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Oliver Wendell Holmes...........................................................................................................................1

BREAD AND THE NEWSPAPER. ........................................................................................................1

MY HUNT AFTER "THE CAPTAIN." ..................................................................................................6

THE INEVITABLE TRIAL..................................................................................................................30

CINDERS FROM THE ASHES. ...........................................................................................................45

THE PULPIT AND THE PEW.............................................................................................................53


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BREAD AND THE NEWSPAPER. 

MY HUNT AFTER "THE CAPTAIN." 

THE INEVITABLE TRIAL 

CINDERS FROM THE ASHES. 

THE PULPIT AND THE PEW.  

BREAD AND THE NEWSPAPER.

(September, 1861.) 

This is the new version of the Panem et Circenses of the Roman  populace.  It is our ultimatum, as that was

theirs.  They must have  something to eat, and the circusshows to look at.  We must have  something to eat,

and the papers to read. 

Everything else we can give up.  If we are rich, we can lay down  our  carriages, stay away from Newport or

Saratoga, and adjourn the  trip  to Europe sine die.  If we live in a small way, there are at  least  new dresses and

bonnets and everyday luxuries which we can  dispense  with.  If the young Zouave of the family looks smart

in his  new  uniform, its respectable head is content, though he himself grow  seedy as a carawayumbel late in

the season.  He will cheerfully calm  the perturbed nap of his old beaver by patient brushing in place of  buying

a new one, if only the Lieutenant's jaunty cap is what it  should be.  We all take a pride in sharing the epidemic

economy of  the time.  Only bread and the newspaper we must have, whatever else  we do without. 

How this war is simplifying our mode of being!  We live on our  emotions, as the sick man is said in the

common speech to be  nourished by his fever.  Our ordinary mental food has become  distasteful, and what

would have been intellectual luxuries at other  times, are now absolutely repulsive. 

All this change in our manner of existence implies that we have  experienced some very profound impression,

which will sooner or later  betray itself in permanent effects on the minds and bodies of many  among us.  We

cannot forget Corvisart's observation of the frequency  with which diseases of the heart were noticed as the

consequence of  the terrible emotions produced by the scenes of the great French  Revolution.  Laennec tells

the story of a convent, of which he was  the medical director, where all the nuns were subjected to the  severest

penances and schooled in the most painful doctrines.  They  all became consumptive soon after their entrance,

so that, in the  course of his ten years' attendance, all the inmates died out two or  three times, and were

replaced by new ones.  He does not hesitate to  attribute the disease from which they suffered to those

depressing  moral influences to which they were subjected. 

So far we have noticed little more than disturbances of the nervous  system as a consequence of the war

excitement in noncombatants.  Take  the first trifling example which comes to our recollection.  A  sad  disaster

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to the Federal army was told the other day in the  presence of  two gentlemen and a lady.  Both the gentlemen

complained  of a sudden  feeling at the epigastrium, or, less learnedly, the pit  of the  stomach, changed color,

and confessed to a slight tremor about  the  knees.  The lady had a "grande revolution," as French patients  say,

went home, and kept her bed for the rest of the day.  Perhaps  the  reader may smile at the mention of such

trivial indispositions,  but in  more sensitive natures death itself follows in some cases from  no more  serious

cause.  An old, gentleman fell senseless in fatal  apoplexy, on  hearing of Napoleon's return from Elba.  One of

our  early friends, who  recently died of the same complaint, was thought  to have had his  attack mainly in

consequence of the excitements of  the time. 

We all know what the war fever is in our young men,what a  devouring  passion it becomes in those whom

it assails.  Patriotism is  the fire  of it, no doubt, but this is fed with fuel of all sorts.  The  love of  adventure, the

contagion of example, the fear of losing the  chance of  participating in the great events of the time, the desire

of  personal  distinction, all help to produce those singular  transformations which  we often witness, turning the

most peaceful of  our youth into the  most ardent of our soldiers.  But something of the  same fever in a  different

form reaches a good many noncombatants, who  have no  thought of losing a drop of precious blood

belonging to  themselves or  their families.  Some of the symptoms we shall mention  are almost  universal; they

are as plain in the people we meet  everywhere as the  marks of an influenza, when that is prevailing. 

The first is a nervous restlessness of a very peculiar character.  Men cannot think, or write, or attend to their

ordinary business.  They stroll up and down the streets, or saunter out upon the public  places.  We confessed to

an illustrious author that we laid down the  volume of his work which we were reading when the war broke

out.  It  was as interesting as a romance, but the romance of the past grew  pale before the red light of the

terrible present.  Meeting the same  author not long afterwards, he confessed that he had laid down his  pen at

the same time that we had closed his book.  He could not write  about the sixteenth century any more than we

could read about it,  while the nineteenth was in the very agony and bloody sweat of its  great sacrifice. 

Another most eminent scholar told us in all simplicity that he had  fallen into such a state that he would read

the same telegraphic  dispatches over and over again in different papers, as if they were  new, until he felt as if

he were an idiot.  Who did not do just the  same thing, and does not often do it still, now that the first flush  of

the fever is over?  Another person always goes through the side  streets on his way for the noon extra,he is

so afraid somebody will  meet him and tell the news he wishes to read, first on the bulletin  board, and then in

the great capitals and leaded type of the  newspaper. 

When any startling piece of warnews comes, it keeps repeating  itself  in our minds in spite of all we can do.

The same trains of  thought  go tramping round in circle through the brain, like the  supernumeraries that make

up the grand army of a stageshow.  Now, if  a thought goes round through the brain a thousand times in a

day, it  will have worn as deep a track as one which has passed through it  once a week for twenty years.  This

accounts for the ages we seem to  have lived since the twelfth of April last, and, to state it more  generally, for

that ex post facto operation of a great calamity, or  any very powerful impression, which we once illustrated

by the image  of a stain spreading backwards from the leaf of life open before as  through all those which we

have already turned. 

Blessed are those who can sleep quietly in times like these!  Yet,  not wholly blessed, either; for what is more

painful than the awaking  from peaceful unconsciousness to a sense that there is something  wrong, we cannot

at first think what,and then groping our way about  through the twilight of our thoughts until we come full

upon the  misery, which, like some evil bird, seemed to have flown away, but  which sits waiting for us on its

perch by our pillow in the gray of  the morning? 

The converse of this is perhaps still more painful.  Many have the  feeling in their waking hours that the

trouble they are aching with  is, after all, only a dream,if they will rub their eyes briskly  enough and shake

themselves, they will awake out of it, and find all  their supposed grief is unreal.  This attempt to cajole


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ourselves out  of an ugly fact always reminds us of those unhappy flies who have  been indulging in the

dangerous sweets of the paper prepared for  their especial use. 

Watch one of them.  He does not feel quite well,at least, he  suspects himself of indisposition.  Nothing

serious,let us just rub  our forefeet together, as the enormous creature who provides for us  rubs his hands,

and all will be right.  He rubs them with that  peculiar twisting movement of his, and pauses for the effect.  No!

all is not quite right yet.  Ah!  it is our head that is not set on  just as it ought to be.  Let us settle that where it

should be, and  then we shall certainly be in good trim again.  So he pulls his head  about as an old lady adjusts

her cap, and passes his forepaw over it  like a kitten washing herself.  Poor fellow!  It is not a fancy, but  a fact,

that he has to deal with.  If he could read the letters at  the head of the sheet, he would see they were

FlyPaper. So with  us, when, in our waking misery, we try to think we dream!  Perhaps  very young

persons may not understand this; as we grow older, our  waking and dreaming life run more and more into

each other. 

Another symptom of our excited condition is seen in the breaking up  of old habits.  The newspaper is as

imperious as a Russian Ukase; it  will be had, and it will be read.  To this all else must give place.  If we must

go out at unusual hours to get it, we shall go, in spite  of afterdinner nap or evening somnolence.  If it finds us

in  company, it will not stand on ceremony, but cuts short the compliment  and the story by the divine right of

its telegraphic dispatches. 

War is a very old story, but it is a new one to this generation of  Americans.  Our own nearest relation in the

ascending line remembers  the Revolution well.  How should she forget it?  Did she not lose her  doll, which

was left behind, when she was carried out of Boston,  about that time growing uncomfortable by reason of

cannonballs  dropping in from the neighboring heights at all hours,in token of  which see the tower of

Brattle Street Church at this very day?  War  in her memory means '76.  As for the brush of 1812, "we did not

think  much about that"; and everybody knows that the Mexican business did  not concern us much, except in

its political relations.  No!  war is  a new thing to all of us who are not in the last quarter of their  century.  We

are learning many strange matters from our fresh  experience.  And besides, there are new conditions of

existence which  make war as it is with us very different from war as it has been. 

The first and obvious difference consists in the fact that the  whole  nation is now penetrated by the

ramifications of a network of  iron  nerves which flash sensation and volition backward and forward to  and

from towns and provinces as if they were organs and limbs of a  single  living body.  The second is the vast

system of iron muscles  which, as  it were, move the limbs of the mighty organism one upon  another.  What

was the railroadforce which put the Sixth Regiment in  Baltimore  on the 19th of April but a contraction and

extension of the  arm of  Massachusetts with a clenched fist full of bayonets at the end  of it? 

This perpetual intercommunication, joined to the power of  instantaneous action, keeps us always alive with

excitement.  It is  not a breathless courier who comes back with the report from an army  we have lost sight of

for a month, nor a single bulletin which tells  us all we are to know for a week of some great engagement, but

almost  hourly paragraphs, laden with truth or falsehood as the case may be,  making us restless always for the

last fact or rumor they are  telling.  And so of the movements of our armies.  Tonight the stout  lumbermen of

Maine are encamped under their own fragrant pines.  In a  score or two of hours they are among the

tobaccofields and the  slavepens of Virginia.  The war passion burned like scattered coals  of fire in the

households of Revolutionary times; now it rushes all  through the land like a flame over the prairie.  And this

instant  diffusion of every fact and feeling produces another singular effect  in the equalizing and steadying of

public opinion.  We may not be  able to see a month ahead of us; but as to what has passed a week  afterwards

it is as thoroughly talked out and judged as it would have  been in a whole season before our national nervous

system was  organized. 

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Thou only teachest all that man can be!"

We indulged in the above apostrophe to War in a Phi Beta Kappa poem  of long ago, which we liked better

before we read Mr. Cutler's  beautiful prolonged lyric delivered at the recent anniversary of that  Society. 

Oftentimes, in paroxysms of peace and goodwill towards all  mankind,  we have felt twinges of conscience

about the  passage,especially  when one of our orators showed us that a ship of  war costs as much to  build

and keep as a college, and that every  porthole we could stop  would give us a new professor.  Now we begin

to think that there was  some meaning in our poor couplet.  War has  taught us, as nothing else  could, what we

can be and are.  It has  exalted our manhood and our  womanhood, and driven us all back upon our  substantial

human  qualities, for a long time more or less kept out of  sight by the  spirit of commerce, the love of art,

science, or  literature, or other  qualities not belonging to all of us as men and  women. 

It is at this very moment doing more to melt away the petty social  distinctions which keep generous souls

apart from each other, than  the preaching of the Beloved Disciple himself would do.  We are  finding out that

not only "patriotism is eloquence," but that heroism  is gentility.  All ranks are wonderfully equalized under

the fire of  a masked battery.  The plain artisan or the rough fireman, who faces  the lead and iron like a man, is

the truest representative we can  show of the heroes of Crecy and Agincourt.  And if one of our fine  gentlemen

puts off his strawcolored kids and stands by the other,  shoulder to shoulder, or leads him on to the attack, he

is as  honorable in our eyes and in theirs as if he were illdressed and his  hands were soiled with labor. 

Even our poor "Brahmins,"whom a critic in groundglass spectacles  (the same who grasps his statistics by

the blade and strikes at his  supposed antagonist with the handle) oddly confounds with the,  "bloated

aristocracy;" whereas they are very commonly pallid,  undervitalized, shy, sensitive creatures, whose only

birthright is an  aptitude for learning,even these poor New England Brahmins of ours,  subvirates of an

organizable base as they often are, count as full  men, if their courage is big enough for the uniform which

hangs so  loosely about their slender figures. 

A young man was drowned not very long ago in the river running  under  our windows.  A few days afterwards

a field piece was dragged to  the  water's edge, and fired many times over the river.  We asked a  bystander, who

looked like a fisherman, what that was for.  It was to  "break the gall," he said, and so bring the drowned

person to the  surface.  A strange physiological fancy and a very odd non sequitur;  but that is not our present

point.  A good many extraordinary objects  do really come to the surface when the great guns of war shake the

waters, as when they roared over Charleston harbor. 

Treason came up, hideous, fit only to be huddled into its  dishonorable grave.  But the wrecks of precious

virtues, which had  been covered with the waves of prosperity, came up also.  And all  sorts of unexpected and

unheardof things, which had lain unseen  during our national life of fourscore years, came up and are coming

up daily, shaken from their bed by the concussions of the artillery  bellowing around us. 

It is a shame to own it, but there were persons otherwise  respectable  not unwilling to say that they believed

the old valor of  Revolutionary times had died out from among us.  They talked about  our own Northern

people as the English in the last centuries used to  talk about the French,Goldsmith's old soldier, it may be

remembered, called one Englishman good for five of them.  As Napoleon  spoke of the English, again, as a

nation of shopkeepers, so these  persons affected to consider the multitude of their countrymen as  unwarlike

artisans,forgetting that Paul Revere taught himself the  value of liberty in working upon gold, and

Nathaniel Greene fitted  himself to shape armies in the labor of forging iron.  These persons  have learned

better now.  The bravery of our free  workingpeople was  overlaid, but not smothered; sunken, but not

drowned.  The hands which  had been busy conquering the elements had  only to change their weapons  and

their adversaries, and they were as  ready to conquer the masses of  living force opposed to them as they  had

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civilization can ask  for. 

Another great fact came to the surface, and is coming up every day  in  new shapes,that we are one people.

It is easy to say that a man  is  a man in Maine or Minnesota, but not so easy to feel it, all  through  our bones

and marrow.  The camp is deprovincializing us very  fast.  Brave Winthrop, marching with the city elegants,

seems to have  been a  little startled to find how wonderfully human were the  hardhanded  men of the Eighth

Massachusetts.  It takes all the  nonsense out of  everybody, or ought to do it, to see how fairly the  real

manhood of a  country is distributed over its surface.  And then,  just as we are  beginning to think our own soil

has a monopoly of  heroes as well as  of cotton, up turns a regiment of gallant Irishmen,  like the Sixty  ninth,

to show us that continental provincialism is as  bad as that of  Coos County, New Hampshire, or of Broadway,

New York. 

Here, too, side by side in the same great camp, are half a dozen  chaplains, representing half a dozen modes of

religious belief.  When  the masked battery opens, does the "Baptist" Lieutenant believe in  his heart that God

takes better care of him than of his  "Congregationalist" Colonel?  Does any man really suppose, that, of a

score of noble young fellows who have just laid down their lives for  their country, the Homoousians are

received to the mansions of bliss,  and the Homoousians translated from the battlefield to the abodes of

everlasting woe?  War not only teaches what man can be, but it  teaches also what he must not be.  He must not

be a bigot and a fool  in the presence of that day of judgment proclaimed by the trumpet  which calls to battle,

and where a man should have but two thoughts:  to do his duty, and trust his Maker.  Let our brave dead come

back  from the fields where they have fallen for law and liberty, and if  you will follow them to their graves,

you will find out what the  Broad Church means; the narrow church is sparing of its exclusive  formulae over

the coffins wrapped in the flag which the fallen heroes  had defended!  Very little comparatively do we hear at

such times of  the dogmas on which men differ; very much of the faith and trust in  which all sincere

Christians can agree.  It is a noble lesson, and  nothing less noisy than the voice of cannon can teach it so that

it  shall be heard over all the angry cries of theological disputants. 

Now, too, we have a chance to test the sagacity of our friends, and  to get at their principles of judgment.

Perhaps most, of us, will  agree that our faith in domestic prophets has been diminished by the  experience of

the last six months.  We had the notable predictions  attributed to the Secretary of State, which so unpleasantly

refused  to fulfil themselves.  We were infested at one time with a set of  ominouslooking seers, who shook

their heads and muttered obscurely  about some mighty preparations that were making to substitute the  rule of

the minority for that of the majority.  Organizations were  darkly hinted at; some thought our armories would

be seized; and  there are not wanting ancient women in the neighboring University  town who consider that the

country was saved by the intrepid band of  students who stood guard, night after night, over the G. R. cannon

and the pile of balls in the Cambridge Arsenal. 

As a general rule, it is safe to say that the best prophecies are  those which the sages remember after the event

prophesied of has come  to pass, and remind us that they have made long ago.  Those who, are  rash enough to

predict publicly beforehand commonly give us what they  hope, or what they fear, or some conclusion from an

abstraction of  their own, or some guess founded on private information not half so  good as what everybody

gets who reads the papers,never by any  possibility a word that we can depend on, simply because there are

cobwebs of contingency between every today and tomorrow that no  fieldglass can penetrate when fifty of

them lie woven one over  another.  Prophesy as much as you like, but always hedge.  Say that  you think the

rebels are weaker than is commonly supposed, but, on  the other hand, that they may prove to be even stronger

than is  anticipated.  Say what you like,only don't be too peremptory and  dogmatic; we know that wiser men

than you have been notoriously  deceived in their predictions in this very matter. 

     Ibis et redibis nunquam in bello peribis.


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Let that be your model; and remember, on peril of your reputation  as  a prophet, not to put a stop before or

after the nunquam. 

There are two or three facts connected with time, besides that  already referred to, which strike us very

forcibly in their relation  to the great events passing around us.  We spoke of the long period  seeming to have

elapsed since this war began.  The buds were then  swelling which held the leaves that are still green.  It seems

as old  as Time himself.  We cannot fail to observe how the mind brings  together the scenes of today and

those of the old Revolution.  We  shut up eighty years into each other like the joints of a pocket  telescope.

When the young men from Middlesex dropped in Baltimore  the other day, it seemed to bring Lexington and

the other Nineteenth  of April close to us.  War has always been the mint in which the  world's history has been

coined, and now every day or week or month  has a new medal for us.  It was Warren that the first impression

bore  in the last great coinage; if it is Ellsworth now, the new face  hardly seems fresher than the old.  All

battlefields are alike in  their main features.  The young fellows who fell in our earlier  struggle seemed like

old men to us until within these few months; now  we remember they were like these fiery youth we are

cheering as they  go to the fight; it seems as if the grass of our bloody hillside was  crimsoned but yesterday,

and the cannonball imbedded in the church  tower would feel warm, if we laid our hand upon it. 

Nay, in this our quickened life we feel that all the battles from  earliest time to our own day, where Right and

Wrong have grappled,  are but one great battle, varied with brief pauses or hasty bivouacs  upon the field of

conflict.  The issues seem to vary, but it is  always a right against a claim, and, however the struggle of the

hour  may go, a movement onward of the campaign, which uses defeat as well  as victory to serve its mighty

ends.  The very implements of our  warfare change less than we think.  Our bullets and cannonballs have

lengthened into bolts like those which whistled out of old arbalests.  Our soldiers fight with weapons, such as

are pictured on the walls of  Theban tombs, wearing a newly invented headgear as old as the days  of the

Pyramids. 

Whatever miseries this war brings upon us, it is making us wiser,  and, we trust, better.  Wiser, for we are

learning our weakness, our  narrowness, our selfishness, our ignorance, in lessons of sorrow and  shame.

Better, because all that is noble in men and women is  demanded by the time, and our people are rising to the

standard the  time calls for.  For this is the question the hour is putting to each  of us: Are you ready, if need be,

to sacrifice all that you have and  hope for in this world, that the generations to follow you may  inherit a

whole country whose natural condition shall be peace, and  not a broken province which must live under the

perpetual threat, if  not in the constant presence, of war and all that war brings with it?  If we are all ready for

this sacrifice, battles may be lost, but the  campaign and its grand object must be won. 

Heaven is very kind in its way of putting questions to mortals.  We  are not abruptly asked to give up all that

we most care for, in view  of the momentous issues before us.  Perhaps we shall never be asked  to give up all,

but we have already been called upon to part with  much that is dear to us, and should be ready to yield the

rest as it  is called for.  The time may come when even the cheap public print  shall be a burden our means

cannot support, and we can only listen in  the square that was once the marketplace to the voices of those who

proclaim defeat or victory.  Then there will be only our daily food  left.  When we have nothing to read and

nothing to eat, it will be a  favorable moment to offer a compromise.  At present we have all that  nature

absolutely demands,we can live on bread and the newspaper. 

MY HUNT AFTER "THE CAPTAIN."

In the dead of the night which closed upon the bloody field of  Antietam, my household was startled from its

slumbers by the loud  summons of a telegraphic messenger.  The air had been heavy all day  with rumors of

battle, and thousands and tens of thousands had walked  the streets with throbbing hearts, in dread anticipation

of the  tidings any hour might bring. 


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We rose hastily, and presently the messenger was admitted.  I took  the envelope from his hand, opened it, and

read: 

HAGERSTOWN 17th

To__________ H ______

Capt H______ wounded shot through the neck thought not mortal at

Keedysville

WILLIAM G. LEDUC

Through the neck,no bullet left in wound.  Windpipe, foodpipe,  carotid, jugular, half a dozen smaller, but

still formidable vessels,  a great braid of nerves, each as big as a lampwick, spinal cord,  ought to kill at

once, if at all.  Thought not mortal, or not thought  mortal,which was it?  The first; that is better than the

second  would be.  "Keedysville, a postoffice, Washington Co., Maryland."  Leduc?  Leduc?  Don't remember

that name.  The boy is waiting for his  money.  A dollar and thirteen cents.  Has nobody got thirteen cents?

Don't keep that boy waiting,how do we know what messages he has got  to carry? 

The boy had another message to carry.  It was to the father of  LieutenantColonel Wilder Dwight, informing

him that his son was  grievously wounded in the same battle, and was lying at Boonsborough,  a town a few

miles this side of Keedysville.  This I learned the next  morning from the civil and attentive officials at the

Central  Telegraph Office. 

Calling upon this gentleman, I found that he meant to leave in the  quarter past two o'clock train, taking with

him Dr. George H. Gay, an  accomplished and energetic surgeon, equal to any difficult question  or pressing

emergency.  I agreed to accompany them, and we met in the  cars.  I felt myself peculiarly fortunate in having

companions whose  society would be a pleasure, whose feelings would harmonize with my  own, and whose

assistance I might, in case of need, be glad to claim. 

It is of the journey which we began together, and which I finished  apart, that I mean to give my "Atlantic"

readers an account.  They  must let me tell my story in my own way, speaking of many little  matters that

interested or amused me, and which a certain leisurely  class of elderly persons, who sit at their firesides and

never  travel, will, I hope, follow with a kind of interest.  For, besides  the main object of my excursion, I could

not help being excited by  the incidental sights and occurrences of a trip which to a commercial  traveller or a

newspaperreporter would seem quite commonplace and  undeserving of record.  There are periods in which

all places and  people seem to be in a conspiracy to impress us with their  individuality, in which every

ordinary locality seems to assume a  special significance and to claim a particular notice, in which every

person we meet is either an old acquaintance or a character; days in  which the strangest coincidences are

continually happening, so that  they get to be the rule, and not the exception.  Some might naturally  think that

anxiety and the weariness of a prolonged search after a  near relative would have prevented my taking any

interest in or  paying any regard to the little matters around me.  Perhaps it had  just the contrary effect, and

acted like a diffused stimulus upon the  attention.  When all the faculties are wideawake in pursuit of a  single

object, or fixed in the spasm of an absorbing emotion, they  are oftentimes clairvoyant in a marvellous degree

in respect to many  collateral things, as Wordsworth has so forcibly illustrated in his  sonnet on the Boy of

Windermere, and as Hawthorne has developed with  such metaphysical accuracy in that chapter of his

wondrous story  where Hester walks forth to meet her punishment. 

Be that as it may,though I set out with a full and heavy heart,  though many times my blood chilled with

what were perhaps needless  and unwise fears, though I broke through all my habits without  thinking about

them, which is almost as hard in certain circumstances  as for one of our young fellows to leave his sweetheart

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thirsting, though I had a worrying ache and  inward tremor underlying all the outward play of the senses and

the  mind, yet it is the simple truth that I did look out of the car  windows with an eye for all that passed, that

I did take cognizance  of strange sights and singular people, that I did act much as persons  act from the

ordinary promptings of curiosity, and from time to time  even laugh very much as others do who are attacked

with a convulsive  sense of the ridiculous, the epilepsy of the diaphragm. 

By a mutual compact, we talked little in the cars.  A communicative  friend is the greatest nuisance to have at

one's side during a  railroad journey, especially if his conversation is stimulating and  in itself agreeable.  "A

fast train and a 'slow' neighbor," is my  motto.  Many times, when I have got upon the cars, expecting to be

magnetized into an hour or two of blissful reverie, my thoughts  shaken up by the vibrations into all sorts of

new and pleasing  patterns, arranging themselves in curves and nodal points, like the  grains of sand in

Chladni's famous experiment,fresh ideas coming up  to the surface, as the kernels do when a measure of

corn is jolted in  a farmer's wagon,all this without volition, the mechanical impulse  alone keeping the

thoughts in motion, as the mere act of carrying  certain watches in the pocket keeps them wound up,many

times, I  say, just as my brain was beginning to creep and hum with this  delicious locomotive intoxication,

some dear detestable friend,  cordial, intelligent, social, radiant, has come up and sat down by me  and opened

a conversation which has broken my daydream, unharnessed  the flying horses that were whirling along my

fancies and hitched on  the old weary omnibusteam of everyday associations, fatigued my  hearing and

attention, exhausted my voice, and milked the breasts of  my thought dry during the hour when they should

have been filling  themselves full of fresh juices.  My friends spared me this trial. 

So, then, I sat by the window and enjoyed the slight tipsiness  produced by short, limited, rapid oscillations,

which I take to be  the exhilarating stage of that condition which reaches hopeless  inebriety in what we know

as seasickness.  Where the horizon opened  widely, it pleased me to watch the curious effect of the rapid

movement of near objects contrasted with the slow motion of distant  ones.  Looking from a righthand

window, for instance, the fences  close by glide swiftly backward, or to the right, while the distant  hills not

only do not appear to move backward, but look by contrast  with the fences near at hand as if they were

moving forward, or to  the left; and thus the whole landscape becomes a mighty wheel  revolving about an

imaginary axis somewhere in the middledistance. 

My companions proposed to stay at one of the bestknown and  longest  established of the NewYork

caravansaries, and I accompanied  them.  We were particularly well lodged, and not uncivilly treated.  The

traveller who supposes that he is to repeat the melancholy  experience  of Shenstone, and have to sigh over the

reflection that he  has found  "his warmest welcome at an inn," has something to learn at  the  offices of the

great city hotels.  The unheralded guest who is  honored by mere indifference may think himself blessed with

singular  goodfortune.  If the despot of the PatentAnnunciator is only mildly  contemptuous in his manner,

let the victim look upon it as a personal  favor.  The coldest welcome that a threadbare curate ever got at the

door of a bishop's palace, the most icy reception that a country  cousin ever received at the city mansion of a

mushroom millionaire,  is agreeably tepid, compared to that which the Rhadamanthus who dooms  you to the

more or less elevated circle of his inverted Inferno  vouchsafes, as you step up to enter your name on his

dog'seared  register.  I have less hesitation in unburdening myself of this  uncomfortable statement, as on this

particular trip I met with more  than one exception to the rule.  Officials become brutalized, I  suppose, as a

matter of course.  One cannot expect an office clerk to  embrace tenderly every stranger who comes in with a

carpetbag, or a  telegraph operator to burst into tears over every unpleasant message  he receives for

transmission.  Still, humanity is not always totally  extinguished in these persons.  I discovered a youth in a

telegraph  office of the Continental Hotel, in Philadelphia, who was as pleasant  in conversation, and as

graciously responsive to inoffensive  questions, as if I had been his childless opulent uncle and my will  not

made. 

On the road again the next morning, over the ferry, into the cars  with sliding panels and fixed windows, so

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traveller, a doubleheaded suburb rather than a  State.  Its dull red dust looks like the dried and powdered mud

of a  battlefield.  Peachtrees are common, and champagneorchards.  Canalboats, drawn by mules, swim

by, feeling their way along like  blind men led by dogs.  I had a mighty passion come over me to be the  captain

of one,to glide back and forward upon a sea never roughened  by storms,to float where I could not

sink,to navigate where there  is no shipwreck,to lie languidly on the deck and govern the huge  craft by a

word or the movement of a finger: there was something of  railroad intoxication in the fancy: but who has not

often envied a  cobbler in his stall? 

The boys cry the "N'York Heddle," instead of "Herald "; I remember  that years ago in Philadelphia; we must

be getting near the farther  end of the dumbbell suburb.  A bridge has been swept away by a rise  of the

waters, so we must approach Philadelphia by the river.  Her  physiognomy is not distinguished; nez camus, as

a Frenchman would  say; no illustrious steeple, no imposing tower; the wateredge of the  town looking

bedraggled, like the flounce of a vulgar rich woman's  dress that trails on the sidewalk.  The New Ironsides lies

at one of  the wharves, elephantine in bulk and color, her sides narrowing as  they rise, like the walls of a

hockglass. 

I went straight to the house in Walnut Street where the Captain  would  be heard of, if anywhere in this region.

His lieutenantcolonel  was  there, gravely wounded; his collegefriend and comrade in arms, a  son  of the

house, was there, injured in a similar way; another  soldier,  brother of the last, was there, prostrate with fever.

A  fourth bed  was waiting ready for the Captain, but not one word had  been heard of  him, though inquiries

had been made in the towns from  and through  which the father had brought his two sons and the

lieutenantcolonel.  And so my search is, like a "Ledger" story, to be  continued. 

