskey  with the whitepine chips in  it?  I'm sure it's indicated."  In her

long course of medication she had  picked up certain professional  phrases, which she used with amusing

seriousness.  "It would be  active, at any rate." 

Grace did not reply.  As she stood smoothing the head of the little  girl,  who had followed her to the door, and

now leaned against her,  hiding her  tearful face in Grace's dress, she said, "I don't know of  any  homoeopathic

physician in this neighborhood.  I don't believe  there's one  nearer than Boston, and I should make myself

ridiculous in  calling one so  far for a consultation.  But I'm quite willing you  should call one, and I  will send

for you at once." 

"And wouldn't you consult with him, after he came?" 

"Certainly not.  It would be absurd." 

"I shouldn't like to have a doctor come all the way from Boston,"  mused  Mrs. Maynard, sinking on the lounge

again.  "There must be a  doctor in  the neighborhood.  It can't be so healthy as that!" 

"There's an allopathic physician at Corbitant," said Grace  passively.  "A very good one, I believe," she added. 

"Oh, well, then!" cried Mrs. Maynard, with immense relief.  "Consult with  him!" 

"I've told you, Louise, that I would not consult with anybody.  And  I  certainly wouldn't consult with a

physician whose ideas and  principles I  knew nothing about." 

"Why but, Grace," Mrs. Maynard expostulated.  "Is n't that rather  prejudiced?"  She began to take an impartial

interest in Grace's  position, and fell into an argumentative tone.  "If two heads are  better  than one,and

everybody says they are,I don't see how you  can  consistently refuse to talk with another physician." 

"I can't explain to you, Louise," said Grace.  "But you can call  Dr.  Mulbridge, if you wish.  That will be the

right way for you to do,  if you  have lost confidence in me." 

"I have n't lost confidence in you, Grace.  I don't see how you can  talk  so.  You can give me bread pills, if you

like, or air pills, and  I will  take them gladly.  I believe in you perfectly.  But I do think  that in a  matter of this

kind, where my health, and perhaps my life,  is concerned,  I ought to have a little say.  I don't ask you to give

up your  principles, and I don't dream of giving you up, and yet you  won't just to  please me!exchange a few

words with another doctor  about my case,  merely because he's allopathic.  I should call it  bigotry, and I don't

see how you can call it anything else."  There  was a sound of voices at  the door outside, and she called

cheerily,  "Come in, Mr. Libby,come in!  There's nobody but Grace here," she  added, as the young man

tentatively  opened the door, and looked in.  He wore an evening dress, even to the  white cravat, and he carried

in  his hand a crush hat: there was something  anomalous in his appearance,  beyond the phenomenal character

of his  costume, and he blushed  consciously as he bowed to Grace, and then at her  motion shook hands  with

her.  Mrs. Maynard did not give herself the  fatigue of rising;  she stretched her hand to him from the lounge,

and he  took it without  the joy which he had shown when Grace made him the same  advance.  "How  very

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glance of  greater  intensity, "Why, what in the world has come over' you?" It was  the  dress which Mr. Libby

wore.  He was a young fellow far too well made,  and carried himself too alertly, to look as if any clothes

misfitted  him;  his person gave their good cut elegance, but he had the effect of  having  fallen away in them.

"Why, you look as if you had been sick a  month!"  Mrs. Maynard interpreted. 

The young man surveyed himself with a downward glance.  "They're  Johnson's," he explained.  "He had them

down for a hop at the Long  Beach  House, and sent over for them.  I had nothing but my camping  flannels,  and

they have n't been got into shape yet, since yesterday.  I wanted to  come over and see how you were." 

"Poor fellow!" exclaimed Mrs. Maynard.  "I never thought of you!  How in  the world did you get to your

camp?" 

"I walked." 

"In all that rain?" 

"Well, I had been pretty well sprinkled, already.  It was n't a  question  of wet and dry; it was a question of wet

and wet.  I was  going off  bareheaded, I lost my hat in the water, you know,but your  man, here,  hailed me

round the corner of the kitchen, and lent me one.  I've been  taking up collections of clothes ever since." 

Mr. Libby spoke lightly, and with a cry of "Barlow's hat!" Mrs.  Maynard  went off in a shriek of laughter; but

a deep distress kept  Grace silent.  It seemed to her that she had been lacking not only in  thoughtfulness,  but in

common humanity, in suffering him to walk away  several miles in  the rain, without making an offer to keep

him and  have him provided for  in the house.  She remembered now her bewildered  impression that he was

without a hat when he climbed the stairs and  helped her to the house;  she recalled the fact that she had thrust

him  on to the danger he had  escaped, and her heart was melted with grief  and shame.  "Mr. Libby"  she

began, going up to him, and drooping  before him in an attitude which  simply and frankly expressed the

contrition she felt; but she could not  continue.  Mrs. Maynard's laugh  broke into the usual cough, and as soon

as she could speak she seized  the word. 

"Well, there, now; we can leave it to Mr. Libby.  It's the  principle of  the thing that I look at.  And I want to see

how it  strikes him.  I want  to know, Mr. Libby, if you were a doctor,"he  looked at Grace, and  flushed,

"and a person was very sick, and  wanted you to consult with  another doctor, whether you would let the

mere fact that you had n't been  introduced have any weight with you?"  The young man silently appealed to

Grace, who darkened angrily, and  before he could speak Mrs. Maynard  interposed.  "No, no, you sha'n't  ask

her.  I want your opinion.  It's  just an abstract question."  She  accounted for this fib with a wink at  Grace. 

"Really," he said, "it's rather formidable.  I've never been a  doctor of  any kind." 

"Oh, yes, we know that!" said Mrs. Maynard.  "But you are now, and  now  would you do it?" 

"If the other fellow knew more, I would." 

"But if you thought he did n't?" 

"Then I wouldn't.  What are you trying to get at, Mrs. Maynard?  I'm not  going to answer any more of your

questions." 

"Yes,one more.  Don't you think it's a doctor's place to get his  patient well any way he can?" 

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"There, Grace!  It's just exactly the same case.  And ninetynine  out of  a hundred would decide against you

every time." 

Libby turned towards Grace in confusion.  "Miss BreenI did n't  understandI don't presume to meddle in

anythingYou're not fair,  Mrs.  Maynard !  I have n't any opinion on the subject, Miss Breen; I  haven't,

indeed!" 

"Oh, you can't back out, now!" exclaimed Mrs. Maynard joyously.  "You've  said it." 

"And you're quite right, Mr. Libby," said Grace haughtily.  She  bade him  goodmorning; but he followed her

from the room, and left  Mrs. Maynard to  her triumph. 

"Miss BreenDo let me speak to you, please!  Upon my word and  honor, I  didn't know what she was driving

at; I did n't, indeed!  It's  pretty  rough on me, for I never dreamt of setting myself up as a judge  of your  affairs.

I know you're right, whatever you think; and I take  it all  back; it was got out of me by fraud, any way.  And I

beg your  pardon for  not calling you Doctorif you want me to do it.  The other  comes more  natural; but I

wish to recognize you in the way you prefer,  for I do feel  most respectulreverent" 

He was so very earnest and so really troubled, and he stumbled  about so  for the right word, and hit upon the

wrong one with such  unfailing  disaster, that she must have been superhuman not to laugh.  Her laughing

seemed to relieve him even more than her hearty speech.  "Call me how you  like, Mr. Libby.  I don't insist

upon anything with  you; but I believe I  prefer Miss Breen." 

"You're very kind!  Miss Breen it is, then.  And you'll, forgive my  siding against you?" he demanded radiantly. 

"Don't speak of that again, please.  I've nothing to forgive you." 

They walked downstairs and out on the piazza.  Barlow stood before  the  steps, holding by the bit a fine bay

mare, who twitched her head  round a  little at the sound of Libby's voice, and gave him a look.  He  passed

without noticing the horse.  "I'm glad to find Mrs. Maynard so  well.  With that cold of hers, hanging on so

long, I didn't know but  she'd be in  an awful state this morning." 

"Yes," said Grace, "it's a miraculous escape." 

"The fact is I sent over to New Leyden for my team yesterday.  I  did n't  know how things might turn out, and

you're so far from a lemon  here, that  I thought I might be useful in going errands." 

Grace turned her head and glanced at the equipage.  "Is that your  team?" 

"Yes," said the young fellow, with a smile of suppressed pride. 

"What an exquisite creature!" said the girl. 

"ISN'T she?"  They both faced about, and stood looking at the mare,  and  the light, shining, open buggy behind

her.  The sunshine had the  after  storm glister; the air was brisk, and the breeze blew balm from  the heart  of

the pine forest.  "Miss Breen," he broke out, "I wish  you'd take a  little dash through the woods with me.  I've

got a  broadtrack buggy,  that's just right for these roads.  I don't suppose  it's the thing at all  to ask you, on

such short acquaintance, but I  wish you would.  I know  you'd enjoy it: Come?" 

His joyous urgence gave her a strange thrill.  She had long ceased  to  imagine herself the possible subject of

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the frank, eager boyishness of the invitation that  fascinated her, and the sunny face turned so hopefully upon

her had  its  amusing eloquence.  She looked about the place with an anxiety of  which  she was immediately

ashamed: all the ladies were out of sight,  and  probably at the foot of the cliff. 

"Don't say no, Miss Breen," pleaded the gay voice. 

The answer seemed to come of itself.  "Oh, thank you, yes, I should  like  to go." 

"Good!" he exclaimed, and the word which riveted her consent made  her  recoil. 

"But not this morning.  Some other day.  III want to think  about Mrs.  Maynard.  Iought n't to leave her.

Excuse me this  morning, Mr. Libby." 

"Why, of course," he tried to say with unaltered gayety, but a note  of  disappointment made itself felt.  "Do

you think she's going to be  worse?" 

"No, I don't think she is.  But" She paused, and waited a space  before  she continued.  "I 'm afraid I can't be

of use to her any  longer.  She  has lost confidence in me It's important she should  trust her  physician."  Libby

blushed, as he always did when required  to recognize  Grace in her professional quality.  "It's more a matter  of

nerves than  anything else, and if she does n't believe in me I  can't do her any  good." 

"Yes, I can understand that," said the young man, with gentle  sympathy;  and she felt, somehow, that he

delicately refrained from any  leading or  prompting comment. 

"She has been urging me to have a consultation with some doctor  about her  case, and Iit would be

ridiculous!" 

"Then I would n't do it!" said Mr. Libby.  "You know a great deal  better  what she wants than she does.  You

had better make her, do what  you say." 

"I didn't mean to burden you with my affairs," said Grace, "but I  wished  to explain her motive in speaking to

you as she did."  After  she had said  this, it seemed to her rather weak, and she could not  think of anything  else

that would strengthen it.  The young man might  think that she had  asked advice of him.  She began to resent

his  telling her to make Mrs.  Maynard do what she said.  She was about to  add something to snub him,  when

she recollected that it was her own  wilfulness which had  precipitated the present situation, and she  humbled

herself. 

"She will probably change her mind," said Libby.  "She would if you  could  let her carry her point," he added,

with a light esteem for Mrs.  Maynard  which set him wrong again in Grace's eyes: he had no business  to speak

so  to her. 

"Very likely," she said, in stiff withdrawal from all terms of  confidence  concerning Mrs. Maynard.  She did

not add anything more,  and she meant  that the young fellow should perceive that his, audience  was at an end.

He did not apparently resent it, but she fancied him  hurt in his  acquiescence. 

She went back to her patient, whom she found languid and disposed  to  sleep after the recent excitement, and

she left her again, taking  little  Bella with her.  Mrs. Maynard slept long, but woke none the  better for  her nap.

Towards evening she grew feverish, and her fever  mounted as the  night fell.  She was restless and wakeful,

and between  her dreamy dozes  she was incessant in her hints for a consultation to  Grace, who passed  the

night in her room, and watched every change for  the worse with a  selfaccusing heart.  The impending trouble

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inexperienced girl; whose knowledge was all  to be applied, and who had  hardly arrived yet at that dismaying

stage  when a young physician finds  all the results at war with all the  precepts, began to realize the  awfulness

of her responsibility.  She  had always thought of saving life,  and not of losing it. 

V.

By morning Grace was as nervous and anxious as her patient, who had  momentarily the advantage of her in

having fallen asleep.  She went  stealthily out, and walked the length of the piazza, bathing her eyes  with the

sight of the sea, cool and dim under a clouded sky.  At the  corner next the kitchen she encountered Barlow,

who, having kindled  the  fire for the cook, had spent s moment of leisure in killing some  chickens  at the barn;

he appeared with a cluster of his victims in his  hand, but  at sight of Grace he considerately put them behind

him. 

She had not noticed them.  "Mr. Barlow," she said, "how far is it  to  Corbitant?" 

Barlow slouched into a conversational posture, easily resting on  his  raised hip the back of the hand in which

he held the chickens.  "Well,  it 's accordin' to who you ask.  Some says six mile, and real  clever  folks makes it

about four and a quarter." 

"I ask you," persisted Grace. 

"Well, the last time I was there, I thought it was about sixty.  'Most  froze my fingers goin' round the point.  'N'

all I was afraid  of was  gettin' there too soon.  Tell you, a lee shore ain't a pleasant  neighbor  in a regular old

northeaster.  'F you go by land, I guess  it's about ten  mile round through the woods.  Want to send for Dr.

Mulbridge?  I thought  mebbe" 

"No, no!" said Grace.  She turned back into the house, and then she  came  running out again; but by this time

Barlow had gone into the  kitchen,  where she heard him telling the cook that these were the last  of the

dommyneckers.  At breakfast several of the ladies came and  asked after  Mrs. Maynard, whese restless night

they had somehow heard  of.  When she  came out of the diningroom' Miss Gleason waylaid her in  the hall. 

"Dr. Breen," she said, in a repressed tumult, "I hope you won't  give way.  For woman's sake, I hope you

won't!  You owe it to yourself  not to give  way!  I'm sure Mrs. Maynard is as well off in your hands  as she can

be.  If I did n't think so, I should be the last to advise  your being firm;  but, feeling as I do, I do advise it most

strongly.  Everything depends  on it." 

"I don't know what you mean, Miss Gleason," said Grace. 

"I'm glad it hasn't come to you yet.  If it was a question of mere  professional pride, I should say, By all means

call him at once.  But  I  feel that a great deal more is involved.  If you yield, you make it  harder for other

women to help themselves hereafter, and you confirm  such  people as these in their distrust of female

physicians.  Looking  at it in  a large way, I almost feel that it would be better for her to  die than  for you to give

up; and feeling as I do" 

"Are you talking of Mrs. Maynard?" asked Grace. 

"They are all saying that you ought to give up the case to Dr.  Mulbridge.  But I hope you won't.  I should n't

blame you for calling  in another  female physician"  "Thank you," answered Grace.  "There  is no danger of

her dying.  But it  seems to me that she has too many  female physicians already.  In this  house I should think it

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room, who  avenged Miss Gleason by a  series of inquisitional tortures, ending with  the hope that, whatever

she did, Grace would not have that silly  creature's blood on her  hands.  The girl opened her lips to attempt

some  answer to this  unanswerable aspiration, when the unwonted sound of wheels  on the road  without caught

her ear. 

"What is that, Grace?" demanded her mother, as if Grace were guilty  of  the noise. 

"Mr. Libby," answered Grace, rising. 

"Has he come for you?" 

"I don't know.  But I am going down to see him." 

At sight of the young man's face, Grace felt her heart lighten.  He  had  jumped from his buggy, and was

standing at his smiling ease on the  piazza  steps, looking about as if for some one, and he brightened  joyfully

at  her coming.  He took her hand with eager friendliness, and  at her impulse  began to move away to the end of

the piazza with her.  The ladies had not  yet descended to the beach; apparently their  interest in Dr. Breen's

patient kept them. 

"How is Mrs. Maynard this morning?" he asked; and she answered, as  they  got beyond earshot, 

"Not better, I'm afraid." 

"Oh, I'm sorry," said the young man.  "Then you won't be able to  drive  with me this morning?  I hope she is n't

seriously worse?" he  added,  recurring to Mrs. Maynard at the sight of the trouble in  Grace's face. 

"I shall ask to drive with you," she returned.  "Mr. Libby, do you  know  where Corbitant is?" 

"Oh, yes." 

"And will you drive me there?" 

"Why, certainly!" he cried, in polite wonder. 

"Thank you."  She turned half round, and cast a woman's look at the  other  women.  "I shall be ready in half an

hour.  Will you go away,  and  comeback then?  Not sooner." 

"Anything you please, Miss Breen," he said, laughing in his  mystification.  "In thirty minutes, or thirty days." 

They went back to the steps, and he mounted his buggy.  She sat  down, and  taking some work from her

pocket, bent her head over it.  At  first she  was pale, and then she grew red.  But these fluctuations of  color

could  not keep her spectators long; one by one they dispersed  and descended the  cliff; and when she rose to

go for her hat the last  had vanished, with a  longing look at her.  It was Miss Gleason. 

Grace briefly announced her purpose to her mother, who said, "I  hope you  are not doing anything impulsive";

and she answered, "No, I  had quite  made up my mind to it last night." 

Mr. Libby had not yet returned when she went back to the piazza,  and she  walked out on the road by which

he must arrive.  She had not  to walk far.  He drew in sight before she had gone a quarter of a mile,  driving

rapidly.  "Am I late?" he asked, turning, and pulling up at  the roadside,  with wellsubdued astonishment at

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"Oh, no; not that I know."  She mounted to the seat, and they drove  off  in a silence which endured for a long

time.  If Libby had been as  vain as  he seemed light, he must have found it cruelly unflattering,  for it  ignored

his presence and even his existence.  She broke the  silence at  last with a deepdrawn sigh, as frankly sad as if

she had  been quite  alone, but she returned to consciousness of him in it.  "Mr. Libby, you  must think it is very

strange for me to ask you to  drive me to Corbitant  without troubling myself to tell you my errand." 

"Oh, not at all," said the young man.  "I'm glad to be of use on  any  terms.  It is n't often that one gets the

chance." 

"I am going to see Dr. Mulbridge," she began, and then stopped so  long  that he perceived she wished him to

say something. 

He said, "Yes?" 

"Yes.  I thought this morning that I should give Mrs. Maynard's  case up  to him.  I shouldn't be at all troubled at

seeming to give it  up under a  pressure of opinion, though I should not give it up for  that. Of course,"  she

explained, "you don't know that all those women  have been saying that  I ought to call in Dr. Mulbridge.  It's

one of  those things," she added  bitterly, "that make it so pleasant for a  woman to try to help women."  He

made a little murmur of condolence,  and she realized that she had  thrown herself on his sympathy, when she

thought she had been merely  thinking aloud.  "What I mean is that he  is a man of experience and  reputation,

and could probably be of more  use to her than I, for she  would trust him more.  But I have known her  a long

time, and I understand  her temperament and her character,  which goes for a good deal in such  matters,

and I have concluded  not to give up the case.  I wish to meet  Dr. Mulbridge, however, and  ask him to see

her in consultation with me.  That is all," she ended  rather haughtily, as if she had been dramatizing  the fact to

Dr.  Mulbridge in her own mind. 

"I should think that would be the right thing," said Libby limply,  with  uncalledfor approval; but he left this

dangerous ground  abruptly.  "As  you say, character goes for a great deal in these  things.  I've seen Mrs.

Maynard at the point of death before.  As a  general rule, she does n't  die.  If you have known her a long time,

you know what I mean.  She likes  to share her sufferings with her  friends.  I've seen poor old Maynard" 

"Mr. Libby!" Grace broke in.  "You may speak of Mr. Maynard as you  like,  but I cannot allow your

disrespectfulness to Mrs. Maynard.  It's  shocking!  You had no right to be their friend if you felt toward them

as  you seem to have done." 

"Why, there was no harm in them.  I liked them!" explained the  young man. 

"People have no right to like those they don't respect!" 

Libby looked as if this were rather a new and droll idea.  But he  seemed  not to object to her tutoring him.

"Well," he said, "as far as  Mrs.  Maynard was concerned, I don't know that I liked her any more  than I

respected her." 

Grace ought to have frowned at this, but she had to check a smile  in.  order to say gravely, "I know she is

disagreeable at times.  And  she  likes to share her sufferings with others, as you say.  But her  husband  was fully

entitled to any share of them that he may have  borne.  If he  had been kinder to her, she wouldn't be what and

where  she is now." 

"Kinder to her!" Libby exclaimed.  "He's the kindest fellow in the  world!  Now, Miss Breen," he said

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"Is it possible," demanded Grace, "that you don't know they're  separated,  and that she's going to take steps for

a divorce?" 

"A divorce?  No!  What in the world for?" 

"I never talk gossip.  I thought of course she had told you" 

"She never told me a word!  She was ashamed to do it!  She knows  that I  know Maynard was the best husband

in the world to her.  All she  told me  was that he was out on his ranch, and she had come on here for  her  health.

It's some ridiculous little thing that no reasonable  woman would  have dreamt of caring for.  It's one of her

caprices.  It's her own  fickleness.  She's tired of him,or thinks she is,and  that's all about  it.  Miss Breen, I beg

you won't believe anything  against Maynard!" 

"I don't understand," faltered Grace, astonished at his fervor; and  the  light it cast upon her first doubts of him.

"Of course, I only  know the  affair from her report, and I haven't concerned myself in it,  except as  it affected

her health.  And I don't wish to misjudge him.  And I like  yourdefending him," she said, though it instantly

seemed  a patronizing  thing to have said.  "But I couldn't withhold my  sympathy where I  believed there had

been neglect and systematic  unkindness, and finally  desertion." 

"Oh, I know Mrs. Maynard; I know her kind of talk.  I've seen  Maynard's  neglect and unkindness, and I know

just what his desertion  would be.  If  he's left her, it's because she wanted him to leave her;  he did it to  humor

her, to please her.  I shall have a talk with Mrs.  Maynard when we  get back." 

"I 'm afraid I can't allow it at present," said Grace, very  seriously. 

"She is worse today.  Otherwise I should n't be giving you this  trouble." 

"Oh, it's no trouble"  "But I'm gladI'm glad we've had this  understanding.  I'm very glad.  It  makes me

think worse of myself and  better ofothers." 

Libby gave a laugh.  "And you like that?  You're easily pleased." 

She remained grave.  "I ought to be able to tell you what I mean.  But it  is n't possiblenow.  Will you let me

beg your pardon?" she  urged, with  impulsive earnestness. 

"Why, yes," he answered, smiling. 

"And not ask me why?" 

"Certainly." 

"Thank you.  Yes," she added hastily, "she is so much worse that  some one  of greater experience than I must

see her, and I have made up  my mind.  Dr. Mulbridge may refuse to consult with me.  I know very  well that

there  is a prejudice against women physicians, and I  couldn't especially blame  him for sharing it.  I have

thought it all  over.  If he refuses, I shall  know what to do."  She had ceased to  address Libby, who respected

her  soliloquy.  He drove on rapidly over  the soft road, where the wheels made  no sound, and the track

wandered  with apparent aimlessness through the  interminable woods of young oak  and pine.  The low trees

were full of the  sunshine, and dappled them  with shadow as they dashed along; the fresh,  green ferns

springing  from the brown carpet of the pineneedles were as if  painted against  it.  The breath of the pines was

heavier for the recent  rain; and the  woody smell of the oaks was pungent where the balsam  failed.  They met

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word or two;  but for  the most she was silent, and he did not attempt to lead.  By and  by  they came to an

opener place, where there were many red fieldlilies  tilting in the wind. 

"Would you like some of those?" he asked, pulling up. 

"I should, very much," she answered, glad of the sight of the gay  things.  But when he had gathered her a

bunch of the flowers she looked  down at  them in her lap, and said, "It's silly in me to be caring for  lilies at

such a time, and I should make an unfavorable impression on  Dr. Mulbridge  if he saw me with them.  But I

shall risk their effect  on him.  He may  think I have been botanizing." 

"Unless you tell him you have n't," the young man suggested. 

"I need n't do that." 

"I don't think any one else would do it." 

She colored a little at the tribute to her candor, and it pleased  her,  though it had just pleased her as much to

forget that she was not  like  any other young girl who might be simply and irresponsibly happy  in  flowers

gathered for her by a young man.  "I won't tell him,  either!" she  cried, willing to grasp the fleeting emotion

again; but  it was gone, and  only a little residue of sad consciousness remained. 

The woods gave way on either side of the road, which began to be a  village street, sloping and shelving down

toward the curve of a quiet  bay.  The neat weathergray dwellings, shingled to the ground and  brightened

with dooryard flowers and creepers, straggled off into the  boathouses and fishinghuts on the shore, and

the village seemed to  get  afloat at last in the sloops and schooners riding in the harbor,  whose  smooth plane

rose higher to the eye than the town itself.  The  salt and  the sand were everywhere, but though there had been

no  positive  prosperity in Corbitant for a generation, the place had an  impregnable  neatness, which defied

decay; if there had been a dog in  the street,  there would not have been a stick to throw at him. 

One of the better, but not the best, of the village houses, which  did not  differ from the others in any essential

particular, and which  stood flush  upon the street, bore a doorplate with the name Dr. Rufus  Mulbridge, and

Libby drew up in front of it without having had to  alarm the village with  inquiries.  Grace forbade his help in

dismounting, and ran to the door,  where she rang one of those bells  which sharply respond at the back of  the

panel to the turn of a crank  in front; she observed, in a difference  of paint, that this modern  improvement had

displaced an oldfashioned  knocker.  The door was  opened by a tall and strikingly handsome old  woman,

whose black eyes  still kept their keen light under her white hair,  and whose dress  showed none of the

incongruity which was offensive in the  doorbell:  it was in the perfection of an antiquated taste, which,

however, came  just short of characterizing it with gentlewomanliness. 

"Is Dr. Mulbridge at home?" asked Grace. 

"Yes," said the other, with a certain hesitation, and holding the  door  ajar. 

"I should like to see him," said Grace, mounting to the threshold. 

"Is it important?" asked the elder woman. 

"Quite," replied Grace, with an accent at once of surprise and  decision. 

