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Table of Contents

A MORTAL ANTIPATHY ................................................................................................................................1

Oliver Wendell Holmes...........................................................................................................................1

PREFACE. ...............................................................................................................................................1

FIRST OPENING OF THE NEW PORTFOLIO.................................................................................................2

INTRODUCTION...................................................................................................................................2

I. GETTING READY............................................................................................................................14

II. THE BOATRACE..........................................................................................................................19

III. THE WHITE CANOE.....................................................................................................................22

IV...........................................................................................................................................................25

V. THE ENIGMA STUDIED. ...............................................................................................................29

VI. STILL AT FAULT..........................................................................................................................31

VII. A RECORD OF ANTIPATHIES ...................................................................................................35

VIII. THE PANSOPHIAN SOCIETY. ..................................................................................................37

IX. THE SOCIETY AND ITS NEW SECRETARY. ............................................................................45

X. A NEW ARRIVAL. ..........................................................................................................................50

XI. THE INTERVIEWER ATTACKS THE SPHINX. .........................................................................58

XII. MISS VINCENT AS A MEDICAL STUDENT. ...........................................................................65

XIII. DR. BUTTS READS A PAPER. ..................................................................................................66

XIV. MISS VINCENT'S STARTLING DISCOVERY........................................................................69

XV. DR. BUTTS CALLS ON EUTHYMIA. ........................................................................................74

XVI. MISS VINCENT WRITES A LETTER. ......................................................................................76

XVII. Dr. BUTTS'S PATIENT. .............................................................................................................80

XVIII. MAURICE KIRKWOOD'S STORY OF HIS LIFE..................................................................82

XX. DR. BUTTS REFLECTS. ..............................................................................................................94

XXI. AN INTIMATE CONVERSATION............................................................................................97

XXII. EUTHYMIA. ...............................................................................................................................99

XXIII. THE MEETING OF MAURICE AND EUTHYMIA.............................................................102

XXIV. THE INEVITABLE. ................................................................................................................108


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A MORTAL ANTIPATHY

Oliver Wendell Holmes

PREFACE. 

FIRST OPENING OF THE NEW PORTFOLIO.  

INTRODUCTION. 

I. GETTING READY. 

II. THE BOATRACE. 

III. THE WHITE CANOE. 

IV 

V. THE ENIGMA STUDIED. 

VI. STILL AT FAULT. 

VII. A RECORD OF ANTIPATHIES 

VIII. THE PANSOPHIAN SOCIETY. 

IX. THE SOCIETY AND ITS NEW SECRETARY. 

X. A NEW ARRIVAL. 

XI. THE INTERVIEWER ATTACKS THE SPHINX. 

XII. MISS VINCENT AS A MEDICAL STUDENT. 

XIII. DR. BUTTS READS A PAPER. 

XIV. MISS VINCENT'S STARTLING DISCOVERY. 

XV. DR. BUTTS CALLS ON EUTHYMIA. 

XVI. MISS VINCENT WRITES A LETTER. 

XVII. Dr. BUTTS'S PATIENT. 

XVIII. MAURICE KIRKWOOD'S STORY OF HIS LIFE. 

XX. DR. BUTTS REFLECTS. 

XXI. AN INTIMATE CONVERSATION. 

XXII. EUTHYMIA. 

XXIII. THE MEETING OF MAURICE AND EUTHYMIA. 

XXIV. THE INEVITABLE.  

PREFACE.

"A MORTAL ANTIPATHY" was a truly hazardous experiment.  A very wise  and very distinguished

physician who is as much at home in literature  as he is in science and the practice of medicine, wrote to me in

referring to this story: "I should have been afraid of my subject."  He did not explain himself, but I can easily

understand that he felt  the improbability of the, physiological or pathological occurrence on  which the story is

founded to be so great that the narrative could  hardly be rendered plausible.  I felt the difficulty for myself as

well as for my readers, and it was only by recalling for our  consideration a series of extraordinary but

wellauthenticated facts  of somewhat similar character that I could hope to gain any serious  attention to so

strange a narrative. 

I need not recur to these wonderful stories.  There is, however,  one,  not to be found on record elsewhere, to

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which I would especially  call  the reader's attention.  It is that of the middleaged man, who  assured me that he

could never pass a tall hall clock without an  indefinable terror.  While an infant in arms the heavy weight of

one  of these tall clocks had fallen with aloud crash and produced an  impression on his nervous system which

he had never got over. 

The lasting effect of a shock received by the sense of sight or  that  of hearing is conceivable enough. 

But there is another sense, the nerves of which are in close  relation  with the higher organs of consciousness.

The strength of the  associations connected with the function of the first pair of nerves,  the olfactory, is

familiar to most persons in their own experience  and as related by others.  Now we know that every human

being, as  well as every other living organism, carries its own distinguishing  atmosphere.  If a man's friend

does not know it, his dog does, and  can track him anywhere by it.  This personal peculiarity varies with  the

age and conditions of the individual.  It may be agreeable or  otherwise, a source of attraction or repulsion, but

its influence is  not less real, though far less obvious and less dominant, than in the  lower animals.  It was an

atmospheric impression of this nature which  associated itself with a terrible shock experienced by the infant

which became the subject of this story.  The impression could not be  outgrown, but it might possibly be

broken up by some sudden change in  the nervous system effected by a cause as potent as the one which had

produced the disordered condition. 

This is the best key that I can furnish to a story which must have  puzzled some, repelled others, and failed to

interest many who did  not suspect the true cause of the mysterious antipathy. 

BEVERLY FARMS, MASS., August, 1891. 

O.  W.  H. 

FIRST OPENING OF THE NEW PORTFOLIO.

INTRODUCTION.

"And why the New Portfolio, I would ask?" 

Pray, do you remember, when there was an accession to the nursery  in  which you have a special interest,

whether the newcomer was  commonly  spoken of as a baby?  Was it not, on the contrary,  invariably, under

all conditions, in all companies, by the whole  household, spoken of  as the baby?  And was the small

receptacle  provided for it commonly  spoken of as a cradle; or was it not always  called the cradle, as if  there

were no other in existence? 

Now this New Portfolio is the cradle in which I am to rock my  newborn thoughts, and from which I am to

lift them carefully and  show them to callers, namely, to the whole family of readers  belonging to my list of

intimates, and such other friends as may drop  in by accident.  And so it shall have the definite article, and not

be lost in the mob of its fellows as a portfolio. 

There are a few personal and incidental matters of which I wish to  say something before reaching the

contents of the Portfolio, whatever  these may be.  I have had other portfolios before this,two, more

especially, and the first thing I beg leave to introduce relates to  these. 

Do not throw this volume down, or turn to another page, when I tell  you that the earliest of them, that of

which I now am about to speak,  was opened more than fifty years ago.  This is a very dangerous  confession,

for fifty years make everything hopelessly oldfashioned,  without giving it the charm of real antiquity.  If I


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could say a  hundred years, now, my readers would accept all I had to tell them  with a curious interest; but

fifty years ago,there are too many  talkative old people who know all about that time, and at best half a

century is a halfbaked bit of ware.  A coinfancier would say that  your fiftyyearold facts have just enough

of antiquity to spot them  with rust, and not enough to give themthe delicate and durable  patina which is

time's exquisite enamel. 

When the first Portfolio was opened the coin of the realm bore for  its legend,or might have borne if the

more devout heroworshippers  could have had their way,Andreas Jackson, Populi Gratia, Imp.  Caesrzr.

Aug.  Div., Max., etc., etc.  I never happened to see any  gold or silver with that legend, but the truth is I was

not very  familiarly acquainted with the precious metals at that period of my  career, and, there might have

been a good deal of such coin in  circulation without my handling it, or knowing much about it. 

Permit me to indulge in a few reminiscences of that faroff time. 

In those days the Athenaeum Picture Gallery was a principal centre  of  attraction to young Boston people and

their visitors.  Many of us  got  our first ideas of art, to say nothing of our first lessons in the  comparatively

innocent flirtations of our city's primitive period, in  that agreeable resort of amateurs and artists. 

How the pictures on those walls in Pearl Street do keep their  places  in the mind's gallery!  Trumbull's Sortie of

Gibraltar, with  red  enough in it for one of our sunset afterglows; and Neagle's full  length portrait of the

blacksmith in his shirtsleeves; and Copley's  longwaistcoated gentlemen and satinclad ladies,they

looked like  gentlemen and ladies, too; and Stuart's florid merchants and high  waisted matrons; and Allston's

lovely Italian scenery and dreamy,  unimpassioned women, not forgetting Florimel in full flight on her

interminable rockinghorse,you may still see her at the Art Museum;  and the rival landscapes of Doughty

and Fisher, much talked of and  largely praised in those days; and the Murillo,not from Marshal  Soup's

collection; and the portrait of Annibale Caracci by himself,  which cost the Athenaeum a hundred dollars; and

Cole's allegorical  pictures, and his immense and dreary canvas, in which the prostrate  shepherds and the

angel in Joseph's coat of many colors look as if  they must have been thrown in for nothing; and West's

brawny Lear  tearing his clothes to pieces.  But why go on with the catalogue,  when most of these pictures can

be seen either at the Athenaeum  building in Beacon Street or at the Art Gallery, and admired or  criticised

perhaps more justly, certainly not more generously, than  in those earlier years when we looked at them

through the japanned  fishhorns? 

If one happened to pass through Atkinson Street on his way to the  Athenaeum, he would notice a large,

square, painted, brick house, in  which lived a leading representative of oldfashioned coleopterous

Calvinism, and from which emerged one of the liveliest of literary  butterflies.  The father was editor of the

"Boston Recorder," a very  respectable, but very far from amusing paper, most largely patronized  by that class

of the community which spoke habitually of the first  day of the week as "the Sahbuth."  The son was the

editor of several  different periodicals in succession, none of them over severe or  serious, and of many

pleasant books, filled with lively descriptions  of society, which be studied on the outside with a quick eye for

form  and color, and with a certain amount of sentiment, not very deep, but  real, though somewhat frothed

over by his worldly experiences. 

Nathaniel Parker Willis was in full bloom when I opened my first  Portfolio.  He had made himself known by

his religious poetry,  published in his father's paper, I think, and signed "Roy."  He had  started the " American

Magazine," afterwards merged in the New York  Mirror."  He had then left off writing scripture pieces, and

taken to  lighter forms of verse.  He had just written 

         "I'm twentytwo, I'm twentytwo,

               They idly give me joy,

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That I was less a boy."

He was young, therefore, and already famous.  He came very near  being  very handsome.  He was tall; his hair,

of light brown color,  waved in  luxuriant abundance; his cheek was as rosy as if it had been  painted  to show

behind the footlights; he dressed with artistic  elegance.  He  was something between a remembrance of Count

D'Orsay and  an  anticipation of Oscar Wilde.  There used to be in the gallery of  the  Luxembourg a picture of

Hippolytus and Phxdra, in which the  beautiful  young man, who had kindled a passion in the heart of his

wicked step  mother, always reminded me of Willis, in spite of the  shortcomings of  the living face as

compared with the ideal.  The  painted youth is  still blooming on the canvas, but the freshcheecked,  jaunty

young  author of the year 1830 has long faded out of human  sight.  I took  the leaves which lie before me at this

moment, as I  write, from his  coffin, as it lay just outside the door of Saint  Paul's Church, on a  sad,

overclouded winter's day, in the year 1867.  At that earlier  time, Willis was by far the most prominent young

American author.  Cooper, Irving, Bryant, Dana, Halleck, Drake, had all  done their best  work.  Longfellow

was not yet conspicuous.  Lowell was  a schoolboy.  Emerson was unheard of.  Whittier was beginning to

make  his way  against the writers with better educational advantages whom he  was  destined to outdo and to

outlive.  Not one of the great histories,  which have done honor to our literature, had appeared.  Our school

books depended, so far as American authors were concerned, on  extracts from the orations and speeches of

Webster and Everett; on  Bryant's Thanatopsis, his lines To a Waterfowl, and the Death of the  Flowers,

Halleck's Marco Bozzaris, Red Jacket, and Burns; on Drake's  American Flag, and Percival's Coral Grove, and

his Genius Sleeping  and Genius Waking,and not getting very wide awake, either.  These  could be depended

upon.  A few other copies of verses might be found,  but Dwight's "Columbia, Columbia," and Pierpont's Airs

of Palestine,  were already effaced, as many of the favorites of our own day and  generation must soon be, by

the great wave which the near future will  pour over the sands in which they still are legible. 

About this time, in the year 1832, came out a small volume entitled  "Truth, a Gift for Scribblers," which

made some talk for a while, and  is now chiefly valuable as a kind of literary tombstone on which may  be read

the names of many whose renown has been buried with their  bones.  The "London Athenaeum" spoke of it as

having been described  as a "tomahawk sort of satire."  As the author had been a trapper in  Missouri, he was

familiarly acquainted with that weapon and the  warfare of its owners.  Born in Boston, in 1804, the son of an

army  officer, educated at West Point, he came back to his native city  about the year 1830.  He wrote an article

on Bryant's Poems for the  "North American Review," and another on the famous Indian chief,  Black Hawk.

In this lastmentioned article he tells this story as  the great warrior told it himself.  It was an incident of a

fight  with the Osages. 

"Standing by my father's side, I saw him kill his antagonist and  tear  the scalp from his head.  Fired with valor

and ambition, I rushed  furiously upon another, smote him to the earth with my tomahawk, ran  my lance

through his body, took off his scalp, and returned in  triumph to my father.  He said nothing, but looked

pleased." 

This little red story describes very well Spelling's style of  literary warfare.  His handling of his most

conspicuous victim,  Willis, was very much like Black Hawk's way of dealing with the  Osage.  He

tomahawked him in heroics, ran him through in prose, and  scalped him in barbarous epigrams.  Bryant and

Halleck were  abundantly praised; hardly any one else escaped. 

If the reader wishes to see the bubbles of reputation that were  floating, some of them gay with prismatic

colors, half a century ago,  he will find in the pages of "Truth" a long catalogue of celebrities  he never heard

of.  I recognize only three names, of all which are  mentioned in the little book, as belonging to persons still

living;  but as I have not read the obituaries of all the others, some of them  may be still flourishing in spite of

Mr. Spelling's exterminating  onslaught.  Time dealt as hardly with poor Spelling, who was not  without talent

and instruction, as he had dealt with our authors.  I  think he found shelter at last under a roof which held

numerous  inmates, some of whom had seen better and many of whom had known  worse days than those


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which they were passing within its friendly and  not exclusive precincts.  Such, at least, was the story I heard

after  he disappeared from general observation. 

That was the day of Souvenirs, Tokens, Forgetmenots, Bijous, and  all that class of showy annuals.  Short

stories, slender poems, steel  engravings, on a level with the common fashionplates of advertising

establishments, gilt edges, resplendent binding,to manifestations  of this sort our lighter literature had very

largely run for some  years.  The "Scarlet Letter" was an unhinted possibility.  The  "Voices of the Night " had

not stirred the brooding silence; the  Concord seer was still in the lonely desert; most of the contributors  to

those yearly volumes, which took up such pretentious positions on  the centre table, have shrunk into entire

oblivion, or, at best, hold  their place in literature by a scrap or two in some omnivorous  collection. 

What dreadful work Spelling made among those slight reputations,  floating in swollen tenuity on the surface

of the stream, and  mirroring each other in reciprocal reflections!  Violent, abusive as  he was, unjust to any

against whom he happened to have a prejudice,  his castigation of the small litterateurs of that day was not

harmful, but rather of use.  His attack on Willis very probably did  him good; he needed a little discipline, and

though he got it too  unsparingly, some cautions came with it which were worth the stripes  he had to smart

under.  One noble writer Spelling treated with  rudeness, probably from some accidental pique, or equally

insignificant reason.  I myself, one of the three survivors before  referred to, escaped with a lovepat, as the

youngest son of the  Muse.  Longfellow gets a brief nod of acknowledgment.  Bailey, an  American writer,

"who made long since a happy snatch at fame," which  must have been snatched away from him by envious

time, for I cannot  identify him; Thatcher, who died early, leaving one poem, The Last  Request, not wholly

unremembered; Miss Hannah F.  Gould, a very  bright and agreeable writer of light verse,all these are

commended  to the keeping of that venerable public carrier, who finds his scythe  and hourglass such a load

that he generally drops the burdens  committed to his charge, after making a show of paying every possible

attention to them so long as he is kept in sight. 

It was a good time to open a portfolio.  But my old one had boyhood  written on every page.  A single

passionate outcry when the old  warship I had read about in the broadsides that were a part of our  kitchen

literature, and in the " Naval Monument," was threatened with  demolition; a few verses suggested by the

sight of old Major Melville  in his cocked hat and breeches, were the best scraps that came out of  that first

Portfolio, which was soon closed that it should not  interfere with the duties of a profession authorized to

claim all the  time and thought which would have been otherwise expended in filling  it. 

During a quarter of a century the first Portfolio remained closed  for  the greater part of the time.  Only now and

then it would be taken  up  and opened, and something drawn from it for a special occasion,  more  particularly

for the annual reunions of a certain class of which  I  was a member. 

In the year 1857, towards its close, the "Atlantic Monthly," which  I  had the honor of naming, was started by

the enterprising firm of  Phillips Sampson, under the editorship of Mr. James Russell Lowell.  He thought that

I might bring something out of my old Portfolio which  would be not unacceptable in the new magazine.  I

looked at the poor  old receptacle, which, partly from use and partly from neglect, had  lost its freshness, and

seemed hardly presentable to the new company  expected to welcome the newcomer in the literary world of

Boston,  the least provincial of American centres of learning and letters.  The  gilded covering where the

emblems of hope and aspiration had  looked so  bright had faded; not wholly, perhaps, but how was the gold

become  dim!how was the most fine gold changed!  Long devotion to  other  pursuits had left little time for

literature, and the waifs and  strays  gathered from the old Portfolio had done little more than keep  alive  the

memory that such a source of supply was still in existence.  I  looked at the old Portfolio, and said to myself,

"Too late!  too  late.  This tarnished gold will never brighten, these battered covers  will  stand no more wear and

tear; close them, and leave them to the  spider  and the bookworm." 


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In the mean time the nebula of the first quarter of the century had  condensed into the constellation of the

middle of the same period.  When, a little while after the establishment of the new magazine, the  "Saturday

Club" gathered about the long table at "Parker's," such a  representation of all that was best in American

literature had never  been collected within so small a compass.  Most of the Americans whom  educated

foreigners cared to seeleaving out of consideration  official dignitaries, whose temporary importance makes

them objects  of curiositywere seated at that board.  But the club did not yet  exist, and the "Atlantic

Monthly" was an experiment.  There had  already been several monthly periodicals, more or less successful

and  permanent, among which "Putnam's Magazine" was conspicuous, owing its  success largely to the

contributions of that very accomplished and  delightful writer, Mr. George William Curtis.  That magazine,

after a  somewhat prolonged and very honorable existence, had gone where all  periodicals go when they die,

into the archives of the deaf, dumb,  and blind recording angel whose name is Oblivion.  It had so well

deserved to live that its death was a surprise and a source of  regret.  Could another monthly take its place and

keep it when that,  with all its attractions and excellences, had died out, and left a  blank in our periodical

literature which it would be very hard to  fill as well as that had filled it? 

This was the experiment which the enterprising publishers ventured  upon, and I, who felt myself outside of

the charmed circle drawn  around the scholars and poets of Cambridge and Concord, having given  myself to

other studies and duties, wondered somewhat when Mr. Lowell  insisted upon my becoming a contributor.

And so, yielding to a  pressure which I could not understand, and yet found myself unable to  resist, I promised

to take a part in the new venture, as an  occasional writer in the columns of the new magazine. 

That was the way in which the second Portfolio found its way to my  table, and was there opened in the

autumn of the year 1857.  I was  already at least 

          Nel mezzo del cammin di mia, vita,

when I risked myself, with many misgivings, in littletried paths  of  what looked at first like a wilderness, a

selva oscura, where, if I  did not meet the lion or the wolf, I should be sure to find the  critic, the most

dangerous of the carnivores, waiting to welcome me  after his own fashion. 

The second Portfolio is closed and laid away.  Perhaps it was  hardly  worth while to provide and open a new

one; but here it lies  before  me, and I hope I may find something between its covers which  will  justify me in

coming once more before my old friends.  But before  I  open it I want to claim a little further indulgence. 

There is a subject of profound interest to almost every writer, I  might say to almost every human being.  No

matter what his culture or  ignorance, no matter what his pursuit, no matter what his character,  the subject I

refer to is one of which he rarely ceases to think,  and, if opportunity is offered, to talk.  On this he is eloquent,

if  on nothing else.  The slow of speech becomes fluent; the torpid  listener becomes electric with vivacity, and

alive all over with  interest. 

The sagacious reader knows well what is coming after this prelude.  He is accustomed to the phrases with

which the plausible visitor, who  has a subscription book in his pocket, prepares his victim for the  depressing

disclosure of his real errand.  He is not unacquainted  with the conversational amenities of the cordial and

interesting  stranger, who, having had the misfortune of leaving his carpetbag in  the cars, or of having his

pocket picked at the station, finds  himself without the means of reaching that distant home where  affluence

waits for him with its luxurious welcome, but to whom for  the moment the loan of some five and twenty

dollars would be a  convenience and a favor for which his heart would ache with gratitude  during the brief

interval between the loan and its repayment. 

I wish to say a few words in my own person relating to some  passages  in my own history, and more

especially to some of the recent  experiences through which I have been passing. 


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What can justify one in addressing himself to the general public as  if it were his private correspondent?  There

are at least three  sufficient reasons: first, if he has a story to tell that everybody  wants to hear,if be has

been shipwrecked, or has been in a battle,  or has witnessed any interesting event, and can tell anything new

about it; secondly, if he can put in fitting words any common  experiences not already well told, so that

readers will say, "Why,  yes!  I have had that sensation, thought, emotion, a hundred times,  but I never heard it

spoken of before, and I never saw any mention of  it in print;" and thirdly, anything one likes, provided he can

so  tell it as to make it interesting. 

I have no story to tell in this Introduction which can of itself  claim any general attention.  My first pages relate

the effect of a  certain literary experience upon myself,a series of partial  metempsychoses of which I have

been the subject.  Next follows a  brief tribute to the memory of a very dear and renowned friend from  whom I

have recently been parted.  The rest of the Introduction will  be consecrated to the memory of my birthplace. 

I have just finished a Memoir, which will appear soon after this  page  is written, and will have been the

subject of criticism long  before  it is in the reader's hands.  The experience of thinking  another  man's thoughts

continuously for a long time; of living one's  self  into another man's life for a month, or a year, or more, is a

very  curious one.  No matter how much superior to the biographer his  subject may be, the man who writes the

life feels himself, in a  certain sense, on the level of the person whose life he is writing.  One cannot fight over

the battles of Marengo or Austerlitz with  Napoleon without feeling as if he himself had a fractional claim to

the victory, so real seems the transfer of his personality into that  of the conqueror while he reads.  Still more

must this identification  of "subject" and "object" take place when one is writing of a person  whose studies or

occupations are not unlike his own. 

Here are some of my metempsychoses:  Ten years ago I wrote what I  called A Memorial Outline of a

remarkable student of nature.  He was a  born observer, and such are  far from common.  He was also a man of

great enthusiasm and  unwearying industry.  His quick eye detected what  others passed by  without notice: the

Indian relic, where another would  see only  pebbles and fragments; the rare mollusk, or reptile, which  his

companion would poke with his cane, never suspecting that there  was a  prize at the end of it.  Getting his

single facts together with  marvellous sagacity and longbreathed patience, he arranged them,  classified them,

described them, studied them in their relations, and  before those around him were aware of it the collector

was an  accomplished naturalist.  Whenhe died his collections remained, and  they still remain, as his record

in the hieratic language of science.  In writing this memoir the spirit of his quiet pursuits, the even  temper they

bred in him, gained possession of my own mind, so that I  seemed to look at nature through his goldbowed

spectacles, and to  move about his beautifully ordered museum as if I had myself prepared  and arranged its

specimens.  I felt wise with his wisdom, fairminded  with his calm impartiality; it seemed as if for the time

his placid,  observant, inquiring, keensighted nature "slid into my soul," and if  I had looked at myself in the

glass I should almost have expected to  see the image of the Hersey professor whose life and character I was

sketching. 

A few years hater I lived over the life of another friend in  writing  a Memoir of which he was the subject.  I

saw him, the  beautiful,  brighteyed boy, with dark, waving hair; the youthful  scholar, first  at Harvard, then at

Gottingen and Berlin, the friend  and companion of  Bismarck; the young author, making a dash for renown  as

a novelist,  and showing the elements which made his failures the  promise of  success in a larger field of

literary labor; the delving  historian,  burying his fresh young manhood in the dusty alcoves of  silent  libraries,

to come forth in the face of Europe and America as  one of  the leading historians of the time; the diplomatist,

accomplished, of  captivating presence and manners, an ardent American,  and in the time  of trial an

impassioned and eloquent advocate of the  cause of  freedom; reaching at last the summit of his ambition as

minister at  the Court of Saint James.  All this I seemed to share with  him as I  tracked his career from his

birthplace in Dorchester, and the  house  in Walnut Street where he passed his boyhood, to the palaces of

Vienna and London.  And then the cruel blow which struck him from the  place he adorned; the great sorrow

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invalidism, during a part of which I shared his most  intimate daily life, the sudden, hardly unwelcome, final

summons.  Did  not my own consciousness migrate, or seem, at least, to transfer  itself into this brilliant life

history, as I traced its glowing  record?  I, too, seemed to feel the delight of carrying with me, as  if they were

my own, the charms of a presence which made its own  welcome everywhere.  I shared his heroic toils, I

partook of his  literary and social triumphs, I was honored by the marks of  distinction which gathered about

him, I was wronged by the indignity  from which he suffered, mourned with him in his sorrow, and thus,  after

I had been living for months with his memory, I felt as if I  should carry a part of his being with me so long as

my self  consciousness might remain imprisoned in the ponderable elements. 

The years passed away, and the influences derived from the  companionships I have spoken of had blended

intimately with my own  current of being.  Then there came to me a new experience in my  relations with an

eminent member of the medical profession, whom I  met habitually for a long period, and to whose memory I

consecrated a  few pages as a prelude to a work of his own, written under very  peculiar circumstances.  He was

the subject of a slow, torturing,  malignant, and almost necessarily fatal disease.  Knowing well that  the mind

would feed upon itself if it were not supplied with food  from without, he determined to write a treatise on a

subject which  had greatly interested him, and which would oblige him to bestow much  of his time and

thought upon it, if indeed he could hold out to  finish the work.  During the period while he was engaged in

writing  it, his wife, who had seemed in perfect health, died suddenly of  pneumonia.  Physical suffering,

mental distress, the prospect of  death at a near, if uncertain, time always before him, it was hard to  conceive a

more terrible strain than that which he had to endure.  When, in the hour of his greatest need, his faithful

companion, the  wife of many years of happy union, whose hand had smoothed his  pillow, whose voice had

consoled and cheered him, was torn from him  after a few days of illness, I felt that my, friend's trial was such

that the cry of the man of many afflictions and temptations might  well have escaped from his lips: "I was at

ease, but he hath broken  me asunder; he hath also taken me by my neck and shaken me to pieces,  and set me

up for his mark.  His archers compass me round about, he  cleaveth my reins asunder, and doth not spare; he

poureth out my gall  upon the ground." 

I had dreaded meeting him for the first time after this crushing  blow.  What a lesson he gave me of patience

under sufferings which  the fearful description of the Eastern poet does not picture too  vividly!  We have been

taught to admire the calm philosophy of  Haller, watching his faltering pulse as he lay dying; we have heard

the words of pious resignation said to have been uttered with his  last breath by Addison: but here was a trial,

not of hours, or days,  or weeks, but of months, even years, of cruel pain, and in the midst  of its thick darkness

the light of love, which had burned steadily at  his bedside, was suddenly extinguished. 

There were times in which the thought would force itself upon my  consciousness, How long is the universe to

look upon this dreadful  experiment of a malarious planet, with its unmeasurable freight of  suffering, its

poisonous atmosphere, so sweet to breathe, so sure to  kill in a few scores of years at farthest, and its

heartbreaking  woes which make even that brief space of time an eternity?  There can  be but one answer that

will meet this terrible question, which must  arise in every thinking nature that would fain "justify the ways of

God to men."  So must it be until that 

         "one faroff divine event

          To which the whole creation moves"

has become a reality, and the anthem in which there is no  discordant  note shall be joined by a voice from

every life made  "perfect through  sufferings." 

Such was the lesson into which I lived in those sad yet placid  years  of companionship with my suffering and

sorrowing friend, in  retracing  which I seemed to find another existence mingled with my  own. 

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since he has left us than  while he was here in living form and feature.  I did not know how  difficult a task I

had undertaken in venturing upon a memoir of a man  whom all, or almost all, agree upon as one of the great

lights of the  New World, and whom very many regard as an unpredicted Messiah.  Never  before was I so

forcibly reminded of Carlyle's description of  the work  of a newspaper editor,that threshing of straw already

thrice beaten  by the flails of other laborers in the same field.  What could be said  that had not been said of

"transcendentalism" and  of him who was  regarded as its prophet; of the poet whom some admired  without

understanding, a few understood, or thought they did, without  admiring, and many both understood and

admired,among these there  being not a small number who went far beyond admiration, and lost  themselves

in devout worship?  While one exalted him as "the greatest  man that ever lived," another, a friend, famous in

the world of  letters, wrote expressly to caution me against the danger of  overrating a writer whom he is

content to recognize as an American  Montaigne, and nothing more. 

After finishing this Memoir, which has but just left my hands, I  would gladly have let my brain rest for a

while.  The wide range of  thought which belonged to the subject of the Memoir, the occasional  mysticism and

the frequent tendency toward it, the sweep of  imagination and the sparkle of wit which kept his reader's mind

on  the stretch, the union of prevailing good sense with exceptional  extravagances, the modest audacity of a

nature that showed itself in  its naked truthfulness and was not ashamed, the feeling that I was in  the company

of a sibylline intelligence which was discounting the  promises of the remote future long before they were

due,all this  made the task a grave one.  But when I found myself amidst the  vortices of uncounted, various,

bewildering judgments, Catholic and  Protestant, orthodox and liberal, scholarly from under the tree of

knowledge and instinctive from over the potatohill; the passionate  enthusiasm of young adorers and the

cool, if not cynical, estimate of  hardened critics, all intersecting each other as they whirled, each  around its

own centre, I felt that it was indeed very difficult to  keep the faculties clear and the judgment unbiassed. 

It is a great privilege to have lived so long in the society of  such  a man.  "He nothing common" said, "or

mean."  He was always the  same  pure and highsouled companion.  After being with him virtue  seemed  as

natural to man as its opposite did according to the old  theologies.  But how to let one's self down from the

high level of  such a character to one's own poor standard?  I trust that the  influence of this long intellectual

and spiritual companionship never  absolutely leaves one who has lived in it.  It may come to him in the  form

of selfreproach that he falls so far short of the superior  being who has been so long the object of his

contemplation.  But it  also carries him at times into the other's personality, so that he  finds himself thinking

thoughts that are not his own, using phrases  which he has unconsciously borrowed, writing, it may be, as

nearly  like his longstudied original as Julio Romano's painting was like  Raphael's ; and all this with the

unquestioning conviction that he is  talking from his own consciousness in his own natural way.  So far as

tones and expressions and habits which belonged to the idiosyncrasy  of the original are borrowed by the

student of his life, it is a  misfortune for the borrower.  But to share the inmost consciousness  of a noble

thinker, to scan one's self in the white light of a pure  and radiant soul,this is indeed the highest form of

teaching and  discipline. 

I have written these few memoirs, and I am grateful for all that  they  have taught me.  But let me write no

more.  There are but two  biographers who can tell the story of a man's or a woman's life.  One  is the person

himself or herself; the other is the Recording Angel.  The autobiographer cannot be trusted to tell the whole

truth, though  he may tell nothing but the truth, and the Recording Angel never lets  his book go out of his own

hands.  As for myself, I would say to my  friends, in the Oriental phrase, "Live forever!"  Yes, live forever,  and

I, at least, shall not have to wrong your memories by my  imperfect record and unsatisfying commentary. 

In connection with these biographies, or memoirs, more properly, in  which I have written of my departed

friends, I hope my readers will  indulge me in another personal reminiscence.  I have just lost my  dear and

honored contemporary of the last century.  A hundred years  ago this day, December 13, 1784, died the

admirable and ever to be  remembered Dr. Samuel Johnson.  The year 1709 was made ponderous and

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year 1809 of the present  century.  Summer was just ending when those four letters, "son b."  were written

under the date of my birth, August 29th.  Autumn had  just begun when my great precontemporary entered

this unChristian  universe and was made a member of the Christian church on the same  day, for he was born

and baptized on the 18th of September. 

Thus there was established a close bond of relationship between the  great English scholar and writer and

myself.  Year by year, and  almost month by month, my life has kept pace in this century with his  life in the

last century.  I had only to open my Boswell at any time,  and I knew just what Johnson at my age, twenty or

fifty or seventy,  was thinking and doing; what were his feelings about life; what  changes the years had

wrought in his body, his mind, his feelings,  his companionships, his reputation.  It was for me a kind of unison

between two instruments, both playing that old familiar air, "Life,"  one a bassoon, if you will, and the

other an oaten pipe, if you  care to find an image for it, but still keeping pace with each other  until the players

both grew old and gray.  At last the thinner thread  of sound is heard by itself, and its deep accompaniment

rolls out its  thunder no more. 

I feel lonely now that my great companion and friend of so many  years  has left me.  I felt more intimately

acquainted with him than I  do  with many of my living friends.  I can hardly remember when I did  not  know

him.  I can see him in his bushy wig, exactly like that of  the  Reverend Dr. Samuel Cooper (who died in

December, 1783) as Copley  painted him,he hangs there on my wall, over the revolving bookcase.  His

ample coat, too, I see, with its broad flaps and many buttons and  generous cuffs, and beneath it the long, still

more copiously  buttoned waistcoat, arching in front of the fine crescentic, almost  semilunar Falstaffian

prominence, involving no less than a dozen of  the abovementioned buttons, and the strong legs with their

sturdy  calves, fitting columns of support to the massive body and solid,  capacious brain enthroned over it.  I

can hear him with his heavy  tread as he comes in to the Club, and a gap is widened to make room  for his

portly figure.  "A fine day," says Sir Joshua.  "Sir," he  answers, "it seems propitious, but the atmosphere is

humid and the  skies are nebulous," at which the great painter smiles, shifts his  trumpet, and takes a pinch of

snuff. 

Dear old massive, deepvoiced dogmatist and hypochondriac of the  eighteenth century, how one would like

to sit at some ghastly Club,  between you and the bony, "mightymouthed," harshtoned termagant and

dyspeptic of the nineteenth!  The growl of the English mastiff and  the snarl of the Scotch terrier would make a

duet which would enliven  the shores of Lethe.  I wish I could find our "spiritualist's" paper  in the Portfolio, in

which the two are brought together, but I hardly  know what I shall find when it is opened. 

Yes, my life is a little less precious to me since I have lost that  dear old friend; and when the funeral train

moves to Westminster  Abbey next Saturday, for I feel as if this were 1784, and not 1884,  I seem to find

myself following the hearse, one of the silent  mourners. 

Among the events which have rendered the past year memorable to me  has been the demolition of that

venerable and interesting old  dwellinghouse, precious for its intimate association with the  earliest stages of

the war of the Revolution, and sacred to me as my  birthplace and the home of my boyhood. 

The "Old Gambrelroofed House" exists no longer.  I remember saying  something, in one of a series of

papers published long ago, about the  experience of dying out of a house,of leaving it forever, as the  soul

dies out of the body.  We may die out of many houses, but the  house itself can die but once; and so real is the

life of a house to  one who has dwelt in it, more especially the life of the house which  held him in dreamy

infancy, in restless boyhood, in passionate  youth,so real, I say, is its life, that it seems as if something  like

a soul of it must outlast its perishing frame. 

The slaughter of the Old Gambrelroofed House was, I am ready to  admit, a case of justifiable domicide.  Not

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some of the footprints of the heroes and  martyrs who took the first steps in the long and bloody march which

led us through the wilderness to the promised land of independent  nationality.  Personally, I have a right to

mourn for it as a part of  my life gone from me.  My private grief for its loss would be a  matter for my solitary

digestion, were it not that the experience  through which I have just passed is one so familiar to my fellow

countrymen that, in telling my own reflections and feelings, I am  repeating those of great numbers of men

and women who have had the  misfortune to outlive their birthplace. 

It is a great blessing to be born surrounded by a natural horizon.  The Old Gambrelroofed House could not

boast an unbroken ring of  natural objects encircling it.  Northerly it looked upon its own  outbuildings and

some unpretending twostory houses which had been  its neighbors for a century and more.  To the south of it

the square  brick dormitories and the belfried hall of the university helped to  shut out the distant view.  But the

west windows gave a broad outlook  across the common, beyond which the historical "Washington elm" and

two companions in line with it, spread their leaves in summer and  their networks in winter.  And far away rose

the hills that bounded  the view, with the glimmer here and there of the white walls or the  illuminated

casements of some embowered, halfhidden villa.  Eastwardly also, the prospect was, in my earlier

remembrance, widely  open, and I have frequently seen the sunlit sails gliding along as if  through the level

fields, for no water was visible.  So there were  broad expanses on two sides at least, for my imagination to

wander  over. 

I cannot help thinking that we carry our childhood's horizon with  us  all our days.  Among these western

wooded hills my daydreams built  their fairy palaces, and even now, as I look at them from my library

window, across the estuary of the Charles, I find myself in the  familiar home of my early visions.  The "clouds

of glory" which we  trail with us in after life need not be traced to a prenatal state.  There is enough to

account for them in that unconsciously remembered  period of existence before we have learned the hard

limitations of  real life.  Those earliest months in which we lived in sensations  without words, and ideas not

fettered in sentences, have all the  freshness of proofs of an engraving "before the letter."  I am very  thankful

that the first part of my life was not passed shut in  between high walls and treading the unimpressible and

unsympathetic  pavement. 

Our university town was very much like the real country, in those  days of which I am thinking.  There were

plenty of huckleberries and  blueberries within half a mile of the house.  Blackberries ripened in  the fields,

acorns and shagbarks dropped from the trees, squirrels  ran among the branches, and not rarely the henhawk

might be seen  circling over the barnyard.  Still another rural element was not  wanting, in the form of that

fardiffused, infragrant effluvium,  which, diluted by a good half mile of pure atmosphere, is no longer

odious, nay is positively agreeable, to many who have long known it,  though its source and centre has an

unenviable reputation.  I need  not name the animal whose Parthian warfare terrifies and puts to  flight the

mightiest hunter that ever roused the tiger from his  jungle or faced the lion of the desert.  Strange as it may

seem, an  aerial hint of his personality in the far distance always awakens in  my mind pleasant remembrances

and tender reflections.  A whole  neighborhood rises up before me: the barn, with its haymow, where the  hens

laid their eggs to hatch, and we boys hid our apples to ripen,  both occasionally illustrating the sic vos non

vobis; the shed, where  the annual Tragedy of the Pig was acted with a realism that made  Salvini's Othello

seem but a pale counterfeit; the rickety old  outhouse, with the "cornchamber" which the mice knew so well;

the  paved yard, with its open gutter,these and how much else come up at  the hint of my faroff friend, who

is my very near enemy.  Nothing is  more familiar than the power of smell in reviving old memories.  There

was that quite different fragrance of the woodhouse, the smell  of  fresh sawdust.  It comes back to me now,

and with it the hiss of  the  saw; the tumble of the divorced logs which God put together and  man  has just put

asunder; the coming down of the axe and the hah!  that  helped it,the straightgrained stick opening at the

first  appeal of  the implement as if it were a pleasure, and the stick with  a knot in  the middle of it that mocked

the blows and the hahs!  until  the beetle  and wedge made it listen to reason,there are just such

straightgrained and just such knotty men and women.  All this passes  through my mind while Biddy, whose

parlorname is Angela, contents  herself with exclaiming "egh!*******!" 


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How different distances were in those young days of which I am  thinking!  From the old house to the old

yellow meetinghouse, where  the head of the family preached and the limbs of the family listened,  was not

much more than two or three times the width of Commonwealth  Avenue.  But of a hot summer's afternoon,

after having already heard  one sermon, which could not in the nature of things have the charm of  novelty of

presentation to the members of the home circle, and the  theology of which was not too clear to tender

apprehensions; with  three hymns more or less lugubrious, rendered by a villagechoir, got  into voice by

many preliminary snuffles and other expiratory efforts,  and accompanied by the snort of a huge bassviol

which wallowed  through the tune like a hippopotamus, with other exercises of the  customary

character,after all this in the forenoon, the afternoon  walk to the meetinghouse in the hot sun counted for

as much, in my  childish deadreckoning, as from old Israel Porter's in Cambridge to  the Exchange

Coffeehouse in Boston did in after years.  It takes a  good while to measure the radius of the circle that is about

us, for  the moon seems at first as near as the watchface.  Who knows but  that, after a certain number of ages,

the planet we live on may seem  to us no bigger than our neighbor Venus appeared when she passed  before

the sun a few months ago, looking as if we could take her  between our thumb and finger, like a bullet or a

marble?  And time,  too; how long was it from the serious sunrise to the joyous "sun  down" of an

oldfashioned, puritanical, judaical first day of the  week, which a pious fraud christened "the Sabbath"?  Was

it a  fortnight, as we now reckon duration, or only a week?  Curious  entities, or nonentities, space and tithe?

When you see a  metaphysician trying to wash his hands of them and get rid of these  accidents, so as to lay his

dry, clean palm on the absolute, does  it  not remind you of the hopeless task of changing the color of the

blackamoor by a similar proceeding?  For space is the fluid in which  he is washing, and time is the soap which

he is using up in the  process, and he cannot get free from them until he can wash himself  in a mental vacuum. 

In my reference to the old house in a former paper, published years  ago, I said, 

"By and by the stony foot of the great University will plant itself  on this whole territory, and the private

recollections which clung so  tenaciously to the place and its habitations will have died with  those who

cherished them." 

What strides the great University has taken since those words were  written!  During all my early years our old

Harvard Alma Mater sat  still and lifeless as the colossi in the Egyptian desert.  Then all  at once, like the statue

in Don Giovanni, she moved from her  pedestal.  The fall of that "stony foot" has effected a miracle like  the

harp that Orpheus played, like the teeth which Cadmus sowed.  The  plain where the moose and the bear were

wandering while Shakespeare  was writing Hamlet, where a few plain dormitories and other needed  buildings

were scattered about in my schoolboy days, groans under  the weight of the massive edifices which have

sprung up all around  them, crowned by the tower of that noble structure which stands in  full view before me

as I lift my eyes from the portfolio on the back  of which I am now writing. 

For I must be permitted to remind you that I have not yet opened  it.  I have told you that I have just finished a

long memoir, and that  it  has cost me no little labor to overcome some of its  difficulties,if  I have overcome

them, which others must decide.  And  I feel exactly  as honest Dobbin feels when his harness is slipped off

after a long  journey with a good deal of uphill work.  He wants to  rest a little,  then to feed a little; then, if

you will turn him loose  in the  pasture, he wants to roll.  I have left my starry and ethereal

companionship,not for a long time, I hope, for it has lifted me  above my common self, but for a while.

And now I want, so to speak,  to roll in the grass and among the dandelions with the other  pachyderms.  So I

have kept to the outside of the portfolio as yet,  and am disporting myself in reminiscences, and fancies, and

vagaries,  and parentheses. 

How well I understand the feeling which led the Pisans to load  their  vessels with earth from the Holy Land,

and fill the area of the  Campo  Santo with that sacred soil!  The old house stood upon about as  perverse a little

patch of the planet as ever harbored a halfstarved  earthworm.  It was as sandy as Sahara and as thirsty as

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it.  I tried to disprove their  assertion by gorging it with the best of terrestrial nourishment,  until I became

convinced that I was feeding the teaplants of China,  and then I gave over the attempt.  And yet I did love,

and do love,  that arid patch of ground.  I wonder if a single flower could not be  made to grow in a pot of earth

from that Campo Santo of my childhood!  One noble product of nature did not refuse to flourish there,the

tall, stately, beautiful, softhaired, manyjointed, generous maize  or Indian corn, which thrives on sand and

defies the blaze of our  shrivelling summer.  What child but loves to wander in its forest  like depths, amidst

the rustling leaves and with the lofty tassels  tossing their heads high above him!  There are two aspects of the

cornfield which always impress my imagination: the first when it has  reached its full growth, and its ordered

ranks look like an army on  the march with its plumed and bannered battalions; the second when,  after the

battle of the harvest, the girdled stacks stand on the  field of slaughter like so many ragged Niobes,say

rather like the  crazy widows and daughters of the dead soldiery. 

Once more let us come back to the old house.  It was far along in  its  second century when the edict went forth

that it must stand no  longer. 

The natural death of a house is very much like that of one of its  human tenants.  The roof is the first part to

show the distinct signs  of age.  Slates and tiles loosen and at last slide off, and leave  bald the boards that

supported them; shingles darken and decay, and  soon the garret or the attic lets in the rain and the snow; by

and by  the beams sag, the floors warp, the walls crack, the paper peels  away, the ceilings scale off and fall,

the windows are crusted with  clinging dust, the doors drop from their rusted hinges, the winds  come in

without knocking and howl their cruel deathsongs through the  empty rooms and passages, and at last there

comes a crash, a great  cloud of dust rises, and the home that had been the shelter of  generation after

generation finds its grave in its own cellar.  Only  the chimney remains as its monument.  Slowly, little by little,

the  patient solvents that find nothing too hard for their chemistry pick  out the mortar from between the bricks;

at last a mighty wind roars  around it and rushes against it, and the monumental relic crashes  down among the

wrecks it has long survived.  So dies a human  habitation left to natural decay, all that was seen above the

surface  of the soil sinking gradually below it, 

     Till naught remains the saddening tale to tell

     Save home's last wrecks, the cellar and the well.

But if this sight is saddening, what is it to see a human dwelling  fall by the hand of violence!  The ripping off

of the shelter that  has kept out a thousand storms, the tearing off of the once  ornamental woodwork, the

wrench of the inexorable crowbar, the  murderous blows of the axe, the progressive ruin, which ends by

rending all the joints asunder and flinging the tenoned and mortised  timbers into heaps that will be sawed and

split to warm some new  habitation as firewood,what a brutal act of destruction it seems! 

Why should I go over the old house again, having already described  it  more than ten years ago?  Alas!  how

many remember anything they  read  but once, and so long ago as that?  How many would find it out if  one

should say over in the same words that which he said in the last  decade?  But there is really no need of telling

the story a second  time, for it can be found by those who are curious enough to look it  up in a volume of

which it occupies the opening chapter. 

In order, however, to save any inquisitive reader that trouble, let  me remind him that the old house was

General Ward's headquarters at  the breaking out of the Revolution; that the plan for fortifying  Bunker's Hill

was laid, as commonly believed, in the southeast lower  room, the floor of which was covered with dents,

made, it was  alleged, by the butts of the soldiers' muskets.  In that house, too,  General Warren probably

passed the night before the Bunker Hill  battle, and over its threshold must the stately figure of Washington

have often cast its shadow. 

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was a personality, an ego, a  little universe with a sky over him all his own, with a persistent  identity, with the

terrible responsibility of a separate,  independent, inalienable existence,that house does not ask for any

historical associations to make it the centre of the earth for him. 