I rejoined my companions in time to take the noontrain for  Baltimore.  Our company was gaining in number

as it moved onwards.  We  had found upon the train from New York a lovely, lonely lady, the  wife  of one of

our most spirited Massachusetts officers, the brave  Colonel  of the __th Regiment, going to seek her wounded

husband at  Middletown,  a place lying directly in our track.  She was the light  of our party  while we were

together on our pilgrimage, a fair,  gracious woman,  gentle, but courageous, 

          "ful plesant and amiable of port,

               estatelich of manere,

          And to ben holden digne of reverence."

On the road from Philadelphia, I found in the same car with our  party  Dr.  William Hunt of Philadelphia, who

had most kindly and  faithfully  attended the Captain, then the Lieutenant, after a wound  received at  Ball's

Bluff, which came very near being mortal.  He was  going upon  an errand of mercy to the wounded, and found

he had in his  memorandumbook the name of our lady's husband, the Colonel, who had  been commended to

his particular attention. 

Not long after leaving Philadelphia, we passed a solitary sentry  keeping guard over a short railroad bridge.  It

was the first  evidence that we were approaching the perilous borders, the marches  where the North and the

South mingle their angry hosts, where the  extremes of our socalled civilization meet in conflict, and the

fierce slavedriver of the Lower Mississippi stares into the stern  eyes of the forestfeller from the banks of

the Aroostook.  All the  way along, the bridges were guarded more or less strongly.  In a vast  country like ours,

communications play a far more complex part than  in Europe, where the whole territory available for

strategic purposes  is so comparatively limited.  Belgium, for instance, has long been  the bowlingalley where

kings roll cannonballs at each other's  armies; but here we are playing the game of live ninepins without any

alley. 

We were obliged to stay in Baltimore over night, as we were too  late  for the train to Frederick.  At the Eutaw

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hours for us in the most agreeable manner.  We devoted  some  time to procuring surgical and other articles,

such as might be  useful to our friends, or to others, if our friends should not need  them.  In the morning, I

found myself seated at the breakfasttable  next to General Wool.  It did not surprise me to find the General

very far from expansive.  With Fort McHenry on his shoulders and  Baltimore in his breechespocket, and the

weight of a military  department loading down his social safetyvalves, I thought it a  great deal for an officer

in his trying position to select so very  obliging and affable an aid as the gentleman who relieved him of the

burden of attending to strangers. 

We left the Eutaw House, to take the cars for Frederick.  As we  stood  waiting on the platform, a telegraphic

message was handed in  silence  to my companion.  Sad news: the lifeless body of the son he  was  hastening to

see was even now on its way to him in Baltimore.  It  was  no time for empty words of consolation: I knew

what he had lost,  and  that now was not the time to intrude upon a grief borne as men  bear  it, felt as women

feel it. 

Colonel Wilder Dwight was first made known to me as the friend of a  beloved relative of my own, who was

with him during a severe illness  in Switzerland; and for whom while living, and for whose memory when

dead, he retained the warmest affection.  Since that the story of his  noble deeds of daring, of his capture and

escape, and a brief visit  home before he was able to rejoin his regiment, had made his name  familiar to many

among us, myself among the number.  His memory has  been honored by those who had the largest

opportunity of knowing his  rare promise, as a man of talents and energy of nature.  His  abounding vitality

must have produced its impression on all who met  him; there was a still fire about him which any one could

see would  blaze up to melt all difficulties and recast obstacles into  implements in the mould of an heroic will.

These elements of his  character many had the chance of knowing; but I shall always  associate him with the

memory of that pure and noble friendship which  made me feel that I knew him before I looked upon his face,

and added  a personal tenderness to the sense of loss which I share with the  whole community. 

Here, then, I parted, sorrowfully, from the companions with whom I  set out on my journey. 

In one of the cars, at the same station, we met General Shriver of  Frederick, a most loyal Unionist, whose

name is synonymous with a  hearty welcome to all whom he can aid by his counsel and his  hospitality.  He

took great pains to give us all the information we  needed, and expressed the hope, which was afterwards

fulfilled, to  the great gratification of some of us, that we should meet again when  he should return to his

home. 

There was nothing worthy of special note in the trip to Frederick,  except our passing a squad of Rebel

prisoners, whom I missed seeing,  as they flashed by, but who were said to be a most forlornlooking  crowd

of scarecrows.  Arrived at the Monocacy River, about three  miles this side of Frederick, we came to a halt, for

the railroad  bridge had been blown up by the Rebels, and its iron pillars and  arches were lying in the bed of

the river.  The unfortunate wretch  who fired the train was killed by the explosion, and lay buried hard  by, his

hands sticking out of the shallow grave into which he had  been huddled.  This was the story they told us, but

whether true or  not I must leave to the correspondents of "Notes and Queries " to  settle. 

There was a great confusion of carriages and wagons at the  stopping  place of the train, so that it was a long

time before I  could get  anything that would carry us.  At last I was lucky enough to  light on  a sturdy wagon,

drawn by a pair of serviceable bays, and  driven by  James Grayden, with whom I was destined to have a

somewhat  continued  acquaintance.  We took up a little girl who had been in  Baltimore  during the late Rebel

inroad.  It made me think of the time  when my  own mother, at that time six years old, was hurried off from

Boston,  then occupied by the British soldiers, to Newburyport, and  heard the  people saying that "the redcoats

were coming, killing and  murdering  everybody as they went along."  Frederick looked cheerful  for a place

that had so recently been in an enemy's hands.  Here and  there a  house or shop was shut up, but the national

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bulletmarks or other sign of the fighting which had gone on  in  the streets.  The Colonel's lady was taken in

charge by a daughter  of  that hospitable family to which we had been commended by its head,  and I proceeded

to inquire for wounded officers at the various  temporary hospitals. 

At the United States Hotel, where many were lying, I heard mention  of  an officer in an upper chamber, and,

going there, found Lieutenant  Abbott, of the Twentieth Massachusetts Volunteers, lying ill with  what looked

like typhoid fever.  While there, who should come in but  the almost ubiquitous Lieutenant Wilkins, of the

same Twentieth, whom  I had met repeatedly before on errands of kindness or duty, and who  was just from

the battleground.  He was going to Boston in charge of  the body of the lamented Dr. Revere, the Assistant

Surgeon of the  regiment, killed on the field.  From his lips I learned something of  the mishaps of the regiment.

My Captain's wound he spoke of as less  grave than at first thought; but he mentioned incidentally having

heard a story recently that he was killed,a fiction, doubtless,a  mistake,a palpable absurdity,not to

be remembered or made any  account of.  Oh no! but what dull ache is this in that obscurely  sensitive region,

somewhere below the heart, where the nervous centre  called the semilunar ganglion lies unconscious of itself

until a  great grief or a mastering anxiety reaches it through all the non  conductors which isolate it from

ordinary impressions?  I talked  awhile with Lieutenant Abbott, who lay prostrate, feeble, but  soldierlike and

uncomplaining, carefully waited upon by a most  excellent lady, a captain's wife, New England born, loyal as

the  Liberty on a golden tendollar piece, and of lofty bearing enough to  have sat for that goddess's portrait.

She had stayed in Frederick  through the Rebel inroad, and kept the starspangled banner where it  would be

safe, to unroll it as the last Rebel hoofs clattered off  from the pavement of the town. 

Near by Lieutenant Abbott was an unhappy gentleman, occupying a  small  chamber, and filling it with his

troubles.  When he gets well  and  plump, I know he will forgive me if I confess that I could not  help  smiling in

the midst of my sympathy for him.  He had been a well  favored man, he said, sweeping his hand in a

semicircle, which  implied that his acuteangled countenance had once filled the goodly  curve he described.

He was now a perfect Don Quixote to look upon.  Weakness had made him querulous, as it does all of us, and

he piped  his grievances to me in a thin voice, with that finish of detail  which chronic invalidism alone can

command.  He was starving,he  could not get what he wanted to eat.  He was in need of stimulants,  and he

held up a pitiful twoounce phial containing three  thimblefulsof brandy,his whole stock of that

encouraging article.  Him I consoled to the best of my ability, and afterwards, in some  slight measure,

supplied his wants.  Feed this poor gentleman up, as  these good people soon will, and I should not know him,

nor he  himself.  We are all egotists in sickness and debility.  An animal  has been defined as "a stomach

ministered to by organs;" and the  greatest man comes very near this simple formula after a month or two  of

fever and starvation. 

James Grayden and his team pleased me well enough, and so I made a  bargain with him to take us, the lady

and myself, on our further  journey as far as Middletown.  As we were about starting from the  front of the

United States Hotel, two gentlemen presented themselves  and expressed a wish to be allowed to share our

conveyance.  I looked  at them and convinced myself that they were neither Rebels in  disguise, nor deserters,

nor campfollowers, nor miscreants, but  plain, honest men on a proper errand.  The first of them I will pass

over briefly.  He was a young man of mild and modest demeanor,  chaplain to a Pennsylvania regiment, which

he was going to rejoin.  He  belonged to the Moravian Church, of which I had the misfortune to  know  little

more than what I had learned from Southey's "Life of  Wesley."  and from the exquisite hymns we have

borrowed from its  rhapsodists.  The other stranger was a New Englander of respectable  appearance,  with a

grave, hard, honest, haybearded face, who had  come to serve  the sick and wounded on the battlefield and

in its  immediate  neighborhood.  There is no reason why I should not mention  his name,  but I shall content

myself with calling him the  Philanthropist. 

So we set forth, the sturdy wagon, the serviceable bays, with James  Grayden their driver, the gentle lady,

whose serene patience bore up  through all delays and discomforts, the Chaplain, the Philanthropist,  and

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And now, as we emerged from Frederick, we struck at once upon the  trail from the great battlefield.  The

road was filled with  straggling and wounded soldiers.  All who could travel on foot,  multitudes with slight

wounds of the upper limbs, the head, or face,  were told to take up their beds,alight burden or none at

all,  and walk.  Just as the battlefield sucks everything into its red  vortex for the conflict, so does it drive

everything off in long,  diverging rays after the fierce centripetal forces have met and  neutralized each other.

For more than a week there had been sharp  fighting all along this road.  Through the streets of Frederick,

through Crampton's Gap, over South Mountain, sweeping at last the  hills and the woods that skirt the

windings of the Antietam, the long  battle had travelled, like one of those tornadoes which tear their  path

through our fields and villages.  The slain of higher condition,  "embalmed" and ironcased, were sliding off

on the railways to their  far homes; the dead of the rank and file were being gathered up and  committed hastily

to the earth; the gravely wounded were cared for  hard by the scene of conflict, or pushed a little way along to

the  neighboring villages; while those who could walk were meeting us, as  I have said, at every step in the

road.  It was a pitiable sight,  truly pitiable, yet so vast, so far beyond the possibility of relief,  that many single

sorrows of small dimensions have wrought upon my  feelings more than the sight of this great caravan of

maimed  pilgrims.  The companionship of so many seemed to make a jointstock  of their suffering; it was next

to impossible to individualize it,  and so bring it home, as one can do with a single broken limb or  aching

wound.  Then they were all of the male sex, and in the  freshness or the prime of their strength.  Though they

tramped so  wearily along, yet there was rest and kind nursing in store for them.  These wounds they bore

would be the medals they would show their  children and grandchildren by and by.  Who would not rather

wear his  decorations beneath his uniform than on it? 

Yet among them were figures which arrested our attention and  sympathy.  Delicate boys, with more spirit than

strength, flushed  with fever or pale with exhaustion or haggard with suffering, dragged  their weary limbs

along as if each step would exhaust their slender  store o£ strength.  At the roadside sat or lay others, quite

spent  with their journey.  Here and there was a house at which the  wayfarers would stop, in the hope, I fear

often vain, of getting  refreshment; and in one place was a clear, cool spring, where the  little bands of the long

procession halted for a few moments, as the  trains that traverse the desert rest by its fountains.  My

companions  had brought a few peaches along with them, which the Philanthropist  bestowed upon the tired

and thirsty soldiers with a satisfaction  which we all shared.  I had with me a small flask of strong waters,  to be

used as a medicine in case of inward grief.  From this, also,  he dispensed relief, without hesitation, to a poor

fellow who looked  as if he needed it.  I rather admired the simplicity with which he  applied my limited means

of solace to the firstcomer who wanted it  more than I; a genuine benevolent impulse does not stand on

ceremony,  and had I perished of colic for want of a stimulus that night, I  should not have reproached my

friend the Philanthropist, any more  than I grudged my other ardent friend the two dollars and more which  it

cost me to send the charitable message he left in my hands. 

It was a lovely country through which we were riding.  The  hillsides  rolled away into the distance, slanting up

fair and broad to  the sun,  as one sees them in the open parts of the Berkshire Valley,  at  Lanesborough, for

instance, or in the manyhued mountain chalice at  the bottom of which the Shaker houses of Lebanon have

shaped  themselves like a sediment of cubical crystals.  The wheat was all  garnered, and the land ploughed for

a new crop.  There was Indian  corn standing, but I saw no pumpkins warming their yellow carapaces  in the

sunshine like so many turtles; only in a single instance did I  notice some wretched little miniature specimens

in form and hue not  unlike those colossal oranges of our cornfields.  The rail fences  were somewhat disturbed,

and the cinders of extinguished fires showed  the use to which they had been applied.  The houses along the

road  were not for the most part neatly kept; the garden fences were poorly  built of laths or long slats, and

very rarely of trim aspect.  The  men of this region seemed to ride in the saddle very generally,  rather than

drive.  They looked sober and stern, less curious and  lively than Yankees, and I fancied that a type of features

familiar  to us in the countenance of the late John Tyler, our accidental  President, was frequently met with.

The women were still more  distinguishable from our New England pattern.  Soft, sallow,  succulent, delicately

finished about the mouth and firmly shaped  about the chin, darkeyed, fullthroated, they looked as if they

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there was something more of  the duck and less of the chicken about them, as compared with the  daughters of

our leaner soil; but these are mere impressions caught  from stray glances, and if there is any offence in them,

my fair  readers may consider them all retracted. 

At intervals, a dead horse lay by the roadside, or in the fields,  unburied, not grateful to gods or men.  I saw no

bird of prey, no  illomened fowl, on my way to the carnival of death, or at the place  where it had been held.

The vulture of story, the crow of Talavera,  the "twa corbies" of the ghastly ballad, are all from Nature,

doubtless; but no black wing was spread over these animal ruins, and  no call to the banquet pierced through

the heavyladen and sickening  air. 

Full in the middle of the road, caring little for whom or what they  met, came long strings of army wagons,

returning empty from the front  after supplies.  James Grayden stated it as his conviction that they  had a little

rather run into a fellow than not.  I liked the looks of  these equipages and their drivers; they meant business.

Drawn by  mules mostly, six, I think, to a wagon, powdered well with dust,  wagon, beast, and driver, they

came jogging along the road, turning  neither to right nor left,some driven by bearded, solemn white men,

some by careless, saucylooking negroes, of a blackness like that of  anthracite or obsidian.  There seemed to

be nothing about them, dead  or alive, that was not serviceable.  Sometimes a mule would give out  on the road;

then he was left where he lay, until by and by he would  think better of it, and get up, when the first public

wagon that came  along would hitch him on, and restore him to the sphere of duty. 

It was evening when we got to Middletown.  The gentle lady who had  graced our homely conveyance with her

company here left us.  She  found her husband, the gallant Colonel, in very comfortable quarters,  well cared

for, very weak from the effects of the fearful operation  he had been compelled to undergo, but showing calm

courage to endure  as he had shown manly energy to act.  It was a meeting full of  heroism and tenderness, of

which I heard more than there is need to  tell.  Health to the brave soldier, and peace to the household over

which so fair a spirit presides! 

Dr. Thompson, the very active and intelligent surgical director of  the hospitals of the place, took me in

charge.  He carried me to the  house of a worthy and benevolent clergyman of the German Reformed  Church,

where I was to take tea and pass the night.  What became of  the Moravian chaplain I did not know; but my

friend the  Philanthropist had evidently made up his mind to adhere to my  fortunes.  He followed me,

therefore, to the house of the "Dominie."  as a newspaper correspondent calls my kind host, and partook of the

fare there furnished me.  He withdrew with me to the apartment  assigned for my slumbers, and slept sweetly

on the same pillow where  I waked and tossed.  Nay, I do affirm that he did, unconsciously, I  believe, encroach

on that moiety of the couch which I had flattered  myself was to be my own through the watches of the night,

and that I  was in serious doubt at one time whether I should not be gradually,  but irresistibly, expelled from

the bed which I had supposed destined  for my sole possession.  As Ruth clave unto Naomi, so my friend the

Philanthropist clave unto me.  "Whither thou goest, I will go; and  where thou lodgest, I will lodge."  A really

kind, good man, full of  zeal, determined to help somebody, and absorbed in his one thought,  he doubted

nobody's willingness to serve him, going, as he was, on a  purely benevolent errand.  When he reads this, as I

hope he will, let  him be assured of my esteem and respect; and if he gained any  accommodation from being

in my company, let me tell him that I  learned a lesson from his active benevolence.  I could, however, have

wished to hear him laugh once before we parted, perhaps forever.  He  did not, to the best of my recollection,

even smile during the whole  period that we were in company.  I am afraid that a lightsome  disposition and a

relish for humor are not so common in those whose  benevolence takes an active turn as in people of

sentiment, who are  always ready with their tears and abounding in passionate expressions  of sympathy.

Working philanthropy is a practical specialty,  requiring not a mere impulse, but a talent, with its peculiar

sagacity for finding its objects, a tact for selecting its agencies,  an organizing and art ranging faculty, a steady

set of nerves, and a  constitution such as Sallust describes in Catiline, patient of cold,  of hunger, and of

watching.  Philanthropists are commonly grave,  occasionally grim, and not very rarely morose.  Their

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and cranks.  The tighter the boiler,  the less it whistles and sings at its work.  When Dr. Waterhouse, in  1780,

travelled with Howard, on his tour among the Dutch prisons and  hospitals, he found his temper and manners

very different from what  would have been expected. 

My benevolent companion having already made a preliminary  exploration  of the hospitals of the place,

before sharing my bed with  him, as  above mentioned, I joined him in a second tour through them.  The

authorities of Middletown are evidently leagued with the surgeons  of  that place, for such a breakneck

succession of pitfalls and chasms  I  have never seen in the streets of a civilized town.  It was getting  late in the

evening when we began our rounds.  The principal  collections of the wounded were in the churches.  Boards

were laid  over the tops of the pews, on these some straw was spread, and on  this the wounded lay, with little

or no covering other than such  scanty clothes as they had on.  There were wounds of all degrees of  severity,

but I heard no groans or murmurs.  Most of the sufferers  were hurt in the limbs, some had undergone

amputation, and all had, I  presume, received such attention as was required.  Still, it was but  a rough and

dreary kind of comfort that the extemporized hospitals  suggested.  I could not help thinking the patients must

be cold; but  they were used to camp life, and did not complain.  The men who  watched were not of the

softhanded variety of the race.  One of them  was smoking his pipe as he went from bed to bed.  I saw one

poor  fellow who had been shot through the breast; his breathing was  labored, and he was tossing, anxious and

restless.  The men were  debating about the opiate he was to take, and I was thankful that I  happened there at

the right moment to see that he was well narcotized  for the night.  Was it possible that my Captain could be

lying on the  straw in one of these places?  Certainly possible, but not probable;  but as the lantern was held

over each bed, it was with a kind of  thrill that I looked upon the features it illuminated.  Many times as  I went

from hospital to hospital in my wanderings, I started as some  faint resemblance,the shade of a young man's

hair, the outline of  his halfturned face,recalled the presence I was in search of.  The  face would turn

towards me, and the momentary illusion would pass  away, but still the fancy clung to me.  There was no

figure huddled  up on its rude couch, none stretched at the roadside, none toiling  languidly along the dusty

pike, none passing in car or in ambulance,  that I did not scrutinize, as if it might be that for which I was

making my pilgrimage to the battlefield. 

"There are two wounded Secesh,"  said my companion.  I walked to  the  bedside of the first, who was an

officer, a lieutenant, if I  remember  right, from North Carolina.  He was of good family, son of a  judge in  one

of the higher courts of his State, educated, pleasant,  gentle,  intelligent.  One moment's intercourse with such

an enemy,  lying  helpless and wounded among strangers, takes away all personal  bitterness towards those with

whom we or our children have been but a  few hours before in deadly strife.  The basest lie which the

murderous contrivers of this Rebellion have told is that which tries  to make out a difference of race in the

men of the North and South.  It would be worth a year of battles to abolish this delusion, though  the great

sponge of war that wiped it out were moistened with the  best blood of the land.  My Rebel was of slight,

scholastic habit,  and spoke as one accustomed to tread carefully among the parts of  speech.  It made my heart

ache to see him, a man finished in the  humanities and Christian culture, whom the sin of his forefathers and

the crime of his rulers had set in barbarous conflict against others  of like training with his own,a man who,

but for the curse which  our generation is called on to expiate, would have taken his part in  the beneficent task

of shaping the intelligence and lifting the moral  standard of a peaceful and united people. 

On Sunday morning, the twentyfirst, having engaged James Grayden  and  his team, I set out with the

Chaplain and the Philanthropist for  Keedysville.  Our track lay through the South Mountain Gap, and led  us

first to the town of Boonsborough, where, it will be remembered,  Colonel Dwight had been brought after the

battle.  We saw the  positions occupied in the battle of South Mountain, and many traces  of the conflict.  In one

situation a group of young trees was marked  with shot, hardly one having escaped.  As we walked by the side

of  the wagon, the Philanthropist left us for a while and climbed a hill,  where, along the line of a fence, he

found traces of the most  desperate fighting.  A ride of some three hours brought us to  Boonsborough, where I

roused the unfortunate army surgeon who had  charge of the hospitals, and who was trying to get a little sleep

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my soldier  might be lying among the crowds of wounded.  After the useless  search, I resumed my journey,

fortified with a note of introduction  to Dr. Letterman; also with a bale of oakum which I was to carry to  that

gentleman, this substance being employed as a substitute for  lint.  We were obliged also to procure a pass to

Keedysville from the  Provost Marshal of Boonsborough.  As we came near the place, we  learned that General

McClellan's head quarters had been removed from  this village some miles farther to the front. 

On entering the small settlement of Keedysville, a familiar face  and  figure blocked the way, like one of

Bunyan's giants.  The tall  form  and benevolent countenance, set off by long, flowing hair,  belonged  to the

excellent Mayor Frank B. Fay of Chelsea, who, like my  Philanthropist, only still more promptly, had come to

succor the  wounded of the great battle.  It was wonderful to see how his single  personality pervaded this

torpid little village; he seemed to be the  centre of all its activities.  All my questions he answered clearly  and

decisively, as one who knew everything that was going on in the  place.  But the one question I had come five

hundred miles to ask,  Where is Captain H.?he could not answer.  There were some thousands  of

wounded in the place, he told me, scattered about everywhere.  It  would be a long job to hunt up my Captain;

the only way would be to  go to every house and ask for him.  Just then a medical officer came  up. 

"Do you know anything of Captain H. of the Massachusetts  Twentieth?" 

"Oh yes; he is staying in that house.  I saw him there, doing very  well." 

A chorus of hallelujahs arose in my soul, but I kept them to  myself.  Now, then, for our twicewounded

volunteer, our young  centurion whose  doublebarred shoulderstraps we have never yet looked  upon.  Let us

observe the proprieties, however; no swelling upward of  the mother,  no hysterica passio,  we do not like

scenes.  A calm  salutation,  then swallow and hold hard.  That is about the  programme. 

A cottage of squared logs, filled in with plaster, and whitewashed.  A little yard before it, with a gate

swinging.  The door of the  cottage ajar,no one visible as yet.  I push open the door and  enter.  An old

woman, Margaret Kitzmuller her name proves to be, is  the first person I see. 

"Captain H. here? " 

"Oh no, sir,left yesterday morning for Hagerstown,in a milk  cart." 

The Kitzmuller is a beadyeyed, cheerylooking ancient woman,  answers  questions with a rising inflection,

and gives a good account  of the  Captain, who got into the vehicle without assistance, and was  in  excellent

spirits.  Of course he had struck for Hagerstown as the  terminus of the Cumberland Valley Railroad, and was

on his way to  Philadelphia, via Chambersburg and Harrisburg, if he were not already  in the hospitable home

of Walnut Street, where his friends were  expecting him. 

I might follow on his track or return upon my own; the distance was  the same to Philadelphia through

Harrisburg as through Baltimore.  But  it was very difficult, Mr. Fay told me, to procure any kind of

conveyance to Hagerstown; and, on the other hand, I had James Grayden  and his wagon to carry me back to

Frederick.  It was not likely that  I should overtake the object of my pursuit with nearly thirtysix  hours start,

even if I could procure a conveyance that day.  In the  mean time James was getting impatient to be on his

return, according  to the direction of his employers.  So I decided to go back with him. 

But there was the great battlefield only about three miles from  Keedysville, and it was impossible to go

without seeing that.  James  Grayden's directions were peremptory, but it was a case for the  higher law.  I must

make a good offer for an extra couple of hours,  such as would satisfy the owners of the wagon, and enforce it

by a  personal motive.  I did this handsomely, and succeeded without  difficulty.  To add brilliancy to my

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We followed the road through the village for a space, then turned  off  to the right, and wandered somewhat

vaguely, for want of precise  directions, over the hills.  Inquiring as we went, we forded a wide  creek in which

soldiers were washing their clothes, the name of which  we did not then know, but which must have been the

Antietam.  At one  point we met a party, women among them, bringing off various trophies  they had picked up

on the battlefield.  Still wandering along, we  were at last pointed to a hill in the distance, a part of the summit

of which was covered with Indian corn.  There, we were told, some of  the fiercest fighting of the day had been

done.  The fences were  taken down so as to make a passage across the fields, and the tracks  worn within the

last few days looked like old roads.  We passed a  fresh grave under a tree near the road.  A board was nailed to

the  tree, bearing the name, as well as I could make it out, of Gardiner,  of a New Hampshire regiment. 

On coming near the brow of the hill, we met a party carrying picks  and spades.  "How many?  "Only one." The

dead were nearly all buried,  then, in this region of the field of strife.  We stopped the wagon,  and, getting out,

began to look around us.  Hard by was a large pile  of muskets, scores, if not hundreds, which had been picked

up, and  were guarded for the Government.  A long ridge of fresh gravel rose  before us.  A board stuck up in

front of it bore this inscription,  the first part of which was, I believe, not correct: "The Rebel  General

Anderson and 80 Rebels are buried in this hole." Other  smaller ridges were marked with the number of dead

lying under them.  The whole ground was strewed with fragments of clothing, haversacks,  canteens,

capboxes, bullets, cartridgeboxes, cartridges, scraps of  paper, portions of bread and meat.  I saw two

soldiers' caps that  looked as though their owners had been shot through the head.  In  several places I noticed

dark red patches where a pool of blood had  curdled and caked, as some poor fellow poured his life out on the

sod.  I then wandered about in the cornfield.  It surprised me to  notice, that, though there was every mark of

hard fighting having  taken place here, the Indian corn was not generally trodden down.  One  of our cornfields

is a kind of forest, and even when fighting,  men  avoid the tall stalks as if they were trees.  At the edge of this

cornfield lay a gray horse, said to have belonged to a Rebel colonel,  who was killed near the same place.  Not

far off were two dead  artillery horses in their harness.  Another had been attended to by a  buryingparty, who

had thrown some earth over him but his last bed  clothes were too short, and his legs stuck out stark and stiff

from  beneath the gravel coverlet.  It was a great pity that we had no  intelligent guide to explain to us the

position of that portion of  the two armies which fought over this ground.  There was a shallow  trench before

we came to the cornfield, too narrow for a road, as I  should think, too elevated for a watercourse, and which

seemed to  have been used as a riflepit.  At any rate, there had been hard  fighting in and about it.  This and the

cornfield may serve to  identify the part of the ground we visited, if any who fought there  should ever look

over this paper.  The opposing tides of battle must  have blended their waves at this point, for portions of gray

uniform  were mingled with the "garments rolled in blood" torn from our own  dead and wounded soldiers.  I

picked up a Rebel canteen, and one of  our own,but there was something repulsive about the trodden and

stained relics of the stale battlefield.  It was like the table of  some hideous orgy left uncleared, and one

turned away disgusted from  its broken fragments and muddy heeltaps.  A bullet or two, a button,  a brass plate

from a soldier's belt, served well enough for mementos  of my visit, with a letter which I picked up, directed

to Richmond,  Virginia, its seal unbroken.  "N. C. Cleveland County.  E. Wright to  J. Wright."  On the other

side, "A few lines from W. L. Vaughn."  who  has just been writing for the wife to her husband, and continues

on  his own account.  The postscript, "tell John that nancy's folks are  all well and has a verry good Little Crop

of corn a growing."  I  wonder, if, by one of those strange chances of which I have seen so  many, this number

or leaf of the "Atlantic" will not sooner or later  find its way to Cleveland County, North Carolina, and E.

Wright,  widow of James Wright, and Nancy's folks, get from these sentences  the last glimpse of husband and

friend as he threw up his arms and  fell in the bloody cornfield of Antietam?  I will keep this stained  letter for

them until peace comes back, if it comes in my time, and  my pleasant North Carolina Rebel of the

Middletown Hospital will,  perhaps look these poor people up, and tell them where to send for  it. 

On the battlefield I parted with my two companions, the Chaplain  and  the Philanthropist.  They were going

to the front, the one to find  his regiment, the other to look for those who needed his assistance.  We exchanged

cards and farewells, I mounted the wagon, the horses'  heads were turned homewards, my two companions

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England, Lancashire; in this country since be was  four years old.  Had nothing to care for but an old mother;

didn't  know what he should do if he lost her.  Though so long in this  country, he had all the simplicity and

childlike lightheartedness  which belong to the Old World's people.  He laughed at the smallest  pleasantry, and

showed his great white English teeth; he took a joke  without retorting by an impertinence; he had a very

limited curiosity  about all that was going on; he had small store of information; he  lived chiefly in his horses,

it seemed to me.  His quiet animal  nature acted as a pleasing anodyne to my recurring fits of anxiety,  and I

liked his frequent "'Deed I don't know, sir."  better than I  have sometimes relished the large discourse of

professors and other  very wise men. 