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"You may give Dr. Mulbridge my card, if you please," said Grace,  before  she turned to go into this room; and

the other took it, and  left her to  find a chair for herself.  It was a country doctor's  office, with the  usual country

doctor's supply of drugs on a shelf,  but very much more  than the country doctor's usual library: the  standard

works were there,  and there were also the principal  periodicals and the latest treatises of  note in the medical

world.  In  a long, upright case, like that of an old  hallclock, was the anatomy  of one who had long done with

time; a  laryngoscope and some other  professional apparatus of constant utility  lay upon the leaf of the

doctor's desk.  There was nothing in the room  which did not suggest  his profession, except the sword and the

spurs  which hung upon the  wall opposite where Grace sat beside one of the front  windows.  She  spent her

time in study of the room and its appointments,  and in now  and then glancing out at Mr. Libby, who sat

statuesquely  patient in  the buggy.  His profile cut against the sky was blameless; and  a  humorous shrewdness

which showed in the wrinkle at his eye and in the  droop of his yellow mustache gave its regularity life and

charm.  It  occurred to her that if Dr. Mulbridge caught sight of Mr. Libby before  he  saw her, or before she

could explain that she had got one of the  gentlemen at the hotelshe resolved upon this prevaricationto

drive  her to Corbitant in default of another conveyance, he would have his  impressions and conjectures,

which doubtless the bunch of lilies in  her  hand would do their part to stimulate.  She submitted to this

possibility, and waited for his coming, which began to seem  unreasonably  delayed.  The door opened at last,

and a tall, powerfully  framed man of  thirtyfive or forty, dressed in an illfitting suit of  gray Canada

homespun appeared.  He moved with a slow, pondering step,  and carried his  shaggy head bent downwards

from shoulders slightly  rounded.  His dark  beard was already grizzled, and she saw that his  mustache was

burnt and  turned tawny at points by smoking, of which  habit his presence gave stale  evidence to another

sense.  He held  Grace's card in his hand, and he  looked at her, as he advanced, out of  gray eyes that, if not

sympathetic,  were perfectly intelligent, and  that at once sought to divine and class  her.  She perceived that he

took in the lilies and her coming color; she  felt that he noted her  figure and her dress. 

She half rose in response to his questioning bow, and he motioned  her to  her seat again.  "I had to keep you

waiting," he said.  "I was  up all  night with a patient, and I was asleep when my mother called  me."  He  stopped

here, and definitively waited for her to begin. 

She did not find this easy, as he took a chair in front of her, and  sat  looking steadily in her face.  "I'm sorry to

have disturbed you"  "Oh, not at all," he interrupted.  "The rule is to disturb a doctor." 

"I mean," she began again, "that I am not sure that I am justified  in  disturbing you." 

He waited a little while for her to go on, and then he said, "Well,  let  us hear." 

"I wish to consult with you," she broke out, and again she came to  a  sudden pause; and as she looked into his

vigilant face, in which she  was  not sure there was not a hovering derision, she could not  continue.  She  felt

that she ought to gather courage from the fact  that he had not  started, or done anything positively disagreeable

when  she had asked for  a consultation; but she could not, and it did not  avail her to reflect  that she was

rendering herself liable to all  conceivable misconstruction,  that she was behaving childishly, with  every

appearance of behaving  guiltily. 

He came to her aid again, in a blunt fashion, neither kind nor  unkind,  but simply common sense.  "What is the

matter?" 

"What is the matter?" she repeated. 

"Yes.  What are the symptoms?  Where and how are, you sick?" 

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"Then excuse me if I ask you what you wish me to do?" 

"Oh!" said Grace, realizing his natural error, with a flush.  "It  is n't  in regard to myself that I wish to consult

with you.  It's  another  persona friend" 

"Well," said Dr. Mulbridge, laughing, with the impatience of a  physician  used to making short cuts through

the elaborate and  reluctant statements  of ladies seeking advice, "what is the matter  with your friend?" 

"She has been an invalid for some time," replied Grace.  The laugh,  which  had its edge of patronage and

conceit, stung her into  selfpossession  again, and she briefly gave the points of Mrs.  Maynard's case, with the

recent accident and the symptoms developed  during the night.  He listened  attentively, nodding his head at

times,  and now and then glancing sharply  at her, as one might at a  surprisingly intelligent child. 

"I must see her," he said decidedly, when she came to an end.  "I  will  see her as soon as possible.  I will come

over to Jocelyn's this  afternoon,as soon as I can get my dinner, in fact." 

There was such a tone of dismissal in his words that she rose, and  he  promptly followed her example.  She

stood hesitating a moment.  Then,  "I don't know whether you understood that I wish merely to  consult with

you," she said; "that I don't wish to relinquish the case  to you" 

"Relinquish the caseconsult" Dr. Mulbridge stared at her.  "No,  I  don't understand.  What do you mean

by not relinquishing the case?  If there is some one else in attendance" 

"I am in attendance," said the girl firmly.  "I am Mrs. Maynard's  physician." 

"You?  Physician" 

"If you have looked at my card"she began with indignant severity. 

He gave a sort of roar of amusement and apology, and then he stared  at  her again with much of the interest of

a naturalist in an  extraordinary  specimen. 

"I beg your pardon," he exclaimed.  "I did n't look at it"; but he  now  did so, where he held it crumpled in the

palm of his left hand.  "My  mother said it was a young lady, and I did n't look.  Will you  will you  sit down, Dr.

Breen?"  He bustled in getting her several  chairs.  "I live off here in a corner, and I have never happened to

meet any  ladies ofour profession before.  Excuse me, if I spoke under  a,mistaken  impression.  III

should not have ahtaken you for  a physician.  You" He checked himself, as if he might have been

going  to say that she  was too young and too pretty.  "Of course, I shall  have pleasure in  consulting with you in

regard to your friend's case,  though I've no doubt  you are doing all that can be done."  With a  great show of

deference, he  still betrayed something of the air of one  who humors a joke; and she  felt this, but felt that she

could not  openly resent it. 

"Thank you," she returned with dignity, indicating with a gesture  of her  hand that she would not sit down

again.  "I am sorry to ask you  to come  so far." 

"Oh, not at all.  I shall be driving over in that direction at any  rate.  I've a patient near there."  He smiled upon

her with frank  curiosity, and  seemed willing to detain her, but at a loss how to do  so.  "If I had n't  been stupid

from my nap I should have inferred a  scientific training from  your statement of your friend's case."  She  still

believed that he was  laughing at her, and that this was a mock  but she was still helpless to  resent it, except by

an assumption of  yet colder state.  This had  apparently no effect upon Dr. Mulbridge.  He continued to look at

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style, now  that she stood before him.  There had been a time when, in planning her  career, she had imagined

herself studying a masculine simplicity and  directness of address; but  the oversuccess of some young

women, her  fellows at the school, in this  direction had disgusted her with it,  and she had perceived that after

all  there is nothing better for a  girl, even a girl who is a doctor of  medicine, than a ladylike manner.  Now,

however, she wished that she  could do or say something  aggressively mannish, for she felt herself  dwindling

away to the  merest femininity, under a scrutiny which had its  fascination, whether  agreeable or disagreeable.

"You must," he said,  with really  unwarrantable patronage, "have found that the study of  medicine has  its

difficulties, you must have been very strongly drawn  to it." 

"Oh no, not at all; I had rather an aversion at first," she  replied, with  the instant superiority of a woman where

the man suffers  any topic to  become personal.  "Why did you think I was drawn to it?" 

"I don't knowI don't know that I thought so," he stammered.  "I  believe  I intended to ask," he added bluntly;

but she had the  satisfaction of  seeing him redden, and she did not volunteer anything  in his relief.  She divined

that it would leave him with an awkward  sense of defeat if he  quitted the subject there; and in fact he had

determined that he would  not.  "Some of our ladies take up the study  abroad," he said; and he went  on to

speak, with a real deference, of  the eminent woman who did the  American name honor by the distinction  she

achieved in the schools of  Paris. 

"I have never been abroad," said Grace. 

"No?" he exclaimed.  "I thought all American ladies had been  abroad"; and  now he said, with easy recognition

of her resolution not  to help him out,  "I suppose you have your diploma from the  Philadelphia school." 

"No," she returned, "from the New York school,the homoeopathic  school  of New York." 

Dr. Mulbridge instantly sobered, and even turned a little pale, but  he  did not say anything.  He remained

looking at her as if she had  suddenly  changed from a piquant mystery to a terrible dilemma. 

She moved toward the door.  "Then I may expect you," she said,  "about  the middle of the afternoon." 

He did not reply; he stumbled upon the chairs in following her a  pace or  two, with a face of acute distress.

Then he broke out with "I  can't  come!  I can't consult with you!" 

She turned and looked at him with astonishment, which he did his  best to  meet.  Her astonishment congealed

into hauteur, and then  dissolved into  the helplessness of a lady who has been offered a  rudeness; but still she

did not speak.  She merely looked at him,  while he halted and stammered  on. 

"Personally, IIshould beobligedI should feel  honoredIIIt  has nothing to do with

youryourbeing  aaawoman lady.  I should  not care for that.  No.  But surely you  must know the

reasonsthe  obstacleswhich deter me?" 

"No, I don't," she said, calm with the advantage of his  perturbation.  "But if you refuse, that is sufficient.  I will

not  inquire your reasons.  I will simply withdraw my request." 

"Thank you.  But I beg you to understand that they have no  reference  whatever to you inyour

owncapacitycharacterindividual quality.  They are purely  professionalthat is, technicalI should

say  disciplinary,entirely  disciplinary.  Yes, disciplinary."  The word  seemed to afford Dr.  Mulbridge the

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"I don't at all know what you mean," said Grace.  "But it is not  necessary that I should know.  Will you allow

me?" she asked, for Dr.  Mulbridge had got between her and the door, and stood with his hand on  the latch. 

His face flushed, and drops stood on his forehead.  "Surely,  MissI  mean DoctorBreen, you must know

why I can't consult with  you!  We  belong to two diametrically opposite schoolstheoriesof  medicine.  It

would be impracticableimpossible for us to consult.  We could find no  common ground.  Have you never

heard that theah  regular practice cannot  meet homoeopathists in this way?  If you had  told meif I had

knownyou  were a homoeopathist, I could n't have  considered the matter at all.  I  can't now express any

opinion as to  your management of the case, but I  have no doubt that you will know  what to dofrom your

point of viewand  that you will prefer to call  in some one of your ownpersuasion.  I hope  that you don't

hold me  personally responsible for this result!" 

"Oh, no!" replied the girl, with a certain dreamy abstraction.  "I  had  heard that you made some such

distinctionI remember, now.  But I  could  n't realize anything so ridiculous." 

Dr. Mulbridge colored.  " Excuse me," he said, "if, even under the  circumstances, I can't agree with you that

the position taken by the  regular practice is ridiculous." 

She did not make any direct reply.  "But I supposed that you only  made  this distinction, as you call it, in cases

where there is no  immediate  danger; that in a matter of life and death you would waive  it.  Mrs.  Maynard is

really" 

"There are no conditions under which I could not conscientiously  refuse  to waive it." 

"Then," cried Grace, "I withdraw the word!  It is not ridiculous.  It is  monstrous, atrocious, inhuman!" 

A light of humorous irony glimmered in Dr. Mulbridge's eye.  "I  must  submit to your condemnation." 

"Oh, it isn't a personal condemnation!" she retorted.  "I have no  doubt  that personally you are not responsible.

We can lay aside our  distinctions as allopathist and homoeopathist, and you can advise with  me" 

"It's quite impossible," said Dr. Mulbridge.  "If I advised with  you,  I might beA little while ago one of our

school in Connecticut  was  expelled from the State Medical Association for consulting  with"he  began to

hesitate, as if he had not hit upon a fortunate or  appropriate  illustration, but he pushed on"with his own

wife, who  was a physician  of your school." 

She haughtily ignored his embarrassment.  "I can appreciate your  difficulty, and pity any liberalminded

person who is placed as you  are,  and disapproves of such wretched bigotry." 

"I am obliged to tell you," said Dr. Mulbridge, "that I don't  disapprove  of it." 

"I am detaining you," said Grace.  "I beg your pardon.  I was  curious to  know how far superstition and

persecution can go in our  day."  If the  epithets were not very accurate, she used them with a  woman's

effectiveness, and her intention made them descriptive.  "Goodday," she  added, and she made a movement

toward the door, from  which Dr. Mulbridge  retired.  But she did not open the door.  Instead,  she sank into the

chair which stood in the corner, and passed her hand  over her forehead,  as if she were giddy. 

Dr. Mulbridge's finger was instantly on her wrist.  "Are you  faint?" 

"No, no!" she gasped, pulling her hand away.  "I am perfectly  well."  Then she was silent for a time before she

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never will.  Mrs. Maynard needs greater  experience than mine, and  she must have it.  I can't justify myself in

the delay and uncertainty of  sending to Boston.  I relinquish the  case.  I give it to you.  And I will  nurse her

under your direction,  obediently, conscientiously.  Oh!" she  cried, at his failure to make  any immediate

response, "surely you won't  refuse to take the case!" 

"I won't refuse," he said, with an effect of difficult concession.  "I will come.  I will drive over at once, after

dinner." 

She rose now, and put her hand on the doorlatch.  "Do you object  to my  nursing your patient?  She is an old

school friend.  But I could  yield  that point too, if" 

"Oh, no, no!  I shall be only too glad of your help, and your"he  was  going to say advice, but he stopped

himself, and repeated"help." 

They stood inconclusively a moment, as if they would both be glad  of  something more to say.  Then she said

tentatively, "Goodmorning,"  and be  responded experimentally, "Goodmorning"; and with that they

involuntarily parted, and she went out of the door, which he stood  holding open even after she had got out of

the gate. 

His mother came down the stairs.  "What in the world were you  quarrelling  with that girl about, Rufus?" 

"We were not quarrelling, mother." 

"Well, it sounded like it.  Who was she? 

"Who?" repeated her son absently.  "Dr. Breen." 

"Doctor Breen?  That girl a doctor?" 

"Yes." 

"I thought she was some saucy thing.  Well, upon my word!"  exclaimed Mrs.  Mulbridge.  "So that is a female

doctor, is it?  Was  she sick?" 

"No," said her son, with what she knew to be professional  finality."  Mother, if you can hurry dinner a little, I

shall be glad.  I have to  drive over to Jocelyn's, and I should like to start as soon  as possible." 

"Who was the young man with her?  Her beau, I guess." 

"Was there a young man with her?" asked Dr. Mulbridge. 

His mother went out without'speaking.  She could be unsatisfactory,  too. 

VI.

No one but Mrs. Breen knew of her daughter's errand, and when Grace  came  back she alighted from Mr.

Libby's buggy with an expression of  thanks  that gave no clew as to the direction or purpose of it.  He  touched

his  hat to her with equal succinctness, and drove away,  including all the  ladies on the piazza in a cursory

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"We must ask you, Miss Gleason," said Mrs. Alger.  "Your admiration  of  Dr. Breen clothes you with authority

and responsibility." 

"I can't understand it at all," Miss Gleason confessed.  "But I'm  sure  there's nothing in it.  He isn't her equal.

She would feel that  it  wasn't rightunder the circumstances." 

"But if Mrs. Maynard was well it would be a fair game, you mean,"  said  Mrs. Alger. 

"No," returned Miss Gleason, with the greatest air of candor, "I  can't  admit that I meant that." 

"Well," said the elder lady, "the presumption is against them.  Every  young couple seen together must be

considered in love till they  prove the  contrary." 

"I like it in her," said Mrs. Frost.  "It shows that she is human,  after  all.  It shows that she is like other girls.  It's

a relief." 

"She is n't like other girls," contended Miss Gleason darkly. 

"I would rather have Mr. Libby's opinion," said Mrs. Merritt. 

Grace went to Mrs. Maynard's room, and told her that Dr. Mulbridge  was  coming directly after dinner. 

"I knew you would do it!" cried Mrs. Maynard, throwing her right  arm  round Grace's neck, while the latter

bent over to feel the pulse  in her  left.  "I knew where you had gone as soon as your mother told  me you had

driven off with Walter Libby.  I'm so glad that you've got  somebody to  consult!  Your theories are perfectly

right and I'm sure  that Dr.  Mulbridge will just tell you to keep on as you've been  doing." 

Grace withdrew from her caress.  "Dr. Mulbridge is not coming for a  consultation.  He refused to consult with

me." 

"Refused to consult?  Why, how perfectly ungentlemanly!  Why did he  refuse?" 

"Because he is an allopathist and I am a homoeopathist." 

"Then, what is he coming for, I should like to know!" 

"I have given up the case to him," said Grace wearily. 

"Very well, then!  " cried Mrs. Maynard, " I won't be given up.  I  will  simply die!  Not a pill, not a powder, of

his will I touch!  If  he thinks  himself too good to consult with another doctor, and a lady  at that,  merely

because she doesn't happen to be allopathist, he can  go along!  I never heard of anything so conceited, so

disgustingly  mean, in my life.  No, Grace !  Why, it's horrid!"  She was silent, and  then, "Why, of  course," she

added, "if he comes, I shall have to see  him.  I look like a  fright, I suppose." 

"I will do your hair," said Grace, with indifference to these vows  and  protests; and without deigning further

explanation or argument she  made  the invalid's toilet for her.  If given time, Mrs. Maynard would  talk  herself

into any necessary frame of mind, and Grace merely  supplied the  monosyllabic promptings requisite for her

transition from  mood to mood.  It was her final resolution that when Dr. Mulbridge did  come she should  give

him a piece of her mind; and she received him  with anxious  submissiveness, and hung upon all his looks and

words  with quaking and  with an inclination to attribute her unfavorable  symptoms to the  treatment of her

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room. 

Grace sat by and watched him with perfectly quiescent observance.  The  large, somewhat uncouth man gave

evidence to her intelligence  that he was  all physicianthat he had not chosen his profession from  any theory

or  motive, however good, but had been as much chosen by it  as if he had been  born a Physician.  He was

incredibly gentle and soft  in all his  movements, and perfectly kind, without being at any moment  unprofitably

sympathetic.  He knew when to listen and when not to  listen,to learn  everything from the quivering bundle

of nerves  before him without seeming  to have learnt anything alarming; he smiled  when it would do her good

to  be laughed at, and treated her with such  grave respect that she could not  feel herself trifled with, nor

remember afterwards any point of neglect.  When he rose and left some  medicines, with directions to Grace

for giving  them and instructions  for contingencies, she followed him from the room. 

"Well?" she said anxiously. 

"Mrs. Maynard is threatened with pneumonia.  Or, I don't know why I  should say threatened," he added; "she

has pneumonia." 

"I supposedI was afraid so," faltered the girl. 

"Yes."  He looked into her eyes with even more seriousness than he  spoke. 

"Has she friends here?" he asked. 

"No; her husband is in Cheyenne, out on the plains." 

"He ought to know," said Dr. Mulbridge.  "A great deal will depend  upon  her nursingMissahDr.

Breen." 

"You need n't call me Dr. Breen," said Grace.  "At present, I am  Mrs.  Maynard's nurse." 

He ignored this as he had ignored every point connected with the  interview of the morning.  He repeated the

directions he had already  given with still greater distinctness, and, saying that he should come  in  the morning,

drove away.  She went back to Louise: inquisition for  inquisition, it was easier to meet that of her late patient

than that  of  her mother, and for once the girl spared herself. 

"I know he thought I was very bad," whimpered Mrs. Maynard, for a  beginning.  "What is the matter with

me?" 

"Your cold has taken an acute form; you will have to go to bed." 

"Then I 'm going to be down sick!  I knew I was!  I knew it!  And  what am  I going to do, off in such a place as

this?  No one to nurse  me, or look  after Bella!  I should think you would be satisfied now,  Grace, with the

result of your conscientiousness: you were so very  sure that Mr. Libby  was wanting to flirt with me that you

drove us to  our death, because you  thought he felt guilty and was trying to fib  out of it." 

"Will you let me help to undress you?" asked Grace gently.  "Bella  shall  be well taken care of, and I am going

to nurse you myself, under  Dr.  Mulbridge's direction.  And once for all, Louise, I wish to say  that I  hold

myself to blame for all" 

"Oh, yes!  Much good that does now!"  Being got into bed, with the  sheet  smoothed under her chin, she said,

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Maynard would want to be with his family!" 

Spent with this ordeal, Grace left her at last, and went out on the  piazza, where she found Libby returned.  In

fact, he had, upon second  thoughts, driven back, and put up his horse at Jocelyn's, that he  might  be of service

there in case he were needed.  The ladies, with  whom he had  been making friends, discreetly left him to

Grace, when  she appeared, and  she frankly walked apart with him, and asked him if  he could go over to  New

Leyden, and telegraph to Mr. Maynard. 

"Has she asked for him?" he inquired, laughing.  "I knew it would  come to  that." 

"She has not asked; she has said that she thought he ought to be  with his  family," repeated Grace faithfully. 

"Oh, I know how she said it: as if he had gone away wilfully, and  kept  away against her wishes and all the

claims of honor and duty.  It  wouldn't take her long to get round to that if she thought she was  very  sick.  Is she

so bad?" he inquired, with light scepticism. 

"She's threatened with pneumonia.  We can't tell how bad she may  be." 

"Why, of course I'll telegraph.  But I don't think anything serious  can  be the matter with Mrs. Maynard." 

"Dr. Mulbridge said that Mr. Maynard ought to know." 

"Is that so?" asked Libby, in quite a different tone.  If she  recognized  the difference, she was meekly far from

resenting it; he,  however, must  have wished to repair his blunder.  "I think you need  n't have given up  the case

to him.  I think you're too conscientious  about it." 

"Please don't speak of that now," she interposed. 

"Well, I won't," he consented.  "Can I be of any use here  tonight?" 

"No, we shall need nothing more.  The doctor will be here again in  the  morning." 

"Libby did not come in the morning till after the doctor had gone,  and  then he explained that he had waited to

hear in reply to his  telegram,  so that they might tell Mrs. Maynard her husband had  started; and he had  only

just now heard. 

"And has he started?" Grace asked. 

"I heard from his partner.  Maynard was at the ranch.  His partner  had  gone for him." 

"Then he will soon be here," she said. 

"He will, if telegraphing can bring him.  I sat up half the night  with  the operator.  She was very obliging when

she understood the  case." 

"She?" reputed Grace, with a slight frown. 

"The operators are nearly all women in the country." 

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"They did n't in this instance," relied Libby.  "She was a pretty  old  girl.  What made you think she was

young?" 

"I don't know.  I thought you said she was young."  She blushed,  and  seemed about to say more, but she did

not. 

He waited, and then he said, "You can tell Mrs. Maynard that I  telegraphed on my own responsibility, if you

think it's going to alarm  her." 

"Well," said Grace, with a helpless sigh. 

"You don't like to tell her that," he suggested, after a moment, in  which  he had watched her. 

"How do you know?" 

"Oh, I know.  And some day I will tell you howif you will let  me." 

It seemed a question; and she did not know what it was that kept  her  silent and breathless and hot in the

throat.  "I don't like to  do it,"  she said at last.  "I hate myself whenever I have to feign  anything.  I  knew

perfectly well that you did n't say she was young,"  she broke out  desperately. 

"Say Mrs. Maynard was young?" he asked stupidly. 

"No!" she cried.  She rose hastily from the bench where she had  been  sitting with him.  "I must go back to her

now." 

He mounted to his buggy, and drove thoughtfully away at a walk. 

The ladies, whose excited sympathies for Mrs. Maynard had kept them  from  the beach till now, watched him

quite out of sight before they  began to  talk of Grace. 

"I hope Dr. Breen's new patient will be more tractable," said Mrs.  Merritt.  "It would be a pity if she had to

give him up, too, to Dr.  Mulbridge." 

Mrs. Scott failed of the point.  "Why, is Mr. Libby sick?" 

"Not very," answered Mrs. Merritt, with a titter of selfapplause. 

"I should be sorry," interposed Mrs. Alger authoritatively, "if we  had  said anything to influence the poor

thing in what she has done." 

"Oh, I don't think we need distress ourselves about undue  influence!"  Mrs. Merritt exclaimed. 

Mrs. Alger chose to ignore the suggestion.  "She had a very  difficult  part; and I think she has acted

courageously.  I always feel  sorry for  girls who attempt anything of that kind.  It's a fearful  ordeal." 

"But they say Miss Breen was n't obliged to do it for a living,"  Mrs.  Scott suggested. 

"So much the worse," said Mrs. Merritt. 

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Mrs. Merritt, sitting on the edge of the piazza, stooped over with  difficulty and plucked a glassstraw, which

she bit as she looked  rebelliously away. 

Mrs. Frost had installed herself as favorite since Mrs. Alger had  praised  her hair.  She now came forward, and,

dropping fondly at her  knee, looked  up to her for instruction.  "Don't you think that she  showed her sense in

giving up at the very beginning, if she found she  was n't equal to it?"  She gave her head a little movement

from side to  side, and put the mass  of her back hair more on show. 

"Perhaps," said Mrs. Alger, looking at the favorite not very  favorably. 

"Oh, I don't think she's given up," Miss Gleason interposed, in her  breathless manner.  She waited to be asked

why, and then she added,  "I think she's acting in consultation with Dr. Mulbridge.  He may have  a  certain

influence over her,I think he has; but I know they are  acting  in unison." 

Mrs. Merritt flung her grassstraw away.  "Perhaps it is to be Dr.  Mulbridge, after all, and not Mr. Libby." 

"I have thought of that," Miss Gleason assented candidly.  "Yes, I  have  thought of that.  I have thought of their

being constantly thrown  together, in this way.  It would not discourage me.  She could be  quite  as true to her

vocation as if she remained single.  Truer." 

"Talking of true," said Mrs. Scott, " always does make me think of  blue.  They say that yellow will be worn

on everything this winter." 

"Old gold?" asked Mrs. Frost.  Yes, more than ever." 

"Dear!" cried the other lady.  "I don't know what I shall do.  It  perfectly kills my hair." 

"Oh, Miss Gleason!" exclaimed the young girl. 

"Do you believe in character coming out in color?" 

"Yes, certainly.  I have always believed that." 

"Well, I've got a friend, and she wouldn't have anything to do with  a  girl that wore magenta more than she

would fly." 

"I should suppose," explained Miss Gleason, "that all those aniline  dyes  implied something coarse in people." 

"Is n't it curious," asked Mrs. Frost, "how redhaired people have  come  in fashion?  I can recollect, when I

was a little girl, that  everybody  laughed at red hair.  There was one girl at the first school  I ever went  to,the

boys used to pretend to burn their fingers at her  hair." 

"I think Dr. Breen's hair is a very pretty shade of brown," said  the  young girl. 

Mrs. Merritt rose from the edge of the piazza.  "I think that if  she  hasn't given up to him entirely she's the most

submissive  consulting  physician I ever saw," she said, and walked out over the  grass towards  the cliff. 

The ladies looked after her.  "Is Mrs. Merritt more pudgy when  she's  sitting down or when she's standing up?"

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Miss Gleason seized her first chance of speaking with Grace alone.  "Oh, do you know how much you are

doing for us all?" 