If there is any person in the world to be envied, it is the one who  is born to an ancient estate, with a long line

of family traditions  and the means in his hands of shaping his mansion and his domain to  his own taste,

without losing sight of all the characteristic  features which surrounded his earliest years.  The American is, for

the most part, a nomad, who pulls down his house as the Tartar pulls  up his tentpoles.  If I had an ideal life to

plan for him it would  be something like this: 

His grandfather should be a wise, scholarly, largebrained, large  hearted country minister, from whom he

should inherit the temperament  that predisposes to cheerfulness and enjoyment, with the finer  instincts which

direct life to noble aims and make it rich with the  gratification of pure and elevated tastes and the carrying out

of  plans for the good of his neighbors and his fellowcreatures.  He  should, if possible, have been born, at any

rate have passed some of  his early years, or a large part of them, under the roof of the good  old minister.  His

father should be, we will say, a business man in  one of our great cities,a generous manipulator of millions,

some of  which have adhered to his private fortunes, in spite of his liberal  use of his means.  His heir, our

ideally placed American, shall take  possession of the old house, the home of his earliest memories, and

preserve it sacredly, not exactly like the Santa Casa, but, as nearly  as may be, just as he remembers it.  He can

add as many acres as he  will to the narrow houselot.  He can build a grand mansion for  himself, if he

chooses, in the not distant neighborhood.  But the old  house, and all immediately round it, shall be as he

recollects it  when be had to stretch his little arm up to reach the doorhandles.  Then, having well provided

for his own household, himself included,  let him become the providence of the village or the town where be

finds himself during at least a portion of every year.  Its schools,  its library, its poor,and perhaps the new

clergyman who has  succeeded his grandfather's successor may be one of them,all its  interests, he shall

make his own.  And from this centre his  beneficence shall radiate so far that all who hear of his wealth  shall

also hear of him as a friend to his race. 

Is not this a pleasing programme?  Wealth is a steep hill, which  the  father climbs slowly and the son often

tumbles down precipitately;  but there is a tableland on a level with it, which may be found by  those who do

not lose their head in looking down from its sharply  cloven summit.Our dangerously rich men can make

themselves hated,  held as enemies of the race, or beloved and recognized as its  benefactors.  The clouds of

discontent are threatening, but if the  goldpointed lightningrods are rightly distributed the destructive

element may be drawn off silently and harmlessly.  For it cannot be  repeated too often that the safety of great

wealth with us lies in  obedience to the new version of the Old World axiom, RICHESS oblige. 

THE NEW PORTFOLIO: FIRST OPENING. 

A MORTAL ANTIPATHY. 

I. GETTING READY.

It is impossible to begin a story which must of necessity tax the  powers of belief of readers unacquainted with

the class of facts to  which its central point of interest belongs without some words in the  nature of

preparation.  Readers of Charles Lamb remember that Sarah  Battle insisted on a cleanswept hearth before

sitting down to her  favorite game of whist. 

The narrator wishes to sweep the hearth, as it were, in these  opening  pages, before sitting down to tell his

story.  He does not  intend to  frighten the reader away by prolix explanation, but he does  mean to  warn him

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he ever see the  Siamese twins, or any pair like them?  Probably not, yet he feels  sure that Chang and Eng

really existed; and if he has taken the  trouble to inquire, he has satisfied himself that similar cases have  been

recorded by credible witnesses, though at long intervals and in  countries far apart from each other. 

This is the first sweep of the brush, to clear the hearth of the  skepticism and incredulity which must be got out

of the way before we  can begin to tell and to listen in peace with ourselves and each  other. 

One more stroke of the brush is needed before the stage will be  ready  for the chief characters and the leading

circumstances to which  the  reader's attention is invited.  If the principal personages made  their entrance at

once, the reader would have to create for himself  the whole scenery of their surrounding conditions.  In point

of fact,  no matter how a story is begun, many of its readers have already  shaped its chief actors out of any

hint the author may have dropped,  and provided from their own resources a locality and a set of outward

conditions to environ these imagined personalities.  These are all to  be brushed away, and the actual

surroundings of the subject of the  narrative represented as they were, at the risk of detaining the  reader a little

while from the events most likely to interest him.  The choicest egg that ever was laid was not so big as the

nest that  held it.  If a story were so interesting that a maiden would rather  hear it than listen to the praise of her

own beauty, or a poet would  rather read it than recite his own verses, still it would have to be  wrapped in

some tissue of circumstance, or it would lose half its  effectiveness. 

It may not be easy to find the exact locality referred to in this  narrative by looking into the first gazetteer that

is at hand.  Recent  experiences have shown that it is unsafe to be too exact in  designating places and the

people who live in them.  There are, it  may be added, so many advertisements disguised under the form of

stories and other literary productions that one naturally desires to  avoid the suspicion of being employed by

the enterprising proprietors  of this or that celebrated resort to use his gifts for their especial  benefit.  There are

no doubt many persons who remember the old sign  and the old tavern and its four chief personages presently

to be  mentioned.  It is to be hoped that they will not furnish the public  with a key to this narrative, and perhaps

bring trouble to the writer  of it, as has happened to other authors.  If the real names are a  little altered, it need

not interfere with the important facts  relating to those who bear them.  It might not be safe to tell a  damaging

story about John or James Smythe; but if the slight change  is made of spelling the name Smith, the Smythes

would never think of  bringing an action, as if the allusion related to any of them.  The  same gulf of family

distinction separates the Thompsons with a p from  the Thomsons without that letter. 

There are few pleasanter places in the Northern States for a summer  residence than that known from the first

period of its settlement by  the name of Arrowhead Village.  The Indians had found it out, as the  relics they left

behind them abundantly testified.  The commonest of  these were those chipped stones which are the medals of

barbarism,  and from Which the place took its name,the heads of arrows, of  various sizes, material, and

patterns: some small enough for killing  fish and little birds, some large enough for such game as the moose

and the bear, to say nothing of the hostile Indian and the white  settler; some of flint, now and then one of

white quartz, and others  of variously colored jasper.  The Indians must have lived here for  many generations,

and it must have been a kind of factory village of  the stone age,which lasted up to near the present time, if

we may  judge from the fact that many of these relics are met with close to  the surface of the ground. 

No wonder they found this a pleasant residence, for it is today  one  of the most attractive of all summer

resorts; so inviting, indeed,  that those who know it do not like to say too much about it, lest the  swarms of

tourists should make it unendurable to those who love it  for itself, and not as a centre of fashionable display

and extramural  cockneyism. 

There is the lake, in the first place,Cedar Lake,about five  miles  long, and from half a mile to a mile and

a half wide, stretching  from  north to south.  Near the northern extremity are the buildings of  Stoughton

University, a flourishing young college with an ambitious  name, but well equipped and promising, the

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favorite school for young ladies, where large  numbers of the daughters of America are fitted, so far as

education  can do it, for all stations in life, from camping out with a husband  at the mines in Nevada to acting

the part of chief lady of the land  in the White House at Washington. 

Midway between the two extremities, on the eastern shore of the  lake,  is a valley between two hills, which

come down to the very edge  of  the lake, leaving only room enough for a road between their base  and  the

water.  This valley, half a mile in width, has been long  settled,  and here for a century or more has stood the

old Anchor  Tavern.  A  famous place it was so long as its sign swung at the side  of the  road: famous for its

landlord, portly, paternal, whose welcome  to a  guest that looked worthy of the attention was like that of a

parent  to a returning prodigal, and whose parting words were almost as  good  as a marriage benediction;

famous for its landlady, ample in  person,  motherly, seeing to the whole household with her own eyes,

mistress  of all culinary secrets that Northern kitchens are most proud  of;  famous also for its ancient servant,

as city people would call  her,  help, as she was called in the tavern and would have called  herself,the

unchanging, seemingly immortal Miranda, who cared for  the guests as if she were their nursing mother, and

pressed the  specially favorite delicacies on their attention as a connoisseur  calls the wandering eyes of an

amateur to the beauties of a picture.  Who that has ever been at the old Anchor Tavern forgets Miranda's 

     "A little of this fricassee?it is very nice;"

or 

     "Some of these cakes?  You will find them very good."

Nor would it be just to memory to forget that other notable and  noted  member of the household,the

unsleeping, unresting, omnipresent  Pushee, ready for everybody and everything, everywhere within the  limits

of the establishment at all hours of the day and night.  He  fed, nobody could say accurately when or where.

There were rumors of  a "bunk," in which he lay down with his clothes on, but he seemed to  be always wide

awake, and at the service of as many guest, at once as  if there had been half a dozen of him. 

So much for old reminiscences. 

The landlord of the Anchor Tavern had taken down his sign.  He had  had the house thoroughly renovated and

furnished it anew, and kept it  open in summer for a few boarders.  It happened more than once that  the

summer boarders were so much pleased with the place that they  stayed on through the autumn, and some of

them through the winter.  The attractions of the village were really remarkable.  Boating in  summer, and

skating in winter; iceboats, too, which the wild ducks  could hardly keep up with; fishing, for which the lake

was renowned;  varied and beautiful walks through the valley and up the hillsides;  houses sheltered from the

north and northeasterly winds, and  refreshed in the hot summer days by the breeze which came over the

water,all this made the frame for a pleasing picture of rest and  happiness.  But there was a great deal more

than this.  There was a  fine library in the little village, presented and richly endowed by a  wealthy native of

the place.  There was a small permanent population  of a superior character to that of an everyday country

town; there  was a pretty little Episcopal church, with a goodhearted rector,  broad enough for the Bishop of

the diocese to be a little afraid of,  and hospitable to all outsiders, of whom, in the summer season, there  were

always some who wanted a place of worship to keep their religion  from dying out during the heathen months,

while the shepherds of the  flocks to which they belonged were away from their empty folds. 

What most helped to keep the place alive all through the year was  the  frequent coming together of the

members of a certain literary  association.  Some time before the tavern took down its sign the  landlord had

built a hall, where many a ball had been held, to which  the young folks of all the country round had resorted.

It was still  sometimes used for similar occasions, but it was especially notable  as being the place of meeting

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This association, the name of which might be invidiously  interpreted  as signifying that its members knew

everything, had no  such  pretensions, but, as its Constitution said very plainly and  modestly,  held itself open

to accept knowledge on any and all subjects  from  such as had knowledge to impart.  Its President was the

rector of  the  little chapel, a man who, in spite of the ThirtyNine Articles,  could  stand fire from the

widestmouthed heretical blunderbuss without  flinching or losing his temper.  The hall of the old Anchor

Tavern  was a convenient place of meeting for the students and instructors of  the University and the Institute.

Sometimes in boatloads, sometimes  in carriageloads, sometimes in processions of skaters, they came to  the

meetings in Pansophian Hall, as it was now commonly called. 

These meetings had grown to be occasions of great interest.  It was  customary to have papers written by

members of the Society, for the  most part, but now and then by friends of the members, sometimes by  the

students of the College or the Institute, and in rarer instances  by anonymous personages, whose papers,

having been looked over and  discussed by the Committee appointed for that purpose, were thought  worth

listening to.  The variety of topics considered was very great.  The young ladies of the village and the Institute

had their favorite  subjects, the young gentlemen a different set of topics, and the  occasional outside

contributors their own; so that one who happened  to be admitted to a meeting never knew whether he was

going to hear  an account of recent arctic discoveries, or an essay on the freedom  of the will, or a

psychological experience, or a story, or even a  poem. 

Of late there had been a tendency to discuss the questions relating  to the true status and the legitimate social

functions of woman.  The  most conflicting views were held on the subject.  Many of the young  ladies and

some of the University students were strong in defence of  all the "woman's rights" doctrines.  Some of these

young people were  extreme in their views.  They had read about Semiramis and Boadicea  and Queen

Elizabeth, until they were ready, if they could get the  chance, to vote for a woman as President of the United

States or as  General of the United States Army.  They were even disposed to assert  the physical equality of

woman to man, on the strength of the rather  questionable history of the Amazons, and especially of the story,

believed to be authentic, of the female bodyguard of the King of  Dahomey,females frightful enough to

need no other weapon than their  looks to scare off an army of Cossacks. 

Miss Lurida Vincent, gold medallist of her year at the Corinna  Institute, was the leader of these advocates of

virile womanhood.  It  was rather singular that she should have elected to be the apostle of  this extreme

doctrine, for she was herself far better equipped with  brain than muscles.  In fact, she was a largeheaded,

largeeyed,  longeyelashed, slendernecked, slightly developed young woman;  looking almost like a child at

an age when many of the girls had  reached their full stature and proportions.  In her studies she was  so far in

advance of her different classes that there was always a  wide gap between her and the second scholar.  So

fatal to all rivalry  had she proved herself that she passed under the school name of The  Terror.  She learned so

easily that she undervalued her own  extraordinary gifts, and felt the deepest admiration for those of her

friends endowed with faculties of an entirely different and almost  opposite nature.  After sitting at her desk

until her head was hot  and her feet were like ice, she would go and look at the blooming  young girls

exercising in the gymnasium of the school, and feel as if  she would give all her knowledge, all her

mathematics and strange  tongues and history, all those accomplishments that made her the  encyclopaedia of

every class she belonged to, if she could go through  the series of difficult and graceful exercises in which she

saw her  schoolmates delighting. 

One among them, especially, was the object of her admiration, as  she  was of all who knew her exceptional

powers in the line for which  nature had specially organized her.  All the physical perfections  which Miss

Lurida had missed had been united in Miss Euthymia Tower,  whose school name was The Wonder.  Though

of full womanly stature,  there were several taller girls of her age.  While all her contours  and all her

movements betrayed a fine muscular development, there was  no lack of proportion, and her finely shaped

hands and feet showed  that her organization was one of those carefully finished  masterpieces of nature which

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laboratory. 

This girl of eighteen was more famous than she cared to be for her  performances in the gymnasium.  She

commonly contented herself with  the same exercises that her companions were accustomed to.  Only her

dumbbells, with which she exercised easily and gracefully, were too  heavy for most of the girls to do more

with than lift them from the  floor.  She was fond of daring feats on the trapeze, and had to be  checked in her

indulgence in them.  The Professor of gymnastics at  the University came over to the Institute now and then,

and it was a  source of great excitement to watch some of the athletic exercises in  which the young lady

showed her remarkable muscular strength and  skill in managing herself in the accomplishment of feats which

looked  impossible at first sight.  How often The Terror had thought to  herself that she would gladly give up all

her knowledge of Greek and  the differential and integral calculus if she could only perform the  least of those

feats which were mere play to The Wonder!  Miss  Euthymia was not behind the rest in her attainments in

classical or  mathematical knowledge, and she was one of the very best students in  the outdoor

branches,botany, mineralogy, sketching from nature,  to be found among the scholars of the Institute. 

There was an eightoared boat rowed by a crew of the young ladies,  of  which Miss Euthymia was the captain

and pulled the bow oar.  Poor  little Lurida could not pull an oar, but on great occasions, when  there were

many boats out, she was wanted as coxswain, being a mere  featherweight, and quickwitted enough to

serve well in the  important office where brains are more needed than muscle. 

There was also an eightoared boat belonging to the University, and  rowed by a picked crew of stalwart

young fellows.  The bow oar and  captain of the University crew was a powerful young man, who, like  the

captain of the girls' boat, was a noted gymnast.  He had had one  or two quiet trials with Miss Euthymia, in

which, according to the  ultras of the woman's rights party, he had not vindicated the  superiority of his sex in

the way which might have been expected.  Indeed, it was claimed that he let a cannonball drop when he

ought  to have caught it, and it was not disputed that he had been  ingloriously knocked over by a sandbag

projected by the strong arms  of the young maiden.  This was of course a story that was widely told  and

laughingly listened to, and the captain of the University crew  had become a little sensitive on the subject.

When there was a talk,  therefore, about a race between the champion boats of the two  institutions there was

immense excitement in both of them, as well as  among the members of the Pansophian Society and all the

good people  of the village. 

There were many objections to be overcome.  Some thought it  unladylike for the young maidens to take part

in a competition which  must attract many lookerson, and which it seemed to them very  hoidenish to venture

upon.  Some said it was a shame to let a crew of  girls try their strength against an equal number of powerful

young  men.  These objections were offset by the advocates of the race by  the following arguments.  They

maintained that it was no more  hoidenish to row a boat than it was to take a part in the calisthenic  exercises,

and that the girls had nothing to do with the young men's  boat, except to keep as much ahead of it as possible.

As to  strength, the woman's righters believed that, weight for weight,  their crew was as strong as the other,

and of course due allowance  would be made for the difference of weight and all other accidental  hindrances.

It was time to test the boasted superiority of masculine  muscle.  Here was a chance.  If the girls beat, the whole

country  would know it, and after that female suffrage would be only a  question of time.  Such was the

conclusion, from rather insufficient  premises, it must be confessed; but if nature does nothing per

saltum,by jumps,as the old adage has it, youth is very apt to  take long leaps from a fact to a possible

sequel or consequence.  So  it had come about that a contest between the two boatcrews was  looked forward

to with an interest almost equal to that with which  the combat between the Horatii and Curiatii was regarded. 

The terms had been at last arranged between the two crews, after  cautious protocols and many diplomatic

discussions.  It was so novel  in its character that it naturally took a good deal of time to adjust  it in such a way

as to be fair to both parties.  The course must not  be too long for the lighter and weaker crew, for the staying

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allowed them at the start, and this was a  delicate matter to settle.  The weather was another important

consideration.  June would be early enough, in all probability, and  if the lake should be tolerably smooth the

grand affair might come  off some time in that month.  Any roughness of the water would be  unfavorable to

the weaker crew.  The rowingcourse was on the eastern  side of the lake, the startingpoint being opposite the

Anchor  Tavern; from that three quarters of a mile to the south, where the  turningstake was fixed, so that the

whole course of one mile and a  half would bring the boats back to their startingpoint. 

The race was to be between the Algonquin, eightoared boat with  outriggers, rowed by young men, students

of Stoughton University, and  the Atalanta, also eightoared and outrigger boat, by young ladies  from the

Corinna Institute.  Their boat was three inches wider than  the other, for various sufficient reasons, one of

which was to make  it a little less likely to go over and throw its crew into the water,  which was a sound

precaution, though all the girls could swim, and  one at least, the bow oar, was a famous swimmer, who had

pulled a  drowning man out of the water after a hard struggle to keep him from  carrying her down with him. 

Though the coming trial had not been advertised in the papers, so  as  to draw together a rabble of betting men

and illconditioned  lookers  on, there was a considerable gathering, made up chiefly of  the  villagers and the

students of the two institutions.  Among them  were  a few who were disposed to add to their interest in the trial

by  small wagers.  The bets were rather in favor of the "Quins," as the  University boat was commonly called,

except where the natural  sympathy of the young ladies or the gallantry of some of the young  men led them to

risk their gloves or cigars, or whatever it might be,  on the Atalantas.  The elements of judgment were these:

average  weight of the Algonquins one hundred and sixtyfive pounds; average  weight of the Atalantas, one

hundred and fortyeight pounds; skill in  practice about equal; advantage of the narrow boat equal to three

lengths; whole distance allowed the Atalantas eight lengths,a long  stretch to be made up in a mile and a

half. 

And so both crews began practising for the grand trial. 

II. THE BOATRACE.

The 10th of June was a delicious summer day, rather warm, but still  and bright.  The water was smooth, and

the crews were in the best  possible condition.  All was expectation, and for some time nothing  but

expectation.  No boatrace or regatta ever began at the time  appointed for the start.  Somebody breaks an oar,

or somebody fails  to appear in season, or something is the matter with a seat or an  outrigger; or if there is no

such excuse, the crew of one or both or  all the boats to take part in the race must paddle about to get

themselves ready for work, to the infinite weariness of all the  spectators, who naturally ask why all this

getting ready is not  attended to beforehand.  The Algonquins wore plain gray flannel suits  and white caps.  The

young ladies were all in dark blue dresses,  touched up with a red ribbon here and there, and wore light straw

hats.  The little coxswain of the Atalanta was the last to step on  board.  As she took her place she carefully

deposited at her feet a  white handkerchief wrapped about something or other, perhaps a  sponge, in case the

boat should take in water. 

At last the Algonquin shot out from the little nook where she  lay,  long, narrow, shining, swift as a pickerel

when he darts from  the  reedy shore.  It was a beautiful sight to see the eight young  fellows  in their

closefitting suits, their brown muscular arms bare,  bending  their backs for the stroke and recovering, as if

they were  parts of a  single machine. 

"The gals can't stan' it agin them fellers," said the old  blacksmith  from the village. 

"You wait till the gals get agoin'," said the carpenter, who had  often worked in the gymnasium of the

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and swing dumbbells, and pull in them rowin'machines.  Ask Jake there whether they can't row a mild in

doublequick time,  he knows all abaout it." 

Jake was by profession a fisherman, and a freshwater fisherman in a  country village is inspectorgeneral of

all that goes on outof  doors, being a lazy, wandering sort of fellow, whose study of the  habits and habitats

of fishes gives him a kind of shrewdness of  observation, just as dealing in horses is an education of certain

faculties, and breeds a race of men peculiarly cunning, suspicious,  wary, and wide awake, with a rhetoric of

appreciation and  depreciation all its own. 

Jake made his usual preliminary signal, and delivered himself to  the  following effect: 

"Wahl, I don' know jest what to say.  I've seed 'em both often  enough  when they was practisin', an' I tell ye

the' wa'n't no slouch  abaout  neither on 'em.  But them bats is allfired long, 'n' eight on  'em  stretched in a

straight line eendways makes a consid'able piece  aout  'f a mile 'n' a haaf.  I'd bate on them gals if it wa'n't that

them  fellers is naterally longer winded, as the gals 'll find aout by  the  time they git raound the stake 'n' over

agin the big ellum.  I'll  go  ye a quarter on the pahnts agin the petticoats." 

The freshwater fisherman had expressed the prevailing belief that  the young ladies were overmatched.  Still

there were not wanting  those who thought the advantage allowed the "Lantas," as they called  the Corinna

boatcrew, was too great, and that it would be impossible  for the "Quins" to make it up and go by them. 

The Algonquins rowed up and down a few times before the spectators.  They appeared in perfect training,

neither too fat nor too fine,  mettlesome as colts, steady as draughthorses, deepbreathed as oxen,  disciplined

to work together as symmetrically as a single sculler  pulls his pair of oars.  The fisherman offered to make his

quarter  fifty cents.  No takers. 

Five minutes passed, and all eyes were strained to the south,  looking  for the Atalanta.  A clump of trees hid

the edge of the lake  along  which the Corinna's boat was stealing towards the  startingpoint.  Presently the

long shell swept into view, with its  blooming rowers,  who, with their ample dresses, seemed to fill it  almost

as full as  Raphael fills his skiff on the edge of the Lake of  Galilee.  But how  steadily the Atalanta came

on!no rocking, no  splashing, no  apparent strain; the bow oar turning to look ahead every  now and  then,

and watching her course, which seemed to be straight as  an  arrow, the beat of the strokes as true and regular

as the pulse of  the healthiest rower among them all.  And if the sight of the other  boat and its crew was

beautiful, how lovely was the look of this!  Eight young girls,young ladies, for those who prefer that more

dignified and less attractive expression,all in the flush of youth,  all in vigorous health; every muscle taught

its duty; each rower  alert, not to be a tenth of a second out of time, or let her oar  dally with the water so as to

lose an ounce of its propelling virtue;  every eye kindling with the hope of victory.  Each of the boats was

cheered as it came in sight, but the cheers for the Atalanta were  naturally the loudest, as the gallantry of one

sex and the clear,  high voices of the other gave it life and vigor. 

"Take your places!" shouted the umpire, five minutes before the  half  hour.  The two boats felt their way

slowly and cautiously to  their  positions, which had been determined by careful measurement.  After a  little

backing and filling they got into line, at the proper  distance  from each other, and sat motionless, their bodies

bent  forward, their  arms outstretched, their oars in the water, waiting for  the word. 

"Go!" shouted the umpire. 

Away sprang the Atalanta, and far behind her leaped the Algonquin,  her oars bending like so many long

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"A stern chase is a long chase," especially when one craft is a  great  distance behind the other.  It looked as if it

would be  impossible  for the rear boat to overcome the odds against it.  Of  course the  Algonquin kept gaining,

but could it possibly gain enough?  That was  the question.  As the boats got farther and farther away, it  became

more and more difficult to determine what change there was in  the  interval between them.  But when they

came to rounding the stake  it  was easier to guess at the amount of space which had been gained.  It  was clear

that something like half the distance, four lengths, as  nearly as could be estimated, had been made up in

rowing the first  three quarters of a mile.  Could the Algonquins do a little better  than this in the second half of

the racecourse, they would be sure  of winning. 

The boats had turned the stake, and were coming in rapidly.  Every  minute the University boat was getting

nearer the other. 

"Go it, Quins!" shouted the students. 

"Pull away, Lantas!" screamed the girls, who were crowding down to  the edge of the water. 

Nearer,nearer,the rear boat is pressing the other more and more  closely,a few more strokes, and they

will be even, for there is but  one length between them, and thirty rods will carry them to the line.  It looks

desperate for the Atalantas.  The bow oar of the Algonquin  turns his head.  He sees the little coxswain leaning

forward at every  stroke, as if her trivial weight were of such mighty consequence,  but a few ounces might

turn the scale of victory.  As he turned he  got a glimpse of the stroke oar of the Atalanta.  What a flash of

loveliness it was!  Her face was like the reddest of June roses, with  the heat and the strain and the passion of

expected triumph.  The  upper button of her closefitting flannel suit had strangled her as  her bosom heaved

with exertion, and it had given way before the  fierce clutch she made at it.  The bow oar was a staunch and

steady  rower, but he was human.  The blade of his oar lingered in the water;  a little more and he would have

caught a crab, and perhaps lost the  race by his momentary bewilderment. 

The boat, which seemed as if it had all the life and nervousness of  a  Derby threeyearold, felt the slight

check, and all her men bent  more vigorously to their oars.  The Atalantas saw the movement, and  made a spurt

to keep their lead and gain upon it if they could.  It  was of no use.  The strong arms of the young men were too

much for  the young maidens; only a few lengths remained to be rowed, and they  would certainly pass the

Atalanta before she could reach the line. 

The little coxswain saw that it was all up with the girls' crew if  she could not save them by some strategic

device. 

     "Dolus an virtus quis in hoste requirat?"

she whispered to herself,for The Terror remembered her Virgil as  she did everything else she ever studied.

As she stooped, she lifted  the handkerchief at her feet, and took from it a flaming bouquet.  "Look!" she cried,

and flung it just forward of the track of the  Algonquin.  The captain of the University boat turned his head,

and  there was the lovely vision which had a moment before bewitched him.  The owner of all that loveliness

must, he thought, have flung the  bouquet.  It was a challenge: how could he be such a coward as to  decline

accepting it 

He was sure he could win the race now, and he would sweep past the  line in triumph with the great bunch of

flowers at the stem of his  boat, proud as Van Tromp in the British channel with the broom at his  masthead. 

He turned the boat's head a little by backing water.  He came up  with  the floating flowers, and near enough to

reach them.  He stooped  and  snatched them up, with the loss perhaps of a second in all,no  more.  He felt

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How can one tell the story of the finish in coldblooded  preterites?  Are we not there ourselves?  Are not our

muscles straining  with those  of these sixteen young creatures, full of hot, fresh blood,  their  nerves all tingling

like so many tightstrained harpstrings,  all  their life concentrating itself in this passionate moment of

supreme  effort?  No!  We are seeing, not telling about what somebody  else  once saw! 

The bow of the Algonquin passes the stern of the Atalanta! 

The bow of the Algonquin is on a level with the middle of the  Atalanta! 

Three more lengths' rowing and the college crew will pass the  girls! 

"Hurrah for the Quins!" The Algonquin ranges up alongside of the  Atalanta! 

"Through with her!  "shouts the captain of the Algonquin. 

"Now, girls!" shrieks the captain of the Atalanta. 

They near the line, every rower straining desperately, almost  madly. 

Crack goes the oar of the Atalanta's captain, and up flash its  splintered fragments, as the stem of her boat

springs past the line,  eighteen inches at least ahead of the Algonquin. 

Hooraw for the Lantas!  Hooraw for the Girls!  Hooraw for the  Institoot!  shout a hundred voices. 

"Hurrah for woman's rights and female suffrage!" pipes the small  voice of The Terror, and there is loud

laughing and cheering all  round. 

She had not studied her classical dictionary and her mythology for  nothing.  "I have paid off one old score,"

she said.  "Set down my  damask roses against the golden apples of Hippomenes!" 

It was that one second lost in snatching up the bouquet which gave  the race to the Atalantas. 

III. THE WHITE CANOE.

While the two boats were racing, other boats with lookerson in  them  were rowing or sailing in the

neighborhood of the racecourse.  The  scene on the water was a gay one, for the young people in the  boats

were, many of them, acquainted with each other.  There was a  good  deal of lively talk until the race became

too exciting.  Then  many  fell silent, until, as the boats neared the line, and still more  as  they crossed it, the

shouts burst forth which showed how a cramp of  attention finds its natural relief in a fit of convulsive

exclamation. 

But far away, on the other side of the lake, a birchbark canoe was  to  be seen, in which sat a young man, who

paddled it skillfully and  swiftly.  It was evident enough that he was watching the race  intently, but the

spectators could see little more than that.  One of  them, however, who sat upon the stand, had a powerful

spyglass, and  could distinguish his motions very minutely and exactly.  It was seen  by this curious observer

that the young man had an operaglass with  him, which he used a good deal at intervals.  The spectator

thought  he kept it directed to the girls' boat, chiefly, if not exclusively.  He thought also that the operaglass

was more particularly pointed  towards the bow of the boat, and came to the natural conclusion that  the bow

oar, Miss Euthymia Tower, captain of the Atalantas, "The  Wonder" of the Corinna Institute, was the

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"Who is that in the canoe over there?" asked the owner of the spy  glass. 

"That's just what we should like to know," answered the old  landlord's wife.  "He and his man boarded with us

when they first  came, but we could never find out anything about him only just his  name and his ways of

living.  His name is Kirkwood, Maurice Kirkwood,  Esq., it used to come on his letters.  As for his ways of

living, he  was the solitariest human being that I ever came across.  His man  carried his meals up to him.  He

used to stay in his room pretty much  all day, but at night he would be off, walking, or riding on  horseback, or

paddling about in the lake, sometimes till nigh  morning.  There's something very strange about that Mr.

Kirkwood.  But  there don't seem to be any harm in him.  Only nobody can guess  what  his business is.  They got

up a story about him at one time.  What do  you think?  They said he was a counterfeiter!  And so they  went one

night to his room, when he was out, and that man of his was  away too,  and they carried keys, and opened

pretty much everything;  and they  foundwell, they found just nothing at all except writings  and

letters,letters from places in America and in England, and some  with  Italian postmarks: that was all.  Since

that time the sheriff  and his  folks have let him alone and minded their own business.  He  was a

gentleman,anybody ought to have known that; and anybody that  knew  about his nice ways of living and

behaving, and knew the kind of  wear  he had for his underclothing, might have known it.  I could have  told

those officers that they had better not bother him.  I know the  ways  of real gentlemen and real ladies, and I

know those fellows in  store  clothes that look a little too fine,outside.  Wait till  washingday  comes!" 

The good lady had her own standards for testing humanity, and they  were not wholly unworthy of

consideration; they were quite as much to  be relied on as the judgments of the travelling phrenologist, who

sent his accomplice on before him to study out the principal  personages in the village, and in the light of

these revelations  interpreted the bumps, with very little regard to Gall and Spurzheim,  or any other

authorities. 

Even with the small amount of information obtained by the search  among his papers and effects, the gossips

of the village had  constructed several distinct histories for the mysterious stranger.  He was an agent of a great

publishing house; a leading contributor to  several important periodicals; the author of that anonymously

published novel which had made so much talk; the poet of a large  clothing establishment; a spy of the Italian,

some said the Russian,  some said the British, Government; a proscribed refugee from some  country where he

had been plotting; a schoolmaster without a school,  a minister without a pulpit, an actor without an

engagement; in  short, there was no end to the perfectly senseless stories that were  told about him, from that

which made him out an escaped convict to  the whispered suggestion that he was the eccentric heir to a great

English title and estate. 

The one unquestionable fact was that of his extraordinary  seclusion.  Nobody in the village, no student in the

University, knew  his  history.  No young lady in the Corinna Institute had ever had a  word  from him.

Sometimes, as the boats of the University or the  Institute  were returning at dusk, their rowers would see the

canoe  stealing  into the shadows as they drew near it.  Sometimes on a  moonlight  night, when a party of the

young ladies were out upon the  lake, they  would see the white canoe gliding ghostlike in the  distance.  And

it  had happened more than once that when a boat's crew  had been out with  singers among them, while they

were in the midst of  a song, the white  canoe would suddenly appear and rest upon the  water,not very near

them, but within hearing distance,and so  remain until the singing  was over, when it would steal away and

be  lost sight of in some inlet  or behind some jutting rock. 

Naturally enough, there was intense curiosity about this young man.  The landlady had told her story, which

explained nothing.  There was  nobody to be questioned about him except his servant, an Italian,  whose name

was Paolo, but who to the village was known as Mr. Paul. 

Mr. Paul would have seemed the easiest person in the world to worm  a  secret out of.  He was goodnatured,

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the little people of the village, and was followed round by  them partly from his personal attraction for them,

and partly because  he was apt to have a stick of candy or a handful of peanuts or other  desirable luxury in his

pocket for any of his little friends he met  with.  He had that wholesome, happy look, so uncommon in our arid

countrymen,a look hardly to be found except where figs and oranges  ripen in the open air.  A kindly

climate to grow up in, a religion  which takes your money and gives you a stamped ticket good at Saint  Peter's

box office, a roomy chest and a good pair of lungs in it, an  honest digestive apparatus, a lively temperament,

a cheerful  acceptance of the place in life assigned to one by nature and  circumstance,these are conditions

under which life may be quite  comfortable to endure, and certainly is very pleasant to contemplate.  All these

conditions were united in Paolo.  He was the easiest;  pleasantest creature to talk with that one could ask for a

companion.  His southern vivacity, his amusing English, his simplicity and  openness, made him friends

everywhere. 

It seemed as if it would be a very simple matter to get the history  of his master out of this guileless and

unsophisticated being.  He  had been tried by all the village experts.  The rector had put a  number of

wellstudied careless questions, which failed of their  purpose.  The old librarian of the town library had taken

note of all  the books he carried to his master, and asked about his studies and  pursuits.  Paolo found it hard to

understand his English, apparently,  and answered in the most irrelevant way.  The leading gossip of the

village tried her skill in pumping him for information.  It was all  in vain. 

His master's way of life was peculiar,in fact, eccentric.  He had  hired rooms in an oldfashioned

threestory house.  He had two rooms  in the second and third stories of this old wooden building: his  study in

the second, his sleepingroom in the one above it.  Paolo  lived in the basement, where he had all the

conveniences for cooking,  and played the part of chef for his master and himself.  This was  only a part of his

duty, for he was a manofallwork, purveyor,  steward, chambermaid,as universal in his services for one

man as  Pushee at the Anchor Tavern used to be for everybody. 

It so happened that Paolo took a severe cold one winter's day, and  had such threatening symptoms that he

asked the baker, when he  called, to send the village physician to see him.  In the course of  his visit the doctor

naturally inquired about the health of Paolo's  master. 

"Signor Kirkwood well,molto bene," said Paolo.  "Why does he keep  out of sight as he does?" asked the

doctor. 

"He always so," replied Paolo.  "Una antipatia." 

Whether Paolo was off his guard with the doctor, whether he  revealed  it to him as to a father confessor, or

whether he thought it  time  that the reason of his master's seclusion should be known, the  doctor  did not feel

sure.  At any rate, Paolo was not disposed to make  any  further revelations.  Una antipatia,an

antipathy,that was all  the  doctor learned.  He thought the matter over, and the more he  reflected the more

he was puzzled.  What could an antipathy be that  made a young man a recluse!  Was it a dread of blue sky and

open air,  of the smell of flowers, or some electrical impression to which be  was unnaturally sensitive? 

Dr. Butts carried these questions home with him.  His wife was a  sensible, discreet woman, whom he could

trust with many professional  secrets.  He told her of Paolo's revelation, and talked it over with  her in the light

of his experience and her own; for she had known  some curious cases of constitutional likes and aversions. 

Mrs.  Butts buried the information in the grave of her memory,  where  it lay for nearly a week.  At the end of

that time it emerged in  a  confidential whisper to her favorite sisterinlaw, a perfectly safe  person.

Twentyfour hours later the story was all over the village  that Maurice Kirkwood was the subject of a

strange, mysterious,  unheardof antipathy to something, nobody knew what; and the whole  neighborhood

naturally resolved itself into an unorganized committee  of investigation. 


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IV

What is a country village without its mysterious personage?  Few  are  now living who can remember the

advent of the handsome young man  who  was the mystery of our great university town "sixty years  since,"

long enough ago for a romance to grow out of a narrative, as  Waverley  may remind us.  The writer of this

narrative remembers him  well, and  is not sure that he has not told the strange story in some  form or  other to

the last generation, or to the one before the last.  No  matter: if he has told it they have forgotten it,that is, if

they  have ever read it; and whether they have or have not, the story  is  singular enough to justify running the

risk of repetition. 

This young man, with a curious name of Scandinavian origin,  appeared  unheralded in the town, as it was

then, of Cantabridge.  He  wanted  employment, and soon found it in the shape of manual labor,  which he

undertook and performed cheerfully.  But his whole appearance  showed  plainly enough that he was bred to

occupations of a very  different  nature, if, in deed, he had been accustomed to any kind of  toil for  his living.

His aspect was that of one of gentle birth.  His  hands  were not those of a laborer, and his features were

delicate and  refined, as well as of remarkable beauty.  Who he was, where he came  from, why he had come to

Cantabridge, was never clearly explained.  He  was alone, without friends, except among the acquaintances he

had  made  in his new residence.  If he had any correspondents, they were  not  known to the neighborhood

where he was living.  But if he had  neither  friends nor correspondents, there was some reason for  believing

that  he had enemies.  Strange circumstances occurred which  connected  themselves with him in an ominous

and unaccountable way.  A  threatening letter was slipped under the door of a house where he was  visiting.  He

had a sudden attack of illness, which was thought to  look very much like the effect of poison.  At one time he

disappeared, and was found wandering, bewildered, in a town many  miles from that where he was residing.

When questioned how he came  there; he told a coherent story that he had been got, under some  pretext, or in

some not incredible way, into a boat, from which, at a  certain landingplace, he had escaped and fled for his

life, which he  believed was in danger from his kidnappers. 

Whoever his enemies may have been,if they really existed,he did  not fall a victim to their plots, so far

as known to or remembered by  this witness. 

Various interpretations were put upon his story.  Conjectures were  as  abundant as they were in the case of

Kaspar Hauser.  That he was of  good family seemed probable; that he was of distinguished birth, not

impossible; that he was the dangerous rival of a candidate for a  greatly coveted position in one of the northern

states of Europe was  a favorite speculation of some of the more romantic young persons.  There was no

dramatic ending to this story,at least none is  remembered by the present writer. 

"He left a name," like the royal Swede, of whose lineage he may  have  been for aught that the village people

knew, but not a name at  which  anybody "grew pale;" for he had swindled no one, and broken no  woman's

heart with false vows.  Possibly some withered cheeks may  flush faintly as they recall the handsome young

man who came before  the Cantabridge maidens fully equipped for a hero of romance when the  century was in

its first quarter. 

The writer has been reminded of the handsome Swede by the incidents  attending the advent of the unknown

and interesting stranger who had  made his appearance at Arrowhead Village. 

It was a very insufficient and unsatisfactory reason to assign for  the young man's solitary habits that he was

the subject of an  antipathy.  For what do we understand by that word?  When a young  lady screams at the sight

of a spider, we accept her explanation that  she has a natural antipathy to the creature.  When a person

expresses  a repugnance to some wholesome article of food, agreeable to most  people, we are satisfied if he

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We do not pretend to go behind the fact.  It is an  individual, and it may be a family, peculiarity.  Even between

different personalities there is an instinctive elective dislike as  well as an elective affinity.  We are not bound

to give a reason why  Dr. Fell is odious to us any more than the prisoner who peremptorily  challenges a

juryman is bound to say why he does it; it is enough  that he "does not like his looks." 

There was nothing strange, then, that Maurice Kirkwood should have  his special antipathy; a great many

other people have odd likes and  dislikes.  But it was a very curious thing that this antipathy should  be alleged

as the reason for his singular mode of life.  All sorts of  explanations were suggested, not one of them in the

least  satisfactory, but serving to keep the curiosity of inquirers active  until they were superseded by a new

theory.  One story was that  Maurice had a great fear of dogs.  It grew at last to a connected  narrative, in which

a fright in childhood from a rabid mongrel was  said to have given him such a sensitiveness to the near

presence of  dogs that he was liable to convulsions if one came close to him. 

This hypothesis had some plausibility.  No other creature would be  so  likely to trouble a person who had an

antipathy to it.  Dogs are  very  apt to make the acquaintance of strangers, in a free and easy  way.  They are met

with everywhere,in one's daily walk, at the  thresholds  of the doors one enters, in the gentleman's library,

on the  rug of my  lady's sittingroom and on the cushion of her carriage.  It  is true  that there are few persons

who have an instinctive repugnance  to this  "friend of man."  But what if this socalled antipathy were  only a

fear, a terror, which borrowed the less unmanly name?  It was a  fair  question, if, indeed, the curiosity of the

public had a right to  ask  any questions at all about a harmless individual who gave no  offence,  and seemed

entitled to the right of choosing his way of  living to  suit himself, without being submitted to espionage. 

There was no positive evidence bearing on the point as yet.  But  one  of the village people had a large

Newfoundland dog, of a very  sociable disposition, with which he determined to test the question.  He watched

for the time when Maurice should leave his house for the  woods or the lake, and started with his dog to meet

him.  The animal  walked up to the stranger in a very sociable fashion, and began  making his acquaintance,

after the usual manner of wellbred dogs;  that is, with the courtesies and blandishments by which the canine

Chesterfield is distinguished from the illconditioned cur.  Maurice  patted him in a friendly way, and spoke to

him as one who was used to  the fellowship of such companions.  That idle question and foolish  story were

disposed of, therefore, and some other solution must be  found, if possible. 

A much more common antipathy is that which is entertained with  regard  to cats.  This has never been

explained.  It is not mere  aversion to  the look of the creature, or to any sensible quality known  to the  common

observer.  The cat is pleasing in aspect, graceful in  movement, nice in personal habits, and of amiable

disposition.  No  cause of offence is obvious, and yet there are many persons who  cannot abide the presence of

the most innocent little kitten.  They  can tell, in some mysterious way, that there is a cat in the room  when

they can neither see nor hear the creature.  Whether it is an  electrical or quasimagnetic phenomenon, or

whatever it may be, of  the fact of this strange influence there are too many well  authenticated instances to

allow its being questioned.  But suppose  Maurice Kirkwood to be the subject of this antipathy in its extremest

degree, it would in no manner account for the isolation to which he  had condemned himself.  He might shun

the firesides of the old women  whose tabbies were purring by their footstools, but these worthy  dames do not

make up the whole population. 

These two antipathies having been disposed of, a new suggestion was  started, and was talked over with a

curious sort of half belief, very  much as ghost stories are told in a circle of moderately instructed  and

inquiring persons.  This was that Maurice was endowed with the  unenviable gift of the evil eye.  He was in

frequent communication  with Italy, as his letters showed, and had recently been residing in  that country, as

was learned from Paolo.  Now everybody knows that  the evil eye is not rarely met with in Italy.  Everybody

who has ever  read Mr. Story's "Roba di Roma" knows what a terrible power it is  which the owner of the evil

eye exercises.  It can blight and destroy  whatever it falls upon.  No person's life or limb is safe if the  jettatura,

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follow a look from  the holiest personages, that is, if we may assume that a monk is such  as a matter of course.

Certainly we have a right to take it for  granted that the late Pope, Pius Ninth, was an eminently holy man,  and

yet he had the name of dispensing the mystic and dreaded  jettatura as well as his blessing.  If Maurice

Kirkwood carried that  destructive influence, so that his clear blue eyes were more to be  feared than the

fascinations of the deadliest serpent, it could  easily be understood why he kept his look away from all around

him  whom he feared he might harm. 

No sensible person in Arrowhead Village really believed in the evil  eye, but it served the purpose of a

temporary hypothesis, as do many  suppositions which we take as a nucleus for our observations without

putting any real confidence in them.  It was just suited to the  romantic notions of the more flighty persons in

the village, who had  meddled more or less with Spiritualism, and were ready for any new  fancy, if it were

only wild enough. 

The riddle of the young stranger's peculiarity did not seem likely  to  find any very speedy solution.  Every new

suggestion furnished talk  for the gossips of the village and the babble of the many tongues in  the two

educational institutions.  Naturally, the discussion was  liveliest among the young ladies.  Here is an extract

from a letter  of one of these young ladies, who, having received at her birth the  everpleasing name of Mary,

saw fit to have herself called Mollie in  the catalogue and in her letters.  The old postmaster of the town to

which her letter was directed took it up to stamp, and read on the  envelope the direction to "Miss Lulu

Pinrow."  He brought the stamp  down with a vicious emphasis, coming very near blotting out the  nursery

name, instead of cancelling the postagestamp.  "Lulu!" he  exclaimed.  "I should like to know if that great

strapping girl isn't  out of her cradle yet!  I suppose Miss Louisa will think that belongs  to her, but I saw her

christened and I heard the name the minister  gave her, and it was n't 'Lulu,' or any such baby nonsense."  And

so  saying, he gave it a fling to the box marked P, as if it burned his  fingers.  Why a grownup young woman

allowed herself to be cheapened  in the way so many of them do by the use of names which become them  as

well as the frock of a tenyearold schoolgirl would become a  graduate of the Corinna Institute, the old

postmaster could not  guess.  He was a queer old man. 

The letter thus scornfully treated runs over with a young girl's  written loquacity: 

"Oh, Lulu, there is such a sensation as you never saw or heard of  'in all your born days,' as mamma used to

say.  He has been at the  village for some time, but lately we have hadoh, the weirdest  stories about him!

'The Mysterious Stranger is the name some give  him, but we girls call him the Sachem, because he paddles

about in an  Indian canoe.  If I should tell you all the things that are said  about him I should use up all my

paper ten times over.  He has never  made a visit to the Institute, and none of the girls have ever spoken  to him,

but the people at the village say he is very, very handsome.  We are dying to get a look at him, of

coursethough there is a  horrid story about himthat he has the evil eye did you ever hear  about the evil

eye?  If a person who is born with it looks at you,  you die, or something happensawfulis n't it? 

"The rector says he never goes to church, but then you know a good  many of the people that pass the summer

at the village never dothey  think their religion must have vacationsthat's what I've heard they

sayvacations, just like other hard workit ought not to be hard  work, I'm sure, but I suppose they feel so

about it.  Should you feel  afraid to have him look at you?  Some of the girls say they would n't  have him for

the whole world, but I shouldn't mind itespecially if  I had on my eyeglasses.  Do you suppose if there is

anything in the  evil eye it would go through glass?  I don't believe it.  Do you  think blue eyeglasses would be

better than common ones?  Don't laugh  at methey tell such weird stories!  The TerrorLurida Vincent, you

knowmakes fun of all they say about it, but then she 'knows  everything and doesn't believe anything,' the

girls sayWell, I  should be awfully scared, I know, if anybody that had the evil eye  should look at

mebutoh, I don't knowbut if it was a young man  and if he was veryvery goodlookingI

thinkperhaps I would run  the riskbut don't tell anybody I said any such horrid thingand  burn this

letter right upthere 's a dear good girl." 


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It is to be hoped that no reader will doubt the genuineness of this  letter.  There are not quite so many "awfuls"

and "awfullys" as one  expects to find in young ladies' letters, but there are two "weirds,"  which may be

considered a fair allowance.  How it happened that  "jolly" did not show itself can hardly be accounted for; no

doubt it  turns up two or three times at least in the postscript. 

Here is an extract from another letter.  This was from one of the  students of Stoughton University to a friend

whose name as it was  written on the envelope was Mr. Frank Mayfield.  The old postmaster  who found fault

with Miss "Lulu's" designation would probably have  quarrelled with this address, if it had come under his

eye.  "Frank"  is a very pretty, pleasantsounding name, and it is not strange that  many persons use it in

common conversation all their days when  speaking of a friend.  Were they really christened by that name, any

of these numerous Franks?  Perhaps they were, and if so there is  nothing to be said.  But if not, was the

baptismal name Francis or  Franklin?  The mind is apt to fasten in a very perverse and  unpleasant way upon

this question, which too often there is no  possible way of settling.  One might hope, if he outlived the bearer

of the appellation, to get at the fact; but since even gravestones  have learned to use the names belonging to

childhood and infancy in  their solemn record, the generation which docks its Christian names  in such an

unChristian way will bequeath whole churchyards full of  riddles to posterity.  How it will puzzle and distress

the historians  and antiquarians of a coming generation to settle what was the real  name of Dan and Bert and

Billy, which last is legible on a white  marble slab, raised in memory of a grown person, in a certain burial

ground in a town in Essex County, Massachusetts! 