I have not much to say of the road which we were travelling for the  second time.  Reaching Middletown, my

first call was on the wounded  Colonel and his lady.  She gave me a most touching account of all the  suffering

he had gone through with his shattered limb before he  succeeded in finding a shelter; showing the terrible

want of proper  means of transportation of the wounded after the battle.  It occurred  to me, while at this house,

that I was more or less famished, and for  the first time in my life I begged for a meal, which the kind family

with whom the Colonel was staying most graciously furnished me. 

After tea, there came in a stout army surgeon, a Highlander by  birth,  educated in Edinburgh, with whom I had

pleasant, not  unstimulating  talk.  He had been brought very close to that immane and  nefandous

BurkeandHare business which made the blood of civilization  run cold  in the year 1828, and told me, in a

very calm way, with an  occasional  pinch from the mull, to refresh his memory, some of the  details of  those

frightful murders, never rivalled in horror until the  wretch  Dumollard, who kept a private cemetery for his

victims, was  dragged  into the light of day.  He had a good deal to say, too, about  the  Royal College of

Surgeons in Edinburgh, and the famous  preparations,  mercurial and the rest, which I remember well having

seen there,the  "sudabit multum."  and others,also of our New York  Professor  Carnochan's handiwork, a

specimen of which I once admired at  the New  York College.  But the doctor was not in a happy frame of

mind, and  seemed willing to forget the present in the past: things  went wrong,  somehow, and the time was

out of joint with him. 

Dr. Thompson, kind, cheerful, companionable, offered me half his  own  wide bed, in the house of Dr. Baer,

for my second night in  Middletown.  Here I lay awake again another night.  Close to the  house stood an

ambulance in which was a wounded Rebel officer,  attended by one of their own surgeons.  He was calling out

in a loud  voice, all night long, as it seemed to me, "Doctor!  Doctor!  Driver!  Water!" in loud, complaining

tones, I have no doubt of real  suffering, but in strange contrast with the silent patience which was  the almost

universal rule. 

The courteous Dr. Thompson will let me tell here an odd  coincidence,  trivial, but having its interest as one of

a series.  The  Doctor and  myself lay in the bed, and a lieutenant, a friend of his,  slept on  the sofa, At night, I

placed my matchbox, a Scotch one, of  the  Macphersonplaid pattern, which I bought years ago, on the

bureau,  just where I could put my hand upon it.  I was the last of the three  to rise in the morning, and on

looking for my pretty matchbox, I  found it was gone.  This was rather awkward,not on account of the  loss,

but of the unavoidable fact that one of my fellowlodgers must  have taken it.  I must try to find out what it

meant. 

"By the way, Doctor, have you seen anything of a little  plaidpattern  matchbox?" 

The Doctor put his hand to his pocket, and, to his own huge  surprise  and my great gratification, pulled out

two matchboxes  exactly alike,  both printed with the Macpherson plaid.  One was his,  the other mine,  which

he had seen lying round, and naturally took for  his own,  thrusting it into his pocket, where it found its

twinbrother  from  the same workshop.  In memory of which event, we exchanged boxes,  like two Homeric

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This curious coincidence illustrates well enough some supposed  cases  of plagiarism of which I will mention

one where my name figured.  When a little poem called "The Two Streams " was first printed, a  writer in the

New York "Evening Post" virtually accused the author of  it of borrowing the thought from a baccalaureate

sermon of President  Hopkins of Williamstown, and printed a quotation from that discourse,  which, as I

thought, a thief or catchpoll might well consider as  establishing a fair presumption that it was so borrowed.  I

was at  the same time wholly unconscious of ever having met with the  discourse or the sentence which the

verses were most like, nor do I  believe I ever had seen or heard either.  Some time after this,  happening to

meet my eloquent cousin, Wendell Phillips, I mentioned  the fact to him, and he told me that he had once used

the special  image said to be borrowed, in a discourse delivered at Williamstown.  On relating this to my friend

Mr. Buchanan Read, he informed me that  he too, had used the image,perhaps referring to his poem called

"The Twins."  He thought Tennyson had used it also.  The parting of  the streams on the Alps is poetically

elaborated in a passage  attributed to "M. Loisne," printed in the "Boston Evening Transcript"  for October 23,

1859.  Captain, afterwards Sir Francis Head, speaks  of the showers parting on the Cordilleras, one portion

going to the  Atlantic, one to the Pacific.  I found the image running loose in my  mind, without a halter.  It

suggested itself as an illustration of  the will, and I worked the poem out by the aid of Mitchell's School  Atlas.

The spores of a great many ideas are floating about in the  atmosphere.  We no more know where all the

growths of our mind came  from, than where the lichens which eat the names off from the  gravestones

borrowed the germs that gave them birth.  The two match  boxes were just alike, but neither was a

plagiarism. 

In the morning I took to the same wagon once more, but, instead of  James Grayden, I was to have for my

driver a young man who spelt his  name "Phillip Ottenheimer" and whose features at once showed him to  be

an Israelite.  I found him agreeable enough, and disposed to talk.  So I asked him many questions about his

religion, and got some  answers that sound strangely in Christian ears.  He was from  Wittenberg, and had been

educated in strict Jewish fashion.  From his  childhood he had read Hebrew, but was not much of a scholar

otherwise.  A young person of his race lost caste utterly by marrying  a Christian.  The Founder of our religion

was considered by the  Israelites to have been "a right smart man and a great doctor."  But  the horror with

which the reading of the New Testament by any young  person of their faith would be regarded was as great, I

judged by his  language, as that of one of our straitest sectaries would be, if he  found his son or daughter

perusing the "Age of Reason." 

In approaching Frederick, the singular beauty of its clustered  spires  struck me very much, so that I was not

surprised to find  "FairView"  laid down about this point on a railroad map.  I wish some  wandering

photographer would take a picture of the place, a  stereoscopic one,  if possible, to show how gracefully, how

charmingly,  its group of  steeples nestles among the Maryland hills.  The town had  a poetical  look from a

distance, as if seers and dreamers might dwell  there.  The first sign I read, on entering its long street, might

perhaps be  considered as confirming my remote impression.  It bore  these words:  "Miss Ogle, Past, Present,

and Future."  On arriving, I  visited  Lieutenant Abbott, and the attenuated unhappy gentleman, his  neighbor,

sharing between them as my parting gift what I had left of  the balsam known to the Pharmacopoeia as

Spiritus Vini Gallici.  I  took advantage of General Shriver's always open door to write a  letter home, but had

not time to partake of his offered hospitality.  The railroad bridge over the Monocacy had been rebuilt since I

passed  through Frederick, and we trundled along over the track toward  Baltimore. 

It was a disappointment, on reaching the Eutaw House, where I had  ordered all communications to be

addressed, to find no telegraphic  message from Philadelphia or Boston, stating that Captain H. had  arrived at

the former place, "wound doing well in good spirits  expects to leave soon for Boston."  After all, it was no

great  matter; the Captain was, no doubt, snugly lodged before this in the  house called Beautiful, at * * * *

Walnut Street, where that "grave  and beautiful damsel named Discretion" had already welcomed him,

smiling, though "the water stood in her eyes," and had "called out  Prudence, Piety, and Charity, who, after a

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The friends I had met at the Eutaw House had all gone but one, the  lady of an officer from Boston, who was

most amiable and agreeable,  and whose benevolence, as I afterwards learned, soon reached the  invalids I had

left suffering at Frederick.  General Wool still  walked the corridors, inexpansive, with Fort McHenry on his

shoulders, and Baltimore in his breechespocket, and his courteous  aid again pressed upon me his kind

offices.  About the doors of the  hotel the newsboys cried the papers in plaintive, wailing tones, as  different

from the sharp accents of their Boston counterparts as a  sigh from the southwest is from a northeastern

breeze.  To understand  what they said was, of course, impossible to any but an educated ear,  and if I made out

"Starr" and "Clipp'rr," it was because I knew  beforehand what must be the burden of their advertising

coranach. 

I set out for Philadelphia on the morrow, Tuesday the twentythird,  there beyond question to meet my

Captain, once more united to his  brave wounded companions under that roof which covers a household of  as

noble hearts as ever throbbed with human sympathies.  Back River,  Bush River, Gunpowder Creek,lives

there the man with soul so dead  that his memory has cerements to wrap up these senseless names in the  same

envelopes with their meaningless localities?  But the  Susquehanna,the broad, the beautiful, the historical,

the poetical  Susquehanna,the river of Wyoming and of Gertrude, dividing the  shores where 

    "Aye those sunny mountains halfway down

     Would echo flageolet from some romantic town,"

did not my heart renew its allegiance to the poet who has made it  lovely to the imagination as well as to the

eye, and so identified  his fame with the noble stream that it "rolls mingling with his fame  forever?"  The

prosaic traveller perhaps remembers it better from the  fact that a great seamonster, in the shape of a

steamboat, takes  him, sitting in the car, on its back, and swims across with him like  Arion's dolphin,also

that mercenary men on board offer him canvas  backs in the season, and ducks of lower degree at other

periods. 

At Philadelphia again at last!  Drive fast, O colored man and  brother, to the house called Beautiful, where my

Captain lies sore  wounded, waiting for the sound of the chariot wheels which bring to  his bedside the face

and the voice nearer than any save one to his  heart in this his hour of pain and weakness!  Up a long street

with  white shutters and white steps to all the houses.  Off at right  angles into another long street with white

shutters and white steps  to all the houses.  Off again at another right angle into still  another long street with

white shutters and white steps to all the  houses.  The natives of this city pretend to know one street from

another by some individual differences of aspect; but the best way  for a stranger to distinguish the streets he

has been in from others  is to make a cross or other mark on the white shutters. 

This cornerhouse is the one.  Ring softly,for the Lieutenant  Colonel lies there with a dreadfully wounded

arm, and two sons of the  family, one wounded like the Colonel, one fighting with death in the  fog of a

typhoid fever, will start with fresh pangs at the least  sound you can make.  I entered the house, but no cheerful

smile met  me.  The sufferers were each of them thought to be in a critical  condition.  The fourth bed, waiting

its tenant day after day, was  still empty.  Not a word from my Captain. 

Then, foolish, fond body that I was, my heart sank within me.  Had  he  been taken ill on the road, perhaps been

attacked with those  formidable symptoms which sometimes come on suddenly after wounds  that seemed to

be doing well enough, and was his life ebbing away in  some lonely cottage, nay, in some cold barn or shed,

or at the  wayside, unknown, uncared for?  Somewhere between Philadelphia and  Hagerstown, if not at the

latter town, he must be, at any rate.  I  must sweep the hundred and eighty miles between these places as one

would sweep a chamber where a precious pearl had been dropped.  I  must have a companion in my search,

partly to help me look about, and  partly because I was getting nervous and felt lonely.  Charley said  he would

go with me,Charley, my Captain's beloved friend, gentle,  but full of spirit and liveliness, cultivated, social,

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of humor.  He was not well enough to  go, some of the timid ones said; but he answered by packing his

carpetbag, and in an hour or two we were on the Pennsylvania Central  Railroad in full blast for Harrisburg. 

I should have been a forlorn creature but for the presence of my  companion.  In his delightful company I half

forgot my anxieties,  which, exaggerated as they may seem now, were not unnatural after  what I had seen of

the confusion and distress that had followed the  great battle, nay, which seem almost justified by the recent

statement that "high officers" were buried after that battle whose  names were never ascertained.  I noticed

little matters, as usual.  The road was filled in between the rails with cracked stones, such as  are used for

macadamizing streets.  They keep the dust down, I  suppose, for I could not think of any other use for them.

By and by  the glorious valley which stretches along through Chester and  Lancaster Counties opened upon us.

Much as I had heard of the  fertile regions of Pennsylvania, the vast scale and the uniform  luxuriance of this

region astonished me.  The grazing pastures were  so green, the fields were under such perfect culture, the

cattle  looked so sleek, the houses were so comfortable, the barns so ample,  the fences so well kept, that I did

not wonder, when I was told that  this region was called the England of Pennsylvania.  The people whom  we

saw were, like the cattle, well nourished; the young women looked  round and wholesome. 

"Grass makes girls."  I said to my companion, and left him to work  out my Orphic saying, thinking to myself,

that as guano makes grass,  it was a legitimate conclusion that Ichaboe must be a nursery of  female loveliness. 

As the train stopped at the different stations, I inquired at each  if  they had any wounded officers.  None as yet;

the red rays of the  battlefield had not streamed off so far as this.  Evening found us  in the cars; they lighted

candles in springcandlesticks; odd enough  I thought it in the land of oilwells and unmeasured floods of

kerosene.  Some fellows turned up the back of a seat so as to make it  horizontal, and began gambling, or

pretending to gamble; it looked as  if they were trying to pluck a young countryman; but appearances are

deceptive, and no deeper stake than "drinks for the crowd" seemed at  last to be involved.  But remembering

that murder has tried of late  years to establish itself as an institution in the cars, I was less  tolerant of the

doings of these "sportsmen " who tried to turn our  public conveyance into a travelling Frascati.  They acted as

if they  were used to it, and nobody seemed to pay much attention to their  manoeuvres. 

We arrived at Harrisburg in the course of the evening, and  attempted  to find our way to the Jones House, to

which we had been  commended.  By some mistake, intentional on the part of somebody, as it  may have  been,

or purely accidental, we went to the Herr House  instead.  I  entered my name in the book, with that of my

companion.  A  plain,  middleaged man stepped up, read it to himself in low tones,  and  coupled to it a literary

title by which I have been sometimes  known.  He proved to be a graduate of Brown University, and had heard

a  certain Phi Beta Kappa poem delivered there a good many years ago.  I  remembered it, too; Professor

Goddard, whose sudden and singular  death  left such lasting regret, was the Orator.  I recollect that  while I  was

speaking a drum went by the church, and how I was  disgusted to see  all the heads near the windows thrust out

of them,  as if the building  were on fire.  Cedat armis toga.  The clerk in the  office, a mild,  pensive, unassuming

young man, was very polite in his  manners, and did  all he could to make us comfortable.  He was of a  literary

turn, and  knew one of his guests in his character of author.  At tea, a mild old  gentleman, with white hair and

beard, sat next us.  He, too, had come  hunting after his son, a lieutenant in a  Pennsylvania regiment.  Of  these,

father and son, more presently. 

After tea we went to look up Dr. Wilson, chief medical officer of  the  hospitals in the place, who was staying

at the Brady House.  A  magnificent old toddymixer, Bardolphian in hue, and stern of aspect,  as all

grogdispensers must be, accustomed as they are to dive  through the features of men to the bottom of their

souls and pockets  to see whether they are solvent to the amount of sixpence, answered  my question by a wave

of one hand, the other being engaged in  carrying a dram to his lips.  His superb indifference gratified my

artistic feeling more than it wounded my personal sensibilities.  Anything really superior in its line claims my

homage, and this man  was the ideal bartender, above all vulgar passions, untouched by  commonplace

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lesser  felicities conferred by love or fame or wealth or any of the  roundabout agencies for which his fiery

elixir is the cheap, all  powerful substitute. 

Dr. Wilson was in bed, though it was early in the evening, not  having  slept for I don't know how many nights. 

"Take my card up to him, if you please."  This way, sir." 

A man who has not slept for a fortnight or so is not expected to be  as affable, when attacked in his bed, as a

French Princess of old  time at her morning receptions.  Dr. Wilson turned toward me, as I  entered, without

effusion, but without rudeness.  His thick, dark  moustache was chopped off square at the lower edge of the

upper lip,  which implied a decisive, if not a peremptory, style of character. 

I am Dr. SoandSo of Hubtown, looking after my wounded son.  (I  gave  my name and said Boston, of

course, in reality.) 

Dr. Wilson leaned on his elbow and looked up in my face, his  features  growing cordial.  Then he put out his

hand, and  goodhumoredly  excused his reception of me.  The day before, as he  told me, he had  dismissed

from the service a medical man hailing from  ******,  Pennsylvania, bearing my last name, preceded by the

same two  initials; and he supposed, when my card came up, it was this  individual who was disturbing his

slumbers.  The coincidence was so  unlikely a priori, unless some forlorn parent without antecedents had

named, a child after me, that I could not help crossquestioning the  Doctor, who assured me deliberately that

the fact was just as he had  said, even to the somewhat unusual initials.  Dr. Wilson very kindly  furnished me

all the information in his power, gave me directions for  telegraphing to Chambersburg, and showed every

disposition to serve  me. 

On returning to the Herr House, we found the mild, whitehaired old  gentleman in a very happy state.  He had

just discovered his son, in  a comfortable condition, at the United States Hotel.  He thought that  he could

probably give us some information which would prove  interesting.  To the United States Hotel we repaired,

then, in  company with our kindhearted old friend, who evidently wanted to see  me as happy as himself.  He

went upstairs to his son's chamber, and  presently came down to conduct us there. 

Lieutenant P________ , of the Pennsylvania __th, was a very fresh,  brightlooking young man, lying in bed

from the effects of a recent  injury received in action.  A grapeshot, after passing through a  post and a board,

had struck him in the hip, bruising, but not  penetrating or breaking.  He had good news for me. 

That very afternoon, a party of wounded officers had passed through  Harrisburg, going East.  He had

conversed in the barroom of this  hotel with one of them, who was wounded about the shoulder (it might  be

the lower part of the neck), and had his arm in a sling.  He  belonged to the Twentieth Massachusetts; the

Lieutenant saw that be  was a Captain, by the two bars on his shoulderstrap.  His name was  my familyname;

he was tall and youthful, like my Captain.  At four  o'clock he left in the train for Philadelphia.  Closely

questioned,  the Lieutenant's evidence was as round, complete, and lucid as a  Japanese sphere of rockcrystal. 

TE DEUM LAUDAMUS!  The Lord's name be praised!  The dead pain in  the  semilunar ganglion (which I

must remind my reader is a kind of  stupid, unreasoning brain, beneath the pit of the stomach, common to  man

and beast, which aches in the supreme moments of life, as when  the dam loses her young ones, or the wild

horse is lassoed) stopped  short.  There was a feeling as if I had slipped off a tight boot, or  cut a strangling

garter,only it was all over my system.  What more  could I ask to assure me of the Captain's safety?  As soon

as the  telegraph office opens tomorrow morning we will send a message to our  friends in Philadelphia, and

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The hopeful morrow dawned at last, and the message was sent  accordingly.  In due time, the following reply

was received:  "Phil  Sept 24 I think the report you have heard that W [the Captain]  has  gone East must be an

error we have not seen or heard of him here  M L  H" 

DE PROFUNDIS CLAMAVI!  He could not have passed through  Philadelphia  without visiting the house

called Beautiful, where he had  been so  tenderly cared for after his wound at Ball's Bluff, and where  those

whom he loved were lying in grave peril of life or limb.  Yet he  did  pass through Harrisburg, going East,

going to Philadelphia, on his  way home.  Ah, this is it!  He must have taken the late nighttrain  from

Philadelphia for New York, in his impatience to reach home.  There is such a train, not down in the

guidebook, but we were  assured of the fact at the Harrisburg depot.  By and by came the  reply from Dr.

Wilson's telegraphic message: nothing had been heard  of the Captain at Chambersburg.  Still later, another

message came  from our Philadelphia friend, saying that he was seen on Friday last  at the house of Mrs.

K________, a wellknown Union lady in  Hagerstown.  Now this could not be true, for he did not leave

Keedysville until Saturday; but the name of the lady furnished a clew  by which we could probably track him.

A telegram was at once sent to  Mrs.  K_______, asking information.  It was transmitted immediately,  but

when the answer would be received was uncertain, as the  Government almost monopolized the line.  I was, on

the whole, so well  satisfied that the Captain had gone East, that, unless something were  heard to the contrary,

I proposed following him in the late train  leaving a little after midnight for Philadelphia. 

This same morning we visited several of the temporary hospitals,  churches and schoolhouses, where the

wounded were lying.  In one of  these, after looking round as usual, I asked aloud, "Any  Massachusetts men

here?"  Two bright faces lifted themselves from  their pillows and welcomed me by name.  The one nearest me

was  private John B. Noyes of Company B, Massachusetts Thirteenth, son of  my old college classtutor, now

the reverend and learned Professor of  Hebrew, etc., in Harvard University.  His neighbor was Corporal

Armstrong of the same Company.  Both were slightly wounded, doing  well.  I learned then and since from Mr.

Noyes that they and their  comrades were completely overwhelmed by the attentions of the good  people of

Harrisburg,that the ladies brought them fruits and  flowers, and smiles, better than either,and that the

little boys of  the place were almost fighting for the privilege of doing their  errands.  I am afraid there will be a

good many hearts pierced in  this war that will have no bulletmark to show. 

There were some heavy hours to get rid of, and we thought a visit  to  Camp Curtin might lighten some of

them.  A rickety wagon carried us  to the camp, in company with a young woman from Troy, who had a  basket

of good things with her for a sick brother.  "Poor boy! he  will be sure to die," she said.  The rustic sentries

uncrossed their  muskets and let us in.  The camp was on a fair plain, girdled with  hills, spacious, well kept

apparently, but did not present any  peculiar attraction for us.  The visit would have been a dull one,  had we

not happened to get sight of a singularlooking set of human  beings in the distance.  They were clad in stuff

of different hues,  gray and brown being the leading shades, but both subdued by a  neutral tint, such as is wont

to harmonize the variegated apparel of  travelstained vagabonds.  They looked slouchy, listless, torpid,an

illconditioned crew, at first sight, made up of such fellows as an  old woman would drive away from her

henroost with a broomstick.  Yet  these were estrays from the fiery army which has given our generals  so

much trouble,"Secesh prisoners," as a bystander told us.  A talk  with them might be profitable and

entertaining.  But they were  tabooed to the common visitor, and it was necessary to get inside of  the line

which separated us from them. 

A solid, square captain was standing near by, to whom we were  referred.  Look a man calmly through the very

centre of his pupils  and ask him for anything with a tone implying entire conviction that  he will grant it, and

he will very commonly consent to the thing  asked, were it to commit harikari.  The Captain acceded to my

postulate, and accepted my friend as a corollary.  As one string of  my own ancestors was of Batavian origin, I

may be permitted to say  that my new friend was of the Dutch type, like the Amsterdam galiots,  broad in the

beam, capacious in the hold, and calculated to carry a  heavy cargo rather than to make fast time.  He must

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them that the United States  considered and treated them like children, and enforced upon them the  ridiculous

impossibility of the Rebels attempting to do anything  against such a power as that of the National

Government. 

Much as his discourse edified them and enlightened me, it  interfered  somewhat with my little plans of

entering into frank and  friendly  talk with some of these poor fellows, for whom I could not  help  feeling a

kind of human sympathy, though I am as venomous a hater  of  the Rebellion as one is like to find under the

stars and stripes.  It  is fair to take a man prisoner.  It is fair to make speeches to a  man.  But to take a man

prisoner and then make speeches to him while  in durance is not fair. 

I began a few pleasant conversations, which would have come to  something but for the reason assigned. 

One old fellow had a long beard, a drooping eyelid, and a black  clay  pipe in his mouth.  He was a Scotchman

from Ayr, dour enough, and  little disposed to be communicative, though I tried him with the "Twa  Briggs,"

and, like all Scotchmen, he was a reader of "Burrns."  He  professed to feel no interest in the cause for which

he was fighting,  and was in the army, I judged, only from compulsion.  There was a  wildhaired, unsoaped

boy, with pretty, foolish features enough, who  looked as if he might be about seventeen, as he said he was.  I

give  my questions and his answers literally. 

"What State do you come from?" 

"Georgy." 

"What part of Georgia?" 

"Midway." 

[How odd that is!  My father was settled for seven years as  pastor  over the church at Midway, Georgia, and

this youth is very  probably a  grandson or great grandson of one of his parishioners.] 

"Where did you go to church when you were at home?" 

"Never went inside 'f a church b't once in m' life." 

"What did you do before you became a soldier?" 

"Nothin'." 

"What do you mean to do when you get back?" 

"Nothin'." 

Who could have any other feeling than pity for this poor human  weed,  this dwarfed and etiolated soul,

doomed by neglect to an  existence  but one degree above that of the idiot? 

With the group was a lieutenant, buttoned close in his gray coat,  one button gone, perhaps to make a

breastpin for some fair traitorous  bosom.  A short, stocky man, undistinguishable from one of the  "subject

race" by any obvious meanderings of the sangre azul on his  exposed surfaces.  He did not say much, possibly

because he was  convinced by the statements and arguments of the Dutch captain.  He  had on strong,

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I put the question, in a quiet, friendly way, to several of the  prisoners, what they were fighting for.  One

answered, "For our  homes."  Two or three others said they did not know, and manifested  great indifference to

the whole matter, at which another of their  number, a sturdy fellow, took offence, and muttered opinions

strongly  derogatory to those who would not stand up for the cause they had  been fighting for.  A feeble;

attenuated old man, who wore the Rebel  uniform, if such it could be called, stood by without showing any

sign of intelligence.  It was cutting very close to the bone to carve  such a shred of humanity from the body

politic to make a soldier of. 

We were just leaving, when a face attracted me, and I stopped the  party.  "That is the true Southern type," I

said to my companion.  A  young fellow, a little over twenty, rather tall, slight, with a  perfectly smooth, boyish

cheek, delicate, somewhat high features, and  a fine, almost feminine mouth, stood at the opening of his tent,

and  as we turned towards him fidgeted a little nervously with one hand at  the loose canvas, while he seemed

at the same time not unwilling to  talk.  He was from Mississippi, he said, had been at Georgetown  College,

and was so far imbued with letters that even the name of the  literary humility before him was not new to his

ears.  Of course I  found it easy to come into magnetic relation with him, and to ask him  without incivility

what he was fighting for.  "Because I like the  excitement of it,"  he answered.  I know those fighters with

women's  mouths and boys' cheeks.  One such from the circle of my own friends,  sixteen years old, slipped

away from his nursery, and dashed in  under, an assumed name among the redlegged Zouaves, in whose

company  he got an ornamental bulletmark in one of the earliest conflicts of  the war. 

"Did you ever see a genuine Yankee?" said my Philadelphia friend to  the young Mississippian. 

"I have shot at a good many of them,"  he replied, modestly, his  woman's mouth stirring a little, with a

pleasant, dangerous smile. 

The Dutch captain here put his foot into the conversation, as his  ancestors used to put theirs into the scale,

when they were buying  furs of the Indians by weight,so much for the weight of a hand, so  much for the

weight of a foot.  It deranged the balance of our  intercourse; there was no use in throwing a fly where a

pavingstone  had just splashed into the water, and I nodded a goodby to the boy  fighter, thinking how

much pleasanter it was for my friend the  Captain to address him with unanswerable arguments and crushing

statements in his own tent than it would be to meet him upon some  remote picket station and offer his fair

proportions to the quick eye  of a youngster who would draw a bead on him before he had time to say  dunder

and blixum. 

We drove back to the town.  No message.  After dinner still no  message.  Dr. Cuyler, Chief Army Hospital

Inspector, is in town, they  say.  Let us hunt him up,perhaps he can help us. 

We found him at the Jones House.  A gentleman of large proportions,  but of lively temperament, his frame

knit in the North, I think, but  ripened in Georgia, incisive, prompt but goodhumored, wearing his

broadbrimmed, steeplecrowned felt hat with the least possible tilt  on one side,a sure sign of exuberant

vitality in a mature and  dignified person like him, businesslike in his ways, and not to be  interrupted while

occupied with another, but giving himself up  heartily to the claimant who held him for the time.  He was so

genial, so cordial, so encouraging, that it seemed as if the clouds,  which had been thick all the morning, broke

away as we came into his  presence, and the sunshine of his large nature filled the air all  around us.  He took

the matter in hand at once, as if it were his own  private affair.  In ten minutes he had a second telegraphic

message  on its way to Mrs. K at Hagerstown, sent through the Government  channel from the State

Capitol,one so direct and urgent that I  should be sure of an answer to it, whatever became of the one I had

sent in the morning. 

While this was going on, we hired a dilapidated barouche, driven by  an odd young native, neither boy nor

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faintly at our pleasantries, always with a certain reserve of  suspicion, and a gleam of the shrewdness that all

men get who live in  the atmosphere of horses.  He drove us round by the Capitol grounds,  white with tents,

which were disgraced in my eyes by unsoldierly  scrawls in huge letters, thus: THE SEVEN BLOOMSBURY

BROTHERS, DEVIL'S  HOLE, and similar inscriptions.  Then to the Beacon Street of  Harrisburg, which

looks upon the Susquehanna instead of the Common,  and shows a long front of handsome houses with fair

gardens.  The  river is pretty nearly a mile across here, but very shallow now.  The  codling told us that a Rebel

spy had been caught trying its fords a  little while ago, and was now at Camp Curtin with a heavy ball  chained

to his leg,a popular story, but a lie, Dr. Wilson said.  A  little farther along we came to the barkless stump of

the tree to  which Mr. Harris, the Cecrops of the city named after him, was tied  by the Indians for some

unpleasant operation of scalping or roasting,  when he was rescued by friendly savages, who paddled across

the  stream to save him.  Our youngling pointed out a very respectable  looking stone house as having been

"built by the Indians" about those  times.  Guides have queer notions occasionally. 

I was at Niagara just when Dr. Rae arrived there with his  companions  and dogs and things from his Arctic

search after the lost  navigator. 

"Who are those?" I said to my conductor. 

"Them?" he answered.  "Them's the men that's been out West, out to  Michig'n, aft' Sir Ben Franklin." 

Of the other sights of Harrisburg the Brant House or Hotel, or  whatever it is called, seems most worth notice.

Its facade is  imposing, with a row of stately columns, high above which a broad  sign impends, like a crag

over the brow of a lofty precipice.  The  lower floor only appeared to be open to the public.  Its tessellated

pavement and ample courts suggested the idea of a temple where great  multitudes might kneel uncrowded at

their devotions; but from  appearances about the place where the altar should be, I judged,  that, if one asked

the officiating priest for the cup which cheers  and likewise inebriates, his prayer would not be unanswered.