"Doing for you, all?  How doing?" faltered Grace, whom she had  whisperingly halted in a corner of the hall

leading from the  diningroom. 

"By acting in unison,by solving the most perplexing problem in  women's  practising your profession.  She

passed the edge of her fan  over her lips  before letting it fall furled upon her left hand, and  looked luminously

into Grace's eyes. 

"I don't at all know what you mean, Miss Gleason," said the other. 

Miss Gleason kicked out the skirt of her dress, so as to leave  herself  perfectly free for the explanation.

"Practising in harmony  with a  physician of the other sex.  I have always felt that there was  the great  difficulty,

how to bring that about.  I have always felt  that the TRUE  physician must be DUAL,have both the

woman's nature  and the man's; the  woman's tender touch, the man's firm grasp.  You  have shown how the

medical education of women can meet this want.  The  physician can  actually be dual,be two, in fact.

Hereafter, I have  no doubt we shall  always call a physician of each sex.  But it's  wonderful how you could

ever bring it about, though you can do  anything!  Has n't it worn upon  you?" Miss Gleason darted out her

sentences in quick, short breaths,  fixing Grace with her eyes, and at  each clause nervously tapping her  chest

with her reopened fan. 

"If you suppose," said Grace, "that Dr. Mulbridge and I are acting  professionally in unison, as you call it, you

are mistaken.  He has  entire charge of the case; I gave it up to him, and I am merely  nursing  Mrs. Maynard

under his direction." 

"How splendid!" Miss Gleason exclaimed.  "Do you know that I admire  you  for giving up,for knowing

when to give up?  So few women do  that!  Is n't he magnificent?" 

"Magnificent?" 

"I mean psychically.  He is what I should call a strong soul You  must  have felt his masterfulness; you must

have enjoyed it!  Don't you  like to  be dominated?" 

"No," said Grace, "I should n't at all like it." 

"Oh, I do!  I like to meet one of those forceful masculine natures  that  simply bid you obey.  It's delicious.  Such

a sense of  selfsurrender,"  Miss Gleason explained.  "It is n't because they are  men," she added.  "I have felt

the same influence from some women.  I  felt it, in a certain  degree, on first meeting you." 

"I am very sorry," said Grace coldly.  "I should dislike being  controlled  myself, and I should dislike still more

to control others." 

"You're doing it now!" cried Miss Gleason, with delight.  "I could  not do  a thing to resist your putting me

down!  Of course you don't  know that  you're doing it; it's purely involuntary.  And you wouldn't  know that he

was dominating you.  And he would n't." 

Very probably Dr. Mulbridge would not have recognized himself in  the  character of allcompelling

lady'snovel hero, which Miss Gleason  imagined for him.  Life presented itself rather simply to him, as it

does  to most men, and he easily dismissed its subtler problems from a  mind  preoccupied with active cares.  As

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homoeopathy would have made him withdraw his consent to a  consultation  with her, and his fear had been

that in his refusal she  should escape  from his desire to know more about her, her motives, her  purposes.  He

had accepted without scruple the sacrifice of pride she  had made to him;  but he had known how to appreciate

her scientific  training, which he  found as respectable as that of any clever, young  man of their  profession.  He

praised, in his way, the perfection with  which she  interpreted his actions and intentions in regard to the

patient.  "If there were such nurses as you, Miss Breen, there would be  very little  need of doctors," he said,

with a sort of interogative  fashion of  laughing peculiar to him. 

"I thought of being a nurse once;" she answered.  "Perhaps I may  still be  one.  The scientific training won't be

lost." 

"Oh, no?  It's a pity that more of them have n't it. But I suppose  they  think nursing is rather too humble an

ambition." 

"I don't think it so," said Grace briefly. 

"Then you did n't care for medical distinction." 

"No." 

He looked at her quizzically, as if this were much droller than if  she  had cared.  "I don't understand why you

should have gone into it.  You told me, I think, that it was repugnant to you; and it's hard work  for a woman,

and very uncertain work for anyone.  You must have had a  tremendous desire to benefit your race." 

His characterization of her motive was so distasteful that she made  no  reply, and left him to his conjectures,

in which he did not appear  unhappy.  "How do you find Mrs. Maynard today?" she asked. 

He looked at her with an instant coldness, as if he did not like  her  asking, and were hesitating whether to

answer.  But he said at  last,  "She is no better.  She will be worse before she is better.  You  see," he  added, "that

I haven't been able to arrest the disorder in  its first  stage.  We must hope for what can be done now, in the

second." 

She had gathered from the half jocose ease with which he had  listened to  Mrs. Maynard's account of herself,

and to her own report,  an  encouragement which now fell to the ground "Yes," she assented, in  her  despair,

"that is the only hope." 

He sat beside the table in the hotel parlor, where they found  themselves  alone for the moment, and drubbed

upon it with an absent  look.  "Have you  sent for her husband?" he inquired, returning to  himself. 

"Yes; Mr. Libby telegraphed the evening we saw you." 

"That's good," said Dr. Mulbridge, with comfortable approval; and  he rose  to go away. 

Grace impulsively detained him.  "Iwon'task you whether you  consider  Mrs. Maynard's case a serious

one, if you object to my doing  so." 

"I don't know that I object," he said slowly, with a teasing smile,  such  as one might use with a persistent child

whom one chose to baffle  in that  way. 

She disdained to avail herself of the implied permission.  "What I  mean  what I wish to tell you isthat I

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"Ah?" said Dr. Mulbridge, with more interest, but the same smile.  "What do you mean?" 

"She didn't wish to go that day when she was caught in the storm.  But I  insisted; I forced her to go."  She

stood panting with the  intensity of  the feeling which had impelled her utterance. 

"What do you mean by forcing her to go?" 

"I don't know.  IIpersuaded her." 

Dr. Mulbridge smiled, as if he perceived her intention not to tell  him  something she wished to tell him.  He

looked down into his hat,  which he  carried in his hand. 

"Did you believe the storm was coming?" 

"No!" 

"And you did n't make it come?" 

"Of course not!" 

He looked at her and laughed. 

"Oh, you don't at all understand!" she cried. 

"I'm not a doctor of divinity," he said.  "Good morning." 

"Wait, wait!" she implored, "I'm afraidI don't knowPerhaps my  being  near her is injurious to her;

perhaps I ought to let some one  else nurse  her.  I wished to ask you this" She stopped breathlessly. 

"I don't think you have done her any harm as yet," he answered  lightly. 

"However," he said, after a moment's consideration, "why don't you  take a  holiday?  Some of the other ladies

might look after her a  while." 

"Do you really think," she palpitated, "that I might?  Do you think  I  ought?  I'm afraid I ought n't" 

"Not if your devotion is hurtful to her?" he asked.  "Send some one  else  to her for a while.  Any one can take

care of her for a few  hours." 

"I couldn't leave herfeeling as I do about her." 

"I don't know how you feel about her," said Dr. Mulbridge.  "But  you  can't go on at this rate.  I shall want your

help by and by, and  Mrs.  Maynard doesn't need you now.  Don't go back to her." 

"But if she should get worse while I am away"  "You think your  staying and feeling bad would make her

better?  Don't go  back," he  repeated; and he went out to his ugly rawboned horse, and,  mounting  his shabby

wagon, rattled away.  She lingered, indescribably put  to  shame by the brutal common sense which she could

not impeach, but  which she still felt was no measure of the case.  It was true that she  had not told him

everything, and she could not complain that he had  mocked her appeal for sympathy if she had trifled with

him by a  partial  confession.  But she indignantly denied to herself that she  had wished to  appeal to him for

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She wandered out on the piazza, which she found empty, and stood  gazing  at the sea in a revery of passionate

humiliation.  She was in  that mood,  familiar to us all, when we long to be consoled and even  flattered for

having been silly.  In a woman this mood is near to  tears; at a touch of  kindness the tears come, and

momentous questions  are decided.  What was  perhaps uppermost in the girl's heart was a  detestation of the

man to  whom she had seemed a simpleton; her  thoughts pursued him, and divined  the contempt with which

he must be  thinking of her and her pretensions.  She heard steps on the sand, and  Libby came round the corner

of the house  from the stable. 

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Libby's friends had broken up their camp on the beach, and had gone  to a  lake in the heart of the woods for

the fishing.  He had taken a  room at  the Long Beach House, but he spent most of his time at  Jocelyn's, where

he kept his mare for use in going upon errands for  Mrs. Maynard.  Grace  saw him constantly, and he was

always doing  little things for her with a  divination of her unexpressed desires  which women find too rarely in

men.  He brought her flowers, which,  after refusing them for Mrs. Maynard the  first time, she accepted for

herself.  He sometimes brought her books,  the light sort which form  the sentimental currency of young people,

and  she lent them round  among the other ladies, who were insatiable of them.  She took a  pleasure in these

attentions, as if they had been for some one  else.  In this alien sense she liked to be followed up with a chair to

the  point where she wished to sit; to have her hat fetched, or her shawl;  to drop her work or her handkerchief,

secure that it would be picked  up  for her. 

It all interested her, and it was a relief from the circumstances  that  would have forbidden her to recognize it

as gallantry, even if  her own  mind had not been so far from all thought of that.  His  kindness followed  often

upon some application of hers for his advice  or help, for she had  fallen into the habit of going to him with

difficulties.  He had a prompt  common sense that made him very useful  in emergencies, and a sympathy or  an

insight that was quick in  suggestions and expedients.  Perhaps she  overrated other qualities of  his in her

admiration of the practical  readiness which kept his  amiability from seeming weak.  But the practical  had so

often been the  unattainable with her that it was not strange she  should overrate it,  and that she should rest

upon it in him with a trust  that included all  he chose to do in her behalf. 

"What is the matter, Mr. Libby?" she asked, as he came toward her. 

"Is anything the matter?" he demanded in turn. 

"Yes; you are looking downcast," she cried reproachfully. 

"I didn't know that I mustn't look downcast.  I did n't suppose it  would  be very polite, under the circumstances,

to go round looking as  bobbish  as I feel." 

"It's the best thing you could possibly do.  But you're not feeling  very  bobbish now."  A woman respects the

word a man uses, not because  she  would have chosen it, but because she thinks that he has an exact  intention

in it, which could not be reconveyed in a more feminine  phrase.  In this way slang arises.  "Is n't it time for Mr.

Maynard to  be here?" 

"Yes," he answered.  Then, "How did you know I was thinking of  that?" 

"I did n't.  I only happened to think it was time.  What are you  keeping  back, Mr. Libby?" she pursued

tremulously. 

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have n't been any  accidents  reported.  And I should n't keep anything back from you." 

"Why?" 

"Because you would be equal to it, whatever it was." 

"I don't see why you say that."  She weakly found comfort in the  praise  which she might once have resented as

patronage. 

"I don't see why I should n't," he retorted: 

"Because I am not fit to be trusted at all." 

"Do you mean" 

"Oh, I haven't the strength, to mean anything," she said.  "But I  thank  you, thank you very much," she added.

She turned her head away. 

"Confound Maynard!" cried the young man.  "I don't see why he does  n't  come.  He must have started four

days ago.  He ought to have' had  sense  enough to telegraph when he did start.  I did n't tell his  partner to ask

him.  You can't think of everything.  I've been trying  to find out  something.  I'm going over to Leyden, now, to

try to wake  up somebody in  Cheyenne who knows Maynard."  He looked ruefully at  Grace, who listened  with

anxious unintelligence.  "You're getting worn  out, Miss Breen," he  said.  "I wish I could ask you to go with me

to  Leyden.  It would do you  good.  But my mare's fallen lame; I've just  been to see her.  Is there  anything I can

do for you over there?" 

"Why, how are you going?" she asked. 

"In my boat," he answered consciously. 

"The same boat?" 

"Yes.  I've had her put to rights.  She was n't much damaged." 

She was silent a moment, while he stood looking down at her in the  chair  into which she had sunk.  "Does it

take you long?" 

"Oh, no.  It's shorter than it is by land.  I shall have the tide  with me  both ways.  I can make the run there and

back in a couple of  hours." 

"Two hours?" 

"Yes." 

A sudden impulse, unreasoned and unreasonable, in which there  seemed hope  of some such atonement, or

expiation, as the same ascetic  nature would  once have found in fasting or the scourge, prevailed with  her.  She

rose.  "Mr. Libby," she panted, "if you will let me, I should  like to go with  you in your boat.  Do you think it

will be rough?" 

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"I'm not afraid.  I should not care if it were rough!  I should not  care  if it stormed!  I hope it I will ask mother

to stay with Mrs.  Maynard." 

Mrs. Breen had not been pleased to have her daughter in charge of  Mrs.  Maynard's case, but she had not liked

her giving it up.  She had  said  more than once that she had no faith in Dr. Mulbridge.  She  willingly  consented

to Grace's prayer, and went down into Mrs.  Maynard's room, and  insinuated misgivings in which the sick

woman  found so much reason that  they began for the first time to recognize  each other's good qualities.  They

decided that the treatment was not  sufficiently active, and that she  should either have something that  would

be more loosening to the cough,  or some applicationlike  mustard plastersto her feet, so as to take  away

that stuffed feeling  about the head. 

At that hour of the afternoon, when most of the ladies were lying  down in  their rooms, Grace met no one on

the beach but Miss Gleason  and Mrs.  Alger, who rose from their beds of sand under the cliff at  her passage

with Mr. Libby to his dory. 

"Don't you want to go to Leyden?" he asked jocosely over his  shoulder. 

"You don't mean to say you're going?" Miss Gleason demanded of  Grace. 

"Yes, certainly.  Why not?" 

"Well, you are brave!" 

She shut her novel upon her thumb, that she might have nothing to  do but  admire Grace's courage, as the girl

walked away. 

"It will do her good, poor thing," said the elder woman.  "She  looks  wretchedly." 

"I can understand just why she does it," murmured Miss Gleason in  adoring  rapture. 

"I hope she does it for pleasure," said Mrs. Alger. 

"It is n't that," returned Miss Gleason mysteriously. 

"At any rate, Mr. Libby seemed pleased." 

"Oh, she would never marry HIM!" said Miss Gleason. 

The other laughed, and at that moment Grace also laughed.  The  strong~current of her purpose, the sense of

escape from the bitter  servitude of the past week, and the wild hope of final expiation  through  the chances she

was tempting gave her a buoyancy long unfelt.  She  laughed in gayety of heart as she helped the young man

draw his  dory down  the sand, and then took her place at one end while he gave  it the last  push and then

leaped in at the other.  He pulled out to  where the boat  lay tilting at anchor, and held the dory alongside by  the

gunwale that  she might step aboard.  But after rising she  faltered, looking intently  at the boat as if she missed

something  there. 

"I thought you had a man to sail your boat" 

"I had.  But I let him go last week.  Perhaps I ought to have told  you,"  he said, looking up at her aslant.  "Are

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"Oh, I'm not afraid," said Grace.  She stepped from the dory into  the  boat, and he flung out the dory's anchor

and followed.  The sail  went up  with a pleasant clucking of the tackle, and the light wind  filled it.  Libby made

the sheet fast, and, sitting down in the stern  on the other  side, took the tiller and headed the boat toward the

town  that shimmered  in the distance.  The water hissed at the bow, and  seethed and sparkled  from the stern;

the land breeze that bent their  sail blew cool upon her  cheek and freshened it with a tinge of color. 

"This will do you good," he said, looking into hers with his kind,  gay  eyes. 

The color in her cheeks deepened a little.  "Oh, I am better than I  look.  I did n't come for"  "For medicinal

purposes.  Well, I am glad  of it.  We've a good hour  between us and news or no news from Maynard,  and I

should like to think  we were out for pleasure.  You don't  object?" 

"No.  You can even smoke, if that will heighten the illusion." 

"It will make it reality.  But you don't mean it?" 

"Yes; why not?" 

"I don't know.  But I could n't have dreamt of smoking in your  presence.  And we take the liberty to dream

very strange things." 

"Yes," she said, "it's shocking what things we do dream of people.  But  am I so forbidding?" she asked, a little

sadly. 

"Not now," said Libby.  He got out a pouch of tobacco and some  cigarette  papers, and putting the tiller under

his arm, he made  himself a  cigarette. 

"You seem interested," he said, as he lifted his eyes from his  work, on  which he found her intent, and struck

his fusee. 

"I was admiring your skill," she answered. 

"Do you think it was worth a voyage to South America?" 

"I shouldn't have thought the voyage was necessary." 

"Oh, perhaps you think you can do it," he said, handing her the  tobacco  and papers.  She took them and made

a cigarette.  "It took me  a whole day  to learn to make bad ones, and this, is beautiful.  But I  will never  smoke

it.  I will keep this always." 

"You had better smoke it, if you want more," she said. 

"Will you make some more?  I can't smoke the first one!" 

"Then smoke the last," she said, offering him the things back. 

"No, go on.  I'll smoke it." 

She lent herself to the idle humor of the time, and went on making  cigarettes till there were no more papers.

From time to time she  looked  up from this labor, and scanned the beautiful bay, which they  had almost

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up to the town.  A yacht, trim and  swift, cut across their course; the ladies on board  waved a salutation  with

their handkerchiefs, and Libby responded. 

"Do you know them?" asked Grace. 

"No!" he laughed.  "But ladies like to take these liberties at a  safe  distance." 

"Yes, that's a specimen of woman's daring," she said, with a self  scornful curl of the lip, which presently

softened into a wistful  smile.  "How lovely it all is!" she sighed. 

"Yes, there's nothing better in all the world than a sail.  It is  all the  world while it lasts.  A boat's like your own

fireside for  snugness." 

A dreamier light came into her eye, which wandered, with a turn of  the  head giving him the tender curve of

her cheek, over the levels of  the  bay, roughened everywhere by the breeze, but yellowish green in  the

channels and dark with the thick growth of eelgrass in the  shallows;  then she lifted her face to the pale blue

heavens in an  effort that  slanted towards him the soft round of her chin, and showed  her full  throat. 

"This is the kind of afternoon," she said, still looking at the  sky,  "that you think will never end." 

"I wish it would n't," he answered. 

She lowered her eyes to his, and asked: "Do you have times when you  are  sorry that you ever tried to do

anythingwhen it seems foolish to  have  tried?" 

"I have the other kind of times,when I wish that I had tried to  do  something." 

"Oh yes, I have those, too.  It's wholesome to be ashamed of not  having  tried to do anything; but to be

ashamed of having triedit's  like death.  There seems no recovery from that." 

He did not take advantage of her confession, or try to tempt her to  further confidence; and women like men

who have this wisdom, or this  instinctive generosity, and trust them further. 

"And the worst of it is that you can't go back and be like those  that  have never tried at all.  If you could, that

would be some  consolation  for having failed.  There is nothing left of you but your  mistake." 

"Well," he said, "some people are not even mistakes.  I suppose  that  almost any sort of success looks a good

deal like failure from  the  inside.  It must be a poor creature that comes up to his own mark.  The  best way is

not to have any mark, and then you're in no danger of  not  coming up to it."  He laughed, but she smiled sadly. 

"You don't believe in thinking about yourself," she said. 

"Oh, I try a little introspection, now and then.  But I soon get  through:  there isn't much of me to think about." 

"No, don't talk in that way," she pleaded, and she was very  charming in  her earnestness: it was there that her

charm lay.  "I want  you to be  serious with me, and tell metell me how men feel when." 

A sudden splashing startled her, and looking round she saw a  multitude of  curious, greateyed, black heads,

something like the  heads of boys, and  something like the heads of dogs, thrusting from  the water, and

flashing  under it again at sight of them with a swish  that sent the spray into the  air.  She sprang to her feet.

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pushed  him in the direction in which she  wished him to look, at some risk of  pushing him overboard, while

he  laughed at her ecstasy. 

"They're seals.  The bay's full of them.  Did you never see them on  the  reef at Jocelyn's?" 

"I never saw them before!" she cried.  "How wonderful they are!  Oh!" she  shouted; as one of them glanced

sadly at her over its  shoulder, and then  vanished with a whirl of the head.  "The Beatrice  Cenci attitude!" 

"They 're always trying that," said Libby. "Look yonder."  He  pointed to  a bank of mud which the tide had not

yet covered, and where  a herd of  seals lay basking in the sun.  They started at his voice,  and wriggling  and

twisting and bumping themselves over the earth to  the water's edge,  they plunged in.  "Their walk isn't so

graceful as  their swim.  Would you  like one for a pet, Miss Breen?  That's all  they 're good for since  kerosene

came in.  They can't compete with  that, and they're not the kind  that wear the cloaks." 

She was standing with her hand pressed hard upon his shoulder. 

"Did they ever kill them?" 

"They used to take that precaution." 

"With those eyes?  It was murder!  "She withdrew her hand and sat  down. 

"Well, they only catch them, now.  I tried it myself once.  I set  out at  low tide, about ten o'clock, one night, and

got between the  water and the  biggest seal on the bank.  We fought it out on that line  till daylight." 

"And did you get it?" she demanded, absurdly interested. 

"No, it got me.  The tide came in, and the seal beat." 

"I am glad of that." 

"Thank you." 

"What did you want with it?" 

"I don't think I wanted it at all.  At any rate, that's what I  always  said.  I shall have to ask you to sit on this

side," he added,  loosening  the sheet and preparing to shift the sail.  "The wind has  backed round a  little more

to the south, and it's getting lighter." 

"If it's going down we shall be late," she said, with an intimation  of  apprehension. 

"We shall be at Leyden on time.  If the wind falls then, I can get  a  horse at the stable and have you driven

back." 

"Well." 

He kept scanning the sky.  Then, "Did you ever hear them whistle  for a  wind?" he asked. 

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"When Adams does it, it's like this."  He put on a furtive look,  and  glanced once or twice at her askance.

"Well!" he said with the  reproduction of a strong nasal, "of course I don't believe there's  anything in it.  Of

course it's all foolishness.  Now you must urge me  a  little," he added, in his own manner. 

"Oh, by all means go on, Mr. Adams," she cried, with a laugh. 

He rolled his head again to one side sheepishly. 

"Well, I don't presume it DOES have anything to do with the  windwell, I  don't PRESUME it does."  He

was silent long enough to  whet an imagined  expectation; then he set his face towards the sky,  and began a

soft, low,  coaxing sibilation between his teeth.  "Ssss; ssssss!  Well, it  don't stand to reason it can

bring  the windSssssss; ssss.  Why, of course it 's all  foolishness.  Ssss."  He continued to

emit  these sibilants,  interspersing them with Adams's protests.  Suddenly the  sail pulled  the loose sheet taut

and the boat leaped forward over the  water. 

"Wonderful!" cried the girl. 

"That's what I said to Adams, or words to that effect.  But I  thought we  should get it from the look of the sky

before I proposed to  whistle for  it.  Now, then," he continued, "I will be serious, if you  like." 

"Serious?" 

"Yes.  Didn't you ask me to be serious just before those seals  interrupted you?" 

"Oh!" she exclaimed, coloring a little.  "I don't think we can go  back to  that, now."  He did not insist, and she

said presently, "I  thought the  sailors had a superstition about ships that are lucky and  unlucky.  But  you've

kept your boat" 

"I kept her for luck: the lightning never strikes twice in the same  place.  And I never saw a boat that behaved

so well." 

"Do you call it behaving well to tip over?" 

"She behaved well before that.  She didn't tip over outside the  reef" 

"It certainly goes very smoothly," said the girl.  She had in vain  recurred to the tragic motive of her coming;

she could not revive it;  there had been nothing like expiation in this eventless voyage; it had  been a pleasure

and no penance.  She abandoned herself with a weak  luxury  to the respite from suffering and anxiety; she

made herself the  good  comrade of the young man whom perhaps she even tempted to flatter  her  farther and

farther out of the dreariness in which she had dwelt;  and if  any woful current of feeling swept beneath, she

would not  fathom it, but  resolutely floated, as one may at such times, on the  surface.  They  laughed together

and jested; they talked in the gay  idleness of such rare  moods. 

They passed a yacht at anchor, and a young fellow in a white duck  cap,  leaning over the rail, saluted Libby

with the significant gravity  which  one young man uses towards another whom he sees in a sailboat  with a

pretty girl. 

She laughed at this.  "Do you know your friend?" she asked. 

"Yes.  This time I do?"  "He fancies you are taking some young lady  a sail.  What would he say if  you were to

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"Oh, he knows who you are.  It's Johnson." 

"The one whose clothes you came over in, that morning?" 

"Yes.  I suppose you laughed at me." 

"I liked your having the courage to do it.  But how does he know  me?" 

"II described you.  He's rather an old friend."  This also amused  her.  "I should like to hear how you

described me." 

"I will tell you sometime.  It was an elaborate description.  I  could n't  get through with it now before we

landed." 

The old town had come out of the haze of the distance,a  straggling  village of weatherbeaten wood and

weatherbeaten white  paint,  picturesque, but no longer a vision of gray stone and pale  marble.  A  coalyard,

and a brick locomotive house, and rambling  railroad sheds  stretched along the waterfront.  They found their

way  easily enough  through the sparse shipping to the steps at the end of  the wooden pier,  where Libby

dropped the sail and made his boat fast. 

A little pleasant giddiness, as if the lightness of her heart had  mounted  to her head, made her glad of his arm

up these steps and up  the wharf;  and she kept it as they climbed the sloping elmshaded  village street to  the

main thoroughfare, with its brick sidewalks, its  shops and awnings,  and its cheerful stir and traffic. 

The telegraph office fronted the head of the street which they had  ascended.  "You can sit here in the

apothecary's till I come down," he  said. 

"Do you think that will be professionally appropriate?  I am only a  nurse  now." 

"No, I wasn't thinking of that.  But I saw a chair in there.  And  we can  make a pretense of wanting some soda.

It is the proper thing  to treat  young ladies to soda when one brings them in from the  country." 

"It does have that appearance," she assented, with a smile.  She  kept him  waiting with what would have

looked like coquettish  hesitation in  another, while she glanced at the windows overhead,  pierced by a skein of

converging wires.  "Suppose I go up with you?" 

"I should like that better," he said; and she followed him lightly  up the  stairs that led to the telegraph office.  A

young man stood at  the  machine with a cigar in his mouth, and his eyes intent upon the  ribbon of  paper

unreeling itself before him. 

"Just hold on," he said to Libby, without turning his head.  "I've  got  something here for you."  He read:

"Despatch received yesterday.  Coming  right through.  George Maynard." 

"Good!" cried Libby. 

"Dated Council Bluffs.  Want it written out?" 