But in the mean time we are forgetting the letter directed to Mr.  Frank Mayfield. 

"DEAR FRANK,Hooray! Hurrah!  Rah! 

"I have made the acquaintance of 'The Mysterious Stranger'!  It  happened by a queer sort of accident, which

came pretty near  relieving you of the duty of replying to this letter.  I was out in  my little boat, which carries a

sail too big for her, as I know and  ought to have remembered.  One of those fitful flaws of wind to which  the

lake is so liable struck the sail suddenly, and over went my  boat.  My feet got tangled in the sheet somehow,

and I could not get  free.  I had hard work to keep my head above water, and I struggled  desperately to escape

from my toils; for if the boat were to go down  I should be dragged down with her.  I thought of a good many

things  in the course of some four or five minutes, I can tell you, and I got  a lesson about time better than

anything Kant and all the rest of  them have to say of it.  After I had been there about an ordinary  lifetime, I

saw a white canoe making toward me, and I knew that our  shy young gentleman was coming to help me, and

that we should become  acquainted without an introduction.  So it was, sure enough.  He saw  what the trouble

was, managed to disentangle my feet without drowning  me in the process or upsetting his little flimsy craft,

and, as I was  somewhat tired with my struggle, took me in tow and carried me to the  landing where he kept

his canoe.  I can't say that there is anything  odd about his manners or his way of talk.  I judge him to be a

native  of one of our Northern States,perhaps a New Englander.  He has  lived abroad during some parts of

his life.  He is not an artist, as  it was at one time thought he might be.  He is a goodlooking fellow,  well

developed, manly in appearance, with nothing to excite special  remark unless it be a certain look of anxiety

or apprehension which  comes over him from time to time.  You remember our old friend Squire  B., whose

companion was killed by lightning when he was standing  close to him.  You know the look he had whenever

anything like a  thundercloud came up in the sky.  Well, I should say there was a look  like that came over this

Maurice Kirkwood's face every now and then.  I noticed that he looked round once or twice as if to see

whether  some object or other was in sight.  There was a little rustling in  the grass as if of footsteps, and this

look came over his features.  A  rabbit ran by us, and I watched to see if he showed any sign of  that  antipathy

we have heard so much of, but he seemed to be pleased  watching the creature. 

"If you ask me what my opinion is about this Maurice Kirkwood, I  think he is eccentric in his habit of life,

but not what they call a  'crank' exactly.  He talked well enough about such matters as we  spoke of,the lake,

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promise,  but I should not be surprised if I should get him over there some  day.  I asked him why he did n't go

to the Pansophian meetings.  He  did n't give any reason, but he shook his head in a very peculiar  way, as much

as to say that it was impossible. 

"On the whole, I think it is nothing more than the same feeling of  dread of human society, or dislike for it,

which under the name of  religion used to drive men into caves and deserts.  What a pity that  Protestantism

does not make special provision for all the freaks of  individual character!  If we had a little more faith and a

few more  caverns, or convenient places for making them, we should have hermits  in these holes as thick as

woodchucks or prairie dogs.  I should like  to know if you never had the feeling, 

     'Oh, that the desert were my dwellingplace!'

I know what your answer will be, of course.  You will say,  'Certainly, 

     'With one fair spirit for my minister;"'

but I mean alone,all alone.  Don't you ever feel as if you should  like to have been a pillarsaint in the days

when faith was as strong  as lye (spelt with a y), instead of being as weak as dishwater?  (Jerry is looking

over my shoulder, and says this pun is too bad to  send, and a disgrace to the Universitybut never mind.) I

often feel  as if I should like to roost on a pillar a hundred feet high,yes,  and have it soaped from top to

bottom.  Wouldn't it be fun to look  down at the bores and the duns?  Let us get up a pillarroosters'

association.  (Jerrystill looking over says there is an absurd  contradiction in the idea.) 

"What a matteroffact idiot Jerry is! 

"How do you like looking over, Mr. Inspector general?" 

The reader will not get much information out of this lively young  fellow's letter, but he may get a little.  It is

something to know  that the mysterious resident of Arrowhead Village did not look nor  talk like a crazy

person; that he was of agreeable aspect and  address, helpful when occasion offered, and had nothing about

him, so  far as yet appeared, to prevent his being an acceptable member of  society. 

Of course the people in the village could never be contented  without  learning everything there was to be

learned about their  visitor.  All  the city papers were examined for advertisements.  If a  cashier had  absconded,

if a broker had disappeared, if a railroad  president was  missing, some of the old stories would wake up and

get a  fresh  currency, until some new circumstance gave rise to a new  hypothesis.  Unconscious of all these

inquiries and fictions, Maurice  Kirkwood  lived on in his inoffensive and unexplained solitude, and  seemed

likely to remain an unsolved enigma.  The "Sachem" of the  boating  girls became the "Sphinx " of the village

ramblers, and it was  agreed  on all hands that Egypt did not hold any hieroglyphics harder  to make  out than

the meaning of this young man's odd way of living. 

V. THE ENIGMA STUDIED.

It was a curious, if it was not a suspicious, circumstance that a  young man, seemingly in good health, of

comely aspect, looking as if  made for companionship, should keep himself apart from all the world  around

him in a place where there was a general feeling of good  neighborhood and a pleasant social atmosphere.  The

Public Library  was a central point which brought people together.  The Pansophian  Society did a great deal to

make them acquainted with each other for  many of the meetings were open to outside visitors, and the

subjects  discussed in the meetings furnished the material for conversation in  their intervals.  A card of

invitation had been sent by the Secretary  to Maurice, in answer to which Paolo carried back a polite note of

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very recent and crushing  bereavement.  This refusal to come to the meetings of the society was  only what was

expected.  It was proper to ask him, but his declining  the invitation showed that he did not wish for attentions

or  courtesies.  There was nothing further to be done to bring him out of  his shell, and seemingly nothing more

to be learned about him at  present. 

In this state of things it was natural that all which had been  previously gathered by the few who had seen or

known anything of him  should be worked over again.  When there is no new ore to be dug, the  old refuse

heaps are looked over for what may still be found in them.  The landlord of the Anchor Tavern, now the head

of the boarding  house, talked about Maurice, as everybody in the village did at one  time or another.  He had

not much to say, but he added a fact or two. 

The young gentleman was good pay,so they all said.  Sometimes he  paid in gold; sometimes in fresh bills,

just out of the bank.  He  trusted his man, Mr. Paul, with the money to pay his bills.  He knew  something about

horses; he showed that by the way he handled that  colt,the one that threw the hostler and broke his

collarbone.  "Mr.  Paul come down to the stable.  'Let me see that cult you all  'fraid  of,' says he.  'My master,

he ride any hoss,' says Paul.  'You  saddle  him,' says be; and so they did, and Paul, he led that colt  the

kickinest and ugliest young beast you ever see in your lifeup  to the  place where his master, as he calls him,

and he lives.  What  does that  Kirkwood do but clap on a couple of long spurs and jump on  to that  colt's back,

and off the beast goes, tail up, heels flying,  standing  up on end, trying all sorts of capers, and at last going it

full run  for a couple of miles, till he'd got about enough of it.  That colt  went off as ferce as a wildcat, and

come back as quiet as  a cosset  lamb.  A man that pays his bills reg'lar, in good money, and  knows how  to

handle a hoss is three quarters of a gentleman, if he is  n't a  whole one,and most likely he is a whole one." 

So spake the patriarch of the Anchor Tavern.  His wife had already  given her favorable opinion of her former

guest.  She now added  something to her description as a sequel to her husband's remarks. 

"I call him," she said, "about as likely a young gentleman as ever  I  clapped my eyes on.  He is rather slighter

than I like to see a  young  man of his age; if he was my sun, I should like to see him a  little  more fleshy.  I

don't believe he weighs more than a hundred and  thirty or forty pounds.  Did y' ever look at those eyes of his,

M'randy?  Just as blue as succory flowers.  I do like those light  complected young fellows, with their fresh

cheeks and their curly  hair; somehow, curly hair doos set off anybody's face.  He is n't any  foreigner, for all

that he talks Italian with that Mr. Paul that's  his help.  He looks just like our kind of folks, the college kind,

that's brought up among books, and is handling 'em, and reading of  'em, and making of 'em, as like as not, all

their lives.  All that  you say about his riding the mad colt is just what I should think he  was up to, for he's as

spry as a squirrel; you ought to see him go  over that fence, as I did once.  I don't believe there's any harm in

that young gentleman,I don't care what people say.  I suppose he  likes this place just as other people like it,

and cares more for  walking in the woods and paddling about in the water than he doos for  company; and if he

doos, whose business is it, I should like to  know?" 

The third of the speakers was Miranda, who had her own way of  judging  people. 

"I never see him but two or three times," Miranda said.  "I should  like to have waited on him, and got a chance

to look stiddy at him  when he was eatin' his vittles.  That 's the time to watch folks,  when their jaws get

agoin' and their eyes are on what's afore 'em.  Do you remember that chap the sheriff come and took away

when we kep'  tahvern?  Eleven year ago it was, come nex' Thanksgivin' time.  A  mighty grand gentleman from

the City he set up for.  I watched him,  and I watched him.  Says I, I don't believe you're no gentleman,  says  I.

He eat with his knife, and that ain't the way city folks  eats.  Every time I handed him anything I looked

closeter and  closeter.  Them whiskers never grooved on them cheeks, says I to  myself.  Them  's paper collars,

says I.  That dimun in your shirt  front hain't got  no life to it, says I.  I don't believe it's  nothiri' more 'n a bit o'

winderglass.  So says I to Pushee, 'You  jes' step out and get the  sheriff to come in and take a look at that  chap.'

I knowed he was  after a fellah.  He come right in, an' he goes  up to the chap.  'Why,  Bill,' says he, 'I'm mighty


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glad to see yer.  We've had the hole in the  wall you got out of mended, and I want your  company to come and

look  at the old place,' says he, and he pulls out  a couple of handcuffs and  has 'em on his wrists in less than no

time,  an' off they goes  together!  I know one thing about that young  gentleman, anyhow,there  ain't no better

judge of what's good eatin'  than he is.  I cooked him  some maccaroni myself one day, and he sends  word to

me by that Mr.  Paul, 'Tell Miss Miranda,' says he, I that the  Pope o' Rome don't have  no better cooked

maccaroni than what she sent  up to me yesterday,'  says he.  I don' know much about the Pope o'  Rome except

that he's a  Roman Catholic, and I don' know who cooks for  him, whether it's a man  or a woman; but when it

comes to a dish o'  maccaroni, I ain't afeard  of their shefs, as they call 'em,them he  cooks that can't serve

up  a cold potater without callin' it by some  name nobody can say after  'em.  But this gentleman knows good

cookin', and that's as good a sign  of a gentleman as I want to tell  'em by." 

VI. STILL AT FAULT.

The house in which Maurice Kirkwood had taken up his abode was not  a  very inviting one.  It was old, and

had been left in a somewhat  dilapidated and disorderly condition by the tenants who had lived in  the part

which Maurice now occupied.  They had piled their packing  boxes in the cellar, with broken chairs, broken

china, and other  household wrecks.  A cracked mirror lay on an old straw mattress, the  contents of which were

airing themselves through wide rips and rents.  A lame clotheshorse was saddled with an old rug fringed

with a  ragged border, out of which all the colors had been completely  trodden.  No woman would have gone

into a house in such a condition.  But the young man did not trouble himself much about such matters,  and

was satisfied when the rooms which were to be occupied by himself  and his servant were made decent and

tolerably comfortable.  During  the fine season all this was not of much consequence, and if Maurice  made up

his mind to stay through the winter he would have his choice  among many more eligible places. 

The summer vacation of the Corinna Institute had now arrived, and  the  young ladies had scattered to their

homes.  Among the graduates of  the year were Miss Euthymia Tower and Miss Lurida Vincent, who had  now

returned to their homes in Arrowhead Village.  They were both  glad to rest after the long final examinations

and the exercises of  the closing day, in which each of them had borne a conspicuous part.  It was a pleasant

life they led in the village, which was lively  enough at this season.  Walking, riding, driving, boating, visits to

the Library, meetings of the Pansophian Society, hops, and picnics  made the time pass very cheerfully, and

soon showed their restoring  influences.  The Terror's large eyes did not wear the dull, glazed  look by which

they had too often betrayed the after effects of over  excitement of the strong and active brain behind them.

The Wonder  gained a fresher bloom, and looked full enough of life to radiate  vitality into a statue of ice.

They had a boat of their own, in  which they passed many delightful hours on the lake, rowing,  drifting,

reading, telling of what had been, dreaming of what might  be. 

The Library was one of the chief centres of the fixed population,  and  visited often by strangers.  The old

Librarian was a peculiar  character, as these officials are apt to be.  They have a curious  kind of knowledge,

sometimes immense in its way.  They know the backs  of books, their titlepages, their popularity or want of

it, the  class of readers who call for particular works, the value of  different editions, and a good deal besides.

Their minds catch up  hints from all manner of works on all kinds of subjects.  They will  give a visitor a fact

and a reference which they are surprised to  find they remember and which the visitor might have hunted for a

year.  Every good librarian, every private bookowner, who has grown  into his library, finds he has a bunch

of nerves going to every  bookcase, a branch to every shelf, and a twig to every book.  These  nerves get very

sensitive in old librarians, sometimes, and they do  not like to have a volume meddled with any more than

they would like  to have their naked eyes handled.  They come to feel at last that the  books of a great collection

are a part, not merely of their own  property, though they are only the agents for their distribution, but  that

they are, as it were, outlying portions of their own  organization.  The old Librarian was getting a miserly

feeling about  his books, as he called them.  Fortunately, he had a young lady for  his assistant, who was never

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were more readers among the wives anddaughters, and especially  among the aunts, than there were among

their male relatives.  The old  Librarian knew the books, but the books seemed to know the young  assistant; so

it looked, at least, to the impatient young people who  wanted their services. 

Maurice had a good many volumes of his own,a great many,  according  to Paolo's account; but Paolo's

ideas were limited, and a  few well  filled shelves seemed a very large collection to him.  His  master

frequently sent him to the Public Library for books, which  somewhat  enlarged his notions; still, the Signor

was a very learned  man, he  was certain, and some of his white books (bound in vellum and  richly  gilt) were

more splendid, according to Paolo, than anything in  the  Library. 

There was no little curiosity to know what were the books that  Maurice was in the habit of taking out, and the

Librarian's record  was carefully searched by some of the more inquisitive investigators.  The list proved to be

a long and varied one.  It would imply a  considerable knowledge of modern languages and of the classics; a

liking for mathematics and physics, especially all that related to  electricity and magnetism; a fancy for the

occult sciences, if there  is any propriety in coupling these words; and a whim for odd and  obsolete literature,

like the Parthenologia of Fortunius Licetus, the  quaint treatise 'De Sternutatione," books about alchemy, and

witchcraft, apparitions, and modern works relating to Spiritualism.  With these were the titles of novels and

now and then of books of  poems; but it may be taken for granted that his own shelves held the  works he was

most frequently in the habit of reading or consulting.  Not much was to be made out of this beyond the fact of

wide  scholarship,more or less deep it might be, but at any rate implying  no small mental activity; for he

appeared to read very rapidly, at  any rate exchanged the books he had taken out for new ones very  frequently.

To judge by his reading, he was a man of letters.  But  so widereading a man of letters must have an object, a

literary  purpose in all probability.  Why should not he be writing a novel?  Not a novel of society, assuredly,

for a hermit is not the person to  report the talk and manners of a world which he has nothing to do  with.

Novelists and lawyers understand the art of "cramming" better  than any other persons in the world.  Why

should not this young man  be working up the picturesque in this romantic region to serve as a  background for

some story with magic, perhaps, and mysticism, and  hints borrowed from science, and all sorts of

outoftheway  knowledge which his odd and miscellaneous selection of books  furnished him?  That might

be, or possibly he was only reading for  amusement.  Who could say? 

The funds of the Public Library of Arrowhead Village allowed the  managers to purchase many books out of

the common range of reading.  The two learned people of the village were the rector and the doctor.  These

two worthies kept up the old controversy between the  professions, which grows out of the fact that one

studies nature from  below upwards, and the other from above downwards.  The rector  maintained that

physicians contracted a squint which turns their eyes  inwardly, while the muscles which roll their eyes

upward become  palsied.  The doctor retorted that theological students developed a  third eyelid,the

nictitating membrane, which is so well known in  birds, and which serves to shut out, not all light, but all the

light  they do not want.  Their little skirmishes did not prevent their  being very good friends, who had a

common interest in many things and  many persons.  Both were on the committee which had the care of the

Library and attended to the purchase of books.  Each was scholar  enough to know the wants of scholars, and

disposed to trust the  judgment of the other as to what books should be purchased,.  Consequently, the

clergyman secured the addition to the Library of a  good many old theological works which the physician

would have called  brimstone divinity, and held to be just the thing to kindle fires  with,good books still for

those who know how to use them,  oftentimes as awful examples of the extreme of disorganization the  whole

moral system may undergo when a barbarous belief has strangled  the natural human instincts.  The physician,

in the mean time,  acquired for the collection some of those medical works where one may  find recorded

various rare and almost incredible cases, which may not  have their like for a whole century, and then repeat

themselves, so  as to give a new lease of credibility to stories which had come to be  looked upon as fables. 

Both the clergyman and the physician took a very natural interest  in  the young man who had come to reside

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at church.  He would have liked more especially to have  had him hear his sermon on the Duties of Young Men

to Society.  The  doctor, meanwhile, was meditating on the duties of society to young  men, and wishing that he

could gain the young man's confidence, so as  to help him out of any false habit of mind or any delusion to

which  he might be subject, if he had the power of being useful to him. 

Dr. Butts was the leading medical practitioner, not only of  Arrowhead  Village, but of all the surrounding

region.  He was an  excellent  specimen of the country doctor, selfreliant,  selfsacrificing,  working a great

deal harder for his living than most  of those who  call themselves the laboring classes,as if none but  those

whose  hands were hardened by the use of farming or mechanical  implements  had any work to do.  He had that

sagacity without which  learning is a  mere incumbrance, and he had also a fair share of that  learning  without

which sagacity is like a traveller with a good horse,  but who  cannot read the directions on the guideboards.

He was not a  man to  be taken in by names.  He well knew that oftentimes very  innocent  sounding words

mean very grave disorders; that all, degrees  of  disease and disorder are frequently confounded under the same

term;  that "run down" may stand for a fatigue of mind or body from which a  week or a month of rest will

completely restore the overworked  patient, or an advanced stage of a mortal illness; that "seedy" may

signify the morning's state of feeling, after an evening's over  indulgence, which calls for a glass of

sodawater and a cup of  coffee, or a dangerous malady which will pack off the subject of it,  at the shortest

notice, to the south of France.  He knew too well  that what is spoken lightly of as a "nervous disturbance" may

imply  that the whole machinery of life is in a deranged condition, and that  every individual organ would

groan aloud if it had any other language  than the terrible inarticulate one of pain by which to communicate

with the consciousness. 

When, therefore, Dr. Butts heard the word antipatia he did not  smile,  and say to himself that this was an idle

whim, a foolish fancy,  which  the young man had got into his head.  Neither was he satisfied  to set  down

everything to the account of insanity, plausible as that  supposition might seem.  He was prepared to believe in

some  exceptional, perhaps anomalous, form of exaggerated sensibility,  relating to what class of objects he

could not at present conjecture,  but which was as vital to the subject of it as the insulating  arrangement to a

piece of electrical machinery.  With this feeling he  began to look into tho history of antipathies as recorded in

all the  books and journals on which he could lay his hands. 

 

The holder of the Portfolio asks leave to close it for a brief  interval.  He wishes to say a few words to his

readers, before  offering them some verses which have no connection with the narrative  now in progress. 

If one could have before him a set of photographs taken annually,  representing the same person as he or she

appeared for thirty or  forty or fifty years, it would be interesting to watch the gradual  changes of aspect from

the age of twenty, or even of thirty or forty,  to that of threescore and ten.  The face might be an uninteresting

one; still, as sharing the inevitable changes wrought by time, it  would be worth looking at as it passed

through the curve of life,  the vital parabola, which betrays itself in the symbolic changes of  the features.

An inscription is the same thing, whether we read it  on slatestone, or granite, or marble.  To watch the lights

and  shades, the reliefs and hollows, of a countenance through a lifetime,  or a large part of it, by the aid of a

continuous series of  photographs would not only be curious; it would teach us much more  about the laws of

physiognomy than we could get from casual and  unconnected observations. 

The same kind of interest, without any assumption of merit to be  found in them, I would claim for a series of

annual poems, beginning  in middle life and continued to what many of my correspondents are  pleased to

remind meas if I required to have the fact brought to my  knowledgeis no longer youth.  Here is the latest

of a series of  annual poems read during the last thirtyfour years.  There seems to  have been one interruption,

but there may have been other poems not  recorded or remembered.  This, the latest poem of the series, was

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first of the long series  was read before them, then in the flush of ardent manhood: 

     THE OLD SONG.

The minstrel of the classic lay

Of love and wine who sings

Still found the fingers run astray

That touched the rebel strings.

Of Cadmus he would fair have sung,

Of Atreus and his line;

But all the jocund echoes rung

With songs of love and wine.

Ah, brothers!  I would fair have caught

Some fresher fancy's gleam;

My truant accents find, unsought,

The old familiar theme.

Love, Love! but not the sportive child

With shaft and twanging bow,

Whose random arrows drove us wild

Some threescore years ago;

Not Eros, with his joyous laugh,

The urchin blind and bare,

But Love, with spectacles and staff,

And scanty, silvered hair.

Our heads with frosted locks are white,

Our roofs are thatched with snow,

But red, in chilling winter's spite,

Our hearts and hearthstones glow.

Our old acquaintance, Time, drops in,

And while the running sands

Their golden thread unheeded spin,

He warms his frozen hands.

Stay, winged hours, too swift, too sweet,

And waft this message o'er

To all we miss, from all we meet

On life's fastcrumbling shore:

Say that to old affection true

We hug the narrowing chain

That binds our hearts,alas, how few

The links that yet remain!

The fatal touch awaits them all

That turns the rocks to dust;

From year to year they break and fall,

They break, but never rust.

Say if one note of happier strain

This wornout harp afford,

One throb that trembles, not in vain,

Their memory lent its chord.

Say that when Fancy closed her wings

And Passion quenched his fire,

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As from Anacreon's lyre!

January 8, 1885.

VII. A RECORD OF ANTIPATHIES

In thinking the whole matter over, Dr. Butts felt convinced that,  with care and patience and watching his

opportunity, he should get at  the secret, which so far bad yielded nothing but a single word.  It  might be asked

why he was so anxious to learn what, from all  appearances, the young stranger was unwilling to explain.  He

may  have been to some extent infected by the general curiosity of the  persons around him, in which good

Mrs. Butts shared, and which she  had helped to intensify by revealing the word dropped by Paolo.  But  this

was not really his chief motive.  He could not look upon this  young man, living a life of unwholesome

solitude, without a natural  desire to do all that his science and his knowledge of human nature  could help him

to do towards bringing him into healthy relations with  the world about him.  Still, he would not intrude upon

him in any  way.  He would only make certain general investigations, which might  prove serviceable in case

circumstances should give him the right to  counsel the young man as to his course of life.  The first thing to  be

done was to study systematically the whole subject of antipathies.  Then, if any further occasion offered itself,

he would be ready to  take advantage of it.  The resources of the Public Library of the  place and his own

private collection were put in requisition to  furnish him the singular and widely scattered facts of which he

was  in search. 

It is not every reader who will care to follow Dr. Butts in his  study  of the natural history of antipathies.  The

stories told about  them  are, however, very curious; and if some of them may be  questioned,  there is no doubt

that many of the strangest are true, and  consequently take away from the improbability of others which we

are  disposed to doubt. 

But in the first place, what do we mean by an antipathy?  It is an  aversion to some object, which may vary in

degree from mere dislike  to mortal horror.  What the cause of this aversion is we cannot say.  It acts sometimes

through the senses, sometimes through the  imagination, sometimes through an unknown channel.  The

relations  which exist between the human being and all that surrounds him vary  in consequence of some

adjustment peculiar to each individual.  The  brute fact is expressed in the phrase "One man's meat is another

man's poison." 

In studying the history of antipathies the doctor began with those  referable to the sense of taste, which are

among the most common.  In  any collection of a hundred persons there will be found those who  cannot make

use of certain articles of food generally acceptable.  This may be from the disgust they occasion or the effects

they have  been found to produce.  Every one knows individuals who cannot  venture on honey, or cheese, or

veal, with impunity.  Carlyle, for  example, complains of having veal set before him,a meat he could  not

endure.  There is a whole family connection in New England, and  that a very famous one, to many of whose

members, in different  generations, all the products of the dairy are the subjects of a  congenital antipathy.

Montaigne says there are persons who dread the  smell of apples more than they would dread being exposed

to a fire of  musketry.  The readers of the charming story "A Week in a French  CountryHouse" will

remember poor Monsieur Jacque's piteous cry in  the night: "Ursula, art thou asleep?  Oh, Ursula, thou

sleepest, but  I cannot close my eyes.  Dearest Ursula, there is such a dreadful  smell!  Oh, Ursula, it is such a

smell!  I do so wish thou couldst  smell it!  Goodnight, my angel!Dearest!  I have found them!  They  are

apples!  "The smell of roses, of peonies, of lilies, has  been  known to cause faintness.  The sight of various

objects has had  singular effects on some persons.  A boar's head was a favorite dish  at the table of great

people in Marshal d'Albret's time; yet he used  to faint at the sight of one.  It is not uncommon to meet with

persons who faint at the sight of blood.  One of the most  inveterately pugnacious of Dr. Butts's collegemates

confessed that  he had this infirmity.  Stranger and far more awkward than this is  the case mentioned in an

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are sounds, also, which have strange effects on some individuals.  Among the obnoxious noises are the

crumpling of silk stuffs, the  sound of sweeping, the croaking of frogs.  The effects in different  cases have been

spasms, a sense of strangling, profuse sweating,all  showing a profound disturbance of the nervous system. 

All these effects were produced by impressions on the organs of  sense, seemingly by direct agency on certain

nerve centres.  But  there is another series of cases in which the imagination plays a  larger part in the

phenomena.  Two notable examples are afforded in  the lives of two very distinguished personages. 

Peter the Great was frightened, when an infant, by falling from a  bridge into the water.  Long afterward, when

he had reached manhood,  this hardy and resolute man was so affected by the sound of wheels  rattling over a

bridge that he had to discipline himself by listening  to the sound, in spite of his dread of it, in order to

overcome his  antipathy.  The story told by Abbe Boileau of Pascal is very similar  to that related of Peter.  As

he was driving in his coach and four  over the bridge at Neuilly, his horses took fright and ran away, and  the

leaders broke from their harness and sprang into the river,  leaving the wheelhorses and the carriage on the

bridge.  Ever after  this fright it is said that Pascal had the terrifying sense that he  was just on the edge of an

abyss, ready to fall over. 

What strange early impression was it which led a certain lady  always  to shriek aloud if she ventured to enter a

church, as it is  recorded?  The old and simple way of accounting for it would be the  scriptural  one, that it was

an unclean spirit who dwelt in her, and  who, when  she entered the holy place and brought her spiritual tenant

into the  presence of the sacred symbols, "cried with a loud voice, and  came  out of" her.  A very singular case,

the doctor himself had  recorded,  and which the reader may accept as authentic, is the  following: At  the head

of the doctor's front stairs stood, and still  stands, a tall  clock, of early date and stately presence.  A

middleaged visitor,  noticing it as he entered the front door,  remarked that he should  feel a great

unwillingness to pass that clock.  He could not go near  one of those tall timepieces without a profound

agitation, which he  dreaded to undergo.  This very singular  idiosyncrasy he attributed to  a fright when he was

an infant in the  arms of his nurse. 

She was standing near one of those tall clocks, when the cord which  supported one of its heavy leaden

weights broke, and the weight came  crashing down to the bottom of the case.  Some effect must have been

produced upon the pulpy nerve centres from which they never  recovered.  Why should not this happen, when

we know that a sudden  mental shock may be the cause of insanity?  The doctor remembered the  verse of "The

Ancient Mariner:" 

    "I moved my lips; the pilot shrieked

     And fell down in a fit;

     The holy hermit raised his eyes

     And prayed where he did sit.

     I took the oars; the pilot's boy,

     Who now doth crazy go,

     Laughed loud and long, and all the while

     His eyes went to and fro."

This is only poetry, it is true, but the poet borrowed the  description from nature, and the records of our

asylums could furnish  many cases where insanity was caused by a sudden fright. 

More than this, hardly a year passes that we do not read of some  person, a child commonly, killed outright by

terror,scared to  death, literally.  Sad cases they often are, in which, nothing but a  surprise being intended,

the shock has instantly arrested the  movements on which life depends.  If a mere instantaneous impression  can

produce effects like these, such an impression might of course be  followed by consequences less fatal or

formidable, but yet serious in  their nature.  If here and there a person is killed, as if by  lightning, by a sudden

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apparently insignificant causes,a shock which falls short of  overthrowing the reason and does not destroy

life, yet leaves a  lasting effect upon the subject of it. 

This point, then, was settled in the mind of Dr. Butts, namely,  that,  as a violent emotion caused by a sudden

shock can kill or craze  a  human being, there is no perversion of the faculties, no prejudice,  no change of taste

or temper, no eccentricity, no antipathy, which  such a cause may not rationally account for.  He would not be

surprised, he said to himself, to find that some early alarm, like  that which was experienced by Peter the

Great or that which happened  to Pascal, had broken some spring in this young man's nature, or so  changed its

mode of action as to account for the exceptional  remoteness of his way of life.  But how could any

conceivable  antipathy be so comprehensive as to keep a young man aloof from all  the world, and make a

hermit of him?  He did not hate the human race;  that was clear enough.  He treated Paolo with great kindness,

and the  Italian was evidently much attached to him.  He had talked naturally  and pleasantly with the young

man he had helped out of his dangerous  situation when his boat was upset.  Dr. Butts heard that he had once

made a short visit to this young man, at his rooms in the University.  It was not misanthropy, therefore, which

kept him solitary.  What  could be broad enough to cover the facts of the case?  Nothing that  the doctor could

think of, unless it were some color, the sight of  which acted on him as it did on the individual before

mentioned, who  could not look at anything red without fainting.  Suppose this were a  case of the same

antipathy.  How very careful it would make the  subject of it as to where he went and with whom he consorted!

Time  and patience would be pretty sure to bring out new developments, and  physicians, of all men in the

world, know how to wait as well as how  to labor. 

Such were some of the crude facts as Dr. Butts found them in books  or  gathered them from his own

experience.  He soon discovered that the  story had got about the village that Maurice Kirkwood was the

victim  of an "antipathy," whatever that word might mean in the vocabulary of  the people of the place.  If he

suspected the channel through which  it had reached the little community, and, spreading from that centre,  the

country round, he did not see fit to make out of his suspicions a  domestic casus belli.  Paolo might have

mentioned it to others as  well as to himself.  Maurice might have told some friend, who had  divulged it.  But to

accuse Mrs. Butts, good Mrs. Butts, of petit  treason in telling one of her husband's professional secrets was

too  serious a matter to be thought of.  He would be a little more  careful, he promised himself, the next time, at

any rate; for he had  to concede, in spite of every wish to be charitable in his judgment,  that it was among the

possibilities that the worthy lady had  forgotten the rule that a doctor's patients must put their tongues  out, and

a doctor's wife must keep her tongue in. 

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The Secretary of this association was getting somewhat tired of the  office, and the office was getting

somewhat tired of him.  It  occurred to the members of the Society that a little fresh blood  infused into it might

stir up the general vitality of the  organization.  The woman suffragists saw no reason why the place of

Secretary need as a matter of course be filled by a person of the  male sex.  They agitated, they made

domiciliary visits, they wrote  notes to influential citizens, and finally announced as their  candidate the young

lady who had won and worn the school name of "The  Terror," who was elected.  She was just the person for

the place:  wide awake, with all her wits about her, full of every kind of  knowledge, and, above all, strong on

points of order and details of  management, so that she could prompt the presiding officer, to do  which is often

the most essential duty of a Secretary.  The  President, the worthy rector, was good at plain sailing in the track

of the common moralities and proprieties, but was liable to get  muddled if anything came up requiring swift

decision and offhand  speech.  The Terror had schooled herself in the debating societies of  the Institute, and

would set up the President, when he was floored by  an awkward question, as easily as if he were a ninepin

which had been  bowled over. 

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writers outside of its own  organization.  Of late these had been becoming more frequent.  Many  of them were

sent in anonymously, and as there were numerous visitors  to the village, and two institutions not far removed

from it, both  full of ambitious and intelligent young persons, it was often  impossible to trace the papers to

their authors.  The new Secretary  was alive with curiosity, and as sagacious a little body as one might  find if

in want of a detective.  She could make a pretty shrewd guess  whether a paper was written by a young or old

person, by one of her  own sex or the other, by an experienced hand or a novice. 

Among the anonymous papers she received was one which exercised her  curiosity to an extraordinary degree.

She felt a strong suspicion  that "the Sachem," as the boatcrews used to call him, "the Recluse,"  "the

NightHawk," "the Sphinx," as others named him, must be the  author of it.  It appeared to her the production

of a young person of  a reflective, poetical turn of mind.  It was not a woman's way of  writing; at least, so

thought the Secretary.  The writer had  travelled much; had resided in Italy, among other places.  But so had

many of the summer visitors and residents of Arrowhead Village.  The  handwriting was not decisive; it had

some points of resemblance with  the pencilled orders for books which Maurice sent to the Library, but  there

were certain differences, intentional or accidental, which  weakened this evidence.  There was an undertone in

the essay which  was in keeping with the mode of life of the solitary stranger.  It  might be disappointment,

melancholy, or only the dreamy sadness of a  young person who sees the future he is to climb, not as a smooth

ascent, but as overhanging him like a cliff, ready to crush him, with  all his hopes and prospects.  This

interpretation may have been too  imaginative, but here is the paper, and the reader can form his own  opinion: 

                    MY THREE COMPANIONS.

"I have been from my youth upwards a wanderer.  I do not mean  constantly flitting from one place to another,

for my residence has  often been fixed for considerable periods.  From time to time I have  put down in a

notebook the impressions made upon me by the scenes  through which I have passed.  I have long hesitated

whether to let  any of my notes appear before the public.  My fear has been that they  were too subjective, to

use the metaphysician's term,that I have  seen myself reflected in Nature, and not the true aspects of Nature

as she was meant to be understood.  One who should visit the Harz  Mountains would seemight see, rather

his own colossal image shape  itself on the morning mist.  But if in every mist that rises from the  meadows, in

every cloud that hangs upon the mountain, he always finds  his own reflection, we cannot accept him as an

interpreter of the  landscape. 

"There must be many persons present at the meetings of the Society  to  which this paper is offered who have

had experiences like that of  its  author.  They have visited the same localities, they have had many  of  the same

thoughts and feelings.  Many, I have no doubt.  Not all,  no, not all.  Others have sought the companionship

of Nature; I have  been driven to it.  Much of my life has been passed in that  communion.  These pages record

some of the intimacies I have formed  with her under some of her various manifestations. 

"I have lived on the shore of the great ocean, where its waves  broke  wildest and its voice rose loudest. 

"I have passed whole seasons on the banks of mighty and famous  rivers. 

"I have dwelt on the margin of a tranquil lake, and floated through  many a long, long summer day on its clear

waters. 

"I have learned the 'various language' of Nature, of which poetry  has  spoken,at least, I have learned some

words and phrases of it.  I  will translate some of these as I best may into common speech. 

"The OCEAN says to the dweller on its shores: 


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You are neither welcome nor unwelcome.  I do not trouble myself  with  the living tribes that come down to my

waters.  I have my own  people,  of an older race than yours, that grow to mightier dimensions  than  your

mastodons and elephants; more numerous than all the swarms  that  fill the air or move over the thin crust of

the earth.  Who are  you  that build your palaces on my margin?  I see your white faces as  I saw the dark faces

of the tribes that came before you, as I shall  look upon the unknown family of mankind that will come after

you.  And  what is your whole human family but a parenthesis in a single  page of  my history?  The raindrops

stereotyped themselves on my  beaches before  a living creature left his footprints there.  This  horseshoecrab I

fling at your feet is of older lineage than your  Adam,perhaps,  indeed, you count your Adam as one of his

descendants.  What feeling  have I for you?  Not scorn, not hatred,  not love,not loathing.

No!indifference,blank indifference to  you and your affairs that  is my feeling, say rather absence of

feeling, as regards you.Oh  yes, I will lap your feet, I will cool  you in the hot summer days, I  will bear

you up in my strong arms, I  will rock you on my rolling  undulations, like a babe in his cradle.  Am I not

gentle?  Am I not  kind?  Am I not harmless?  But hark!  The  wind is rising, and the wind  and I are rough

playmates!  What do you  say to my voice now?  Do you  see my foaming lips?  Do you feel the  rocks tremble as

my huge billows  crash against them?  Is not my anger  terrible as I dash your argosy,  your thunderbearing

frigate, into  fragments, as you would crack an  eggshell? No, not anger; deaf,  blind, unheeding

indifference,that  is all.  Out of me all things  arose; sooner or later, into me all  things subside.  All changes

around me; I change not.  I look not at  you, vain man, and your frail  transitory concerns, save in momentary

glimpses: I look on the white  face of my dead mistress, whom I follow  as the bridegroom follows the  bier of

her who has changed her nuptial  raiment for the shroud. 

"Ye whose thoughts are of eternity, come dwell at my side.  Continents and islands grow old, and waste and

disappear.  The  hardest rock crumbles; vegetable and animal kingdoms come into being,  wax great, decline,

and perish, to give way to others, even as human  dynasties and nations and races come and go.  Look on me!

"Time  writes no wrinkle" on my forehead.  Listen to me!  All tongues are  spoken on my shores, but I have

only one language: the winds taught  me their vowels the crags and the sands schooled me in my rough or

smooth consonants.  Few words are mine but I have whispered them and  sung them and shouted them to men

of all tribes from the time when  the first wild wanderer strayed into my awful presence.  Have you a  grief that

gnaws at your heartstrings?  Come with it to my shore, as  of old the priest of fardarting Apollo carried his

rage and anguish  to the margin of the loudroaring sea.  There, if anywhere you will  forget your private and

shortlived woe, for my voice speaks to the  infinite and the eternal in your consciousness.' 

"To him who loves the pages of human history, who listens to the  voices of the world about him, who

frequents the market and the  thoroughfare, who lives in the study of time and its accidents rather  than in the

deeper emotions, in abstract speculation and spiritual  contemplation, the RIVER addresses itself as his

natural companion. 

"Come live with me.  I am active, cheerful, communicative, a  natural  talker and storyteller.  I am not noisy,

like the ocean,  except  occasionally when I am rudely interrupted, or when I stumble  and get  a fall.  When I am

silent you can still have pleasure in  watching my  changing features.  My idlest babble, when I am toying  with

the  trifles that fall in my way, if not very full of meaning, is  at least  musical.  I am not a dangerous friend, like

the ocean; no  highway is  absolutely safe, but my nature is harmless, and the storms  that strew  the beaches

with wrecks cast no ruins upon my flowery  borders.  Abide  with me, and you shall not die of thirst, like the

forlorn wretches  left to the mercies of the pitiless salt waves.  Trust yourself to  me, and I will carry you far on

your journey, if we  are travelling to  the same point of the compass.  If I sometimes run  riot and overflow  your

meadows, I leave fertility behind me when I  withdraw to my  natural channel.  Walk by my side toward the

place of  my destination.  I will keep pace with you, and you shall feel my  presence with you as  that of a

selfconscious being like yourself.  You will find it hard  to be miserable in my company; I drain you of

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But to him whom the ocean chills and crushes with its sullen  indifference, and the river disturbs with its

neverpausing and  neverending story, the silent LAKE shall be a refuge and a place of  rest for his soul. 

"'Vex not yourself with thoughts too vast for your limited  faculties,' it says; 'yield not yourself to the babble

of the running  stream.  Leave the ocean, which cares nothing for you or any living  thing that walks the solid

earth; leave the river, too busy with its  own errand, too talkative about its own affairs, and find peace with

me, whose smile will cheer you, whose whisper will soothe you.  Come  to me when the morning sun blazes

across my bosom like a golden  baldric; come to me in the still midnight, when I hold the inverted  firmament

like a cup brimming with jewels, nor spill one star of all  the constellations that float in my ebon goblet.  Do

you know the  charm of melancholy?  Where will you find a sympathy like mine in  your hours of sadness?

Does the ocean share your grief?  Does the  river listen to your sighs?  The salt wave, that called to you from

under last month's full moon, today is dashing on the rocks of  Labrador; the stream, that ran by you pure

and sparkling, has  swallowed the poisonous refuse of a great city, and is creeping to  its grave in the wide

cemetery that buries all things in its tomb of  liquid crystal.  It is true that my waters exhale and are renewed

from one season to another; but are your features the same,  absolutely the same, from year to year?  We both

change, but we know  each other through all changes.  Am I not mirrored in those eyes of  yours?  And does not

Nature plant me as an eye to behold her beauties  while she is dressed in the glories of leaf and flower, and

draw the  icy lid over my shining surface when she stands naked and ashamed in  the poverty of winter?' 

"I have had strange experiences and sad thoughts in the course of a  life not very long, but with a record which

much longer lives could  not match in incident.  Oftentimes the temptation has come over me  with dangerous

urgency to try a change of existence, if such change  is a part of human destiny,to seek rest, if that is what

we gain by  laying down the burden of life.  I have asked who would be the friend  to whom I should appeal for

the last service I should have need of.  Ocean was there, all ready, asking no questions, answering none.  What

strange voyages, downward through its glaucous depths, upwards  to its  boiling and frothing surface, wafted

by tides, driven by  tempests,  disparted by rude agencies; one remnant whitening on the  sands of a  northern

beach, one perhaps built into the circle of a  coral reef in  the Pacific, one settling to the floor of the vast

laboratory where  continents are built, to emerge in faroff ages!  What strange  companions for my

pallbearers!  Unwieldy seamonsters,  the stories of  which are counted fables by the spectacled collectors

who think their  catalogues have exhausted nature; nakedeyed  creatures, staring,  glaring, nightmarelike

spectres of the ghastly  green abysses; pulpy  islands, with life in gelatinous immensity,  what a company

of hungry  heirs at every ocean funeral!  No!  No!  Ocean claims great multitudes,  but does not invite the

solitary who  would fain be rid of himself. 

'Shall I seek a deeper slumber at the bottom of the lake I love  than  I have ever found when drifting idly over

its surface?  No,  again.  I  do not want the sweet, clear waters to know me in the  disgrace of  nature, when life,

the faithful bodyservant, has ceased  caring for  me.  That must not be.  The mirror which has pictured me so

often  shall never know me as an unwelcome object. 

"If I must ask the allsubduing element to be my last friend, and  lead me out of my prison, it shall be the

busy, whispering, not  unfriendly, pleasantly companionable river. 

"But Ocean and River and Lake have certain relations to the periods  of human life which they who are

choosing their places of abode  should consider.  Let the child play upon the seashore.  The wide  horizon gives

his imagination room to grow in, untrammelled.  That  background of mystery, without which life is a poor

mechanical  arrangement, is shaped and colored, so far as it can have outline, or  any hue but shadow, on a vast

canvas, the contemplation of which  enlarges and enriches the sphere of consciousness.  The mighty ocean  is

not too huge to symbolize the aspirations and ambitions of the yet  untried soul of the adolescent. 

"The time will come when his indefinite mental horizon has found a  solid limit, which shuts his prospect in

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he will find the river a more natural intimate  than the ocean.  It is individual, which the ocean, with all its

gulfs and inlets and multitudinous shores, hardly seems to be.  It  does not love you very dearly, and will not

miss you much when you  disappear from its margin; but it means well to you, bids you good  morning with

its coming waves, and goodevening with those which are  leaving.  It will lead your thoughts pleasantly

away, upwards to its  source, downwards to the stream to which it is tributary, or the wide  waters in which it

is to lose itself.  A river, by choice, to live by  in middle age. 

"In hours of melancholy reflection, in those last years of life  which  have little left but tender memories, the

still companionship of  the  lake, embosomed in woods, sheltered, fed by sweet mountain brooks  and  hidden

springs, commends itself to the wearied and saddened  spirit.  I am not thinking of those great inland seas,

which have many  of the  features and much of the danger that belong to the ocean, but  of  those 'ponds,' as our

countrymen used to call them until they were  rechristened by summer visitors; beautiful sheets of water from

a  hundred to a few thousand acres in extent, scattered like raindrops  over the map of our Northern

sovereignties.  The loneliness of  contemplative old age finds its natural home in the near neighborhood  of one

of these tranquil basins. 

Nature does not always plant her poets where they belong, but if we  look carefully their affinities betray

themselves.  The youth will  carry his Byron to the rock which overlooks the ocean the poet loved  so well.  The

man of maturer years will remember that the sonorous  couplets of Pope which ring in his ears were written on

the banks of  the Thames.  The old man, as he nods over the solemn verse of  Wordsworth, will recognize the

affinity between the singer and the  calm sheet that lay before him as he wrote,the stainless and sleepy

Windermere. 

"The dwellers by Cedar Lake may find it an amusement to compare  their  own feelings with those of one who

has lived by the Atlantic and  the  Mediterranean, by the Nile and the Tiber, by Lake Leman and by one  of  the

fairest sheets of water that our own North America embosoms in  its forests." 

Miss Lurida Vincent, Secretary of the Pansophian Society, read this  paper, and pondered long upon it.  She

was thinking very seriously of  studying medicine, and had been for some time in frequent  communication

with Dr. Butts, under whose direction she had begun  reading certain treatises, which added to such

knowledge of the laws  of life in health and in disease as she had brought with her from the  Corinna Institute.

Naturally enough, she carried the anonymous paper  to the doctor, to get his opinion about it, and compare it

with her  own.  They both agreed that it was probably, they would not say  certainly, the work of the solitary

visitor.  There was room for  doubt, for there were visitors who might well have travelled to all  the places

mentioned, and resided long enough on the shores of the  waters the writer spoke of to have had all the

experiences mentioned  in the paper.  The Terror remembered a young lady, a former  schoolmate, who

belonged to one of those nomadic families common in  this generation, the heads of which, especially the

female heads, can  never be easy where they are, but keep going between America and  Europe, like so many

pithballs in the electrical experiment,  alternately attracted and repelled, never in contented equilibrium.

Every few years they pull their families up by the roots, and by the  time they have begun to take hold a little

with their radicles in the  spots to which they have been successively transplanted up they come  again, so that

they never get a taproot anywhere.  The Terror  suspected the daughter of one of these families of sending

certain  anonymous articles of not dissimilar character to the one she had  just received.  But she knew the style

of composition common among  the young girls, and she could hardly believe that it was one of them  who had

sent this paper.  Could a brother of this young lady have  written it?  Possibly; she knew nothing more than that

the young lady  had a brother, then a student at the University.  All the chances  were that Mr. Maurice

Kirkwood was the author.  So thought Lurida,  and so thought Dr. Butts. 

Whatever faults there were in this essay, it interested them both.  There was nothing which gave the least

reason to suspect insanity on  the part of the writer, whoever he or she might be.  There were  references to

suicide, it is true, but they were of a purely  speculative nature, and did not look to any practical purpose in


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that  direction.  Besides, if the stranger were the author of the paper, he  certainly would not choose a sheet of

water like Cedar Lake to  perform the last offices for him, in case he seriously meditated  taking

unceremonious leave of life and its accidents.  He could find  a river easily enough, to say nothing of other

methods of effecting  his purpose; but he had committed himself as to the impropriety of  selecting a lake, so

they need not be anxious about the white canoe  and its occupant, as they watched it skimming the surface of

the deep  waters. 