The  edifice recalled to me a similar phenomenon I had once looked upon,  the famous Caffe Pedrocchi at

Padua.  It was the same thing in Italy  and America: a rich man builds himself a mausoleum, and calls it a

place of entertainment.  The fragrance of innumerable libations and  the smoke of incensebreathing cigars

and pipes shall ascend day and  night through the arches of his funereal monument.  What are the poor  dips

which flare and flicker on the crowns of spikes that stand at  the corners of St. Genevieve's filigreecased

sarcophagus to this  perpetual offering of sacrifice? 

Ten o'clock in the evening was approaching.  The telegraph office  would presently close, and as yet there

were no tidings from  Hagerstown.  Let us step over and see for ourselves.  A message!  A  message! 

"Captain H.  still here leaves seven tomorrow for Harrisburg Penna  Is doing well  Mrs HK." 

A note from Dr. Cuyler to the same effect came soon afterwards to  the  hotel. 

We shall sleep well tonight; but let us sit awhile with  nubiferous,  or, if we may coin a word, nepheligenous

accompaniment,  such as shall  gently narcotize the overwearied brain and fold its  convolutions for  slumber

like the leaves of a lily at nightfall.  For  now the over  tense nerves are all unstraining themselves, and a buzz,

like that  which comes over one who stops after being long jolted upon  an uneasy  pavement, makes the whole

frame alive with a luxurious  languid sense  of all its inmost fibres.  Our cheerfulness ran over,  and the mild,

pensive clerk was so magnetized by it that he came and  sat down with  us.  He presently confided to me, with

infinite naivete  and  ingenuousness, that, judging from my personal appearance, he  should  not have thought

me the writer that he in his generosity  reckoned me  to be.  His conception, so far as I could reach it,  involved

a huge,  uplifted forehead, embossed with protuberant organs  of the  intellectual faculties, such as all writers

are supposed to  possess  in abounding measure.  While I fell short of his ideal in this  respect, he was pleased to

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nothing of the dandy about me, which last compliment I had a modest  consciousness of most abundantly

deserving. 

Sweet slumbers brought us to the morning of Thursday.  The train  from  Hagerstown was due at 11.15 A. M:

We took another ride behind the  codling, who showed us the sights of yesterday over again.  Being in  a

gracious mood of mind, I enlarged on the varying aspects of the  townpumps and other striking objects

which we had once inspected, as  seen by the different lights of evening and morning.  After this, we  visited

the schoolhouse hospital.  A fine young fellow, whose arm  had been shattered, was just falling into the

spasms of lockjaw.  The  beads of sweat stood large and round on his flushed and  contracted  features.  He was

under the effect of opiates,why not  (if his case  was desperate, as it seemed to be considered) stop his

sufferings with  chloroform?  It was suggested that it might shorten  life.  "What  then?" I said.  "Are a dozen

additional spasms worth  living for?" 

The time approached for the train to arrive from Hagerstown, and we  went to the station.  I was struck, while

waiting there, with what  seemed to me a great want of care for the safety of the people  standing round.  Just

after my companion and myself had stepped off  the track, I noticed a car coming quietly along at a walk, as

one may  say, without engine, without visible conductor, without any person  heralding its approach, so

silently, so insidiously, that I could not  help thinking how very near it came to flattening out me and my

matchbox worse than the Ravel pantomimist and his snuffbox were  flattened out in the play.  The train was

late,fifteen minutes,  half an hour late, and I began to get nervous, lest something had  happened.  While I

was looking for it, out started a freighttrain,  as if on purpose to meet the cars I was expecting, for a grand

smash  up.  I shivered at the thought, and asked an employee of the road,  with whom I had formed an

acquaintance a few minutes old, why there  should not be a collision of the expected train with this which was

just going out.  He smiled an official smile, and answered that they  arranged to prevent that, or words to that

effect. 

Twentyfour hours had not passed from that moment when a collision  did occur, just out of the city, where I

feared it, by which at least  eleven persons were killed, and from forty to sixty more were maimed  and

crippled! 

Today there was the delay spoken of, but nothing worse.  The  expected train came in so quietly that I was

almost startled to see  it on the track.  Let us walk calmly through the cars, and look  around us. 

In the first car, on the fourth seat to the right, I saw my  Captain;  there saw I him, even my firstborn, whom I

had sought  through many  cities. 

"How are you, Boy?" 

"How are you, Dad?" 

Such are the proprieties of life, as they are observed among us  AngloSaxons of the nineteenth century,

decently disguising those  natural impulses that made Joseph, the Prime Minister of Egypt, weep  aloud so that

the Egyptians and the house of Pharaoh heard, nay,  which had once overcome his shaggy old uncle Esau so

entirely that he  fell on his brother's neck and cried like a baby in the presence of  all the women.  But the

hidden cisterns of the soul may be filling  fast with sweet tears, while the windows through which it looks are

undimmed by a drop or a film of moisture. 

These are times in which we cannot live solely for selfish joys or  griefs.  I had not let fall the hand I held,

when a sad, calm voice  addressed me by name.  I fear that at the moment I was too much  absorbed in my own

feelings; for certainly at any other time.  I  should have yielded myself without stint to the sympathy which this

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"You remember my son, Cortland Saunders, whom I brought to see you  once in Boston?" 

"I do remember him well." 

"He was killed on Monday, at Shepherdstown.  I am carrying his body  back with me on this train.  He was my

only child.  If you could come  to my house,I can hardly call it my home now,it would be a  pleasure to

me." 

This young man, belonging in Philadelphia, was the author of a "New  System of Latin Paradigms," a work

showing extraordinary scholarship  and capacity.  It was this book which first made me acquainted with  him,

and I kept him in my memory, for there was genius in the youth.  Some time afterwards he came to me with a

modest request to be  introduced to President Felton, and one or two others, who would aid  him in a course of

independent study he was proposing to himself.  I  was most happy to smooth the way for him, and he came

repeatedly  after this to see me and express his satisfaction in the  opportunities for study he enjoyed at

Cambridge.  He was a dark,  still, slender person, always with a trancelike remoteness, a mystic  dreaminess

of manner, such as I never saw in any other youth.  Whether  he heard with difficulty, or whether his mind

reacted slowly  on an  alien thought, I could not say; but his answer would often be  behind  time, and then a

vague, sweet smile, or a few words spoken  under his  breath, as if he had been trained in sick men's chambers.

For such a  young man, seemingly destined for the inner life of  contemplation, to  be a soldier seemed almost

unnatural.  Yet he spoke  to me of his  intention to offer himself to his country, and his blood  must now be

reckoned among the precious sacrifices which will make  her soil sacred  forever.  Had he lived, I doubt not

that he would  have redeemed the  rare promise of his earlier years.  He has done  better, for he has  died that

unborn generations may attain the hopes  held out to our  nation and to mankind. 

So, then, I had been within ten miles of the place where my wounded  soldier was lying, and then calmly

turned my back upon him to come  once more round by a journey of three or four hundred miles to the  same

region I had left!  No mysterious attraction warned me that the  heart warm with the same blood as mine was

throbbing so near my own.  I thought of that lovely, tender passage where Gabriel glides  unconsciously by

Evangeline upon the great river.  Ah, me! if that  railroad crash had been a few hours earlier, we two should

never have  met again, after coming so close to each other! 

The source of my repeated disappointments was soon made clear  enough.  The Captain had gone to

Hagerstown, intending to take the cars  at  once for Philadelphia, as his three friends actually did, and as I  took

it for granted he certainly would.  But as he walked languidly  along, some ladies saw him across the street,

and seeing, were moved  with pity, and pitying, spoke such soft words that he was tempted to  accept their

invitation and rest awhile beneath their hospitable  roof.  The mansion was old, as the dwellings of gentlefolks

should  be; the ladies were some of them young, and all were full of  kindness; there were gentle cares, and

unasked luxuries, and pleasant  talk, and musicsprinklings from the piano, with a sweet voice to  keep them

company,and all this after the swamps of the  Chickahominy, the mud and flies of Harrison's Landing, the

dragging  marches, the desperate battles, the fretting wound, the jolting  ambulance, the loghouse, and the

rickety milkcart!  Thanks,  uncounted thanks to the angelic ladies whose charming attentions  detained him

from Saturday to Thursday, to his great advantage and my  infinite bewilderment!  As for his wound, how

could it do otherwise  than well under such hands?  The bullet had gone smoothly through,  dodging everything

but a few nervous branches, which would come right  in time and leave him as well as ever. 

At ten that evening we were in Philadelphia, the Captain at the  house  of the friends so often referred to, and I

the guest of Charley,  my  kind companion.  The Quaker element gives an irresistible  attraction  to these

benignant Philadelphia households.  Many things  reminded me  that I was no longer in the land of the

Pilgrims.  On the  table were  Kool Slaa and Schmeer Kase, but the good grandmother who  dispensed  with such

quiet, simple grace these and more familiar  delicacies was  literally ignorant of Baked Beans, and asked if it

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Charley was pleased with my comparing the face of the small Ethiop  known to his household as "Tines" to a

huckleberry with features.  He  also approved my parallel between a certain German blonde young  maiden

whom we passed in the street and the "Morris White" peach.  But  he was so goodhumored at times, that, if

one scratched a  lucifer, he  accepted it as an illumination. 

A day in Philadelphia left a very agreeable impression of the  outside  of that great city, which has endeared

itself so much of late  to all  the country by its most noble and generous care of our  soldiers.  Measured by its

sovereign hotel, the Continental, it would  stand at  the head of our economic civilization.  It provides for the

comforts  and conveniences, and many of the elegances of life, more  satisfactorily than any American city,

perhaps than any other city  anywhere.  Many of its characteristics are accounted for to some  extent by its

geographical position.  It is the great neutral centre  of the Continent, where the fiery enthusiasms of the South

and the  keen fanaticisms of the North meet at their outer limits, and result  in a compound which neither turns

litmus red nor turmeric brown.  It  lives largely on its traditions, of which, leaving out Franklin and

Independence Hall, the most imposing must be considered its famous  waterworks.  In my younger days I

visited Fairmount, and it was with  a pious reverence that I renewed my pilgrimage to that perennial  fountain.

Its watery ventricles were throbbing with the same systole  and diastole as when, the blood of twenty years

bounding in my own  heart, I looked upon their giant mechanism.  But in the place of  "Pratt's Garden" was an

open park, and the old house where Robert  Morris held his court in a former generation was changing to a

public  restaurant.  A suspension bridge cobwebbed itself across the  Schuylkill where that audacious arch used

to leap the river at a  single bound,an arch of greater span, as they loved to tell us,  than was ever before

constructed.  The Upper Ferry Bridge was to the  Schuylkill what the Colossus was to the harbor of Rhodes.  It

had an  air of dash about it which went far towards redeeming the dead level  of respectable average which

flattens the physiognomy of the  rectangular city.  Philadelphia will never be herself again until  another Robert

Mills and another Lewis Wernwag have shaped her a new  palladium.  She must leap the Schuylkill again, or

old men will sadly  shake their heads, like the Jews at the sight of the second temple,  remembering the glories

of that which it replaced. 

There are times when Ethiopian minstrelsy can amuse, if it does not  charm, a weary soul, and such a vacant

hour there was on this same  Friday evening.  The "operahouse" was spacious and admirably  ventilated.  As I

was listening to the merriment of the sooty  buffoons, I happened to cast my eyes up to the ceiling, and

through  an open semicircular window a bright solitary star looked me calmly  in the eyes.  It was a strange

intrusion of the vast eternities  beckoning from the infinite spaces.  I called the attention of one of  my

neighbors to it, but "Bones" was irresistibly droll, and Arcturus,  or Aldebaran, or whatever the blazing

luminary may have been, with  all his revolving worlds, sailed uncaredfor down the firmament. 

On Saturday morning we took up our line of march for New York.  Mr.  Felton, President of the Philadelphia,

Wilmington and Baltimore  Railroad, had already called upon me, with a benevolent and sagacious  look on

his face which implied that he knew how to do me a service  and meant to do it.  Sure enough, when we got to

the depot, we found  a couch spread for the Captain, and both of us were passed on to New  York with no

visits, but those of civility, from the conductor.  The  best thing I saw on the route was a rustic fence, near

Elizabethtown,  I think, but I am not quite sure.  There was more genius in it than  in any structure of the kind I

have ever seen,each length being of  a special pattern, ramified, reticulated, contorted, as the limbs of  the

trees had grown.  I trust some friend will photograph or  stereograph this fence for me, to go with the view of

the spires of  Frederick, already referred to, as mementos of my journey. 

I had come to feeling that I knew most of the respectably dressed  people whom I met in the cars, and had

been in contact with them at  some time or other.  Three or four ladies and gentlemen were near us,  forming a

group by themselves.  Presently one addressed me by name,  and, on inquiry, I found him to be the gentleman

who was with me in  the pulpit as Orator on the occasion of another Phi Beta Kappa poem,  one delivered at

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It sometimes seems to me as if there were only about a thousand  people in the world, who keep going round

and round behind the scenes  and then before them, like the "army" in a beggarly stageshow.  Suppose that I

should really wish; some time or other, to get away  from this everlasting circle of revolving supernumeraries,

where  should I buy a ticket the like of which was not in some of their  pockets, or find a seat to which some

one of them was not a neighbor. 

A little less than a year before, after the Ball's Bluff accident,  the Captain, then the Lieutenant, and myself

had reposed for a night  on our homeward journey at the Fifth Avenue Hotel, where we were  lodged on the

groundfloor, and fared sumptuously.  We were not so  peculiarly fortunate this time, the house being really

very full.  Farther from the flowers and nearer to the stars,to reach the  neighborhood of which last the per

ardua of three or four flights of  stairs was formidable for any mortal, wounded or well. 

The "vertical railway" settled that for us, however.  It is a giant  corkscrew forever pulling a mammoth cork,

which, by some divine  judgment, is no sooner drawn than it is replaced in its position.  This ascending and

descending stopper is hollow, carpeted, with  cushioned seats, and is watched over by two condemned souls,

called  conductors, one of whom is said to be named Igion, and the other  Sisyphus. 

I love New York, because, as in Paris, everybody that lives in it  feels that it is his property,at least, as

much as it is anybody's.  My Broadway, in particular, I love almost as I used to love my  Boulevards.  I went,

therefore, with peculiar interest, on the day  that we rested at our grand hotel, to visit some new

pleasuregrounds  the citizens had been arranging for us, and which I had not yet seen.  The Central Park is an

expanse of wild country, well crumpled so as  to form ridges which will give views and hollows that will hold

water.  The hips and elbows and other bones of Nature stick out here  and there in the shape of rocks which

give character to the scenery,  and an unchangeable, unpurchasable look to a landscape that without  them

would have been in danger of being fattened by art and money out  of all its native features.  The roads were

fine, the sheets of water  beautiful, the bridges handsome, the swans elegant in their  deportment, the grass

green and as short as a fast horse's winter  coat.  I could not learn whether it was kept so by clipping or

singeing.  I was delighted with my new property,but it cost me four  dollars to get there, so far was it

beyond the Pillars of Hercules of  the fashionable quarter.  What it will be by and by depends on

circumstances; but at present it is as much central to New York as  Brookline is central to Boston. 

The question is not between Mr. Olmsted's admirably arranged, but  remote pleasureground and our

Common, with its batrachian pool, but  between his Excentric Park and our finest suburban scenery, between

its artificial reservoirs and the broad natural sheet of Jamaica  Pond.  I say this not invidiously, but in justice to

the beauties  which surround our own metropolis.  To compare the situations of any  dwellings in either of the

great cities with those which look upon  the Common, the Public Garden, the waters of the Back Bay, would

be  to take an unfair advantage of Fifth Avenue and Walnut Street.  St.  Botolph's daughter dresses in plainer

clothes than her more  stately  sisters, but she wears an emerald on her right hand and a  diamond on  her left

that Cybele herself need not be ashamed of. 

On Monday morning, the twentyninth of September, we took the cars  for home.  Vacant lots, with Irish and

pigs; vegetablegardens;  straggling houses; the high bridge; villages, not enchanting; then  Stamford : then

NORWALK.  Here, on the sixth of May, 1853, I passed  close on the heels of the great disaster.  But that my

lids were  heavy on that morning, my readers would probably have had no further  trouble with me.  Two of my

friends saw the car in which they rode  break in the middle and leave them hanging over the abyss.  From

Norwalk to Boston, that day's journey of two hundred miles was a long  funeral procession. 

Bridgeport, waiting for Iranistan to rise from its ashes with all  its  phoenixegg domes,bubbles of wealth

that broke, ready to be  blown  again; iridescent as ever, which is pleasant, for the world  likes  cheerful Mr.

Barnum's success; New Haven, girt with flat marshes  that  look like monstrous billiardtables, with

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depot, whose niggardly arrangements crowd the track so  murderously close to the wall that the peine forte et

dare must be  the frequent penalty of an innocent walk on its platform,with its  neat carriages, metropolitan

hotels, precious old college  dormitories, its vistas of elms and its dishevelled weepingwillows;  Hartford,

substantial, wellbridged, manysteepled city,every  conical spire an extinguisher of some

nineteenthcentury heresy; so  onward, by and across the broad, shallow Connecticut,dull red road  and

dark river woven in like warp and woof by the shuttle of the  darting engine; then Springfield, the

widemeadowed, wellfeeding,  horseloving, hotsummered, gianttreed town,city among villages,

village among cities; Worcester, with its Daedalian labyrinth of  crossing railroadbars, where the snorting

Minotaurs, breathing fire  and smoke and hot vapors, are stabled in their dens; Framingham, fair  cupbearer,

leafcinctured Hebe of the deepbosomed Queen sitting by  the seaside on the throne of the Six Nations.  And

now I begin to  know the road, not by towns, but by single dwellings; not by miles,  but by rods.  The poles of

the great magnet that draws in all the  iron tracks through the grooves of all the mountains must be near at

hand, for here are crossings, and sudden stops, and screams of  alarmed engines heard all around.  The tall

granite obelisk comes  into view far away on the left, its bevelled capstone sharp against  the sky; the lofty

chimneys of Charlestown and East Cambridge flaunt  their smoky banners up in the thin air; and now one fair

bosom of the  threepilled city, with its domecrowned summit, reveals itself, as  when manybreasted

Ephesian Artemis appeared with halfopen chlamys  before her worshippers. 

Fling open the windowblinds of the chamber that looks out on the  waters and towards the western sun!  Let

the joyous light shine in  upon the pictures that hang upon its walls and the shelves thickset  with the names

of poets and philosophers and sacred teachers, in  whose pages our boys learn that life is noble only when it is

held  cheap by the side of honor and of duty.  Lay him in his own bed, and  let him sleep off his aches and

weariness.  So comes down another  night over this household, unbroken by any messenger of evil  tidings,a

night of peaceful rest and grateful thoughts; for this  our son and brother was dead and is alive again, and was

lost and is  found. 

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[An Oration delivered before the City Authorities of Boston, on the  4th of July, 1863.] 

It is our first impulse, upon this returning day of our nation's  birth, to recall whatever is happiest and noblest

in our past  history, and to join our voices in celebrating the statesmen and the  heroes, the men of thought and

the men of action, to whom that  history owes its existence.  In other years this pleasing office may  have been

all that was required of the holiday speaker.  But today,  when the very life of the nation is threatened, when

clouds are thick  about us, and men's hearts are throbbing with passion, or failing  with fear, it is the living

question of the hour, and not the dead  story of the past, which forces itself into all minds, and will find

unrebuked debate in all assemblies. 

In periods of disturbance like the present, many persons who  sincerely love their country and mean to do their

duty to her  disappoint the hopes and expectations of those who are actively  working in her cause.  They seem

to have lost whatever moral force  they may have once possessed, and to go drifting about from one  profitless

discontent to another, at a time when every citizen is  called upon for cheerful, ready service.  It is because

their minds  are bewildered, and they are no longer truly themselves.  Show them  the path of duty, inspire them

with hope for the future, lead them  upwards from the turbid stream of events to the bright, translucent  springs

of eternal principles, strengthen their trust in humanity and  their faith in God, and you may yet restore them

to their manhood and  their country. 

At all times, and especially on this anniversary of glorious  recollections and kindly enthusiasms, we should

try to judge the weak  and wavering souls of our brothers fairly and generously.  The  conditions in which our

vast community of peaceloving citizens find  themselves are new and unprovided for.  Our quiet burghers


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and  farmers are in the position of riverboats blown from their moorings  out upon a vast ocean, where such a

typhoon is raging as no mariner  who sails its waters ever before looked upon.  If their beliefs  change with the

veering of the blast, if their trust in their fellow  men, and in the course of Divine Providence, seems

wellnigh  shipwrecked, we must remember that they were taken unawares, and  without the preparation

which could fit them to struggle with these  tempestuous elements.  In times like these the faith is the man; and

they to whom it is given in larger measure owe a special duty to  those who for want of it are faint at heart,

uncertain in speech,  feeble in effort, and purposeless in aim. 

Assuming without argument a few simple propositions,that self  government is the natural condition of an

adult society, as  distinguished from the immature state, in which the temporary  arrangements of monarchy

and oligarchy are tolerated as conveniences;  that the end of all social compacts is, or ought to be, to give

every  child born into the world the fairest chance to make the most and the  best of itself that laws can give it;

that Liberty, the one of the  two claimants who swears that her babe shall not be split in halves  and divided

between them, is the true mother of this blessed Union;  that the contest in which we are engaged is one of

principles  overlaid by circumstances; that the longer we fight, and the more we  study the movements of

events and ideas, the more clearly we find the  moral nature of the cause at issue emerging in the field and in

the  study; that all honest persons with average natural sensibility, with  respectable understanding, educated in

the school of northern  teaching, will have eventually to range themselves in the armed or  unarmed host which

fights or pleads for freedom, as against every  form of tyranny; if not in the front rank now, then in the rear

rank  by and by;assuming these propositions, as many, perhaps most of us,  are ready to do, and believing

that the more they are debated before  the public the more they will gain converts, we owe it to the timid  and

the doubting to keep the great questions of the time in unceasing  and untiring agitation.  They must be

discussed, in all ways  consistent with the public welfare, by different classes of thinkers;  by priests and

laymen; by statesmen and simple voters; by moralists  and lawyers; by men of science and uneducated

handlaborers; by men  of facts and figures, and by men of theories and aspirations; in the  abstract and in the

concrete; discussed and rediscussed every month,  every week, every day, and almost every hour, as the

telegraph tells  us of some new upheaval or subsidence of the rocky base of our  political order. 

Such discussions may not be necessary to strengthen the convictions  of the great body of loyal citizens.  They

may do nothing toward  changing the views of those, if such there be, as some profess to  believe, who follow

politics as a trade.  They may have no hold upon  that class of persons who are defective in moral sensibility,

just as  other persons are wanting in an ear for music.  But for the honest,  vacillating minds, the tender

consciences supported by the tremulous  knees of an infirm intelligence, the timid compromisers who are

always trying to curve the straight lines and round the sharp angles  of eternal law, the continual debate of

these living questions is the  one offered means of grace and hope of earthly redemption.  And thus  a true,

unhesitating patriot may be willing to listen with patience  to arguments which he does not need, to appeals

which have no special  significance for him, in the hope that some less clear in mind or  less courageous in

temper may profit by them. 

As we look at the condition in which we find ourselves on this  fourth  day of July, 1863, at the beginning of

the Eightyeighth Year  of  American Independence, we may well ask ourselves what right we have  to indulge

in public rejoicings.  If the war in which we are engaged  is an accidental one, which might have been avoided

but for our  fault; if it is for any ambitious or unworthy purpose on our part; if  it is hopeless, and we are madly

persisting in it; if it is our duty  and in our power to make a safe and honorable peace, and we refuse to  do it; if

our free institutions are in danger of becoming subverted,  and giving place to an irresponsible tyranny; if we

are moving in the  narrow circles which are to ingulf us in national ruin,then we had  better sing a dirge, and

leave this idle assemblage, and hush the  noisy cannon which are reverberating through the air, and tear down

the scaffolds which are soon to blaze with fiery symbols; for it is  mourning and not joy that should cover the

land; there should be  silence, and not the echo of noisy gladness, in our streets; and the  emblems with which

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If, on the other hand, this war is no accident, but an inevitable  result of long incubating causes; inevitable as

the cataclysms that  swept away the monstrous births of primeval nature; if it is for no  mean, unworthy end,

but for national life, for liberty everywhere,  for humanity, for the kingdom of God on earth; if it is not

hopeless,  but only growing to such dimensions that the world shall remember the  final triumph of right

throughout all time; if there is no safe and  honorable peace for us but a peace proclaimed from the capital of

every revolted province in the name of the sacred, inviolable Union;  if the fear of tyranny is a phantasm,

conjured up by the imagination  of the weak, acted on by the craft of the cunning; if so far from  circling

inward to the gulf of our perdition, the movement of past  years is reversed, and every revolution carries us

farther and  farther from the centre of the vortex, until, by God's blessing, we  shall soon find ourselves freed

from the outermost coil of the  accursed spiral; if all these things are true; if we may hope to make  them seem

true, or even probable, to the doubting soul, in an hour's  discourse, then we may join without madness in the

day's exultant  festivities; the bells may ring, the cannon may roar, the incense of  our harmless saltpetre fill the

air, and the children who are to  inherit the fruit of these toiling, agonizing years, go about  unblamed, making

day and night vocal with their jubilant patriotism. 

The struggle in which we are engaged was inevitable; it might have  come a little sooner, or a little later, but it

must have come.  The  disease of the nation was organic, and not functional, and the rough  chirurgery of war

was its only remedy. 

In opposition to this view, there are many languid thinkers who  lapse  into a forlorn belief that if this or that

man had never lived,  or if  this or that other man had not ceased to live, the country might  have  gone on in

peace and prosperity, until its felicity merged in the  glories of the millennium.  If Mr. Calhoun had never

proclaimed his  heresies; if Mr. Garrison had never published his paper; if Mr.  Phillips, the Cassandra in

masculine shape of our long prosperous  Ilium, had never uttered his melodious prophecies; if the silver  tones

of Mr. Clay had still sounded in the senatechamber to smooth  the billows of contention; if the Olympian

brow of Daniel Webster had  been lifted from the dust to fix its awful frown on the darkening  scowl of

rebellion,we might have been spared this dread season of  convulsion.  All this is but simple Martha's faith,

without the  reason she could have given: "If Thou hadst been here, my brother had  not died." 

They little know the tidal movements of national thought and  feeling,  who believe that they depend for

existence on a few swimmers  who ride  their waves.  It is not Leviathan that leads the ocean from  continent  to

continent, but the ocean which bears his mighty bulk as  it wafts  its own bubbles.  If this is true of all the

narrower  manifestations  of human progress, how much more must it be true of  those broad  movements in the

intellectual and spiritual domain which  interest all  mankind?  But in the more limited ranges referred to, no

fact is more  familiar than that there is a simultaneous impulse acting  on many  individual minds at once, so

that genius comes in clusters,  and  shines rarely as a single star.  You may trace a common motive and  force in

the pyramidbuilders of the earliest recorded antiquity, in  the evolution of Greek architecture, and in the

sudden springing up  of those wondrous cathedrals of the twelfth and following centuries,  growing out of the

soil with stem and bud and blossom, like flowers  of stone whose seeds might well have been the flaming

aerolites cast  over the battlements of heaven.  You may see the same law showing  itself in the brief periods of

glory which make the names of Pericles  and Augustus illustrious with reflected splendors; in the painters,  the

sculptors, the scholars of "Leo's golden days"; in the authors of  the Elizabethan time; in the poets of the first

part of this century  following that dreary period, suffering alike from the silence of  Cowper and the song of

Hayley.  You may accept the fact as natural,  that Zwingli and Luther, without knowing each other, preached

the  same reformed gospel; that Newton, and Hooke, and Halley, and Wren  arrived independently of each

other at the great law of the  diminution of gravity with the square of the distance; that Leverrier  and Adams

felt their hands meeting, as it were, as they stretched  them into the outer darkness beyond the orbit of Uranus,

in search of  the dim, unseen Planet; that Fulton and Bell, that Wheatstone and  Morse, that Daguerre and

Niepce, were moving almost simultaneously in  parallel paths to the same end.  You see why Patrick Henry, in

Richmond, and Samuel Adams, in Boston, were startling the crown  officials with the same accents of liberty,

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law of simultaneous intellectual movement,  recognized by all thinkers, expatiated upon by Lord Macaulay

and by  Mr. Herbert Spencer among recent writers, is eminently applicable to  that change of thought and

feeling which necessarily led to the  present conflict. 

The antagonism of the two sections of the Union was not the work of  this or that enthusiast or fanatic.  It was

the consequence of a  movement in mass of two different forms of civilization in different  directions, and the

men to whom it was attributed were only those who  represented it most completely, or who talked longest

and loudest  about it.  Long before the accents of those famous statesmen referred  to ever resounded in the

halls of the Capitol, long before the  "Liberator" opened its batteries, the controversy now working itself  out

by trial of battle was foreseen and predicted.  Washington warned  his countrymen of the danger of sectional

divisions, well knowing the  line of cleavage that ran through the seemingly solid fabric.  Jefferson

foreshadowed the judgment to fall upon the land for its  sins against a just God.  Andrew Jackson announced a

quarter of a  century beforehand that the next pretext of revolution would be  slavery.  De Tocqueville

recognized with that penetrating insight  which analyzed our institutions and conditions so keenly, that the

Union was to be endangered by slavery, not through its interests, but  through the change of character it was

bringing about in the people  of the two sections, the same fatal change which George Mason, more  than half

a century before, had declared to be the most pernicious  effect of the system, adding the solemn warning,

now fearfully  justifying itself in the sight of his descendants, that "by an  inevitable chain of causes and

effects, Providence punishes national  sins by national calamities."  The Virginian romancer pictured the

faroff scenes of the conflict which he saw approaching as the  prophets of Israel painted the coming woes of

Jerusalem, and the  strong iconoclast of Boston announced the very year when the curtain  should rise on the

yet unopened drama. 