"No.  What 's to pay?" ` 

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The laconically transacted business ended with this, the wire began  to  cluck again like the anxious hen whose

manner the most awful and  mysterious of the elements assumes in becoming articulate, and nothing  remained

for them but to come away. 

"That was what I was afraid of," said Libby.  "Maynard was at his  ranch,  and it must have been a good way

out.  They're fifty or sixty  miles out,  sometimes.  That would account for the delay.  Well, Mrs.  Maynard

doesn't  know how long it takes to come from Cheyenne, and we  can tell her he's on  the way, and has

telegraphed."  They were walking  rapidly down the street  to the wharf where his boat lay.  "Oh!" he

exclaimed, halting abruptly.  "I promised to send you back by land, if  you preferred." 

"Has the wind fallen?" 

"Oh, no.  We shall have a good breeze:" 

"I won't put you to the trouble of getting a horse.  I can go back  perfectly well in the boat." 

"Well, that's what I think," he said cheerily. 

She did not respond, and he could not be aware that any change had  come  over her mood.  But when they

were once more seated in the boat,  and the  sail was pulling in the fresh breeze, she turned to him with a

scarcely  concealed indignation.  "Have you a fancy for experimenting  upon people,  Mr. Libby?" 

"Experimenting?  I?  I don't know in the least what you mean!" 

"Why did you tell me that the operator was a woman?" 

"Because the other operator is," he answered. 

"Oh!" she said, and fell blankly silent. 

"There is a good deal of business there.  They have to have two  operators," he explained, after a pause. 

"Why, of course," she murmured in deep humiliation.  If he had  suffered  her to be silent as long as she would,

she might have offered  him some  reparation; but he spoke. 

"Why did you think I had been experimenting on you?" he asked. 

"Why?" she repeated.  The sense of having put herself in the wrong  exasperated her with him.  "Oh, I dare say

you were curious.  Don't  you  suppose I have noticed that men are puzzled at me?  What did you  mean by

saying that you thought I would be equal to anything?" 

"I meantI thought you would like to be treated frankly." 

"And you would n't treat everybody so?" 

"I wouldn't treat Mrs. Maynard so." 

"Oh!" she said.  "You treat me upon a theory." 

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"Yes, I know" 

"And I should tell you the worst of anything at once, because I  think you  are one of the kind that don't like to

have their  conclusions made for  them." 

"And you would really let women make their own conclusions," she  said.  "You are very peculiar!"  She

waited a while, and then she  asked, "And  what is your theory of me?" 

"That you are very peculiar." 

"How?" 

"You are proud." 

"And is pride so very peculiar?" 

"Yes; in women." 

"Indeed!  You set up for a connoisseur of female character.  That's  very  common, nowadays.  Why don't you

tell me something more about  Yourself?  We're always talking about me." 

He might well have been doubtful of her humor.  He seemed to decide  that  she was jesting, for he answered

lightly, "Why, you began it." 

"I know I did, this time.  But now I wish to stop it, too." 

He looked down at the tiller in his hands.  "Well," he said, "I  should  like to tell you about myself.  I should like

to know what you  think of  the kind of man I am.  Will you be honest if I will?" 

"That's a very strange condition," she answered, meeting and then  avoiding the gaze he lifted to her face. 

"What?  Being honest?" 

"Well, noOr, yes!" 

"It is n't for you." 

"Thank you.  But I'm not under discussion now." 

"Well, in the first place," he began, "I was afraid of you when we  met." 

"Afraid of me?" 

"That is n't the word, perhaps.  We'll say ashamed of myself.  Mrs.  Maynard told me about you, and I thought

you would despise me for not  doing or being anything in particular.  I thought you must." 

"Indeed!" 

He hesitated, as if still uncertain of her mood from this  intonation, and  then he went on: "But I had some little

hope you would  tolerate me, after  all.  You looked like a friend I used to have. Do  you mind my telling

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"Oh, no.  Though I can't say that it's ever very comfortable to be  told  that you look like some one else." 

"I don't suppose any one else would have been struck by the  resemblance,"  said Libby, with a laugh of

reminiscence.  "He was huge.  But he had eyes  like a girl,I beg your pardon,like yours." 

"You mean that I have eyes like a man." 

He laughed, and said, "No," and then turned grave.  "As long as he  lived" 

"Oh, is he dead?" she asked more gently than she had yet spoken. 

"Yes, he died just before I went abroad.  I went out on business  for my  father,he's an importer and

jobber,and bought goods for  him.  Do you  despise business?" 

"I don't know anything about it." 

"I did it to please my father, and he said I was a very good buyer.  He  thinks there's nothing like

buyingexcept selling.  He used to  sell  things himself, over the counter, and not so long ago, either. 

I fancied it made a difference for me when I was in college, and  that the  yardstick came between me and

society.  I was an ass for  thinking  anything about it.  Though I did n't really care, much.  I  never liked  society,

and I did like boats and horses.  I thought of a  profession,  once.  But it would n't work.  I've been round the

world  twice, and I've  done nothing but enjoy myself since I left  college,or try to.  When I  first saw you I

was hesitating about  letting my father make me of use.  He wants me to become one of the  most respectable

members of society, he  wants me to be a  cottonspinner.  You know there 's nothing so  irreproachable as

cotton, for a business?" 

"No.  I don't know about those things." 

"Well, there is n't.  When I was abroad, buying and selling, I made  a  little discovery: I found that there were

goods we could make and  sell in  the European market cheaper than the English, and that gave my  father the

notion of buying a mill to make them.  I'm boring you!" 

"No." 

"Well, he bought it; and he wants me to take charge of it." 

"And shall you?" 

"Do you think I'm fit for it?" 

"I?  How should I know?" 

"You don't know cotton; but you know me a little.  Do I strike you  as fit  for anything?" She made no reply to

this, and he laughed.  "I  assure you  I felt small enough when I heard what you had done, and  thoughtwhat I

had done.  It gave me a start; and I wrote my father  that night that I  would go in for it." 

"I once thought of going to a factory town," she answered, without  wilful  evasion, "to begin my practice there

among the operatives'  children.  I  should have done it if it had not been for coming here  with Mrs. Maynard.  It

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"Come to my factory town, Miss Breen!  There ought to be fevers  there in  the autumn, with all the low lands

that I'm allowed to flood  Mrs. Maynard  told me about your plan." 

"Pray, what else did Mrs. Maynard tell you about me?" 

"About your taking up a profession, in the way you did, when you  needn't,  and when you did n't particularly

like it." 

"Oh!" she said.  Then she added, "And because I was n't obliged to  it,  and did n't like it, you tolerated me?" 

"Tolerated?" he echoed. 

This vexed her.  "Yes, tolerate!  Everybody, interested or not, has  to  make up his mind whether to tolerate me

as soon as he hears what I  am.  What excuse did you make for me?" 

"I did n't make any," said Libby. 

"But you had your misgiving, your surprise." 

"I thought if you could stand it, other people might.  I thought it  was  your affair." 

"Just as if I had been a young man?" 

"No!  That wasn't possible." 

She was silent.  Then, "The conversation has got back into the old  quarter," she said.  "You are talking about

me again.  Have you heard  from your friends since they went away?" 

"What friends?" 

"Those you were camping with." 

"No." 

"What did they say when they heard that you had found a young  doctress at  Jocelyn's?  How did you break the

fact to them?  What  jokes did they  make?  You need n't be afraid to tell me!" she cried.  "Give me Mr.

Johnson's comments." 

He looked at her in surprise that incensed her still more, and  rendered  her incapable of regarding the pain

with which he answered  her.  "I 'm  afraid," he said, "that I have done something to offend  you." 

"Oh no!  What could you have done?" 

"Then you really mean to ask me whether I would let any one make a  joke  of you in my presence?" 

"Yes; why not?" 

"Because it was impossible," he answered. 

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"BecauseI love you." 

She had been looking him defiantly in the eyes, and she could not  withdraw her gaze.  For the endless moment

that ensued, her breath was  taken away.  Then she asked in a low, steady voice, "Did you mean to  say  that?" 

"No." 

"I believe you, and I forgive you.  No, no!" she cried, at a  demonstration of protest from him, "don't speak

again!" 

He obeyed, instantly, implicitly.  With the tiller in his hand he  looked  past her and guided the boat's course.  It

became intolerable. 

"Have I ever done anything that gave you the right totosay  that?" she  asked, without the selfcommand

which she might have wished  to show. 

"No," he said, "you were only the most beautiful" 

"I am not beautiful!  And if I were" 

"It wasn't to be helped!  I saw from the first how good and noble  you  were, and" 

"This is absurd!" she exclaimed.  "I am neither good nor noble; and  if I  were"  "It wouldn't make any

difference.  Whatever you are, you  are the one  woman in the world to me; and you always will be." 

"Mr. Libby!" 

"Oh, I must speak now!  You were always thinking, because you had  studied  a man's profession, that no one

would think of you as a woman,  as if that  could make any difference to a man that had the soul of a  man in

him!" 

"No, no!" she protested.  "I did n't think that.  I always expected  to be  considered as a woman." 

"But not as a woman to fall in love with.  I understood.  And that  somehow made you all the dearer to me.  If

you had been a girl like  other  girls, I should n't have cared for you." 

"Oh!" 

"I did n't mean to speak to you today.  But sometime I did mean to  speak; because, whatever I was, I loved

you; and I thought you did n't  dislike me." 

"I did like you," she murmured, "very much.  And I respected you.  But  you can't say that I ever gave you any

hope in thisthisway."  She  almost asked him if she had. 

"No,not purposely.  And if you did, it 's over now.  You have  rejected  me.  I understand that.  There's no

reason why you shouldn't.  And I can  hold my tongue."  He did not turn, but looked steadily past  her at the

boat's head. 

An emotion stirred in her breast which took the form of a reproach.  "Was it fair, then, to say this when neither

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"I did n't mean to speak," he said, without looking up, "and I  never  meant to place you where you could n't

escape." 

It was true that she had proposed to go with him in the boat, and  that  she had chosen to come back with him,

when he had offered to have  her  driven home from Leyden.  "No, you are not to blame," she said, at  last.  "I

asked to some with you.  Shall I tell you why ?" Her voice  began to  break.  In her pity for him and her shame

for herself the  tears started  to her eyes.  She did not press her question, but,  "Thank you for  reminding me that

I invited myself to go with you," she  said, with feeble  bitterness. 

He looked up at her in silent wonder, and she broke into a sob.  He  said  gently, "I don't suppose you expect

me to deny that.  You don't  think me  such a poor dog as that." 

"Why, of course not," she answered, with quivering lips, while she  pressed her handkerchief to her eyes. 

"I was only too glad to have you come.  I always meant to tell  youwhat  I have told; but not when I should

seem to trap you into  listening." 

"No," she murmured, "I can believe that of you.  I do believe it.  I take  back what I said.  Don't let us speak of it

any more now," she  continued,  struggling for her lost composure, with what success  appeared in the  fresh

outburst with which she recognized his  forbearance to hint at any  painfulness to himself in the situation. 

"I don't mind it so much on my account, but oh!  how could you for  your  own sake ?  Do let us get home as

fastas we can!" 

"I am doing everything I can to release you," he said.  "If you  will sit  here," he added, indicating the place

beside him in the  stern, "you won't  have to change so much when I want to tack." 

She took the other seat, and for the first time she noticed that  the wind  had grown very light.  She watched

him with a piteous  impatience while he  shifted the sail from side to side, keeping the  sheet in his hand for

convenience in the frequent changes.  He scanned  the sky, and turned  every current of the ebbing tide to

account.  It  was useless; the boat  crept, and presently it scarcely moved. 

"The wind is down," he said, making the sheet fast, and relaxing  his hold  on the tiller 

And And the tide is going out!" she exclaimed. 

"The tide is going out," he admitted. 

"If we should get caught on these flats," she began, with rising  indignation. 

"We should have to stay till the tide turned." 

She looked wildly about for aid.  If there were a rowboat anywhere  within hail, she could be taken to

Jocelyn's in that.  But they were  quite alone on those lifeless waters. 

Libby got out a pair of heavy oars from the bottom of the boat,  and,  setting the rowlocks on either side,

tugged silently at them. 

The futile effort suggested an idea to her which doubtless she  would not  have expressed if she had not been

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"Why don't you whistle for a wind?" 

He stared at her in sad astonishment to make sure that she was in  earnest, and then, "Whistle!" he echoed

forlornly, and broke into a  joyless laugh. 

"You knew the chances of delay that I took in asking to come with  you,"  she cried, "and you should have

warned me.  It was  ungenerousit was  ungentlemanly!" 

"It was whatever you like.  I must be to blame.  I suppose I was  too glad  to have you come.  If I thought

anything, I thought you must  have some  particular errand at Leyden.  You seemed anxious to go, even  if it

stormed." 

"If it had stormed," she retorted, " I should not have cared!  I  hoped it  would storm.  Then at least I should

have run the same  danger,I hoped  it would be dangerous." 

"I don't understand what you mean," he said. 

"I forced that wretched creature to go with you that day when you  said it  was going to be rough; and I shall

have her blood upon my  hands if she  dies" 

"Is it possible," cried Libby, pulling in his useless oars, and  leaning  forward upon them, "that she has gone on

letting you think I  believed  there was going to be a storm?  She knew perfectly well that  I didn't  mind what

Adams said; he was always croaking."  She sat  looking at him in  a daze, but she could not speak, and he

continued.  "I see: it happened  by one chance in a million to turn out as he  said; and she has been  making you

pay for it.  Why, I suppose," he  added, with a melancholy  smile of intelligence, "she's had so much

satisfaction in holding you  responsible for what's happened, that  she's almost glad of it!" 

"She has tortured me!" cried the girl.  " But youyou, when you  saw that  I did n't believe there was going to

be any storm, why did  youwhy  didn'tyou" 

I did n't believe it either !  It was Mrs. Maynard that proposed  the  sail, but when I saw that you did n't like it I

was glad of any  excuse  for putting it off.  I could n't help wanting to please you,  and I  couldn't see why you

urged us afterwards; but I supposed you had  some  reason." 

She passed her hand over her forehead, as if to clear away the  confusion  in which all this involved her.  "But

whywhy did you let  me go on  thinking myself to blame" 

"How could I know what you were thinking?  Heaven knows I didn't  dream of  such a thing!  Though I

remember, now, your saying" 

"Oh, I see!" she cried.  "You are a man!  But I can't forgive  it,no, I  can't forgive it!  You wished to deceive

her if you did n't  wish to  deceive me.  How can you excuse yourself for repeating what  you did n't  believe?" 

"I was willing she should think Adams was right." 

"And that was deceit.  What can you say to it?" 

"There is only one thing I could say," he murmured, looking  hopelessly  into her eyes, "and that's of no use." 

She turned her head away.  Her tragedy had fallen to nothing; or  rather  it had never been.  All her remorse, all

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her heart; she longed to make him feel something  of the anguish  she had needlessly undergone. 

He sat watching her averted face.  "Miss Breen," he said huskily,  "will  you let me speak to you?" 

"Oh, you have me in your power," she answered cruelly.  "Say what  you  like." 

He did not speak, nor make any motion to do so. 

A foolish, idle curiosity to know what, after all that had  happened, he  could possibly have to say, stirred

within her, but she  disdainfully  stifled it.  They were both so still that a company of  seals found it  safe to put

their heads above water, and approach near  enough to examine  her with their round soft eyes.  She turned

from the  silly things in  contempt that they should even have interested her.  She felt that from  time to time her

companion lifted an anxious  glance to the dull heavens.  At last the limp sail faintly stirred; it  flapped; it filled

shallowly;  the boat moved.  The sail seemed to have  had a prescience of the wind  before it passed over the

smooth water  like a shadow. 

When a woman says she never will forgive a man, she always has a  condition of forgiveness in her heart.

Now that the wind had risen  again, "I have no right to forbid you to speak," she said, as if no  silence had

elapsed, and she turned round and quietly confronted him;  she  no longer felt so impatient to escape. 

He did not meet her eye at once, and he seemed in no haste to avail  himself of the leave granted him.  A heavy

sadness blotted the gayety  of  a face whose sunny sympathy had been her only cheer for many days.  She

fancied a bewilderment in its hopelessness which smote her with  still  sharper pathos.  "Of course," she said, "I

appreciate your wish  to do  what I wanted, about Mrs. Maynard.  I remember my telling you  that she  ought n't

to go out, that day.  But that was not the way to  do it" 

"There was no other," he said. 

"No," she assented, upon reflection.  "Then it ought n't to have  been  done." 

He showed no sign of intending to continue, and after a moment of  restlessness, she began again. 

"If I have been rude or hasty in refusing to hear you, Mr. Libby, I  am  very wrong.  I must hear anything you

have to say." 

"Oh, not unless you wish." 

"I wish whatever you wish." 

"I'm not sure that I wish that now.  I have thought it over; I  should  only distress you for nothing.  You are

letting me say why  sentence  shouldn't be passed upon me.  Sentence is going to be passed  any way.  I should

only repeat what I have said.  You would pity me,  but you  couldn't help me.  And that would give you pain for

nothing.  No, it  would be useless." 

"It would be useless to talk to me aboutloving."  She took the  word on  her lips with a certain effect of

adopting it for convenience'  sake in  her vocabulary.  "All that was ended for me long ago,ten  years ago.

And my whole life since then has been shaped to do without  it.  I will  tell you my story if you like.  Perhaps

it's your due.  I  wish to be  just.  You may have a right to know." 

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"Well, I am glad of that, though she had no right to do it.  Then  you can  understand." 

"Oh, yes, I can understand.  I don't pretend that I had any reason  in it." 

He forbore again to urge any plea for himself, and once more she  was  obliged to interfere in his behalf.  "Mr.

Libby, I have never  confessed  that I once wronged you in a way that I'm very sorry for." 

"About Mrs. Maynard?  Yes, I know.  I won't try to whitewash  myself; but  it didn't occur to me how it would

look.  I wanted to talk  with her about  you." 

"You ought to have considered her, though," she said gently. 

"She ought to have considered herself," he retorted, with his  unfailing  bitterness for Mrs. Maynard.  "But it

doesn't matter whose  fault it was.  I'm sufficiently punished; for I know that it injured me  with you." 

"It did at first.  But now I can see that I was wrong.  I wished to  tell  you that.  It isn't creditable to me that I

thought you intended  to flirt  with her.  If I had been better myself" 

"You!"  He could not say more. 

That utter faith in her was very charming.  It softened her more  and  more; it made her wish to reason with

him, and try gently to show  him how  impossible his hope was.  "And you know," she said, recurring  to

something that had gone before,"that even if I had cared for you in  the  way you wish, it could n't be.  You

would n't want to have people  laughing and saying I had been a doctress." 

"I shouldn't have minded.  I know how much people's talk is worth." 

"Yes," she said, "I know you would be generous and brave about  that  about anything.  But whatwhat ,if I

could n't give up my  careermy  hopes of being useful in the way I have planned?  You would  n't have  liked

me to go on practising medicine?" 

"I thought of that," he answered simply.  "I didn't see how it  could be  done.  But if you saw any way, I was

willingNo, that was my  great  trouble!  I knew that it was selfish in me, and very conceited,  to  suppose you

would give up your whole life for me; and whenever I  thought  of that, I determined not to ask you.  But I tried

not to  think of that." 

"Well, don't you see?  But if I could have answered you as you  wish, it  wouldn't have been anything to give

up everything for you.  A  woman isn't  something else first, and a woman afterwards.  I  understand how

unselfishly you meant, and indeed, indeed, I thank you.  But don't let's  talk of it any more.  It couldn't have

been, and  there is nothing but  misery in thinking of it.  "Come," she said, with  a struggle for  cheerfulness, "let

us forget it.  Let it be just as if  you hadn't spoken  to me; I know you did n't intend to do it; and let  us go on as

if nothing  had happened." 

"Oh, we can't go on," he answered.  "I shall get away, as soon as  Maynard  comes, and rid you of the sight of

me." 

"Are you going away?" she softly asked.  "Why need you?  I know  that  people always seem to think they can't

be friends aftersuch a  thing as  this.  But why shouldn't we?  I respect you, and I like you  very much.  You

have shown me more regard and more kindness than any  other friend"  "But I wasn't your friend," he

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"Well," she sighed, in gentle perplexity, "then you can't be my  friend?" 

Never.  But I shall always love you.  If it would do any good, I  would  stay, as you ask it.  I should n't mind

myself.  But I should be  a  nuisance to you." 

"No, no!" she exclaimed.  "I will take the risk of that.  I need  your  advice, yoursympathy, yourYou won't

trouble me, indeed you  won't.  Perhaps you have mistaken yourfeeling about me.  It's such a  very  little time

since we met," she pleaded. 

"That makes no difference,the time.  And I'm not mistaken." 

"Well, stay at least till Mrs. Maynard is well, and we can all go  away  together.  Promise me that!"  She

instinctively put out her hand  toward  him in entreaty.  He took it, and pressing it to his lips  covered it with

kisses. 

"Oh!" she grieved in reproachful surprise. 

"There!" he cried.  "You see that I must go!" 

"Yes," she sighed in assent, "you must go." 

They did not look at each other again, but remained in a lamentable  silence while the boat pushed swiftly

before the freshening breeze;  and  when they reached the place where the dory lay, he dropped the  sail and

threw out the anchor without a word. 

He was haggard to the glance she stole at him, when they had taken  their  places in the dory, and he

confronted her, pulling hard at the  oars.  He  did not lift his eyes to hers, but from time to time he  looked over

his  shoulder at the boat's prow, and he rowed from one  point to another for a  good landing.  A dreamy pity for

him filled  her; through the memories of  her own suffering, she divined the  soreness of his heart. 

She started from her reverie as the bottom of the dory struck the  sand.  The shoal water stretched twenty feet

beyond.  He pulled in the  oars and  rose desperately.  "It's of no use: I shall have to carry you  ashore." 

She sat staring up into his face, and longing to ask him something,  to  accuse him of having done this

purposely.  But she had erred in so  many  doubts, her suspicions of him had all recoiled so pitilessly upon  her,

that she had no longer the courage to question or reproach him.  "Oh, no,  thank you," she said weakly.  "I

won't trouble you.  II  will wait till  the tide is out." 

"The tide's out now," he answered with coldness, "and you can't  wade." 

She rose desperately.  "Why, of course!" she cried in  selfcontempt,  glancing at the water, into which he

promptly stepped  to his boottops.  "A woman must n't get her feet wet." 

VIII.

Grace went to her own room to lay aside her shawl and hat, before  going  to Mrs. Maynard, and found her

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"Miss Gleason is reading to her," said Mrs. Breen.  "If she had any  sort  of active treatment, she could get well

at once.  I couldn't take  the  responsibility of doing anything for her, and it was such a worry  to stay  and see

everything going wrong, that when Miss Gleason came in  I was glad  to get away.  Miss Gleason seems to

believe in your Dr.  Mulbridge." 

"My Dr. Mulbridge!" echoed Grace. 

"She talked of him as if he were yours.  I don't know what you've  been  saying to her about him; but you had

better be careful.  The  woman is a  fool."  She now looked up at her daughter for the first  time.  "Why, what  is

the matter with you what kept you so long?  You  look perfectly wild." 

"I feel wild," said Grace calmly.  "The wind went down." 

"Was that all?  I don't see why that should make you feel wild,"  said her  mother, dropping her spectacles to

her sewing again. 

"It was n't all," answered the girl, sinking provisionally upon the  side  of a chair, with her shawl still on her

arm, and her hat in her  hand.  "Mother, have you noticed anything peculiar about Mr. Libby?" 

"He's the only person who seems to be of the slightest use about  here;  I've noticed that," said Mrs. Breen.

"He's always going and  coming for  you and Mrs. Maynard.  Where is that worthless husband of  hers?  Has n't

he had time to come from Cheyenne yet?" 

"He's on the way.  He was out at his ranch when Mr. Libby  telegraphed  first, and had to be sent for.  We found

a despatch from  him at Leyden,  saying he had started," Grace explained. 

"What business had he to be so far away at all?" demanded her  mother.  It was plain that Mrs. Breen was in

her most censorious  temper, which had  probably acquired a sharper edge towards Maynard  from her

reconciliation  with his wife. 

Grace seized her chance to meet the worst.  "Do you think that I  have  done anything to encourage Mr.

Libby?" she asked, looking bravely  at her  mother. 

"Encourage him to do what?" asked Mrs. Breen, without lifting her  eyes  from her work. 

"Encouraged him tothink I cared for him; toto be in love with  me." 

Mrs. Breen lifted her head now, and pushed her spectacles up on her  forehead, while she regarded her

daughter in silence.  "Has he been  making love to you?" 

"Yes." 

Her mother pushed her spectacles down again; and, turning the seam  which  she had been sewing, flattened it

with her thumbnail.  She made  this  action expressive of having foreseen such a result, and of having

struggled against it, neglected and alone.  "Very well, then.  I hope  you  accepted him?" she asked quietly. 

"Mother!" 

"Why not?  You must like him," she continued in the same tone.  "You have  been with him every moment the

last week that you have n't  been with Mrs.  Maynard.  At least I've seen nothing of you, except  when you came

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time." 

"How can you say such a thing, mother?"  cried the girl. 

"Did n't you ask him to let you go with him this afternoon?  You  told me  you did." 

"Yes, I did.  I did it for a purpose." 

"Ah! for a purpose," said Mrs. Breen, taking a survey of the new  seam,  which she pulled from her knee,

where one end of it was pinned,  towards  her chin.  She left the word to her daughter, who was obliged  to take

it. 

"I asked him to let me go with him because Louise had tortured me  about  making her go out in his boat, till I

could n't bear it any  longer.  It  seemed to me that if I took the same risk myself, it would  be something;  and I

hoped there would be a storm." 

"I should think you had taken leave of your senses," Mrs. Breen  observed,  with her spectacles intent upon her

seam.  "Did you think it  would be any  consolation to him if you were drowned, or to her?  And  if," she added,

her conscience rising equal to the vicarious demand  upon it, "you hoped  there would be danger, had you any

right to expose  him to it?  Even if  you chose to risk your own life, you had no right  to risk his."  She  lifted her

spectacles again, and turned their  austere glitter upon her  daughter. 

"Yes, it all seems very silly now," said the girl, with a hopeless  sigh. 

"Silly!" cried her mother.  "I'm glad you can call it silly." 

"And it seemed worse still when he told me that he had never  believed it  was going to storm that day, when

he took Louise out.  His  man said it  was, and he repeated it because he saw I did n't want her  to go." 

"Perhaps," suggested Mrs. Breen, "if he was willing to deceive her  then,  he is willing to deceive you now." 