The holder of the Portfolio would never have ventured to come  before  the public if he had not counted among

his resources certain  papers  belonging to the records of the Pansophian Society, which he  can make  free use

of, either for the illustration of the narrative, or  for a  diversion during those intervals in which the flow of

events is  languid, or even ceases for the time to manifest any progress.  The  reader can hardly have failed to

notice that the old Anchor Tavern  had become the focal point where a good deal of mental activity

converged.  There were the village people, including a number of  cultivated families; there were the visitors,

among them many  accomplished and widely travelled persons; there was the University,  with its learned

teachers and aspiring young men; there was the  Corinna Institute, with its eager, ambitious, hungrysouled

young  women, crowding on, class after class coming forward on the broad  stream of liberal culture, and

rounding the point which, once passed,  the boundless possibilities of womanhood opened before them.  All

this furnished material enough and to spare for the records and the  archives of the society. 

The new Secretary infused fresh life into the meetings.  It may be  remembered that the girls had said of her,

when she was The Terror,  that "she knew everything and didn't believe anything."  That was  just the kind of

person for a secretary of such an association.  Properly interpreted, the saying meant that she knew a great

deal,  and wanted to know a great deal more, and was consequently always on  the lookout for information;

that she believed nothing without  sufficient proof that it was true, and therefore was perpetually  asking for

evidence where, others took assertions on trust. 

It was astonishing to see what one little creature like The Terror  could accomplish in the course of a single

season.  She found out  what each member could do and wanted to do.  She wrote to the outside  visitors whom

she suspected of capacity, and urged them to speak at  the meetings, or send written papers to be read.  As an

official,  with the printed title at the head of her notes, PANSOPHIAN SOCIETY,  she was a privileged

personage.  She begged the young persons who had  travelled to tell something of their experiences.  She had

contemplated getting up a discussion on the woman's rights question,  but being a wary little body, and

knowing that the debate would  become a dispute and divide the members into two hostile camps, she

deferred this project indefinitely.  It would be time enough after  she had her team well in hand, she said to

herself,had felt their  mouths and tried their paces.  This expression, as she used it in her  thoughts, seems

rather foreign to her habits, but there was room in  her large brain for a wide range of illustrations and an

ample  vocabulary.  She could not do much with her own muscles, but she had  known the passionate delight of

being whirled furiously over the road  behind four scampering horses, in a rocking stagecoach, and thought

of herself in the Secretary's chair as not unlike the driver on his  box.  A few weeks of rest had allowed her

nervous energy to store  itself up, and the same powers which had distanced competition in the  classes of her

school had of necessity to expend themselves in  vigorous action in her new office. 

Her appeals had their effect.  A number of papers were very soon  sent  in; some with names, some

anonymously.  She looked these papers  over,  and marked those which she thought would be worth reading

and  listening to at the meetings.  One of them has just been presented to  the reader.  As to the authorship of the

following one there were  many conjectures.  A wellknown writer, who had spent some weeks at  Arrowhead

Village, was generally suspected of being its author.  Some,  however, questioned whether it was not the work

of a new hand,  who  wrote, not from experience, but from his or her ideas of the  condition  to which a

storyteller, a novelist, must in all  probability be sooner  or later reduced.  The reader must judge for  himself

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SOME EXPERIENCES OF A NOVELIST.

"I have written a frightful number of stories, forty or more, I  think.  Let me see.  For twelve years two novels a

year regularly:  that makes twentyfour.  In three different years I have written  three stories annually: that

makes thirtythree.  In five years one a  year,thirtyeight.  That is all, is n't it?  Yes.  Thirtyeight,  not forty.  I

wish I could make them all into one composite story, as  Mr. Galton does his faces. 

"Heroheroinemammapapaunclesister, and so on.  Love

obstaclesmiserytearsdespairglimmer of hopeunexpected  solution of difficultieshappy finale. 

"Landscape for background according to season.  Plants of each  month  got up from botanical calendars. 

"I should like much to see the composite novel.  Why not apply Mr.  Galton's process, and get thirtyeight

stories all in one?  All the  Yankees would resolve into one Yankee, all the P West Britons  into one

Patrick, etc., what a saving of time it would be! 

"I got along pretty well with my first few stories.  I had some  characters around me which, a little disguised,

answered well enough.  There was the minister of the parish, and there was an old  schoolmaster either of them

served very satisfactorily for  grandfathers and old uncles.  All I had to do was to shift some of  their leading

peculiarities, keeping the rest.  The old minister wore  kneebreeches.  I clapped them on to the schoolmaster.

The  schoolmaster carried a tall goldheaded cane.  I put this in the  minister's hands.  So with other things,I

shifted them round, and  got a set of characters who, taken together, reproduced the chief  persons of the

village where I lived, but did not copy any individual  exactly.  Thus it went on for a while; but by and by my

stock company  began to be rather too familiarly known, in spite of their change of  costume, and at last some

altogether too sagacious person published  what he called a 'key' to several of my earlier stories, in which I

found the names of a number of neighbors attached to aliases of my  own invention.  All the 'types,' as he

called them, represented by  these personages of my story had come to be recognized, each as  standing for one

and the same individual of my acquaintance.  It had  been of no use to change the costume.  Even changing the

sex did no  good.  I had a famous old gossip in one of my tales,a muchbabbling  Widow Sertingly.  'Sho!'

they all said, that 's old Deacon Spinner,  the same he told about in that other story of his,only the deacon's

got on a petticoat and a mobcap,but it's the same old sixpence.'  So I said to myself, I must have some new

characters.  I had no  trouble with young characters; they are all pretty much alike,dark  haired or

lighthaired, with the outfits belonging to their  complexion, respectively.  I had an old greataunt, who was a

tiptop  eccentric.  I had never seen anything just like her in books.  So I  said, I will have you, old lady, in one

of my stories; and, sure  enough, I fitted her out with a firstrate oddsounding name, which I  got from the

directory, and sent her forth to the world, disguised,  as I supposed, beyond the possibility of recognition.  The

book sold  well, and the eccentric personage was voted a novelty.  A few weeks  after it was published a lawyer

called upon me, as the agent of the  person in the directory, whose family name I had used, as he  maintained,

to his and all his relatives' great damage, wrong, loss,  grief, shame, and irreparable injury, for which the sum

of blank  thousand dollars would be a modest compensation.  The story made the  book sell, but not enough to

pay blank thousand dollars.  In the mean  time a cousin of mine had sniffed out the resemblance between the

character in my book and our greataunt.  We were rivals in her good  graces.  'Cousin Pansie' spoke to her of

my book and the trouble it  was bringing on me,she was so sorry about it!  She liked my story,  only those

personalities, you know.  'What personalities?' says old  grannyaunt.  'Why, auntie, dear, they do say that he

has brought in  everybody we know,did n't anybody tell you aboutwell,I suppose  you ought to know

it,did n't anybody tell you you were made fun of  in that novel?'  Somebodyno matter whohappened to

hear all this,  and told me.  She said grannyaunt's withered old face had two red  spots come to it, as if she had

been painting her cheeks from a pink  saucer.  No, she said, not a pink saucer, but as if they were two  coals of

fire.  She sent out and got the book, and made her (the  somebody that I was speaking of) read it to her.  When

she had heard  as much as she could stand,for 'Cousin Pansie' explained passages  to her,explained, you

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It was  not to my advantage.  'Cousin Pansie' got the corner lot where the  grocery is, and pretty much

everything else.  The old woman left me a  legacy.  What do you think it was?  An old set of my own books,

that  looked as if it had been bought out of a bankrupt circulating  library. 

"After that I grew more careful.  I studied my disguises much more  diligently.  But after all, what could I do?

Here I was, writing  stories for my living and my reputation.  I made a pretty sum enough,  and worked hard

enough to earn it.  No tale, no money.  Then every  story that went from my workshop had to come up to the

standard of my  reputation, and there was a set of critics,there is a set of  critics now and everywhere,that

watch as narrowly for the decline  of a man's reputation as ever a village half drowned out by an  inundation

watched for the falling of the waters.  The fame I had  won, such as it was, seemed to attend me,not going

before me in the  shape of a woman with a trumpet, but rather following me like one of  Actaeon's hounds, his

throat open, ready to pull me down and tear me.  What a fierce enemy is that which bays behind us in the

voice of our  proudest bygone achievement! 

"But, as I said above, what could I do?  I must write novels, and I  must have characters.  'Then why not invent

them?' asks some novice.  Oh, yes!  Invent them!  You can invent a human being that in certain  aspects of

humanity will answer every purpose for which your  invention was intended.  A basket of straw, an old coat

and pair of  breeches, a hat which has been soaked, sat upon, stuffed a broken  window, and had a brood of

chickens raised in it,these elements,  duly adjusted to each other, will represent humanity so truthfully  that

the crows will avoid the cornfield when your scarecrow displays  his personality.  Do you think you can make

your heroes and  heroines,nay, even your scrappy supernumeraries,out of refuse  material, as you made

your scarecrow?  You can't do it.  You must  study living people and reproduce them.  And whom do you know

so well  as your friends?  You will show up your friends, then, one after  another.  When your friends give out,

who is left for you?  Why,  nobody but your own family, of course.  When you have used up your  family, there

is nothing left for you but to write your  autobiography. 

"After my experience with my grandaunt, I be came more cautious,  very naturally.  I kept traits of character,

but I mixed ages as well  as sexes.  In this way I continued to use up a large amount of  material, which looked

as if it were as dangerous as dynamite to  meddle with.  Who would have expected to meet my maternal uncle

in  the guise of a schoolboy?  Yet I managed to decant his  characteristics as nicely as the old gentleman would

have decanted a  bottle of Juno Madeira through that long siphon which he always used  when the most sacred

vintages were summoned from their crypts to  render an account of themselves on his hospitable board.  It was

a  nice business, I confess, but I did it, and I drink cheerfully to  that good uncle's memory in a glass of wine

from his own cellar,  which, with many other more important tokens of his good will, I call  my own since his

lamented demise. 

"I succeeded so well with my uncle that I thought I would try a  course of cousins.  I had enough of them to

furnish out a whole  gallery of portraits.  There was cousin 'Creeshy,' as we called her;  Lucretia, more

correctly.  She was a cripple.  Her left lower limb  had had something happen to it, and she walked with a

crutch.  Her  patience under her trial was very pathetic and picturesque, so to  speak,I mean adapted to the

tender parts of a story; nothing could  work up better in a melting paragraph.  But I could not, of course,

describe her particular infirmity; that would point her out at once.  I thought of shifting the lameness to the

right lower limb, but even  that would be seen through.  So I gave the young woman that stood for  her in my

story a lame elbow, and put her arm in a sling, and made  her such a model of uncomplaining endurance that

my grandmother cried  over her as if her poor old heart would break.  She cried very  easily, my grandmother;

in fact, she had such a gift for tears that I  availed myself of it, and if you remember old Judy, in my novel

"Honi  Soit " (Honey Sweet, the booksellers called it),old Judy, the  blacknurse,that was my

grandmother.  She had various other  peculiarities, which I brought out one by one, and saddled on to  different

characters.  You see she was a perfect mine of  singularities and idiosyncrasies.  After I had used her up pretty

well, I came dawn upon my poor relations.  They were perfectly fair  game; what better use could I put them

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lasted me, with occasional intermissions, I should say,  three or four years.  I had to be very careful with my

poor  relations,they were as touchy as they could be; and as I felt bound  to send a copy of my novel,

whatever it might be, to each one of  them,there were as many as a dozen,I took care to mix their

characteristic features, so that, though each might suspect I meant  the other, no one should think I meant him

or her.  I got through all  my relations at last except my father and mother.  I had treated my  brothers and sisters

pretty fairly, all except Elisha and Joanna.  The  truth is they both had lots of odd ways,family traits, I

suppose,  but were just different enough from each other to figure  separately in  two different stories.  These

two novels made me some  little trouble;  for Elisha said he felt sure that I meant Joanna in  one of them, and

quarrelled with me about it; and Joanna vowed and  declared that  Elnathan, in the other, stood for brother

'Lisha, and  that it was a  real mean thing to make fun of folks' own flesh and  blood, and treated  me to one of

her cries.  She was n't handsome when  she cried, poor,  dear Joanna; in fact, that was one of the personal  traits

I had made  use of in the story that Elisha found fault with. 

"So as there was nobody left but my father and mother, you see for  yourself I had no choice.  There was one

great advantage in dealing  with them,I knew them so thoroughly.  One naturally feels a certain  delicacy it

handling from a purely artistic point of view persons who  have been so near to him.  One's mother, for

instance: suppose some  of her little ways were so peculiar that the accurate delineation of  them would furnish

amusement to great numbers of readers; it would  not be without hesitation that a writer of delicate sensibility

would  draw her portrait, with all its whimsicalities, so plainly that it  should be generally recognized.  One's

father is commonly of tougher  fibre than one's mother, and one would not feel the same scruples,  perhaps, in

using him professionally as material in a novel; still,  while you are employing him as bait,you see I am

honest and plain  spoken, for your characters are baits to catch readers with,I would  follow kind Izaak

Walton's humane counsel about the frog you are  fastening to your fishhook: fix him artistically, as he

directs, but  in so doing I use him as though you loved him.' 

"I have at length shown up, in one form and another, all my  townsmen  who have anything effective in their

bodily or mental  makeup, all my  friends, all my relatives; that is, all my blood  relatives.  It has  occurred to

me that I might open a new field in the  family connection  of my fatherinlaw and motherinlaw.  We have

been  thinking of  paying them a visit, and I shall have an admirable  opportunity of  studying them and their

relatives and visitors.  I have  long wanted a  good chance for getting acquainted with the social  sphere several

grades below that to which I am accustomed, and I have  no doubt that  I shall find matter for half a dozen new

stories among  those  connections of mine.  Besides, they live in a Western city, and  one  doesn't mind much

how he cuts up the people of places he does n't  himself live in.  I suppose there is not really so much

difference in  people's feelings, whether they live in Bangor or Omaha, but one's  nerves can't be expected to

stretch across the continent.  It is all  a matter of greater or less distance.  I read this morning that a  Chinese

fleet was sunk, but I did n't think half so much about it as  I did about losing my sleeve button, confound it!

People have  accused me of want of feeling; they misunderstand the artistnature,  that is all.  I obey that

implicitly; I am sorry if people don't  like my descriptions, but I have done my best.  I have pulled to  pieces all

the persons I am acquainted with, and put them together  again in my characters.  The quills I write with come

from live  geese, I would have you know.  I expect to get some firstrate  pluckings from those people I was

speaking of, and I mean to begin my  thirtyninth novel as soon as I have got through my visit." 

IX. THE SOCIETY AND ITS NEW SECRETARY.

There is no use in trying to hurry the natural course of events, in  a  narrative like this.  June passed away, and

July, and August had  come, and as yet the enigma which had completely puzzled Arrowhead  Village and its

visitors remained unsolved.  The white canoe still  wandered over the lake, alone, ghostly, always avoiding the

near  approach of the boats which seemed to be coming in its direction.  Now  and then a circumstance would

happen which helped to keep inquiry  alive.  Good horsemanship was not so common among the young men of

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wicked horse or a wild colt  whose owner was afraid of him, he would be commended to Maurice's  attention.

Paolo would lead him to his master with all due  precaution,for he had no idea of risking his neck on the

back of  any illconditioned beast,and Maurice would fasten on his long  spurs, spring into the saddle, and

very speedily teach the creature  good behavior.  There soon got about a story that he was what the

freshwater fisherman called "one o' them whisperers."  It is a  common legend enough, coming from the Old

World, but known in  American horsetalking circles, that some persons will whisper  certain words in a

horse's ear which will tame him if he is as wild  and furious as ever Cruiser was.  All this added to the mystery

which  surrounded the young man.  A single improbable or absurd story  amounts to very little, but when half a

dozen such stories are told  about the same individual or the same event, they begin to produce  the effect of

credible evidence.  If the year had been 1692 and the  place had been Salem Village, Maurice Kirkwood would

have run the  risk of being treated like the Reverend George Burroughs. 

Miss Lurida Vincent's curiosity had been intensely excited with  reference to the young man of whom so

many stories were told.  She  had pretty nearly convinced herself that he was the author of the  paper on Ocean,

Lake, and River, which had been read at one of the  meetings of the Pansophian Society.  She was very

desirous of meeting  him, if it were possible.  It seemed as if she might, as Secretary of  the Society, request the

cooperation of any of the visitors, without  impropriety.  So, after much deliberation, she wrote a careful note,

of which the following is an exact copy.  Her hand was bold, almost  masculine, a curious contrast to that of

Euthymia, which was  delicately feminine. 

PANSOPHIAN SOCIETY. 

ARROWHEAD VILLAGE, August 3, 18. 

MAURICE KIRKWOOD, ESQ. 

DEAR SIR,You have received, I trust, a card of invitation to the  meetings of our Society, but I think we

have not yet had the pleasure  of seeing you at any of them.  We have supposed that we might be  indebted to

you for a paper read at the last meeting, and listened to  with much interest.  As it was anonymous, we do not

wish to be  inquisitive respecting its authorship; but we desire to say that any  papers kindly sent us by the

temporary residents of our village will  be welcome, and if adapted to the wants of our Association will be

read at one of its meetings or printed in its records, or perhaps  both read and printed.  May we not hope for

your presence at the  meeting, which is to take place next Wednesday evening?  Respectfully  yours, 

LURIDA VINCENT,  Secretary of the Pansophian Society. 

To this note the Secretary received the following reply: 

MISS LURIDA VINCENT, 

ARROWHEAD VILLAGE, August 4, 18. 

Secretary of the Pansophian Society: 

DEAR MISS VINCENT,I have received the ticket you refer to, and  desire to express my

acknowledgments for the polite attention.  I  regret that I have not been and I fear shall not be able to attend  the

meetings of the Society; but if any subject occurs to me on which  I feel an inclination to write, it will give me

pleasure to send a  paper, to be disposed of as the Society may see fit. 

Very respectfully yours, 


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MAURICE KIRKWOOD. 

"He says nothing about the authorship of the paper that was read  the  other evening," the Secretary said to

herself.  " No matter,he  wrote it,there is no mistaking his handwriting.  We know something  about him,

now, at any rate.  But why doesn't he come to our  meetings?  What has his antipathy to do with his staying

away?  I  must find out what his secret is, and I will.  I don't believe it's  harder than it was to solve that prize

problem which puzzled so many  teachers, or than beating Crakowitz, the great chessplayer." 

To this enigma, then, The Terror determined to bend all the  faculties  which had excited the admiration and

sometimes the amazement  of those  who knew her in her schooldays.  It was a very delicate  piece of

business; for though Lurida was an intrepid woman's rights  advocate,  and believed she was entitled to do

almost everything that  men dared  to, she knew very well there were certain limits which a  young woman  like

herself must not pass. 

In the mean time Maurice had received a visit from the young  student  at the University,the same whom he

had rescued from his  dangerous  predicament in the lake.  With him had called one of the  teachers,  an

instructor in modern languages, a native of Italy.  Maurice and  the instructor exchanged a few words in

Italian.  The  young man spoke  it with the ease which implied long familiarity with  its use. 

After they left, the instructor asked many curious questions about  him,who he was, how long he had been

in the village, whether  anything was known of his history,all these inquiries with an  eagerness which

implied some special and peculiar reason for the  interest they evinced. 

"I feel satisfied," the instructor said, "that I have met that  young  man in my own country.  It was a number of

years ago, and of  course  he has altered in appearance a good deal; but there is a look  about  him ofwhat

shall I call it?apprehension,as if he were  fearing  the approach of something or somebody.  I think it is

the way  a man  would look that was haunted; you know what I mean,followed by  a  spirit or ghost.  He does

not suggest the idea of a murderer,very  far from it; but if he did, I should think he was every minute in  fear

of seeing the murdered man's spirit." 

The student was curious, in his turn, to know all the instructor  could recall.  He had seen him in Rome, he

thought, at the Fountain  of Trevi, where so many strangers go before leaving the city.  The  youth was in the

company of a man who looked like a priest.  He could  not mistake the peculiar expression of his countenance,

but that was  all he now remembered about his appearance.  His attention had been  called to this young man by

seeing that some of the bystanders were  pointing at him, and noticing that they were whispering with each

other as if with reference to him.  He should say that the youth was  at that time fifteen or sixteen years old,

and the time was about ten  years ago. 

After all, this evidence was of little or no value.  Suppose the  youth were Maurice; what then?  We know that

he had been in Italy,  and had been there a good while,or at least we infer so much from  his familiarity with

the language, and are confirmed in the belief by  his having an Italian servant, whom he probably brought

from Italy  when he returned.  If he wrote the paper which was read the other  evening, that settles it, for the

writer says he had lived by the  Tiber.  We must put this scrap of evidence furnished by the Professor  with the

other scraps; it may turn out of some consequence, sooner or  later.  It is like a piece of a dissected map; it

means almost  nothing by itself, but when we find the pieces it joins with we may  discover a very important

meaning in it. 

In a small, concentrated community like that which centred in and  immediately around Arrowhead Village,

every day must have its local  gossip as well as its general news.  The newspaper tells the small  community

what is going on in the great world, and the busy tongues  of male and female, especially the latter, fill in with

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thought he had, seen Maurice ten  years before was circulated and made the most of,turned over and  over

like a cake, until it was thoroughly done on both sides and all  through.  It was a very small cake, but better

than nothing.  Miss  Vincent heard this story, as others did, and talked about it with her  friend, Miss Tower.

Here was one more fact to help along. 

The two young ladies who had recently graduated at the Corinna  Institute remained, as they had always been,

intimate friends.  They  were the natural complements of each other.  Euthymia represented a  complete,

symmetrical womanhood.  Her outward presence was only an  index of a large, wholesome, affluent life.  She

could not help being  courageous, with such a firm organization.  She could not help being  generous, cheerful,

active.  She had been told often enough that she  was fair to look upon.  She knew that she was called The

Wonder by  the schoolmates who were dazzled by her singular accomplishments, but  she did not overvalue

them.  She rather tended to depreciate her own  gifts, in comparison with those of her friend, Miss Lurida

Vincent.  The two agreed all the better for differing as they did.  The octave  makes a perfect chord, when

shorter intervals jar more or less on the  ear.  Each admired the other with a heartiness which if they had been

less unlike, would have been impossible. 

It was a pleasant thing to observe their dependence on each other.  The Terror of the schoolroom was the

oracle in her relations with her  friend.  All the freedom of movement which The Wonder showed in her  bodily

exercises The Terror manifested in the world of thought.  She  would fling open a book, and decide in a swift

glance whether it had  any message for her.  Her teachers had compared her way of reading to  the taking of an

instantaneous photograph.  When she took up the  first book on Physiology which Dr. Butts handed her, it

seemed to him  that if she only opened at any place, and gave one look, her mind  drank its meaning up, as a

moist sponge absorbs water.  "What can I  do with such a creature as this?" he said to himself.  " There is  only

one way to deal with her, treat her as one treats a silkworm:  give it its mulberry leaf, and it will spin its own

cocoon.  Give her  the books, and she will spin her own web of knowledge." 

"Do you really think of studying medicine?" said Dr. Butts to her. 

"I have n't made up my mind about that," she answered, "but I want  to  know a little more about this terrible

machinery of life and death  we  are all tangled in.  I know something about it, but not enough.  I  find some very

strange beliefs among the women I meet with, and I  want to be able to silence them when they attempt to

proselyte me to  their whims and fancies.  Besides, I want to know everything." 

"They tell me you do, already," said Dr. Butts. 

"I am the most ignorant little wretch that draws the breath of  life!"  exclaimed The Terror. 

The doctor smiled.  He knew what it meant.  She had reached that  stage of education in which the vast domain

of the unknown opens its  illimitable expanse before the eyes of the student.  We never know  the extent of

darkness until it is partially illuminated. 

"You did not leave the Institute with the reputation of being the  most ignorant young lady that ever graduated

there," said the doctor.  "They tell me you got the highest marks of any pupil on their record  since the school

was founded." 

"What a grand thing it was to be the biggest fish in our small  aquarium, to be sure!" answered The Terror.

"He was six inches long,  the monster,a little too big for bait to catch a pickerel with!  What did you hand

me that schoolbook for?  Did you think I did n't  know anything about the human body?" 

"You said you were such an ignorant creature I thought I would try  you with an easy book, by way of

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The Terror was not confused by her apparent selfcontradiction. 

"I meant what I said, and I mean what I say.  When I talk about my  ignorance, I don't measure myself with

schoolgirls, doctor.  I don't  measure myself with my teachers, either.  You must talk to me as if I  were a man, a

grown man, if you mean to teach me anything.  Where is  your hat, doctor?  Let me try it on." 

The doctor handed her his wideawake.  The Terror's hair was not  naturally abundant, like Euthymia's, and

she kept it cut rather  short.  Her head used to get very hot when she studied hard.  She  tried to put the hat on. 

"Do you see that?" she said.  "I could n't wear itit would  squeeze  my eyes out of my head.  The books told

me that women's brains  were  smaller than men's: "perhaps they are,most of them,I never  measured a

great many.  But when they try to settle what women are  good for, by phrenology, I like to have them put their

tape round my  head.  I don't believe in their nonsense, for all that.  You might as  well tell me that if one horse

weighs more than another horse he is  worth more,a carthorse that weighs twelve or fourteen hundred

pounds better than Eclipse, that may have weighed a thousand.  Give  me a list of the best books you can think

of, and turn me loose in  your library.  I can find what I want, if you have it; and what I  don't find there I will

get at the Public Library.  I shall want to  ask you a question now and then." 

The doctor looked at her with a kind of admiration, but  thoughtfully,  as if he feared she was thinking of a task

too  formidable for her  slight constitutional resource. 

She returned, instinctively, to the apparent contradiction in her  statements about herself. 

"I am not a fool, if I am ignorant.  Yes, doctor, I sail on a wide  sea of ignorance, but I have taken soundings of

some of its shallows  and some of its depths.  Your profession deals with the facts of life  that interest me most

just now, and I want to know something of it.  Perhaps I may find it a calling such as would suit me." 

"Do you seriously think of becoming a practitioner of medicine?"  said  the doctor. 

"Certainly, I seriously think of it as a possibility, but I want to  know something more about it first.  Perhaps I

sha'n't believe in  medicine enough to practise it.  Perhaps I sha'n't like it well  enough.  No matter about that.  I

wish to study some of your best  books on some of the subjects that most interest me.  I know about  bones and

muscles and all that, and about digestion and respiration  and such things.  I want to study up the nervous

system, and learn  all about it.  I am of the nervous temperament myself, and perhaps  that is the reason.  I want

to read about insanity and all that  relates to it." 

A curious expression flitted across the doctor's features as The  Terror said this. 

"Nervous system.  Insanity.  She has headaches, I know,all those  largeheaded, hardthinking girls do, as a

matter of course; but what  has set her off about insanity and the nervous system?  I wonder if  any of her more

remote relatives are subject to mental disorder.  Bright people very often have crazy relations.  Perhaps some

of her  friends are in that way.  I wonder whether"the doctor did not speak  any of these thoughts, and in fact

hardly shaped his "whether," for  The Terror interrupted his train of reflection, or rather struck into  it in a way

which startled him. 

"Where is the first volume of this Medical Cyclopaedia?" she asked,  looking at its empty place on the shelf. 

"On my table," the doctor answered.  "I have been consulting it." 

Lurida flung it open, in her eager way, and turned the pages  rapidly  until she came to the one she wanted.  The

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"I thought so," he said to himself.  "We shall know everything  there  is in the books about antipathies now, if

we never did before.  She  has a special object in studying the nervous system, just as I  suspected.  I think she

does not care to mention it at this time; but  if she finds out anything of interest she will tell me, if she does

anybody.  Perhaps she does not mean to tell anybody.  It is a rather  delicate business,a young girl studying

the natural history of a  young man.  Not quite so safe as botany or palaeontology! 

Lurida, lately The Terror, now Miss Vincent, had her own plans, and  chose to keep them to herself, for the

present, at least.  Her hands  were full enough, it might seem, without undertaking the solution of  the great

Arrowhead Village enigma.  But she was in the most perfect  training, so far as her intelligence was concerned;

and the summer  rest had restored her bodily vigor, so that her brain was like an  overcharged battery which

will find conductors somewhere to carry off  its crowded energy. 

At this time Arrowhead Village was enjoying the most successful  season it had ever known.  The Pansophian

Society flourished to an  extraordinary degree under the fostering care of the new Secretary.  The rector was a

good figurehead as President, but the Secretary was  the life of the Society.  Communications came in

abundantly: some  from the village and its neighborhood, some from the University and  the Institute, some

from distant and unknown sources.  The new  Secretary was very busy with the work of examining these

papers.  After a forenoon so employed, the carpet of her room looked like a  barn floor after a huskingmatch.

A glance at the manuscripts  strewed about, or lying in heaps, would have frightened any young  writer away

from the thought of authorship as a business.  If the  candidate for that fearful calling had seen the process of

selection  and elimination, he would have felt still more desperately.  A paper  of twenty pages would come in,

with an underscored request to please  read through, carefully.  That request alone is commonly sufficient  to

condemn any paper, and prevent its having any chance of a hearing;  but the Secretary was not hardened

enough yet for that kind of  martial law in dealing with manuscripts.  The lookeron might have  seen her take

up the paper, cast one flashing glance at its title,  read the first sentence and the last, dip at a venture into two

or  three pages, and decide as swiftly as the lightning calculator would  add up a column of figures what was to

be its destination.  If  rejected, it went into the heap on the left; if approved, it was laid  apart, to be submitted to

the Committee for their judgment.  The  foolish writers who insist on one's reading through their manuscript

poems and stories ought to know how fatal the request is to their  prospects.  It provokes the reader, to begin

with.  The reading of  manuscript is frightful work, at the best; the reading of worthless  manuscriptand most

of that which one is requested to read through  is worthlesswould add to the terrors of Tartarus, if any

infernal  deity were ingenious enough to suggest it as a punishment. 

If a paper was rejected by the Secretary, it did not come before  the  Committee, but was returned to the author,

if he sent for it,  which  he commonly did.  Its natural course was to try for admission  into  some one of the

popular magazines: into " The Sifter," the most  fastidious of them all; if that declined it, into "The Second

Best;"  and if that returned it, into "The Omnivorous."  If it was refused  admittance at the doors of all the

magazines, it might at length find  shelter in the corner of a newspaper, where a good deal of very  readable

verse is to be met with nowadays, some of which has been, no  doubt, presented to the Pansophian Society,

but was not considered up  to its standard. 

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There was a recent accession to the transient population of the  village which gave rise to some speculation.

The newcomer was a  young fellow, rather careless in his exterior, but apparently as much  at home as if he

owned Arrowhead Village and everything in it.  He  commonly had a cigar in his mouth, carried a pocket

pistol, of the  nonexplosive sort, and a stick with a bulldog's bead for its knob;  wore a soft bat, a coarse

check suit, a little baggy, and gaiterboots  which had been halfsoled,a Bohemianlooking personage,

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This individual began making explorations in every direction.  He  was  very curious about the place and all the

people in it.  He was  especially interested in the Pansophian Society, concerning which he  made all sorts of

inquiries.  This led him to form a summer  acquaintance with the Secretary, who was pleased to give him

whatever  information he asked for; being proud of the Society, as she had a  right to be, and knowing more

about it than anybody else. 

The visitor could not have been long in the village without hearing  something of Maurice Kirkwood, and the

stories, true and false,  connected with his name.  He questioned everybody who could tell him  anything about

Maurice, and set down the answers in a little note  book he always had with him. 

All this naturally excited the curiosity of the village about this  new visitor.  Among the rest, Miss Vincent, not

wanting in an  attribute thought to belong more especially to her sex, became  somewhat interested to know

more exactly who this inquiring, note  taking personage, who seemed to be everywhere and to know

everybody,  might himself be.  Meeting him at the Public Library at a fortunate  moment, when there was

nobody but the old Librarian, who was hard of  hearing, to interfere with their conversation, the little

Secretary  had a chance to try to find out something about him. 

"This is a very remarkable library for a small village to possess,"  he remarked to Miss Lurida. 

"It is, indeed," she said.  "Have you found it well furnished with  the books you most want?" 

"Oh, yes,books enough.  I don't care so much for the books as I  do  for the Newspapers.  I like a Review well

enough,it tells you all  there is in a book; but a good abstract of the Review in a Newspaper  saves a fellow

the trouble of reading it." 

"You find the papers you want, here, I hope," said the young lady. 

"Oh, I get along pretty well.  It's my offtime, and I don't do  much  reading or writing.  Who is the city

correspondent of this  place?" 

"I don't think we have any one who writes regularly.  Now and then,  there is a letter, with the gossip of the

place in it, or an account  of some of the doings at our Society.  The city papers are always  glad to get the

reports of our meetings, and to know what is going on  in the village." 

"I suppose you write about the Society to the papers, as you are  the  Secretary." 

This was a pointblank shot.  She meant to question the young man  about his business, and here she was on

the witnessstand.  She  ducked her head, and let the question go over her. 

"Oh, there are plenty of members who are willing enough to write,  especially to give an account of their

own papers.  I think they like  to have me put in the applause, when they get any.  I do that  sometimes."  (How

much more, she did not say.) 

"I have seen some very well written articles, which, from what they  tell me of the Secretary, I should have

thought she might have  written herself." 

He looked her straight in the eyes. 

"I have transmitted some good papers," she said, without winking,  or  swallowing, or changing color, precious

little color she had to  change; her brain wanted all the blood it could borrow or steal, and  more too.  "You

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yourself?" 

"I should think I did," answered the young man.  "I am a regular  correspondent of 'The People's Perennial and

Household Inquisitor.'" 

"The regular correspondent from where?" 

"Where!  Oh, anywhere,the place does not make much difference.  I  have been writing chiefly from Naples

and St. Petersburg, and now and  then from Constantinople." 

"How long since your return to this country, may I ask?" 

"My return?  I have never been out of this country.  I travel with  a  gazetteer and some guidebooks.  It is the

cheapest way, and you can  get the facts much better from them than by trusting your own  observation.  I have

made the tour of Europe by the help of them and  the newspapers.  But of late I have taken to interviewing.  I

find  that a very pleasant specialty.  It is about as good sport as trout  tickling, and much the same kind of

business.  I should like to send  the Society an account of one of my interviews.  Don't you think they  would

like to hear it?" 

"I have no doubt they would.  Send it to me, and I will look it  over;  and if the Committee approve it, we will

have it at the next  meeting.  You know everything has to be examined and voted on by the  Committee," said

the cautious Secretary. 

"Very well,I will risk it.  After it is read, if it is read,  please  send it back to me, as I want to sell it to 'The

Sifter,' or  'The  Second Best,' or some of the paying magazines." 

This is the paper, which was read at the next meeting of the  Pansophian Society. 

"I was ordered by the editor of the newspaper to which I am  attached,  'The People's Perennial and Household

Inquisitor,' to make a  visit to  a certain wellknown writer, and obtain all the particulars I  could  concerning

him and all that related to him.  I have interviewed  a  good many politicians, who I thought rather liked the

process; but I  had never tried any of these literary people, and I was not quite  sure how this one would feel

about it.  I said as much to the chief,  but he poohpoohed my scruples.  'It is n't our business whether they  like

it or not,' said he; 'the public wants it, and what the public  wants it's bound to have, and we are bound to

furnish it.  Don't be  afraid of your man; he 's used to it,he's been pumped often enough  to take it easy, and

what you've got to do is to pump him dry.  You  need n't be modest,ask him what you like; he is n't bound to

answer, you know.' 

As he lived in a rather nice quarter of the town, I smarted myself  up  a little, put on a fresh collar and cuffs,

and got a fivecent  shine  on my best highlows.  I said to myself, as I was walking  towards the  house where

he lived, that I would keep very shady for a  while and  pass for a visitor from a distance; one of those

'admiring  strangers'  who call in to pay their respects, to get an autograph, and  go home  and say that they have

met the distinguished So and So, which  gives  them a certain distinction in the village circle to which they

belong. 

"My man, the celebrated writer, received me in what was evidently  his  receptionroom.  I observed that he

managed to get the light full  on  my face, while his own was in the shade.  I had meant to have his  face in the

light, but he knew the localities, and had arranged  things so as to give him that advantage.  It was like two

frigates  manoeuvring,each trying to get to windward of the other.  I never  take out my notebook until I

and my man have got engaged in artless  and earnest conversation,always about himself and his works, of

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"I began by saying that he must receive a good many callers.  Those  who had read his books were naturally

curious to see the writer of  them. 

"He assented, emphatically, to this statement.  He had, he said, a  great many callers. 

"I remarked that there was a quality in his books which made his  readers feel as if they knew him personally,

and caused them to  cherish a certain attachment to him. 

"He smiled, as if pleased.  He was himself disposed to think so, he  said.  In fact, a great many persons,

strangers writing to him, had  told him so. 

"My dear sir, I said, there is nothing wonderful in the fact you  mention.  You reach a responsive chord in

many human breasts. 

     'One touch of Nature makes the whole world kin.'

Everybody feels as if he, and especially she (his eyes sparkled),  were your blood relation.  Do they not name

their children after you  very frequently? 

"He blushed perceptibly.  'Sometimes,' he answered.  'I hope they  will all turn out well.' 

"I am afraid I am taking up too much of your time, I said. 

"No, not at all,' he replied.  'Come up into my library; it is  warmer  and pleasanter there.' 

"I felt confident that I had him by the right handle then; for an  author's library, which is commonly his

workingroom, is, like a  lady's boudoir, a sacred apartment. 

"So we went upstairs, and again he got me with the daylight on my  face, when I wanted it on has. 

"You have a fine library, I remarked.  There were books all round  the  room, and one of those whirligig square

bookcases.  I saw in  front a  Bible and a Concordance, Shakespeare and Mrs. Cowden Clarke's  book,  and

other classical works and books of grave aspect.  I  contrived to  give it a turn, and on the side next the wall I

got a  glimpse of  Barnum's Rhyming Dictionary, and several Dictionaries of  Quotations  and cheap compends

of knowledge.  Always twirl one of those  revolving  bookcases when you visit a scholar's library.  That is the

way to  find out what books he does n't want you to see, which of  course are  the ones you particularly wish to

see. 

"Some may call all this impertinent and inquisitive.  What do you  suppose is an interviewer's business?  Did

you ever see an oyster  opened?  Yes?  Well, an interviewer's business is the same thing.  His  man is his oyster,

which he, not with sword, but with pencil and  notebook, must open.  Mark how the oysterman's thin blade

insinuates  itself,how gently at first, how strenuously when once fairly  between the shells! 

"And here, I said, you write your books,those books which have  carried your name to all parts of the

world, and will convey it down  to posterity!  Is this the desk at which you write?  And is this the  pen you write

with? 

"'It is the desk and the very pen,' he replied. 

"He was pleased with my questions and my way of putting them.  I  took  up the pen as reverentially as if it had

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dropped, and did n't. 

"Would you kindly write your autograph in my notebook, with that  pen?  I asked him.  Yes, he would, with

great pleasure. 

"So I got out my notebook. 

"It was a spick and span new one, bought on purpose for this  interview.  I admire your bookcases, said I.  Can

you tell me just  how high they are? 

"'They are about eight feet, with the cornice.' 

"I should like to have some like those, if I ever get rich enough,  said I.  Eight feet,eight feet, with the

cornice.  I must put that  down. 

"So I got out my pencil. 

"I sat there with my pencil and notebook in my hand, all ready,  but  not using them as yet. 

"I have heard it said, I observed, that you began writing poems at  a  very early age.  Is it taking too great a

liberty to ask how early  you began to write in verse? 

"He was getting interested, as people are apt to be when they are  themselves the subjects of conversation. 

"'Very early,I hardly know how early.  I can say truly, as Louise  Colet said, 

     'Je fis mes premiers vers sans savoir les ecrire.'"

"I am not a very good French scholar, said I; perhaps you will be  kind enough to translate that line for me. 

"'Certainly.  With pleasure.  I made my first  verses without  knowing how to write them.' 

"How interesting!  But I never heard of Louise Colet.  Who was she? 

"My man was pleased to give me a piece of literary information. 

"'Louise the lioness!  Never heard of her?  You have heard of  Alphonse Karr?' 

"Why,yes,more or less.  To tell the truth, I am not very well  up  in French literature.  What had he to do

with your lioness? 

"'A good deal.  He satirized her, and she waited at his door with a  caseknife in her hand, intending to stick

him with it.  By and by he  came down, smoking a cigarette, and was met by this woman flourishing  her

caseknife.  He took it from her, after getting a cut in his  dressinggown, put it in his pocket, and went on

with his cigarette.  He keeps it with an inscription : 

     Donne a Alphonse Karr

     Par Madame Louise Colet....

     Dans le dos.

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"I could n't help thinking that I should n't have cared to  interview  the lively little female.  He was evidently

tickled with the  interest  I appeared to take in the story he told me.  That made him  feel  amiably disposed

toward me. 

"I began with very general questions, but by degrees I got at  everything about his family history and the small

events of his  boyhood.  Some of the points touched upon were delicate, but I put a  good bold face on my most

audacious questions, and so I wormed out a  great deal that was new concerning my subject.  He had been

written  about considerably, and the public wouldn't have been satisfied  without some new facts; and these I

meant to have, and I got.  No  matter about many of them now, but here are some questions and  answers that

may be thought worth reading or listening to: 

"How do you enjoy being what they call 'a celebrity,' or a  celebrated  man? 

"'So far as one's vanity is concerned it is well enough.  But self  love is a cup without any bottom, and you

might pour the Great Lakes  all through it, and never fill it up.  It breeds an appetite for more  of the same kind.

It tends to make the celebrity a mere lump of  egotism.  It generates a craving for highseasoned personalities

which is in danger of becoming slavery, like that following the abuse  of alcohol, or opium, or tobacco.  Think

of a man's having every day,  by every post, letters that tell him he is this and that and the  other, with epithets

and endearments, one tenth part of which would  have made him blush red hot before he began to be what you

call a  celebrity!' 

"Are there not some special inconveniences connected with what is  called celebrity? 

"'I should think so!  Suppose you were obliged every day of your  life  to stand and shake hands, as the

President of the United States  has  to after his inauguration: how do you think your hand would feel  after a

few months' practice of that exercise?  Suppose you had given  you thirtyfive millions of money a year, in

hundreddollar coupons,  on condition that you cut them all off yourself in the usual manner:  how do you

think you should like the look of a pair of scissors at  the end of a year, in which you had worked ten hours a

day every day  but Sunday, cutting off a hundred coupons an hour, and found you had  not finished your task,

after all?  Yon have addressed me as what you  are pleased to call "a literary celebrity."  I won't dispute with

you  as to whether or not I deserve that title.  I will take it for  granted I am what you call me, and give you

some few hints on my  experience. 

"'You know there was formed a while ago an Association of Authors  for  SelfProtection.  It meant well, and

it was hoped that something  would come of it in the way of relieving that oppressed class, but I  am sorry to

say that it has not effected its purpose.' 

"I suspected he had a hand in drawing up the Constitution and Laws  of  that Association.  Yes, I said, an

admirable Association it was,  and  as much needed as the one for the Prevention of Cruelty to  Animals.  I am

sorry to hear that it has not proved effectual in  putting a stop  to the abuse of a deserving class of men.  It

ought to  have done it;  it was well conceived, and its public manifesto was a  masterpiece.  (I saw by his

expression that he was its author.) 

"'I see I can trust you,' he said.  'I will unbosom myself freely  of  some of the grievances attaching to the

position of the individual  to  whom you have applied the term "Literary Celebrity." 

"'He is supposed to be a millionaire, in virtue of the immense  sales  of his books, all the money from which, it

is taken for granted,  goes  into his pocket.  Consequently, all subscription papers are  handed to  him for his

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"'He is expected to subscribe for all periodicals, and is goaded by  receiving blank formulae, which, with their

promises to pay, he is  expected to fill up. 

"'He receives two or three books daily, with requests to read and  give his opinion about each of them, which

opinion, if it has a word  which can be used as an advertisement, he will find quoted in all the  newspapers. 

"'He receives thick masses of manuscript, prose and verse, which he  is called upon to examine and pronounce

on their merits; these  manuscripts having almost invariably been rejected by the editors to  whom they have

been sent, and having as a rule no literary value  whatever. 

"'He is expected to sign petitions, to contribute to journals, to  write for fairs, to attend celebrations, to make

afterdinner  speeches, to send money for objects he does not believe in to places  he never heard of. 

"'He is called on to keep up correspondences with unknown admirers,  who begin by saying they have no

claim upon his time, and then  appropriate it by writing page after page, if of the male sex; and  sheet after

sheet, if of the other. 

"'If a poet, it is taken for granted that he can sit down at any  moment and spin off any number of verses on

any subject which may be  suggested to him; such as congratulations to the writer's great  grandmother on her

reaching her hundredth year, an elegy on an infant  aged six weeks, an ode for the Fourth of July in a Western

township  not to be found in Lippincott's last edition, perhaps a valentine for  some bucolic lover who believes

that wooing in rhyme is the way to  win the object of his affections.' 

"Is n't it so?  I asked the Celebrity. 

"'I would bet on the prose lover.  She will show the verses to him,  and they will both have a good laugh over

them.' 

"I have only reported a small part of the conversation I had with  the  Literary Celebrity.  He was so much

taken up with his pleasing  self  contemplation, while I made him air his opinions and feelings  and  spread his

characteristics as his laundress spreads and airs his  linen on the clothesline, that I don't believe it ever

occurred to  him that he had been in the hands of an interviewer until he found  himself exposed to the wind

and sunshine in full dimensions in the  columns of The People's Perennial and Household Inquisitor.'" 

After the reading of this paper, much curiosity was shown as to who  the person spoken of as the "Literary

Celebrity" might be.  Among the  various suppositions the startling idea was suggested that he was  neither

more nor less than the unexplained personage known in the  village as Maurice Kirkwood.  Why should that be

his real name?  Why  should not he be the Celebrity, who had taken this name and fled to  this retreat to escape

from the persecutions of kind friends, who  were pricking him and stabbing him nigh to death with their

daggers  of sugar candy? 

The Secretary of the Pansophian Society determined to question the  Interviewer the next time she met him at

the Library, which happened  soon after the meeting when his paper was read. 

"I do not know," she said, in the course of a conversation in which  she had spoken warmly of his contribution

to the literary  entertainment of the Society, "that you mentioned the name of the  Literary Celebrity whom you

interviewed so successfully." 

"I did not mention him, Miss Vincent," he answered, "nor do I think  it worth while to name him.  He might

not care to have the whole  story told of how he was handled so as to make him communicative.  Besides, if I

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correspondents, full of indignation at the bores who presumed to  intrude upon him with their pages of trash,

all the writers of which  would expect answers to their letters of condolence." 

The Secretary asked the Interviewer if he knew the young gentleman  who called himself Maurice Kirkwood. 

"What," he answered, "the man that paddles a birch canoe, and rides  all the wild horses of the neighborhood?

No, I don't know him, but I  have met him once or twice, out walking.  A mighty shy fellow, they  tell me.  Do

you know anything particular about him?" 

"Not much.  None of us do, but we should like to.  The story is  that  be has a queer antipathy to something or to

somebody, nobody  knows  what or whom." 

"To newspaper correspondents, perhaps," said the interviewer.  "What  made you ask me about him?  You did

n't think he was my  'Literary  Celebrity,' did you?" 

"I did not know.  I thought he might be.  Why don't you interview  this mysterious personage?  He would make

a good sensation for your  paper, I should think." 

"Why, what is there to be interviewed in him?  Is there any story  of  crime, or anything else to spice a column

or so, or even a few  paragraphs, with?  If there is, I am willing to handle him  professionally." 

"I told you he has what they call an antipathy.  I don't know how  much wiser you are for that piece of

information." 

"An antipathy!  Why, so have I an antipathy.  I hate a spider, and  as  for a naked caterpillar,I believe I should

go into a fit if I had  to touch one.  I know I turn pale at the sight of some of those great  green caterpillars that

come down from the elmtrees in August and  early autumn." 

"Afraid of them?" asked the young lady. 

"Afraid?  What should I be afraid of?  They can't bite or sting.  I  can't give any reason.  All I know is that when

I come across one of  these creatures in my path I jump to one side, and cry out,  sometimes using very

improper words.  The fact is, they make me crazy  for the moment." 

"I understand what you mean," said Miss Vincent.  "I used to have  the  same feeling about spiders, but I was

ashamed of it, and kept a  little menagerie of spiders until I had got over the feeling; that  is, pretty much got

over it, for I don't love the creatures very  dearly, though I don't scream when I see one." 

"What did you tell me, Miss Vincent, was this fellow's particular  antipathy?" 