The wise men of the past, and the shrewd men of our own time, who  warned us of the calamities in store for

our nation, never doubted  what was the cause which was to produce first alienation and finally  rupture.  The

descendants of the men "daily exercised in tyranny,"  the "petty tyrants" as their own leading statesmen called

them long  ago, came at length to love the institution which their fathers had  condemned while they tolerated.

It is the fearful realization of  that vision of the poet where the lost angels snuff up with eager  nostrils the

sulphurous emanations of the bottomless abyss,so have  their natures become changed by long breathing

the atmosphere of the  realm of darkness. 

At last, in the fulness of time, the fruits of sin ripened in a  sudden harvest of crime.  Violence stalked into the

senatechamber,  theft and perjury wound their way into the cabinet, and, finally,  openly organized

conspiracy, with force and arms, made burglarious  entrance into a chief stronghold of the Union.  That the

principle  which underlay these acts of fraud and violence should be irrevocably  recorded with every needed

sanction, it pleased God to select a chief  ruler of the false government to be its Messiah to the listening  world.

As with Pharaoh, the Lord hardened his heart, while he opened  his mouth, as of old he opened that of the

unwise animal ridden by  cursing Balaam.  Then spake Mr. "VicePresident" Stephens those  memorable

words which fixed forever the theory of the new social  order.  He first lifted a degraded barbarism to the

dignity of a  philosophic system.  He first proclaimed the gospel of eternal  tyranny as the new revelation which

Providence had reserved for the  western Palestine.  Hear, O heavens! and give ear, O earth!  The  cornerstone

of the newborn dispensation is the recognized  inequality  of races; not that the strong may protect the weak,

as men  protect  women and children, but that the strong may claim the  authority of  Nature and of God to buy,

to sell, to scourge, to hunt,  to cheat out  of the reward of his labor, to keep in perpetual  ignorance, to blast  with

hereditary curses throughout all time, the  bronzed foundling of  the New World, upon whose darkness has

dawned  the star of the  occidental Bethlehem! 

After two years of war have consolidated the opinion of the Slave  States, we read in the "Richmond

Examiner":  "The establishment of  the Confederacy is verily a distinct reaction against the whole  course of the

mistaken civilization of the age.  For  'Liberty,  Equality, Fraternity,' we have deliberately substituted Slavery,

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A simple diagram, within the reach of all, shows how idle it is to  look for any other cause than slavery as

having any material agency  in dividing the country.  Match the two broken pieces of the Union,  and you will

find the fissure that separates them zigzagging itself  half across the continent like an isothermal line, shooting

its  splintery projections, and opening its reentering angles, not merely  according to the limitations of

particular States, but as a county or  other limited section of ground belongs to freedom or to slavery.  Add  to

this the official statement made in 1862, that "there is not  one  regiment or battalion, or even company of men,

which was  organized in  or derived from the Free States or Territories,  anywhere, against the  Union"; throw in

gratuitously Mr. Stephens's  explicit declaration in  the speech referred to, and we will consider  the evidence

closed for  the present on this count of the indictment. 

In the face of these predictions, these declarations, this line of  fracture, this precise statement, testimony from

so many sources,  extending through several generations, as to the necessary effect of  slavery, a priori, and its

actual influence as shown by the facts,  few will suppose that anything we could have done would have stayed

its course or prevented it from working out its legitimate effects on  the white subjects of its corrupting

dominion.  Northern acquiescence  or even sympathy may have sometimes helped to make it sit more easily  on

the consciences of its supporters.  Many profess to think that  Northern fanaticism, as they call it, acted like a

mordant in fixing  the black dye of slavery in regions which would but for that have  washed themselves free

of its stain in tears of penitence.  It is a  delusion and a snare to trust in any such false and flimsy reasons

where there is enough and more than enough in the institution itself  to account for its growth.  Slavery

gratifies at once the love of  power, the love of money, and the love of ease; it finds a victim for  anger who

cannot smite back his oppressor; and it offers to all,  without measure, the seductive privileges which the

Mormon gospel  reserves for the true believers on earth, and the Bible of Mahomet  only dares promise to the

saints in heaven. 

Still it is common, common even to vulgarism, to hear the remark  that  the same gallowstree ought to bear as

its fruit the archtraitor  and  the leading champion of aggressive liberty.  The mob of Jerusalem  was  not

satisfied with its two crucified thieves; it must have a cross  also for the reforming Galilean, who interfered so

rudely with its  conservative traditions!  It is asserted that the fault was quite as  much on our side as on the

other; that our agitators and abolishers  kindled the flame for which the combustibles were all ready on the

other side of the border.  If these men could have been silenced, our  brothers had not died. 

Who are the persons that use this argument?  They are the very ones  who are at the present moment most

zealous in maintaining the right  of free discussion.  At a time when every power the nation can summon  is

needed to ward off the blows aimed at its life, and turn their  force upon its foes,when a false traitor at

home may lose us a  battle by a word, and a lying newspaper may demoralize an army by its  daily or weekly

stillicidium of poison, they insist with loud acclaim  upon the liberty of speech and of the press; liberty, nay

license, to  deal with government, with leaders, with every measure, however  urgent, in any terms they

choose, to traduce the officer before his  own soldiers, and assail the only men who have any claim at all to

rule over the country, as the very ones who are least worthy to be  obeyed.  If these opposition members of

society are to have their way  now, they cannot find fault with those persons who spoke their minds  freely in

the past on that great question which, as we have agreed,  underlies all our present dissensions. 

It is easy to understand the bitterness which is often shown  towards  reformers.  They are never general

favorites.  They are apt to  interfere with vested rights and timehallowed interests.  They often  wear an

unlovely, forbidding aspect.  Their office corresponds to  that of Nature's sanitary commission for the removal

of material  nuisances.  It is not the butterfly, but the beetle, which she  employs for this duty.  It is not the bird

of paradise and the  nightingale, but the fowl of dark plumage and unmelodious voice, to  which is entrusted

the sacred duty of eliminating the substances that  infect the air.  And the force of obvious analogy teaches us

not to  expect all the qualities which please the general taste in those  whose instincts lead them to attack the

moral nuisances which poison  the atmosphere of society.  But whether they please us in all their  aspects or

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They may be  unwise, violent, abusive, extravagant, impracticable, but they are  alive, at any rate, and it is

their business to remove abuses as soon  as they are dead, and often to help them to die.  To quarrel with  them

because they are beetles, and not butterflies, is natural, but  far from profitable.  They grow none the less

vigorously for being  trodden upon, like those tough weeds that love to nestle between the  stones of

courtyard pavements.  If you strike at one of their heads  with the bludgeon of the law, or of violence, it flies

open like the  seedcapsule of a snapweed, and fills the whole region with seminal  thoughts which will spring

up in a crop just like the original  martyr.  They chased one of these enthusiasts, who attacked slavery,  from St.

Louis, and shot him at Alton in 1837; and on the 23d of June  just passed, the Governor of Missouri, chairman

of the Committee on  Emancipation, introduced to the Convention an Ordinance for the final  extinction of

Slavery!  They hunted another through the streets of a  great Northern city in 1835; and within a few weeks a

regiment of  colored soldiers, many of them bearing the marks of the slave  driver's whip on their backs,

marched out before a vast multitude  tremulous with newlystirred sympathies, through the streets of the  same

city, to fight our battles in the name of God and Liberty! 

The same persons who abuse the reformers, and lay all our troubles  at  their door, are apt to be severe also on

what they contemptuously  emphasize as "sentiments" considered as motives of action.  It is  charitable to

believe that they do not seriously contemplate or truly  understand the meaning of the words they use, but

rather play with  them, as certain socalled "learned" quadrupeds play with the printed  characters set before

them.  In all questions involving duty, we act  from sentiments.  Religion springs from them, the family order

rests  upon them, and in every community each act involving a relation  between any two of its members

implies the recognition or the denial  of a sentiment.  It is true that men often forget them or act against  their

bidding in the keen competition of business and politics.  But  God has not left the hard intellect of man to

work out its devices  without the constant presence of beings with gentler and purer  instincts.  The breast of

woman is the everrocking cradle of the  pure and holy sentiments which will sooner or later steal their way

into the mind of her sterner companion; which will by and by emerge  in the thoughts of the world's teachers,

and at last thunder forth in  the edicts of its lawgivers and masters.  Woman herself borrows half  her

tenderness from the sweet influences of maternity; and childhood,  that weeps at the story of suffering, that

shudders at the picture of  wrong, brings down its inspiration "from God, who is our home."  To  quarrel, then,

with the class of minds that instinctively attack  abuses, is not only profitless but senseless; to sneer at the

sentiments which are the springs of all just and virtuous actions, is  merely a display of unthinking levity, or

of want of the natural  sensibilities. 

With the hereditary character of the Southern people moving in one  direction, and the awakened conscience

of the North stirring in the  other, the open conflict of opinion was inevitable, and equally  inevitable its

appearance in the field of national politics.  For  what is meant by selfgovernment is, that a man shall make

his  convictions of what is right and expedient regulate the community so  far as his fractional share of the

government extends.  If one has  come to the conclusion, be it right or wrong, that any particular  institution or

statute is a violation of the sovereign law of God, it  is to be expected that he will choose to be represented by

those who  share his belief, and who will in their wider sphere do all they  legitimately can to get rid of the

wrong in which they find  themselves and their constituents involved.  To prevent opinion from  organizing

itself under political forms may be very desirable, but it  is not according to the theory or practice of

selfgovernment.  And  if at last organized opinions become arrayed in hostile shape against  each other, we

shall find that a just war is only the last inevitable  link in a chain of closely connected impulses of which the

original  source is in Him who gave to tender and humble and uncorrupted souls  the sense of right and wrong,

which, after passing through various  forms, has found its final expression in the use of material force.  Behind

the bayonet is the lawgiver's statute, behind the statute the  thinker's argument, behind the argument is the

tender  conscientiousness of woman, woman, the wife, the mother,who looks  upon the face of God himself

reflected in the unsullied soul of  infancy.  "Out of the mouths of babes and sucklings hast thou  ordained

strength, because of thine enemies." 


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The simplest course for the malcontent is to find fault with the  order of Nature and the Being who established

it.  Unless the law of  moral progress were changed, or the Governor of the Universe were  dethroned, it would

be impossible to prevent a great uprising of the  human conscience against a system, the legislation relating to

which,  in the words of so calm an observer as De Tocqueville, the  Montesquieu of our laws, presents "such

unparalleled atrocities as to  show that the laws of humanity have been totally perverted."  Until  the infinite

selfishness of the powers that hate and fear the  principles of free government swallowed up their convenient

virtues,  that system was hissed at by all the oldworld civilization.  While  in one section of our land the

attempt has been going on to lift it  out of the category of tolerated wrongs into the sphere of the  world's

beneficent agencies, it was to be expected that the protest  of Northern manhood and womanhood would grow

louder and stronger  until the conflict of principles led to the conflict of forces.  The  moral uprising of the

North came with the logical precision of  destiny; the rage of the "petty tyrants" was inevitable; the plot to

erect a slave empire followed with fated certainty; and the only  question left for us of the North was, whether

we should suffer the  cause of the Nation to go by default, or maintain its existence by  the argument of cannon

and musket, of bayonet and sabre. 

The war in which we are engaged is for no meanly ambitious or  unworthy purpose.  It was primarily, and is to

this moment, for the  preservation of our national existence.  The first direct movement  towards it was a civil

request on the part of certain Southern  persons, that the Nation would commit suicide, without making any

unnecessary trouble about it.  It was answered, with sentiments of  the highest consideration, that there were

constitutional and other  objections to the Nation's laying violent hands upon itself.  It was  then requested, in a

somewhat peremptory tone, that the Nation would  be so obliging as to abstain from food until the natural

consequences  of that proceeding should manifest themselves.  All this was done as  between a single State and

an isolated fortress; but it was not South  Carolina and Fort Sumter that were talking; it was a vast conspiracy

uttering its menace to a mighty nation; the whole menagerie of  treason was pacing its cages, ready to spring

as soon as the doors  were opened; and all that the tigers of rebellion wanted to kindle  their wild natures to

frenzy, was the sight of flowing blood. 

As if to show how coldly and calmly all this had been calculated  beforehand by the conspirators, to make

sure that no absence of  malice aforethought should degrade the grand malignity of settled  purpose into the

trivial effervescence of transient passion, the  torch which was literally to launch the first missile, figuratively,

to "fire the southern heart" and light the flame of civil war, was  given into the trembling hand of an old

whiteheaded man, the  wretched incendiary whom history will handcuff in eternal infamy with  the

templeburner of ancient Ephesus.  The first gun that spat its  iron insult at Fort Sumter, smote every loyal

American full in the  face.  As when the foul witch used to torture her miniature image,  the person it

represented suffered all that she inflicted on his  waxen counterpart, so every buffet that fell on the smoking

fortress  was felt by the sovereign nation of which that was the  representative.  Robbery could go no farther,

for every loyal man of  the North was despoiled in that single act as much as if a footpad  had laid hands upon

him to take from him his father's staff and his  mother's Bible.  Insult could go no farther, for over those

battered  walls waved the precious symbol of all we most value in the past and  most hope for in the

future,the banner under which we became a  nation, and which, next to the cross of the Redeemer, is the

dearest  object of love and honor to all who toil or march or sail beneath its  waving folds of glory. 

Let us pause for a moment to consider what might have been the  course  of events if under the influence of

fear, or of what some would  name  humanity, or of conscientious scruples to enter upon what a few  please

themselves and their rebel friends by calling a "wicked war";  if under any or all these influences we had taken

the insult and the  violence of South Carolina without accepting it as the first blow of  a mortal combat, in

which we must either die or give the last and  finishing stroke. 

By the same title which South Carolina asserted to Fort Sumter,  Florida would have challenged as her own

the Gibraltar of the Gulf,  and Virginia the Ehrenbreitstein of the Chesapeake.  Half our navy  would have

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peaks.  "Old Ironsides" herself would have perhaps sailed out of Annapolis  harbor to have a wooden Jefferson

Davis shaped for her figurehead at  Norfolk,for Andrew Jackson was a hater of secession, and his was no

fitting effigy for the battleship of the redhanded conspiracy.  With  all the great fortresses, with half the

ships and warlike  material, in  addition to all that was already stolen, in the  traitors' hands, what  chance would

the loyal men in the Border States  have stood against the  rush of the desperate fanatics of the now  triumphant

faction?  Where  would Maryland, Kentucky, Missouri,  Tennessee,saved, or looking to  be saved, even as it

is, as by  fire,have been in the day of trial?  Into whose hands would the  Capital, the archives, the glory, the

name, the very life of the  nation as a nation, have fallen, endangered  as all of them were, in  spite of the

volcanic outburst of the startled  North which answered  the roar of the first gun at Sumter?  Worse than  all, are

we  permitted to doubt that in the very bosom of the North  itself there  was a serpent, coiled but not sleeping,

which only  listened for the  first word that made it safe to strike, to bury its  fangs in the  heart of Freedom, and

blend its golden scales in close  embrace with  the deadly reptile of the cottonfields.  Who would not  wish that

he  were wrong in such a suspicion? yet who can forget the  mysterious  warnings that the allies of the rebels

were to be found far  north of  the fatal boundary line; and that it was in their own  streets,  against their own

brothers, that the champions of liberty  were to  defend her sacred heritage? 

Not to have fought, then, after the supreme indignity and outrage  we  had suffered, would have been to

provoke every further wrong, and  to  furnish the means for its commission.  It would have been to  placard

ourselves on the walls of the shattered fort, as the  spiritless race  the proud laborthieves called us.  It would

have been  to die as a  nation of freemen, and to have given all we had left of  our rights  into the hands of alien

tyrants in league with homebred  traitors. 

Not to have fought would have been to be false to liberty  everywhere,  and to humanity.  You have only to see

who are our friends  and who  are our enemies in this struggle, to decide for what  principles we  are combating.

We know too well that the British  aristocracy is not  with us.  We know what the West End of London  wishes

may be result of  this controversy.  The two halves of this  Union are the two blades of  the shears, threatening

as those of  Atropos herself, which will  sooner or later cut into shreds the old  charters of tyranny.  How  they

would exult if they could but break the  rivet that makes of the  two blades one resistless weapon!  The man

who  of all living  Americans had the best opportunity of knowing how the  fact stood,  wrote these words in

March, 1862: "That Great Britain did,  in the  most terrible moment of our domestic trial in struggling with a

monstrous social evil she had earnestly professed to abhor, coldly  and at once assume our inability to master

it, and then become the  only foreign nation steadily contributing in every indirect way  possible to verify its

prejudgment, will probably be the verdict  made up against her by posterity, on a calm comparison of the

evidence." 

So speaks the wise, tranquil statesman who represents the nation at  the Court of St. James, in the midst of

embarrassments perhaps not  less than those which vexed his illustrious grandfather, when he  occupied the

same position as the Envoy of the hated, newborn  Republic. 

"It cannot be denied,"says another observer, placed on one of our  national watchtowers in a foreign

capital,"it cannot be denied  that the tendency of European public opinion, as delivered from high  places, is

more and more unfriendly to our cause"; "but the people,"  he adds, "everywhere sympathize with us, for they

know that our cause  is that of free institutions,that our struggle is that of the  people against an oligarchy."

These are the words of the Minister to  Austria, whose generous sympathies with popular liberty no homage

paid to his genius by the class whose admiring welcome is most  seductive to scholars has ever spoiled; our

fellowcitizen, the  historian of a great Republic which infused a portion of its life  into our own,John

Lothrop Motley. 

It is a bitter commentary on the effects of European, and  especially  of British institutions, that such men

should have to speak  in such  terms of the manner in which our struggle has been regarded.  We had,  no doubt,

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alleged as its  cause, arrayed upon one side the supporters of an institution she was  supposed to hate in

earnest, and on the other its assailants.  We had  forgotten what her own poet, one of the truest and purest of

her  children, had said of his countrymen, in words which might well have  been spoken by the British Premier

to the American Ambassador asking  for some evidence of kind feeling on the part of his government: 

    "Alas I expect it not.  We found no bait

     To tempt us in thy country.  Doing good,

     Disinterested good, is not our trade."

We know full well by this time what truth there is in these honest  lines.  We have found out, too, who our

European enemies are, and why  they are our enemies.  Three bending statues bear up that gilded  seat, which,

in spite of the timehallowed usurpations and  consecrated wrongs so long associated with its history, is still

venerated as the throne.  One of these supports is the pensioned  church; the second is the purchased army; the

third is the long  suffering people.  Whenever the third caryatid comes to life and  walks from beneath its

burden, the capitals of Europe will be filled  with the broken furniture of palaces.  No wonder that our

ministers  find the privileged orders willing to see the ominous republic split  into two antagonistic forces,

each paralyzing the other, and standing  in their mighty impotence a spectacle to courts and kings; to be

pointed at as helots who drank themselves blind and giddy out of that  broken chalice which held the

poisonous draught of liberty! 

We know our enemies, and they are the enemies of popular rights.  We  know our friends, and they are the

foremost champions of political  and social progress.  The eloquent voice and the busy pen of John  Bright have

both been ours, heartily, nobly, from the first; the man  of the people has been true to the cause of the people.

That deep  and generous thinker, who, more than any of her philosophical  writers, represents the higher

thought of England, John Stuart Mill,  has spoken for us in tones to which none but her sordid hucksters and

her selfish landgraspers can refuse to listen.  Count Gasparin and  Laboulaye have sent us back the echo from

liberal France; France, the  country of ideas, whose earlier inspirations embodied themselves for  us in the

person of the youthful Lafayette.  Italy,would you know  on which side the rights of the people and the

hopes of the future  are to be found in this momentous conflict, what surer test, what  ampler demonstration

can you askthan the eager sympathy of the  Italian patriot whose name is the hope of the toiling many, and

the  dread of their oppressors, wherever it is spoken, the heroic  Garibaldi? 

But even when it is granted that the war was inevitable; when it is  granted that it is for no base end, but first

for the life of the  nation, and more and more, as the quarrel deepens, for the welfare of  mankind, for

knowledge as against enforced ignorance, for justice as  against oppression, for that kingdom of God on earth

which neither  the unrighteous man nor the extortioner can hope to inherit, it may  still be that the strife is

hopeless, and must therefore be  abandoned.  Is it too much to say that whether the war is hopeless or  not for

the North depends chiefly on the answer to the question,  whether the North has virtue and manhood enough

to persevere in the  contest so long as its resources hold out?  But how much virtue and  manhood it has can

never be told until they are tried, and those who  are first to doubt the prevailing existence of these qualities

are  not commonly themselves patterns of either.  We have a right to trust  that this people is virtuous and brave

enough not to give up a just  and necessary contest before its end is attained, or shown to be  unattainable for

want of material agencies.  What was the end to be  attained by accepting the gage of battle?  It was to get the

better  of our assailants, and, having done so, to take exactly those steps  which we should then consider

necessary to our present and future  safety.  The more obstinate the resistance, the more completely must  it be

subdued.  It may not even have been desirable, as Mr.  Mill  suggested long since, that the victory over the

rebellion should have  been easily and speedily won, and so have failed to develop the true  meaning of the

conflict, to bring out the full strength of the  revolted section, and to exhaust the means which would have

served it  for a still more desperate future effort.  We cannot complain that  our task has proved too easy.  We

give our Southern army,for we  must remember that it is our army, after all, only in a state of  mutiny,we

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have a few  plain facts which show the probable course of events; the gradual but  sure operation of the

blockade; the steady pushing back of the  boundary of rebellion, in spite of resistance at many points, or even

of such aggressive inroads as that which our armies are now meeting  with their long lines of bayonets,may

God grant them victory!the  progress of our arms down the Mississippi; the relative value of gold  and

currency at Richmond and Washington.  If the indexhands of force  and credit continue to move in the ratio

of the past two years, where  will the Confederacy be in twice or thrice that time? 

Either all our statements of the relative numbers, power, and  wealth  of the two sections of the country signify

nothing, or the  resources  of our opponents in men and means must be much nearer  exhaustion than  our own.

The running sand of the hourglass gives no  warning, but  runs as freely as ever when its last grains are about

to  fall.  The  merchant wears as bold a face the day before he is  proclaimed a  bankrupt, as he wore at the height

of his fortunes.  If  Colonel  Grierson found the Confederacy "a mere shell," so far as his  equestrian excursion

carried him, how can we say how soon the shell  will collapse?  It seems impossible that our own dissensions

can  produce anything more than local disturbances, like the Morristown  revolt, which Washington put down

at once by the aid of his faithful  Massachusetts soldiers.  But in a rebellious state dissension is  ruin, and the

violence of an explosion in a strict ratio to the  pressure on every inch of the containing surface.  Now we

know the  tremendous force which has compelled the "unanimity" of the Southern  people.  There are men in

the ranks of the Southern army, if we can  trust the evidence which reaches us, who have been recruited with

packs of bloodhounds, and drilled, as it were, with halters around  their necks.  We know what is the

bitterness of those who have  escaped this bloody harvest of the remorseless conspirators; and from  that we

can judge of the elements of destruction incorporated with  many of the seemingly solid portions of the fabric

of the rebellion.  The facts are necessarily few, but we can reason from the laws of  human nature as to what

must be the feelings of the people of the  South to their Northern neighbors.  It is impossible that the love of

the life which they have had in common, their glorious recollections,  their blended histories, their sympathies

as Americans, their mingled  blood, their birthright as born under the same flag and protected by  it the world

over, their worship of the same God, under the same  outward form, at least, and in the folds of the same

ecclesiastical  organizations, should all be forgotten, and leave nothing but hatred  and eternal alienation.  Men

do not change in this way, and we may be  quite sure that the pretended unanimity of the South will some day

or  other prove to have been a part of the machinery of deception which  the plotters have managed with such

consummate skill.  It is hardly  to be doubted that in every part of the South, as in New Orleans, in  Charleston,

in Richmond, there are multitudes who wait for the day of  deliverance, and for whom the coming of "our

good friends, the  enemies," as Beranger has it, will be like the advent of the angels  to the prisoncells of Paul

and Silas.  But there is no need of  depending on the aid of our white Southern friends, be they many or  be they

few; there is material power enough in the North, if there be  the will to use it, to overrun and by degrees to

recolonize the  South, and it is far from impossible that some such process may be a  part of the mechanism of

its new birth, spreading from various  centres of organization, on the plan which Nature follows when she

would fill a halffinished tissue with bloodvessels or change a  temporary cartilage into bone. 

Suppose, however, that the prospects of the war were, we need not  say  absolutely hopeless,because that is

the unfounded hypothesis of  those whose wish is father to their thought,but full of  discouragement.  Can

we make a safe and honorable peace as the  quarrel now stands?  As honor comes before safety, let us look at

that first.  We have undertaken to resent a supreme insult, and have  had to bear new insults and aggressions,

even to the direct menace of  our national capital.  The blood which our best and bravest have shed  will never

sink into the ground until our wrongs are righted, or the  power to right them is shown to be insufficient.  If we

stop now, all  the loss of life has been butchery; if we carry out the intention  with which we first resented the

outrage, the earth drinks up the  blood of our martyrs, and the rose of honor blooms forever where it  was shed.

To accept less than indemnity for the past, so far as the  wretched kingdom of the conspirators can afford it,

and security for  the future, would discredit us in our own eyes and in the eyes of  those who hate and long to

be able to despise us.  But to reward the  insults and the robberies we have suffered, by the surrender of our

fortresses along the coast, in the national gulf, and on the banks of  the national river,and this and much

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Peruvian guanoislands, whose ignoble but coveted soil is open to  be plundered by all comers! 

If we could make a peace without dishonor, could we make one that  would be safe and lasting?  We could

have an armistice, no doubt,  long enough for the flesh of our wounded men to heal and their broken  bones to

knit together.  But could we expect a solid, substantial,  enduring peace, in which the grass would have time to

grow in the  warpaths, and the bruised arms to rust, as the old G. R. cannon  rusted in our State arsenal,

sleeping with their tompions in their  mouths, like so many sucking lambs?  It is not the question whether  the

same set of soldiers would be again summoned to the field.  Let  us take it for granted that we have seen

enough of the miseries of  warfare to last us for a while, and keep us contented with militia  musters and

shamfights.  The question is whether we could leave our  children and our children's children with any secure

trust that they  would not have to go through the very trials we are enduring,  probably on a more extended

scale and in a more aggravated form. 

It may be well to look at the prospects before us, if a peace is  established on the basis of Southern

independence, the only peace  possible, unless we choose to add ourselves to the four millions who  already

call the Southern whites their masters.  We know what the  prevailingwe do not mean universalspirit and

temper of those  people have been for generations, and what they are like to be after  a long and bitter warfare.

We know what their tone is to the people  of the North; if we do not, De Bow and Governor Hammond are

schoolmasters who will teach us to our heart's content.  We see how  easily their social organization adapts

itself to a state of warfare.  They breed a superior order of men for leaders, an ignorant  commonalty ready to

follow them as the vassals of feudal times  followed their lords; and a race of bondsmen, who, unless this war

changes them from chattels to human beings, will continue to add  vastly to their military strength in raising

their food, in building  their fortifications, in all the mechanical work of war, in fact,  except, it may be, the

handling of weapons.  The institution  proclaimed as the cornerstone of their government does violence not

merely to the precepts of religion, but to many of the best human  instincts, yet their fanaticism for it is as

sincere as any tribe of  the desert ever manifested for the faith of the Prophet of Allah.  They call themselves

by the same name as the Christians of the North,  yet there is as much difference between their Christianity

and that  of Wesley or of Channing, as between creeds that in past times have  vowed mutual extermination.

Still we must not call them barbarians  because they cherish an institution hostile to civilization.  Their  highest

culture stands out all the more brilliantly from the dark  background of ignorance against which it is seen; but

it would be  injustice to deny that they have always shone in political science,  or that their military capacity

makes them most formidable  antagonists, and that, however inferior they may be to their Northern

fellowcountrymen in most branches of literature and science, the  social elegances and personal graces lend

their outward show to the  best circles among their dominant class. 

Whom have we then for our neighbors, in case of separation,our  neighbors along a splintered line of

fracture extending for thousands  of miles,but the Saracens of the Nineteenth Century; a fierce,  intolerant,

fanatical people, the males of which will be a perpetual  standing army; hating us worse than the Southern

Hamilcar taught his  swarthy boy to hate the Romans; a people whose existence as a hostile  nation on our

frontier is incompatible with our peaceful development?  Their wealth, the proceeds of enforced labor,

multiplied by the  breaking up of new cottonfields, and in due time by the reopening of  the slavetrade, will

go to purchase arms, to construct fortresses,  to fit out navies.  The old Saracens, fanatics for a religion which

professed to grow by conquest, were a nation of predatory and  migrating warriors.  The Southern people,

fanatics for a system  essentially aggressive, conquering, wasting, which cannot remain  stationary, but must

grow by alternate appropriations of labor and of  land, will come to resemble their earlier prototypes.  Already,

even,  the insolence of their language to the people of the North is a close  imitation of the style which those

proud and arrogant Asiatics  affected toward all the nations of Europe.  What the "Christian dogs"  were to the

followers of Mahomet, the "accursed Yankees," the  "Northern mudsills" are to the followers of the Southern

Moloch.  The  accomplishments which we find in their choicer circles were  prefigured  in the court of the

chivalric Saladin, and the long train  of Painim  knights who rode forth to conquest under the Crescent.  In  all

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were filled with Arabian  teachers.  The heavens declare the glory of the Oriental astronomers,  as Algorab  and

Aldebaran repeat their Arabic names to the students of  the starry  firmament.  The sumptuous edifice erected

by the Art of  the nineteenth  century, to hold the treasures of its Industry, could  show nothing  fairer than the

court which copies the Moorish palace  that crowns the  summit of Granada.  Yet this was the power which

Charles the Hammer,  striking for Christianity and civilization, had  to break like a  potter's vessel; these were

the people whom Spain had  to utterly  extirpate from the land where they had ruled for centuries 

Prepare, then, if you unseal the vase which holds this dangerous  Afrit of Southern nationality, for a power on

your borders that will  be to you what the Saracens were to Europe before the son of Pepin  shattered their

armies, and flung the shards and shivers of their  broken strength upon the refuse heap of extinguished

barbarisms.  Prepare for the possible fate of Christian Spain; for a slavemarket  in Philadelphia; for the

Alhambra of a Southern caliph on the grounds  consecrated by the domestic virtues of a long line of

Presidents and  their exemplary families.  Remember the ages of border warfare  between England and

Scotland, closed at last by the union of the two  kingdoms.  Recollect the hunting of the deer on the Cheviot

hills,  and all that it led to; then think of the game which the dogs will  follow openmouthed across our

Southern border, and all that is like  to follow which the child may rue that is unborn; think of these

possibilities, or probabilities, if you will, and say whether you are  ready to make a peace which will give you

such a neighbor; which may  betray your civilization as that of half the Peninsula was given up  to the Moors;

which may leave your fair border provinces to be  crushed under the heel of a tyrant, as Holland was left to be

trodden  down by the Duke of Alva! 