"He didn't deceive her.  He said what he had heard.  And he said it  because heI wished it." 

"I call it deceiving.  Truth is truth.  That is what I was taught;  and  that's what I supposed I had taught you." 

"I would trust Mr. Libby in anything," returned the daughter.  "He  is  perfectly frank about himself.  He

confessed that he had done it to  please me.  He said that nothing else could excuse it." 

"Oh, then you have accepted him!" 

"No, mother, I haven't.  I have refused him, and he is going away  as soon  as Mr. Maynard comes."  She sat

looking at the window, and the  tears  stole into her eyes, and blurred the sea and sky together where  she saw

their meeting at the horizon line. 

"Well," said her mother, "their that is the end of it, I presume." 

"Yes, that's the end," said Grace.  "ButI felt sorry for him,  mother.  Once," she went on, "I thought I had

everything clear before  me; but now  I seem only to have made confusion of my life.  Yes," she  added drearily,

"it was foolish and wicked, and it was perfectly  useless, too.  I can't  escape from the consequences of what I

did.  It  makes no difference what  he believed or any one believed.  I drove  them on to risk their lives  because I

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must bear the penalty:  and oh, if I could only bear it  alone!"  With a long sigh she took back  the burden which

she had been  struggling to cast off, and from which for  a time she had actually  seemed to escape.  She put

away her hat and  shawl, and stood before  the glass, smoothing her hair.  "When will it  ever end?" she moaned

to  the reflection there, rather than to her mother,  who did not interrupt  this spiritual ordeal.  In another age,

such a New  England girl would  have tortured herself with inquisition as to some  neglected duty to  God;in

ours, when religion is so largely humanified,  this Puritan  soul could only wreak itself in a sense of irreparable

wrong  to her  fellowcreature. 

When she went out she met Miss Gleason halfway down the corridor  to Mrs.  Maynard's door.  The latter had

a book in her hand, and came  forward  whispering.  "She's asleep," she said very sibilantly.  " I  have read her  to

sleep, and she's sleeping beautifully.  Have you ever  read it?" she  asked, with hoarse breaks from her

undertone, as she  held up one of those  cheap libraryeditions of a novel toward Grace. 

"Jane Eyre?  Why, of course.  Long ago." 

"So have I," said Miss Gleason.  "But I sent and got it again, to  refresh  my impressions of Rochester.  We all

think Dr. Mulbridge is  just like  him.  Rochester is my ideal character,a perfect conception  of a man: so

abrupt, so rough, so savage.  Oh, I like those men!  Don't you?" she  fluted.  "Mrs. Maynard sees the

resemblance, as well  as the rest of us.  But I know!  You don't approve of them.  I suppose  they can't be

defended  on some grounds; but I can see how, even in  such a case as this, the  perfect mastery of the

manphysician  constitutes the highest usefulness  of the womanphysician.  The  advancement of women must

be as women.  'Male and female created he  them,' and it is only in remembering this  that we are helping

Gawd,  whether as an anthropomorphic conception or a  universally pervading  instinct of love, don't you

think?" 

With her novel clapped against her breast, she leaned winningly  over  toward Grace, and fixed her with her

wide eyes, which had rings  of white  round the pupils. 

"Do tell me!" she ran on without waiting an answer.  "Didn't you go  with  Mr. Libby because you hoped it

might storm, and wished to take  the same  risk as Mrs. Maynard?  I told Mrs. Alger you did!" 

Grace flushed guiltily, and Miss Gleason cowered a little, perhaps  interpreting the color as resentment.  "I

should consider that a very  silly motive," she said, helplessly ashamed that she was leaving the  weight of the

blow upon Miss Gleason's shoulders instead of her own. 

"Of course," said Miss Gleason enthusiastically, "you can't confess  it.  But I know you are capable of such a

thingof anything heroic!  Do forgive me," she said, seizing Grace's hand.  She held it a moment,  gazing with

a devouring fondness into her face, which she stooped a  little sidewise to peer up into.  Then she quickly

dropped her hand,  and,  whirling away, glided slimly out of the corridor. 

Grace softly opened Mrs. Maynard's door, and the sick woman opened  her  eyes.  "I was n't asleep," she said

hoarsely, "but I had to  pretend to  be, or that woman would have killed me." 

Grace went to her and felt her hands and her flushed forehead. 

"I am worse this evening," said Mrs. Maynard. 

"Oh, no," sighed the girl, dropping into a chair at the bedside,  with  her eyes fixed in a sort of fascination on

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"After getting me here," continued Mrs. Maynard, in the same low,  hoarse  murmur, "you might at least stay

with me a little.  What kept  you so  long?" 

"The wind fell.  We were becalmed." 

"We were not becalmed the day I went out with Mr. Libby.  But  perhaps  nobody forced you to go. 

Having launched this dart, she closed her eyes again with something  more  like content than she had yet

shown: it had an aim of which she  could  always be sure. 

"We have heard from Mr. Maynard," said Grace humbly.  "There was a  despatch waiting for Mr. Libby at

Leyden.  He is on his way." 

Mrs. Maynard betrayed no immediate effect of this other than to  say,  "He had better hurry," and did not open

her eyes. 

Grace went about the room with a leaden weight in every fibre,  putting  the place in order, and Mrs. Maynard

did not speak again till  she had  finished.  Then she said, "I want you to tell me just how bad  Dr.  Mulbridge

thinks I am." 

"He has never expressed any anxiety," Grace began, with her  inaptness at  evasion. 

"Of course he has n't," murmured the sick woman.  "He isn't a fool!  What does he say?" 

This passed the sufferance even of remorse.  "He says you mustn't  talk,"  the girl flashed out.  "And if you insist

upon doing so, I will  leave  you, and send some one else to take care of you." 

"Very well, then.  I know what that means.  When a doctor tells you  not  to talk, it's because he knows he can't

do you any good.  As soon  as  George Maynard gets here I will have some one that can cure me, or  I will  know

the reason why."  The conception of her husband as a  champion seemed  to commend him to her in novel

degree.  She shed some  tears, and after a  little reflection she asked, "How soon will he be  here?" 

"I don't know," said Grace.  "He seems to have started yesterday  morning." 

"He can be here by day after tomorrow," Mrs. Maynard computed.  "There  will be some one to look after

poor little Bella then," she  added, as if,  during her sickness, Bella must have been wholly  neglected.  "Don't

let  the child be all dirt when her father comes." 

"Mother will look after Bella," Grace replied, too meek again to  resent  the implication.  After a pause, "Oh,

Louise," she added  beseechingly,  "I've suffered so much from my own wrongheadedness and  obstinacy that

I  couldn't bear to see you taking the same risk, and  I'm so glad that you  are going to meet your husband in the

right  spirit." 

"What right spirit?" croaked Mrs. Maynard. 

"The wish to please him, to"  "I don't choose to have him say  that his child disgraces him," replied  Mrs.

Maynard, in the low,  husky, monotonous murmur in which she was  obliged to utter everything. 

"But, dear Louise!" cried the other, "you choose something else  too,  don't you?  You wish to meet him as if no

unkindness had parted  you, and  as if you were to be always together after this?  I hope you  do!  Then I  should

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"Other people's misery is always a mercy to them," hoarsely  suggested  Mrs. Maynard. 

"Yes, I know that," Grace submitted, with meek conviction.  "But,  Louise," she pleaded, "you will make up

with your husband, won't you?  Whatever he has done, that will surely be best.  I know that you love  him, and

that he must love you, yet.  It's the only way.  If you were  finally separated from him, and you and he could be

happy apart, what  would become of that poor child ?  Who will take a father's place with  her?  That's the worst

about it.  Oh, Louise, I feel so badly for  you  for what you have lost, and may lose.  Marriage must change

people so  that unless they live to each other, their lives will be  maimed and  useless.  It ought to be so much

easier to forgive any  wrong your husband  does you than to punish it; for that perpetuates  the wrong, and

forgiveness ends it, and it's the only thing that can  end a wrong.  I am  sure that your husband will be ready to

do or say  anything you wish; but  if he shouldn't, Louise, you will receive him  forgivingly, and make the  first

advance?  It's a woman's right to make  the advances in forgiving." 

Mrs. Maynard lay with her hands stretched at her side under the  covering,  and only her face visible above it.

She now turned her head  a little, so  as to pierce the earnest speaker with a gleam from her  dull eye.  "Have

you accepted Walter Libby?" she asked. 

"Louise!" cried Grace, with a blush that burned like fire. 

"That's the way I used to talk when I was first engaged.  Wait till  you're married a while.  I want Bella to have

on her pique, and her  pink  sash,not the cherry one.  I should think you would have studied  to be a  minister

instead of a doctor.  But you need n't preach to me;  I shall  know how to behave to George Maynard when he

comes,if he  ever does  come.  And now I should think you had made me talk enough!" 

"Yes, Yes," said Grace, recalled to her more immediate duty in  alarm. 

All her helpfulness was soon to be needed.  The disease, which had  lingered more than usual in the early

stages, suddenly approached a  crisis.  That night Mrs. Maynard grew so much worse that Grace sent  Libby  at

daybreak for Dr. Mulbridge; and the young man, after leading  out his  own mare to see if her lameness had

abated, ruefully put her  back in the  stable, and set off to Corbitant with the splayfoot at a  rate of speed

unparalleled, probably, in the animal's recollection of  a long and useful  life.  In the two anxious days that

followed, Libby  and Grace were  associated in the freedom of a common interest outside  of themselves;  she

went to him for help and suggestion, and he gave  them, as if nothing  had passed to restrict or embarrass their

relations.  There was that,  in fact, in the awe of the time and an  involuntary disoccupation of hers  that threw

them together even more  constantly than before.  Dr. Mulbridge  remained with his patient well  into the

forenoon; in the afternoon he  came again, and that night he  did not go away.  He superseded Grace as a  nurse

no less completely  than he had displaced her as a physician.  He  let her relieve him when  he flung himself

down for a few minutes' sleep,  or when he went out  for the huge meals which he devoured, preferring the

unwholesome  things with a depravity shocking to the tender physical  consciences of  the ladies who looked

on; but when he returned to his  charge, he  showed himself jealous of all that Grace had done involving  the

exercise of more than a servile discretion.  When she asked him once  if there were nothing else that she could

do, he said, "fires, keep  those  women and children quiet," in a tone that classed her with both.  She  longed to

ask him what he thought of Mrs. May nard's condition;  but she  had not the courage to invoke the intelligence

that ignored  her so  completely, and she struggled in silence with such  disheartening auguries  as her

theoretical science enabled her to make. 

The next day was a Sunday, and the Sabbath hush which always hung  over  Jocelyn's was intensified to the

sense of those who ached between  hope  and fear for the life that seemed to waver and flicker in that  still air.

Dr. Mulbridge watched beside his patient, noting every  change with a wary  intelligence which no fact

escaped and no anxiety  clouded; alert, gentle,  prompt; suffering no question, and absolutely  silent as to all

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matters; but when  from time to time she  escaped from the intolerable tension in which  his reticence and her

own  fear held her, he did not seem to see  whether she went or came.  Toward  nightfall she met him coming

out of  Mrs. Maynard's room, as she drew near  in the narrow corridor. 

"Where is your friendthe young manthe one who smokes?" he  asked, as  if nothing unusual had

occupied him.  "I want him to give me  a cigar." 

"Dr. Mulbridge," she said, "I will not bear this any longer.  I  must know  the worstyou have no right to treat

me in this way.  Tell  me nowtell  me instantly: will she live?" 

He looked at her with an imaginable apprehension of hysterics, but  as she  continued firm, and placed herself

resolutely in his way, he  relaxed his  scrutiny, and said, with a smile, "Oh, I think so.  What  made you think

she would n't?" 

She drew herself aside, and made way far him. 

"Go!" she cried.  She would have said more, but her indignation  choked  her. 

He did not pass at once, and he did not seem troubled at her anger.  "Dr.  Breen," he said, "I saw a good deal of

pneumonia in the army,  and I don't  remember a single case that was saved by the anxiety of  the surgeon." 

He went now, as people do when they fancy themselves to have made a  good  point; and she heard him asking

Barlow for Libby, outside, and  then  walking over the gravel toward the stable.  At that moment she  doubted

and hated him so much that she world have been glad to keep  Libby from  talking or even smoking with him.

But she relented a  little toward him  afterwards, when he returned and resumed the charge  of his patient with

the gentle, vigilant cheerfulness which she had  admired in him from the  first, omitting no care and betraying

none.  He appeared to take it for  granted that Grace saw an improvement, but  he recognized it by nothing

explicit till he rose and said, "I think I  will leave Mrs. Maynard with  you tonight, Dr. Breen." 

The sick woman's eyes turned to him imploringly from her pillow,  and  Grace spoke the terror of both when

she faltered in return, "Are  youyou  are not going home?" 

"I shall sleep in the house." 

"Oh, thank you!" she cried fervently. 

"And you can call me if you wish.  But there won't be any occasion.  Mrs.  Maynard is very much better.  "He

waited to give, in a sort of  absent  minded way, certain directions.  Then he went out, and Grace  sank back

into the chair from which she had started at his rising, and  wept long  and silently with a hidden face.  When

she took away her  hands and dried  her tears, she saw Mrs. Maynard beckoning to her.  She  went to the

bedside. 

"What is it, dear?" she asked tenderly. 

"Stoop down," whispered the other; and as Grace bowed her ear Mrs.  Maynard touched her cheek with her

dry lips.  In this kiss doubtless  she  forgave the wrong which she had hoarded in her heart, and there  perverted

into a deadly injury.  But they both knew upon what terms  the pardon was  accorded, and that if Mrs. Maynard

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IX.

In the morning Dr. Mulbridge drove back to Corbitant, and in the  evening  Libby came over from New

Leyden with Maynard, in a hired  wagon.  He was a  day later than his wife had computed, but as she  appeared

to have  reflected, she had left the intervening Sunday out of  her calculation;  this was one of the few things

she taxed herself to  say.  For the rest,  she seemed to be hoarding her strength against his  coming. 

Grace met him at a little distance from the house, whither she had  walked  with Bella, for a breath of the fresh

air after her long day in  the sick  room, and did not find him the boisterous and jovial Hoosier  she had

imagined him.  It was, in fact, hardly the moment for the  expression of  Western humor.  He arrived a

sleepbroken,  travelcreased figure, with  more than the Western man's usual  indifference to dress; with sad,

dull  eyes, and an untrimmed beard  that hung in points and tags, and thinly hid  the corners of a large  mouth.

He took her hand laxly in his, and bowing  over her from his  lank height listened to her report of his wife's

state,  while he held  his little girl on his left arm, and the child fondly  pressed her  cheek against his bearded

face, to which he had quietly  lifted her as  soon as he alighted from Libby's buggy. 

Libby introduced Grace as Dr. Breen, and drove on, and Maynard gave  her  the title whenever he addressed

her, with a perfect effect of  single  mindedness in his gravity, as if it were an everyday thing  with him to

meet young ladies who were physicians.  He had a certain  neighborly  manner of having known her a long

time, and of being on  good terms with  her; and somewhere there resided in his loosely knit  organism a

powerful  energy.  She had almost to run in keeping at his  side, as he walked on to  the house, carrying his little

girl on his  arm, and glancing about him;  and she was not sure at last that she had  succeeded in making him

understand how serious the case had been. 

"I don't know whether I ought to let you go in," she said, "without  preparing her." 

"She's been expecting me, has n't she?" he asked. 

"Yes, but" 

"And she's awake?" 

"Then I'll just go in and prepare her myself.  I'm a pretty good  hand at  preparing people to meet me.  You've a

beautiful location  here, Dr.  Breen; and your town has a chance to grow.  I like to see a  town have  some

chance," he added, with a sadness past tears in his  melancholy eyes.  "Bella can show me the way to the room,

I reckon," he  said, setting the  little one down on the piazza, and following her  indoors; and when Grace

ventured, later, to knock at the door,  Maynard's voice bade her come in. 

He sat beside his wife's pillow, with her hand in his left; on his  right  arm perched the little girl, and rested her

head on his  shoulder.  They  did not seem to have been talking, and they did not  move when Grace  entered the

room.  But, apparently, Mrs. Maynard had  known how to behave  to George Maynard, and peace was visibly

between  them. 

"Now, you tell me about the medicines, Dr. Breen, and then you go  and get  some rest," said Maynard in his

mild, soothing voice.  "I used  to  understand Mrs. Maynard's ways pretty well, and I can take care of  her.

Libby told me all about you and your doings, and I know you must  feel as  pale as you look." 

"But you can't have had any sleep on the way," Grace began. 

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After she had given him the needed instructions he rose from the  rocking  chair inwhich he had been softly

swinging to and fro, and  followed her  out into the corridor, caressing with his large hand the  child that lay  on

his shoulder.  "Of course," she said, "Mrs. Maynard  is still very  sick, and needs the greatest care and

attention." 

"Yes, I understand that.  But I reckon it will come out all right  in the  end," he said, with the optimistic fatalism

which is the real  religion of  our orientalizing West.  "Goodnight, doctor." 

She went away, feeling suddenly alone in this exclusion from the  cares  that had absorbed her.  There was no

one on the piazza, which  the  moonlight printed with the shadows of the posts and the fanciful  jigsaw  work of

the arches between them.  She heard a step on the sandy  walk  round the corner, and waited wistfully. 

It was Barlow who came in sight, as she knew at once, but she  asked, "Mr.  Barlow?" 

"Yes'm," said Barlow.  "What can I do for you?" 

"Nothing.  I thought it might be Mr. Libby at first.  Do you know  where  he is?" 

"Well, I know where he ain't," said Barlow; and having  ineffectually  waited to be questioned further, he

added, "He ain't  here, for one place.  He's gone back to Leyden.  He had to take that  horse back." 

"Oh!" she said. 

"N' I guess he's goin' to stay." 

"To stay?  Where?" 

"Well, there you've got me again.  All I know is I've got to drive  that  mare of his'n over tomorrow, if I can

git off, and next day if I  can't.  Did n't you know he was goin'?" asked Barlow, willing to  recompense  himself

for the information he had given. 

"Well!" he added sympathetically, at a little hesitation of hers: 

Then she said, "I knew he must go.  Goodnight, Mr. Barlow," and  went  indoors.  She remembered that he had

said he would go as soon as  Maynard  came, and that she had consented that this would be best.  But  his going

now seemed abrupt, though she approved it.  She thought that  she had  something more to say to him, which

might console him or  reconcile him;  she could not think what this was, but it left an  indefinite longing, an

unsatisfied purpose in her heart; and there was  somewhere a tremulous  sense of support withdrawn.  Perhaps

this was a  mechanical effect of the  cessation of her anxiety for Mrs. Maynard,  which had been a support as

well as a burden.  The house was strangely  quiet, as if some great noise  had just been hushed, and it seemed

empty.  She felt timid in her room,  but she dreaded the next day more  than the dark.  Her life was changed,  and

the future, which she had  once planned so clearly, and had felt so  strong to encounter, had  fallen to a ruin, in

which she vainly endeavored  to find some clew or  motive of the past.  She felt remanded to the  conditions of

the  girlhood that she fancied she had altogether outlived;  she turned her  face upon her pillow in a grief of

bewildered aspiration  and broken  pride, and shed tears scarcely predicable of a doctor of  medicine. 

But there is no lapse or aberration of character which can be half  so  surprising to others as it is to one's self.

She had resented  Libby's  treating her upon a theory, but she treated herself upon a  theory, and we  all treat

ourselves upon a theory.  We proceed each of  us upon the theory  that he is very brave, or generous, or gentle,

or  liberal, or truthful,  or loyal, or just.  We may have the defects of  our virtues, but nothing  is more certain

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often imagined  ourselves triumphing against  temptation.  It passes, and the hero finds,  to his dismay and

horror,  that he has run away; the generous man has been  niggard; the gentleman  has behaved like a ruffian,

and the liberal like a  bigot; the champion  of truth has foolishly and vainly lied; the steadfast  friend has

betrayed his neighbor, the just person has oppressed him.  This is the  fruitful moment, apparently so sterile, in

which character  may spring  and flower anew; but the mood of abject humility in which the  theorist  of his

own character is plunged and struggles for his lost self  respect is full of deceit for others.  It cannot last: it

may end in  disowning and retrieving the error, or it may end in justifying it,  and  building it into the

reconstructed character, as something upon  the whole  unexpectedly fine; but it must end, for after all it is

only  a mood.  In  such a mood, in the anguish of her disappointment at  herself, a woman  clings to whatever

support offers, and it is at his  own risk that the man  who chances to be this support accepts the  weight with

which she casts  herself upon him as the measure of her  dependence, though he may make  himself necessary

to her, if he has the  grace or strength to do it.  Without being able to understand fully the  causes of the

dejection in  which this girl seemed to appeal to him,  Mulbridge might well have  believed himself the man to

turn it in his  favor.  If he did not  sympathize with her distress, or even clearly  divine it, still his bold

generalizations, he found, always had their  effect with women, whose  natures are often to themselves such

unknown  territory that a man who  assumes to know them has gone far to master  them.  He saw that a rude

moral force alone seemed to have a charm  with his lady patients,women  who had been bred to ease and

wealth,  and who had cultivated, if not very  disciplined, minds.  Their  intellectual dissipation had apparently

made  them a different race  from the simplerhearted womenkind of his  neighbors, apt to judge men  in a

sharp ignorance of what is fascinating  in heroes; and it would  not be strange if he included Grace in the sort

of contemptuous  amusement with which he regarded theseflatteringly  dependent and  submissive invalids.

He at least did not conceive of her  as she  conceived of herself; but this may be impossible to any man with

regard to any woman. 

With his experience of other women's explicit and even eager  obedience,  the resistance which he had at first

encountered in Grace  gave zest to  her final submission.  Since he had demolished the  position she had

attempted to hold against him, he liked her for  having imagined she could  hold it; and she had continued to

pique and  interest him.  He relished  all her scruples and misgivings, and the  remorse she had tried to confide

to him; and if his enjoyment of these  foibles of hers took too little  account of her pain, it was never his

characteristic to be tender of  people in good health.  He was, indeed,  as alien to her Puritan spirit as  if he had

been born in Naples  instead of Corbitant.  He came of one of  those families which one  finds in nearly every

New England community, as  thoroughly New England  in race as the rest, but flourishing in a hardy

scepticism and  contempt of the general sense.  Whatever relation such  people held to  the old Puritan

commonwealth when Puritanism was absolute,  they must  later have taken an active part in its disintegration,

and were  probably always a destructive force at its heart. 

Mulbridge's grandfather was one of the last captains who sailed a  slaver  from Corbitant.  When this commerce

became precarious, he  retired from  the seas, took a young wife in second marriage, and  passed his declining

days in robust inebriety.  He lived to cast a  dying vote for General  Jackson, and his son, the first Dr.

Mulbridge,  survived to illustrate the  magnanimity of his fellowtownsmen during  the first year of the civil

war, as a tolerated Copperhead.  Then he  died, and his son, who was in  the West, looking up a location for

practice, was known to have gone out  as surgeon with one of the  regiments there.  It was not supposed that he

went from patriotism;  but when he came back, a year before the end of the  struggle, and  settled in his native

place, his service in the army was  accepted  among his old neighbors as evidence of a better disposition of

some  sort than had hitherto been attributable to any of his name. 

In fact, the lazy, goodnatured boy, whom they chiefly remembered  before  his college days, had always been

well enough liked among those  who had  since grown to be first mates and ship captains in the little  port

where  he was born and grew up.  They had now all retired from the  sea, and,  having survived its manifold

perils, were patiently waiting  to be drowned  in sailboats on the bay.  They were of the second  generation of

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changed into  the whaling trade in their  time; this had ceased in turn, and the  wharves had rotted away.  Dr.

Mulbridge found little practice among  them; while attending their  appointed fate, they were so thoroughly

salted against decay as to  preserve even their families.  But he  gradually gathered into his hands,  from the

clairvoyant and the Indian  doctor, the business which they had  shared between them since his  father's death.

There was here and there a  tragical case of  consumption among the farming families along the coast,  and now

and  then a frightful accident among the fishermen; the spring ,  and autumn  brought their typhoid; the city

people who came down to the  neighboring hotels were mostly sick, or fell sick; and with the small  property

his father had left, he and his mother contrived to live. 

They dwelt very harmoniously together; for his mother, who had  passed  more than a quarter of a century in

strong resistance to her  husband's  will, had succumbed, as not uncommonly happens with such  women, to the

authority of her son, whom she had no particular  pleasure or advantage in  thwarting.  In the phrase and belief

of his  neighbors, he took after her,  rather than his father; but there was  something ironical and baffling in

him, which the local experts could  not trace to either the Mulbridges or  the Gardiners.  They had a  quiet,

indifferent faith in his ability to  make himself a position and  name anywhere; but they were not surprised  that

he had come back to  live in Corbitant, which was so manifestly the  best place in the  world, and which, if

somewhat lacking in opportunity,  was ample in the  leisure they believed more congenial to him than  success.

Some of his  lady patients at the hotels, who felt at times that  they could not  live without him, would have

carried him back to the city  with them by  a gentle violence; but there was nothing in anything he said  or did

that betrayed ambition on his part.  He liked to hear them talk,  especially of their ideas of progress, as they

called them, at which,  with the ready adaptability of their sex, they joined him in laughing  when they found

that he could not take them seriously.  The social,  the  emotional expression of the new scientific civilization

struck him  as  droll, particularly in respect to the emancipation of women; and he  sometimes gave these ladies

the impression that he did not value  woman's  intellect at its true worth.  He was far from light treatment  of

them, he  was considerate of the distances that should be guarded;  but he conveyed  the sense of his scepticism

as to their fitness for  some things to which  the boldest of them aspired. 

His mother would have been willing to have him go to the city if he  wished, but she was too ignorant of the

world outside of Corbitant to  guess at his possibilities in it, and such people as she had seen from  it  had not

pleased her with it.  Those summerboarding lady patients  who  came to see him were sometimes suffered to

wait with her till he  came in,  and they used to tell her how happy she must be to keep such  a son with  her, and

twittered their patronage of her and her nice  oldfashioned  parlor, and their praises of his skill in such wise

against her echoless  silence that she conceived a strong repugnance  for all their tribe, in  which she naturally

included Grace when she  appeared.  She had decided  the girl to be particularly forthputting,  from something

prompt and  selfreliant in her manner that day; and she  viewed with tacit disgust  her son's toleration of a

handsome young  woman who had taken up a man's  profession.  They were not people who  gossiped together,

or confided in  each other, and she would have known  nothing and asked nothing from him  about her, further

than she had  seen for herself.  But Barlow had folks,  as he called them, at  Corbitant; and without her own

connivance she had  heard from them of  all that was passing at Jocelyn's. 