That is just the question.  I told you that we don't know and we  can't guess what it is.  The people here are tired

out with trying to  discover some good reason for the young man's keeping out of the way  of everybody, as he

does.  They say he is odd or crazy, and they  don't seem to be able to tell which.  It would make the old ladies

of  the village sleep a great deal sounder,yes, and some of the young  ladies, too,if they could find out

what this Mr. Kirkwood has got  into his head, that he never comes near any of the people here." 

"I think I can find out," said the Interviewer, whose professional  ambition was beginning to be excited.  "I

never came across anybody  yet that I could n't get something out of.  I am going to stay here a  week or two,

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We must leave the Interviewer to his contrivances until they  present  us with some kind of result, either in the

shape of success or  failure. 

XI. THE INTERVIEWER ATTACKS THE SPHINX.

When Miss Euthymia Tower sent her oar off in flashing splinters, as  she pulled her last stroke in the

boatrace, she did not know what a  strain she was putting upon it.  She did know that she was doing her  best,

but how great the force of her best was she was not aware until  she saw its effects.  Unconsciousness belonged

to her robust nature,  in all its manifestations.  She did not pride herself on her  knowledge, nor reproach herself

for her ignorance.  In every way she  formed a striking contrast to her friend, Miss Vincent.  Every word  they

spoke betrayed the difference between them: the sharp tones of  Lurida's headvoice, penetrative, aggressive,

sometimes irritating,  revealed the corresponding traits of mental and moral character; the  quiet,

conversational contralto of Euthymia was the index of a nature  restful and sympathetic. 

The friendships of young girls prefigure the closer relations which  will one day come in and dissolve their

earlier intimacies.  The  dependence of two young friends may be mutual, but one will always  lean more

heavily than the other; the masculine and feminine elements  will be as sure to assert themselves as if the

friends were of  different sexes. 

On all common occasions Euthymia looked up to her friend as her  superior.  She fully appreciated all her

varied gifts and knowledge,  and deferred to her opinion in everyday matters, not exactly as an  oracle, but as

wiser than herself or any of her other companions.  It  was a different thing, however, when the graver

questions of life  came up.  Lurida was full of suggestions, plans, projects, which were  too liable to run into

whims before she knew where they were tending.  She would lay out her ideas before Euthymia so fluently

and  eloquently that she could not help believing them herself, and  feeling as if her friend must accept them

with an enthusiasm like her  own.  Then Euthymia would take them up with her sweet, deliberate  accents, and

bring her calmer judgment to bear on them. 

Lurida was in an excited condition, in the midst of all her new  interests and occupations.  She was constantly

on the lookout for  papers to be read at the meetings of her Society,for she made it  her own in great

measure, by her zeal and enthusiasm,and in the  mean time she was reading in various books which Dr.

Butts selected  for her, all bearing on the profession to which, at least as a  possibility, she was looking

forward.  Privately and in a very still  way, she was occupying herself with the problem of the young  stranger,

the subject of some delusion, or disease, or obliquity of  unknown nature, to which the vague name of

antipathy had been  attached.  Euthymia kept an eye upon her, partly in the fear that  overexcitement would

produce some mental injury, and partly from  anxiety lest she should compromise her womanly dignity in her

desire  to get at the truth of a very puzzling question. 

"How do you like the books I see you reading?" said Euthymia to  Lurida, one day, as they met at the Library. 

"Better than all the novels I ever read," she answered.  "I have  been  reading about the nervous system, and it

seems to me I have come  nearer the springs of life than ever before in all my studies.  I  feel just as if I were a

telegraph operator.  I was sure that I had a  battery in my head, for I know my brain works like one; but I did

not  know how many centres of energy there are, and how they are played  upon by all sorts of influences,

external and internal.  Do you know,  I believe I could solve the riddle of the 'Arrowhead Village Sphinx,'  as

the paper called him, if he would only stay here long enough?" 

"What paper has had anything about it, Lurida?  I have not seen or  heard of its being mentioned in any of the

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"You know that rather queerlooking young man who has been about  here  for some time,the same one

who gave the account of his  interview  with a celebrated author?  Well, he has handed me a copy of  a paper  in

which he writes, 'The People's Perennial and Household  Inquisitor.' He talks about this village in a very free

and easy way.  He says there is a Sphinx here, who has mystified us all." 

"And you have been chatting with that fellow!  Don't you know that  he'll have you and all of us in his paper?

Don't you know that  nothing is safe where one of those fellows gets in with his notebook  and pencil?  Oh,

Lurida, Lurida, do be careful!"  What with this  mysterious young man and this very questionable

newspaperparagraph  writer, you will be talked about, if you don't mind, before you know  it.  You had better

let the riddle of the Sphinx alone.  If you must  deal with such dangerous people, the safest way is to set one of

them  to find out the other. I wonder if we can't get this new man to  interview the visitor you have so much

curiosity about.  That might  be managed easily enough without your having anything to do with it.  Let me

alone, and I will arrange it.  But mind, now, you must not  meddle; if you do, you will spoil everything, and

get your name in  the 'Household Inquisitor' in a way you won't like." 

"Don't be frightened about me, Euthymia.  I don't mean to give him  a  chance to work me into his paper, if I

can help it.  But if you can  get him to try his skill upon this interesting personage and his  antipathy, so much

the better.  I am very curious about it, and  therefore about him.  I want to know what has produced this strange

state of feeling in a young man who ought to have all the common  instincts of a social being.  I believe there

are unexplained facts  in the region of sympathies and antipathies which will repay study  with a deeper insight

into the mysteries of life than we have dreamed  of hitherto.  I often wonder whether there are not heartwaves

and  soulwaves as well as 'brainwaves,' which some have already  recognized." 

Euthymia wondered, as well she might, to hear this young woman  talking the language of science like an

adept.  The truth is, Lurida  was one of those persons who never are young, and who, by way of  compensation,

will never be old.  They are found in both sexes.  Two  wellknown graduates of one of our great universities

are living  examples of this precocious but enduring intellectual development.  If  the readers of this narrative

cannot pick them out, they need not  expect the writer of it to help them.  If they guess rightly who they  are,

they will recognize the fact that just such exceptional  individuals as the young woman we are dealing with

are met with from  time to time in families where intelligence has been cumulative for  two or three

generations. 

Euthymia was very willing that the questioning and questionable  visitor should learn all that was known in

the village about the  nebulous individual whose misty environment all the eyes in the  village were trying to

penetrate, but that he should learn it from  some other informant than Lurida. 

The next morning, as the Interviewer took his seat on a bench  outside  his door, to smoke his afterbreakfast

cigar, a brightlooking  and  handsome youth, whose features recalled those of Euthymia so  strikingly that one

might feel pretty sure he was her brother, took a  seat by his side.  Presently the two were engaged in

conversation.  The Interviewer asked all sorts of questions about everybody in the  village.  When he came to

inquire about Maurice, the youth showed a  remarkable interest regarding him.  The greatest curiosity, he said,

existed with reference to this personage.  Everybody was trying to  find out what his story was,for a story,

and a strange one, he must  surely have,and nobody had succeeded. 

The Interviewer began to be unusually attentive.  The young man  told  him the various antipathy stories, about

the evileye hypothesis,  about his horsetaming exploits, his rescuing the student whose boat  was

overturned, and every occurrence he could recall which would help  out the effect of his narrative. 

The Interviewer was becoming excited.  "Can't find out anything  about  him, you said, did n't you?  How do

you know there's anything  to  find?  Do you want to know what I think he is?  I'll tell you.  I  think he is an

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puzzle the  country folks.  They are the very same chaps, like as not, the  visitors have seen in plays at the city

theatres; but of course they  don't know 'em in plain clothes.  Kings and Emperors look pretty  shabby off the

stage sometimes, I can tell you." 

The young man followed the Interviewer's lead.  "I shouldn't wonder  if you were right," he said.  "I remember

seeing a young fellow in  Romeo that looked a good deal like this one.  But I never met the  Sphinx, as they call

him, face to face.  He is as shy as a woodchuck.  I believe there are people here that would give a hundred

dollars to  find out who he is, and where he came from, and what he is here for,  and why he does n't act like

other folks.  I wonder why some of those  newspaper men don't come up here and get hold of this story.  It

would be just the thing for a sensational writer." 

To all this the Interviewer listened with true professional  interest.  Always on the lookout for something to

make up a paragraph  or a  column about; driven oftentimes to the stalest of  repetitions,to  the biggest

pumpkin story, the tall cornstalk, the  fat ox, the live  frog from the human stomach story, the third set of  teeth

and reading  without spectacles at ninety story, and the rest of  the marvellous  commonplaces which are kept

in type with e o y  or  e 6  m (every  other year or every six months) at the foot; always in want  of a  fresh

incident, a new story, an undescribed character, an  unexplained  mystery, it is no wonder that the Interviewer

fastened  eagerly upon  this most tempting subject for an inventive and emotional  correspondent. 

He had seen Paolo several times, and knew that he was Maurice's  confidential servant, but had never spoken

to him.  So he said to  himself that he must make Paolo's acquaintance, to begin with.  In  the summer season

many kinds of small traffic were always carried on  in Arrowhead Village.  Among the rest, the sellers of

fruits  oranges, bananas, and others, according to the seasonsdid an active  business.  The Interviewer

watched one of these fruitsellers, and  saw that his handcart stopped opposite the house where, as he knew,

Maurice Kirkwood was living.  Presently Paolo came out of the door,  and began examining the contents of the

handcart.  The Interviewer  saw his opportunity.  Here was an introduction to the man, and the  man must

introduce him to the master. 

He knew very well how to ingratiate himself with the man,there  was  no difficulty about that.  He had

learned his name, and that he  was  an Italian whom Maurice had brought to this country with him. 

"Good morning, Mr. Paul," he said.  "How do you like the look of  these oranges?" 

"They pretty fair," said Paolo: "no so good as them las' week; no  sweet as them was." 

"Why, how do you know without tasting them?" said the Interviewer. 

"I know by his look,I know by his smell,he no good yaller,he  no  smell ripe,I know orange ever

since my head no bigger than he  is,"  and Paolo laughed at his own comparison. 

The Interviewer laughed louder than Paolo. 

"Good!" said he,"firstrate!  Of course you know all about 'em.  Why can't you pick me out a couple of

what you think are the best of  'em?  I shall be greatly obliged to you.  I have a sick friend, and I  want to get

two nice sweet ones for him." 

Paolo was pleased.  His skill and judgment were recognized.  He  felt  grateful to the stranger, who had given

him, an opportunity of  conferring a favor.  He selected two, after careful examination and  grave deliberation.

The Interviewer had sense and tact enough not to  offer him an orange, and so shift the balance of obligation. 

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"Signor?  He very well.  He always well.  Why you ask?  Anybody  tell  you he sick?" 

"No, nobody said he was sick.  I have n't seen him going about for  a  day or two, and I thought be might have

something the matter with  him.  Is he in the house now?" 

"No: he off riding.  He take long, long rides, sometime gone all  day.  Sometime he go on lake, paddle, paddle

in the morning, very, very  early,in night when the moon shine; sometime stay in house, and  read, and

study, and write,he great scholar, Misser Kirkwood." 

"A good many books, has n't he?" 

"He got whole shelfs full of books.  Great books, little books, old  books, new books, all sorts of books.  He

great scholar, I tell you." 

"Has n't he some curiosities,old figures, old jewelry, old coins,  or things of that sort?" 

Paolo looked at the young man cautiously, almost suspiciously.  "He  don't keep no jewels nor no money in his

chamber.  He got some  old  things,old jugs, old brass figgers, old money, such as they  used to  have in old

times: she don't pass now."  Paolo's genders were  apt to  be somewhat indiscriminately distributed. 

A lucky thought struck the Interviewer.  "I wonder if he would  examine some old coins of mine?" said he, in a

modestly tentative  manner. 

"I think he like to see anything curious.  When he come home I ask  him.  Who will I tell him wants to ask him

about old coin?" 

"Tell him a gentleman visiting Arrowhead Village would like to call  and show him some old pieces of

money, said to be Roman ones." 

The Interviewer had just remembered that he had two or three old  battered bits of copper which he had picked

up at a tollman's, where  they had been passed off for cents.  He had bought them as  curiosities.  One had the

name of Gallienus upon it, tolerably  distinct,a common little Roman penny; but it would serve his  purpose

of asking a question, as would two or three others with less  legible legends.  Paolo told him that if he came the

next morning he  would stand a fair chance of seeing Mr. Kirkwood.  At any rate, he  would speak to his

master. 

The Interviewer presented himself the next morning, after finishing  his breakfast and his cigar, feeling

reasonably sure of finding Mr.  Kirkwood at home, as he proved to be.  He had told Paolo to show the  stranger

up to his library,or study, as he modestly called it. 

It was a pleasant room enough, with a lookout on the lake in one  direction, and the wooded hill in another.

The tenant had fitted it  up in scholarly fashion.  The books Paolo spoke of were conspicuous,  many of them,

by their white vellum binding and tasteful gilding,  showing that probably they had been bound in Rome, or

some other  Italian city.  With these were older volumes in their dark original  leather, and recent ones in cloth

or paper.  As the Interviewer ran  his eye over them, he found that he could make very little out of  what their

backs taught him.  Some of the papercovered books, some  of the clothcovered ones, had names which he

knew; but those on the  backs of many of the others were strange to his eyes.  The classics  of Greek and Latin

and Italian literature were there; and he saw  enough to feel convinced that he had better not attempt to display

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The first thing the Interviewer had to do was to account for his  visiting a person who had not asked to make

his acquaintance, and who  was living as a recluse.  He took out his battered coppers, and  showed them to

Maurice. 

"I understood that you were very skilful in antiquities, and had a  good many yourself.  So I took the liberty of

calling upon you,  hoping that you could tell me something about some ancient coins I  have had for a good

while."  So saying, he pointed to the copper with  the name of Gallienus. 

"Is this very rare and valuable?  I have heard that great prices  have  been paid for some of these ancient

coins,ever so many guineas,  sometimes.  I suppose this is as much as a thousand years old." 

"More than a thousand years old," said Maurice. 

"And worth a great deal of money?" asked the Interviewer. 

"No, not a great deal of money," answered Maurice. 

"How much, should you say?" said the Interviewer. 

Maurice smiled.  "A little more than the value of its weight in  copper,I am afraid not much more.  There are

a good many of these  coins of Gallienus knocking about.  The peddlers and the shopkeepers  take such pieces

occasionally, and sell them, sometimes for five or  ten cents, to young collectors.  No, it is not very precious in

money  value, but as a relic any piece of money that was passed from hand to  hand a thousand or fifteen

hundred years ago is interesting.  The  value of such relics is a good deal a matter of imagination." 

"And what do you say to these others?" asked the Interviewer.  Poor  old wornout things they were, with a

letter or two only, and some  faint trace of a figure on one or two of them. 

"Very interesting, always, if they carry your imagination back to  the  times when you may suppose they were

current.  Perhaps Horace  tossed  one of them to a beggar.  Perhaps one of these was the coin  that was  brought

when One said to those about Him, 'Bring me a penny,  that I  may see it.'  But the market price is a different

matter.  That  depends on the beauty and preservation, and above all the rarity, of  the specimen.  Here is a coin,

now,"he opened a small cabinet, and  took one from it.  "Here is a Syracusan decadrachm with the head of

Persephone, which is at once rare, well preserved, and beautiful.  I  am afraid to tell what I paid for it." 

The Interviewer was not an expert in numismatics.  He cared very  little more for an old coin than he did for an

old button, but he had  thought his purchase at the tollman's might prove a good speculation.  No matter about

the battered old pieces: he had found out, at any  rate, that Maurice must have money and could be

extravagant, or what  he himself considered so; also that he was familiar with ancient  coins.  That would do for

a beginning. 

"May I ask where you picked up the coin you are showing me?" he  said 

"That is a question which provokes a negative answer.  One does not  'pick up' firstclass coins or paintings,

very often, in these times.  I bought this of a great dealer in Rome." 

"Lived in Rome once?" said the Interviewer. 

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The Interviewer said he had never been there yet, but he hoped he  should go there, one of these years.

"suppose you studied art and  antiquities while you were there?" he continued. 

"Everybody who goes to Rome must learn something of art and  antiquities.  Before you go there I advise you

to review Roman  history and the classic authors.  You had better make a study of  ancient and modern art, and

not have everything to learn while you  are going about among ruins, and churches, and galleries.  You know

your Horace and Virgil well, I take it for granted?" 

The Interviewer hesitated.  The names sounded as if he had heard  them.  "Not so well as I mean to before

going to Rome," he answered.  "May I ask how long you lived in Rome?" 

"Long enough to know something of what is to be seen in it.  No one  should go there without careful

preparation beforehand.  You are  familiar with Vasari, of course?" 

The Interviewer felt a slight moisture on his forehead.  He took  out  his handkerchief.  "It is a warm day," he

said.  "I have not had  time  to read allthe works I mean to.  I have had too much writing to  do,  myself, to find

all the time for reading and study I could have  wished." 

"In what literary occupation have you been engaged, if you will  pardon my inquiry?  said Maurice. 

"I am connected with the press.  I understood that you were a man  of  letters, and I hoped I might have the

privilege of hearing from  your  own lips some account of your literary experiences." 

"Perhaps that might be interesting, but I think I shall reserve it  for my autobiography.  You said you were

connected with the press.  Do  I understand that you are an author?" 

By this time the Interviewer had come to the conclusion that it was  a  very warm day.  He did not seem to be

getting hold of his pitcher by  the right handle, somehow.  But he could not help answering Maurice's  very

simple question. 

"If writing for a newspaper gives one a right to be called an  author,  I may call myself one.  I write for the

"People's Perennial  and  Household Inquisitor.'" 

"Are you the literary critic of that wellknown journal, or do you  manage the political column?" 

"I am a correspondent from different places and on various matters  of  interest." 

"Places you have been to, and people you have known?" 

"Well, yes,generally, that is.  Sometimes I have to compile my  articles." 

"Did you write the letter from Rome, published a few weeks ago?" 

The Interviewer was in what he would call a tight place.  However,  he  had found that his man was too much

for him, and saw that the best  thing he could do was to submit to be interviewed himself.  He  thought that he

should be able to pick up something or other which he  could work into his report of his visit. 

"Well, Iprepared that article for our columns.  You know one does  not have to see everything he describes.

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"Yes, Murray is generally accurate.  Sometimes he makes mistakes,  but  I can't say how far you have copied

them.  You got the Ponte  Molle  the old Milvian bridgea good deal too far down the stream,  if I

remember.  I happened to notice that, but I did not read the  article  carefully.  May I ask whether you propose to

do me the honor  of  reporting this visit and the conversation we have had, for the  columns of the newspaper

with which you are connected?" 

The Interviewer thought he saw an opening.  "If you have no  objections," he said, "I should like very much to

ask a few  questions."  He was recovering his professional audacity. 

"You can ask as many questions as you consider proper and  discreet,  after you have answered one or two

of mine: Who  commissioned you to  submit me to examination?" 

"The curiosity of the public wishes to be gratified, and I am the  humble agent of its investigations." 

"What has the public to do with my private affairs?" 

"I suppose it is a question of majority and minority.  That settles  everything in this country.  You are a

minority of one opposed to a  large number of curious people that form a majority against you.  That  is the way

I've heard the chief put it." 

Maurice could not help smiling at the quiet assumption of the  American citizen.  The Interviewer smiled, too,

and thought he had  his man, sure, at last.  Maurice calmly answered, "There is nothing  left for minorities,

then, but the right of rebellion.  I don't care  about being made the subject of an article for your paper.  I am

here  for my pleasure, minding my own business, and content with that  occupation.  I rebel against your

system of forced publicity.  Whenever I am ready I shall tell the public all it has any right to  know about me.

In the mean time I shall request to be spared reading  my biography while I am living.  I wish you a

goodmorning." 

The Interviewer had not taken out his notebook and pencil.  In his  next communication from Arrowhead

Village he contented himself with a  brief mention of the distinguished and accomplished gentleman now

visiting the place, whose library and cabinet of coins he had had the  privilege of examining, and whose

courtesy was equalled only by the  modesty that shunned the public notoriety which the organs of popular

intelligence would otherwise confer upon him. 

The Interviewer had attempted the riddle of the Sphinx, and had  failed to get the first hint of its solution. 

The many tongues of the village and its visitors could not remain  idle.  The whole subject of antipathies had

been talked over, and the  various cases recorded had become more or less familiar to the  conversational

circles which met every evening in the different  centres of social life.  The prevalent hypothesis for the

moment was  that Maurice had a congenital aversion to some color, the effects of  which upon him were so

painful or disagreeable that he habitually  avoided exposure to it.  It was known, and it has already been

mentioned, that such cases were on record.  There had been a great  deal of discussion, of late, with reference

to a fact long known to a  few individuals, but only recently made a matter of careful  scientific observation

and brought to the notice of the public.  This  was the now wellknown phenomenon of colorblindness.  It did

not  seem very strange that if one person in every score or two could not  tell red from green there might be

other curious individual  peculiarities relating to color.  A case has already been referred to  where the subject

of observation fainted at the sight of any red  object.  What if this were the trouble with Maurice Kirkwood?  It

will be seen at once how such a congenital antipathy would tend to  isolate the person who was its unfortunate

victim.  It was an  hypothesis not difficult to test, but it was a rather delicate  business to be experimenting on

an inoffensive stranger.  Miss  Vincent was thinking it over, but said nothing, even to Euthymia, of  any

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XII. MISS VINCENT AS A MEDICAL STUDENT.

The young lady whom we have known as The Terror, as Lurida, as Miss  Vincent, Secretary of the

Pansophian Society, had been reading  various works selected for her by Dr. Butts,works chiefly relating  to

the nervous system and its different affections.  She thought it  was about time to talk over the general subject

of the medical  profession with her new teacher,if such a selfdirecting person as  Lurida could be said to

recognize anybody as teacher. 

She began at the beginning.  "What is the first book you would put  in  a student's hands, doctor?" she said to

him one day.  They were in  his study, and Lurida had just brought back a thick volume on  Insanity, one of

Bucknill and Puke's, which she had devoured as if it  had been a pamphlet. 

"Not that book, certainly," he said.  "I am afraid it will put all  sorts of notions into your head.  Who or what set

you to reading  that, I should like to know?" 

"I found it on one of your shelves, and as I thought I might  perhaps  be crazy some time or other, I felt as if I

should like to  know what  kind of a condition insanity is.  I don't believe they were  ever very  bright, those

insane people, most of them.  I hope I am not  stupid  enough ever to lose my wits." 

"There is no telling, my dear, what may happen if you overwork that  busy brain of yours.  But did n't it make

you nervous, reading about  so many people possessed with such strange notions?" 

"Nervous?  Not a bit.  I could n't help thinking, though, how many  people I had known that had a little touch of

craziness about them.  Take that poor woman that says she is Her Majesty's Person,not Her  Majesty, but

Her Majesty's Person,a very important distinction,  according to her: how she does remind me of more than

one girl I have  known!  She would let her skirts down so as to make a kind of train,  and pile things on her

head like a sort of crown, fold her arms and  throw her head back, and feel as grand as a queen.  I have seen

more  than one girl act very much in that way.  Are not most of us a little  crazy, doctor,just a little?  I think

so.  It seems to me I never  saw but one girl who was free from every hint of craziness." 

"And who was that, pray?" 

"Why, Euthymia,nobody else, of course.  She never loses her  head,  I don't believe she would in an

earthquake.  Whenever we were  at work  with our microscopes at the Institute I always told her that  her mind

was the only achromatic one I ever looked into,I did n't  say looked  through.But I did n't come to talk

about that.  I read  in one of  your books that when Sydenham was asked by a student what  books he  should

read, the great physician said, 'Read "Don Quixote."'  I want  you to explain that to me; and then I want you to

tell me what  is the  first book, according to your idea, that a student ought to  read." 

"What do you say to my taking your question as the subject of a  paper  to be read before the Society?  I think

there may be other young  ladies at the meeting, besides yourself, who are thinking of pursuing  the study of

medicine.  At any rate, there are a good many who are  interested in the subject; in fact, most people listen

readily to  anything doctors tell them about their calling." 

"I wish you would, doctor.  I want Euthymia to hear it, and I don't  doubt there will be others who will be glad

to hear everything you  have to say about it.  But oh, doctor, if you could only persuade  Eutbymia to become a

physician!  What a doctor she would make!  So  strong, so calm, so full of wisdom!  I believe she could take the

wheel of a steamboat in a storm, or the hose of a fireengine in a  conflagration, and handle it as well as the

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"Have you ever talked with her about studying medicine?" 

"Indeed I have.  Oh, if she would only begin with me!  What good  times we would have studying together!" 

"I don't doubt it.  Medicine is a very pleasant study.  But how do  you think practice would be?  How would you

like being called up to  ride ten miles in a midnight snowstorm, just when one of your raging  headaches was

racking you?" 

"Oh, but we could go into partnership, and Euthymia is n't afraid  of  storms or anything else.  If she would

only study medicine with  me!" 

"Well, what does she say to it?" 

"She does n't like the thought of it.  She does n't believe in  women  doctors.  She thinks that now and then a

woman may be fitted for  it  by nature, but she does n't think there are many who are.  She  gives  me a good

many reasons against their practising medicine, you  know  what most of them are, doctor,and ends by

saying that the same  woman who would be a poor sort of doctor would make a firstrate  nurse; and that, she

thinks, is a woman's business, if her instinct  carries her to the hospital or sickchamber.  I can't argue her

ideas  out of her." 

"Neither can I argue you out of your feeling about the matter; but  I  am disposed to agree with your friend,

that you will often spoil a  good nurse to make a poor doctor.  Doctors and sidesaddles don't  seem to me to go

together.  Riding habits would be awkward things for  practitioners.  But come, we won't have a controversy

just now.  I am  for giving women every chance for a good education, and if they think  medicine is one of their

proper callings let them try it.  I think  they will find that they had better at least limit themselves to  certain

specialties, and always have an expert of the other sex to  fall back upon.  The trouble is that they are so

impressible and  imaginative that they are at the mercy of all sorts of fancy systems.  You have only to see

what kinds of instruction they very commonly  flock to in order to guess whether they would be likely to

prove  sensible practitioners.  Charlatanism always hobbles on two crutches,  the tattle of women, and the

certificates of clergymen, and I am  afraid that half the women doctors will be too much under both those

influences." 

Lurida believed in Dr. Butts, who, to use the common language of  the  village, had "carried her through" a

fever, brought on by over  excitement and exhausting study.  She took no offence at his  reference to nursery

gossip, which she had learned to hold cheap.  Nobody so despises the weaknesses of women as the champion

of woman's  rights.  She accepted the doctor's concession of a fair field and  open trial of the fitness of her sex

for medical practice, and did  not trouble herself about his suggested limitations.  As to the  imaginative

tendencies of women, she knew too well the truth of the  doctor's remark relating to them to wish to contradict

it. 

"Be sure you let me have your paper in season for the next meeting,  doctor," she said; and in due season it

came, and was of course  approved for reading. 

XIII. DR. BUTTS READS A PAPER.

"Next to the interest we take in all that relates to our immortal  souls is that which we feel for our mortal

bodies.  I am afraid my  very first statement may be open to criticism.  The care of the body  is the first thought

with a great many,in fact, with the larger  part of the world.  They send for the physician first, and not until

he gives them up do they commonly call in the clergyman.  Even the  minister himself is not so very different

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interests and everchanging sources of excitement for that  which tradition has delivered to us as one

eminently deficient in the  stimulus of variety.  Besides, these bodily frames, even when worn  and disfigured

by long years of service, hang about our consciousness  like old garments.  They are used to us, and we are

used to them.  And  all the accidents of our lives,the house we dwell in, the  living  people round us, the

landscape we look over, all, up to the  sky that  covers us like a bell glass,all these are but looser  outside

garments which we have worn until they seem a part of us, and  we do  not like the thought of changing them

for a new suit which we  have  never yet tried on.  How well I remember that dear ancient lady,  who  lived well

into the last decade of her century, as she repeated  the  verse which, if I had but one to choose, I would select

from that  string of pearls, Gray's 'Elegy'! 

    'For who to dumb forgetfulness a prey

     This pleasing, anxious being e'er resigned,

     Left the warm precincts of the cheerful day,

     Nor cast one longing, lingering look behind?'

Plotinus was ashamed of his body, we are told.  Better so, it may  be,  than to live solely for it, as so many do.

But it may be well  doubted if there is any disciple of Plotinus in this Society.  On the  contrary, there are many

who think a great deal of their bodies, many  who have come here to regain the health they have lost in the

wear  and tear of city life, and very few who have not at some time or  other of their lives had occasion to call

in the services of a  physician. 

"There is, therefore, no impropriety in my offering to the members  some remarks upon the peculiar

difficulties which beset the medical  practitioner in the discharge of his laborious and important duties. 

"A young friend of mine, who has taken an interest in medical  studies, happened to meet with a very familiar

story about one of the  greatest and most celebrated of all English physicians, Thomas  Sydenham.  The story is

that, when a student asked him what books he  should read, the great doctor told him to read 'Don Quixote.' 

"This piece of advice has been used to throw contempt upon the  study  of books, and furnishes a convenient

shield for ignorant  pretenders.  But Sydenham left many writings in which he has recorded  his medical

experience, and he surely would not have published them if  he had not  thought they would be better reading

for the medical  student than the  story of Cervantes.  His own works are esteemed to  this day, and he  certainly

could not have supposed that they contained  all the wisdom  of all the past.  No remedy is good, it was said of

old, unless  applied at the right time in the right way.  So we may say  of all  anecdotes, like this which I have

told you about Sydenham and  the  young man.  It is very likely that he carried him to the bedside  of  some

patients, and talked to him about the cases he showed him,  instead of putting a Latin volume in his hand.  I

would as soon begin  in that way as any other, with a student who had already mastered the  preliminary

branches,who knew enough about the structure and  functions of the body in health. 

"But if you ask me what reading I would commend to the medical  student of a philosophical habit of mind,

you may be surprised to  hear me say it would be certain passages in 'Rasselas.'  They are the  ones where the

astronomer gives an account to Imlac of his management  of the elements, the control of which, as he had

persuaded himself,  had been committed to him.  Let me read you a few sentences from this  story, which is

commonly bound up with the 'Vicar of Wakefield,' like  a woollen lining to a silken mantle, but is full of

stately wisdom in  processions of paragraphs which sound as if they ought to have a  grammatical drummajor

to march before their tramping platoons. 

"The astronomer has taken Imlac into his confidence, and reveals to  him the secret of his wonderful

powers: 

"'Hear, Imlac, what thou wilt not without difficulty credit.  I  have  possessed for five years the regulation of the

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tropic by my direction; the clouds, at my call,  have poured their waters, and the Nile has overflowed at my

command;  I have restrained the rage of the dogstar, and mitigated the fervors  of the crab.  The winds alone,

of all the elemental powers, have  hitherto eluded my authority, and multitudes have perished by  equinoctial

tempests, which I found myself unable to prohibit or  restrain.' 

"The reader naturally wishes to know how the astronomer, a sincere,  devoted, and most benevolent man, for

forty years a student of the  heavens, came to the strange belief that he possessed these  miraculous powers.

This is his account: 

"'One day, as I was looking on the fields withering with heat, I  felt  in my mind a sudden wish that I could

send rain on the southern  mountains, and raise the Nile to an inundation.  In the hurry of my  imagination I

commanded rain to fall, and by comparing the time of my  command with that of the inundation I found that

the clouds had  listened to my lips.' 

"'Might not some other cause,' said I, 'produce this concurrence?  The Nile does not always rise on the same

day.' 

"'Do not believe,' said he, with impatience, I that such objections  could escape me: I reasoned long against

my own conviction, and  labored against truth with the utmost obstinacy.  I sometimes  suspected myself of

madness, and should not have dared to impart this  secret but to a man like you, capable of distinguishing the

wonderful  from the impossible and the incredible from the false.' 

"The good old astronomer gives his parting directions to Imlac,  whom  he has adopted as his successor in the

government of the elements  and  the seasons, in these impressive words: 

"Do not, in the administration of the year, indulge thy pride by  innovation; do not please thyself with thinking

that thou canst make  thyself renowned to all future ages by disordering the seasons.  The  memory of mischief

is no desirable fame.  Much less will it become  thee to let kindness or interest prevail.  Never rob other

countries  of rain to pour it on thine own.  For us the Nile is sufficient.' 

"Do you wonder, my friends, why I have chosen these passages, in  which the delusions of an insane

astronomer are related with all the  pomp of the Johnsonian vocabulary, as the first lesson for the young

person about to enter on the study of the science and art of healing?  Listen to me while I show you the

parallel of the story of the  astronomer in the history of medicine. 

"This history is luminous with intelligence, radiant with  benevolence, but all its wisdom and all its virtue

have had to  struggle with the everrising mists of delusion.  The agencies which  waste and destroy the race of

mankind are vast and resistless as the  elemental forces of nature; nay, they are themselves elemental  forces.

They may be to some extent avoided, to some extent diverted  from their aim, to some extent resisted.  So may

the changes of the  seasons, from cold that freezes to heats that strike with sudden  death, be guarded against.

So may the tides be in some small measure  restrained in their inroads.  So may the storms be breasted by

walls  they cannot shake from their foundations.  But the seasons and the  tides and the tempests work their will

on the great scale upon  whatever stands in their way; they feed or starve the tillers of the  soil; they spare or

drown the dwellers by the shore; they waft the  seaman to his harbor or bury him in the angry billows. 

"The art of the physician can do much to remove its subjects from  deadly and dangerous influences, and

something to control or arrest  the effects of these influences.  But look at the records of the  lifeinsurance

offices, and see how uniform is the action of nature's  destroying agencies.  Look at the annual reports of the

deaths in any  of our great cities, and see how their regularity approaches the  uniformity of the tides, and their

variations keep pace with those of  the seasons.  The inundations of the Nile are not more certainly to  be

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heats of July,than the  fevers and dysenteries which visit our rural districts in the months  of the falling leaf. 

"The physician watches these changes as the astronomer watched the  rise of the great river.  He longs to

rescue individuals, to protect  communities from the inroads of these destroying agencies.  He uses  all the

means which experience has approved, tries every rational  method which ingenuity can suggest.  Some

fortunate recovery leads  him to believe he has hit upon a preventive or a cure for a malady  which had resisted

all known remedies.  His rescued patient sounds  his praises, and a wide circle of his patient's friends joins in a

chorus of eulogies.  Selflove applauds him for his sagacity.  Self  interest congratulates him on his having

found the road to fortune;  the sense of having proved a benefactor of his race smooths the  pillow on which he

lays his head to dream of the brilliant future  opening before him.  If a single coincidence may lead a person of

sanguine disposition to believe that he has mastered a disease which  had baffled all who were before his time,

and on which his  contemporaries looked in hopeless impotence, what must be the effect  of a series of such

coincidences even on a mind of calmer temper!  Such series of coincidences will happen, and they may well

deceive  the very elect.  Think of Dr. Rush,you know what a famous man he  was, the very head and front of

American medical science in his day,  and remember how he spoke about yellow fever, which he thought

he  had mastered! 

"Thus the physician is entangled in the meshes of a wide  conspiracy,  in which he and his patient and their

friends, andNature  herself,  are involved.  What wonder that the history of Medicine  should be to  so great an

extent a record of selfdelusion! 

"If this seems a dangerous concession to the enemies of the true  science and art of healing, I will remind you

that it is all implied  in the first aphorism of Hippocrates, the Father of Medicine.  Do not  draw a wrong

inference from the frank statement of the difficulties  which beset the medical practitioner.  Think rather, if

truth is so  hard of attainment, how precious are the results which the consent of  the wisest and most

experienced among the healers of men agrees in  accepting.  Think what folly it is to cast them aside in favor

of  palpable impositions stolen from the records of forgotten  charlatanism, or of fantastic speculations spun

from the squinting  brains of theorists as wild as the Egyptian astronomer. 

"Begin your medical studies, then, by reading the fortieth and the  following four chapters of 'Rasselas.' Your

first lesson will teach  you modesty and caution in the pursuit of the most deceptive of all  practical branches

of knowledge.  Faith will come later, when you  learn how much medical science and art have actually

achieved for the  relief of mankind, and how great are the promises it holds out of  still larger triumphs over

the enemies of human health and  happiness." 

After the reading of this paper there was a lively discussion,  which  we have no room to report here, and the

Society adjourned. 

XIV. MISS VINCENT'S STARTLING DISCOVERY.

The soberminded, sensible, wellinstructed Dr. Butts was not a  little exercised in mind by the demands

made upon his knowledge by  his young friend, and for the time being his pupil, Miss Lurida  Vincent. 

"I don't wonder they called her The Terror," he said to himself.  "She is enough to frighten anybody.  She has

taken down old books  from my shelves that I had almost forgotten the backs of, and as to  the medical

journals, I believe the girl could index them from  memory.  She is in pursuit of some special point of

knowledge, I feel  sure, and I cannot doubt what direction she is working in, but her  wonderful way of dealing

with books amazes me." 

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are not, as a rule,  the most distinguished of their class in the long struggle of life.  The chances are that "the

field" will beat "the favorite" over the  long racecourse.  Others will develop a longer stride and more  staying

power.  But what fine gifts those "first scholars" have  received from nature!  How dull we writers, famous or

obscure, are in  the acquisition of knowledge as compared with them!  To lead their  classmates they must have

quick apprehension, fine memories, thorough  control of their mental faculties, strong will, power of

concentration, facility of expression,a wonderful equipment of  mental faculties.  I always want to take my

hat off to the first  scholar of his year. 

Dr. Butts felt somewhat in the same way as he contemplated The  Terror.  She surprised him so often with her

knowledge that he was  ready to receive her without astonishment when she burst in upon him  one allay with

a cry of triumph, "Eureka! Eureka!" 

"And what have you found, my dear?" said the doctor. 

Lurida was flushed and panting with the excitement of her new  discovery. 

"I do believe that I have found the secret of our strange visitor's  dread of all human intercourse!" 

The seasoned practitioner was not easily thrown off his balance. 

"Wait a minute and get your breath," said the doctor.  "Are you not  a  little overstating his peculiarity?  It is not

quite so bad as that.  He keeps a man to serve him, he was civil with the people at the Old  Tavern, he was

affable enough, I understand, with the young fellow he  pulled out of the water, or rescued somehow,I don't

believe be  avoids the whole human race.  He does not look as if he hated them,  so far as I have remarked his

expression.  I passed a few words with  him when his man was ailing, and found him polite enough.  No, I  don't

believe it is much more than an extreme case of shyness,  connected, perhaps, with some congenital or other

personal repugnance  to which has been given the name of an antipathy." 

Lurida could hardly keep still while the doctor was speaking.  When  he finished, she began the account of her

discovery: 

"I do certainly believe I have found an account of his case in an  Italian medical journal of about fourteen

years ago.  I met with a  reference which led me to look over a file of the Giornale degli  Ospitali lying among

the old pamphlets in the medical section of the  Library.  I have made a translation of it, which you must read

and  then tell me if you do not agree with me in my conclusion." 

"Tell me what your conclusion is, and I will read your paper and  see  for myself whether I think the evidence

justifies the conviction  you  seem to have reached." 

Lurida's large eyes showed their whole rounds like the two halves  of  a map of the world, as she said, 

"I believe that Maurice Kirkwood is suffering from the effects of  the  bite of a TARANTULA!" 

The doctor drew a long breath.  He remembered in a vague sort of  way  the stories which used to be told of the

terrible Apulian spider,  but  he had consigned them to the limbo of medical fable where so many  fictions have

clothed themselves with a local habitation and a name.  He looked into the round eyes and wide pupils a little

anxiously, as  if he feared that she was in a state of undue excitement, but, true  to his professional training, he

waited for another symptom, if  indeed her mind was in any measure off its balance. 

"I know what you are thinking," Lurida said, "but it is not so.  'I  am not mad, most noble Festus.'  You shall see

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and tell me if you do not agree with me that this  young man is in all probability the same person as the boy

described  in the Italian journal, 

One thing you might say is against the supposition.  The young  patient is spoken of as Signorino M .  .  .  Ch.  .  .

.  But you  must remember that ch is pronounced hard in Italian, like k, which  letter is wanting in the Italian

alphabet; and it is natural enough  that the initial of the second name should have got changed in the  record to

its Italian equivalent." 

Before inviting the reader to follow the details of this  extraordinary case as found in a medical journal, the

narrator wishes  to be indulged in a few words of explanation, in order that he may  not have to apologize for

allowing the introduction of a subject  which may be thought to belong to the professional student rather  than

to the readers of this record.  There is a great deal in medical  books which it is very unbecoming to bring

before the general  public,a great deal to repel, to disgust, to alarm, to excite  unwholesome curiosity.  It is

not the men whose duties have made them  familiar with this class of subjects who are most likely to offend

by  scenes and descriptions which belong to the physician's private  library, and not to the shelves devoted to

polite literature.  Goldsmith and even Smollett, both having studied and practised  medicine, could not by any

possibility have outraged all the natural  feelings of delicacy and decency as Swift and Zola have outraged

them.  But without handling doubtful subjects, there are many curious  medical experiences which have

interest for every one as extreme  illustrations of ordinary conditions with which all are acquainted.  No one

can study the now familiar history of clairvoyance profitably  who has not learned something of the vagaries

of hysteria.  No one  can read understandingly the life of Cowper and that of Carlyle  without having some idea

of the influence of hypochondriasis and of  dyspepsia upon the disposition and intellect of the subjects of

these  maladies.  I need not apologize, therefore, for giving publicity to  that part of this narrative which deals

with one of the most singular  maladies to be found in the records of bodily and mental infirmities. 

The following is the account of the case as translated by Miss  Vincent.  For obvious reasons the whole name

was not given in the  original paper, and for similar reasons the date of the event and the  birthplace of the

patient are not precisely indicated here. 

[Giornale degli Ospitali, Luglio 21, 18.1 

REMARKABLE CASE OF TARANTISM. 

"The great interest attaching to the very singular and exceptional  instance of this rare affection induces us to

give a full account of  the extraordinary example of its occurrence in a patient who was the  subject of a recent

medical consultation in this city. 

"Signorino M .  .  .  Ch .  .  .  is the only son of a gentleman  travelling in Italy at this time.  He is eleven years of

age, of  sanguinenervous temperament, light hair, blue eyes, intelligent  countenance, well grown, but rather

slight in form, to all appearance  in good health, but subject to certain peculiar and anomalous nervous

symptoms, of which his father gives this history. 

"Nine years ago, the father informs us, he was travelling in Italy  with his wife, this child, and a nurse.  They

were passing a few days  in a country village near the city of Bari, capital of the province  of the same name in

the division (compartamento) of Apulia.  The  child was in perfect health and had never been affected by any

serious illness.  On the 10th of July he was playing out in the field  near the house where the family was

staying when he was heard to  scream suddenly and violently.  The nurse rushing to him found him in  great

pain, saying that something had bitten him in one of his feet.  A laborer, one Tommaso, ran up at the moment

and perceived in the  grass, near where the boy was standing, an enormous spider, which he  at once

recognized as a tarantula.  He managed to catch the creature  in a large leaf, from which he was afterwards

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was covered with short hairs, and had a pair of nipper  like jaws, with which he could inflict an ugly wound.

His body  measured about an inch in length, and from the extremity of one of  the longest limbs to the other

was between two and three inches.  Such  was the account given by the physician to whom the peasant  carried

the  great spider. 

"The boy who had been bitten continued screaming violently while  his  stocking was being removed and the

foot examined.  The place of  the  bite was easily found and the two marks of the clawlike jaws  already

showed the effects of the poison, a small livid circle  extending  around them, with some puffy swelling.  The

distinguished  Dr. Amadei  was immediately sent for, and applied cups over the wounds  in the  hope of drawing

forth the poison.  In vain all his skill and  efforts!  Soon, ataxic (irregular) nervous symptoms declared

themselves, and it  became plain that the system had been infected by  the poison. 

The symptoms were very much like those of malignant fever, such as  distress about the region of the heart,

difficulty of breathing,  collapse of all the vital powers, threatening immediate death.  From  these first

symptoms the child rallied, but his entire organism had  been profoundly affected by the venom circulating

through it.  His  constitution has never thrown off the malady resulting from this  toxic (poisonous) agent.  The

phenomena which have been observed in  this young patient correspond so nearly with those enumerated in

the  elaborate essay of the celebrated Baglivi that one might think they  had been transcribed from his pages. 

"He is very fond of solitude,of wandering about in churchyards  and  other lonely places.  He was once

found hiding in an empty tomb,  which had been left open.  His aversion to certain colors is  remarkable.

Generally speaking, he prefers bright tints to darker  ones, but his likes and dislikes are capricious, and with

regard to  some colors his antipathy amounts to positive horror.  Some shades  have such an effect upon him

that he cannot remain in the room with  them, and if he meets any one whose dress has any of that particular

color he will turn away or retreat so as to avoid passing that  person.  Among these, purple and dark green are

the least endurable.  He cannot explain the sensations which these obnoxious colors produce  except by saying

that it is like the deadly feeling from a blow on  the epigastrium (pit of the stomach). 

"About the same season of the year at which the tarantular  poisoning  took place he is liable to certain nervous

seizures, not  exactly like  fainting or epilepsy, but reminding the physician of  those  affections.  All the other

symptoms are aggravated at this time. 

"In other respects than those mentioned the boy is in good health.  He is fond of riding, and has a pony on

which he takes a great deal  of exercise, which seems to do him more good than any other remedy. 

"The influence of music, to which so much has been attributed by  popular belief and even by the

distinguished Professor to whom we  shall again refer, has not as yet furnished any satisfactory results.  If the

graver symptoms recur while the patient is under our  observation, we propose to make use of an agency

discredited by  modern skepticism, but deserving of a fair trial as an exceptional  remedy for an exceptional

disease. 

"The following extracts from the work of the celebrated Italian  physician of the last century are given by the

writer of the paper in  the Giornale in the original Latin, with a translation into Italian,  subjoined.  Here are the

extracts, or rather here is a selection from  them, with a translation of them into English. 

"After mentioning the singular aversion to certain colors shown by  the subject of Tarantism, Baglivi writes as

follows:  "'Et si astantes  incedant vestibus eo colore difusis, qui Tarantatis  ingrates est,  necesse est ut ab

illorum aspectu recedant; nam ad  intuitum molesti  coloris angore cordis, et symptomatum recrudescantia

stating  corripiuntur.' (G.  Baglivi, Op.  Omnia, page 614.  Lugduni,  1745.) 


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"That is, 'if the persons about the patient wear dresses of the  color  which is offensive to him, he must get

away from the sight of  them,  for on seeing the obnoxious color he is at once seized with  distress  in the region

of the heart, and a renewal of his symptoms.' 

"As to the recurrence of the malady, Baglivi says:  "'Dam calor  solis ardentius exurere incip at, quod contingit

circa  initia Julii et  Augusti, Tarantati lente venientem recrudescentiam  veneni percipiunt.'  (Ibid., page 619.) 

"Which I render, 'When the heat of the sun begins to burn more  fiercely, which happens about the beginning

of July and August, the  subjects of Tarantism perceive the gradually approaching  recrudescence (returning

symptoms) of the poisoning.  Among the  remedies most valued by this illustrious physician is that mentioned

in the following sentence:  "'Laudo magnopere equitationes in aere  rusticano factas singulis  diebus, hord

potissimum matutina, quibus  equitationibus morbos  chronicos pene incurabiles protanus eliminavi.' 

" Or in translation,  "'I commend especially riding on horseback in  country air, every day,  by preference in the

morning hours, by the aid  of which horseback  riding I have driven off chronic diseases which  were almost

incurable.'" 

Miss Vincent read this paper aloud to Dr. Butts, and handed it to  him  to examine and consider.  He listened

with a grave countenance and  devout attention. 

As she finished reading her account, she exclaimed in the  passionate  tones of the deepest conviction, 

"There, doctor!  Have n't I found the true story of this strange  visitor?  Have n't I solved the riddle of the

Sphinx?  Who can this  man be but the boy of that story?  Look at the date of the journal  when he was eleven

years old, it would make him twentyfive now, and  that is just about the age the people here think he must be

of.  What  could account so entirely for his ways and actions as that strange  poisoning which produces the state

they call Tarantism?  I am just as  sure it must be that as I am that I am alive.  Oh, doctor, doctor, I  must be

right,this Signprino M .  .  .  Ch .  .  .  was the boy  Maurice Kirkwood, and the story accounts for

everything,his  solitary habits, his dread of people,it must be because they wear  the colors he can't bear.