No!  no!  fellowcitizens!  We must fight in this quarrel until one  side or the other is exhausted.  Rather than

suffer all that we have  poured out of our blood, all that we have lavished of our substance,  to have been

expended in vain, and to bequeath an unsettled question,  an unfinished conflict, an unavenged insult, an

unrighted wrong, a  stained escutcheon, a tarnished shield, a dishonored flag, an  unheroic memory to the

descendants of those who have always claimed  that their fathers were heroes; rather than do all this, it were

hardly an American exaggeration to say, better that the last man and  the last dollar should be followed by the

last woman and the last  dime, the last child and the last copper! 

There are those who profess to fear that our government is becoming  a  mere irresponsible tyranny.  If there

are any who really believe  that  our present Chief Magistrate means to found a dynasty for himself  and  family,

that a coup d'etat is in preparation by which he is to  become  ABRAHAM, DEI GRATIA REX,they cannot

have duly pondered his  letter  of June 12th, in which he unbosoms himself with the simplicity  of a  rustic lover

called upon by an anxious parent to explain his  intentions.  The force of his argument is not at all injured by

the  homeliness of his illustrations.  The American people are not much  afraid that their liberties will be

usurped.  An army of legislators  is not very likely to throw away its political privileges, and the  idea of a

despotism resting on an open ballotbox, is like that of  Bunker Hill Monument built on the waves of Boston

Harbor.  We know  pretty well how much of sincerity there is in the fears so  clamorously expressed, and how

far they are found in company with  uncompromising hostility to the armed enemies of the nation.  We have

learned to put a true value on the services of the watchdog who bays  the moon, but does not bite the thief! 

The men who are so busy holystoning the quarterdeck, while all  hands  are wanted to keep the ship afloat,

can no doubt show spots upon  it  that would be very unsightly in fair weather.  No thoroughly loyal  man,

however, need suffer from any arbitrary exercise of power, such  as emergencies always give rise to.  If any

halfloyal man forgets  his code of halfdecencies and halfduties so far as to become  obnoxious to the

peremptory justice which takes the place of slower  forms in all centres of conflagration, there is no sympathy

for him  among the soldiers who are risking their lives for us; perhaps there  is even more satisfaction than

when an avowed traitor is caught and  punished.  For of all men who are loathed by generous natures, such  as

fill the ranks of the armies of the Union, none are so thoroughly  loathed as the men who contrive to keep just

within the limits of the  law, while their whole conduct provokes others to break it; whose  patriotism consists

in stopping an inch short of treason, and whose  political morality has for its safeguard a just respect for the


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jailer and the hangman!  The simple preventive against all possible  injustice a citizen is like to suffer at the

hands of a government  which in its need and haste must of course commit many errors, is to  take care to do

nothing that will directly or indirectly help the  enemy, or hinder the government in carrying on the war.

When the  clamor against usurpation and tyranny comes from citizens who can  claim this negative merit, it

may be listened to.  When it comes from  those who have done what they could to serve their country, it will

receive the attention it deserves.  Doubtless there may prove to be  wrongs which demand righting, but the

pretence of any plan for  changing the essential principle of our selfgoverning system is a  figment which its

contrivers laugh over among themselves.  Do the  citizens of Harrisburg or of Philadelphia quarrel today

about the  strict legality of an executive act meant in good faith for their  protection against the invader?  We

are all citizens of Harrisburg,  all citizens of Philadelphia, in this hour of their peril, and with  the enemy at

work in our own harbors, we begin to understand the  difference between a good and bad citizen; the man that

helps and the  man that hinders; the man who, while the pirate is in sight,  complains that our anchor is

dragging in his mud, and the man who  violates the proprieties, like our brave Portland brothers, when they

jumped on board the first steamer they could reach, cut her cable,  and bore down on the corsair, with a habeas

corpus act that lodged  twenty buccaneers in Fort Preble before sunset! 

We cannot, then, we cannot be circling inward to be swallowed up in  the whirlpool of national destruction.  If

our borders are invaded,  it is only as the spur that is driven into the courser's flank to  rouse his slumbering

mettle.  If our property is taxed, it is only to  teach us that liberty is worth paying for as well as fighting for.

We  are pouring out the most generous blood of our youth and manhood;  alas! this is always the price that

must be paid for the redemption  of a people.  What have we to complain of, whose granaries are  choking with

plenty, whose streets are gay with shining robes and  glittering equipages, whose industry is abundant enough

to reap all  its overflowing harvest, yet sure of employment and of its just  reward, the soil of whose mighty

valleys is an inexhaustible mine of  fertility, whose mountains cover up such stores of heat and power,

imprisoned in their coal measures, as would warm all the inhabitants  and work all the machinery of our planet

for unnumbered ages, whose  rocks pour out rivers of oil, whose streams run yellow over beds of  golden

sand,what have we to complain of? 

Have we degenerated from our English fathers, so that we cannot do  and bear for our national salvation what

they have done and borne  over and over again for their form of government?  Could England, in  her wars with

Napoleon, bear an incometax of ten per cent., and must  we faint under the burden of an incometax of three

per cent.?  Was  she content to negotiate a loan at fiftythree for the hundred, and  that paid in depreciated

paper, and can we talk about financial ruin  with our national stocks ranging from one to eight or nine above

par,  and the "fivetwenty" war loan eagerly taken by our own people to the  amount of nearly two hundred

millions, without any check to the flow  of the current pressing inwards against the doors of the Treasury?

Except in those portions of the country which are the immediate seat  of war, or liable to be made so, and

which, having the greatest  interest not to become the border states of hostile nations, can best  afford to suffer

now, the state of prosperity and comfort is such as  to astonish those who visit us from other countries.  What

are war  taxes to a nation which, as we are assured on good authority, has  more men worth a million now than

it had worth ten thousand dollars  at the close of the Revolution,whose whole property is a hundred  times,

and whose commerce, inland and foreign, is five hundred times,  what it was then?  But we need not study Mr.

Still's pamphlet and  "Thompson's BankNote Reporter" to show us what we know well enough,  that, so far

from having occasion to tremble in fear of our impending  ruin, we must rather blush for our material

prosperity.  For the  multitudes who are unfortunate enough to be taxed for a million or  more, of course we

must feel deeply, at the same time suggesting that  the more largely they report their incomes to the

taxgatherer, the  more consolation they will find in the feeling that they have served  their country.  But,let

us say it plainly,it will not hurt our  people to be taught that there are other things to be cared for  besides

moneymaking and moneyspending; that the time has come when  manhood must assert itself by brave

deeds and noble thoughts; when  womanhood must assume its most sacred office, "to warn, to comfort,"  and,

if need be, "to command," those whose services their country  calls for.  This Northern section of the land has

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for what?  To put gilt bands on  coachmen's hats?  To sweep the foul sidewalks with the heaviest silks  which

the toiling artisans of France can send us?  To look through  plateglass windows, and pity the brown

soldiers,or sneer at the  black ones? to reduce the speed of trotting horses a second or two  below its old

minimum?  to color meerschaums?  to flaunt in laces,  and sparkle in diamonds?  to dredge our maidens' hair

with golddust?  to float through life, the passive shuttlecocks of fashion, from the  avenues to the beaches,

and back again from the beaches to the  avenues?  Was it for this that the broad domain of the Western

hemisphere was kept so long unvisited by civilization?for this,  that Time, the father of empires, unbound

the virgin zone of this  youngest of his daughters, and gave her, beautiful in the long veil  of her forests, to the

rude embrace of the adventurous Colonist?  All  this is what we see around us, now, now while we are actually

fighting this great battle, and supporting this great load of  indebtedness.  Wait till the diamonds go back to the

Jews of  Amsterdam; till the plateglass window bears the fatal announcement,  For Sale or to Let; till the

voice of our Miriam is obeyed, as she  sings, 

    "Weave no more silks, ye Lyons looms!"

till the golddust is combed from the golden locks, and hoarded to  buy bread; till the fastdriving youth

smokes his claypipe on the  platform of the horsecars; till the musicgrinders cease because  none will pay

them; till there are no peaches in the windows at  twentyfour dollars a dozen, and no heaps of bananas and

pineapples  selling at the streetcorners; till the tenflounced dress has but  three flounces, and it is felony to

drink champagne; wait till these  changes show themselves, the signs of deeper wants, the preludes of

exhaustion and bankruptcy; then let us talk of the Maelstrom;but  till then, let us not be cowards with our

purses, while brave men are  emptying their hearts upon the earth for us; let us not whine over  our imaginary

ruin, while the reversed current of circling events is  carrying us farther and farther, every hour, out of the

influence of  the great failing which was born of our wealth, and of the deadly sin  which was our fatal

inheritance! 

Let us take a brief general glance at the wide field of discussion  we  are just leaving. 

On Friday, the twelfth day of the month of April, in the year of  our  Lord eighteen hundred and sixtyone, at

halfpast four of the  clock  in the morning, a cannon was aimed and fired by the authority of  South Carolina

at the wall of a fortress belonging to the United  States.  Its ball carried with it the hatreds, the rages of thirty

years, shaped and cooled in the mould of malignant deliberation.  Its  wad was the charter of our national

existence.  Its muzzle was  pointed at the stone which bore the symbol of our national  sovereignty.  As the

echoes of its thunder died away, the telegraph  clicked one word through every office of the land.  That word

was  WAR! 

War is a child that devours its nurses one after another, until it  is  claimed by its true parents.  This war has

eaten its way backward  through all the technicalities of lawyers learned in the  infinitesimals of ordinances

and statutes; through all the  casuistries of divines, experts in the differential calculus of  conscience and duty;

until it stands revealed to all men as the  natural and inevitable conflict of two incompatible forms of

civilization, one or the other of which must dominate the central  zone of the continent, and eventually claim

the hemisphere for its  development. 

We have reached the region of those broad principles and large  axioms  which the wise Romans, the world's

lawgivers, always recognized  as  above all special enactments.  We have come to that solid  substratum

acknowledged by Grotius in his great Treatise:  "Necessity  itself  which reduces things to the mere right of

Nature."  The old  rules  which were enough for our guidance in quiet times, have become  as  meaningless "as

moonlight on the dial of the day."  We have  followed  precedents as long as they could guide us; now we must

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If we are frightened from our object by the money we have spent,  the  current prices of United States stocks

show that we value our  nationality at only a small fraction of our wealth.  If we feel that  we are paying too

dearly for it in the blood of our people, let us  recall those grand words of Samuel Adams: 

"I should advise persisting in our struggle for liberty, though it  were revealed from heaven that nine hundred

and ninetynine were to  perish, and only one of a thousand were to survive and retain his  liberty!" 

What we want now is a strong purpose; the purpose of Luther, when  he  said, in repeating his Pater Noster,

fiat voluntas MEA,let my  will  be done; though he considerately added, quia Tua,because my  will is

Thine.  We want the virile energy of determination which made  the  oath of Andrew Jackson sound so like the

devotion of an ardent  saint  that the recording angel might have entered it unquestioned  among the  prayers of

the faithful. 

War is a grim business.  Two years ago our women's fingers were  busy  making "Havelocks."  It seemed to us

then as if the Havelock made  half the soldier; and now we smile to think of those days of  inexperience and

illusion.  We know now what War means, and we cannot  look its dull, dead ghastliness in the face unless we

feel that there  is some great and noble principle behind it.  It makes little  difference what we thought we were

fighting for at first; we know  what we are fighting for now, and what we are fighting against. 

We are fighting for our existence.  We say to those who would take  back their several contributions to that

undivided unity which we  call the Nation; the bronze is cast; the statue is on its pedestal;  you cannot reclaim

the brass you flung into the crucible!  There are  rights, possessions, privileges, policies, relations, duties,

acquired, retained, called into existence in virtue of the principle  of absolute solidarity,belonging to the

United States as an organic  whole, which cannot be divided, which none of its constituent parties  can claim

as its own, which perish out of its living frame when the  wild forces of rebellion tear it limb from limb, and

which it must  defend, or confess selfgovernment itself a failure. 

We are fighting for that Constitution upon which our national  existence reposes, now subjected by those who

fired the scroll on  which it was written from the cannon at Fort Sumter, to all those  chances which the

necessities of war entail upon every human  arrangement, but still the venerable charter of our wide Republic. 

We cannot fight for these objects without attacking the one mother  cause of all the progeny of lesser

antagonisms.  Whether we know it  or not, whether we mean it or not, we cannot help fighting against  the

system that has proved the source of all those miseries which the  author of the Declaration of Independence

trembled to anticipate.  And  this ought to make us willing to do and to suffer cheerfully.  There  were Holy

Wars of old, in which it was glory enough to die,  wars in  which the one aim was to rescue the sepulchre of

Christ from  the hands  of infidels.  The sepulchre of Christ is not in Palestine!  He rose  from that burialplace

more than eighteen hundred years ago.  He is  crucified wherever his brothers are slain without cause; he  lies

buried wherever man, made in his Maker's image, is entombed in  ignorance lest he should learn the rights

which his Divine Master  gave him!  This is our Holy War, and we must fight it against that  great General who

will bring to it all the powers with which he  fought against the Almighty before he was cast down from

heaven.  He  has retained many a cunning advocate to recruit for him; he has  bribed many a smoothtongued

preacher to be his chaplain; he has  engaged the sordid by their avarice, the timid by their fears, the  profligate

by their love of adventure, and thousands of nobler  natures by motives which we can all understand; whose

delusion we  pity as we ought always to pity the error of those who know not what  they do.  Against him or for

him we are all called upon to declare  ourselves.  There is no neutrality for any single trueborn American.  If

any seek such a position, the stony finger of Dante's awful muse  points them to their place in the antechamber

of the Halls of  Despair, 

               With that ill band

     Of angels mixed, who nor rebellious proved,


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Nor yet were true to God, but for themselves

     Were only."

               Fame of them the world hath none

     Nor suffers; mercy and justice scorn them both.

     Speak not of them, but look, and pass them by."

We must use all the means which God has put into our hands to serve  him against the enemies of civilization.

We must make and keep the  great river free, whatever it costs us; it is strapping up the  forefoot of the wild,

untamable rebellion.  We must not be too nice  in the choice of our agents.  Non eget Mauri jaculis,no

African  bayonets wanted,was well enough while we did not yet know the might  of that desperate giant we

had to deal with; but Tros, Tyriusve,  white or black,is the safer motto now; for a good soldier, like a

good horse, cannot be of a bad color.  The ironskins, as well as the  ironclads, have already done us noble

service, and many a mother  will clasp the returning boy, many a wife will welcome back the war  worn

husband, whose smile would never again have gladdened his home,  but that, cold in the shallow trench of the

battlefield, lies the  halfburied form of the unchained bondsman whose dusky bosom sheathes  the bullet

which would else have claimed that darling as his  country's sacrifice 

We shall have success if we truly will success, not otherwise.  It  may be long in coming,Heaven only

knows through what trials and  humblings we may have to pass before the full strength of the nation  is duly

arrayed and led to victory.  We must be patient, as our  fathers were patient; even in our worst calamities, we

must remember  that defeat itself may be a gain where it costs our enemy more in  relation to his strength than

it costs ourselves.  But if, in the  inscrutable providence of the Almighty, this generation is  disappointed in its

lofty aspirations for the race, if we have not  virtue enough to ennoble our whole people, and make it a nation

of  sovereigns, we shall at least hold in undying honor those who  vindicated the insulted majesty of the

Republic, and struck at her  assailants so long as a drumbeat summoned them to the field of duty. 

Citizens of Boston, sons and daughters of New England, men and  women  of the North, brothers and sisters in

the bond of the American  Union,  you have among you the scarred and wasted soldiers who have  shed  their

blood for your temporal salvation.  They bore your nation's  emblems bravely through the fire and smoke of

the battlefield; nay,  their own bodies are starred with bulletwounds and striped with  sabrecuts, as if to

mark them as belonging to their country until  their dust becomes a portion of the soil which they defended.  In

every Northern graveyard slumber the victims of this destroying  struggle.  Many whom you remember

playing as children amidst the  cloverblossoms of our Northern fields, sleep under nameless mounds  with

strange Southern wildflowers blooming over them.  By those  wounds of living heroes, by those graves of

fallen martyrs, by the  hopes of your children, and the claims of your children's children  yet unborn, in the

name of outraged honor, in the interest of  violated sovereignty, for the life of an imperilled nation, for the

sake of men everywhere and of our common humanity, for the glory of  God and the advancement of his

kingdom on earth, your country calls  upon you to stand by her through good report and through evil  report,  in

triumph and in defeat, until she emerges from the great  war of  Western civilization, Queen of the broad

continent, Arbitress  in the  councils of earth's emancipated peoples; until the flag that  fell from  the wall of

Fort Sumter floats again inviolate, supreme,  over all her  ancient inheritance, every fortress, every capital,

every ship, and  this warring land is once more a, United Nation! 

CINDERS FROM THE ASHES.

The personal revelations contained in my report of certain  breakfast  table conversations were so charitably

listened to and so  good  naturedly interpreted, that I may be in danger of becoming over  communicative.

Still, I should never have ventured to tell the  trivial experiences here thrown together, were it not that my

brief  story is illuminated here and there by a glimpse of some shining  figure that trod the same path with me

for a time, or crossed it,  leaving a momentary or lasting brightness in its track.  I remember  that, in furnishing

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bedstead  and bureau.  "Make me a large and handsomely wrought gilded handle to  the key of that dark chest

of drawers," I said to the furnisher.  It  was done, and that one luminous point redeemed the sombre apartment

as the evening star glorifies the dusky firmament.  So, my loving  reader,and to none other can such

tabletalk as this be addressed,  I hope there will be lustre enough in one or other of the names with  which I

shall gild my page to redeem the dulness of all that is  merely personal in my recollections. 

After leaving the school of Dame Prentiss, best remembered by  infantine loves, those pretty preludes of more

serious passions; by  the great forfeitbasket, filled with its miscellaneous waifs and  deodauds, and by the

long willow stick by the aid of which the good  old body, now stricken in years and unwieldy in person could

stimulate the sluggish faculties or check the mischievous sallies of  the child most distant from his ample

chair,a school where I think  my most noted schoolmate was the present Bishop of Delaware, became  the

pupil of Master William Biglow.  This generation is not familiar  with his title to renown, although he fills

three columns and a half  in Mr. Duyckinck's "Cyclopaedia of American Literature."  He was a  humorist

hardly robust enough for more than a brief local  immortality. I am afraid we were an undistinguished set, for

I do not  remember anybody near a bishop in dignity graduating from our  benches. 

At about ten years of age I began going to what we always called  the  "Port School," because it was kept at

Cambridgeport, a mile from  the  College.  This suburb was at that time thinly inhabited, and,  being  much of it

marshy and imperfectly reclaimed, had a dreary look  as  compared with the thriving College settlement. The

tenants of the  many beautiful mansions that have sprung up along Main Street,  Harvard Street, and Broadway

can hardly recall the time when, except  the "Dana House" and the "Opposition House" and the "Clark

House,"  these roads were almost all the way bordered by pastures until we  reached the "stores" of Main

Street, or were abreast of that forlorn  "First Row" of Harvard Street.  We called the boys of that locality

"Portchucks."  They called us "Cambridgechucks," but we got along  very well together in the main. 

Among my schoolmates at the Port School was a young girl of  singular  loveliness. I once before referred to

her as "the golden  blonde," but  did not trust myself to describe her charms.  The day of  her  appearance in the

school was almost as much a revelation to us  boys  as the appearance of Miranda was to Caliban.  Her

abounding  natural  curls were so full of sunshine, her skin was so delicately  white, her  smile and her voice

were so allsubduing, that half our  heads were  turned.  Her fascinations were everywhere confessed a few

years  afterwards; and when I last met her, though she said she was a  grandmother, I questioned her statement,

for her winning looks and  ways would still have made her admired in any company. 

Not far from the golden blonde were two small boys, one of them  very  small, perhaps the youngest boy in

school, both ruddy, sturdy,  quiet,  reserved, sticking loyally by each other, the oldest, however,  beginning to

enter into social relations with us of somewhat maturer  years.  One of these two boys was destined to be

widely known, first  in literature, as author of one of the most popular books of its time  and which is freighted

for a long voyage; then as an eminent lawyer;  a man who, if his countrymen are wise, will yet be prominent

in the  national councils.  Richard Henry Dana, Junior, is the name he bore  and bears; he found it famous, and

will bequeath it a fresh renown. 

Sitting on the girls' benches, conspicuous among the schoolgirls  of  unlettered origin by that look which

rarely fails to betray  hereditary and congenital culture, was a young person very nearly of  my own age.  She

came with the reputation of being "smart," as we  should have called it, clever as we say nowadays.  This was

Margaret  Fuller, the only one among us who, like "Jean Paul," like "The Duke,"  like "Bettina," has slipped

the cable of the more distinctive name to  which she was anchored, and floats on the waves of speech as

"Margaret."  Her air to her schoolmates was marked by a certain  stateliness and distance, as if she had other

thoughts than theirs  and was not of them.  She was a great student and a great reader of  what she used to call

"nawvels."  I remember her so well as she  appeared at school and later, that I regret that she had not been

faithfully given to canvas or marble in the day of her best looks.  None know her aspect who have not seen her

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aquamarine lustre in her light eyes, which she used  to make small, as one does who looks at the sunshine.  A

remarkable  point about her was that long, flexile neck, arching and undulating  in strange sinuous movements,

which one who loved her would compare  to those of a swan, and one who loved her not to those of the

ophidian who tempted our common mother.  Her talk was affluent,  magisterial, de haut en bas, some would

say euphuistic, but  surpassing the talk of women in breadth and audacity.  Her face  kindled and reddened and

dilated in every feature as she spoke, and,  as I once saw her in a fine storm of indignation at the supposed ill

treatment of a relative, showed itself capable of something  resembling what Milton calls the viraginian

aspect. 

Little incidents bear telling when they recall anything of such a  celebrity as Margaret.  I remember being

greatly awed once, in our  schooldays, with the maturity of one of her expressions.  Some  themes were

brought home from the school for examination by my  father, among them one of hers.  I took it up with a

certain emulous  interest (for I fancied at that day that I too had drawn a prize, say  a fivedollar one, at least,

in the great intellectual lifelottery)  and read the first words. 

"It is a trite remark," she began. 

I stopped.  Alas! I did not know what trite meant.  How could I  ever  judge Margaret fairly after such a

crushing discovery of her  superiority?  I doubt if I ever did; yet oh, how pleasant it would  have been, at about

the age, say, of threescore and ten, to rake over  these ashes for cinders with her,she in a snowy cap, and I

in a  decent peruke! 

After being five years at the Port School, the time drew near when  I  was to enter college.  It seemed advisable

to give me a year of  higher training, and for that end some public school was thought to  offer advantages.

Phillips Academy at Andover was well known to us.  We had been up there, my father and myself, at

anniversaries.  Some  Boston boys of wellknown and distinguished parentage had been  scholars there very

lately, Master Edmund Quincy, Master Samuel Hurd  Walley, Master Nathaniel Parker Willis,all promising

youth, who  fulfilled their promise. 

I do not believe there was any thought of getting a little respite  of  quiet by my temporary absence, but I have

wondered that there was  not.  Exceptional boys of fourteen or fifteen make home a heaven, it  is true; but I

have suspected, late in life, that I was not one of  the exceptional kind.  I had tendencies in the direction of

flageolets and octave flutes.  I had a pistol and a gun, and popped  at everything that stirred, pretty nearly,

except the housecat.  Worse than this, I would buy a cigar and smoke it by instalments,  putting it meantime

in the barrel of my pistol, by a stroke of  ingenuity which it gives me a grim pleasure to recall; for no  maternal

or other female eyes would explore the cavity of that dread  implement in search of contraband commodities. 

It was settled, then, that I should go to Phillips Academy, and  preparations were made that I might join the

school at the beginning  of the autumn. 

In due time I took my departure in the old carriage, a little  modernized from the pattern of my Lady

Bountiful's, and we jogged  soberly along,kind parents and slightly nostalgic boy,towards the  seat of

learning, some twenty miles away.  Up the old West Cambridge  road, now North Avenue; past Davenport's

tavern, with its sheltering  tree and swinging sign; past the old powderhouse, looking like a  colossal conical

ball set on end; past the old Tidd House, one of the  finest of the anteRevolutionary mansions; past Miss

Swan's great  square boardingschool, where the music of girlish laughter was  ringing through the windy

corridors; so on to Stoneham, town of the  bright lake, then darkened with the recent memory of the barbarous

murder done by its lonely shore; through pleasant Reading, with its  oddly named village centres, "Trapelo,"

"Read'nwoodeend," as rustic  speech had it, and the rest; through Wilmington, then renowned for  its hops; so

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It was a shallow, twostory white house before which we stopped,  just  at the entrance of the central village,

the residence of a very  worthy professor in the theological seminary,learned, amiable,  exemplary, but

thought by certain experts to be a little questionable  in the matter of homoousianism, or some such doctrine.

There was a  great rock that showed its round back in the narrow front yard.  It  looked cold and hard; but it

hinted firmness and indifference to the  sentiments fast struggling to get uppermost in my youthful bosom; for

I was not too old for homesickness,who is: The carriage and my  fond companions had to leave me at last.

I saw it go down the  declivity that sloped southward, then climb the next ascent, then  sink gradually until the

window in the back of it disappeared like an  eye that shuts, and leaves the world dark to some widowed heart. 

Seasickness and homesickness are hard to deal with by any remedy  but time.  Mine was not a bad case, but

it excited sympathy.  There  was an ancient, faded old lady in the house, very kindly, but very  deaf, rustling

about in dark autumnal foliage of silk or other  murmurous fabric, somewhat given to snuff, but a very worthy

gentlewoman of the poorrelation variety.  She comforted me, I well  remember, but not with apples, and

stayed me, but not with flagons.  She went in her benevolence, and, taking a blue and white soda  powder,

mingled the same in water, and encouraged me to drink the  result.  It might be a specific for seasickness, but it

was not for  homesickness.  The fiz was a mockery, and the saline refrigerant  struck a colder chill to my

despondent heart.  I did not disgrace  myself, however, and a few days cured me, as a week on the water  often

cures seasickness. 

There was a soberfaced boy of minute dimensions in the house, who  began to make some advances to me,

and who, in spite of all the  conditions surrounding him, turned out, on better acquaintance, to be  one of the

most amusing, freespoken, mocking little imps I ever met  in my life.  My roommate came later.  He was the

son of a clergyman  in a neighboring town,in fact I may remark that I knew a good many  clergymen's sons

at Andover.  He and I went in harness together as  well as most boys do, I suspect; and I have no grudge

against him,  except that once, when I was slightly indisposed, he administered to  me,with the best

intentions, no doubt,a dose of Indian pills,  which effectually knocked me out of time, as Mr.  Morrissey

would  say,not quite into eternity, but so near it that I perfectly  remember one of the good ladies told me

(after I had come to my  senses a little, and was just ready for a sip of cordial and a word  of encouragement),

with that delightful plainness of speech which so  brings realities home to the imagination, that "I never

should look  any whiter when I was laid out as a corpse."  After my roommate and  I had been separated

twentyfive years, fate made us fellowtownsmen  and acquaintances once more in Berkshire, and now again

we are close  literary neighbors; for I have just read a very pleasant article,  signed by him, in the last number

of the "Galaxy."  Does it not  sometimes seem as if we were all marching round and round in a  circle, like the

supernumeraries who constitute the "army" of a  theatre, and that each of us meets and is met by the same and

only  the same people, or their doubles, twice, thrice, or a little  oftener, before the curtain drops and the

"army" puts off its  borrowed clothes? 

The old Academy building had a dreary look, with its flat face,  bare  and uninteresting as our own "University

Building" at Cambridge,  since the piazza which relieved its monotony was taken away, and, to  balance the

ugliness thus produced, the hideous projection was added  to "Harvard Hall."  Two masters sat at the end of

the great room,  the principal and his assistant.  Two others presided in separate  rooms, one of them the late

Rev. Samuel Horatio Stearns, an excellent  and lovable man, who looked kindly on me, and for whom I

always  cherished a sincere regard, a clergyman's son, too, which privilege I  did not always find the warrant of

signal virtues; but no matter  about that here, and I have promised myself to be amiable. 

On the side of the long room was a large clockdial, bearing these  words: 

          YOUTH IS THE SEEDTIME OF LIFE.

I had indulged in a prejudice, up to that hour, that youth was the  budding time of life, and this clockdial,

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I was put into a seat with an older and much bigger boy, or youth,  with a fuliginous complexion, a dilating

and whitening nostril, and a  singularly malignant scowl.  Many years afterwards he committed an  act of

murderous violence, and ended by going to finish his days in a  madhouse.  His delight was to kick my shins

with all his might, under  the desk, not at all as an act of hostility, but as a gratifying and  harmless pastime.