It was her fashion to approach any subject upon which she wished  her son  to talk as if they had already talked

of it, and he accepted  this  convention with a perfect understanding that she thus expressed  at once  her

deference to him and her resolution to speak whether he  liked it or  not.  She had not asked him about Mrs.

Maynard's sickness,  or shown any  interest in it; but after she learned from the Barlows  that she was no  longer

in danger, she said to her son one morning,  before he drove away  upon his daily visit, "Is her husband going

to  stay with her, or is he  going back?" 

"I don't know, really," he answered, glancing at her where she sat  erect  across the table from him, with her

hand on the lid of the  coffeepot,  and her eyes downcast; it was the face of silent  determination not to be  put

off, which he knew.  "I don't suppose you  care, mother," he added  pleasantly. 


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"She's nothing to me," she assented.  "What's that friend of hers  going  to do?" 

"Which friend?" 

"You know.  The one that came after you." 

"Oh!  Dr. Breen.  Yes.  What did you think of her?" 

"I don't see why you call her doctor." 

"Oh, I do it out of politeness.  Besides, she is one sort of  doctor.  Little pills," he added, with an enjoyment of

his mother's  grimness on  this point. 

"I should like to see a daughter of mine pretending to be a  doctor," said  Mrs. Mulbridge. 

"Then you would n't like Dr. Breen for a daughter," returned her  son, in  the same tone as before. 

"She wouldn't like me for a mother," Mrs. Mulbridge retorted. 

Her son laughed, and helped himself to more baked beans and a fresh  slice  of ryeandIndian.  He had the

homely tastes and the strong  digestion of  the people from whom he sprung; and be handed his cup to  be filled

with  his mother's strong coffee in easy defiance of  consequences.  As he took  it back from her he said, "I

should like to  see you and Mrs. Breen  together.  You would make a strong team."  He  buttered his bread, with

another laugh in appreciation of his conceit.  "If you happened to pull  the same way.  If you did n't, something

would break.  Mrs. Breen is a  lady of powerful convictions.  She  thinks you ought to be good, and you  ought

to be very sorry for it,  but not so sorry as you ought to be for  being happy.  I don't think  she has given her

daughter any reason to  complain on the last score."  He broke into his laugh again, and watched  his mother's

frown with  interest.  "I suspect that she does n't like me  very well.  You could  meet on common ground there:

you don't like her  daughter." 

"They must be a pair of them," said Mrs. Mulbridge immovably.  "Did  her  mother like her studying for a

doctor?" 

"Yes, I understand so.  Her mother is progressive she believes in  the  advancement of women; she thinks the

men would oppress them if  they got a  chance." 

"If one half the bold things that are running about the country had  masters it would be the best thing," said

Mrs. Mulbridge, opening the  lid  of the coffeepot, and clapping it to with force, after a glance  inside. 

"That's where Mrs. Green wouldn't agree with you.  Perhaps because  it  would make the bold things happy to

have masters, though she does  n't say  so.  Probably she wants the women to have women doctors so  they

won't be  so well, and can have more time to think whether they  have been good or  not.  You ought to hear

some of the ladies over  there talk, mother." 

"I have heard enough of their talk." 

"Well, you ought to hear Miss Gleason.  There are very few things  that  Miss Gleason does n't think can be

done with cut flowers, from a  wedding  to a funeral." 

Mrs. Mulbridge perceived that her son was speaking figuratively of  Miss  Gleason's sentimentality, but she

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interrupted to ask. 

"She's an humble friend, an admirer, a worshipper.  The Breen girl  is her  ideal woman.  She thinks the Breen

girl is so superior to any  man living  that she would like to make a match for her."  His mother  glanced sharply

at him, but he went on in the tone of easy  generalization, and with a  certain pleasure in the projection of these

strange figures against her  distorting imagination: "You see, mother,  that the most advanced thinkers  among

those ladies are not so very  different, after all, from you old  fashioned people.  When they try  to think of the

greatest good fortune  that can befall an ideal woman,  it is to have her married.  The only  trouble is to find a

man good  enough; and if they can't find one, they're  apt to invent one.  They  have strong imaginations." 

"I should think they would make you sick, amongst them," said his  mother.  "Are you going to have anything

more to eat?" she asked, with  a  housekeeper's latent impatience to get her table cleared away. 

"Yes," said Dr. Mulbridge; "I have n't finished yet.  And I'm in no  hurry  this morning.  Sit still, mother; I want

you to hear something  more about  my lady friends at Jocelyn's.  Dr. Breen's mother and Miss  Gleason don't

feel alike about her.  Her mother thinks she was weak in  giving up Mrs.  Maynard's case to me; but Miss

Gleason told me about  their discussion,  and she thinks it is the great heroic act of Dr.  Breen's life." 

"It showed some sense, at least," Mrs. Mulbridge replied.  She had  tacitly offered to release her son from

telling her anything when she  had  made her motion to rise; if he chose to go on now, it was his own  affair.

She handed him the plate of biscuit, and he took one. 

"It showed inspiration, Miss Gleason says.  The tears came into her  eyes;  I understood her to say it was

godlike.  'And only to think,  doctor,'" he  continued, with a clumsy, but unmistakable suggestion of  Miss

Gleason's  perfervid manner, "'that such a girl should be dragged  down by her own  mother to the level of

petty, everyday cares and  duties, and should be  blamed for the most beautiful act of  selfsacrifice!  Is n't it

too  bad?'" 

"Rufus, Rufus!" cried his mother, "I can't stun' it!  Stop!" 

"Oh, Dr. Breen is n't so badnot half so divine as Miss Gleason  thinks  her.  And Mrs. Maynard does n't

consider her surrendering the  case an act  of selfsacrifice at all." 

"I should hope not!" said Mrs. Mulbridge.  "I guess she would n't  have  been alive to tell the tale, if it had n't

been for you." 

"Oh, you can't be sure of that.  You must n't believe too much in  doctors, mother.  Mrs. Maynard is pretty

tough.  And she's had  wonderfully good nursing.  You've only heard the Barlow side of the  matter," said her

sun, betraying now for the first time that he had  been  aware of any knowledge of it on her part.  That was their

way:  though  they seldom told each other anything, and went on as if they  knew nothing  of each other's

affairs, yet when they recognized this  knowledge it was  without surprise on either side.  "I could tell you a

different story.  She's a very fine girl, mother; cool and careful  under instruction, and  perfectly tractable and

intelligent.  She's as  different from those other  women you've seen as you are.  You would  like her!"  He had

suddenly  grown earnest, and crushing the crust of a  biscuit in the strong left  hand which he rested on the

table, he gazed  keenly at her undemonstrative  face.  "She's no baby, either.  She's  got a will and a temper of

her own.  She's the only one of them I ever  saw that was worth her salt." 

"I thought you did n't like selfwilled women," said his mother  impassively. 

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His mother did not lift her eyes, yet.  "How long shall you have to  visit  over there?" 

"I've made my last professional visit." 

"Where are you going this morning?" 

"To Jocelyn's." 

Mrs. Mulbridge now looked up, and met her son's eye.  "What makes  you  think she'll have you?" 

He did not shrink at her coming straight to the point the moment  the way  was clear.  He had intended it, and

he liked it.  .  But he  frowned a  little as he said, "Because I want her to have me, for one  thing."  His  jaw closed

heavily, but his face lost a certain brutal  look almost as  quickly as it had assumed it.  "I guess," he said, with  a

smile, "that  it's the only reason I've got." 

"You no need to say that," said his mother, resenting the  implication  that any woman would not have him. 

"Oh, I'm not pretty to look at, mother, and I'm not particularly  young;  and for a while I thought there might be

some one, else." 

"Who?" 

"The young fellow that came with her, that day." 

"That whippersnapper?" 

Dr. Mulbridge assented by his silence.  "But I guess I was  mistaken.  I  guess he's tried and missed it.  The field

is 'clear, for  all I can see.  And she's made a failure in one way, and then you know  a woman is in the  humor to

try it in another.  She wants a good excuse  for giving up.  That's what I think." 

"Well," said his mother, "I presume you know what you're about,  Rufus!" 

She took up the coffeepot on the lid of which she had been keeping  her  hand, and went into the kitchen with

it.  She removed the dishes,  and  left him sitting before the empty tablecloth.  When she came for  that,  he took

hold of her hand, and looked up into her face, over  which a  scarcely discernible tremor passed.  "Well,

mother?" 

"It's what I always knew I had got to come to, first or last.  And  I  suppose I ought to feel glad enough I did n't

have to come to it at  first." 

"No!" said her son.  "I'm not a stripling any longer."  He laughed,  keeping his mother's hand. 

She freed it and taking up the tablecloth folded it lengthwise and  then  across, and laid it neatly away in the

cupboard.  "I sha'n't  interfere  with you, nor any woman that you bring here to be your wife.  I've had my  day,

and I'm not one of the old fools that think they're  going to have  and to hold forever.  You've always been a

good boy to  me, and I guess  you hain't ever had to complain' of your mother  stan'in' in your way.  I  sha'n't

now.  But I did think" 

She stopped and shut her lips firmly.  "Speak up, mother!" he  cried. 

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"I know what you mean.  You mean about my laughing at women that  try to  take men's places in the world.

Well, I did laugh at them.  They're  ridiculous.  I don't want to marry this girl because she's a  doctor.  That was

the principal drawback, in my mind.  But it does n't  make any  difference, and wouldn't now, if she was a

dozen doctors." 

His mother let down the leaves of the table, and pushed it against  the  wall, and he rose from the chair in

which he was left sitting in  the  middle of the room.  "I presume," she said, with her back toward  him, as  she

straightened the table accurately against the mopboard,  "that you can  let me have the little house at Grant's

Corner." 

"Why, mother!" he cried.  "You don't suppose I should ever let you  be  turned out of house and home?  You

can stay here as long as you  live.  But it has n't come to that, yet.  I don't know that she cares  anything  about

me.  But there are chances, and there are signs.  The  chances are  that she won't have the courage to take up her

plan of  life again, and  that she'll consider any other that's pressed home  upon her.  And I take  it for a good

sign that she's sent that fellow  adrift.  If her mind had  n't been set on some one else, she'd have  taken him, in

this brokenup  state of hers.  Besides, she has formed  the habit of doing what I say,  and there's a great deal in

mere  continuity of habit.  It will be easier  for her to say yes than to say  no; it would be very hard for her to say

no." 

While he eagerly pressed these arguments his mother listened  stonily,  without apparent interest or sympathy.

But at the end she  asked, "How  are you going to support a wife?  Your practice here won't  do it.  Has  she got

anything?" 

"She has property, I believe," replied her son.  "She seems to have  been  brought up in that way." 

"She won't want to come and live here, then.  She'll have notions  of her  own.  If she's like the rest of them,

she'll never have you." 

"If she were like the rest of them, I'd never have her.  But she is  n't.  As far as I'm concerned, it's nothing

against her that she's  studied  medicine.  She did n't do it from vanity, or ambition, or any  abnormal  love of it.

She did it, so far so I can find out, because  she wished to  do good that way.  She's been a little notional, she's

had her head  addled by women's talk, and she's in a queer freak; but  it's only a  girl's freak after all: you can't

say anything worse of  her.  She's a  splendid woman, and her property's neither here nor  there.  I could  support

her." 

"I presume," replied his mother, "that she's been used to ways that  ain't  like our ways.  I've always stuck up for

you, Rufus, stiff  enough,  I guess; but I ain't agoin' to deny that you're country born  and bred.  I can see that,

and she can see it, too.  It makes a great  difference  with girls.  I don't know as she'd call you what they call  a

gentleman." 

Dr. Mulbridge flushed angrily.  Every American, of whatever  standing or  breeding, thinks of himself as a

gentleman, and nothing  can gall him more  than the insinuation that he is less.  "What do you  mean, mother?" 

"You hain't ever been in such ladies' society as hers in the same  way.  I know that they all think the world of

you, and flatter you up,  and  they're as biddable as you please when you're doctorin' 'em; but I  guess  it would

be different if you was to set up for one of their own  kind  amongst 'em." 

"There is n't one of them," he retorted, " that I don't believe I  could  have for the turn of my hand, especially if

it was doubled into  a fist.  They like force." 

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"They're all alike.  And I think I should be something of a relief  if I  was n't like what she's been used to

hearing called a gentleman;  she'd  prefer me on that account.  But if you come to blood, I guess  the  Mulbridges

and Gardiner, can hold up their heads with the best,  anywhere." 

"Yes, like the Camfers and Rafllins."  These were people of  ancestral  consequence and local history, who had

gone up to Boston  from Corbitant,  and had succeeded severally as greengrocers and  retail drygoods men,

with the naturally attendant social distinction. 

"Pshaw!" cried her son.  "If she cares for me at all, she won't  care for  the cut of my clothes, or my table

manners." 

"Yes, that's so.  'T ain't on my account that I want you should  make sure  she doos care." 

He looked hard at her immovable face, with its fallen eyes, and  then went  out of the room.  He never

quarrelled with his mother,  because his anger,  like her own, was dumb, and silenced him as it  mounted.  Her

misgivings  had stung him deeply, and at the bottom of  his indolence and indifference  was a fiery pride, not

easily kindled,  but unquenchable.  He flung the  harness upon his old unkempt horse,  and tackled him to the

mudencrusted  buggy, for whose shabbiness he  had never cared before.  He was tempted to  go back into the

house, and  change his uncouth Canada homespun coat for  the broadcloth frock which  he wore when he went

to Boston; but he  scornfully resisted it, and  drove off in his accustomed figure. 

His mother's last words repeated themselves to him, and in that  dialogue,  in which he continued to dramatize

their different feelings,  he kept  replying, "Well, the way to find out whether she cares is to  ask her." 

X.

During her convalescence Mrs. Maynard had the time and inclination  to  give Grace some good advice.  She

said that she had thought a great  deal  about it throughout her sickness, and she had come to the  conclusion

that  Grace was throwing away her life. 

"You're not fit to be a doctor, Grace," she said.  "You're too  nervous,  and you're too conscientious.  It is n't

merely your want of  experience.  No matter how much experience you had, if you saw a case  going wrong in

your hands, you'd want to call in some one else to set  it right.  Do you  suppose Dr. Mulbridge would have

given me up to  another doctor because he  was afraid he couldn't cure me?  No, indeed!  He'd have let me die

first,  and I should n't have blamed him.  Of  course I know what pressure I  brought to bear upon you, but you

had no  business to mind me.  You  oughtn't to have minded my talk any more  than the buzzing of a mosquito,

and no real doctor would.  If he wants  to be a success, he must be hard  hearted; as hardhearted as"she

paused for a comparison, and failing  any other added"as all  possessed."  To the like largeminded and

impartial effect, she, ran  on at great length.  "No, Grace," she  concluded, "what you want to do  is to get

married.  You would be a good  wife, and you would be a good  mother.  The only trouble is that I don't  know

any man worthy of you,  or half worthy.  No, I don't!" 

Now that her recovery was assured, Mrs. Maynard was very forgiving  and  sweet and kind with every one.

The ladies who came in to talk  with her  said that she was a changed creature; she gave them all the  best

advice,  and she had absolutely no shame whatever for the  inconsistency involved  by her reconciliation with

her husband.  She  rather flaunted the  happiness of her reunion in the face of the  public, and she vouchsafed an

explanation to no one.  There had never  been anything definite in her  charges against him, even to Grace, and

her tacit withdrawal of them  succeeded perfectly well.  The ladies,  after some cynical tittering,  forgot them,

and rejoiced in the  spectacle of conjugal harmony afforded  them: women are generous  creatures, and there is

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have said  that they do not see how she could ever forgive him. 

Mrs. Maynard's silence seemed insufficient to none but Mrs. Breen  and her  own husband.  The former

vigorously denounced its want of  logic to Grace  as all but criminal, though she had no objection to Mr.

Maynard.  He, in  fact, treated her with a filial respect which went  far to efface her  preconceptions; and he did

what he could to retrieve  himself from the  disgrace of a separation in Grace's eyes.  Perhaps he  thought that

the  late situation was known to her alone, when he  casually suggested, one  day, that Mrs. Maynard was

peculiar. 

"Yes," said Grace mercifully; " but she has been out of health so  long.  That makes a great difference.  She's

going to be better now." 

"Oh, it's going to come out all right in the end," he said, with  his  unbuoyant hopefulness," and I reckon I've

got to help it along.  Why, I  suppose every man's a trial at times, doctor?" 

"I dare say.  I know that every woman is," said the girl. 

"Is that so?  Well, may be you're partly right.  But you don't  suppose  but what a man generally begins it, do

you?  There was Adam,  you know.  He did n't pull the apple; but he fell off into that sleep,  and woke up  with

one of his ribs dislocated, and that's what really  commenced the  trouble.  If it had n't been for Adam, there

would n't  have been any  woman, you know; and you could n't blame her for what  happened after she  got

going?  "There vas no gleam of insinuation in  his melancholy eye, and  Grace listened without quite knowing

what to  make of it all.  "And then I  suppose he was n't punctual at meals, and  stood round talking politics at

night, when he ought to have been at  home with his family?" 

"Who?" asked Grace. 

"Adam," replied Mr. Maynard lifelessly.  "Well, they got along  pretty  well outside," he continued.  "Some of

the children didn't turn  out just  what you might have expected; but raising children is mighty  uncertain

business.  Yes, they got along."  He ended his parable with  a sort of  weary sigh, as if oppressed by experience.

Grace looked at  his slovenly  figure, his smoky complexion, and the shaggy outline made  by his  untrimmed

hair and beard, and she wondered how Louise could  marry him;  but she liked him, and she was willing to

accept for all  reason the cause  of unhappiness at which he further hinted.  "You see,  doctor, an  incompatibility

is a pretty hard thing to manage.  You  can't forgive it  like a real grievance.  You have to try other things,  and

find out that  there are worse things, and then you come back to it  and stand it.  We're  talking Wyoming and

cattle range, now, and Mrs.  Maynard is all for the  new deal; it's going to make us healthy,  wealthy, and wise.

Well, I  suppose the air will be good for her, out  there.  You doctors are sending  lots of your patients our way,

now."  The gravity with which he always  assumed that Grace was a physician  in full and regular practice

would  have had its edge of satire, coming  from another; but from him, if it was  ironical, it was also caressing,

and she did not resent it.  "I've had  some talk with your colleague,  here, Dr. Mulbridge, and he seems to think

it will be the best thing  for her.  I suppose you agree with him?" 

"Oh, yes," said Grace, "his opinion would be of great value.  It  wouldn't  be at all essential that I should agree

with him:' 

"Well, I don't know about that," said Maynard.  "I reckon he thinks  a  good deal of your agreeing with him.

I've been talking with him  about  settling out our way.  We've got a magnificent country, and  there's bound  to

be plenty of sickness there, sooner or later.  Why,  doctor, it would  be a good opening for you!  It 's just the

place for  you.  You 're off  here in a corner, in New England, and you have n't  got any sort of scope;  but at

Cheyenne you'd have the whole field to  yourself; there is n't  another lady doctor in Cheyenne.  Now, you

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There's enough moral obliquity  in Cheyenne to keep her conscience in  a state of healthful activity  all the

time.  Yes, you'd get along out  there." 

Grace laughed, and shook her head.  It was part of the joke which  life  seemed to be with Mr. Maynard that the

inhabitants of New England  were  all eager to escape from their native section, and that they  ought to be  pitied

and abetted in this desire.  As soon as his wife's  convalescence  released him from constant attendance upon

her, he began  an inspection of  the region from the compassionate point of view; the  small, frugal  husbandry

appealed to his commiseration, and he  professed to have found  the use of canvas caps upon the haycocks

intolerably pathetic.  "Why, I'm  told," he said, "that they have to  blanket the appletrees while the  fruit is

setting; and they kill off  our Colorado bugs by turning them  loose, one at a time, on the  potatopatches: the

bug starves to death in  fortyeight hours.  But  you've got plenty of schoolhouses, doctor; it  does beat all,

about the  schoolhouses.  And it's an awful pity that there  are no children to go  to school in them.  Why, of

course the people go  West as fast as they  can, but they ought to be helped; the Government  ought to do

something.  They're good people; make firstrate citizens  when you get  them waked up, out there.  But they

ought all to be got  away, and let  somebody run New England' as a summer resort.  It's pretty,  and it's  cool and

pleasant, and the fishing is excellent; milk, eggs, and  all  kinds of berries and historical associations on the

premises; and it  could be made very attractive three months of the year; but my  goodness!  you oughtn't to ask

anybody to live here.  You come out with  us, doctor,  and see that country, and you'll know what I mean." 

His boasts were always uttered with a wan, lacklustre irony, as if  he  were burlesquing the conventional

Western brag and enjoying the  mystifications of his listener, whose feeble sense of humor often  failed  to

seize his intention, and to whom any depreciation of New  England was  naturally unintelligible.  She had not

come to her final  liking for him  without a season of serious misgiving, but after that  she rested in peace  upon

what every one knowing him felt to be his  essential neighborliness.  Her wonder had then come to be how he

could  marry Louise, when they sat  together on the seaward piazza, and he  poured out his easy talk,  unwearied

and unwearying, while, with one  long, lank leg crossed upon the  other, he swung his unblacked,  thinsoled

boot to and fro. 

"Well, he was this kind of a fellow: When we were in Switzerland,  he was  always climbing some mountain

or other.  They could n't have  hired me to  climb one of their mountains if they'd given me all their  scenery,

and  thrown their goitres in.  I used to tell him that the  side of a house was  good enough for me.  But nothing

but the tallest  mountains would do him;  and one day when he was up there on the comb  of the roof

somewhere, tied  with a rope round his waist to the guide  and a Frenchman, the guide's  foot slipped, and he

commenced going  down.  The Frenchman was just going  to cut the rope and let the guide  play it alone; but he

knocked the knife  out of his hand with his  longhandled axe, and when the jerk came he was  on the other

side of  the comb, where he could brace himself, and brought  them both up  standing.  Well, he's got muscles

like bunches of steel  wire.  Did n't  he ever tell you about it?" 

"No," said Grace sadly. 

"Well, somebody ought to expose Libby.  I don't suppose I should  ever  have known about it myself, if I hadn't

happened to see the  guide's  friends and relations crying over him next day as if he was  the guide's  funeral.

Hello!  There's the doctor."  He unlimbered his  lank legs, and  rose with an effect of opening his person like a

pocketknife.  "As I  understand it, this is an unprofessional visit,  and the doctor is here  among us as a guest.  I

don't know exactly what  to do under the  circumstances, whether we ought to talk about Mrs.  Maynard's

health or  the opera; but I reckon if we show our good  intentions it will come out  all right in the end." 

He went forward to meet the doctor, who came up to shake hands with  Grace, and then followed him

indoors to see Mrs. Maynard.  Grace  remained in her place, and she was still sitting there when Dr.

Mulbridge  returned without him.  He came directly to her, and said, "I  want to  speak with you, Miss Breen.

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"Isis Mrs. Maynard worse?" she asked, rising in a little  trepidation. 

"No; it has nothing to do with her.  She's practically well now; I  can  remand the case to you.  I wish to see

youabout yourself."  She  hesitated at this peculiar summons, but some pressure was upon her to  obey Dr.

Mulbridge, as there was upon most people where he wished to  obey  him.  "I want to talk with you," he added,

"about what you are  going to  do,about your future.  Will you come?" 

"Oh, yes," she answered; and she suffered him to lead the way down  from  the piazza, and out upon one of the

sandy avenues toward the  woods, in  which it presently lost itself.  "But there will be very  little to talk  about,"

she continued, as they moved away, "if you  confine yourself to my  future.  I have none." 

"I don't see how you've got rid of it," he rejoined.  "You've got a  future as much as you have a past, and there's

this advantage,that  you  can do something with your future." 

"Do you think so?" she asked, with a little bitterness.  "That has  n't  been my experience." 

"It's been mine," he said, "and you can make it yours.  Come, I  want to  talk with you about your future,

because I have been thinking  very  seriously about my own.  I want to ask your advice and to give  you mine.

I'll commence by asking yours.  What do you think of me as a  physician?  I know you are able to judge." 

She was flattered, in spite of herself.  There were long arrears of  cool  indifference to her own claims in that

direction, which she might  very  well have resented; but she did not.  There was that flattery in  his  question

which the junior in any vocation feels in the appeal of  his  senior; and there was the flattery which any woman

feels in a  man's  recourse to her judgment.  Still, she contrived to parry it with  a little  thrust.  "I don't suppose

the opinion of a mere homoeopathist  can be of  any value to a regular practitioner." 

He laughed.  "You have been a regular practitioner yourself for the  last  three weeks.  What do you think of my

management of the case?" 

"I have never abandoned my principles," she began. 

"Oh, I know all about that?  What do you think of me as a doctor?"  he  persisted. 

"Of course I admire you.  Why do you ask me that?" 

"Because I wished to know.  And because I wished to ask you  something  else.  You have been brought up in a

city, and I have always  lived here  in the country, except the two years I was out with the  army.  Do you  think I

should succeed if I pulled up here, and settled  in Boston?" 

"I have not lived in Boston," she answered.  "My opinion wouldn't  be  worth much on that point." 

"Yes, it would.  You know city people, and what they are.  I have  seen a  good deal of them in my practice at

the hotels about here, and  some of  the ladieswhen they happened to feel more comfortablehave  advised

me  to come to Boston."  His derision seemed to throw contempt  on all her  sex; but he turned to her, and asked

again earnestly, "What  do you think?  Some of the profession know me there.  When I left the  school, some of

the faculty urged me to try my chance in the city." 

She waited a moment before she answered.  "You know that I must  respect  your skill, and I believe that you

could succeed anywhere.  I  judge your  fitness by my own deficiency.  The first time I saw you  with Mrs.

Maynard, I saw that you had everything that I hadn't.  I saw  that I was a  failure, and why, and that it would be

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"Do you mean that you have given it up?" he demanded, with a  triumph in  which there was no sympathy. 

"It has given me up.  I never liked it,I told you that  before,and I  never took it up from any ambitious

motive.  It seemed  a shame for me to  be of no use in the world; and I hoped that I might  do something in a

way  that seemed natural for women.  And I don't give  up because I'm unfit as  a woman.  I might be a man, and

still be  impulsive and timid and nervous,  and everything that I thought I was  not." 

"Yes, you might be all that, and be a man; but you'd be an  exceptional  man, and I don't think you're an

exceptional woman.  If  you've failed, it  is n't your temperament that's to blame." 