His morning rides on horseback, his coming  here just as the season was approaching which would aggravate

all his  symptoms, does n't all this prove that I must be right in my  conjecture,no, my conviction?" 

The doctor knew too much to interrupt the young enthusiast, and so  he  let her run on until she ran down.  He

was more used to the rules  of  evidence than she was, and could not accept her positive conclusion  so readily

as she would have liked to have him.  He knew that  beginners are very apt to make what they think are

discoveries.  But  he had been an angler and knew the meaning of a yielding rod and an  easyrunning reel.  He

said quietly, 

"You are a most sagacious young lady, and a very pretty prima facie  case it is that you make out.  I can see no

proof that Mr. Kirkwood  is not the same person as the M .  .  .  Ch .  .  .  of the medical  journal,that is, if I

accept your explanation of the difference in  the initials of these two names.  Even if there were a difference,

that would not disprove their identity, for the initials of patients  whose cases are reported by their physicians

are often altered for  the purpose of concealment.  I do not know, however, that Mr.  Kirkwood has shown any

special aversion to any particular color.  It  might be interesting to inquire whether it is so, but it is a  delicate

matter.  I don't exactly see whose business it is to  investigate Mr. Maurice Kirkwood's idiosyncrasies and

constitutional  history.  If he should have occasion to send for me at any time, he  might tell me all about

himself, in confidence, you know.  These old  accounts from Baglivi are curious and interesting, but I am

cautious  about receiving any stories a hundred years old, if they involve an  improbability, as his stories about

the cure of the tarantula bite by  music certainly do.  I am disposed to wait for future developments,  bearing in

mind, of course, the very singular case you have  unearthed.  It wouldn't be very strange if our young

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which is rather risky in this neighborhood  as autumn comes on.  I am somewhat curious, I confess, about the

young man, but I do not meddle where I am not asked for or wanted,  and I have found that eggs hatch just as

well if you let them alone  in the nest as if you take them out and shake them every day.  This  is a wonderfully

interesting supposition of yours, and may prove to  be strictly in accordance with the facts.  But I do not think

we have  all the facts in this young man's case.  If it were proved that he  had an aversion to any color, it would

greatly strengthen your case.  His 'antipatia,' as his man called it, must be one which covers a  wide ground, to

account for his selfisolation,and the color  hypothesis seems as plausible as any.  But, my dear Miss

Vincent,  I  think you had better leave your singular and striking hypothesis in  my  keeping for a while, rather

than let it get abroad in a community  like  this, where so many tongues are in active exercise.  I will  carefully

study this paper, if you will leave it with me, and we will  talk the  whole matter over.  It is a fair subject for

speculation,  only we must  keep quiet about it." 

This long speech gave Lurida's perfervid brain time to cool off a  little.  She left the paper with the doctor,

telling him she would  come for it the next day, and went off to tell the result of this  visit to her bosom friend,

Miss Euthymia Tower. 

XV. DR. BUTTS CALLS ON EUTHYMIA.

The doctor was troubled in thinking over his interview with the  young  lady.  She was fully possessed with the

idea that she had  discovered  the secret which had defied the most sagacious heads of the  village.  It was of no

use to oppose her while her mind was in an  excited  state.  But he felt it his duty to guard her against any

possible  results of indiscretion into which her eagerness and her  theory of  the equality, almost the identity, of

the sexes might betray  her.  Too much of the woman in a daughter of our race leads her to  forget  danger.  Too

little of the woman prompts her to defy it.  Fortunately  for this last class of women, they are not quite so  likely

to be  perilously seductive as their more emphatically feminine  sisters. 

Dr. Butts had known Lurida and her friend from the days of their  infancy.  He had watched the development

of Lurida's intelligence  from its precocious nurserylife to the full vigor of its trained  faculties.  He had

looked with admiration on the childish beauty of  Euthymia, and had seen her grow up to womanhood, every

year making  her more attractive.  He knew that if anything was to be done with  his selfwilled young scholar

and friend, it would be more easily  effected through the medium of Euthymia than by direct advice to the

young lady herself.  So the thoughtful doctor made up his mind to  have a good talk with Euthymia, and put

her on her guard, if Lurida  showed any tendency to forget the conventionalities in her eager  pursuit of

knowledge. 

For the doctor's horse and chaise to stop at the door of Miss  Euthymia Tower's parental home was an event

strange enough to set all  the tongues in the village going.  This was one of those families  where illness was

hardly looked for among the possibilities of life.  There were other families where a call from the doctor was

hardly  more thought of than a call from the baker.  But here he was a  stranger, at least on his professional

rounds, and when he asked for  Miss Euthymia the servant, who knew his face well, stared as if he  had held in

his hand a warrant for her apprehension. 

Euthymia did not keep the doctor waiting very long while she made  ready to meet him.  One look at her glass

to make sure that a lock  had not run astray, or a ribbon got out of place, and her toilet for  a morning call was

finished.  Perhaps if Mr. Maurice Kirkwood had  been announced, she might have taken a second look, but

with the good  middleaged, married doctor one was enough for a young lady who had  the gift of making all

the dresses she wore look well, and had no  occasion to treat her chamber like the laboratory where an actress

compounds herself. 

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to have a chance to talk  over her friend's schemes and fancies with him. 

The doctor began without any roundabout prelude. 

"I want to confer with you about our friend Lurida.  Does she tell  you all her plans and projects?" 

"Why, as to that, doctor, I can hardly say, positively, but I do  not  believe she keeps back anything of

importance from me.  I know  what  she has been busy with lately, and the queer idea she has got  into  her head.

What do you think of the Tarantula business?  She has  shown you the paper, she has written, I suppose." 

"Indeed she has.  It is a very curious case she has got hold of,  and  I do not wonder at all that she should have

felt convinced that  she  had come at the true solution of the village riddle.  It may be  that  this young man is the

same person as the boy mentioned in the  Italian  medical journal.  But it is very far from clear that he is so.

You  know all her reasons, of course, as you have read the story.  The  times seem to agree well enough.  It is

easy to conceive that Ch  might be substituted for Kin the report.  The singular solitary  habits of this young

man entirely coincide with the story.  If we  could only find out whether he has any of those feelings with

reference to certain colors, we might guess with more chance of  guessing right than we have at present.  But I

don't see exactly how  we are going to submit him to examination on this point.  If he were  only a chemical

compound, we could analyze him.  If he were only a  bird or a quadruped, we could find out his likes and

dislikes.  But  being, as he is, a young man, with ways of his own, and a will of his  own, which he may not

choose to have interfered with, the problem  becomes more complicated.  I hear that a newspaper

correspondent has  visited him so as to make a report to his paper,do you know what he  found out?" 

"Certainly I do, very well.  My brother has heard his own story,  which was this: He found out he had got hold

of the wrong person to  interview.  The young gentleman, he says, interviewed him, so that he  did not learn

much about the Sphinx.  But the newspaper man told  Willy about the Sphinx's library and a cabinet of coins

he had; and  said he should make an article out of him, anyhow.  I wish the man  would take himself off.  I am

afraid Lurida's love of knowledge will  get her into trouble!" 

"Which of the men do you wish would take himself off?" 

"I was thinking of the newspaper man." 

She blushed a little as she said, "I can't help feeling a strange  sort of interest about the other, Mr. Kirkwood.

Do you know that I  met him this morning, and had a good look at him, full in the face?" 

"Well, to be sure!  That was an interesting experience.  And how  did  you like his looks?" 

"I thought his face a very remarkable one.  But he looked very pale  as he passed me, and I noticed that he put

his hand to his left side  as if he had a twinge of pain, or something of that sort,spasm or  neuralgia,I don't

know what.  I wondered whether he had what you  call angina pectoris.  It was the same kind of look and

movement, I  remember, as you trust, too, in my uncle who died with that  complaint." 

The doctor was silent for a moment.  Then he asked, "Were you  dressed  as you are now?" 

"Yes, I was, except that I had a thin mantle over my shoulders.  I  was out early, and I have always

remembered your caution." 

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"It was black.  I have been over all this with Lucinda.  A black  mantle on a white dress.  A straw hat with an

old faded ribbon.  There  can't be much in those colors to trouble him, I should think,  for his  man wears a black

coat and white linen,more or less white,  as you  must have noticed, and he must have seen ribbons of all

colors  often  enough.  But Lurida believes it was the ribbon, or something in  the  combination of colors.  Her

head is full of Tarantulas and  Tarantism.  I fear that she will never be easy until the question is  settled by

actual trial.  And will you believe it? the girl is  determined in some  way to test her supposition!" 

"Believe it, Euthymia?  I can believe almost anything of Lurida.  She  is the most irrepressible creature I ever

knew.  You know as well  as  I do what a complete possession any ruling idea takes of her whole  nature.  I have

had some fears lest her zeal might run away with her  discretion.  It is a great deal easier to get into a false

position  than to get out of it." 

"I know it well enough.  I want you to tell me what you think about  the whole business.  I don't like the look of

it at all, and yet I  can do nothing with the girl except let her follow her fancy, until I  can show her plainly that

she will get herself into trouble in some  way or other.  But she is ingenious,full of all sorts of devices,

innocent enough in themselves, but liable to be misconstrued.  You  remember how she won us the

boatrace?" 

"To be sure I do.  It was rather sharp practice, but she felt she  was  paying off an old score.  The classical story

of Atalanta, told,  like  that of Eve, as illustrating the weakness of woman, provoked her  to  make trial of the

powers of resistance in the other sex.  But it  was  audacious.  I hope her audacity will not go too far.  You must

watch  her.  Keep an eye on her correspondence." 

The doctor had great confidence in the good sense of Lurida's  friend.  He felt sure that she would not let

Lurida commit herself by  writing  foolish letters to the subject of her speculations, or similar  indiscreet

performances.  The boldness of young girls, who think no  evil, in opening correspondence with idealized

personages is  something quite astonishing to those who have had an opportunity of  knowing the facts.  Lurida

had passed the most dangerous age, but her  theory of the equality of the sexes made her indifferent to the

bylaws of social usage.  She required watching, and her two  guardians were ready to check her, in case of

need. 

XVI. MISS VINCENT WRITES A LETTER.

Euthymia noticed that her friend had been very much preoccupied for  two or three days.  She found her more

than once busy at her desk,  with a manuscript before her, which she turned over and placed inside  the desk, as

Euthymia entered. 

This desire of concealment was not what either of the friends  expected to see in the other.  It showed that

some project was under  way, which, at least in its present stage, the Machiavellian young  lady did not wish to

disclose.  It had cost her a good deal of  thought and care, apparently, for her wastebasket was full of scraps

of paper, which looked as if they were the remains of a manuscript  like that at which she was at work.

"Copying and recopying,  probably," thought Euthymia, but she was willing to wait to learn  what Lurida was

busy about, though she had a suspicion that it was  something in which she might feel called upon to interest

herself. 

"Do you know what I think?" said Euthymia to the doctor, meeting  him  as he left his door.  "I believe Lurida

is writing to this man,  and I  don't like the thought of her doing such a thing.  Of course she  is  not like other

girls in many respects, but other people will judge  her by the common rules of life." 

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woman of his age.  Besides,  under the cover of her office, she has got into the way of writing to  anybody.  I

think she has already written to Mr. Kirkwood, asking him  to contribute a paper for the Society.  She can find

a pretext easily  enough if she has made up her mind to write.  In fact, I doubt if she  would trouble herself for

any pretext at all if she decided to write.  Watch her well.  Don't let any letter go without seeing it, if you  can

help it." 

Young women are much given to writing letters to persons whom they  only know indirectly, for the most part

through their books, and  especially to romancers and poets.  Nothing can be more innocent and

simplehearted than most of these letters.  They are the spontaneous  outflow of young hearts easily excited to

gratitude for the pleasure  which some story or poem has given them, and recognizing their own  thoughts,

their own feelings, in those expressed by the author, as if  on purpose for them to read.  Undoubtedly they give

great relief to  solitary young persons, who must have some ideal reflection of  themselves, and know not

where to look since Protestantism has taken  away the crucifix and the Madonna.  The recipient of these letters

sometimes wonders, after reading through one of them, how it is that  his young correspondent has managed

to fill so much space with her  simple message of admiration or of sympathy. 

Lurida did not belong to this particular class of correspondents,  but  she could not resist the law of her sex,

whose thoughts naturally  surround themselves with superabundant drapery of language, as their  persons float

in a wide superfluity of woven tissues.  Was she indeed  writing to this unknown gentleman?  Euthymia

questioned her point  blank. 

"Are you going to open a correspondence with Mr. Maurice Kirkwood,  Lurida?  You seem to be so busy

writing, I can think of nothing else.  Or are you going to write a novel, or a paper for the Society,do  tell me

what you are so much taken up with." 

"I will tell you, Euthymia, if you will promise not to find fault  with me for carrying out my plan as I have

made up my mind to do.  You  may read this letter before I seal it, and if you find anything  in it  you don't like

you can suggest any change that you think will  improve  it.  I hope you will see that it explains itself.  I don't

believe  that you will find anything to frighten you in it." 

This is the letter, as submitted to Miss Tower by her friend.  The  bold handwriting made it look like a man's

letter, and gave it  consequently a less dangerous expression than that which belongs to  the tinted and often

fragrant sheet with its delicate thready  characters, which slant across the page like an April shower with a

south wind chasing it. 

ARROWHEAD VILLAGE, August, 18. 

MY DEAR SIR,You will doubtless be surprised at the sight of a  letter like this from one whom you only

know as the Secretary of the  Pansophian Society.  There is a very common feeling that it is  unbecoming in

one of my sex to address one of your own with whom she  is unacquainted, unless she has some special claim

upon his  attention.  I am by no means disposed to concede to the vulgar  prejudice on this point.  If one human

being has anything to  communicate to another,anything which deserves being communicated,  I see no

occasion for bringing in the question of sex.  I do not  think the homo sum of Terence can be claimed for the

male sex as its  private property on general any more than on grammatical grounds, 

I have sometimes thought of devoting myself to the noble art of  healing.  If I did so, it would be with the fixed

purpose of giving  my whole powers to the service of humanity.  And if I should carry  out that idea, should I

refuse my care and skill to a suffering  fellowmortal because that mortal happened to be a brother, and not a

sister?  My whole nature protests against such onesided humanity!  No! I am blind to all distinctions when

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You may ask me why I address you, whom I know little or nothing of,  and to whom such an advance may

seem presumptuous and intrusive.  It  is because I was deeply impressed by the paper which I attributed to

you,that on Ocean, River, and Lake, which was read at one of our  meetings.  I say that I was deeply

impressed, but I do not mean this  as a compliment to that paper.  I am not bandying compliments now,  but

thinking of better things than praises or phrases.  I was  interested in the paper, partly because I recognized

some of the  feelings expressed in it as my own,partly because there was an  undertone of sadness in all the

voices of nature as you echoed them  which made me sad to hear, and which I could not help longing to  cheer

and enliven.  I said to myself, I should like to hold communion  with the writer of that paper.  I have had my

lonely hours and days,  as he has had.  I have had some of his experiences in my intercourse  with nature.  And

oh! if I could draw him into those better human  relations which await us all, if we come with the right

dispositions,  I should blush if I stopped to inquire whether I violated any  conventional rule or not. 

You will understand me, I feel sure.  You believe, do you not? in  the  insignificance of the barrier which

divides the sisterhood from  the  brotherhood of mankind.  You believe, do you not? that they should  be

educated side by side, that they should share the same pursuits,  due  regard being had to the fitness of the

particular individual for  hard  or light work, as it must always be, whether we are dealing with  the  "stronger"

or the "weaker" sex.  I mark these words because,  notwithstanding their common use, they involve so much

that is not  true.  Stronger!  Yes, to lift a barrel of flour, or a barrel of  cider,though there have been women

who could do that, and though  when John Wesley was mobbed in Staffordshire a woman knocked down  three

or four men, one after another, until she was at last  overpowered and nearly murdered.  Talk about the weaker

sex!  Go and  see Miss Euthymia Tower at the gymnasium!  But no matter about which  sex has the strongest

muscles.  Which has most to suffer, and which  has most endurance and vitality?  We go through many ordeals

which  you are spared, but we outlast you in mind and body.  I have been led  away into one of my accustomed

trains of thought, but not so far away  from it as you might at first suppose. 

My brother!  Are you not ready to recognize in me a friend, an  equal,  a sister, who can speak to you as if she

had been reared under  the  same roof?  And is not the sky that covers us one roof, which  makes  us all one

family?  You are lonely, you must be longing for some  human fellowship.  Take me into your confidence.

What is there that  you can tell me to which I cannot respond with sympathy?  What  saddest note in your

spiritual dirges which will not find its chord  in mine? 

I long to know what influence has cast its shadow over your  existence.  I myself have known what it is to

carry a brain that  never rests in a body that is always tired.  I have defied its  infirmities, and forced it to do my

bidding.  You have no such  hindrance, if we may judge by your aspect and habits.  You deal with  horses like a

Homeric hero.  No wild Indian could handle his bark  canoe more dexterously or more vigorously than we

have seen you  handling yours.  There must be some reason for your seclusion which  curiosity has not reached,

and into which it is not the province of  curiosity to inquire.  But in the irresistible desire which I have to  bring

you into kindly relations with those around you, I must run the  risk of giving offence that I may know in what

direction to look for  those restorative influences which the sympathy of a friend and  sister can offer to a

brother in need of some kindly impulse to  change the course of a life which is not, which cannot be, in

accordance with his true nature. 

I have thought that there may be something in the conditions with  which you are here surrounded which is

repugnant to your feelings,  something which can be avoided only by keeping yourself apart from  the

people whose acquaintance you would naturally have formed.  There  can hardly be anything in the place

itself, or you would not have  voluntarily sought it as a residence, even for a single season.  there  might be

individuals here whom you would not care to meet,  there must  be such, but you cannot have a personal

aversion to  everybody.  I have  heard of cases in which certain sights and sounds,  which have no  particular

significance for most persons, produced  feelings of  distress or aversion that made, them unbearable to the

subjects of the  constitutional dislike.  It has occurred to me that  possibly you might  have some such natural

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is in fact in almost all of those in the  village.  Or it might be, I  imagined, that some color in the dresses  of

women or the furniture of  our rooms affected you unpleasantly.  I  know that instances of such  antipathy have

been recorded, and they  would account for the seclusion  of those who are subject to it. 

If there is any removable condition which interferes with your free  entrance into and enjoyment of the social

life around you, tell me, I  beg of you, tell me what it is, and it shall be eliminated.  Think it  not strange, O my

brother, that I thus venture to introduce myself  into the hidden chambers of your life.  I will never suffer

myself to  be frightened from the carrying out of any thought which promises to  be of use to a fellowmortal

by a fear lest it should be considered  "unfeminine."  I can bear to be considered unfeminine, but I cannot

endure to think of myself as inhuman.  Can I help you, my brother'? 

Believe me your most sincere wellwisher, 

LURIDA VINCENT. 

Euthymia had carried off this letter and read it by herself.  As  she  finished it, her feelings found expression in

an old phrase of her  grandmother's, which came up of itself, as such survivals of early  days are apt to do, on

great occasions. 

"Well, I never!" 

Then she loosened some button or string that was too tight, and  went  to the window for a breath of outdoor

air.  Then she began at the  beginning and read the whole letter all over again. 

What should she do about it?  She could not let this young girl  send  a letter like that to a stranger of whose

character little was  known  except by inference,to a young man, who would consider it a  most

extraordinary advance on the part of the sender.  She would have  liked to tear it into a thousand pieces, but

she had no right to  treat it in that way.  Lurida meant to send it the next morning, and  in the mean time

Euthymia had the night to think over what she should  do about it. 

There is nothing like the pillow for an oracle.  There is no voice  like that which breaks the silenceof the

stagnant hours of the  night with its sudden suggestions and luminous counsels.  When  Euthymia awoke in the

morning, her course of action was as clear  before her as if it bad been dictated by her guardian angel.  She

went straight over to the home of Lurida, who was just dressed for  breakfast. 

She was naturally a little surprised at this early visit.  She was  struck with the excited look of Euthymia, being

herself quite calm,  and contemplating her project with entire complacency. 

Euthymia began, in tones that expressed deep anxiety. 

"I have read your letter, my dear, and admired its spirit and  force.  It is a fine letter, and does you great credit

as an expression  of  the truest human feeling.  But it must not be sent to Mr. Kirkwood.  If you were sixty years

old, perhaps if you were fifty, it might be  admissible to send it.  But if you were forty, I should question its

propriety; if you were thirty, I should veto it, and you are but a  little more than twenty.  How do you know

that this stranger will not  show your letter to anybody or everybody?  How do you know that he  will not send

it to one of the gossiping journals like the 'Household  Inquisitor'?  But supposing he keeps it to himself, which

is more  than you have a right to expect, what opinion is he likely to form of  a young lady who invades his

privacy with such freedom?  Ten to one  he will think curiosity is at the bottom of it,and,come, don't be

angry at me for suggesting it,may there not be a little of that  same motive mingled with the others?  No,

don't interrupt me quite  yet; you do want to know whether your hypothesis is correct.  You are  full of the best

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more than  you know." 

Lurida's pale cheeks flushed and whitened more than once while her  friend was speaking.  She loved her too

sincerely and respected her  intelligence too much to take offence at her advice, but she could  not give up her

humane and sisterly intentions merely from the fear  of some awkward consequences to herself.  She had

persuaded herself  that she was playing the part of a Protestant sister of charity, and  that the fact of her not

wearing the costume of these ministering  angels made no difference in her relations to those who needed her

aid. 

"I cannot see your objections in the light in which they appear to  you," she said gravely.  "It seems to me that I

give up everything  when I hesitate to help a fellowcreature because I am a woman.  I am  not afraid to send

this letter and take all the consequences." 

"Will you go with me to the doctor's, and let him read it in our  presence?  And will you agree to abide by his

opinion, if it  coincides with mine?" 

Lurida winced a little at this proposal.  "I don't quite like," she  said, "showing this letter toto" she hesitated,

but it had to come  out"to a man, that is, to another man than the one for whom it was  intended." 

The neuter gender business had got a pretty damaging sidehit. 

"Well, never mind about letting him read the letter.  Will you go  over to his house with me at noon, when he

comes back after his  morning visits, and have a talk over the whole matter with him?  You  know I have

sometimes had to say must to you, Lurida, and now I say  you must go to the doctor's with me and carry that

letter." 

There was no resisting the potent monosyllable as the sweet but  firm  voice delivered it.  At noon the two

maidens rang at the doctor's  door.  The servant said he had been at the house after his morning  visits, but

found a hasty summons to Mr. Kirkwood, who had been taken  suddenly ill and wished to see him at once.

Was the illness  dangerous?  The servantmaid did n't know, but thought it was pretty  bad, for Mr. Paul came

in as white as a sheet, and talked all sorts  of languages which she couldn't understand, and took on as if he

thought Mr. Kirkwood was going to die right off. 

And so the hazardous question about sending the letter was disposed  of, at least for the present. 

XVII. Dr. BUTTS'S PATIENT.

The physician found Maurice just regaining his heat after a chill  of  a somewhat severe character.  He knew

too well what this meant, and  the probable series of symptoms of which it was the prelude.  His  patient was

not the only one in the neighborhood who was attacked in  this way.  The autumnal fevers to which our

country towns are  subject, in the place of those "agues," or intermittents, so largely  prevalent in the South and

West, were already beginning, and Maurice,  who had exposed himself in the early and late hours of the

dangerous  season, must be expected to go through the regular stages of this  always serious and not rarely

fatal disease. 

Paolo, his faithful servant, would fain have taken the sole charge  of  his master during his illness.  But the

doctor insisted that he  must  have a nurse to help him in his task, which was likely to be long  and  exhausting. 

At the mention of the word "nurse" Paolo turned white, and  exclaimed  in an agitated and thoroughly

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"No! no nuss!  no woman!  She kill him!  I stay by him day and  night,  but don' let no woman come near

him,if you do, he die!" 

The doctor explained that he intended to send a man who was used to  taking care of sick people, and with no

little effort at last  succeeded in convincing Paolo that, as he could not be awake day and  night for a fortnight

or three weeks, it was absolutely necessary to  call in some assistance from without.  And so Mr. Maurice

Kirkwood  was to play the leading part in that drama of nature's composing  called a typhoid fever, with its

regular bedchamber scenery, its  properties of phials and pillboxes, its little company of stock  actors, its

gradual evolution of a very simple plot, its familiar  incidents, its emotional alternations, and its denouement,

sometimes  tragic, oftener happy. 

It is needless to say that the sympathies of all the good people of  the village, residents and strangers, were

actively awakened for the  young man about whom they knew so little and conjectured so much.  Tokens of

their kindness came to him daily: flowers from the woods  and from the gardens; choice fruit grown in the

open air or under  glass, for there were some fine houses surrounded by wellkept  grounds, and greenhouses

and graperies were not unknown in the small  but favored settlement. 

On all these luxuries Maurice looked with dull and languid eyes.  A  faint smile of gratitude sometimes

struggled through the stillness of  his features, or a murmured word of thanks found its way through his

parched lips, and he would relapse into the partial stupor or the  fitful sleep in which, with intervals of slight

wandering, the slow  hours dragged along the sluggish days one after another.  With no  violent symptoms, but

with steady persistency, the disease moved on  in its accustomed course.  It was at no time immediately

threatening,  but the experienced physician knew its uncertainties only too well.  He had known fever patients

suddenly seized with violent internal  inflammation, and carried off with frightful rapidity.  He remembered

the case of a convalescent, a young woman who had been attacked while  in apparently vigorous general

health, who, on being lifted too  suddenly to a sitting position, while still confined to her bed,  fainted, and in a

few moments ceased to breathe.  It may well be  supposed that he took every possible precaution to avert the

accidents which tend to throw from its track a disease the regular  course of which is arranged by nature as

carefully as the route of a  railroad from one city to another.  The most natural interpretation  which the

common observer would put upon the manifestations of one of  these autumnal maladies would be that some

noxious combustible  element had found its way into the system which must be burned to  ashes before the

heat which pervades the whole body can subside.  Sometimes the fire may smoulder and seem as if it were

going out, or  were quite extinguished, and again it will find some new material to  seize upon, and flame up as

fiercely as ever.  Its coming on most  frequently at the season when the brush fires which are consuming the

dead branches, and withered leaves, and all the refuse of vegetation  are sending up their smoke is suggestive.

Sometimes it seems as if  the body, relieved of its effete materials, renewed its youth after  one of these quiet,

expurgating, internal fractional cremations.  Lean, pallid students have found themselves plump and

blooming, and  it has happened that one whose hair was straight as gnat of an Indian  has been startled to

behold himself in his mirror with a fringe of  hyacinthine curls about his rejuvenated countenance. 

There was nothing of what medical men call malignity in the case of  Maurice Kirkwood.  The most alarming

symptom was a profound  prostration, which at last reached such a point that he lay utterly  helpless, as unable

to move without aid as the feeblest of  paralytics.  In this state he lay for many days, not suffering pain,  but

with the sense of great weariness, and the feeling that he should  never rise from his bed again.  For the most

part his intellect was  unclouded when his attention was aroused.  He spoke only in whispers,  a few words at a

time.  The doctor felt sure, by the expression which  passed over his features from time to time, that something

was  worrying and oppressing him; something which he wished to  communicate, and had not the force, or the

tenacity of purpose, to  make perfectly clear.  His eyes often wandered to a certain desk, and  once he had

found strength to lift his emaciated arm and point to it.  The doctor went towards it as if to fetch it to him, but

he slowly  shook his head.  He had not the power to say at that time what he  wished.  The next day he felt a

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physician could make them out, were these which follow.  Dr. Butts  looked upon them as possibly expressing

wishes which would be his  last, and noted them down carefully immediately after leaving his  chamber. 

"I commit the secret of my life to your charge.  My whole story is  told in a paper locked in that desk.  The key

isput your hand under  my pillow.  If I die, let the story be known.  It will show that I  washumanand

save my memory from reproach." 

He was silent for a little time.  A single tear stole down his  hollow  cheek.  The doctor turned his head away,

for his own eyes were  full.  But he said to himself, "It is a good sign; I begin to feel  strong  hopes that he will

recover." 

Maurice spoke once more.  "Doctor, I put full trust in you.  You  are  wise and kind.  Do what you will with this

paper, but open it at  once  and read.  I want you to know the story of my life before it is  finishedif the end is

at hand.  Take it with you and read it before  you sleep."  He was exhausted and presently his eyes closed, but

the  doctor saw a tranquil look on his features which added encouragement  to his hopes. 

XVIII. MAURICE KIRKWOOD'S STORY OF HIS LIFE.

I am an American by birth, but a large part of my life has been  passed in foreign lands.  My father was a man

of education, possessed  of an ample fortune; my mother was considered, a very accomplished  and amiable

woman.  I was their first and only child.  She died while  I was yet an infant.  If I remember her at all it is as a

vision,  more like a glimpse of a prenatal existence than as a part of my  earthly life.  At the death of my

mother I was left in the charge of  the old nurse who had enjoyed her perfect confidence.  She was  devoted to

me, and I became absolutely dependent on her, who had for  me all the love and all the care of a mother.  I was

naturally the  object of the attentions and caresses of the family relatives.  I  have been told that I was a

pleasant, smiling infant, with nothing to  indicate any peculiar nervous susceptibility; not afraid of  strangers,

but on the contrary ready to make their acquaintance.  My  father was devoted to me and did all in his power to

promote my  health and comfort. 

I was still a babe, often carried in arms, when the event happened  which changed my whole future and

destined me to a strange and lonely  existence.  I cannot relate it even now without a sense of terror.  I  must

force myself to recall the circumstances as told me and vaguely  remembered, for I am not willing that my

doomed and wholly  exceptional life should pass away unrecorded, unexplained,  unvindicated.  My nature is, I

feel sure, a kind and social one, but  I have lived apart, as if my heart were filled with hatred of my

fellowcreatures.  If there are any readers who look without pity,  without sympathy, upon those who shun the

fellowship of their fellow  men and women, who show by their downcast or averted eyes that they  dread

companionship and long for solitude, I pray them, if this paper  ever reaches them, to stop at this point.

Follow me no further, for  you will not believe my story, nor enter into the feelings which I am  about to

reveal.  But if there are any to whom all that is human is  of interest, who have felt in their own consciousness

some stirrings  of invincible attraction to one individual and equally invincible  repugnance to another, who

know by their own experience that elective  affinities have as their necessary counterpart, and, as it were,  their

polar opposites, currents not less strong of elective  repulsions, let them read with unquestioning faith the

story of a  blighted life I am about to relate, much of it, of course, received  from the lips of others. 

My cousin Laura, a girl of seventeen, lately returned from Europe,  was considered eminently beautiful.  It was

in my second summer that  she visited my father's house, where he was living with his servants  and my old

nurse, my mother having but recently left him a widower.  Laura was full of vivacity, impulsive, quick in her

movements,  thoughtless occasionally, as it is not strange that a young girl of  her age should be.  It was a

beautiful summer day when she saw me for  the first time.  My nurse had me in her arms, walking back and

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house.  While the nurse  was thus carrying me, Laura came suddenly upon the balcony.  She no  sooner saw me

than with all the delighted eagerness of her youthful  nature she rushed toward me, and, catching me from the

nurse's arms,  began tossing me after the fashion of young girls who have been so  lately playing with dolls

that they feel as if babies were very much  of the same nature.  The abrupt seizure frightened me; I sprang from

her arms in my terror, and fell over the railing of the balcony.  I  should probably enough have been killed on

the spot but for the fact  that a low thornbush grew just beneath the balcony, into which I  fell and thus had

the violence of the shock broken.  But the thorns  tore my tender flesh, and I bear to this day marks of the deep

wounds  they inflicted. 

That dreadful experience is burned deep into my memory.  The sudden  apparition of the girl; the sense of

being torn away from the  protecting arms around me; the frantic effort to escape; the shriek  that accompanied

my fall through what must have seemed unmeasurable  space; the cruel lacerations of the piercing and rending

thorns,all  these fearful impressions blended in one paralyzing terror. 

When I was taken up I was thought to be dead.  I was perfectly  white,  and the physician who first saw me said

that no pulse was  perceptible.  But after a time consciousness returned; the wounds,  though painful, were none

of them dangerous, and the most alarming  effects of the accident passed away.  My old nurse cared for me

tenderly day and night, and my father, who had been almost distracted  in the first hours which followed the

injury, hoped and believed  that  no permanent evil results would be found to result from it.  My  cousin  Laura

was of course deeply distressed to feel that her  thoughtlessness  had been the cause of so grave an accident.

As soon  as I had somewhat  recovered she came to see me, very penitent, very  anxious to make me  forget the

alarm she had caused me, with all its  consequences.  I was  in the nursery sitting up in my bed, bandaged,  but

not in any pain, as  it seemed, for I was quiet and to all  appearance in a perfectly  natural state of feeling.  As

Laura came  near me I shrieked and  instantly changed color.  I put my hand upon  my heart as if I had been

stabbed, and fell over, unconscious.  It  was very much the same state  as that in which I was found

immediately  after my fall. 

The cause of this violent and appalling seizure was but too  obvious.  The approach of the young girl and the

dread that she was  about to  lay her hand upon me had called up the same train of effects  which  the moment of

terror and pain had already occasioned.  The old  nurse  saw this in a moment.  "Go!  go!" she cried to Laura,

"go, or  the  child will die!  "Her command did not have to be repeated.  After  Laura had gone I lay senseless,

white and cold as marble, for some  time.  The doctor soon came, and by the use of smart rubbing and

stimulants the color came back slowly to my cheeks and the arrested  circulation was again set in motion. 

It was hard to believe that this was anything more than a temporary  effect of the accident.  There could be

little doubt, it was thought  by the doctor and by my father, that after a few days I should  recover from this

morbid sensibility and receive my cousin as other  infants receive pleasantlooking young persons.  The old

nurse shook  her head.  "The girl will be the death of the child," she said, "if  she touches him or comes near

him.  His heart stopped beating just as  when the girl snatched him out of my arms, and he fell over the

balcony railing."  Once more the experiment was tried, cautiously,  almost insidiously.  The same alarming

consequences followed.  It was  too evident that a chain of nervous disturbances had been set up in  my system

which repeated itself whenever the original impression gave  the first impulse.  I never saw my cousin Laura

after this last  trial.  Its result had so distressed her that she never ventured  again to show herself to me. 

If the effect of the nervous shock had stopped there, it would have  been a misfortune for my cousin and

myself, but hardly a calamity.  The world is wide, and a cousin or two more or less can hardly be  considered

an essential of existence.  I often heard Laura's name  mentioned, but never by any one who was acquainted

with all the  circumstances, for it was noticed that I changed color and caught at  my breast as if I wanted to

grasp my heart in my hand whenever that  fatal name was mentioned. 


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Alas! this was not all.  While I was suffering from the effects of  my  fall among the thorns I was attended by

my old nurse, assisted by  another old woman, by a physician, and my father, who would take his  share in

caring for me.  It was thought best to keepme perfectly  quiet, and strangers and friends were alike excluded

from my nursery,  with one exception, that my old grandmother came in now and then.  With her it seems that

I was somewhat timid and shy, following her  with rather anxious eyes, as if not quite certain whether or not

she  was dangerous.  But one day, when I was far advanced towards  recovery, my father brought in a young

lady, a relative of his, who  had expressed a great desire to see me.  She was, as I have been  told, a very

handsome girl, of about the same age as my cousin Laura,  but bearing no personal resemblance to her in

form, features, or  complexion.  She had no sooner entered the room than the same sudden  changes which had

followed my cousin's visit began to show  themselves, and before she had reached my bedside I was in a state

of  deadly collapse, as on the occasions already mentioned. 

Some time passed before any recurrence of these terrifying  seizures.  A little girl of five or six years old was

allowed to come  into the  nursery one day and bring me some flowers.  I took them from  her  hand, but turned

away and shut my eyes.  There was no seizure, but  there was a certain dread and aversion, nothing more than

a feeling  which it might be hoped that time would overcome.  Those around me  were gradually finding out the

circumstances which brought on the  deadly attack to which I was subject. 

The daughter of one of our near neighbors was considered the  prettiest girl of the village where we were

passing the summer.  She  was very anxious to see me, and as I was now nearly well it was  determined that she

should be permitted to pay me a short visit.  I  had always delighted in seeing her and being caressed by her.  I

was  sleeping when she entered the nursery and came and took a seat at my  side in perfect silence.  Presently I

became restless, and a moment  later I opened my eyes and saw her stooping over me.  My hand went to  my

left breast,the color faded from my cheeks,I was again the  cold marble image so like death that it had

wellnigh been mistaken  for it. 

Could it be possible that the fright which had chilled my blood had  left me with an unconquerable fear of

woman at the period when she is  most attractive not only to adolescents, but to children of tender  age, who

feel the fascination of her flowing locks, her bright eyes,  her blooming cheeks, and that mysterious

magnetism of sex which draws  all life into its warm and potently vitalized atmosphere?  So it did  indeed

seem.  The dangerous experiment could not be repeated  indefinitely.  It was not intentionally tried again, but

accident  brought about more than one renewal of it during the following years,  until it became fully

recognized that I was the unhappy subject of a  mortal dread of woman,not absolutely of the human female,

for I had  no fear of my old nurse or of my grandmother, or of any old wrinkled  face, and I had become

accustomed to the occasional meeting of a  little girl or two, whom I nevertheless regarded with a certain ill

defined feeling that there was danger in their presence.  I was sent  to a boys' school very early, and during the

first ten or twelve  years of my life I had rarely any occasion to be reminded of my  strange idiosyncrasy. 

As I grew out of boyhood into youth, a change came over the  feelings  which had so long held complete

possession of me.  This was  what my  father and his advisers had always anticipated, and was the  ground of

their confident hope in my return to natural conditions  before I  should have grown to mature manhood. 

How shall I describe the conflicts of those dreamy, bewildering,  dreadful years?  Visions of loveliness

haunted me sleeping and  waking.  Sometimes a graceful girlish figure would so draw my eyes  towards it that I

lost sight of all else, and was ready to forget all  my fears and find myself at her side, like other youths by the

side  of young maidens,happy in their cheerful companionship, while I,  I, under the curse of one

blighting moment, looked on, hopeless.  Sometimes the glimpse of a fair face or the tone of a sweet voice

stirred within me all the instincts that make the morning of life  beautiful to adolescence.  I reasoned with

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Why should I not have outgrown that idle apprehension which had  been  the nightmare of my earlier years?

Why should not the rising  tide of  life have drowned out the feeble growths that infested the  shallows  of

childhood?  How many children there are who tremble at  being left  alone in the dark, but who, a few years

later, will smile  at their  foolish terrors and brave all the ghosts of a haunted  chamber!  Why  should I any

longer be the slave of a foolish fancy that  has grown  into a half insane habit of mind?  I was familiarly

acquainted with  all the stories of the strange antipathies and  invincible repugnances  to which others, some of

them famous men, had  been subject.  I said  to myself, Why should not I overcome this dread  of woman as

Peter the  Great fought down his dread of wheels rolling  over a bridge?  Was I,  alone of all mankind, to be

doomed to perpetual  exclusion from the  society which, as it seemed to me, was all that  rendered existence

worth the trouble and fatigue of slavery to the  vulgar need of  supplying the waste of the system and working

at the  task of  respiration like the daughters of Danaus,toiling day and  night as  the wornout sailor labors at

the pump of his sinking vessel? 

Why did I not brave the risk of meeting squarely, and without  regard  to any possible danger, some one of

those fair maidens whose  faroff  smile, whose graceful movements, at once attracted and  agitated me?  I can

only answer this question to the satisfaction of  any really  inquiring reader by giving him the true

interpretation of  the  singular phenomenon of which I was the subject.  For this I shall  have to refer to a paper

of which I have made a copy, and which will  be found included with this manuscript.  It is enough to say here,

without entering into the explanation of the fact, which will be  found simple enough as seen by the light of

modern physiological  science, that the "nervous disturbance" which the presence of a woman  in the flower of

her age produced in my system was a sense of  impending death, sudden, overwhelming, unconquerable,

appalling.  It  was a reversed action of the nervous centres,the opposite of that  which flushes the young

lover's cheek and hurries his bounding pulses  as he comes into the presence of the object of his passion.  No

one  who has ever felt the sensation can have failed to recognize it as an  imperative summons, which

commands instant and terrified submission. 

It was at this period of my life that my father determined to try  the  effect of travel and residence in different

localities upon my  bodily  and mental condition.  I say bodily as well as mental, for I  was too  slender for my

height and subject to some nervous symptoms  which were  a cause of anxiety.  That the mind was largely

concerned in  these  there was no doubt, but the mutual interactions of mind and body  are  often too complex to

admit of satisfactory analysis.  Each is in  part  cause and each also in part effect. 

We passed some years in Italy, chiefly in Rome, where I was placed  in  a school conducted by priests, and

where of course I met only those  of my own sex.  There I had the opportunity of seeing the influences  under

which certain young Catholics, destined for the priesthood, are  led to separate themselves from all

communion with the sex associated  in their minds with the most subtle dangers to which the human soul  can

be exposed.  I became in some degree reconciled to the thought of  exclusion from the society of women by

seeing around me so many who  were selfdevoted to celibacy.  The thought sometimes occurred to me

whether I should not find the best and the only natural solution of  the problem of existence, as submitted to

myself, in taking upon me  the vows which settle the whole question and raise an impassable  barrier between

the devotee and the object of his dangerous  attraction. 

How often I talked this whole matter over with the young priest who  was at once my special instructor and

my favorite companion!  But  accustomed as I had become to the forms of the Roman Church, and  impressed

as I was with the purity and excellence of many of its  young members with whom I was acquainted, my early

training rendered  it impossible for me to accept the credentials which it offered me as  authoritative.  My

friend and instructor had to set me down as a case  of "invincible ignorance."  This was the loophole through

which he  crept out of the prisonhouse of his creed, and was enabled to look  upon me without the feeling of

absolute despair with which his  sterner brethren would, I fear, have regarded me. 


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I have said that accident exposed me at times to the influence  which  I had such reasons for dreading.  Here is

one example of such an  occurrence, which I relate as simply as possible, vividly as it is  impressed upon my

memory.  A young friend whose acquaintance I had  made in Rome asked me one day to come to his rooms

and look at a  cabinet of gems and medals which he had collected.  I had been but a  short time in his library

when a vague sense of uneasiness came over  me.  My heart became restless,I could feel it stirring

irregularly,  as if it were some frightened creature caged in my breast.  There was  nothing that I could see to

account for it.  A door was partly open,  but not so that I could see into the next room.  The feeling grew  upon

me of some influence which was paralyzing my circulation.  I  begged my friend to open a window.  As be did

so, the door swung in  the draught, and I saw a blooming young woman,it was my friend's  sister, who had

been sitting with a book in her hand, and who rose at  the opening of the door.  Something had warned me of

the presence of  a woman, that occult and potent aura of individuality, call it  personal magnetism, spiritual

effluence, or reduce it to a simpler  expression if you will; whatever it was, it had warned me of the  nearness

of the dread attraction which allured at a distance and  revealed itself with all the terrors of the Lorelei if

approached too  recklessly.  A sign from her brother caused her to withdraw at once,  but not before I had felt

the impression which betrayed itself in my  change of color, anxiety about the region of the heart, and sudden

failure as if about to fall in a deadly faintingfit. 

Does all this seem strange and incredible to the reader of my  manuscript?  Nothing in the history of life is so

strange or  exceptional as it seems to those who have not made a long study of  its mysteries.  I have never

known just such a case as my own, and  yet there must have been such, and if the whole history of mankind

were unfolded I cannot doubt that there have been many like it.  Let  my reader suspend his judgment until he

has read the paper I have  referred to, which was drawn up by a Committee of the Royal Academy  of the

Biological Sciences.  In this paper the mechanism of the  series of nervous derangements to which I have been

subject since the  fatal shock experienced in my infancy is explained in language not  hard to understand.  It

will be seen that such a change of polarity  in the nervous centres is only a permanent form and an extreme

degree  of an emotional disturbance, which as a temporary and comparatively  unimportant personal accident

is far from being uncommon,is so  frequent, in fact, that every one must have known instances of it,  and not

a few must have had more or less serious experiences of it in  their own private history. 

It must not be supposed that my imagination dealt with me as I am  now  dealing with the reader.  I was full of

strange fancies and wild  superstitions.  One of my Catholic friends gave me a silver medal  which had been

blessed by the Pope, and which I was to wear next my  body.  I was told that this would turn black after a time,

in virtue  of a power which it possessed of drawing out original sin, or certain  portions of it, together with the

evil and morbid tendencies which  had been engrafted on the corrupt nature.  I wore the medal  faithfully, as

directed, and watched it carefully.  It became  tarnished and after a time darkened, but it wrought no change in

my  unnatural condition. 

There was an old gypsy who had the reputation of knowing more of  futurity than she had any right to know.

The story was that she had  foretold the assassination of Count Rossi and the death of Cavour. 

However that may have been, I was persuaded to let her try her  black  art upon my future.  I shall never forget

the strange, wild look  of  the wrinkled hag as she took my hand and studied its lines and  fixed  her wicked old

eyes on my young countenance.  After this  examination  she shook her head and muttered some words, which

as  nearly as I  could get them would be in English like these: 

     Fair lady cast a spell on thee,

     Fair lady's hand shall set thee free.

Strange as it may seem, these words of a withered old creature,  whose  palm had to be crossed with silver to

bring forth her oracular  response, have always clung to my memory as if they were destined to  fulfilment.

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reference to  all that relates to it.  I have never ceased to have the feeling  that, sooner or later, I should find

myself freed from the blight  laid upon me in my infancy.  It seems as if it would naturally come  through the

influence of some young and fair woman, to whom that  merciful errand should be assigned by the Providence

that governs our  destiny.  With strange hopes, with trembling fears, with mingled  belief and doubt, wherever I

have found myself I have sought with  longing yet halfaverted eyes for the "elect lady," as I have learned  to

call her, who was to lift the curse from my ruined life. 

Three times I have been led to the hope, if not the belief, that I  had found the object of my superstitious

belief. Singularly enough  it was always on the water that the phantom of my hope appeared  before my

bewildered vision.  Once it was an English girl who was a  fellow passenger with me in one of my ocean

voyages.  I need not say  that she was beautiful, for she was my dream realized.  I heard her  singing, I saw her

walking the deck on some of the fair days when  seasickness was forgotten.  The passengers were a social

company  enough, but I had kept myself apart, as was my wont.  At last the  attraction became too strong to

resist any longer.  "I will venture  into the charmed circle if it kills me," I said to my father.  I did  venture, and

it did not kill me, or I should not be telling this  story.  But there was a repetition of the old experiences.  I need

not relate the series of alarming consequences of my venture.  The  English girl was very lovely, and I have no

doubt has made some one  supremely happy before this, but she was not the "elect lady" of the  prophecy and

of my dreams. 

A second time I thought myself for a moment in the presence of the  destined deliverer who was to restore me

to my natural place among my  fellow men and women.  It was on the Tiber that I met the young  maiden who

drew me once more into that inner circle which surrounded  young womanhood with deadly peril for me, if I

dared to pass its  limits.  I was floating with the stream in the little boat in which I  passed many long hours of

reverie when I saw another small boat with  a boy and a young girl in it.  The boy had been rowing, and one of

his oars had slipped from his grasp.  He did not know how to paddle  with a single oar, and was hopelessly

rowing round and round, his oar  all the time floating farther away from him.  I could not refuse my  assistance.

I picked up the oar and brought my skiff alongside of  the boat.  When I handed the oar to the boy the young

girl lifted her  veil and thanked me in the exquisite music of the language which 

     'Sounds as if it should be writ on satin."

She was a type of Italian beauty,a nocturne in flesh and blood,  if  I may borrow a term certain artists are

fond of; but it was her  voice  which captivated me and for a moment made me believe that I was  no  longer

shut off from all relations with the social life of my race.  An hour later I was found lying insensible on the

floor of my boat,  white, cold, almost pulseless.  It cost much patient labor to bring  me back to consciousness.

Had not such extreme efforts been made, it  seems probable that I should never have waked from a slumber

which  was hardly distinguishable from that of death. 