Finding this, so far as I was concerned, equally  devoid of pleasure and profit, I managed to get a seat by

another  boy, the son of a very distinguished divine.  He was bright enough,  and more select in his choice of

recreations, at least during school  hours, than my late homicidal neighbor.  But the principal called me  up

presently, and cautioned me against him as a dangerous companion.  Could it be so?  If the son of that boy's

father could not be  trusted, what boy in Christendom could?  It seemed like the story of  the youth doomed to

be slain by a lion before reaching a certain age,  and whose fate found him out in the heart of the tower where

his  father had shut him up for safety.  Here was I, in the very dove's  nest of Puritan faith, and out of one of its

eggs a serpent had been  hatched and was trying to nestle in my bosom!  I parted from him,  however, none the

worse for his companionship so far as I can  remember. 

Of the boys who were at school with me at Andover one has acquired  great distinction among the scholars of

the land.  One day I observed  a new boy in a seat not very far from my own.  He was a little  fellow, as I

recollect him, with black hair and very bright black  eyes, when at length I got a chance to look at them.  Of all

the new  comers during my whole year he was the only one whom the first glance  fixed in my memory, but

there he is now, at this moment, just as he  caught my eye on the morning of his entrance.  His head was

between  his hands (I wonder if he does not sometimes study in that same  posture nowadays!) and his eyes

were fastened to his book as if he  had been reading a will that made him heir to a million.  I feel sure  that

Professor Horatio Balch Hackett will not find fault with me for  writing his name under this inoffensive

portrait.  Thousands of faces  and forms that I have known more or less familiarly have faded from  my

remembrance, but this presentment of the youthful student, sitting  there entranced over the page of his

textbook,the childfather of  the distinguished scholar that was to be,is not a picture framed  and hung

up in my mind's gallery, but a fresco on its walls, there to  remain so long as they hold together. 

My especial intimate was a fine, rosyfaced boy, not quite so free  of  speech as myself, perhaps, but with

qualities that promised a noble  manhood, and ripened into it in due season.  His name was Phinehas  Barnes,

and, if he is inquired after in Portland or anywhere in the  State of Maine, something will be heard to his

advantage from any  honest and intelligent citizen of that Commonwealth who answers the  question.  This was

one of two or three friendships that lasted.  There were other friends and classmates, one of them a natural

humorist of the liveliest sort, who would have been quarantined in  any Puritan port, his laugh was so potently

contagious. 

Of the noted men of Andover the one whom I remember best was  Professor Moses Stuart.  His house was

nearly opposite the one in  which I resided and I often met him and listened to him in the chapel  of the

Seminary.  I have seen few more striking figures in my life  than his, as I remember it.  Tall, lean, with strong,

bold features,  a keen, scholarly, accipitrine nose, thin, expressive lips, great  solemnity and impressiveness of

voice and manner, he was my early  model of a classic orator.  His air was Roman, his neck long and bare  like

Cicero's, and his toga,that is his broadcloth cloak,was  carried on his arm, whatever might have been the

weather, with such a  statuelike rigid grace that he might have been turned into marble as  he stood, and

looked noble by the side of the antiques of the  Vatican. 

Dr. Porter was an invalid, with the prophetic handkerchief bundling  his throat, and his face "festooned"as I

heard Hillard say once,  speaking of one of our College professorsin folds and wrinkles.  Ill  health gives a

certain common character to all faces, as Nature  has a  fixed course which she follows in dismantling a human

countenance: the  noblest and the fairest is but a death'shead  decently covered over  for the transient

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Dr. Woods looked his creed more decidedly, perhaps, than any of the  Professors.  He had the firm fibre of a

theological athlete, and  lived to be old without ever mellowing, I think, into a kind of half  heterodoxy, as

old ministers of stern creed are said to do now and  then,just as old doctors grow to be sparing of the more

exasperating drugs in their later days.  He had manipulated the  mysteries of the Infinite so long and so

exhaustively, that he would  have seemed more at home among the mediaeval schoolmen than amidst  the

working clergy of our own time. 

All schools have their great men, for whose advent into life the  world is waiting in dumb expectancy.  In due

time the world seizes  upon these wondrous youth, opens the shell of their possibilities  like the valves of an

oyster, swallows them at a gulp, and they are  for the most part heard of no more.  We had two great men,

grown up  both of them.  Which was the more awful intellectual power to be  launched upon society, we

debated.  Time cut the knot in his rude  fashion by taking one away early, and padding the other with

prosperity so that his course was comparatively noiseless and  ineffective.  We had our societies, too; one in

particular, "The  Social Fraternity," the dread secrets of which I am under a lifelong  obligation never to reveal.

The fate of William Morgan, which the  community learned not long after this time, reminds me of the danger

of the ground upon which I am treading. 

There were various distractions to make the time not passed in  study  a season of relief.  One good lady, I was

told, was in the habit  of  asking students to her house on Saturday afternoons and praying  with  and for them.

Bodily exercise was not, however, entirely  superseded  by spiritual exercises, and a rudimentary form of

baseball  and the  heroic sport of football were followed with some spirit. 

A slight immature boy finds his materials of though and enjoyment  in  very shallow and simple sources.  Yet a

kind of romance gilds for  me  the sober tableland of that cold New England hill where I came in  contact with

a world so strange to me, and destined to leave such  mingled and lasting impressions.  I looked across the

valley to the  hillside where Methuen hung suspended, and dreamed of its wooded  seclusion as a village

paradise.  I tripped lightly down the long  northern slope with facilis descensus on my lips, and toiled up  again,

repeating sed revocare gradum.  I wandered' in the autumnal  woods that crown the "Indian Ridge," much

wondering at that vast  embankment, which we young philosophers believed with the vulgar to  be of

aboriginal workmanship, not less curious, perhaps, since we  call it an escar, and refer it to alluvial agencies.

The little  Shawshine was our swimmingschool, and the great Merrimack, the right  arm of four toiling cities,

was within reach of a morning stroll.  At  home we had the small imp to make us laugh at his enormities, for

he  spared nothing in his talk, and was the drollest little living  protest against the prevailing solemnities of the

locality.  It did  not take much to please us, I suspect, and it is a blessing that this  is apt to be so with young

people.  What else could have made us  think it great sport to leave our warm beds in the middle of winter  and

"camp out,"on the floor of our room,with blankets disposed  tentwise, except the fact that to a boy a

new discomfort in place of  an old comfort is often a luxury. 

More exciting occupation than any of these was to watch one of the  preceptors to see if he would not drop

dead while he was praying.  He  had a dream one night that he should, and looked upon it as a  warning, and

told it round very seriously, and asked the boys to come  and visit him in turn, as one whom they were soon to

lose.  More than  one boy kept his eye on him during his public devotions, possessed by  the same feeling the

man had who followed Van Amburgh about with the  expectation, let us not say the hope, of seeing the lion

bite his  head off sooner or later. 

Let me not forget to recall the interesting visit to Haverhill with  my roommate, and how he led me to the

mighty bridge over the  Merrimack which defied the icerafts of the river; and to the old  meetinghouse,

where, in its porch, I saw the door of the ancient  parsonage, with the bullethole in it through which

Benjamin Rolfe,  the minister, was shot by the Indians on the 29th of August, 1708.  What a vision it was

when I awoke in the morning to see the fog on  the river seeming as if it wrapped the towers and spires of a

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to inquire too nicely. 

My literary performances at Andover, if any reader who may have  survived so far cares to know, included a

translation from Virgil,  out of which I remember this couplet, which had the inevitable  cockney rhyme of

beginners: 

    "Thus by the power of Jove's imperial arm

     The boiling ocean trembled into calm."

Also a discussion with Master Phinehas Barnes on the case of Mary,  Queen of Scots, which he treated

argumentatively and I rhetorically  and sentimentally.  My sentences were praised and his conclusions  adopted.

Also an Essay, spoken at the great final exhibition, held  in the large hall upstairs, which hangs oddly enough

from the roof,  suspended by iron rods.  Subject, Fancy.  Treatment, brief but  comprehensive, illustrating the

magic power of that brilliant faculty  in charming life into forgetfulness of all the ills that flesh is  heir to,the

gift of Heaven to every condition and every clime, from  the captive in his dungeon to the monarch on his

throne; from the  burning sands of the desert to the frozen icebergs of the poles,  frombut I forget myself. 

This was the last of my coruscations at Andover.  I went from the  Academy to Harvard College, and did not

visit the sacred hill again  for a long time. 

On the last day of August, 1867, not having been at Andover , for  many years, I took the cars at noon, and in

an hour or a little more  found myself at the station,just at the foot of the hill.  My first  pilgrimage was to the

old elm, which I remembered so well as standing  by the tavern, and of which they used to tell the story that it

held,  buried in it by growth, the iron rings put round it in the old time  to keep the Indians from chopping it

with their tomahawks.  I then  began the once familiar toil of ascending the long declivity.  Academic villages

seem to change very slowly.  Once in a hundred  years the library burns down with all its books.  A new edifice

or  two may be put up, and a new library begun in the course of the same  century; but these places are poor,

for the most part, and cannot  afford to pull down their old barracks. 

These sentimental journeys to old haunts must be made alone.  The  story of them must be told succinctly.  It is

like the opiumsmoker's  showing you the pipe from which he has just inhaled elysian bliss,  empty of the

precious extract which has given him his dream. 

I did not care much for the new Academy building on my right, nor  for  the new library building on my left.

But for these it was  surprising  to see how little the scene I remembered in my boyhood had  changed.  The

Professors' houses looked just as they used to, and the  stage  coach landed its passengers at the Mansion

House as of old.  The pale  brick seminary buildings were behind me on the left, looking  as if  "Hollis" and

"Stoughton" had been transplanted from Cambridge,  carried there in the night by orthodox angels, perhaps,

like the  Santa Casa.  Away to my left again, but abreast of me, was the bleak,  bare old Academy building; and

in front of me stood unchanged the  shallow oblong white house where I lived a year in the days of James

Monroe and of John Quincy Adams. 

The ghost of a boy was at my side as I wandered among the places he  knew so well.  I went to the front of the

house.  There was the great  rock showing its broad back in the front yard.  I used to crack nuts  on that,

whispered the small ghost.  I looked in at the upper window  in the farther part of the house.  I looked out of

that on four long  changing seasons, said the ghost.  I should have liked to explore  farther, but, while I was

looking, one came into the small garden, or  what used to be the garden, in front of the house, and I desisted

from my investigation and went on my way.  The apparition that put me  and my little ghost to flight had a

dressinggown on its person and a  gun in its hand.  I think it was the dressinggown, and not the gun,  which

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And now here is the shop, or store, that used to be Shipman's,  after  passing what I think used to be Jonathan

Leavitt's bookbindery,  and  here is the back road that will lead me round by the old Academy  building. 

Could I believe my senses when I found that it was turned into a  gymnasium, and heard the low thunder of

ninepin balls, and the crash  of tumbling pins from those precincts?  The little ghost said, Never!  It cannot be.

But it was.  " Have they a billiardroom in the upper  story?" I asked myself.  "Do the theological professors

take a hand  at allfours or poker on weekdays, now and then, and read the secular  columns of the 'Boston

Recorder' on Sundays?" I was demoralized for  the moment, it is plain; but now that I have recovered from the

shock, I must say that the fact mentioned seems to show a great  advance in common sense from the notions

prevailing in my time. 

I sauntered,we, rather, my ghost and I,until we came to a  broken  field where there was quarrying and

digging going on,our old  base  ball ground, hard by the burialplace.  There I paused; and if  any

thoughtful boy who loves to tread in the footsteps that another  has  sown with memories of the time when he

was young shall follow my  footsteps, I need not ask him to rest here awhile, for he will be  enchained by the

noble view before him.  Far to the north and west  the mountains of New Hampshire lifted their summits in

along  encircling ridge of pale blue waves.  The day was clear, and every  mound and peak traced its outline

with perfect definition against the  sky.  This was a sight which had more virtue and refreshment in it  than any

aspect of nature that I had looked upon, I am afraid I must  say for years.  I have been by the seaside now and

then, but the sea  is constantly busy with its own affairs, running here and there,  listening to what the winds

have to say and getting angry with them,  always indifferent, often insolent, and ready to do a mischief to

those who seek its companionship.  But these still, serene,  unchanging mountains,Monadnock,

Kearsarge,what memories that name  recalls!and the others, the dateless Pyramids of New England, the

eternal monuments of her ancient race, around which cluster the homes  of so many of her bravest and

hardiest children,I can never look at  them without feeling that, vast and remote and awful as they are,  there

is a kind of inward heat and muffled throb in their stony  cores, that brings them into a vague sort of sympathy

with human  hearts.  It is more than a year since I have looked on those blue  mountains, and they "are to me as

a feeling " now, and have been ever  since. 

I had only to pass a wall and I was in the burialground.  It was  thinly tenanted as I remember it, but now

populous with the silent  immigrants of more than a whole generation.  There lay the dead I had  left, the two or

three students of the Seminary; the son of the  worthy pair in whose house I lived, for whom in those days

hearts  were still aching, and by whose memory the house still seemed  haunted.  A few upright stones were all

that I recollect.  But now,  around them were the monuments of many of the dead whom I remembered  as

living.  I doubt if there has been a more faithful reader of these  graven stones than myself for many a long

day.  I listened to more  than one brief sermon from preachers whom I had often heard as they  thundered their

doctrines down upon me from the thronelike desk.  Now  they spoke humbly out of the dust, from a narrower

pulpit, from  an  older text than any they ever found in Cruden's Concordance, but  there  was an eloquence in

their voices the listening chapel had never  known.  There were stately monuments and studied inscriptions,

but  none so  beautiful, none so touching, as that which hallows the  restingplace  of one of the children of the

very learned Professor  Robinson: "Is it  well with the child?  And she answered, It is well." 

While I was musing amidst these scenes in the mood of Hamlet, two  old  men, as my little ghost called them,

appeared on the scene to  answer  to the gravedigger and his companion.  They christened a  mountain or  two

for me, "Kearnsarge" among the rest, and revived some  old  recollections, of which the most curious was

"Basil's Cave."  The  story was recent, when I was there, of one Basil, or Bezill, or  Buzzell, or whatever his

name might have been, a member of the  Academy, fabulously rich, Orientally extravagant, and of more or

less  lawless habits.  He had commanded a cave to be secretly dug, and  furnished it sumptuously, and there

with his companions indulged in  revelries such as the daylight of that consecrated locality had never  looked

upon.  How much truth there was in it all I will not pretend  to say, but I seem to remember stamping over

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The sun was getting far past the meridian, and I sought a shelter  under which to partake of the hermit fare I

had brought with me.  Following the slope of the hill northward behind the cemetery, I  found a pleasant clump

of trees grouped about some rocks, disposed so  as to give a seat, a table, and a shade.  I left my benediction on

this pretty little natural caravansera, and a brief record on one of  its white birches, hoping to visit it again on

some sweet summer or  autumn day. 

Two scenes remained to look upon,the Shawshine River and the  Indian  Ridge.  The streamlet proved to

have about the width with which  it  flowed through my memory.  The young men and the boys were bathing  in

its shallow current, or dressing and undressing upon its banks as  in  the days of old; the same river, only the

water changed; "The same  boys, only the names and the accidents of local memory different," I  whispered to

my little ghost. 

The Indian Ridge more than equalled what I expected of it.  It is  well worth a long ride to visit.  The lofty

wooded bank is a mile and  a half in extent, with other ridges in its neighborhood, in general  running nearly

parallel with it, one of them still longer.  These  singular formations are supposed to have been built up by the

eddies  of conflicting currents scattering sand and gravel and stones as they  swept over the continent.  But I

think they pleased me better when I  was taught that the Indians built them; and while I thank Professor

Hitchcock, I sometimes feel as if I should like to found a chair to  teach the ignorance of what people do not

want to know. 

"Two tickets to Boston."  I said to the man at the station. 

But the little ghost whispered, "When you leave this place you  leave  me behind you." 

"One ticket to Boston, if you please.  Good by, little ghost." 

I believe the boyshadow still lingers around the wellremembered  scenes I traversed on that day, and that,

whenever I revisit them, I  shall find him again as my companion. 

THE PULPIT AND THE PEW.

The priest is dead for the Protestant world.  Luther's inkstand did  not kill the devil, but it killed the priest, at

least for us: He is  a loss in many respects to be regretted.  He kept alive the spirit of  reverence.  He was looked

up to as possessing qualities superhuman in  their nature, and so was competent to be the stay of the weak and

their defence against the strong.  If one end of religion is to make  men happier in this world as well as in the

next, mankind lost a  great source of happiness when the priest was reduced to the common  level of humanity,

and became only a minister.  Priest, which was  presbyter, corresponded to senator, and was a title to respect

and  honor.  Minister is but the diminutive of magister, and implies an  obligation to render service. 

It was promised to the first preachers that in proof of their  divine  mission they should have the power of

casting out devils and  talking  in strange tongues; that they should handle serpents and drink  poisons with

impunity; that they should lay hands on the sick and  they should recover.  The Roman Church claims some of

these powers  for its clergy and its sacred objects to this day.  Miracles, it is  professed, are wrought by them, or

through them, as in the days of  the apostles.  Protestantism proclaims that the age of such  occurrences as the

apostles witnessed is past.  What does it know  about miracles?  It knows a great many records of miracles, but

this  is a different kind of knowledge. 

The minister may be revered for his character, followed for his  eloquence, admired for his learning, loved for

his amiable qualities,  but he can never be what the priest was in past ages, and is still,  in the Roman Church.

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notion of a priest is this: that he is a person made necessary to our  intercourse with God, without being

necessary or beneficial to us  morally,an unreasonable, immoral, spiritual necessity."  He did not  mean, of

course, that the priest might not have all the qualities  which would recommend him as a teacher or as a man,

but that he had a  special power, quite independent of his personal character, which  could act, as it were,

mechanically; that out of him went a virtue,  as from the hem of his Master's raiment, to those with whom his

sacred office brought him in contact. 

It was a great comfort to poor helpless human beings to have a  tangible personality of like nature with

themselves as a mediator  between them and the heavenly powers.  Sympathy can do much for the  sorrowing,

the suffering, the dying, but to hear God himself speaking  directly through human lips, to feel the touch of a

hand which is the  channel of communication with the unseen Omnipotent, this was and is  the privilege of

those who looked and those who still look up to a  priesthood.  It has been said, and many who have walked

the hospitals  or served in the dispensaries can bear witness to the truth of the  assertion, that the Roman

Catholics know how to die.  The same thing  is less confidently to be said of Protestants.  How frequently is the

story told of the most exemplary Protestant Christians, nay, how  common is it to read in the lives of the most

exemplary Protestant  ministers, that they were beset with doubts and terrors in their last  days!  The blessing of

the viaticum is unknown to them.  Man is  essentially an idolater,that is, in bondage to his imagination,

for there is no more harm in the Greek word eidolon than in the Latin  word imago.  He wants a visible image

to fix his thought, a scarabee  or a crux ansata, or the modern symbols which are to our own time  what these

were to the ancient Egyptians.  He wants a vicegerent of  the Almighty to take his dying hand and bid him

godspeed on his last  journey.  Who but such an immediate representative of the Divinity  would have dared to

say to the monarch just laying his head on the  block, "Fils de Saint Louis, monte au ciel"? 

It has been a long and gradual process to thoroughly republicanize  the American Protestant descendant of the

ancient priesthood.  The  history of the Congregationalists in New England would show us how  this change

has gone on, until we have seen the church become a hall  open to all sorts of purposes, the pulpit come down

to the level of  the rostrum, and the clergyman take on the character of a popular  lecturer who deals with every

kind of subject, including religion. 

Whatever fault we may find with many of their beliefs, we have a  right to be proud of our Pilgrim and Puritan

fathers among the  clergy.  They were ready to do and to suffer anything for their  faith, and a faith which

breeds heroes is better than an unbelief  which leaves nothing worth being a hero for.  Only let us be fair,  and

not defend the creed of Mohammed because it nurtured brave men  and enlightened scholars, or refrain from

condemning polygamy in our  admiration of the indomitable spirit and perseverance of the Pilgrim  Fathers of

Mormonism, or justify an inhuman belief, or a cruel or  foolish superstition, because it was once held or

acquiesced in by  men whose nobility of character we heartily recognize.  The New  England clergy can look

back to a noble record, but the pulpit has  sometimes required a homily from the pew, and may sometimes

find it  worth its while to listen to one even in our own days. 

>From the settlement of the country to the present time, the  ministers  have furnished the highest type of

character to the people  among whom  they have lived.  They have lost to a considerable extent  the  position of

leaders, but if they are in our times rather to be  looked  upon as representatives of their congregations, they

represent  what  is best among those of whom they are the speaking organs.  We  have a  right to expect them to

be models as well as teachers of all  that  makes the best citizens for this world and the next, and they  have  not

been, and are not in these later days unworthy of their high  calling.  They have worked hard for small earthly

compensation.  They  have been the most learned men the country had to show, when learning  was a scarce

commodity.  Called by their consciences to selfdenying  labors, living simply, often halfsupported by the

toil of their own  hands, they have let the light, such light as shone for them, into  the minds of our

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Their work has not been confined to their professional duties, as a  few instances will illustrate.  Often, as was

just said, they toiled  like daylaborers, teasing lean harvests out of their small  inclosures of land, for the New

England soil is not one that "laughs  when tickled with a hoe," but rather one that sulks when appealed to  with

that persuasive implement.  The father of the eminent Boston  physician whose recent loss is so deeply

regretted, the Reverend Pitt  Clarke, fortytwo years pastor of the small fold in the town of  Norton,

Massachusetts, was a typical example of this union of the two  callings, and it would be hard to find a story of

a more wholesome  and useful life, within a limited and isolated circle, than that  which the pious care of one

of his children commemorated.  Sometimes  the New England minister, like worthy Mr. Ward of

StratfordonAvon,  in old England, joined the practice of medicine to the offices of his  holy profession.

Michael Wigglesworth, the poet of "The Day of  Doom," and Charles Chauncy, the second president of

Harvard College,  were instances of this twofold service.  In politics their influence  has always been felt, and

in many cases their drums ecclesiastic have  beaten the reveille as vigorously, and to as good purpose, as it

ever  sounded in the slumbering camp.  Samuel Cooper sat in council with  the leaders of the Revolution in

Boston.  The three Northamptonborn  brothers Allen, Thomas, Moses, and Solomon, lifted their voices, and,

when needed, their armed hands, in the cause of liberty.  In later  days, Elijah Parish and David Osgood carried

politics into their  pulpits as boldly as their antislavery successors have done in times  still more recent. 

The learning, the personal character, the sacredness of their  office,  tended, to give the New England clergy of

past generations a  kind of  aristocratic dignity, a personal grandeur, much more felt in  the days  when class

distinctions were recognized less unwillingly than  at  present.  Their costume added to the effect of their bodily

presence,  as the old portraits illustrate for us, as those of us who  remember  the last of the "fair, white, curly"

wigs, as it graced the  imposing  figure of the Reverend Dr. Marsh of Wethersfield,  Connecticut, can  testify.

They were not only learned in the history  of the past, but  they were the interpreters of the prophecy, and

announced coming  events with a confidence equal to that with which the  weatherbureau  warns us of a

coming storm.  The numbers of the book of  Daniel and  the visions of the Revelation were not too hard for

them.  In the  commonplace book of the Reverend Joel Benedict is to be found  the  following record, made, as

it appears, about the year 1773:  "Conversing with Dr. Bellamy upon the downfall of Antichrist, after  many

things had been said upon the subject, the Doctor began to warm,  and uttered himself after this manner: 'Tell

your children to tell  their children that in the year 1866 something notable will happen in  the church; tell

them the old man says so.'" 

The "old man" came pretty near hitting the mark, as we shall see if  we consider what took place in the decade

from 1860 to 1870.  In 1864  the Pope issued the "Syllabus of Errors," which "must be considered  by

Romanistsas an infallible official document, and which arrays  the papacy in open war against modern

civilization and civil and  religious freedom."  The Vatican Council in 1870 declared the Pope to  be the bishop

of bishops, and immediately after this began the  decisive movement of the party known as the "Old

Catholics."  In the  exact year looked forward to by the New England prophet, 1866, the  evacuation of Rome

by the French and the publication of "Ecce Homo"  appear to be the most remarkable events having Special

relation to  the religious world.  Perhaps the National Council of the  Congregationalists, held at Boston in

1865, may be reckoned as one of  the occurrences which the oracle just missed. 

The confidence, if not the spirit of prophecy, lasted down to a  later  period.  "In half a century," said the

venerable Dr. Porter of  Conway, New Hampshire, in 1822, "there will be no Pagans, Jews,  Mohammedans,

Unitarians, or Methodists."  The halfcentury has more  than elapsed, and the prediction seems to stand in

need of an  extension, like many other prophetic utterances. 

The story is told of David Osgood, the shaggybrowed old minister  of  Medford, that he had expressed his

belief that not more than one  soul  in two thousand would be saved.  Seeing a knot of his  parishioners in

debate, he asked them what they were discussing, and  was told that  they were questioning which of the

Medford people was  the elected  one, the population being just two thousand, and that  opinion was  divided

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illustrates the  popular belief of those days, that the clergyman saw a  good deal  farther into the councils of the

Almighty than his  successors could  claim the power of doing. 

The objects about me, as I am writing, call to mind the varied  accomplishments of some of the New England

clergy.  The face of the  Revolutionary preacher, Samuel Cooper, as Copley painted it, looks  upon me with the

pleasantest of smiles and a liveliness of expression  which makes him seem a contemporary after a hundred

years' experience  of eternity.  The Plato on this lower shelf bears the inscription:"  Ezroe Stiles, 1766.  Olim e

libris Rev. Jaredis Eliot de  Killingworth."  Both were noted scholars and philosophers.  The hand  lens before

me was imported, with other philosophical instruments, by  the Reverend John Prince of Salem, an earlier

student of science in  the town since distinguished by the labors of the Essex Institute.  Jeremy Belknap holds

an honored place in that unpretending row of  local historians.  And in the pages of his "History of New

Hampshire"  may be found a chapter contributed in part by the most remarkable  man, in many respects,

among all the older clergymen preacher,  lawyer, physician, astronomer, botanist, entomologist, explorer,

colonist, legislator in state and national governments, and only not  seated on the bench of the Supreme Court

of a Territory because he  declined the office when Washington offered it to him.  This manifold  individual

was the minister of Hamilton, a pleasant little town in  Essex County, Massachusetts,the Reverend

Manasseh Cutler.  These  reminiscences from surrounding objects came up unexpectedly, of  themselves: and

have a right here, as showing how wide is the range  of intelligence in the clerical body thus accidentally

represented in  a single library making no special pretensions. 

It is not so exalted a claim to make for them, but it may be added  that they were often the wits and humorists

of their localities.  Mather Byles's facetie are among the colonial classic reminiscences.  But these were, for the

most part, verbal quips and quibbles.  True  humor is an outgrowth of character.  It is never found in greater

perfection than in old clergymen and old college professors.  Dr.  Sprague's "Annals of the American Pulpit"

tells many stories of our  old ministers as good as Dean Ramsay's "Scottish Reminiscences."  He  has not

recorded the following, which is to be found in Miss Larned's  excellent and most interesting History of

Windham County,  Connecticut.  The Reverend Josiah Dwight was the minister of  Woodstock, Connecticut,

about the year 1700.  He was not old, it is  true, but he must have caught the ways of the old ministers.  The

"sensational" pulpit of our own time could hardly surpass him in the  drollery of its expressions.  A specimen

or two may dispose the  reader to turn over the pages which follow in a goodnatured frame of  mind.  "If

unconverted men ever got to heaven," he said, "they would  feel as uneasy as a shad up the crotch of a

whiteoak."  Some of his  ministerial associates took offence at his eccentricities, and called  on a visit of

admonition to the offending clergyman.  " Mr. Dwight  received their reproofs with great meekness, frankly

acknowledged his  faults, and promised amendment, but, in prayer at parting, after  returning thanks for the

brotherly visit and admonition, 'hoped that  they might so hitch their horses on earth that they should never

kick  in the stables of everlasting salvation.'" 

It is a good thing to have some of the blood of one of these old  ministers in one's veins.  An English bishop

proclaimed the fact  before an assembly of physicians the other day that he was not  ashamed to say that he had

a son who was a doctor.  Very kind that  was in the bishop, and very proud his medical audience must have

felt.  Perhaps he was not ashamed of the Gospel of Luke, "the beloved  physician," or even of the teachings

which came from the lips of one  who was a carpenter, and the son of a carpenter.  So a NewEnglander,  even

if he were a bishop, need not be ashamed to say that he  consented to have an ancestor who was a minister.  On

the contrary,  he has a right to be grateful for a probable inheritance of good  instincts, a good name, and a

bringing up in a library where he  bumped about among books from the time when he was hardly taller than

one of his father's or grandfather's folios.  What are the names of  ministers' sons which most readily occur to

our memory as  illustrating these advantages?  Edward Everett, Joseph Stevens  Buckminster, Ralph Waldo

Emerson, George Bancroft, Richard Hildreth,  James Russell Lowell, Francis Parkman, Charles Eliot Norton,

were all  ministers' boys.  John Lothrop Motley was the grandson of the  clergyman after whom he was named.

George Ticknor was next door to  such a descent, for his father was a deacon.  This is a group which  it did not

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Men such as the ministers who have been described could not fail to  exercise a good deal of authority in the

communities to which they  belonged.  The effect of the Revolution must have been to create a  tendency to

rebel against spiritual dictation.  Republicanism levels  in religion as in everything.  It might have been

expected,  therefore, that soon after civil liberty had been established there  would be conflicts between the

traditional, authority of the minister  and the claims of the now free and independent congregation.  So it  was,

in fact, as for instance in the case which follows, for which  the reader is indebted to Miss Lamed's book,

before cited. 