"I think it is.  The wrong is somewhere in me individually.  I know  it  is." 

Dr. Mulbridge, walking beside her, with his hands clasped behind  him,  threw up his head and laughed.  "Well,

have it your own way, Miss  Breen.  Only I don't agree with you.  Why should you wish to spare your  sex at

your own expense?  But that's the way with some ladies, I've  noticed.  They approve of what women attempt

because women attempt it,  and they  believe the attempt reflects honor on them.  It's tremendous  to think  what

men could accomplish for their sex, if they only hung  together as  women do.  But they can't.  They haven't the

generosity." 

"I think you don't understand me," said Grace, with a severity that  amused him.  "I wished to regard myself, in

taking up this profession,  entirely as I believed a man would have regarded himself." 

"And were you able to do it?" 

"No," she unintentionally replied to this unexpected question. 

"Haw, haw, haw!" laughed Dr. Mulbridge at her helpless candor.  "And are  you sure that you give it up as a

man would?" 

"I don't know how you mean," she said, vexed and bewildered. 

"Do you do it fairly and squarely because you believe that you're a  failure, or because you partly feel that you

have n't been fairly  dealt  with?" 

"I believe that if Mrs. Maynard had had the same confidence in me  that  she would have had in any man I

should not have failed.  But  every woman  physician has a double disadvantage that I hadn't the  strength to

overcome,her own inexperience and the distrust of other  women." 

"Well, whose fault is that?" 

"Not the men's.  It is the men alone who give women any chance.  They are  kind and generous and

liberalminded.  I have no blame for  them, and I  have no patience with women who want to treat them as the

enemies of  women's advancement.  Women can't move a step forwards  without their  sufferance and help.  Dr.

Mulbridge," she cried, "I wish  to apologize for  the hasty and silly words I used to you the day I  came to ask

you to  consult with me.  I ought to have been grateful to  you for consenting at  first, and when you took back

your consent I  ought to have considered  your position.  You were entirely right.  We  had no common ground

to meet  on, and I behaved like a petulant,  foolish, vulgar girl!" 

"No, no," he protested, laughing in recollection of the scene.  "You were  all right, and I was in a fix; and if

your own fears had  n't come to the  rescue, I don't know how I should have got out of it.  It would have been

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you, now that it's all over.  I  had never seen a lady of our  profession before," he added hastily, "and  my

curiosity was up.  I  always had my doubts about the thoroughness of  women's study, and I  should have liked

to see where your training failed.  I must say I  found it very good,I've told you that.  You wouldn't fail

individually: you would fail because you are a woman." 

"I don't believe that," said Grace. 

"Well, then, because your patients are women.  It's all one.  What  will  you do?" 

"I shall not do anything.  I shall give it all up." 

"But what shall you do then?" 

"I don't know." 

"What are you going to be?  A fashionable woman ?  Or are you going  to  Europe, and settle down there with

the other American failures?  I've  heard about them,in Rome and Florence and Paris.  Are you  going to

throw away the study you've put into this profession?  You  took it up  because you wanted to do good.  Don't

you want to do good  any more?  Has  the human race turned out unworthy?" 

She cowered at this arraignment, in which she could not separate  the  mocking from the justice.  "What do you

advise me to do?  Do you  think I  could ever succeed?" 

"You could never succeed alone." 

"Yes, I know that; I felt that from the first.  But I have planned  to  unite with a woman physician older than

myself." 

"And double your deficiency.  Sit down here," he said; "I wish to  talk  business."  They had entered the border

of the woods encompassing  Jocelyn's, and he painted to a stump, beside which lay the fallen  tree.  She obeyed

mechanically, and he remained standing near her, with  one foot  lifted to the log; he leaned forward over her,

and seemed to  seize a  physical advantage in the posture.  "From your own point of  view, you  would have no

right to give up your undertaking if there was  a chance of  success in it.  You would have no more right to give

up  than a woman who  had gone out as a missionary." 

"I don't pretend to compare myself with such a woman; but I should  have  no more right to give up," she

answered, helpless against the  logic of  her fate, which he had somehow divined. 

"Well, then, listen to me.  I can give you this chance.  Are you  satisfied that with my advice you could have

succeeded in Mrs.  Maynard's  case?" 

"Yes, I think so.  But what" 

"I think so, too.  Don't rise!" 

His will overcame the impulse that had betrayed itself, and she  sank back  to her seat.  "I offer you my advice

from this time forward;  I offer you  my help." 

"That is very good of you," she murmured; "and I appreciate your  generosity more than I can say.  I know the

prejudice you must have  had  to overcome in regard to women physicians before you could bring  yourself  to

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feeble temperament.  But" 

"Oh, we won't speak of all that," he interrupted.  "Of course I  felt the  prejudice against women entering the

profession which we all  feel; it was  ridiculous and disgusting to me till I saw you.  I won't  urge you from  any

personal motive to accept my offer.  But I know that  if you do you  can realize all your hopes of usefulness;

and I ask you  to consider that  certainly.  But you know the only way it could be  done." 

She looked him in the eyes, with dismay in her growing  intelligence. 

"Whatwhat do you mean?" 

"I mean that I ask you to let me help you carry out your plan of  life,  and to save all you have done, and all

you have hoped, from  wasteas  your husband.  Think"  She struggled to her feet as if he  were opposing a

palpable resistance,  so strongly she felt the pressure  of his will.  "It can't be, Dr.  Mulbridge.  Oh, it can't,

indeed!  Let  us go back; I wish to go back!" 

But he had planted himself in her way, and blocked her advance,  unless  she chose to make it a flight. 

"I expected this," he said, with a smile, as if her wild  trepidation  interested him as an anticipated symptom.

"The whole idea  is new and  startling to you.  But I know you won't dismiss it  abruptly, and I won't  be

discouraged." 

"Yes, yes, you must!  I will not think of it!  I can't!  I do  dismiss it  at once.  Let me go!" 

"Then you really choose to be like the rest,a thing of hysterical  impulses, without conscience or reason!  I

supposed the weakest woman  would be equal to an offer of marriage.  And you had dreamt of being a

physician and useful!" 

"I tell you," she cried, half quelled by his derision, "that I have  found  out that I am not fit for it,that I am a

failure and a  disgrace; and  you had no right to expect me to be anything else." 

"You are no failure, and I had a right to expect anything of you  after  the endurance and the discretion you

have shown in the last  three weeks.  Without your help I should have failed myself.  You owe  it to other

women  to go on." 

"They must take care of themselves," she said.  "If my weakness  throws  shame on them, they must bear it.  I

thank you for what you  say.  I  believe you mean it.  But if I was of any use to you I did n't  know it." 

"It was probably inspiration, then," he interrupted coolly.  "Come,  this  isn't a thing to be frightened at.  You're

not obliged to do what  I say.  But I think you ought to hear me out.  I haven't spoken without  serious  thought,

and I didn't suppose you would reject me without a  reason." 

"Reason?" she repeated.  "There is no reason in it." 

"There ought to be.  There is, on my side.  I have all kinds of  reasons  for asking you to be my wife: I believe

that I can make you  happy in the  fulfilment of your plans; I admire you and respect you  more than any  other

woman I ever saw; and I love you." 

"I don't love you, and that is reason enough." 

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"No." 

"Am I repulsive in any way?" 

"No, no!" 

"I know that I am not very young and that I am not very  goodlooking." 

"It is n't that at all." 

"Of course I know that such things weigh with women, and that  personal  traits and habits are important in an

affair like this.  I am  slovenly  and indifferent about my dress; but it's only because I have  lived where  every

sort of spirit and ambition was useless.  I don't  know about city  ways, but I could pick up all of them that were

worth  while.  I spoke of  going to Boston; but I would go anywhere else with  you, east or west,  that you chose,

and I know that I should succeed.  I haven't done what I  might have done with myself, because I've never  had

an object in life.  I've always lived in the one little place, and  I've never been out of it  except when I was in the

army.  I've always  liked my profession; but  nothing has seemed worth while.  You were a  revelation to me;

you have  put ambition and hope into me.  I never saw  any woman before that I would  have turned my hand to

have.  They  always seemed to me fit to be the  companions of fools, or the  playthings of men.  But of all the

simpletons, the women who were  trying to do something for woman, as they  called it, trying to  exemplify

and illustrate a cause, were the silliest  that I came  across.  I never happened to have met a woman doctor

before  you came  to me; but I had imagined them, and I could n't believe in you  when I  saw you.  You were

not supersensitive, you were not presumptuous,  and  you gave up, not because you distrusted yourself, but

because your  patient distrusted you.  That was right: I should have done the same  thing myself.  Under my

direction, you have shown yourself faithful,  docile, patient, intelligent beyond anything I have seen.  I have

watched  you, and I know; and I know what your peculiar trials have  been from that  woman.  You have taught

me a lesson,I 'm not ashamed  to say it; and  you've given me a motive.  I was wrong to ask you to  marry me

so that you  might carry out your plans: that was no way to  appeal to you.  What I  meant was that I might make

your plans my own,  and that we might carry  them out together.  I don't care for making  money; I have always

been  poor, and I had always expected to be so;  and I am not afraid of hard  work.  There is n't any

selfsacrifice  you've dreamed of that I wouldn't  gladly and proudly share with you.  You can't do anything by

yourself,  but we could do anything together.  If you have any scruple about giving  up your theory of medicine,

you  needn't do it; and the State Medical  Association may go to the devil.  I've said my say.  What do you say?" 

She looked all round, as if seeking escape from a mesh suddenly  flung  about her, and then she looked

imploringly up at him.  "I have  nothing to  say," she whispered huskily.  "I can't answer you." 

" Well, that's all I ask," he said, moving a few steps, away, and  suffering her to rise.  "Don't answer me now.

Take time,all the  time  you want, all the time there is." 

"No," she said, rising, and gathering some strength from the sense  of  being on foot again.  "I don't mean that.  I

mean that I don'tI  can't  consent." 

"You don't believe in me?  You don't think I would do it?" 

"I don't believe in myself.  I have no right to doubt you.  I know  that I  ought to honor you for what you

propose." 

"I don't think it calls for any great honor.  Of course I shouldn't  propose it to every lady physician."  He smiled

with entire serenity  and  selfpossession.  "Tell me one thing: was there ever a time when  you  would have

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"No.  Don't deceive yourself.  I shall never consent." 

"I'll leave that to the logic of your own conscience.  You will do  what  seems your duty." 

"You must n't trust to my conscience.  I fling it away!  I won't  have  anything to do with it.  I've been tortured

enough by it.  There  is no  sense or justice in it!" 

He laughed easily at her vehemence.  "I 'll trust your conscience.  But I  won't stay to worry you now.  I'm

coming again day after  tomorrow, and  I'm not afraid of what you will say then." 

He turned and left her, tearing his way through the sweetfern and  low  blackberry vines, with long strides, a

shape of uncouth force.  After he  was out of sight, she followed, scared and trembling at  herself, as if  she had

blasphemed. 

XI.

Grace burst into the room where her mother sat; and flung her hat  aside  with a desperate gesture.  "Now,

mother, you have got to listen  to me.  Dr. Mulbridge has asked me to marry him!" 

Mrs. Green put up her spectacles on her forehead, and stared at her  daughter, while some strong expressions,

out of the plebeian or rustic  past which lies only a generation or two behind most of us, rose to  her  lips.  I will

not repeat them here; she had long denied them to  herself  as an immoral selfindulgence, and it must be

owned that such  things have  a fearful effect, coming from old ladies.  "What has got  into all the  men?  What in

nature does he want you to marry him for?" 

"Oh, for the best reasons in the world," exclaimed the daughter.  "For  reasons that will make you admire and

respect him," she added  ironically.  "For great, and unselfish, and magnanimous reasons!" 

"I should want to believe they were the real ones, first,"  interrupted  Mrs. Breen. 

"He wants to marry me because he knows that I can't fulfil my plans  of  life alone, and because we could fulfil

them together.  We shall  not only  be husband and wife, but we shall be physicians in  partnership.  I may

continue a homoeopath, he says, and the State  Medical Association may go  to the devil."  She used his

language, that  would have been shocking to  her ordinary moods, without blenching, and  in their common

agitation her  mother accepted it as fit and becoming.  "He counts upon my accepting him  because I must see it

as my duty,  and my conscience won't let me reject  the only opportunity I shall  have of doing some good and

being of some  use in the world.  What do  you think I ought to do, mother?" 

"There's reason in what he says.  It is an opportunity.  You could  be of  use, in that way, and perhaps it's the

only way.  Yes," she  continued,  fascinated by the logic of the position, and its  capabilities for  vicarious

selfsacrifice.  "I don't see how you can  get out of it: You  have spent years and years of study, and a great

deal of money, to  educate yourself for a profession that you're too  weak to practise alone.  "You can't say that

I ever advised your doing  it.  It was your own idea,  and I did n't oppose it.  But when you've  gone so far,

you've formed an  obligation to go on.  It's your duty not  to give up, if you know of any  means to continue.

That's your duty,  as plain as can be.  To say nothing  of the wicked waste of your giving  up now, you're bound

to consider the  effect it would have upon other  women who are trying to do something for  themselves.  The

only thing,"  she added, with some misgiving, "is whether  you believe he was in  earnest and would keep his

word to you." 

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"Well, then, you ought to take time to reflect, and you ought to be  sure  that you're right about him." 

"Is that what you really think, mother?" 

"I am always governed by reason, Grace, and by right; and I have  brought  you up on that plan.  If you have

ever departed from it, it  has not been  with my consent, nor for want of my warning.  I have  simply laid the

matter before you." 

"Then you wish me to marry him?" 

This was perhaps a point that had not occurred  to Mrs. Breen in  her  recognition of the strength of Dr.

Mulbridge's position.  It was  one  thing to trace the path of duty; another to support the aspirant  in  treading it.

"You ought to take time to reflect," Mrs. Green  repeated,  with evasion that she never used in behalf of others. 

"Well, mother," answered Grace," I didn't take time to reflect, and  I  should n't care whether I was right about

him or not.  I refused him  because I did n't love him.  If I had loved him that would have been  the  only reason I

needed to marry him.  But all the duty in the world  wouldn't be enough without it.  Duty?  I am sick of duty!

Let the  other  women who are trying to do something for themselves, take care  of  themselves as men would.  I

don't owe them more than a man would  owe  other men, and I won't be hoodwinked into thinking I do.  As for

the  waste, the past is gone, at any rate; and the waste that I lament  is the  years I spent in working myself up to

an undertaking that I was  never fit  for.  I won't continue that waste, and I won't keep up the  delusion that

because I was very unhappy I was useful, and that it was  doing good to be  miserable.  I like pleasure and I like

dress; I like  pretty things.  There is no harm in them.  Why should n't I have them?" 

"There is harm in them for you,"her mother began. 

"Because I have tried to make my life a horror ?  There is no other  reason, and that is no reason.  When we go

into Boston this winter I  shall go to the theatre.  I shall go to the opera,, and I hope there  will  be a ballet.  And

next summer, I am going to Europe; I am going  to  Italy."  She whirled away toward the door as if she were

setting  out. 

"I should think you had taken leave of your conscience!" cried her  mother. 

"I hope I have, mother.  I am going to consult my reason after  this." 

"Your reason!" 

"Well, then, my inclination.  I have had enough of conscience,of  my  own, and of yours, too.  That is what I

told him, and that is what  I  mean.  There is such a thing as having too much conscience, and of  getting

stupefied by it, so that you can't really see what's right.  But  I don't care.  I believe I should like to do wrong

for a while,  and I  will do wrong if it's doing right to marry him." 

She had her hand on the doorknob, and now she opened the door, and  closed it after her with something

very like a bang. 

She naturally could not keep within doors in this explosive state,  and  she went downstairs, and out upon the

piazza.  Mr. Maynard was  there,  smoking, with his boots on top of the verandarail, and his  person thrown

back in his chair at the angle requisite to accomplish  this elevation of  the feet.  He took them down, as he saw

her  approach, and rose, with the  respect in which he never failed for  women, and threw his cigar away. 

"Mr. Maynard," she asked abruptly, "do you know where Mr. Libby  is?" 


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"No, I don't, doctor, I'm sorry to say.  If I did, I would send and  borrow some more cigars of him.  I think that

the brand our landlord  keeps must have been invented by Mr. Track, the great antitobacco  reformer." 

"Is he coming back?  Is n't he coming back?" she demanded  breathlessly. 

"Why, yes, I reckon he must be coming back.  Libby generally sees  his  friends through.  And he'll have some

curiosity to know how Mrs.  Maynard  and I have come out of it all."  He looked at her with  something latent  in

his eye; but what his eye expressed was merely a  sympathetic regret  that he could not be more satisfactory. 

"Perhaps," she suggested, "Mr. Barlow might know something." 

"Well, now," said Maynard, "perhaps he might, that very thing.  I'll go  round and ask him."  He went to the

stable, and she waited  for his  return.  "Barlow says," he reported, "that he guesses he's  somewhere  about

Leyden.  At any rate, his mare,'s there yet, in the  stable where  Barlow left her.  He saw her there, yesterday." 

"Thanks.  That's all I wished to know," said Grace.  "I wished to  write  to him," she added boldly. 

She shut herself in her room and spent the rest of the forenoon in  writing a letter, which when first finished

was very long, but in its  ultimate phase was so short as to occupy but a small space on a square

correspondencecard.  Having got it written on the card, she was  dissatisfied with it in that shape, and copied

it upon a sheet of  note  paper.  Then she sealed and addressed it, and put it into her  pocket;  after dinner she

went down to the beach, and walked a long way  upon the  sands.  She thought at first that she would ask

Barlow to get  it to him,  somehow; and then she determined to find out from Barlow  the address of  the people

who had Mr. Libby's horse, and send it to  them for him by the  driver of the barge.  She would approach the

driver with a nonchalant,  imperious air, and ask him to please have  that delivered to Mr. Libby  immediately;

and in case he learned from  the stablepeople that he was  not in Leyden, to bring the letter back  to her.  She

saw how the driver  would take it, and then she figured  Libby opening and reading it.  She  sometimes figured

him one way, and  sometimes another.  Sometimes he  rapidly scanned the lines, and then  instantly ordered his

horse, and  feverishly hastened the men; again he  deliberately read it, and then tore  it into stall pieces, with a

laugh, and flung them away.  This conception  of his behavior made her  heart almost stop beating; but there

was a  luxury in it, too, and she  recurred to it quite as often as to the other,  which led her to a  dramatization of

their meeting, with all their parley  minutely  realized, and every most intimate look and thought imagined.

There is  of course no means of proving that this sort of mental exercise  was in  any degree an exercise of the

reason, or that Dr. Breen did not  behave  unprofessionally in giving herself up to it.  She could only have

claimed in selfdefence that she was no longer aiming at a  professional  behavior; that she was in fact

abandoning herself to a  recovered sense of  girlhood and all its sweetest irresponsibilities.  Those who would

excuse  so weak and capricious a character may urge,  if they like, that she was  behaving as wisely as a young

physician of  the other sex would have done  in the circumstances. 

She concluded to remain on the beach, where only the children were  playing in the sand, and where she could

easily escape any other  companionship that threatened.  After she had walked long enough to  spend  the first

passion of her reverie, she sat down under the cliff,  and  presently grew conscious of his boat swinging at

anchor in its  wonted  place, and wondered that she had not thought he must come back  for that.  Then she had

a mind to tear up her letter as superfluous;  but she did  not.  She rose from her place under the cliff, and went

to  look for the  dory.  She found it drawn up on the sand in a little  cove.  It was the  same place, and the water

was so shoal for twenty  feet out that no one  could have rowed the dory to land; it must be  dragged up.  She

laughed  and blushed, and then boldly amused herself  by looking for footprints;  but the tide must have washed

them out long  ago; there were only the  light, small footprints of the children who  had been playing about the

dory.  She brushed away some sand they had  scattered over the seat, and  got into the boat and sat down there.

It  was a good seat, and commanded  a view of the sailboat in the  foreground of the otherwise empty ocean;

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She was not impatient to have the time pass; it went only too soon.  Though she indulged that luxury of terror

in imagining her letter torn  up  and scornfully thrown away, she really rested quite safe as to the  event;  but she

liked this fond delay, and the soft blue afternoon  might have  lasted forever to her entire content. 

A little whiff of breeze stole up, and suddenly caught the letter  from  her open hands, and whisked it out over

the sand.  With a cry she  fled  after it, and when she had recaptured it, she thought to look at  her  watch.  It was

almost time for the barge, and now she made such  needless  haste, in order not to give herself chance for

misgiving or  retreat, that  she arrived too soon at the point where she meant to  intercept the driver  on his way

to the house; for in her present  mutiny she had resolved to  gratify a little natural liking for  manoeuvre, long

starved by the rigid  discipline to which she had  subjected herself.  She had always been  awkward at it, but she

liked  it; and now it pleased her to think that she  should give her letter  secretly to the driver, and on her way to

meet him  she forgot that she  had meant to ask Barlow for part of the address.  She  did not remember  this till it

was too late to go back to the hotel, and  she suddenly  resolved not to consult Barlow, but to let the driver go

about from  one place to another with the letter till he found the right  one.  She  kept walking on out into the

forest through which the road  wound, and  she had got a mile away before she saw the weary bowing of the

horses'  heads as they tugged the barge through the sand at a walk.  She  stopped involuntarily, with some

impulses to flight; and as the  vehicle  drew nearer, she saw the driver turned round upon his seat,  and talking

to a passenger behind.  She had never counted upon his  having a  passenger, and the fact undid all. 

She remained helpless in the middle of the road; the horses came to  a  standstill a few paces from her, and

the driver ceased from the  high key  of conversation, and turned to see what was the matter. 

"My grief!" he shouted.  "If it had n't been for them horses o'  mine, I  sh'd 'a' run right over ye." 

"I wished to speak with you," she began.  "I wished to send" 

She stopped, and the passenger leaned forward to learn what was  going on.  "Miss Breen!" he exclaimed, and

leaped out of the back of  the barge and  ran to her. 

"Youyou got my letter!" she gasped. 

"No!  What letter?  Is there anything the matter?" 

She did not answer.  She had become conscious of the letter, which  she  had never ceased to hold in the hand

that she had kept in her  pocket for  that purpose.  She crushed it into a small wad. 

Libby turned his head, and said to the driver of the barge, "Go  ahead."  And, " Will you take my arm?" he

added to her.  "It's heavy  walking in  this sand." 

"No, thank you," she murmured, recoiling.  "I'm not tired." 

"Are you well?  Have you been quite well?" 

"Oh, yes, perfectly.  I did n't know you were coming back." 

"Yes.  I had to come back.  I'm going to Europe next week, and I  had to  come to look after my boat, here; and I

wanted to say goodby  to Maynard.  I was just going to speak to Maynard, and then sail my  boat over to

Leyden." 

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"Oh, I sha'n't have any use for the moon.  I shall get over before  nightfall, if this breeze holds." 

She tried to think of something else, and to get away from this  talk of a  sail to Leyden, but she fatally

answered, "I saw your boat  this  afternoon.  I had n't noticed before that it was still here." 

He hesitated a moment, and then asked, "Did you happen to notice  the  dory?" 

"Yes, it was drawn up on the sand." 

"I suppose it's all rightif it's in the same place." 

"It seemed to be," she answered faintly. 

"I'm going to give the boat to Johnson." 

She did not say anything, for she could think of nothing to say,  but that  she had looked for seals on the reef,

but had not seen any,  and this  would have been too shamelessly leading.  That left the word  to him, and  he

asked timidly, 

"I hope my coming don't seem intrusive, Miss Breen?" 

She did not heed this, but "You are going to be gone a great  while?" she  asked, in turn. 

"I don't know," he replied, in an uncertain tone, as if troubled to  make  out whether she was vexed with him or

not.  "I thought," he  added,  "I would go up the Nile this time.  I've never been up the  Nile, you  know." 

"No, I didn't know that.  Well," she added to herself, "I wish you  had  not come back!  You had better not have

come back.  If you had n't  come,  you would have got my letter.  And now it can never be done!  No, I can't  go

through it all again, and no one has the right to ask  it.  We have  missed the only chance," she cried to herself,

in such  keen reproach of  him that she thought she must have spoken aloud. 

"Is Mrs. Maynard all right again?" he asked. 

"Yes, she is very much better," she answered, confusedly, as if he  had  heard her reproach and had ignored it. 

"I hope you're not so tired as you were." 

"No, I 'm not tired now." 

"I thought you looked a little pale," he said sympathetically, and  now  she saw that he was so.  It irritated her

that she should be so  far from  him, in all helpfulness, and she could scarcely keep down the  wish that  ached

in her heart. 

We are never nearer doing the thing we long to do than when we have  proclaimed to ourselves that it must

not and cannot be. 

"Why are you so pale?" she demanded, almost angrily. 

"I?  I didn't know that I was," he answered.  "I supposed I was  pretty  well.  I dare say I ought to be ashamed of

showing it in that  way.  But  if you ask me, well, I will tell you; I don't find it any  easier than I  did at first." 


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"You are to blame, then!" she cried.  "If I were a man, I should  not let  such a thing wear upon me for a

moment" 

"Oh, I dare say I shall live through it," he answered, with the  national  whimsicality that comes to our aid in

most emergencies. 

A little pang went through her heart, but she retorted, "I would  n't go  to Europe to escape it, nor up the Nile.  I

would stay and  fight it where  I was."  "Stay?" He seemed to have caught hopefully at  the word. 

"I thought you were stronger.  If you give up in this way how can  you  expect me"She stopped; she hardly

knew what she had intended to  say;  she feared that he knew. 

But he only said: "I'm sorry.  I didn't intend to trouble you with  the  sight of me.  I had a plan for getting over

the cliff without  letting you  know, and having Maynard come down to me there." 

"And did you really mean," she cried piteously, "to go away without  trying to see me again?" 

"Yes," he owned simply.  "I thought I might catch a glimpse of you,  but I  did n't expect to speak to you." 

"Did you hate me so badly as that?  What had I done to you?" 

"Done?" He gave a sorrowful laugh; and added, with an absent air,  "Yes,  it's really like doing something to

me!  And sometimes it seems  as if you  had done it purposely." 

"You know I did n't!  Now, then," she cried, "you have insulted me,  and  you never did that before.  You were

very good and noble and  generous,  and would n't let me blame myself for anything.  I wanted  always to

remember that of you; for I did n't believe that any man  could be so  magnanimous.  But it seems that you

don't care to have me  respect you!" 