Why should I provoke a catastrophe which appears inevitable if I  invite it by exposing myself to its too well

ascertained cause?  The  habit of these deadly seizures has become a second nature.  The  strongest and the

ablest men have found it impossible to resist the  impression produced by the most insignificant object, by the

most  harmless sight or sound to which they had a congenital or acquired  antipathy.  What prospect have I of

ever being rid of this long and  deepseated infirmity?  I may well ask myself these questions, but my  answer

is that I will never give up the hope that time will yet bring  its remedy.  It may be that the wild prediction

which so haunts me  shall find itself fulfilled.  I have had of late strange  premonitions, to which if I were

superstitious I could not help  giving heed.  But I have seen too much of the faith that deals in  miracles to

accept the supernatural in any shape,assuredly when it  comes from an old witchlike creature who takes

pay for her  revelations of the future.  Be it so: though I am not superstitious,  I have a right to be imaginative,

and my imagination will hold to  those words of the old zingara with an irresistible feeling that,  sooner or

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Can it be possible that her prediction is not far from its  realization?  I have had both waking and sleeping

visions within  these last months and weeks which have taken possession of me and  filled my life with new

thoughts, new hopes, new resolves. 

Sometimes on the bosom of the lake by which I am dreaming away this  season of bloom and fragrance,

sometimes in the fields or woods in a  distant glimpse, once in a nearer glance, which left me pale and

tremulous, yet was followed by a swift reaction, so that my cheeks  flushed and my pulse bounded, I have

seen her whohow do I dare to  tell it so that my own eyes can read it?I cannot help believing is  to be

my deliverer, my saviour. 

I have been warned in the most solemn and impressive language by  the  experts most deeply read in the laws

of life and the history of  its  disturbing and destroying influences, that it would be at the  imminent risk of my

existence if I should expose myself to the  repetition of my former experiences.  I was reminded that

unexplained  sudden deaths were of constant, of daily occurrence; that any emotion  is liable to arrest the

movements of life: terror, joy, good news or  bad news,anything that reaches the deeper nervous centres.  I

had  already died once, as Sir Charles Napier said of himself; yes, more  than once, died and been resuscitated.

The next time, I might very  probably fail to get my return ticket after my visit to Hades.  It  was a rather grim

stroke of humor, but I understood its meaning full  well, and felt the force of its menace. 

After all, what had I to live for if the great primal instinct  which  strives to make whole the half life of lonely

manhood is  defeated,  suppressed, crushed out of existence?  Why not as well die  in the  attempt to break up a

wretched servitude to a perverted nervous  movement as in any other way?  I am alone in the world,alone

save  for my faithful servant, through whom I seem to hold to the human  race as it were by a single filament.

My father, who was my  instructor, my companion, my dearest and best friend through all my  later youth and

my earlier manhood, died three years ago and left me  my own master, with the means of living as might best

please my  fancy.  This season shall decide my fate.  One more experiment, and I  shall find myself restored to

my place among my fellowbeings, or, as  I devoutly hope, in a sphere where all our mortal infirmities are

past and forgotten. 

I have told the story of a blighted life without reserve, so that  there shall not remain any mystery or any dark

suspicion connected  with my memory if I should be taken away unexpectedly.  It has cost  me an effort to do

it, but now that my life is on record I feel more  reconciled to my lot, with all its possibilities, and among

these  possibilities is a gleam of a better future.  I have been told by my  advisers, some of them wise, deeply

instructed, and kindhearted men,  that such a lifedestiny should be related by the subject of it for  the

instruction of others, and especially for the light it throws on  certain peculiarities of human character often

wrongly interpreted as  due to moral perversion, when they are in reality the results of  misdirected or reversed

actions in some of the closely connected  nervous centres. 

For myself I can truly say that I have very little morbid  sensibility  left with reference to the destiny which has

been allotted  to me.  I  have passed through different stages of feeling with  reference to it,  as I have developed

from infancy to manhood.  At  first it was mere  blind instinct about which I had no thought, living  like other

infants the life of impressions without language to connect  them in  series.  In my boyhood I began to be

deeply conscious of the  infirmity which separated me from those around me.  In youth began  that conflict of

emotions and impulses with the antagonistic  influence of which I have already spoken, a conflict which has

never  ceased, but to which I have necessarily become to a certain degree  accustomed; and against the dangers

of which I have learned to guard  myself habitually.  That is the meaning of my isolation.  You, young

man,if at any time your eyes shall look upon my melancholy record,  you at least will understand me.

Does not your heart throb, in the  presence of budding or blooming womanhood, sometimes as if it "were

ready to crack" with its own excess of strain?  What if instead of  throbbing it should falter, flutter, and stop as

if never to beat  again?  You, young woman, who with ready belief and tender sympathy  will look upon these

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emotion and  the grip of the bodice seems unendurable as the embrace of the iron  virgin of the Inquisition.

Think what it would be if the grasp were  tightened so that no breath of air could enter your panting chest! 

Does your heart beat in the same way, young man, when your honored  friend, a venerable matron of seventy

years, greets you with her  kindly smile as it does in the presence of youthful loveliness?  When  a pretty child

brings you her doll and looks into your eyes with  artless grace and trustful simplicity, does your pulse

quicken, do  you tremble, does life palpitate through your whole being, as when  the maiden of seventeen

meets your enamored sight in the glow of her  rosebud beauty?  Wonder not, then, if the period of mystic

attraction  for you should be that of agitation, terror, danger, to one in whom  the natural current of the

instincts has had its course changed as  that of a stream is changed by a convulsion of nature, so that the

impression which is new life to you is death to him. 

I am now twentyfive years old.  I have reached the time of life  which I have dreamed, nay even ventured to

hope, might be the limit  of the sentence which was pronounced upon me in my infancy.  I can  assign no good

reason for this anticipation.  But in writing this  paper I feel as if I were preparing to begin a renewed

existence.  There is nothing for me to be ashamed of in the story I have told.  There is no man living who

would not have yielded to the sense of  instantly impending death which seized upon me under the conditions

I  have mentioned.  Martyrs have gone singing to their flaming shrouds,  but never a man could hold his breath

long enough to kill himself; he  must have rope or water, or some mechanical help, or nature will make  him

draw in a breath of air, and would make him do so though he knew  the salvation of the human race would be

forfeited by that one gasp. 

This paper may never reach the eye of any one afflicted in the same  way that I have been.  It probably never

will; but for all that,  there are many shy natures which will recognize tendencies in  themselves in the

direction of my unhappy susceptibility.  Others, to  whom such weakness seems inconceivable, will find their

scepticism  shaken, if not removed, by the calm, judicial statement of the Report  drawn up for the Royal

Academy.  It will make little difference to me  whether my story is accepted unhesitatingly or looked upon as

largely  a product of the imagination.  I am but a bird of passage that lights  on the boughs of different

nationalities.  I belong to no flock; my  home may be among the palms of Syria, the olives of Italy, the oaks  of

England, the elms that shadow the Hudson or the Connecticut; I  build no nest; today I am here, tomorrow

on the wing. 

If I quit my native land before the trees have dropped their leaves  I  shall place this manuscript in the safe

hands of one whom I feel  sure  that I can trust; to do with it as he shall see fit.  If it is  only  curious and has no

bearing on human welfare, he may think it well  to  let it remain unread until I shall have passed away.  If in his

judgment it throws any light on one of the deeper mysteries of our  nature,the repulsions which play such a

formidable part in social  life, and which must be recognized as the correlatives of the  affinities that distribute

the individuals governed by them in the  face of impediments which seem to be impossibilities,then it may

be  freely given to the world. 

But if I am here when the leaves are all fallen, the programme of  my  life will have changed, and this story of

the dead past will be  illuminated by the light of a living present which will irradiate all  its saddening features.

Who would not pray that my last gleam of  light and hope may be that of dawn and not of departing day? 

The reader who finds it hard to accept the reality of a story so  far  from the common range of experience is

once more requested to  suspend  his judgment until he has read the paper which will next be  offered  for his

consideration. 

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Perhaps it is too much to expect a reader who wishes to be  entertained, excited, amused, and does not want to

work his passage  through pages which he cannot understand without some effort of his  own, to read the paper

which follows and Dr. Butts's reflections upon  it.  If he has no curiosity in the direction of these chapters, he

can afford to leave them to such as relish a slight flavor of  science.  But if he does so leave them he will very

probably remain  sceptical as to the truth of the story to which they are meant to  furnish him with a key. 

Of course the case of Maurice Kirkwood is a remarkable and  exceptional one, and it is hardly probable that

any reader's  experience will furnish him with its parallel.  But let him look back  over all his acquaintances, if

he has reached middle life, and see if  he cannot recall more than one who, for some reason or other, shunned

the society of young women, as if they had a deadly fear of their  company.  If he remembers any such, he can

understand the simple  statements and natural reflections which are laid before him. 

One of the most singular facts connected with the history of  Maurice  Kirkwood was the philosophical

equanimity with which he  submitted to  the fate which had fallen upon him.  He did not choose to  be pumped

by the Interviewer, who would show him up in the sensational  columns  of his prying newspaper.  He lived

chiefly by himself, as the  easiest  mode of avoiding those meetings to which he would be exposed  in  almost

every society into which he might venture.  But he had  learned  to look upon himself very much as he would

upon an intimate  not  himself,upon a different personality.  A young man will  naturally  enough be ashamed

of his shyness.  It is something which  others  believe, and perhaps he himself thinks, he might overcome.  But

in  the case of Maurice Kirkwood there was no room for doubt as to the  reality and gravity of the long

enduring effects of his first  convulsive terror.  He had accepted the fact as he would have  accepted the

calamity of losing his sight or his hearing.  When he  was questioned by the experts to whom his case was

submitted, he told  them all that he knew about it almost without a sign of emotion.  Nature was so peremptory

with him,saying in language that had no  double meaning: "If you violate the condition on which you hold

my  gift of existence I slay you on the spot,"that he became as  decisive in his obedience as she was in her

command, and accepted his  fate without repining. 

Yet it must not be thought for a moment,it cannot be supposed,  that he was insensible because he

looked upon himself with the  coolness of an enforced philosophy.  He bore his burden manfully,  hard as it

was to live under it, for he lived, as we have seen, in  hope.  The thought of throwing it off with his life, as too

grievous  to be borne, was familiar to his lonely hours, but he rejected it as  unworthy of his manhood.  How he

had speculated and dreamed about it  is plain enough from the paper the reader may remember on Ocean,

River, and Lake. 

With these preliminary hints the paper promised is submitted to  such  as may find any interest in them. 

               ACCOUNT OF A CASE OF GYNOPHOBIA.

                         WITH REMARKS.

Being the Substance of a Report to the Royal Academy of the Bio~  logical Sciences by a Committee of that

Institution. 

"The singular nature of the case we are about to narrate and  comment  upon will, we feel confident, arrest the

attention of those  who have  learned the great fact that Nature often throws the strongest  light  upon her laws

by the apparent exceptions and anomalies which  from  time to time are observed.  We have done with the lusus

naturae  of  earlier generations.  We pay little attention to the stories of  'miracles,' except so far as we receive

them readymade at the hands  of the churches which still hold to them.  Not the less do we meet  with strange

and surprising facts, which a century or two ago would  have been handled by the clergy and the courts, but

today are calmly  recorded and judged by the best light our knowledge of the laws of  life can throw upon

them.  It must be owned that there are stories  which we can hardly dispute, so clear and full is the evidence in

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testimony which supports them. 

" In this category many will be disposed to place the case we  commend  to the candid attention of the

Academy.  If one were told that  a  young man, a gentleman by birth and training, well formed, in  apparently

perfect health, of agreeable physiognomy and manners,  could not endure the presence of the most attractive

young woman, but  was seized with deadly terror and sudden collapse of all the powers  of life, if he came into

her immediate presence; if it were added  that this same young man did not shrink from the presence of an old

withered crone; that he had a certain timid liking for little maidens  who had not yet outgrown the company of

their dolls, the listener  would be apt to smile, if he did not laugh, at the absurdity of the  fable.  Surely, he

would say, this must be the fiction of some  fanciful brain, the whim of some romancer, the trick of some

playwright.  It would make a capital farce, this idea, carried out.  A  young man slighting the lovely heroine of

the little comedy and  making  love to her grandmother!  This would, of course, be  overstating the  truth of the

story, but to such a misinterpretation  the plain facts  lend themselves too easily.  We will relate the  leading

circumstances  of the case, as they were told us with perfect  simplicity and  frankness by the subject of an

affection which, if  classified, would  come under the general head of Antipathy, but to  which, if we give it  a

name, we shall have to apply the term  Gynophobia, or Fear of Woman." 

Here follows the account furnished to the writer of the paper,  which  is in all essentials identical with that

already laid before the  reader. 

" Such is the case offered to our consideration.  Assuming its  truthfulness in all its particulars, it remains to

see in the first  place whether or not it is as entirely exceptional and anomalous as  it seems at first sight, or

whether it is only the last term of a  series of cases which in their less formidable aspect are well known  to us

in literature, in the records of science, and even in our  common experience. 

"To most of those among us the explanations we are now about to  give  are entirely superfluous.  But there are

some whose chief studies  have been in different directions, and who will not complain if  certain facts are

mentioned which to the expert will seem  rudimentary, and which hardly require recapitulation to those who

are  familiarly acquainted with the common textbooks. 

"The heart is the centre of every living movement in the higher  animals, and in man, furnishing in varying

amount, or withholding to  a greater or less extent, the needful supplies to all parts of the  system.  If its action

is diminished to a certain degree, faintness  is the immediate consequence; if it is arrested, loss of

consciousness; if its action is not soon restored, death, of which  fainting plants the white flag, remains in

possession of the system. 

How closely the heart is under the influence of the emotions we  need  not go to science to learn, for all human

experience and all  literature are overflowing with evidence that shows the extent of  this relation.  Scripture is

full of it; the heart in Hebrew poetry  represents the entire life, we might almost say.  Not less forcible  is the

language of Shakespeare, as for instance, in 'Measure for  Measure:' 

    'Why does my blood thus muster to my heart,

     Making it both unable for itself

     And dispossessing all my other parts

     Of necessary fitness?'

More especially is the heart associated in every literature with  the  passion of love.  A famous old story is that

of Galen, who was  called  to the case of a young lady long ailing, and wasting away from  some  cause the

physicians who had already seen her were unable to make  out.  The shrewd old practitioner suspected that

love was at the  bottom of the young lady's malady.  Many relatives and friends of  both sexes, all of them

ready with their sympathy, came to see her.  The physician sat by her bedside during one of these visits, and in

an easy, natural way took her hand and placed a finger on her pulse.  It beat quietly enough until a certain


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comely young gentleman entered  the apartment, when it suddenly rose infrequency, and at the same  moment

her hurried breathing, her changing color, pale and flushed by  turns, betrayed the profound agitation his

presence excited.  This  was enough for the sagacious Greek; love was the disease, the cure of  which by its like

may be claimed as an anticipation of homoeopathy.  In the frontispiece to the fine old 'Junta' edition of the

works of  Galen, you may find among the woodcuts a representation of the  interesting scene, with the title

Amantas Dignotio,the diagnosis,  or recognition, of the lover. 

"Love has many languages, but the heart talks through all of them.  The pallid or burning cheek tells of the

failing or leaping fountain  which gives it color.  The lovers at the 'Brookside' could hear each  other's hearts

beating.  When Genevieve, in Coleridge's poem, forgot  herself, and was beforehand with her suitor in her

sudden embrace, 

    'T was partly love and partly fear,

     And partly 't was a bashful art,

     That I might rather feel than see

     The swelling of her heart'

Always the heart, whether its hurried action is seen, or heard, or  felt.  But it is not always in this way that the

'deceitful' organ  treats the lover. 

    'Faint heart never won fair lady.'

This saying was not meant, perhaps, to be taken literally, but it  has  its literal truth.  Many a lover has found

his heart sink within  him,lose all its force, and leave him weak as a child in his  emotion at the sight of the

object of his affections.  When Porphyro  looked upon Madeline at her prayers in the chapel, it was too much

for him: 

    'She seemed a splendid angel, newly drest,

     Save wings, for heaven:Porphyro grew faint,

     She knelt, so pure a thing, so free from earthly taint.'

And in Balzac's novel, 'Cesar Birotteau,' the hero of the story  'fainted away forjoy at the moment when,

under a lindentree, at  Sceaux, ConstanceBarbeJosephine accepted him as her future  husband.' 

"One who faints is dead if he does not I come to,' and nothing is  more likely than that too susceptible lovers

have actually gone off  in this way.  Everything depends on how the heart behaves itself in  these and similar

trying moments.  The mechanism of its actions  becomes an interesting subject, therefore, to lovers of both

sexes,  and to all who are capable of intense emotions. 

"The heart is a great reservoir, which distributes food, drink,  air,  and heat to every part of the system, in

exchange for its waste  material.  It knocks at the gate of every organ seventy or eighty  times in a minute,

calling upon it to receive its supplies and unload  its refuse.  Between it and the brain there is the closest

relation.  The emotions, which act upon it as we have seen, govern it by a  mechanism only of late years

thoroughly understood.  This mechanism  can be made plain enough to the reader who is not afraid to believe

that he can understand it. 

"The brain, as all know, is the seat of ideas, emotions, volition.  It is the great central telegraphic station with

which many lesser  centres are in close relation, from which they receive, and to which  they transmit, their

messages.  The heart has its own little brains,  so to speak,small collections of nervous substance which

govern its  rhythmical motions under ordinary conditions.  But these lesser  nervous centres are to a large extent

dominated by influences  transmitted from certain groups of nervecells in the brain and its  immediate

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"There are two among the special groups of nervecells which  produce  directly opposite effects.  One of these

has the power of  accelerating the action of the heart, while the other has the power  of retarding or arresting

this action.  One acts as the spur, the  other as the bridle.  According as one or the other predominates, the

action of the heart will be stimulated or restrained.  Among the  great modern discoveries in physiology is that

of the existence of a  distinct centre of inhibition, as the restraining influence over the  heart is called. 

"The centre of inhibition plays a terrible part in the history of  cowardice and of unsuccessful love.  No man

can be brave without  blood to sustain his courage, any more than he can think, as the  German materialist

says, not absurdly, without phosphorus.  The  fainting lover must recover his circulation, or his lady will lend

him her smellingsalts and take a gallant with blood in his cheeks.  Porphyro got over his faintness before he

ran away with Madeline, and  Cesar Birotteau was an accepted lover when he swooned with happiness:  but

many an officer has been cashiered, and many a suitor has been  rejected, because the centre of inhibition has

got the upper hand of  the centre of stimulation. 

"In the wellknown cases of deadly antipathy which have been  recorded, the most frequent cause has been

the disturbed and  depressing influence of the centre of inhibition.  Fainting at the  sight of blood is one of the

commonest examples of this influence.  A  single impression, in a very early period of atmospheric

existence,  perhaps, indirectly, before that period, as was said to have happened  in the case of James the

First of England,may establish a  communication between this centre and the heart which will remain  open

ever afterwards.  How does a footpath across a field establish  itself?  Its curves are arbitrary, and what we call

accidental, but  one after another follows it as if he were guided by a chart on which  it was laid down.  So it is

with this dangerous transit between the  centre of inhibition and the great organ of life.  If once the path  is

opened by the track of some profound impression, that same  impression, if repeated, or a similar one, is likely

to find the old  footmarks and follow them.  Habit only makes the path easier to  traverse, and thus the

unreasoning terror of a child, of an infant,  may perpetuate itself in a timidity which shames the manhood of

its  subject. 

"The case before us is an exceptional and most remarkable example  of  the effect of inhibition on the heart. 

"We will not say that we believe it to be unique in the history of  the human race; on the contrary, we do not

doubt that there have been  similar cases, and that in some rare instances sudden death has been  the

consequence of seizures like that of the subject of this Report.  The case most like it is that of Colone

Townsend, which is too well  known to require any lengthened description in this paper.  It is  enough to recall

the main facts.  He could by a voluntary effort  suspend the action of his heart for a considerable period, during

which he lay like one dead, pulseless, and without motion.  After a  time the circulation returned, and he does

not seem to have been the  worse for his dangerous, or seemingly dangerous, experiment.  But in  his case it

was by an act of the will that the heart's action was  suspended.  In the case before us it is an involuntary

impulse  transmitted from the brain to the inhibiting centre, which arrests  the cardiac movements. 

"What is like to be the further history of the case? 

"The subject of this anomalous affliction is now more than twenty  years old.  The chain of nervous actions has

become firmly  established.  It might have been hoped that the changes of  adolescence would have effected a

transformation of the perverted  instinct.  On the contrary, the whole force of this instinct throws  itself on the

centre of inhibition, instead of quickening the heart  beats, and sending the rush of youthful blood with fresh

life through  the entire system to the throbbing fingertips. 

"Is it probable that time and circumstances will alter a habit of  nervous interactions so long established?  We

are disposed to think  that there is a chance of its being broken up.  And we are not afraid  to say that we

suspect the old gypsy woman, whose prophecy took such  hold of the patient's imagination, has hit upon the

way in which the  "spell,' as she called it, is to be dissolved.  She must, in all  probability, have had a hint of the


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'antipatia' to which the youth  before her was a victim, and its cause, and if so, her guess as to  the probable

mode in which the young man would obtain relief from his  unfortunate condition was the one which would

naturally suggest  itself. 

"If once the nervous impression which falls on the centre of  inhibition can be made to change its course, so as

to follow its  natural channel, it will probably keep to that channel ever  afterwards.  And this will, it is most

likely, be effected by some  sudden, unexpected impression.  If he were drowning, and a young  woman should

rescue him, it is by no means impossible that the change  in the nervous current we have referred to might be

brought about as  rapidly, as easily, as the reversal of the poles in a magnet, which  is effected in an instant.

But he cannot be expected to throw  himself into the water just at the right moment when the 'fair lady'  of the

gitana's prophecy is passing on the shore.  Accident may  effect the cure which art seems incompetent to

perform.  It would not  be strange if in some future seizure he should never come back to  consciousness.  But it

is quite conceivable, on the other hand, that  a happier event may occur, that in a single moment the nervous

polarity may be reversed, the whole course of his life changed, and  his past terrible experiences be to him like

a scarceremembered  dream. 

"This is one, of those cases in which it is very hard to determine  the wisest course to be pursued.  The

question is not unlike that  which arises in certain cases of dislocation of the bones of the  neck.  Shall the

unfortunate sufferer go all his days with his face  turned far round to the right or the left, or shall an attempt be

made to replace the dislocated bones?  an attempt which may succeed,  or may cause instant death.  The patient

must be consulted as to  whether he will take the chance.  The practitioner may be unwilling  to risk it, if the

patient consents.  Each case must be judged on its  own special grounds.  We cannot think that this young man

is doomed  to perpetual separation from the society of womanhood during the  period of its bloom and

attraction.  But to provoke another seizure  after his past experiences would be too much like committing

suicide.  We fear that we must trust to the chapter of accidents.  The strange  maladyfor such it ishas

become a second nature, and may require  as energetic a shock to displace it as it did to bring it into  existence.

Time alone can solve this question, on which depends the  wellbeing and, it may be, the existence of a young

man every way  fitted to be happy, and to give happiness, if restored to his true  nature." 

XX. DR. BUTTS REFLECTS.

Dr. Butts sat up late at night reading these papers and reflecting  upon them.  He was profoundly impressed

and tenderly affected by the  entire frankness, the absence of all attempt at concealment, which  Maurice

showed in placing these papers at his disposal.  He believed  that his patient would recover from this illness for

which he had  been taking care of him.  He thought deeply and earnestly of what he  could do for him after he

should have regained his health and  strength. 

There were references, in Maurice's own account of himself, which  the  doctor called to mind with great

interest after reading his brief  autobiography.  Some one personsome young woman, it must behad

produced a singular impression upon him since those earlier perilous  experiences through which he had

passed.  The doctor could not help  thinking of that meeting with Euthymia of which she had spoken to  him.

Maurice, as she said, turned pale,he clapped his hand to his  breast.  He might have done so if be had met

her chambermaid, or any  straggling damsel of the village.  But Euthymia was not a young woman  to be

looked upon with indifference.  She held herself like a queen,  and walked like one, not a stage queen, but one

born and bred to  selfreliance, and command of herself as well as others.  One could  not pass her without

being struck with her noble bearing and spirited  features.  If she had known how Maurice trembled as he

looked upon  her, in that conflict of attraction and uncontrollable dread,if she  had known it!  But what, even

then, could she have done?  Nothing but  get away from him as fast as she could.  As it was, it was a long  time

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Dr. Butts was not a male gossip nor a matchmaking gobetween.  But  he  could not help thinking what a pity it

was that these two young  persons could not come together as other young people do in the  pairing season,

and find out whether they cared for and were fitted  for each other.  He did not pretend to settle this question in

his  own mind, but the thought was a natural one.  And here was a gulf  between them as deep and wide as that

between Lazarus and Dives.  Would it ever be bridged over?  This thought took possession of the  doctor's

mind, and he imagined all sorts of ways of effecting some  experimental approximation between Maurice and

Euthymia.  From this  delicate subject he glanced off to certain general considerations  suggested by the

extraordinary history he had been reading.  He began  by speculating as to the possibility of the personal

presence of an  individual making itself perceived by some channel other than any of  the five senses.  The

study of the natural sciences teaches those who  are devoted to them that the most insignificant facts may lead

the  way to the discovery of the most important, allpervading laws of the  universe.  From the kick of a frog's

hind leg to the amazing triumphs  which began with that seemingly trivial incident is a long, a very  long stride

if Madam Galvani had not been in delicate health, which  was the occasion of her having some frogbroth

prepared for her, the  world of today might not be in possession of the electric telegraph  and the light which

blazes like the sun at high noon.  A common  looking occurrence, one seemingly unimportant, which had

hitherto  passed unnoticed with the ordinary course of things, was the means of  introducing us to a new and

vast realm of closely related phenomena.  It was like a key that we might have picked up, looking so simple

that it could hardly fit any lock but one of like simplicity, but  which should all at once throw back the bolts of

the one lock which  had defied the most ingenious of our complex implements and open our  way into a

hitherto unexplored territory. 

It certainly was not through the eye alone that Maurice felt the  paralyzing influence.  He could contemplate

Euthymia from a distance,  as he did on the day of the boatrace, without any nervous  disturbance.  A certain

proximity was necessary for the influence to  be felt, as in the case of magnetism and electricity.  An

atmosphere  of danger surrounded every woman he approached during the period when  her sex exercises its

most powerful attractions.  How far did that  atmosphere extend, and through what channel did it act? 

The key to the phenomena of this case, he believed, was to be found  in a fact as humble as that which gave

birth to the science of  galvanism and its practical applications.  The circumstances  connected with the very

common antipathy to cats were as remarkable  in many points of view as the similar circumstances in the case

of  Maurice Kirkwood.  The subjects of that antipathy could not tell what  it was which disturbed their nervous

system.  All they knew was that  a sense of uneasiness, restlessness, oppression, came over them in  the

presence of one of these animals.  He remembered the fact already  mentioned, that persons sensitive to this

impression can tell by  their feelings if a cat is concealed in the apartment in which they  may happen to be.  It

may be through some emanation.  It may be  through the medium of some electrical disturbance.  What if the

nervethrills passing through the whole system of the animal  propagate themselves to a certain distance

without any more regard to  intervening solids than is shown by magnetism?  A sieve lets sand  pass through it;

a filter arrests sand, but lets fluids pass, glass  holds fluids, but lets light through; wood shuts out light, but

magnetic attraction goes through it as sand went through the sieve.  No good reasons can be given why the

presence of a cat should not  betray itself to certain organizations, at a distance, through the  walls of a box in

which the animal is shut up.  We need not  disbelieve the stories which allege such an occurrence as a fact and

a not very infrequent one. 

If the presence of a cat can produce its effects under these  circumstances, why should not that of a human

being under similar  conditions, acting on certain constitutions, exercise its specific  influence?  The doctor

recalled a story told him by one of his  friends, a story which the friend himself heard from the lips of the

distinguished actor, the late Mr. Fechter.  The actor maintained that  Rachel had no genius as an actress.  It was

all Samson's training and  study, according to him, which explained the secret of her wonderful  effectiveness

on the stage.  But magnetism, he said,magnetism, she  was full of.  He declared that he was made aware of

her presence on  the stage, when he could not see her or know of her presence  otherwise, by this magnetic

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perhaps high imaginative coloring about it, but it was not a whit  more unlikely than the catstories, accepted

as authentic.  He  continued this train of thought into further developments.  Into this  series of reflections we

will try to follow him. 

What is the meaning of the halo with which artists have surrounded  the heads of their pictured saints, of the

aureoles which wraps them  like a luminous cloud?  Is it not a recognition of the fact that  these holy

personages diffuse their personality in the form of a  visible emanation, which reminds us of Milton's

definition of light: 

    "Bright effluence of bright essence increate"?

The common use of the term influence would seem to imply the  existence of its correlative, effluence.  There

is no good reason  that I can see, the doctor said to himself, why among the forces  which work upon the

nervous centres there should not be one which  acts at various distances from its source.  It may not be visible

like the "glory" of the painters, it may not be appreciable by any  one of the five senses, and yet it may be felt

by the person reached  by it as much as if it were a palpable presence,more powerfully,  perhaps, from the

mystery which belongs to its mode of action. 

Why should not Maurice have been rendered restless and anxious by  the  unseen nearness of a young woman

who was in the next room to him,  just as the persons who have the dread of cats are made conscious of  their

presence through some unknown channel?  Is it anything strange  that the larger and more powerful organism

should diffuse a  consciousness of its presence to some distance as well as the  slighter and feebler one?  Is it

strange that this mysterious  influence or effluence should belong especially or exclusively to the  period of

complete womanhood in distinction from that of immaturity  or decadence?  On the contrary, it seems to be in

accordance with all  the analogies of nature,analogies too often cruel in the sentence  they pass upon the

human female. 

Among the many curious thoughts which came up in the doctor's mind  was this, which made him smile as if

it were a jest, but which he  felt very strongly had its serious side, and was involved with the  happiness or

suffering of multitudes of youthful persons who die  without telling their secret: 

How many young men have a mortal fear of woman, as woman, which  they  never overcome, and in

consequence of which the attraction which  draws man towards her, as strong in them as in

others,oftentimes,  in virtue of their peculiarly sensitive organizations, more potent in  them than in others

of like age and conditions,in consequence of  which fear, this attraction is completely neutralized, and all

the  possibilities of doubled and indefinitely extended life depending  upon it are left unrealized!  Think what

numbers of young men in  Catholic countries devote themselves to lives of celibacy.  Think how  many young

men lose all their confidence in the presence of the young  woman to whom they are most attracted, and at last

steal away from a  companionship which it is rapture to dream of and torture to endure,  so does the presence

of the beloved object paralyze all the powers of  expression.  Sorcerers have in all time and countries played on

the  hopes and terrors of lovers.  Once let loose a strong impulse on the  centre of inhibition, and the warrior

who had faced bayonets and  batteries becomes a coward whom the welldressed hero of the ball  room and

leader of the German will put to ignominious flight in five  minutes of easy, audacious familiarity with his

ladylove. 

Yes, the doctor went on with his reflections, I do not know that I  have seen the term Gynophobia before I

opened this manuscript, but I  have seen the malady many times.  Only one word has stood between  many a

pair of young people and their lifelong happiness, and that  word has got as far as the lips, but the lips

trembled and would not,  could not, shape that little word.  All young women are not like  Coleridge's

Genevieve, who knew how to help her lover out of his  difficulty, and said yes before he had asked for an

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them, and back they have been drawn into the  desolate ocean to meet no more on earth. 

Love is the masterkey, he went on thinking, love is the masterkey  that opens the gates of happiness, of

hatred, of jealousy, and, most  easily of all, the gate of fear.  How terrible is the one fact of  beauty!not only

the historic wonder of beauty, that "burnt the  topless towers of Ilium "for the smile of Helen, and fired the

palaces of Babylon by the hand of Thais, but the beauty which springs  up in all times and places, and carries

a torch and wears a serpent  for a wreath as truly as any of the Eumenides.  Paint Beauty with her  foot upon a

skull and a dragon coiled around her. 

The doctor smiled at his own imposing classical allusions and  pictorial imagery.  Drifting along from thought

to thought, he  reflected on the probable consequences of the general knowledge of  Maurice Kirkwood's story,

if it came before the public. 

What a piece of work it would make among the lively youths of the  village, to be sure!  What scoffing, what

ridicule, what  embellishments, what fables, would follow in the trail of the story!  If the Interviewer got hold

of it, how "The People's Perennial and  Household Inquisitor" would blaze with capitals in its next issue!  The

young fellows' of the place would be disposed to make fun of the  whole matter.  The young girlsthe doctor

hardly dared to think what  would happen when the story got about among them.  "The Sachem" of  the solitary

canoe, the bold horseman, the handsome hermit,handsome  so far as the glimpses they had got of him

went,must needs be an  object of tender interest among them, now that he was ailing,  suffering, in danger

of his life, away from friends,poor fellow!  Little tokens of their regard had reached his sickchamber;

bunches  of flowers with(dainty little notes, some of them pinkish, some  threecornered, some of them with

brief messages, others "criss  crossed," were growing more frequent as it was understood that the  patient was

likely to be convalescent before many days had passed.  If  it should come to be understood that there was a

deadly obstacle  to  their coming into any personal relations with him, the doctor had  his  doubts whether there

were not those who would subject him to the  risk;  for there were coquettes in the village,strangers, visitors,

let us  hope,who would sacrifice anything or anybody to their vanity  and  love of conquest. 

XXI. AN INTIMATE CONVERSATION.

The illness from which Maurice had suffered left him in a state of  profound prostration.  The doctor, who

remembered the extreme danger  of any overexertion in such cases, hardly allowed him to lift his  head from

the pillow.  But his mind was gradually recovering its  balance, and he was able to hold some conversation

with those about  him.  His faithful Paolo had grown so thin in waiting upon him and  watching with him that

the village children had to take a second look  at his face when they passed him to make sure that it was

indeed  their old friend and no other.  But as his master advanced towards  convalescence and the doctor

assured him that he was going in all  probability to get well, Paolo's face began to recover something of  its old

look and expression, and once more his pockets filled  themselves with comfits for his little circle of

worshipping three  and four year old followers. 

How is Mr. Kirkwood?" was the question with which he was always  greeted.  In the worst periods of the fever

be rarely left his  master.  When he did, and the question was put to him, he would shake  his head sadly,

sometimes without a word, sometimes with tears and  sobs and faltering words,more like a brokenhearted

child than a  stalwart man as he was, such a man as soldiers are made of in the  great Continental armies. 

"He very bad,he no eat nothing,heno say nothing,he never be  no better," and all his Southern

nature betrayed itself in a  passionate burst of lamentation.  But now that he began to feel easy  about his

master, his ready optimism declared itself no less  transparently. 

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kindhearted creature's life was  bound up in that of his "master," as he loved to call him, in  sovereign

disregard of the comments of the natives, who held  themselves too high for any such recognition of another

as their  better.  They could not understand how he, so much their superior in  bodily presence, in air and

manner, could speak of the man who  employed him in any other way than as "Kirkwood," without even

demeaning himself so far as to prefix a "Mr."  to it.  But "my  master" Maurice remained for Paolo in spite of

the fact that all men  are born free and equal.  And never was a servant more devoted to a  master than was

Paolo to Maurice during the days of doubt and danger.  Since his improvement Maurice insisted upon his

leaving his chamber  and getting out of the house, so as to breathe the fresh air of which  he was in so much

need.  It worried him to see his servant returning  after too short an absence.  The attendant who had helped him

in the  care of the patient was within call, and Paolo was almost driven out  of the house by the urgency of his

master's command that he should  take plenty of exercise in the open air. 

Notwithstanding the fact of Maurice's improved condition, although  the force of the disease had spent itself,

the state of weakness to  which he had been reduced was a cause of some anxiety, and required  great

precautions to be taken.  He lay in bed, wasted, enfeebled to  such a degree that he had to be cared for very

much as a child is  tended.  Gradually his voice was coming back to him, so that he could  hold some

conversation, as was before mentioned, with those about  him.  The doctor waited for the right moment to

make mention of the  manuscript which Maurice had submitted to him.  Up to this time,  although it had been

alluded to and the doctor had told him of the  intense interest with which he had read it, he had never ventured

to  make it the subject of any long talk, such as would be liable to  fatigue his patient.  But now he thought the

time had come. 

"I have been thinking," the doctor said, "of the singular seizures  to  which you are liable, and as it is my

business not merely to think  about such cases, but to do what I can to help any who may be capable  of

receiving aid from my art, I wish to have some additional facts  about your history.  And in the first place, will

you allow me to ask  what led you to this particular place?  It is so much less known to  the public at large than

many other resorts that we naturally ask,  What brings this or that new visitor among us?  We have no ill

tasting, natural spring of bad water to be analyzed by the state  chemist and proclaimed as a specific.  We have

no great gambling  houses, no racecourse (except that fox boats on the lake); we have no  coachingclub, no

great balls, few lions of any kind, so we ask, What  brings this or that stranger here?  And I think I may venture

to ask  you whether any, special motive brought you among us, or whether it  was accident that determined

your coming to this place." 

"Certainly, doctor," Maurice answered, "I will tell you with great  pleasure.  Last year I passed on the border of

a great river.  The  year before I lived in a lonely cottage at the side of the ocean.  I  wanted this year to be by a

lake.  You heard the paper read at the  meeting of your society, or at least you heard of it,for such  matters

are always talked over in a village like this.  You can judge  by that paper, or could, if it were before you, of

the frame of mind  in which I came here.  I was tired of the sullen indifference of the  ocean and the babbling

egotism of the river, always hurrying along on  its own private business.  I wanted the dreamy stillness of a

large,  tranquil sheet of water that had nothing in particular to do, and  would leave me to myself and my

thoughts.  I had read somewhere about  the place, and the old Anchor Tavern, with its paternal landlord and

motherly landlady and oldfashioned household, and that, though it  was no longer open as a tavern, I could

find a restingplace there  early in the season, at least for a few days, while I looked about me  for a quiet

place in which I might pass my summer.  I have found this  a pleasant residence.  By being up early and out late

I have kept  myself mainly in the solitude which has become my enforced habit of  life.  The season has gone

by too swiftly for me since my dream has  become a vision." 

The doctor was sitting with his hand round Maurice's wrist, three  fingers on his pulse.  As he spoke these last

words he noticed that  the pulse fluttered a little,beat irregularly a few times;  intermitted; became feeble

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"No more talk, now," he said.  "You are too tired to be using your  voice.  I will hear all the rest another time." 

The doctor had interrupted Maurice at an interesting point.  What  did  he mean by saying that his dream had

become a vision?  This is  what  the doctor was naturally curious, and professionally anxious, to  know.  But his

hand was still on his patient's pulse, which told him  unmistakably that the heart had taken the alarm and was

losing its  energy under the depressing nervous influence.  Presently, however,  it recovered its natural force

and rhythm, and a faint flush came  back to the pale cheek.  The doctor remembered the story of Galen,  and the

young maiden whose complaint had puzzled the physicians. 

The next day his patient was well enough to enter once more into  conversation. 

"You said something about a dream of yours which had become a  vision," said the doctor, with his fingers on

his patient's wrist, as  before.  He felt the artery leap, under his pressure, falter a  little, stop, then begin again,

growing fuller in its beat.  The  heart had felt the pull of the bridle, but the spur had roused it to  swift reaction. 

"You know the story of my past life, doctor," Maurice answered;  "and,  I will tell you what is the vision which

has taken the place of  my  dreams.  You remember the boatrace?  I watched it from a distance,  but I held a

powerful operaglass in my hand, which brought the whole  crew of the young ladies' boat so close to me that

I could see the  features, the figures, the movements, of every one of the rowers.  I  saw the little coxswain fling

her bouquet in the track of the other  boat,you remember how the race was lost and won,but I saw one

face among those young girls which drew me away from all the rest.  It  was that of the young lady who pulled

the bow oar, the captain of  the  boat's crew.  I have since learned her name, you know it well,I  need  not

name her.  Since that day I have had many distant glimpses  of her;  and once I met her so squarely that the

deadly sensation came  over me,  and I felt that in another moment I should fall senseless at  her feet.  But she

passed on her way and I on mine, and the spasm  which had  clutched my heart gradually left it, and I was as

well as  before.  You  know that young lady, doctor?" 

"I do; and she is a very noble creature.  You are not the first  young  man who has been fascinated, almost at a

glance, by Miss  Euthymia  Tower.  And she is well worth knowing more intimately." 

The doctor gave him a full account of the young lady, of her early  days, her character, her accomplishments.

To all this he listened  devoutly, and when the doctor left him he said to himself,  "I will  see her and speak

with her, if it costs me my life." 

XXII. EUTHYMIA.

"The Wonder" of the Corinna Institute had never willingly made a  show  of her gymnastic accomplishments.

Her feats, which were so much  admired, were only her natural exercise.  Gradually the dumbbells  others

used became too light for her, the ropes she climbed too  short, the clubs she exercised with seemed as if they

were made of  cork instead of being heavy wood, and all the tests and meters of  strength and agility had been

strained beyond the standards which the  records of the school had marked as their historic maxima.  It was  not

her fault that she broke a dynamometer one day; she apologized  for it, but the teacher said he wished he could

have a dozen broken  every year in the same way.  The consciousness of her bodily strength  had made her very

careful in her movements.  The pressure of her hand  was never too hard for the tenderest little maiden whose

palm was  against her own.  So far from priding herself on her special gifts,  she was disposed to be ashamed of

them.  There were times and places  in which she could give full play to her muscles without fear or  reproach.

She had her special costume for the boat and for the  woods.  She would climb the rugged old hemlocks now

and then for the  sake of a wide outlook, or to peep into the large nest where a hawk,  or it may be an eagle,

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There were those who spoke of her wanderings in lonely places as an  unsafe exposure.  One sometimes met

doubtful characters about the  neighborhood, and stories weretold of occurrences which might well  frighten

a young girl, and make her cautious of trusting herself  alone in the wild solitudes which surrounded the little

village..  Those who knew Euthymia thought her quite equal to taking care of  herself.  Her very look was

enough to ensure the respect of any  vagabond who might cross her path, and if matters came to the worst  she

would prove as dangerous as a panther. 

But it was a pity to associate this class of thoughts with a noble  specimen of true womanhood.  Health, beauty,

strength, were fine  qualities, and in all these she was rich.  She enjoyed all her  natural gifts, and thought little

about them.  Unwillingly, but over  persuaded by some of her friends, she had allowed her arm and hand to

be modelled.  The artists who saw the cast wondered if it would be  possible to get the bust of the maiden from

whom it was taken.  Nobody  would have dared to suggest such an idea to her except Lurida.  For  Lurida sex

was a trifling accident, to be disregarded not only in  the  interests of humanity, but for the sake of art. 

"It is a shame," she said to Euthymia, "that you will not let your  exquisitely moulded form be perpetuated in

marble.  You have no right  to withhold such a model from the contemplation of your fellow  creatures.  Think

how rare it is to see a woman who truly represents  the divine idea!  You belong to your race, and not to

yourself,at  least, your beauty is a gift not to be considered as a piece of  private property.  Look at the

socalled Venus of Milo.  Do you  suppose the noble woman who was the original of that divinely chaste

statue felt any scruple about allowing the sculptor to reproduce her  pure, unblemished perfections?" 

Euthymia was always patient with her imaginative friend.  She  listened to her eloquent discourse, but she

could not help blushing,  used as she was to Lurida's audacities.  "The Terror's" brain had run  away with a

large share of the blood which ought to have gone to the  nourishment of her general system.  She could not

help admiring,  almost worshipping, a companion whose being was rich in the womanly  developments with

which nature had so economically endowed herself.  An impoverished organization carries with it certain

neutral  qualities which make its subject appear, in the presence of complete  manhood and womanhood, like a

deafmute among speaking persons.  The  deep blush which crimsoned Euthymia's cheek at Lurida's

suggestion  was in a strange contrast to her own undisturbed expression.  There  was a range of sensibilities of

which Lurida knew far less than she  did of those many and difficult studies which had absorbed her vital

forces.  She was startled to see what an effect her proposal had  produced, for Euthymia was not only blushing,

but there was a flame  in her eyes which she had hardly ever seen before. 

"Is this only your own suggestion?" Euthymia said, "or has some one  been putting the idea into your head?"

The truth was that she had  happened to meet the Interviewer at the Library, one day, and she was  offended by

the long, searching stare with which that individual had  honored her.  It occurred to her that he, or some such

visitor to the  place, might have spoken of her to Lurida, or to some other person  who had repeated what was

said to Lurida, as a good subject for the  art of the sculptor, and she felt all her maiden sensibilities  offended

by the proposition.  Lurida could not understand her  excitement, but she was startled by it.  Natures which are

complementary of each other are liable to these accidental collisions  of feeling.  They get along very well

together, none the worse for  their differences, until all at once the tender spot of one or the  other is carelessly

handled in utter unconsciousness on the part of  the aggressor, and the exclamation, the outcry, or the

explosion  explains the situation altogether too emphatically.  Such scenes did  not frequently occur between

the two friends, and this little flurry  was soon over; but it served to warn Lurida that Miss Euthymia Tower

was not of that class of selfconscious beauties who would be ready  to dispute the empire of the Venus of

Milo on her own ground, in  defences as scanty and insufficient as those of the marble divinity. 

Euthymia had had admirers enough, at a distance, while at school,  and  in the long vacations, near enough to

find out that she was  anything  but easy to make love to.  She fairly frightened more than  one rash  youth who

was disposed to be too sentimental in her company.  They  overdid flattery, which she was used to and

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expression which made him aware of the fact, and was a  discouragement to aggressive amiability.  The real

difficulty was  that not one of her adorers had ever greatly interested her.  It  could not be that nature had made

her insensible.  It must have been  because the man who was made for her had never yet shown himself.  She

was not easy to please, that was certain; and she was one of  those  young women who will not accept as a

lover one who but half  pleases  them.  She could not pick up the first stick that fell in her  way and  take it to

shape her ideal out of.  Many of the good people  of the  village doubted whether Euthymia would ever be

married. 

"There 's nothing good enough for her in this village," said the  old  landlord of what had been the Anchor

Tavern. 

"She must wait till a prince comes along," the old landlady said in  reply.  "She'd make as pretty a queen as any

of them that's born to  it.  Wouldn't she be splendid with a gold crown on her head, and  di'monds a glitterin' all

over her!  D' you remember how handsome she  looked in the tableau, when the fair was held for the Dorcas

Society?  She had on an old dress of her grandma's,they don't make anything.  half so handsome

nowadays,and she was just as pretty as a pictur'.  But what's the use of good looks if they scare away folks?

The young  fellows think that such a handsome girl as that would cost ten times  as much to keep as a plain

one.  She must be dressed up like an  empress,so they seem to think.  It ain't so with Euthymy: she'd  look

like a great lady dressed anyhow, and she has n't got any more  notions than the homeliest girl that ever stood

before a glass to  look at herself." 

In the humbler walks of Arrowhead Village society, similar opinions  were entertained of Miss Euthymia.  The

freshwater fisherman  represented pretty well the average estimate of the class to which he  belonged.  'I tell

ye," said he to another gentleman of leisure,  whose chief occupation was to watch the coming and going of

the  visitors to Arrowhead Village,"I tell ye that girl ain't a gon to  put up with any o' them slabsided

fellahs that you see hangin'  raound to look at her every Sunday when she comes aout o' meetin'.  It's one o'

them big gents from Boston or New York that'll step up  an' kerry her off." 

In the mean time nothing could be further from the thoughts of  Euthymia than the prospect of an ambitious

worldly alliance.  The  ideals of young women cost them many and great disappointments, but  they save them

very often from those lifelong companionships which  accident is constantly trying to force upon them, in

spite of their  obvious unfitness.  The higher the ideal, the less likely is the  commonplace neighbor who has the

great advantage of easy access, or  the boardinghouse acquaintance who can profit by those vacant hours

when the least interesting of visitors is better than absolute  loneliness,the less likely are these undesirable

personages to be  endured, pitied, and, if not embraced, accepted, for want of  something better.  Euthymia

found so much pleasure in the  intellectual companionship of Lurida, and felt her own prudence and  reserve so

necessary to that independent young lady, that she had  been contented, so far, with friendship, and thought of

love only in  an abstract sort of way.  Beneath her abstractions there was a  capacity of loving which might

have been inferred from the expression  of her features, the light that shone in her eyes, the tones of her  voice,

all of which were full of the language which belongs to  susceptible natures.  How many women never say to

themselves that  they were born to love, until all at once the discovery opens upon  them, as the sense that he

was born a painter is said to have dawned  suddenly upon Correggio! 