The ministerial veto allowed by the Saybrook Platform gave rise, in  the year 1792, to a fierce conflict in the

town of Pomfret,  Connecticut.  Zephaniah Swift, a lawyer of Windham, came out in the  Windham "Herald,"

in all the vehemence of partisan phraseology, with  all the emphasis of italics and small capitals.  Was it not

time, he  said, for people to look about them and see whether "such despotism  was founded in Scripture, in

reason, in policy, or on the rights of  man!  A minister, by his vote, by his single voice, may negative the

unanimous vote of the church!  Are ministers composed of finer clay  than the rest of mankind, that entitles

them to this preeminence?  Does a license to preach transform a man into a higher order of  beings and endow

him with a natural quality to govern?  Are the laity  an inferior order of beings, fit only to be slaves and to be

governed?  Is it good policy for mankind to subject themselves to  such degrading vassalage and abject

submission?  Reason, common  sense, and the Bible, with united voice, proclaim to all mankind that  they are

all born free and equal; that every member of a church or  Christian congregation must be on the same footing

in respect of  church government, and that the CONSTITUTION, which delegates to one  the power to

negative the vote of all the rest, is SUBVERSIVE OF THE  NATURAL RIGHT OF MANKIND AND

REPUGNANT TO THE WORD OF GOD." 

The Reverend Mr.  Welch replied to the lawyer's attack, pronouncing  him to be "destitute of delicacy,

decency, good manners, sound  judgment, honesty, manhood, and humanity; a poltroon, a cat'spaw,  the

infamous tool of a party, a partisan, a political weathercock,  and a ragamuffin." 

No FourthofJuly orator would in our day rant like the lawyer, and  no clergyman would use such language

as that of the Reverend Moses  Welch.  The clergy have been pretty well republicanized within that  last two or

three generations, and are not likely to provoke quarrels  by assertion of their special dignities or privileges.

The public is  better bred than to carry on an ecclesiastical controversy in terms  which political brawlers

would hardly think admissible.  The minister  of religion is generally treated with something more than

respect; he  is allowed to say undisputed what would be sharply controverted in  anybody else.  Bishop Gilbert

Haven, of happy memory, had been  discussing a religious subject with a friend who was not convinced by  his

arguments.  "Wait till you hear me from the pulpit," he said;  "there you cannot answer me."  The preacherif

I may use an image  which would hardly have suggested itself to himhas his hearer's  head in chancery, and

can administer punishment ad libitum.  False  facts, false reasoning, bad rhetoric, bad grammar, stale images,

borrowed passages, if not borrowed sermons, are listened to without a  word of comment or a look of

disapprobation. 

One of the ablest and most conscientiously laborious of our  clergymen  has lately ventured to question

whether all his professional  brethren  invariably give utterance to their sincerest beliefs, and has  been  sharply

criticised for so doing.  The layman, who sits silent in  his  pew, has his rights when out of it, and among them

is the right of  questioning that which has been addressed to him from the privileged  eminence of the pulpit, or

in any way sanctioned by his religious  teacher.  It is nearly two hundred years since a Boston layman wrote

these words: "I am not ignorant that the pious frauds of the ancient,  and the inbred fire (I do not call it pride)

of many of our modern  divines, have precipitated them to propagate and maintain truth as  well as falsehoods,

in such an unfair manner as has given advantage  to the enemy to suspect the whole doctrine these men have

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So wrote Robert Calef, the Boston merchant, whose book the Reverend  Increase Mather, president of

Harvard College, burned publicly in the  college yard.  But the pity of it is that the layman had not cried  out

earlier and louder, and saved the community from the horror of  those judicial murders for witchcraft, the

blame of which was so  largely attributable to the clergy. 

Perhaps no, laymen have given the clergy more trouble than the  doctors.  The old reproach against physicians,

that where there were  three of them together there were two atheists, had a real  significance, but not that

which was intended by the sharptongued  ecclesiastic who first uttered it.  Undoubtedly there is a strong

tendency in the pursuits of the medical profession to produce  disbelief in that figment of tradition and

diseased human imagination  which has been installed in the seat of divinity by the priesthood of  cruel and

ignorant ages.  It is impossible, or at least very  difficult, for a physician who has seen the perpetual efforts of

Naturewhose diary is the book he reads oftenestto heal wounds, to  expel poisons, to do the best that can

be done under the given  conditions,it is very difficult for him to believe in a world where  wounds cannot

heal, where opiates cannot give a respite from pain,  where sleep never comes with its sweet oblivion of

suffering, where  the art of torture is the only science cultivated, and the capacity  for being tormented is the

only faculty which remains to the children  of that same Father who cares for the falling sparrow.  The Deity

has  often been pictured as Moloch, and the physician has, no doubt,  frequently repudiated him as a

monstrosity. 

On the other hand, the physician has often been renowned for piety  as  well as for his peculiarly professional

virtue of charity,led  upward by what he sees to the source of all the daily marvels wrought  before his own

eyes.  So it was that Galen gave utterance to that  psalm of praise which the sweet singer of Israel need not

have been  ashamed of; and if this "heathen" could be lifted into such a strain  of devotion, we need not be

surprised to find so many devout  Christian worshippers among the crowd of medical "atheists." 

No two professions should come into such intimate and cordial  relations as those to which belong the healers

of the body and the  headers of the mind.  There can be no more fatal mistake than that  which brings them into

hostile attitudes with reference to each  other, both having in view the welfare of their fellowcreatures.  But

there is a territory always liable to be differed about between  them.  There are patients who never tell their

physician the grief  which  lies at the bottom of their ailments.  He goes through his  accustomed  routine with

them, and thinks he has all the elements  needed for his  diagnosis.  But he has seen no deeper into the breast

than the tongue,  and got no nearer the heart than the wrist.  A wise  and experienced  clergyman, coming to the

patient's bedside,not with  the professional  look on his face which suggests the undertaker and  the sexton,

but  with a serene countenance and a sympathetic voice,  with tact, with  patience, waiting for the right

moment,will  surprise the shy spirit  into a confession of the doubt, the sorrow,  the shame, the remorse,  the

terror which underlies all the bodily  symptoms, and the  unburdening of which into a loving and pitying soul

is a more potent  anodyne than all the drowsy sirups of the world.  And, on the other  hand, there are many

nervous and oversensitive  natures which have  been wrought up by selftorturing spiritual  exercises until

their best  confessor would be a sagacious and  wholesomeminded physician. 

Suppose a person to have become so excited by religious stimulants  that he is subject to what are known to

the records of insanity as  hallucinations: that he hears voices whispering blasphemy in his  ears, and sees

devils coming to meet him, and thinks he is going to  be torn in pieces, or trodden into the mire.  Suppose that

his mental  conflicts, after plunging him into the depths of despondency, at last  reduce him to a state of

despair, so that he now contemplates taking  his own life, and debates with himself whether it shall be by

knife,  halter, or poison, and after much questioning is apparently making up  his mind to commit suicide.  Is

not this a manifest case of insanity,  in the form known as melancholia?  Would not any prudent physician

keep such a person under the eye of constant watchers, as in a  dangerous state of, at least, partial mental

alienation?  Yet this is  an exact transcript of the mental condition of Christian in  "Pilgrim's Progress," and its

counterpart has been found in thousands  of wretched lives terminated by the act of selfdestruction, which

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taken is, next to the Bible  and the Treatise of "De Imitatione Christi," the bestknown religious  work of

Christendom.  If Bunyan and his contemporary, Sydenham, had  met in consultation over the case of Christian

at the time when be  was meditating selfmurder, it is very possible that there might have  been a difference of

judgment.  The physician would have one  advantage in such a consultation.  He would pretty certainly have

received a Christian education, while the clergyman would probably  know next to nothing of the laws or

manifestations of mental or  bodily disease.  It does not seem as if any theological student was  really prepared

for his practical duties until he had learned  something of the effects of bodily derangements, and, above all,

had  become familiar with the gamut of mental discord in the wards of an  insane asylum. 

It is a very thoughtless thing to say that the physician stands to  the divine in the same light as the divine

stands to the physician,  so far as each may attempt to handle subjects belonging especially to  the other's

profession.  Many physicians know a great deal more about  religious matters than they do about medicine.

They have read the  Bible ten times as much as they ever read any medical author.  They  have heard scores of

sermons for one medical lecture to which they  have listened.  They often hear much better preaching than the

average minister, for he hears himself chiefly, and they hear abler  men and a variety of them.  They have now

and then been distinguished  in theology as well as in their own profession.  The name of Servetus  might call

up unpleasant recollections, but that of another medical  practitioner may be safely mentioned.  "It was not till

the middle of  the last century that the question as to the authorship of the  Pentateuch was handled with

anything like a discerning criticism.  The  first attempt was made by a layman, whose studies we might have

supposed would scarcely have led him to such an investigation."  This  layman was "Astruc, doctor and

professor of medicine in the Royal  College at Paris, and court physician to Louis XIV."  The quotation  is from

the article "Pentateuch" in Smith's "Dictionary of the  Bible," which, of course, lies on the table of the least

instructed  clergyman.  The sacred profession has, it is true, returned the favor  by giving the practitioner of

medicine Bishop Berkeley's "Treatise on  Tarwater," and the invaluable prescription of that "aged clergyman

whose sands of life"but let us be fair, if not generous, and  remember that Cotton Mather shares with

Zabdiel Boylston the credit  of introducing the practice of inoculation into America.  The  professions should

be cordial allies, but the churchgoing, Bible  reading physician ought to know a great deal more of the

subjects  included under the general name of theology than the clergyman can be  expected to know of

medicine.  To say, as has been said not long  since, that a young divinity student is as competent to deal with

the  latter as an old physician is to meddle with the former, suggests the  idea that wisdom is not an heirloom in

the family of the one who says  it.  What a set of idiots our clerical teachers must have been and  be, if, after a

quarter or half a century of their instruction, a  person of fair intelligence is utterly incompetent to form any

opinion about the subjects which they have been teaching, or trying  to teach him, so long! 

A minister must find it very hard work to preach to hearers who do  not believe, or only half believe, what he

preaches.  But pews  without heads in them are a still more depressing spectacle.  He may  convince the doubter

and reform the profligate.  But he cannot  produce any change on pine and mahogany by his discourses, and

the  more wood he sees as he looks along his floor and galleries, the less  his chance of being useful.  It is

natural that in times like the  present changes of faith and of place of worship should be far from  infrequent.  It

is not less natural that there should be regrets on  one side and gratification on the other, when such changes

occur.  It  even happens occasionally that the regrets become aggravated into  reproaches, rarely from the side

which receives the new accessions,  less rarely from the one which is left.  It is quite conceivable that  the

Roman Church, which considers itself the only true one, should  look on those who leave its communion as

guilty of a great offence.  It is equally natural that a church which considers Pope and Pagan a  pair of

murderous giants, sitting at the mouths of their caves, alike  in their hatred to true Christians, should regard

any of its members  who go over to Romanism as lost in fatal error.  But within the  Protestant fold there are

many compartments, and it would seem that  it is not a deadly defection to pass from one to another. 

So far from such exchanges between sects being wrong, they ought to  happen a great deal oftener than they

do.  All the larger bodies of  Christians should be constantly exchanging members.  All men are born  with

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Some wear their  fathers' old clothes, and some will have a new suit.  One class of  men must have their faith

hammered in like a nail, by authority;  another class must have it worked in like a screw, by argument.

Members of one of these classes often find themselves fixed by  circumstances in the other.  The late Orestes

A.  Brownson used to  preach at one time to a little handful of persons, in a small upper  room, where some of

them got from him their first lesson about the  substitution of reverence for idolatry, in dealing with the books

they hold sacred.  But after a time Mr.  Brownson found he had  mistaken his church, and went over to the

Roman Catholic  establishment, of which he became and remained to his dying day one  of the most stalwart

champions.  Nature is prolific and ambidextrous.  While this strong convert was trying to carry us back to the

ancient  faith, another of her sturdy children, Theodore Parker, was trying  just as hard to provide a new church

for the future.  One was driving  the sheep into the ancient fold, while the other was taking down the  bars that

kept them out of the new pasture.  Neither of these  powerful men could do the other's work, and each had to

find the task  for which he was destined. 

The "old gospel ship," as the Methodist song calls it, carries many  who would steer by the wake of their

vessel.  But there are many  others who do not trouble themselves to look over the stern, having  their eyes

fixed on the lighthouse in the distance before them.  In  less figurative language, there are multitudes of

persons who are  perfectly contented with the old formulae of the church with which  they and their fathers

before them have been and are connected, for  the simple reason that they fit, like old shoes, because they

have  been worn so long, and mingled with these, in the most conservative  religious body, are here and there

those who are restless in the  fetters of a confession of faith to which they have pledged  themselves without

believing in it.  This has been true of the  Athanasian creed, in the Anglican Church, for two centuries more or

less, unless the Archbishop of Canterbury, Tillotson, stood alone in  wishing the church were well rid of it.  In

fact, it has happened to  the present writer to hear the Thirtynine Articles summarily  disposed of by one of

the most zealous members of the American branch  of that communion, in a verb of one syllable, more

familiar to the  ears of the forecastle than to those of the vestry. 

But on the other hand, it is far from uncommon to meet with persons  among the socalled "liberal"

denominations who are uneasy for want  of a more definite ritual and a more formal organization than they

find in their own body.  Now, the rector or the minister must be well  aware that there are such cases, and each

of them must be aware that  there are individuals under his guidance whom he cannot satisfy by  argument, and

who really belong by all their instincts to another  communion.  It seems as if a thoroughly honest,

straightcollared  clergyman would say frankly to his restless parishioner: "You do not  believe the central

doctrines of the church which you are in the  habit of attending.  You belong properly to Brother A.'s or

Brother  B.'s fold, and it will be more manly and probably more profitable for  you to go there than to stay with

us."  And, again, the rolling  collared clergyman might be expected to say to this or that uneasy  listener: "You

are longing for a church which will settle your  beliefs for you, and relieve you to a great extent from the task,

to  which you seem to be unequal, of working out your own salvation with  fear and trembling.  Go over the

way to Brother C.'s or Brother D.'s;  your spine is weak, and they will furnish you a backboard which will

keep you straight and make you comfortable."  Patients are not the  property of their physicians, nor

parishioners of their ministers. 

As for the children of clergymen, the presumption is that they will  adhere to the general belief professed by

their fathers.  But they do  not lose their birthright or their individuality, and have the world  all before them to

choose their creed from, like other persons.  They  are sometimes called to account for attacking the dogmas

they are  supposed to have heard preached from their childhood.  They cannot  defend themselves, for various

good reasons.  If they did, one would  have to say he got more preaching than was good for him, and came at

last to feel about sermons and their doctrines as confectioners'  children do about candy.  Another would have

to own that he got his  religious belief, not from his father, but from his mother.  That  would account for a

great deal, for the milk in a woman's veins  sweetens, or at least, dilutes an acrid doctrine, as the blood of the

motherly cow softens the virulence of smallpox, so that its mark  survives only as the seal of immunity.

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their complexion or their temper.  Others would be compelled  to confess that the belief of a wife or a sister

had displaced that  which they naturally inherited.  No man can be expected to go thus  into the details of his

family history, and, therefore, it is an ill  bred and indecent thing to fling a man's father's creed in his face,  as

if he had broken the fifth commandment in thinking for himself in  the light of a new generation.  Common

delicacy would prevent him  from saying that he did not get his faith from his father, but from  somebody else,

perhaps from his grandmother Lois and his mother  Eunice, like the young man whom the Apostle cautioned

against total  abstinence. 

It is always the right, and may sometimes be the duty, of the  layman  to call the attention of the clergy to the

shortcomings and  errors,  not only of their own time, but also of the preceding  generations, of  which they are

the intellectual and moral product.  This is  especially true when the authority of great names is fallen  back

upon  as a defence of opinions not in themselves deserving to be  upheld.  It may be very important to show

that the champions of this or  that  set of dogmas, some of which are extinct or obsolete as beliefs,  while others

retain their vitality, held certain general notions  which vitiated their conclusions.  And in proportion to the

eminence  of such champions, and the frequency with which their names are  appealed to as a bulwark of any

particular creed or set of doctrines,  is it urgent to show into what obliquities or extravagances or

contradictions of thought they have been betrayed. 

In summing up the religious history of New England, it would be  just  and proper to show the agency of the

Mathers, father and son, in  the  witchcraft delusion.  It would be quite fair to plead in their  behalf  the common

beliefs of their time.  It would be an extenuation  of  their acts that, not many years before, the great and good

magistrate, Sir Matthew Hale, had sanctioned the conviction of  prisoners accused of witchcraft.  To fall back

on the errors of the  time is very proper when we are trying our predecessors in foro  conscientace: The houses

they dwelt in may have had some weak or  decayed beams and rafters, but they served for their shelter, at any

rate.  It is quite another matter when those rotten timbers are used  in holding up the roofs over our own heads.

Still more, if one of  our ancestors built on an unsafe or an unwholesome foundation, the  best thing we can do

is to leave it and persuade others to leave it  if we can.  And if we refer to him as a precedent, it must be as a

warning and not as a guide. 

Such was the reason of the present writer's taking up the writings  of  Jonathan Edwards for examination in a

recent essay.  The  "Edwardsian"  theology is still recognized as a power in and beyond the  denomination to

which he belonged.  One or more churches bear his  name, and it is thrown into the scale of theological belief

as if it  added great strength to the party which claims him.  That he was a  man of extraordinary endowments

and deep spiritual nature was not  questioned, nor that be was a most acute reasoner, who could unfold a

proposition into its consequences as patiently, as convincingly, as a  palaeontologist extorts its confession

from a fossil fragment.  But  it was maintained that so many dehumanizing ideas were mixed up with  his

conceptions of man, and so many diabolizing attributes embodied  in his imagination of the Deity, that his

system of beliefs was  tainted throughout by them, and that the fact of his being so  remarkable a logician

recoiled on the premises which pointed his  inexorable syllogisms to such revolting conclusions.  When he

presents us a God, in whose sight children, with certain not too  frequent exceptions, "are young vipers, and

are infinitely more  hateful than vipers;" when he gives the most frightful detailed  description of infinite and

endless tortures which it drives men and  women mad to think of prepared for "the bulk of mankind;" when he

cruelly pictures a future in which parents are to sing hallelujahs of  praise as they see their children driven into

the furnace, where they  are to lie "roasting" forever,we have a right to say that the man  who held such

beliefs and indulged in such imaginations and  expressions is a burden and not a support in reference to the

creed  with which his name is associated.  What heathenism has ever  approached the horrors of this conception

of human destiny?  It is  not an abuse of language to apply to such a system of beliefs the  name of Christian

pessimism. 

If these and similar doctrines are so generally discredited as some  appear to think, we might expect to see the

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in all our churches, and no longer to read in  the newspapers of ministers rejected or put on trial for heresy

because they could not accept the most dreadful of these doctrines.  Whether this be so or not, it must be

owned that the name of Jonathan  Edwards does at this day carry a certain authority with it for many  persons,

so that anything he believed gains for them some degree of  probability from that circumstance.  It would,

therefore, be of much  interest to know whether he was trustworthy in his theological  speculations, and

whether he ever changed his belief with reference  to any of the great questions above alluded to. 

Some of our readers may remember a story which got abroad many  years  ago that a certain M. Babinet, a

scientific Frenchman of note,  had  predicted a serious accident soon to occur to the planet on which  we  live by

the collision with it of a great comet then approaching us,  or some such occurrence.  There is no doubt that

this prediction  produced anxiety and alarm in many timid persons.  It became a very  interesting question with

them who this M. Babinet might be.  Was he  a sound observer, who had made other observations and

predictions  which had proved accurate?  Or was he one of those men who are always  making blunders for

other people to correct?  Is he known to have  changed his opinion as to the approaching disastrous event? 

So long as there were any persons made anxious by this prediction,  so  long as there was even one who

believed that he, and his family,  and  his nation, and his race, and the home of mankind, with all its

monuments, were very soon to be smitten in midheaven and instantly  shivered into fragments, it was very

desirable to find any evidence  that this prophet of evil was a man who held many extravagant and  even

monstrous opinions.  Still more satisfactory would it be if it  could be shown that he had reconsidered his

predictions, and declared  that he could not abide by his former alarming conclusions.  And we  should think

very ill of any astronomer who would not rejoice for the  sake of his fellowcreatures, if not for his own, to

find the  threatening presage invalidated in either or both of the ways just  mentioned, even though he had

committed himself to M.  Babinet's dire  belief. 

But what is the trivial, temporal accident of the wiping out of a  planet and its inhabitants to the infinite

catastrophe which shall  establish a mighty world of eternal despair?  And which is it most  desirable for

mankind to have disproved or weakened, the grounds of  the threat of M.  Babinet, or those of the other

infinitely more  terrible comminations, so far as they rest on the authority of  Jonathan Edwards? 

The writer of this paper had been long engaged in the study of the  writings of Edwards, with reference to the

essay he had in  contemplation, when, on speaking of the subject to a very  distinguished orthodox divine, this

gentleman mentioned the existence  of a manuscript of Edwards which had been held back from the public  on

account of some opinions or tendencies it contained, or was  suspected of containing "High Arianism" was the

exact expression he  used with reference to it.  On relating this fact to an illustrious  man of science, whose

name is best known to botanists, but is justly  held in great honor by the orthodox body to which he belongs, it

appeared that he, too, had heard of such a manuscript, and the  questionable doctrine associated with it in his

memory was  Sabellianism.  It was of course proper in the writer of an essay on  Jonathan Edwards to mention

the alleged existence of such a  manuscript, with reference to which the same caution seemed to have  been

exercised as that which led, the editor of his collected works  to suppress the language Edwards had used

about children. 

This mention led to a friendly correspondence between the writer  and  one of the professors in the theological

school at Andover, and  finally to the publication of a brief essay, which, for some reason,  had been withheld

from publication for more than a century.  Its  title is "Observations concerning the Scripture OEconomy of the

Trinity and Covenant of Redemption.  By Jonathan Edwards."  It  contains thirtysix pages and a half, each

small page having about  two hundred words.  The pages before the reader will be found to  average about three

hundred and twentyfive words.  An introduction  and an appendix by the editor, Professor Egbert C. Smyth,

swell the  contents to nearly a hundred pages, but these additions, and the  circumstance that it is bound in

boards, must not lead us to overlook  the fact that the little volume is nothing more than a pamphlet in  book's

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A most extraordinary performance it certainly is, dealing with the  arrangements entered into by the three

persons of the Trinity, in as  bald and matteroffact language and as commercial a spirit as if the  author had

been handling the adjustment of a limited partnership  between three retail tradesmen.  But, lest a layman's

judgment might  be considered insufficient, the treatise was submitted by the writer  to one of the most learned

of our theological experts,the same who  once informed a church dignitary, who had been attempting to

define  his theological position, that he was a Eutychian,a fact which he  seems to have been no more aware

of than M. Jourdain was conscious  that he had been speaking prose all his life.  The treatise appeared  to this

professor antitrinitarian, not in the direction of  Unitarianism, however, but of Tritheism.  Its

anthropomorphism  affected him like blasphemy, and the paper produced in him the sense  of "great disgust,"

which its whole character might well excite in  the unlearned reader. 

All this is, however, of little importance, for this is not the  work  of Edwards referred to by the present writer

in his previous  essay.  The tract recently printed as a volume may be the one referred  to by  Dr. Bushnell, in

1851, but of this reference by him the writer  never  heard until after his own essay was already printed.  The

manuscript  of the "Observations" was received by Professor Smyth, as  he tells us  in his introduction, about

fifteen years ago, from the  late Reverend  William T. Dwight, D. D., to whom it was bequeathed by  his

brother,  the Reverend Dr. Sereno E. Dwight. 

But the reference of the present writer was to another production  of  the great logician, thus spoken of in a

quotation from "the  accomplished editor of the Hartford 'Courant,'" to be found in  Professor Smyth's

introduction : 

"It has long been a matter of private information that Professor  Edwards A. Park, of Andover, had in his

possession an published  manuscript of Edwards of considerable extent, perhaps two thirds as  long as his

treatise on the will.  As few have ever seen the  manuscript, its contents are only known by vague reports....  It

is  said that it contains a departure from his published views on the  Trinity and a modification of the view of

original sin.  One account  of it says that the manuscript leans toward Sabellianism, and that it  even approaches

Pelagianism." 

It was to this "suppressed" manuscript the present writer referred,  and not to the slender brochure recently

given to the public.  He is  bound, therefore, to say plainly that to satisfy inquirers who may be  still in doubt

with reference to Edwards's theological views, it  would be necessary to submit this manuscript, and all

manuscripts of  his which have been kept private, to their inspection, in print, if  possible, so that all could

form their own opinion about it or them. 

The whole matter may be briefly stated thus: Edwards believed in an  eternity of unimaginable horrors for

"the bulk of mankind."  His  authority counts with many in favor of that belief, which affects  great numbers as

the idea of ghosts affected Madame de Stall: "Je n'y  crois pas, mais je les crains."  This belief is one which it

is  infinitely desirable to the human race should be shown to be  possibly, probably, or certainly erroneous.  It

is, therefore,  desirable in the interest of humanity that any force the argument in  its favor may derive from

Edwards's authority should be weakened by  showing that he was capable of writing most unwisely, and if it

should be proved that he changed his opinions, or ran into any  "heretical" vagaries, by using these facts

against the validity of  his judgment.  That he was capable of writing most unwisely has been  sufficiently

shown by the recent publication of his "Observations."  Whether he, anywhere contradicted what were

generally accepted as his  theological opinions, or how far he may have lapsed into heresies,  the public will

never rest satisfied until it sees and interprets for  itself everything that is open to question which may be

contained in  his yet unpublished manuscripts.  All this is not in the least a  personal affair with the writer, who,

in the course of his studies of  Edwards's works, accidentally heard, from the unimpeachable sources

sufficiently indicated, the reports, which it seems must have been  familiar to many, that there was

unpublished matter bearing on the  opinions of the author through whose voluminous works he had been

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he is recognized to  have been, had, possibly in his changes of opinion, ceased to think  of children as vipers,

and of parents as shouting hallelujahs while  their lost darlings were being driven into the flames, where is the

theologian who would not rejoice to hope so with him or who would be  willing to tell his wife or his daughter

that he did not? 

The real, vital division of the religious part of our Protestant  communities is into Christian optimists and

Christian pessimists.  The  Christian optimist in his fullest development is characterized by  a  cheerful

countenance, a voice in the major key, an undisguised  enjoyment of earthly comforts, and a short confession

of faith.  His  theory of the universe is progress; his idea of God is that he is a  Father with all the true paternal

attributes, of man that he is  destined to come into harmony with the keynote of divine order, of  this earth

that it is a training school for a better sphere of  existence.  The Christian pessimist in his most typical

manifestation  is apt to wear a solemn aspect, to speak, especially from the pulpit,  in the minor key, to

undervalue the lesser enjoyments of life, to  insist on a more extended list of articles of belief.  His theory of

the universe recognizes this corner of it as a moral ruin; his idea  of the Creator is that of a ruler whose

pardoning power is subject to  the veto of what is called "justice;" his notion of man is that he is  born a natural

hater of God and goodness, and that his natural  destiny is eternal misery.  The line dividing these two great

classes  zigzags its way through the religious community, sometimes following  denominational layers and

cleavages, sometimes going, like a  geological fracture, through many different strata.  The natural  antagonists

of the religious pessimists are the men of science,  especially the evolutionists, and the poets.  It was but a

conditioned prophecy, yet we cannot doubt what was in Milton's mind  when he sang, in one of the divinest of

his strains, that 

                    "Hell itself will pass away,

     And leave her dolorous mansions to the peering day."

And Nature, always fair if we will allow her time enough, after  giving mankind the inspired tinker who

painted the Christian's life  as that of a hunted animal, "never long at ease," desponding,  despairing, on the

verge of selfmurder,painted it with an  originality, a vividness, a power and a sweetness, too, that rank

him  with the great authors of all time,kind Nature, after this gift,  sent as his counterpoise the inspired

ploughman, whose songs have  done more to humanize the hard theology of Scotland than all the  rationalistic

sermons that were ever preached.  Our own Whittier has  done and is doing the same thing, in a far holier spirit

than Burns,  for the inherited beliefs of New England and the country to which New  England belongs.  Let me

sweeten these closing paragraphs of an essay  not meaning to hold a word of bitterness with a passage or two

from  the laypreacher who is listened to by a larger congregation than any  man who speaks from the pulpit.

Who will not hear his words with  comfort and rejoicing when he speaks of "that larger hope which,  secretly

cherished from the times of Origen and Duns Scotus to those  of Foster and Maurice, has found its fitting

utterance in the noblest  poem of the age?" 

It is Tennyson's "In Memoriam" to which he refers, and from which  he  quotes four verses, of which this is the

last: 

    "Behold!  we know not anything

     I can but trust that good shall fall

     At last,far off,at last, to all,

     And every winter change to spring."

If some are disposed to think that the progress of civilization and  the rapidly growing change of opinion

renders unnecessary any further  effort to humanize "the Gospel of dread tidings;" if any believe the  doctrines

of the Longer and Shorter Catechism of the Westminster  divines are so far obsolete as to require no further

handling; if  there are any who thank these subjects have lost their interest for  living souls ever since they

themselves have learned to stay at home  on Sundays, with their cakes and ale instead of going to meeting,

not such is Mr.  Whittier's opinion, as we may infer from his  recent beautiful poem, "The Minister's


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Daughter."  It is not science  alone that the old Christian pessimism has got to struggle with, but  the instincts of

childhood, the affections of maternity, the  intuitions of poets, the contagious humanity of the philanthropist,

in short, human nature and the advance of civilization.  The pulpit  has long helped the world, and is still

one of the chief defences  against the dangers that threaten society, and it is worthy now, as  it always has been

in its best representation, of all love and honor.  But many of its professed creeds imperatively demand

revision, and  the pews which call for it must be listened to, or the preacher will  by and by find himself

speaking to a congregation of bodiless echoes. 


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