"Respect?" he repeated, in the same vague way.  "No, I should n't  care  about that unless it was included in the

other.  But you know  whether I  have accused you of anything, or whether I have insulted  you.  I won't  excuse

myself.  I think that ought to be insulting to  your common sense." 

"Then why should you have wished to avoid seeing me today?  Was it  to  spare yourself?" she demanded,

quite incoherently now.  "Or did you  think  I should not be equal to the meeting?" 

"I don't know what to say to you," answered the young man.  "I  think I  must be crazy."  He halted, and looked

at her in complete  bewilderment.  "I don't understand you at all." 

"I wished to see you very much.  I wanted your advice, asasa  friend."  He shook his head.  "Yes! you shall

be my friend, in this at  least.  I  can claim itdemand it.  You had no right totomake  metrust you so

much, andand thendesert me." 

"Oh, very well," he answered.  "If any advice of mineBut I  couldn't go  through that sacrilegious farce of

being near you and  not"She waited  breathlessly, a condensed eternity, for him to go on;  but he stopped at

that word, and added: "How can I advise you?" 

The disappointment was so cruel that the tears came into her eyes  and ran  down her face, which she averted

from him.  When she could  control  herself she said, "I have an opportunity of going on in my  profession  now,

in a way that makes me sure of success." 


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"I am very glad on your account.  You must be glad to realize" 

"No, no!" she retorted wildly.  "I am not glad!" 

"I thought you" 

"But there are conditions!  He says he will go with me anywhere,  and we  can practise our profession together,

and I can carry out all  my plans.  But firstfirsthe wants me tomarry him!" 

"Who?" 

"Don't you know?  Dr. Mulbridge!" 

"ThatI beg your pardon.  I've no right to call him names."  The  young  fellow halted, and looked at her

downcast face.  "Well, do you  want me to  tell you to take him?  That is too much.  I did n't know  you were

cruel." 

"You make me cruel!  You leave me to be cruel!" 

"I leave you to be cruel?" 

"Oh, don't play upon my words, if you won't ask me what I  answered!" 

"How can I ask that?  I have no right to know." 

"But you shall know!" she cried.  "I told him that I had no plans.  I have given them all up becausebecause

I'm too weak for them, and  because I abhor him, and becauseBut it was n't enough.  He would not  take

what I said for answer, and he is coming again for an answer." 

"Coming again?" 

"Yes.  He is a man who believes that women may change, for reason  or no  reason; and" 

"Youyou mean to take him when he comes back?" gasped the young  man. 

"Never!  Not if he came a thousand times!" 

"Then what is it you want me to advise you about?" he faltered. 

"Nothing!" she answered, with freezing hauteur.  She suddenly put  up her  arms across her eyes, with the

beautiful, artless action of a  shame  smitten child, and left her young figure in bewildering relief.  "Oh,  don't

you see that I love you?" 

"Could n't you understand,couldn't you see what I meant?" she  asked  again that night, as they lost

themselves on the long stretch of  the  moonlit beach.  With his arm close about that lovely shape they  would

have seemed but one person to the inattentive observer, as they  paced  along in the white splendor. 

"I couldn't risk anything.  I had spoken, once for all.  I always  thought  that for a man to offer himself twice

was indelicate and  unfair.  I could  never have done it." 


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"That's very sweet in you," she said; and perhaps she would have  praised  in the same terms the precisely

opposite sentiment.  "It's  some comfort,"  she added, with a deepfetched sigh, "to think I had to  speak." 

He laughed.  "You didn't find it so easy to make love!" 

"Oh, NOTHING is easy that men have to do!" she answered, with  passionate  earnestness. 

There are moments of extreme concession, of magnanimous admission,  that  come but once in a lifetime. 

XII.

Dr. Mulbridge did not wait for the time he had fixed for his  return.  He  may have judged that her tendency

against him would  strengthen by delay,  or he may have yielded to his own impatience in  coming the next

day.  He  asked for Grace with his wonted abruptness,  and waited for her coming in  the little parlor of the

hotel, walking  up and down the floor, with his  shaggy head bent forward, and his big  hands clasped behind

him. 

As she hovered at the door before entering, she could watch him  while he  walked the whole room's length

away, and she felt a pang at  sight of him.  If she could have believed that he loved her, she could  not have

faced  him, but must have turned and run away; and even as it  was she grieved  for him.  Such a man would not

have made up his mind  to this step without  a deep motive, if not a deep feeling.  Her heart  had been softened

so  that she could not think of frustrating his  ambition, if it were no  better than that, without pity.  One man

had  made her feel very kindly  toward all other men; she wished in the  tender confusion of the moment  that

she need not reject her  importunate suitor, whose importunity even  she could not resent. 

He caught sight of her as soon as he made his turn at the end of  the  room, and with a quick "Ah, Ah!" he

hastened to meet her, with the  smile  in which there was certainly something attractive.  "You see  I've come

back a day sooner than I promised.  I haven't the sort of  turnout you've  been used to, but I want you to drive

with me."  "I  can't drive with you,  Dr. Mulbridge," she faltered. 

"Well, walk, then.  I should prefer to walk." 

"You must excuse me," she answered, and remained standing before  him. 

"Sit down," he bade her, and pushed up a chair towards her.  His  audacity, if it had been a finer courage,

would have been splendid,  and  as it was she helplessly obeyed him, as if she were his patient,  and must  do so.

"If I were superstitious I should say that you  receive me  ominously," he said, fixing his gray eyes keenly

upon her. 

"I do!" she forced herself to reply.  "I wish you had not come." 

"That's explicit, at any rate.  Have you thought it over?" 

"No; I had no need to do that, I had fully resolved when I spoke  yesterday.  Dr. Mulbridge, why didn't you

spare me this?  It's unkind  of  you to insist, after what I said.  You know that I must hate to  repeat  it.  I do value

you so highly in some ways that I blame you for  obliging  me to hurt youif it does hurtby telling you

again that I  don't love  you." 

He drew in a long breath, and set his teeth hard upon his lip.  "You may  depend upon its hurting," he said,

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not the conventional wooer.  I'm too old  for it, and I'm too blunt  and plain a man.  I've been thirtyfive  years

making up my mind to ask  you to marry me.  You're the first  woman, and you shall be the last.  You  couldn't

suppose I was going to  give you up for one no?" 

"You had better." 

"Not for twenty!  I can understand very well how you never thought  of me  in this way; but there's no reason

why you shouldn't.  Come,  it's a  matter that we can reason about, like anything else." 

"No.  I told you, it's something we can't reason about.  Or yes, it  is.  I will reason with you.  You say that you

love me?" 

"Yes." 

"If you did n't love me, you would n't ask me to marry you?" 

"No." 

"Then how can you expect me to marry you without loving you?" 

"I don't.  All that I ask is that you won't refuse me.  I know that  you  can love me." 

"No, no, never!" 

"And I only want you to take time to try." 

"I don't wish to try.  If you persist, I must leave the room.  We  had  better part.  I was foolish to see you.  But I

thoughtI was  sorryI  hoped to make it less unkind to you." 

"In spite of yourself, you were relenting." 

"Not at all!" 

"But if you pitied me, you did care for me a little?" 

"You know that I had the highest respect for you as a physician.  I  tell  you that you were my ideal in that way,

and I will tell you that  if"she  stopped, and he continued for her. 

"If you had not resolved to give it up, you might have done what I  asked." 

"I did not say that," she answered indignantly. 

"But why do you give it up?" 

"Because I am not equal to it." 

"How do you know it?  Who told you?" 

"You have told me,by every look and act of yours,and I'm  grateful to  you for it." 

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"You would n't believe my word?"  She did not answer.  "I see," he  said  presently, "that you doubt me

somehow as a man.  What is it you  think of  me?" 

"You wouldn't like to know." 

"Oh, yes, I should." 

"Well, I will tell you.  I think you are a tyrant, and that you  want a  slave, not a wife.  You wish to be obeyed.

You despise women.  I don't  mean their minds,they 're despicable enough, in most cases,  as men's

are,but their nature." 

"This is news to me," he said, laughing.  "I never knew that I  despised  women's nature." 

"It's true, whether you knew it or not." 

"Do I despise you?" 

"You would, if you saw that I was afraid of you: Oh, why do you  force me  to say such things?  Why don't you

spare mespare yourself?" 

"In this cause I couldn't spare myself.  I can't bear to give you  up!  I'm what I am, whatever you say; but with

you, I could be whatever  you  would.  I could show you that you are wrong if you gave me the  chance.  I know

that I could make you happy.  Listen to me a moment." 

"It's useless." 

"No!  If you have taken the trouble to read me in this way, there  must  have been a time when you might have

cared."  "There never was  any such time.  I read you from the first." 

"I will go away," he said, after a pause, in which she had risen,  and  began a retreat towards the door.  "But I

will notI cannotgive  you  up.  I will see you again." 

"No, sir.  You shall not see me again.  I will not submit to it.  I  will  not be persecuted."  She was trembling, and

she knew that he saw  her  tremor. 

"Well," he said, with a smile that recognized her trepidation, "I  will  not persecute you.  I'll renounce these

pretensions.  But I'll  ask you to  see me once more, as a friend,an acquaintance." 

"I will not see you again." 

"You are rather hard with me, I think," he urged gently.  "I don't  think  I'm playing the tyrant with you now." 

"You are,the baffled tyrant." 

"But if I promised not to offend again, why should you deny me your  acquaintance?" 

"Because I don't believe you."  She was getting nearer the door,  and as  she put her hand behind her and

touched the knob, the wild  terror she had  felt, lest he should reach it first and prevent her  escape, left her.

"You are treating me like a child that does n't know  its own mind, or has  none to know.  You are laughing at

meplaying  with me; you have shown me  that you despise me." 


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He actually laughed.  "Well, you've shown that you are not afraid  of me.  Why are you not afraid?" 

"Because," she answered, and she dealt the blow now without pity,  "I'm  engaged,engaged to Mr. Libby!

"She whirled about and vanished  through  the door, ashamed, indignant, fearing that if she had not  fled, he

would  somehow have found means to make his will prevail even  yet. 

He stood, stupefied, looking at the closed door, and he made a turn  or  two about the room before he

summoned intelligence to quit it.  When  death itself comes, the sense of continuance is not at once  broken in

the  survivors.  In these moral deaths, which men survive in  their own lives,  there is no immediate

consciousness of an end.  For a  while, habit and  the automatic tendency of desire carry them on. 

He drove back to Corbitant perched on the rickety seat of his  rattling  open buggy, and bowed forward as his

wont was, his rounded  shoulders  bringing his chin well over the dashboard.  As he passed  down the long

sandy street, toward the corner where his own house  stood, the brooding  group of loafers, waiting in

Hackett's store for  the distribution of the  mail, watched him through the open door, and  from under the

boughs of the  weatherbeaten poplar before it.  Hackett  had been cutting a pound of  cheese out of the thick

yellow disk before  him, for the Widow Holman, and  he stared at the street after Mulbridge  passed, as if his

mental eye had  halted him there for the public  consideration, while he leaned over the  counter, and held by

the point  the long knife with which he had cut the  cheese. 

"I see some the folks from over to Jocelyn's, yist'd'y," he said,  in a  spasm of sharp, crackling speech, "and

they seemed to think 't  Mis'  Mulbridge'd got to step round pretty spry 'f she did n't want  another the  same

name in the house with her." 

A long silence followed, in which no one changed in any wise the  posture  in which he found himself when

Hackett began to speak.  Cap'n  George  Wray, tilted back against the wall in his chair, continued to  stare at  the

storekeeper; Cap'n Jabez Wray, did not look up from  whittling the  chair between his legs; their cousin,

Cap'n Wray  Storrell, seated on a  nailkeg near the stove, went on fretting the  rust on the pipe with the  end of a

stiff, castoff envelope; two other  captains, more or less akin  to them, continued their game of checkers;  the

Widow Seth Wray's boy  rested immovable, with his chin and hand on  the counter, where he had  been trying

since the Widow Holman went out  to catch Hackett's eye and  buy a cornball.  Old Cap'n Billy Wray was  the

first to break the spell.  He took his cigar from his mouth, and  held it between his shaking thumb  and

forefinger, while he pursed his  lips for speech.  "Jabez," he said,  "did Cap'n Sam'l git that  coalier?" 

"No," answered the whittler, cutting deeper into his chair, "she  did n't  signal for him till she got into the

channel, and then he'd  got a couple  o' passengers for Leyden; and Cap'n Jim brought her up." 

"I don't know," said Cap'n Billy, with a stiff yet tremulous  reference of  himself to the storekeeper, "as

spryness would help her,  as long as he  took the notion.  I guess he's master of his own ship.  Who's he going to

marry?  The grahswidow got well enough?" 

"No.  As I understand," crackled the storekeeper, "her husband's  turned  up.  Folks over there seem to think't

he's got his eye on the  other  doctor." 

"Going to marry with her, hey?  Well, if either of 'em gets sick  they  won't have to go far for advice, and they

won't have any doctor's  bills  to pay.  Still, I shouldn't ha' picked out just that kind of a  wife for  him." 

"As I understand," the storekeeper began; but here he caught sight  of  Widow Seth Wray's boy, and asked,

"What's wanted, Bub?  Cornball?"  and  turning to take that sweetmeat from the shelf behind him he added  the

rest in the mouth of the hollowly reverberating jar, "She's got  prop'ty." 


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"Well, I never knew a Mulbridge yet 't objected to  prop'ty,especially,  other folks's." 

"Barlow he's tellin' round that she 's very fine appearin'."  He  handed  the cornball to Widow Seth Wray's

boy, who went noiselessly  out on his  bare feet. 

Cap'n Billy drew several long breaths.  When another man might have  been  supposed to have dismissed the

subject he said, " Well, I never  knew a  Mulbridge that objected to good looks in women folks.  They've  all

merried hahnsome wives, ever since the old gentleman set 'em the  example  with his second one.  They got

their own looks from the first.  Well," he  added, "I hope she's a tough one.  She's got either to bend  or to

break." 

"They say," said Cap'n George Wray, like one rising from the dead  to say  it, so dumb and motionless had he

been till now, "that Mis'  Mulbridge was  too much for the old doctor." 

"I don't know about that," Cap'n Billy replied, "but I guess her  son's  too much for her: she's only Gardiner,

and he's Gardiner and  Mulbridge  both." 

No one changed countenance, but a sense of Cap'n Billy's wit  sparely yet  satisfyingly glimmered from the

eyes of Cap'n George and  the storekeeper,  and Cap'n Jabez closed his knife with a snap and  looked up.

"Perhaps,"  he suggested, "she's seen enough of him to know  beforehand that there  would be too much of

him." 

"I never rightly understood," said Hackett, "just what it was about  him,  there in the armycoming out a year

beforehand, that way." 

"I guess you never will,from him," said Cap'n Jabez. 

"Laziness, I guess,too much work," said old Cap'n Billy.  "What  he  wants is a wife with money.  There ain't

a better doctor anywhere.  I've  heard 't up to Boston, where he got his manifest, they thought  everything  of

him.  He's smart enough, but he's lazy, and he always  was lazy, and  harder'n a nut.  He's a curious mixtur'.  N'I

guess he's  been on the  lookout for somethin' of this kind ever sence he begun  practising among  the summer

boarders.  Guess he's had an eye out." 

"They say he's poplar among 'em," observed the storekeeper  thoughtfully. 

"He's been pooty p'tic'lar, or they have," said Cap'n Jabez. 

"Well, most on 'em's merried women," Hackett urged.  "It's  astonishin'  how they do come off and leave their

husbands, the whole  summer long.  They say they're all out o' health, though." 

"I wonder," said old Cap'n Billy, "if them coaliers is goin' to  make a  settled thing of haulin' inside before they

signal a pilot." 

"I know one thing," answered Cap'n Jabez, "that if any coalier  signals me  in the channel, I'll see her in hell

first" He slipped his  smooth, warm  knife into his pocket, and walked out of the store amid a  general  silence. 

"He's consid'ble worked up, about them coaliers," said old Cap'n  Billy.  "I don't know as I've heard Jabez

swear beforenot since he  was mate of  the Gallatin.  He used to swear then, consid'able." 

"Them coaliers is enough to make any one swear," said Cap'n George.  "If  it's any ways fair weather they

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inside." 

Old Cap'n Billy did not answer before he had breathed awhile, and  then,  having tried his cigar and found it

out, he scraped a match on  his coat  sleeve.  He looked at the flame while it burned from blue to  yellow.

"Well, I guess if anybody's been p'tic'lar, it's been him.  There ain't  any doubt but what he's got a takin' way

with the women.  They like him.  He's masterful, and he ain't a fool, and women most  gen'ly like a man  that

ain't a fool.  I guess if he 's got his eye on  the girl's prop'ty,  she'll have to come along.  He'd begin by havin'  his

own way about her  answer; he'd hang on till she said Yes, if she  did n't say it firstoff;  and he'd keep on as

he'd begun.  I guess if  he wants her it's a match."  And Cap'n Billy threw his own into the  square box of

tobaccostained  sawdust under the stove. 

Mrs. Maynard fully shared the opinion which rocked Dr. Mulbridge's  defeat  with a belief in his invincible

will.  When it became  necessary, in the  course of events which made Grace and Libby resolve  upon a short

engagement, to tell her that they were going to be  married, she expressed  a frank astonishment.  "Walter

Libby!" she  cried.  "Well, I am surprised.  When I was talking to you the other day  about getting married, of

course  I supposed it was going to be Dr.  Mulbridge.  I did n't want you to marry  him, but I thought you were

going to." 

"And why," demanded Grace, with mounting sensation, "did you think  that?" 

"Oh, I thought you would have to." 

"Have to?" 

"Oh, you have such a weak will.  Or I always thought you had.  But  perhaps it's only a weak will with other

women.  I don't know!  But  Walter Libby!  I knew he was perfectly gone upon you, and I told you  so  at the

beginning; but I never dreamt of your caring for him.  Why,  it  seems too ridiculous." 

"Indeed!  I'm glad that it amuses you." 

"Oh no, you're not, Grace.  But you know what I mean.  He seems so  much  younger." 

"Younger?  He's half a year older than I am." 

"I did n't say he was younger.  But you're so very grave and he's  so very  light.  Well, I always told Walter

Libby I should get him a  wife, but you  were the last person I should have thought of.  What's  going to become

of  all your high purposes?  You can't do anything with  them when you're  married!  But you won't have any

occasion for them,  that's one comfort." 

"It's not my idea of marriage that any high purpose will be lost in  it." 

"Oh, it is n't anybody's, before they get married.  I had such high  purposes I couldn't rest.  I felt like hiring a

hall, as George says,  all  the time.  Walter Libby is n't going to let you practise, is he?  You  mustn't let him!  I

know he'd be willing to do anything you said,  but a  husband ought to be something more than a mere Co." 

Grace laughed at the impudent cynicism of all this, for she was too  happy  to be vexed with any one just then.

"I'm, glad you've come to  think so  well of husbands' rights at last, Louise," she said. 

Mrs. Maynard took the little puncture in good part.  "Oh, yes,  George and  I have had a good deal of light let in

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"It was not," answered Grace warmly.  "It was intensified, that was  all." 

Mrs. Maynard laughed in her turn, with real enjoyment of the  conception.  "Well, I wasn't going to let on,

unless it came to the  worst; I did n't  say much, but I kept up an awful thinking.  It would  have been easy

enough to get a divorce, and George would n't have  opposed it; but I  looked at it in this way: that the divorce

wouldn't  have put us back  where we were, anyway, as I had supposed it would.  We had broken into  each

other's lives, and we couldn't get out again,  with all the divorces  under the sun.  That's the worst of getting

married: you break into each  other's lives.  You said something like  it to me, that day when you came  back

from your sail with Walter  Libby.  And I just concluded that there  could n't be any trial that  would n't be a

great deal easier to bear than  getting rid of all your  trials; and I just made up my mind that if any  divorce was

to be got,  George Maynard might get it himself; a temporary  separation was bad  enough for me, and I told

him so, about the first  words I could speak.  And we're going to try the new departure on that  platform.  We

don't  either of us suspect we can have things perfectly  smooth, but we've  agreed to rough it together when we

can't.  We've found  out that we  can't marry and then become single, any more than we could  die and  come to

life again.  And don't you forget it, Grace!  You don't  half  know yourself, now.  You know what you have been;

but getting  married  lets loose all your possibilities.  You don't know what a temper  you've got, nor how badly

you can behavehow much like a naughty,  good  fornothing little girl; for a husband and wife are just two

children  together: that's what makes the sweetness of it, and that's  what makes  the dreadfulness.  Oh, you'll

have need of all your good  principles, I  can tell you, and if you've a mind to do anything  practical in the way

of  high purposes, I reckon there'll be use for  them all." 

Another lady who was astonished at Grace's choice was more  incurably  disappointed and more grieved for

the waste of those noble  aims with  which her worshipping fancy had endowed the girl even more  richly than

her own ambition.  It was Grace's wish to pass a year in  Europe before  her husband should settle down in

charge of his mills;  and their  engagement, marriage, and departure followed so swiftly upon  one another,  that

Miss Gleason would have had no opportunity to  proffer remonstrance  or advice.  She could only account for

Grace's  course on the theory that  Dr. Mulbridge had failed to offer himself;  but this explained her failure  to

marry him, without explaining her  marriage with Mr. Libby.  That  remained for some time a mystery, for

Miss Gleason firmly refused to  believe that such a girl could be in  love with a man so much her  inferior: the

conception disgraced not  only her idol, but cast shame upon  all other women, whose course in  such matters is

notoriously governed by  motives of the highest  sagacity and judgment. 

Mrs. Breen hesitated between the duty of accompanying the young  couple on  their European travels, and that

of going to the village  where Libby's  mills were situated,in southern New Hampshire.  She  was not

strongly  urged to a decision by her children, and she finally  chose the latter  course.  The mill property had

been a long time  abandoned before Libby's  father bought it, and put it in a repair  which he did not hasten to

extend to the village.  This had remained  in a sort of picturesque  neglect, which harmonized with the scenery

of  the wild little valley  where it nestled; and Mrs. Breen found, upon  the vigorous inquiry which  she set on

foot, that the operatives were  deplorably destitute of culture  and drainage.  She at once devoted  herself to the

establishment of a  circulating library and an  enlightened system of cesspools, to such an  effect of

ingratitude in  her beneficiaries that she was quite ready to  remand them to their  former squalor when her

soninlaw returned.  But he  found her work  all so good that he mediated between her and the  inhabitants,

and  adopted it with a hearty appreciation that went far to  console her,  and finally popularized it.  In fact, he

entered into the  spirit of  all practical reforms with an energy and intelligence that  quite  reconciled her to him.

It was rather with Grace than with him that  she had fault to find.  She believed that the girl had returned from

Europe materialized and corrupted; and she regarded the souvenirs of  travel with which the house was filled

as so many tokens of moral  decay.  It is undeniable that Grace seemed for a time, to have softened  to, a  certain

degree of selfindulgence.  During the brief opera  season the  first winter after her return, she spent a week in

Boston;  she often came  to the city, and went to the theatres and the  exhibitions of pictures.  It was for some

time Miss Gleason's opinion  that these escapades were the  struggles of a magnanimous nature,  unequally

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till one day  she heard something that gave her more relief  than she could ever have  hoped for.  This was the

fact, perfectly  ascertained by some summer  sojourners in the neighborhood; that Mrs.  Libby was turning her

professional training to account by treating the  sick children among  her husband's operatives. 

In the fall Miss Gleason saw her heroine at an exhibition of  pictures.  She rushed across the main hall of the

Museum to greet her.  "Congratulate you!" she deeply whispered, "on realizing your dream!  Now you are

happy, now you can be at peace!" 

"Happy?  At peace?" 

"In the good work you have taken up.  Oh, nothing, under Gawd, is  lost!"  she exclaimed, getting ready to run

away, and speaking with her  face  turned over her shoulder towards Mrs. Libby. 

"Dream?  Good work?  What do you mean?" 

"Those factory children!" 

"Oh!" said Mrs. Libby coldly, "that was my husband's idea." 

"Your husband's!" cried Miss Gleason, facing about again, and  trying to  let a whole history of suddenly

relieved anxiety speak in  her eyes.  "How  happy you make me!  Do let me thank you!" 

In the effort to shake hands with Mrs. Libby she knocked the  catalogue  out of her hold, and vanished in the

crowd without knowing  it.  Some  gentleman picked it up, and gave it to her again, with a bow  of burlesque

devotion. 

Mrs. Libby flushed tenderly.  "I might have known it would be you,  Walter.  Where did you spring from?" 

"I've been here ever since you came." 

"What in the world doing?" 

"Oh, enjoying myself." 

"Looking at the pictures?" 

"Watching you walk round:' 

"I thought you couldn't be enjoying the pictures," she said  simply."  I'm not." 

She was not happy, indeed, in any of the aesthetic dissipations  into  which she had plunged, and it was

doubtless from a shrewder  knowledge of  her nature than she had herself that her husband had  proposed this

active  usefulness, which she once intended under such  different conditions.  At  the end of the ends she was a

Puritan;  belated, misdated, if the reader  will, and cast upon good works for  the consolation which the Puritans

formerly found in a creed.  Riches  and ease were sinful to her, and  somehow to be atoned for; and she had  no

real love for anything that was  not of an immediate humane and  spiritual effect.  Under the shelter of  her

husband's name the  benevolent use of her skill was no queerer than  the charity to which  many ladies devote

themselves; though they are  neither of them people  to have felt the anguish which comes from the fear  of

what other  people will think.  They go their way in life, and are  probably not  disturbed by any misgivings

concerning them.  It is thought,  on one  hand, that he is a man of excellent head, and of a heart so  generous  that

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that she consults  his  judgment in every action of her life, and trusts his sense with the  same completeness that

she trusts his love.  On the other hand, when  it  is felt that she ought to have done for the sake of woman what

she  could  not do for herself, she is regarded as sacrificed in her  marriage.  If,  it is feared, she is not infatuated

with her husband,  she is in a  disgraceful subjection, without the hope of better or  higher things.  If  she had

children, they might be a compensation and  refuge for her; in  that case, to be sure, she must be cut off from

her  present resource in  caring for the children of others; though the  conditions under which she  now exercises

her skill certainly amount to  begging the whole question of  woman's fitness for the career she had  chosen. 

Both parties to this contention are, strange to say, ladies.  If it  has  not been made clear from the events and

characters of the  foregoing  history which opinion is right, I am unable to decide.  It  is well,  perhaps, not to be

too explicitly in the confidence of one's  heroine.  After her marriage perhaps it is not even decorous. 


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