Like all the rest of the village and its visitors, she could not  help  thinking a good deal about the young man

lying ill amongst  strangers.  She was not one of those who had sent him the  threecornered notes or  even a

bunch of flowers.  She knew that he was  receiving abounding  tokens of kindness and sympathy from different

quarters, and a  certain inward feeling restrained her from joining in  these  demonstrations.  If he had been

suffering from some deadly and  contagious malady she would have risked her life to help him, without  a

thought that there was any wonderful heroism in such selfdevotion.  Her friend Lurida might have been

capable of the same sacrifice, but  it would be after reasoning with herself as to the obligations which  her

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recorded of women in  ancient and modern history.  With Euthymia the primary human  instincts took

precedence of all reasoning or reflection about them.  All her sympathies were excited by the thought of this

forlorn  stranger in his solitude, but she felt the impossibility of giving  any complete expression to them.  She

thought of Mungo Park in the  African desert, and she envied the poor negress who not only pitied  him, but

had the blessed opportunity of helping and consoling him.  How near were these two human creatures, each

needing the other!  How  near in bodily presence, how far apart in their lives, with a barrier  seemingly

impassable between them ! 

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These autumnal fevers, which carry off a large number of our young  people every year, are treacherous and

deceptive diseases.  Not only  are they liable, as has been mentioned, to various accidental  complications

which may prove suddenly fatal, but too often, after  convalescence seems to be established, relapses occur

which are more  serious than the disease had appeared to be in its previous course.  One morning Dr. Butts

found Maurice worse instead of better, as he  had hoped and expected to find him.  Weak as he was, there was

every  reason to fear the issue of this return of his threatening symptoms.  There was not much to do besides

keeping up the little strength which  still remained.  It was all needed. 

Does the reader of these pages ever think of the work a sick man as  much as a well one has to perform while

he is lying on his back and  taking what we call his "rest"?  More than a thousand times an hour,  between a

hundred and fifty and two hundred thousand times a week, he  has to lift the bars of the cage in which his

breathing organs are  confined, to save himself from asphyxia.  Rest!  There is no rest  until the last long sigh

tells those who look upon the dying that the  ceaseless daily task, to rest from which is death, is at last

finished.  We are all galleyslaves, pulling at the levers of  respiration,which, rising and falling like so

many oars, drive us  across an unfathomable ocean from one unknown shore to another.  No!  Never was a

galleyslave so chained as we are to these four and  twenty oars, at which we must tug day and night all our

life long 

The doctor could not find any accidental cause to account for this  relapse.  It presently occurred to him that

there might be some local  source of infection which had brought on the complaint, and was still  keeping up

the symptoms which were the ground of alarm.  He  determined to remove Maurice to his own house, where

he could be sure  of pure air, and where he himself could give more constant attention  to his patient during

this critical period of his disease.  It was a  risk to take, but he could be carried on a litter by careful men, and

remain wholly passive during the removal.  Maurice signified his  assent, as he could hardly help doing,for

the doctor's suggestion  took pretty nearly the form of a command.  He thought it a matter of  life and death,

and was gently urgent for his patient's immediate  change of residence.  The doctor insisted on having

Maurice's books  and other movable articles carried to his own house, so that he  should be surrounded by

familiar sights, and not worry himself about  what might happen to objects which he valued, if they were left

behind him. 

All these dispositions were quickly and quietly made, and  everything  was ready for the transfer of the patient

to the house of  the  hospitable physician.  Paolo was at the doctor's, superintending  the  arrangement of

Maurice's effects and making all ready for his  master.  The nurse in attendance, a trustworthy man enough in

the main,  finding his patient in a tranquil sleep, left his bedside for a  little fresh air.  While he was at the door

he heard a shouting which  excited his curiosity, and he followed the sound until he found  himself at the

border of the lake.  It was nothing very wonderful  which had caused the shouting.  A Newfoundland dog had

been showing  off his accomplishments, and some of the idlers were betting as to  the time it would take him

to bring back to his master the various  floating objects which had been thrown as far from the shore as

possible.  He watched the dog a few minutes, when his attention was  drawn to a light wherry, pulled by one

young lady and steered by  another.  It was making for the shore, which it would soon reach.  The  attendant


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remembered all at once, that he had left his charge,  and  just before the boat came to land he turned and

hurried back to  the  patient.  Exactly how long he had been absent he could not have  said,perhaps a quarter

of an hour, perhaps longer; the time  appeared short to him, wearied with long sitting and watching. 

It had seemed, when he stole away from Maurice's bedside, that he  was  not in the least needed.  The patient

was lying perfectly quiet,  and  to all appearance wanted nothing more than letting alone.  It was  such a comfort

to look at something besides the worn features of a  sick man, to hear something besides his labored breathing

and faint,  halfwhispered words, that the temptation to indulge in these  luxuries for a few minutes had

proved irresistible. 

Unfortunately, Maurice's slumbers did not remain tranquil during  the  absence of the nurse.  He very soon fell

into a dream, which began  quietly enough, but in the course of the sudden transitions which  dreams are in the

habit of undergoing became successively anxious,  distressing, terrifying.  His earlier and later experiences

came up  before him, fragmentary, incoherent, chaotic even, but vivid as  reality.  He was at the bottom of a

coalmine in one of those long,  narrow galleries, or rather wormholes, in which human beings pass a  large

part of their lives, like so many larvae boring their way into  the beams and rafters of some old building.  How

close the air was in  the stifling passage through which he was crawling!  The scene  changed, and he was

climbing a slippery sheet of ice with desperate  effort, his foot on the floor of a shallow niche, his hold an

icicle  ready to snap in an instant, an abyss below him waiting for his foot  to slip or the icicle to break.  How

thin the air seemed, how  desperately hard to breathe!  He was thinking of Mont Blanc, it may  be, and the

fearfully rarefied atmosphere which he remembered well as  one of the great trials in his mountain ascents.

No, it was not Mont  Blanc,it was not any one of the frozen Alpine summits; it was Hecla  that he was

climbing 

The smoke of the burning mountain was wrapping itself around him;  he  was choking with its dense fumes; he

heard the flames roaring  around  him, he felt the hot lava beneath his feet, he uttered a faint  cry,  and awoke. 

The room was full of smoke.  He was gasping for breath, strangling  in  the smothering oven which his

chamber had become. 

The house was on fire! 

He tried to call for help, but his voice failed him, and died away  in  a whisper.  He made a desperate effort, and

rose so as to sit up in  the bed for an instant, but the effort was too much for him, and he  sank back upon his

pillow, helpless.  He felt that his hour had come,  for he could not live in this dreadful atmosphere, and he was

left  alone.  He could hear the crackle of fire as the flame crept along  from one partition to another.  It was a

cruel fate to be left to  perish in that way,the fate that many a martyr had had to face,to  be first strangled

and then burned.  Death had not the terror for him  that it has for most young persons.  He was accustomed to

thinking of  it calmly, sometimes wistfully, even to such a degree that the  thought of selfdestruction had

come upon him as a temptation.  But  here was death in an unexpected and appalling shape.  He did not know

before how much he cared to live.  All his old recollections came  before him as it were in one long, vivid

flash.  The closed vista of  memory opened to its far horizonline, and past and present were  pictured in a

single instant of clear vision.  The dread moment which  had blighted his life returned in all its terror.  He felt

the  convulsive spring in the form of a faint, impotent spasm,the rush  of air,the thorns of the stinging and

lacerating cradle into which  he was precipitated.  One after another those paralyzing seizures  which had been

like deadening blows on the naked heart seemed to  repeat themselves, as real as at the moment of their

occurrence.  The  pictures passed in succession with such rapidity that they appeared  almost as if simultaneous.

The vision of the "inward eye " was so  intensified in this moment of peril that an instant was like an hour  of

common existence.  Those who have been very near drowning know  well what this description means.  The

development of a photograph  may not explain it, but it illustrates the curious and familiar fact  of the revived

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remembers it all, 

Every little circumstance is there,the hoof in air, the wing in  flight, the leaf as it falls, the wave as it breaks.

All there, but  invisible; potentially present, but impalpable, inappreciable, as if  not existing at all.  A wash is

poured over it, and the whole scene  comes out in all its perfection of detail.  In those supreme moments  when

death stares a man suddenly in the face the rush of unwonted  emotion floods the undeveloped pictures of

vanished years, stored  away in the memory, the vast panorama of a lifetime, and in one swift  instant the past

comes out as vividly as if it were again the  present.  So it was at this moment with the sick man, as he lay

helpless and felt that he was left to die.  For he saw no hope of  relief: the smoke was drifting in clouds into the

room; the flames  were very near; if he was not reached and rescued immediately it was  all over with him. 

His past life had flashed before him.  Then all at once rose the  thought of his future,of all its possibilities,

of the vague hopes  which he had cherished of late that his mysterious doom would be  lifted from him.  There

was something, then, to be lived for,  something!  There was a new life, it might be, in store for him, and  such

a new life!  He thought of all he was losing.  Oh, could he but  have lived to know the meaning of love!  And

the passionate desire of  life came over him,not the dread of death, but the longing for what  the future

might yet have of happiness for him. 

All this took place in the course of a very few moments.  Dreams  and  visions have little to do with measured

time, and ten minutes,  possibly fifteen or twenty, were all that had passed since the  beginning of those

nightmare terrors which were evidently suggested  by the suffocating air he was breathing. 

What had happened?  In the confusion of moving books and other  articles to the doctor's house, doors and

windows had been forgotten.  Among the rest a window opening into the cellar, where some old  furniture had

been left by a former occupant, had been left unclosed.  One of the lazy natives, who had lounged by the

house smoking a bad  cigar, had thrown the burning stump in at this open window.  He had  no particular

intention of doing mischief, but he had that  indifference to consequences which is the next step above the

inclination to crime.  The burning stump happened to fall among the  straw of an old mattress which had been

ripped open.  The smoker went  his way without looking behind him, and it so chanced that no other  person

passed the house for some time.  Presently the straw was in a  blaze, and from this the fire extended to the

furniture, to the  stairway leading up from the cellar, and was working its way along  the entry under the stairs

leading up to the apartment where Maurice  was lying. 

The blaze was fierce and swift, as it could not help being with  such  a mass of combustibles,loose straw

from the mattress, dry old  furniture, and old warped floors which had been parching and  shrinking for a score

or two of years.  The whole house was, in the  common language of the newspaper reports, "a perfect

tinderbox," and  would probably be a heap of ashes in half an hour.  And there was  this unfortunate deserted

sick man lying between life and death,  beyond all help unless some unexpected assistance should come to his

rescue. 

As the attendant drew near the house where Maurice was lying, he  was  horrorstruck to see dense volumes of

smoke pouring out of the  lower  windows.  It was beginning to make its way through the upper  windows,  also,

and presently a tongue of fire shot out and streamed  upward  along the side of the house.  The man shrieked

Fire!  Fire!  with all  his might, and rushed to the door of the building to make  his way to  Maurice's room and

save him.  He penetrated but a short  distance  when, blinded and choking with the smoke, he rushed headlong

down the  stairs with a cry of despair that roused every man, woman,  and child  within reach of a human voice.

Out they came from their  houses in  every quarter of the village.  The shout of Fire!  Fire!  was the  chief aid lent

by many of the young and old.  Some caught up  pails  and buckets: the more thoughtful ones filling them; the

hastier  snatching them up empty, trusting to find water nearer the burning  building. 

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This was the awful question first asked,for in the little village  all knew that Maurice was about being

transferred to the doctor's  house.  The attendant, white as death, pointed to the chamber where  he had left him,

and gasped out, 

"He is there!" 

A ladder!  A ladder!  was the general cry, and men and boys rushed  off in search of one.  But a single minute

was an age now, and there  was no ladder to be had without a delay of many minutes.  The sick  man was going

to be swallowed up in the flames before it could  possibly arrive.  Some were going for a blanket or a coverlet,

in the  hope that the young man might have strength enough to leap from the  window and be safely caught in

it.  The attendant shook his head, and  said faintly, 

"He cannot move from his bed." 

One of the visitors at the village,a millionaire, it was said,a  kindhearted man, spoke in hoarse, broken

tones: 

"A thousand dollars to the man that will bring him from his  chamber!" 

The freshwater fisherman muttered, "I should like to save the man  and to see the money, but it ain't a

thaousan' dollars, nor ten  thaousan' dollars, that'll pay a fellah for burnin' to death,or  even chokin' to death,

anyhaow." 

The carpenter, who knew the framework of every house in the  village,  recent or old, shook his head. 

"The stairs have been shored up," he said, "and when the fists that  holds 'em up goes, down they'll come.  It

ain't safe for no man to go  over them stairs.  Hurry along your ladder,that's your only  chance." 

All was wild confusion around the burning house.  The ladder they  had  gone for was missing from its

case,a neighbor had carried it off  for the workmen who were shingling his roof.  It would never get  there in

time.  There was a fireengine, but it was nearly half a  mile from the lakeside settlement.  Some were

throwing on water in an  aimless, useless way; one was sending a thin stream through a garden  syringe: it

seemed like doing something, at least.  But all hope of  saving Maurice was fast giving way, so rapid was the

progress of the  flames, so thick the cloud of smoke that filled the house and poured  from the windows.

Nothing was heard but confused cries, shrieks of  women, all sorts of orders to do this and that, no one

knowing what  was to be done.  The ladder!  The ladder! Five minutes more and it  will be too late! 

In the mean time the alarm of fire had reached Paolo, and he had  stopped his work of arranging Maurice's

books in the same way as that  in which they had stood in his apartment, and followed in the  direction of the

sound, little thinking that his master was lying  helpless in the burning house.  "Some chimney afire," he said

to  himself; but he would go and take a look, at any rate. 

Before Paolo had reached the scene of destruction and impending  death, two young women, in boating

dresses of decidedly Bloomerish  aspect, had suddenly joined the throng.  "The Wonder" and "The  Terror" of

their schooldaysMiss Euthymia rower and Miss Lurida  Vincent had just come from the shore, where they

had left their  wherry.  A few hurried words told them the fearful story.  Maurice  Kirkwood was lying in the

chamber to which every eye was turned,  unable to move, doomed to a dreadful death.  All that could be hoped

was that he would perish by suffocation rather than by the flames,  which would soon be upon him.  The man

who had attended him had just  tried to reach his chamber, but had reeled back out of the door,  almost

strangled by the smoke.  A thousand dollars had been offered  to any one who would rescue the sick man, but

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smother the man who passed them before they  fell. 

The two young women looked each other in the face for one swift  moment. 

"How can he be reached? " asked Lurida.  "Is there nobody that will  venture his life to save a brother like

that?" 

"I will venture mine," said Euthymia. 

"No!  no!" shrieked Lurida,"not you! not you !  It is a man's  work,  not yours!  You shall not go!  Poor Lurida

had forgotten all her  theories in this supreme moment.  But Euthymia was not to be held  back.  Taking a

handkerchief from her neck, she dipped it in a pail  of water and bound it about her head.  Then she took

several deep  breaths of air, and filled her lungs as full as they would hold.  She  knew she must not take a

single breath in the choking atmosphere if  she could possibly help it, and Euthymia was noted for her power

of  staying under water so long that more than once those who saw her  dive thought she would never come up

again.  So rapid were her  movements that they paralyzed the bystanders, who would forcibly have  prevented

her from carrying out her purpose.  Her imperious  determination was not to be resisted.  And so Euthymia, a

willing  martyr, if martyr she was to be, and not saviour, passed within the  veil that hid the sufferer. 

Lurida turned deadly pale, and sank fainting to the ground.  She  was  the first, but not the only one, of her sex

that fainted as  Euthymia  disappeared in the smoke of the burning building.  Even the  rector  grew very white in

the face,so white that one of his  vestrymen  begged him to sit down at once, and sprinkled a few drops  of

water on  his forehead, to his great disgust and manifest advantage.  The old  landlady was crying and moaning,

and her husband was wiping  his eyes  and shaking his head sadly. 

"She will nevar come out alive," he said solemnly. 

"Nor dead, neither," added the carpenter.  "Ther' won't be nothing  left of neither of 'em but ashes."  And the

carpenter hid his face in  his hands. 

The freshwater fisherman had pulled out a rag which he called a  "hangkercher,"it had served to carry bait

that morning,and was  making use of its best corner to dry the tears which were running  down his cheeks.

The whole village was proud of Euthymia, and with  these more quiet signs of grief were mingled loud

lamentations,  coming alike from old and young. 

All this was not so much like a succession of events as it was like  a  tableau.  The lookerson were stunned

with its suddenness, and  before  they had time to recover their bewildered senses all was lost,  or  seemed lost.

They felt that they should never look again on either  of those young faces. 

The rector, not unfeeling by nature, but inveterately professional  by  habit, had already recovered enough to

be thinking of a text for  the  funeral sermon.  The first that occurred to him was  this,vaguely,  of course, in

the background of consciousness: 

"Then Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego came forth of the midst of  the  fire." 

The village undertaker was of naturally sober aspect and reflective  disposition.  He had always been opposed

to cremation, and here was a  funeral pile blazing before his eyes.  He, too, had his human  sympathies, but in

the distance his imagination pictured the final  ceremony, and how he himself should figure in a spectacle

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Blame him not, you whose gardenpatch is not watered with the tears  of mourners.  The string of selfinterest

answers with its chord to  every sound; it vibrates with the funeralbell, it finds itself  trembling to the wail of

the De Profundis.  Not always,not always;  let us not be cynical in our judgments, but common human

nature, we  may safely say, is subject to those secondary vibrations under the  most solemn and soulsubduing

influences. 

It seems as if we were doing great wrong to the scene we are  contemplating in delaying it by the description

of little  circumstances and individual thoughts and feelings.  But linger as we  may, we cannot compress into a

chapterwe could not crowd into a  volumeall that passed through the minds and stirred the emotions of

the awestruck company which was gathered about the scene of danger  and of terror.  We are dealing with an

impossibility: consciousness  is a surface; narrative is a line. 

Maurice had given himself up for lost.  His breathing was becoming  every moment more difficult, and he felt

that his strength could hold  out but a few minutes longer. 

"Robert!" he called in faint accents.  But the attendant was not  there to answer. 

"Paolo!  Paolo!" But the faithful servant, who would have given his  life for his master, had not yet reached the

place where the crowd  was gathered. 

"Oh, for a breath of air!  Oh, for an arm to lift me from this bed!  Too late!  Too late!" he gasped, with what

might have seemed his  dying expiration. 

"Not too late!" The soft voice reached his obscured consciousness  as  if it had come down to him from

heaven. 

In a single instant he found himself rolled in a blanket and in the  arms ofa woman! 

Out of the stifling chamber,over the burning stairs,close by  the  tongues of fire that were lapping up all

they could reach,out  into  the open air, he was borne swiftly and safely,carried as easily  as  if he had been

a babe, in the strong arms of "The Wonder" of the  gymnasium, the captain of the Atalanta, who had little

dreamed of the  use she was to make of her natural gifts and her schoolgirl  accomplishments. 

Such a cry as arose from the crowd of onlookers!  It was a sound  that none of them had ever heard before or

could expect ever to hear  again, unless he should be one of the last boatload rescued from a  sinking vessel.

Then, those who had resisted the overflow of their  emotion, who had stood in white despair as they thought

of these two  young lives soon to be wrapped in their burning shroud,those stern  menthe old

seacaptain, the hardfaced, moneymaking, castiron  tradesmen of the city countingroomsobbed like

hysteric women; it  was like a convulsion that overcame natures unused to those deeper  emotions which many

who are capable of experiencing die without ever  knowing. 

This was the scene upon which the doctor and Paolo suddenly  appeared  at the same moment. 

As the fresh breeze passed over the face of the rescued patient,  his  eyes opened wide, and his consciousness

returned in almost  supernatural lucidity.  Euthymia had sat down upon a bank, and was  still supporting him.

His head was resting on her bosom.  Through  his awakening senses stole the murmurs of the living cradle

which  rocked him with the wavelike movements of respiration, the soft  susurrus of the air that entered with

every breath, the double beat  of the heart which throbbed close to his ear.  And every sense, and  every

instinct, and every reviving pulse told him in language like a  revelation from another world that a woman's

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She would have disengaged him from her protecting hold, but the  doctor made her a peremptory sign, which

he followed by a sharp  command: 

"Do not move him a hair's breadth," he said.  "Wait until the  litter  comes.  Any sudden movement might be

dangerous.  Has anybody a  brandy  flask about him?" 

One or two members of the local temperance society looked rather  awkward, but did not come forward. 

The freshwater fisherman was the first who spoke. 

"I han't got no brandy," he said, "but there's a drop or two of old  Medford rum in this here that you're

welcome to, if it'll be of any  help.  I alliz kerry a little on 't in case o' gettin' wet 'n'  chilled." 

So saying he held forth a flat bottle with the word ,Sarsaparilla  stamped on the green glass, but which

contained half a pint or more  of the specific on which he relied in those very frequent exposures  which

happen to persons of his calling. 

The doctor motioned back Paolo, who would have rushed at once to  the  aid of Maurice, and who was not

wanted at that moment.  So poor  Paolo, in an agony of fear for his master, was kept as quiet as  possible, and

had to content himself with asking all sorts of  questions and repeating all the prayers he could think of to Our

Lady  and to his holy namesake the Apostle. 

The doctor wiped the mouth of the fisherman's bottle very  carefully.  "Take a few drops of this cordial," he

said, as he held it  to his  patient's lips.  "Hold him just so, Euthymia, without stirring.  I  will watch him, and say

when he is ready to be moved.  The litter  is  near by, waiting."  Dr. Butts watched Maurice's pulse and color.

The  "old Medford " knew its business.  It had knocked over its tens  of  thousands; it had its redeeming virtue,

and helped to set up a poor  fellow now and then.  It did this for Maurice very effectively.  When  he seemed

somewhat restored, the doctor had the litter brought to his  side, and Euthymia softly resigned her helpless

burden, which Paolo  and the attendant Robert lifted with the aid of the doctor, who  walked by the patient as

he was borne to the home where Mrs. Butts  had made all ready for his reception. 

As for poor Lurida, who had thought herself equal to the sanguinary  duties of the surgeon, she was left lying

on the grass with an old  woman over her, working hard with fan and smellingsalts to bring her  back from

her long fainting fit. 

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Why should not human nature be the same in Arrowhead Village as  elsewhere?  It could not seem strange to

the good people of that  place and their visitors that these two young persons, brought  together under

circumstances that stirred up the deepest emotions of  which the human soul is capable, should become

attached to each  other.  But the bond between them was stronger than any knew, except  the good doctor, who

had learned the great secret of Maurice's life.  For the first time since his infancy he had fully felt the charm

which the immediate presence of youthful womanhood carries with it.  He could hardly believe the fact when

he found himself no longer the  subject of the terrifying seizures of which he had had many and  threatening

experiences. 

It was the doctor's business to save his patient's life, if he  could  possibly do it.  Maurice had been reduced to

the most perilous  state  of debility by the relapse which had interrupted his  convalescence.  Only by what

seemed almost a miracle had he survived  the exposure to  suffocation and the mental anguish through which

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owed his life, and, as the doctor felt  assured, the  revolution in his nervous system which would be the

beginning of a  new existence, it would be of far more value as a  restorative agency  than any or all of the

drugs in the pharmacopoeia.  He told this to  Euthymia, and explained the matter to her parents and  friends.

She  must go with him on some of his visits.  Her mother  should go with  her, or her sister; but this was a case

of life and  death, and no  maidenly scruples must keep her from doing her duty. 

The first of her visits to the sick, perhaps dying, man presented a  scene not unlike the picture before spoken

of on the titlepage of  the old edition of Galen.  The doctor was perhaps the most agitated  of the little group.

He went before the others, took his seat by the  bedside, and held the patient's wrist with his finger on the

pulse.  As Euthymia entered it gave a single bound, fluttered for an instant  as if with a faint memory of its old

habit, then throbbed full and  strong, comparatively, as if under the spur of some powerful  stimulus.

Euthymia's task was a delicate one, but she knew how to  disguise its difficulty. 

"Here is a flower I have brought you, Mr. Kirkwood," she said, and  handed him a white chrysanthemum.  He

took it from her hand, and  before she knew it he took her hand into his own, and held it with a  gentle

constraint.  What could she do?  Here was the young man whose  life she had saved, at least for the moment,

and who was yet in  danger from the disease which had almost worn out his powers of  resistance. 

"Sit down by Mr. Kirkwood's side," said the doctor.  "He wants to  thank you, if he has strength to do it, for

saving him from the death  which seemed inevitable." 

Not many words could Maurice command.  He was weak enough for  womanly  tears, but their fountains no

longer flowed; it was with him  as with  the dying, whose eyes may light up, but rarely shed a tear. 

The river which has found a new channel widens and deepensit; it  lets the old watercourse fill up, and

never returns to its forsaken  bed.  The tyrannous habit was broken.  The prophecy of the gitana had  verified

itself, and the ill a fair woman had wrought a fairer woman  bad conquered and abolished. 

The history of Maurice Kirkwood loses its exceptional character  from  the time of his restoration to his natural

conditions.  His  convalescence was very slow and gradual, but no further accident  interrupted its even

progress.  The season was over, the summer  visitors had left Arrowhead Village; the chrysanthemums were

going  out of flower, the frosts had come, and Maurice was still beneath the  roof of the kind physician.  The

relation between him and his  preserver was so entirely apart from all common acquaintances and  friendships

that no ordinary rules could apply to it.  Euthymia  visited him often during the period of his extreme

prostration. 

"You must come every day," the doctor said.  "He gains with every  visit you make him; he pines if you miss

him for a single day."  So  she came and sat by him, the doctor or good Mrs. Butts keeping her  company in his

presence.  He grew stronger,began to sit up in bed;  and at last Euthymia found him dressed as in health, and

beginning to  walk about the room.  She was startled.  She had thought of herself  as a kind of nurse, but the

young gentleman could hardly be said to  need a nurse any longer.  She had scruples about making any further

visits.  She asked Lurida what she thought about it. 

"Think about it?" said Lurida.  " Why should n't you go to see a  brother as well as a sister, I should like to

know?  If you are  afraid to go to see Maurice Kirkwood, I am not afraid, at any rate.  If you would rather have

me go than go yourself, I will do it, and  let people talk just as much as they want to.  Shall I go instead of

you?" 

Euthymia was not quite sure that this would be the best thing for  the  patient.  The doctor had told her he

thought there were special  reasons for her own course in coming daily to see him.  "I am  afraid," she said, "

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sort of person like myself is better for him just now.  I will  continue visiting him as long as the doctor says it

is important that  I should; but you must defend me, Lurida,I know you can explain it  all so that people will

not blame me." 

Euthymia knew full well what the effect of Lurida's penetrating  head  voice would be in a convalescent's

chamber.  She knew how that  active  mind of hers would set the young man's thoughts at work, when  what he

wanted was rest of every faculty.  Were not these good and  sufficient  reasons for her decision?  What others

could there be? 

So Euthymia kept on with her visits, until she blushed to see that  she was continuing her charitable office for

one who was beginning to  look too well to be called an invalid.  It was a dangerous condition  of affairs, and

the busy tongues of the village gossips were free in  their comments.  Free, but kindly, for the story of the

rescue had  melted every heart; and what could be more natural than that these  two young people whom God

had brought together in the dread moment of  peril should find it hard to tear themselves asunder after the

hour  of danger was past?  When gratitude is a bankrupt, love only can pay  his debts; and if Maurice gave his

heart to Euthymia, would not she  receive it as payment in full? 

The change which had taken place in the vital currents of Maurice  Kirkwood's system was as simple and

solid a fact as the change in a  magnetic needle when the boreal becomes the austral pole, and the  austral the

boreal.  It was well, perhaps, that this change took  place while he was enfeebled by the wasting effects of long

illness.  For all the longdefeated, disturbed, perverted instincts had found  their natural channel from the

centre of consciousness to the organ  which throbs in response to every profound emotion.  As his health

gradually returned, Euthymia could not help perceiving a flush in his  cheek, a glitter in his eyes, a something

in the tone of his voice,  which altogether were a warning to the young maiden that the highway  of friendly

intercourse was fast narrowing to a lane, at the head of  which her woman's eye could read plainly enough,

"Dangerous passing." 

"You look so much better today, Mr. Kirkwood," she said, "that I  think I had better not play Sister of

Charity any longer.  The next  time we meet I hope you will be strong enough to call on me." 

She was frightened to see how pale he turned,he was weaker than  she  thought.  There was a silence so

profound and so long that Mrs.  Butts  looked up from the stocking she was knitting.  They had  forgotten the

good woman's presence. 

Presently Maurice spoke,very faintly, but Mrs. Butts dropped a  stitch at the first word, and her knitting fell

into her lap as she  listened to what followed. 

"No! you must not leave me.  You must never leave me.  You saved my  life.  But you have done more than

that,more than you know or can  ever know.  To you I owe it that I am living; with you I live  henceforth, if I

am to live at all.  All I am, all I hope,will you  take this poor offering from one who owes you everything,

whose lips  never touched those of woman or breathed a word of love before you? 

What could Euthymia reply to this question, uttered with all the  depth of a passion which had never before

found expression. 

Not one syllable of answer did listening Mrs. Butts overhear.  But  she told her husband afterwards that there

was nothing in the  tableaux they had had in September to compare with what she then saw.  It was indeed a

pleasing picture which those two young heads  presented as Euthymia gave her inarticulate but infinitely

expressive  answer to the question of Maurice Kirkwood.  The goodhearted woman  thought it time to leave

the young people.  Down went the stocking  with the needles in it; out of her lap tumbled the ball of worsted,

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hearth to hearth,  leaving all along her track the story of the new engagement or of the  arrival of the last "little

stranger." 

Not many suns had set before it was told all through Arrowhead  Village that Maurice Kirkwood was the

accepted lover of Euthymia  Tower. 

POSTSCRIPT: AFTERGLIMPSES. 

MISS LURIDA VINCENT TO MRS. EUTHYMIA KIRKWOOD.  ARROWHEAD VILLAGE,  May 18. 

MY DEAREST EUTHYMIA,Who would have thought, when you broke your  oar  as the Atalanta flashed

by the Algonquin, last June, that before  the  roses came again you would find yourself the wife of a fine

scholar  and grand gentleman, and the head of a household such as that  of  which you are the mistress?  You

must not forget your old Arrowhead  Village friends.  What am I saying?you forget them!  No, dearest,  I

know your heart too well for that!  You are not one of those who  lay aside their old friendships as they do last

years bonnet when  they get a new one.  You have told me all about yourself and your  happiness, and now you

want me to tell you about myself and what is  going on in our little place. 

And first about myself.  I have given up the idea of becoming a  doctor.  I have studied mathematics so much

that I have grown fond of  certainties, of demonstrations, and medicine deals chiefly in  probabilities.  The

practice of the art is so mixed up with the  deepest human interests that it is hard to pursue it with that even

poise of the intellect which is demanded by science.  I want  knowledge pure and simple,I do not fancy

having it mixed.  Neither  do I like the thought of passing my life in going from one scene of  suffering to

another; I am not saintly enough for such a daily  martyrdom, nor callous enough to make it an easy

occupation.  I  fainted at the first operation I saw, and I have never wanted to see  another.  I don't say that I

wouldn't marry a physician, if the right  one asked me, but the young doctor is not forthcoming at present.

Yes, I think I might make a pretty good doctor's wife.  I could teach  him a good deal about headaches and

backaches and all sorts of  nervous revolutions, as the doctor says the French women call their  tantrums.  I

don't know but I should be willing to let him try his  new medicines on me.  If he were a homeopath, I know I

should; for if  a billionth of a grain of sugar won't begin to sweeten my tea or  coffee, I don't feel afraid that a

billionth of a grain of anything  would poison me,no, not if it were snakevenom; and if it were not

disgusting, I would swallow a handful of his lachesis globules, to  please my husband.  But if I ever become a

doctor's wife, my husband  will not be one of that kind of practitioners, you may be sure of  that, nor an

"eclectic," nor a "faithcure man."  On the whole, I  don't think I want to be married at all.  I don't like the male

animal very well (except such noble specimens as your husband).  They  are all tyrants,almost all,so far

as our sex is concerned, and I  often think we could get on better without them. 

However, the creatures are useful in the Society.  They send us  papers, some of them well worth reading.  You

have told me so often  that you would like to know how the Society is getting on, and to  read some of the

papers sent to it if they happened to be  interesting, that I have laid aside one or two manuscripts expressly  for

your perusal.  You will get them by and by. 

I am delighted to know that you keep Paolo with you.  Arrowhead  Village misses him dreadfully, I can tell

you.  That is the reason  people become so attached to these servants with Southern sunlight in  their natures?  I

suppose life is not long enough to cool their blood  down to our Northern standard.  Then they are so

childlike, whereas  the native of these latitudes is never young after he is ten or  twelve years old.  Mother

says,you know mother's oldfashioned  notions, and how shrewd and sensible she is in spite of

them,mother  says that when she was a girl families used to import young men and  young women from the

country towns, who called themselves "helps,"  not servants,no, that was Scriptural; " but they did n't know

everything down in Judee," and it is not good American language.  She  says that these people would live in

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or were old and worn out, and then, what with the money  they had saved and the care and assistance they got

from their former  employers, would pass a decent and comfortable old age, and be buried  in the family lot.

Mother has made up her mind to the change, but  grandmother is bitter about it.  She says there never was a

country  yet where the population was made up of "ladies" and "gentlemen," and  she does n't believe there can

be; nor that putting a spread eagle on  a copper makes a gold dollar of it.  She is a pessimist after her own

fashion.  She thinks all sentiment is dying out of our people.  No  loyalty for the sovereign, the kingpost of the

political edifice,  she says; no deep attachment between employer and employed; no  reverence of the humbler

members of a household for its heads; and to  make sure of continued corruption and misery, what she calls

"universal suffrage" emptying all the sewers into the great aqueduct  we all must drink from.  "Universal

suffrage!"  I suppose we women  don't belong to the universe!  Wait until we get a chance at the  ballotbox, I

tell grandma, and see if we don't wash out the sewers  before they reach the aqueduct!  But my pen has run

away with men I  was thinking of Paolo, and what a pleasant thing it is to have one of  those childlike,

warmhearted, attachable, cheerful, contented,  humble, faithful, companionable, but never presuming

grownup children  of the South waiting on one, as if everything he could do for one was  a pleasure, and

carrying a look of content in his face which makes  every one who meets him happier for a glimpse of his

features. 

It does seem a shame that the charming relation of master and  servant, intelligent authority and cheerful

obedience, mutual  interest in each other's welfare, thankful recognition of all the  advantages which belong to

domestic service in the better class of  families, should be almost wholly confined to aliens and their

immediate descendants.  Why should Hannah think herself so much  better than Bridget?  When they meet at

the polls together, as they  will before long, they will begin to feel more of an equality than is  recognized at

present.  The native female turns her nose up at the  idea of "living out;" does she think herself so much

superior to the  women of other nationalities?  Our women will have to come to it,so  grandmother says,in

another generation or two, and in a hundred  years, according to her prophecy, there will be a new set of old

"Miss Pollys" and " Miss Betseys" who have lived half a century in  the same families, respectful and

respected, cherished, cared for in  time of need (citizens as well as servants, holding a ballot as well  as a

broom, I tell her), and bringing back to us the lowly, underfoot  virtues of contentment and humility, which

we do so need to carpet  the barren and hungry thoroughfare of our unstratified existence. 

There, I have got agoing, and am forgetting all the news I have to  tell you.  There is an engagement you will

want to know all about.  It  came to pass through our famous boatrace, which you and I  remember,  and shall

never forget as long as we live.  It seems that  the young  fellow who pulled the bow oar of that men's college

boat  which we had  the pleasure of beating got some glimpses of Georgina,  our handsome  stroke oar.  I believe

he took it into his head that it  was she who  threw the bouquet that won the race for us.  He was, as  you know,

greatly mistaken, and ought to have made love to me, only  he did n't.  Well, it seems he came posting down to

the Institute  just before the  vacation was over, and there got a sight of Georgina.  I wonder whether  she told

him she didn't fling the bouquet!  Anyhow,  the acquaintance  began in that way, and now it seems that this

young  fellow,  goodlooking and a bright scholar, but with a good many  months more to  pass in college, is

her captive.  It was too bad.  Just think of my  bouquet's going to another girl's credit!  No  matter, the old

Atalanta  story was paid off, at any rate. 

You want to know all about dear Dr. Butts.  They say he has just  been  offered a Professorship in one of the

great medical colleges.  I  asked him about it, and he did not say that he had or had not.  "But,"  said be,

"suppose that I had been offered such a place; do you  think I  ought to accept it and leave Arrowhead Village?

Let us talk  it over,"  said he, "just as if I had had such an offer."  I told him  he ought to  stay.  There are plenty

of men that can get into a  Professor's chair,  I said, and talk like Solomons to a class of  wondering pupils: but

once get a really good doctor in a place, a man  who knows all about  everybody, whether they have this or that

tendency, whether when they  are sick they have a way of dying or a  way of getting well, what  medicines

agree with them and what drugs  they cannot take, whether  they are of the sort that think nothing is  the matter

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stomachache from  eating too many  cucumbers,who knows all about all the people within  half a dozen

miles (all the sensible ones, that is, who employ a  regular  practitioner),such a man as that, I say, is not to

be  replaced like  a missing piece out of a Springfield musket or a  Waltham watch.  Don't  go!  said I.  Stay here

and save our precious  lives, if you can, or at  least put us through in the proper way, so  that we needn't be

ashamed  of ourselves for dying, if we must die.  Well, Dr. Butts is not going  to leave us.  I hope you will have

no  unwelcome occasion for his  services,you are never ill, you know,  but, anyhow, he is going to  be

here, and no matter what happens he  will be on hand. 

The village news is not of a very exciting character.  Item 1.  A  new  house is put up over the ashes of the one

in which your husband  lived  while he was here.  It was planned by one of the autochthonous  inhabitants with

the most ingenious combination of inconveniences  that the natural man could educe from his original

perversity of  intellect.  To get at any one room you must pass through every other.  It is blind, or nearly so, on

the only side which has a good  prospect, and commands a fine view of the barn and pigsty through  numerous

windows.  Item 2.  We have a small fireengine near the new  house which can be worked by a man or two,

and would be equal to the  emergency of putting out a bunch of firecrackers.  Item 3.  We have  a new ladder,

in a bog, close to the new fireengine, so if the new  house catches fire, like its predecessor, and there should

happen to,  be a sick man on an upper floor, he can be got out without running  the risk of going up and down a

burning staircase.  What a blessed  thing it was that there was no fireengine near by and no ladder at  hand on

the day of the great rescue!  If there had been, what a  change in your programme of life!  You remember that

"cup of tea  spilt on Mrs. Masham's apron," which we used to read of in one of  Everett's Orations, and all its

widereaching consequences in the  affairs of Europe.  I hunted up that cup of tea as diligently as ever  a

Boston matron sought for the last leaves in her old caddy after the  teachests had been flung overboard at

Griffin's wharf,but no  matter about that, now.  That is the way things come about in this  world.  I must write

a lecture on lucky mishaps, or, more elegantly,  fortunate calamities.  It will be just the converse of that odd

essay  of Swift's we read together, the awkward and stupid things done with  the best intentions.  Perhaps I shall

deliver the lecture in your  city: you will come and hear it, and bring him, won't  you, dearest?  Always, your

loving 

LURIDA. 

MISS LURIDA VINCENT TO MRS. EUTHYMIA KIRKWOOD. 

It seems forever since you left us, dearest Euthymia!  And are you,  and is your husband, and Paolo,good

Paolo,are you all as well and  happy as you have been and as you ought to be?  I suppose our small  village

seems a very quiet sort of place to pass the winter in, now  that you have become accustomed to the noise and

gayety of a great  city.  For all that, it is a pretty busy place this winter, I can  tell you.  We have sleighing

parties,I never go to them, myself,  because I can't keep warm, and my mind freezes up when my blood

cools  down below 95 or 96 deg. Fahrenheit.  I had a great deal rather sit  by a good fire and read about Arctic

discoveries.  But I like very  well to hear the bells' jingling and to see the young people trying  to have a good

time as hard as they do at a picnic.  It may be that  they do, but to me a picnic is purgatory and a sleighride

that other  place, where, as my favorite Milton says, "frost performs the effect  of fire."  I believe I have quoted

him correctly; I ought to, for I  could repeat half his poems from memory once, if I cannot now. 

You must have plenty of excitement in your city life.  I suppose  you  recognized yourself in one of the society

columns of the  "Household  Inquisitor:" "Mrs. E.  K., very beautiful, in an elegant,"  etc., etc,  "with pearls,"

etc., etc.,as if you were not the ornament  of all  that you wear, no matter what it is! 

I am so glad that you have married a scholar!  Why should not  Mauriceyou both tell me to call him

sotake the diplomatic office  which has been offered him?  It seems to me that he would find  himself in

exactly the right place.  He can talk in two or three  languages, has good manners, and a wife whowell, what

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quondam landlady of the Anchor Tavern used to say?  I should so like to see you presented at Court!  It seems

to me that  I should be willing to hold your train for the sake of seeing you in  your court feathers and things. 

As for myself, I have been thinking of late that I would become  either a professional lecturer or head mistress

of a great school or  college for girls.  I have tried the first business a little.  Last  month I delivered a lecture on

Quaternions.  I got three for my  audience; two came over from the Institute, and one from that men's  college

which they try to make out to be a university, and where no  female is admitted unless she belongs among the

quadrupeds.  I  enjoyed lecturing, but the subject is a difficult one, and I don't  think any one of them had any

very clear notion of what I was talking  about, except Rhodora,and I know she did n't.  To tell the truth, I

was lecturing to instruct myself.  I mean to try something easier  next time.  I have thought of the Basque

language and literature.  What do you say to that? 

The Society goes on famously.  We have had a paper presented and  read  lately which has greatly amused

some of us and provoked a few of  the  weaker sort.  The writer is that crabbed old Professor of Belles  Lettres

at that men's college over there.  He is dreadfully hard on  the poor "poets," as they call themselves.  It seems

that a great  many young persons, and more especially a great many young girls, of  whom the Institute has

furnished a considerable proportion, have  taken to sending him their rhymed productions to be criticised,

expecting to be praised, no doubt, every one of them.  I must give  you one of the sauciest extracts from his

paper in his own words: 

"It takes half my time to read the 'poems' sent me by young people  of  both sexes.  They would be more shy of

doing it if they knew that I  recognize a tendency to rhyming as a common form of mental weakness,  and the

publication of a thin volume of verse as prima facie evidence  of ambitious mediocrity, if not inferiority.  Of

course there are  exceptions to this rule of judgment, but I maintain that the  presumption is always against the

rhymester as compared with the less  pretentious persons about him or her, busy with some useful calling,

too busy to be tagging rhymed commonplaces together.  Just now  there seems to be an epidemic of

rhyming as bad as the dancing mania,  or the sweating sickness.  After reading a certain amount of  manuscript

verse one is disposed to anathematize the inventor of  homophonous syllabification.  [This phrase made a great

laugh when it  was read.] This, that is rhyming, must have been found out very  early, 

     'Where are you, Adam?'

     'Here am I, Madam;'

but it can never have been habitually practised until after the  Fall.  The intrusion of tintinnabulating

terminations into the  conversational intercourse of men and angels would have spoiled  Paradise itself.  Milton

would not have them even in Paradise Lost,  you remember.  For my own part, I wish certain rhymes could be

declared contraband of written or printed language.  Nothing should  be allowed to be hurled at the world or

whirled with it, or furled  upon it or curled over it; all eyes should be kept away from the  skies, in spite of os

homini sublime dedit; youth should be coupled  with all the virtues except truth; earth should never be

reminded of  her birth; death should never be allowed to stop a mortal's breath,  nor the bell to sound his knell,

nor flowers from blossoming bowers  to wave over his grave or show their bloom upon his tomb.  We have

rhyming dictionaries,let us have one from which all rhymes are  rigorously excluded.  The sight of a poor

creature grubbing for  rhymes to fill up his sonnet, or to cram one of those voracious,  rhymeswallowing

rigmaroles which some of our drudging poetical  operatives have been exhausting themselves of late to satiate

with  jingles, makes my head ache and my stomach rebel.  Work, work of some  kind, is the business of men

and women, not the making of jingles!  No,no,no!  I want to see the young people in our schools and

academies and colleges, and the graduates of these institutions,  lifted up out of the little Dismal Swamp of

selfcontemplating and  selfindulging and selfcommiserating emotionalism which is  surfeiting the land

with those literary sandwiches,thin slices of  tinkling sentimentality between two covers looking like

hardbaked  gilt gingerbread.  But what faces these young folks make up at my  good advice!  They get tipsy on


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their rhymes.  Nothing intoxicates  one like hisor herown verses, and they hold on to their metre

balladmongering as the fellows that inhale nitrous oxide hold on to  the gasbag." 

We laughed over this essay of the old Professor; though it hit us  pretty hard.  The best part of the joke is that

the old man himself  published a thin volume of poems when he was young, which there is  good reason to

think he is not very proud of, as they say he buys up  all the copies he can find in the shops.  No matter what

they say, I  can't help agreeing with him about this great flood of "poetry," as  it calls itself, and looking at the

rhyming mania much as he does. 

How I do love real poetry!  That is the reason hate rhymes which  have  not a particle of it in them.  The foolish

scribblers that deal  in  them are like bad workmen in a carpenter's shop.  They not only  turn  out bad jobs of

work, but they spoil the tools for better  workmen.  There is hardly a pair of rhymes in the English language

that  is not  so dulled and hacked and gapped by these 'prentice hands that a  master of the craft hates to touch

them, and yet he cannot very well  do without them.  I have not been besieged as the old Professor has  been

with such multitudes of wouldbepoetical aspirants that he  could not even read their manuscripts, but I have

had a good many  letters containing verses, and I have warned the writers of the  delusion under which they

were laboring. 

You may like to know that I have just been translating some  extracts  from the Greek Anthology.  I send you a

few specimens of my  work,  with a Dedication to the Shade of Sappho.  I hope you will find  something of the

Greek rhythm in my versions, and that I have caught  a spark of inspiration from the impassioned Lesbian.  I

have found  great delight in this work, at any rate, and am never so happy as  when I read from my manuscript

or repeat from memory the lines into  which I have transferred the thought of the men and women of two

thousand years ago, or given rhythmical expression to my own  rapturous feelings with regard to them.  I must

read you my  Dedication to the Shade of Sappho.  I cannot help thinking that you  will like it better than either

of my last two, The Song of the  Roses, or The Wail of the Weeds. 

How I do miss you, dearest!  I want you: I want you to listen to  what  I have written; I want you to hear all

about my plans for the  future;  I want to look at you, and think how grand it must be to feel  one's  self to be

such a noble and beautifulcreature; I want to wander  in  the woods with you, to float on the lake, to share

your life and  talk  over every day's doings with you.  Alas!  I feel that we have  parted  as two friends part at a

port of embarkation: they embrace,  they kiss  each other's cheeks, they cover their faces and weep, they  try to

speak goodby to each other, they watch from the pier and from  the  deck; the two forms grow less and less,

fainter and fainter in the  distance, two white handkerchiefs flutter once and again, and yet  once more, and the

last visible link of the chain which binds them  has parted.  Dear, dear, dearest Euthymia, my eyes are running

over  with tears when I think that we may never, never meet again. 

Don't you want some more items of village news?  We are threatened  with an influx of stylish people:

"Buttons" to answer the doorbell,  in place of the chambermaid; "butler," in place of the "hired man;"

footman in topboots and breeches, cockade on hat, arms folded a la  Napoleon; tandems, "drags," dogcarts,

and gocarts of all sorts.  It  is rather amusing to look at their ambitious displays, but it takes  away the good

old country flavor of the place. 

I don't believe you mean to try to astonish us when you come back  to  spend your summers here.  I suppose

you must have a large house,  and  I am sure you will have a beautiful one.  I suppose you will have  some fine

horses, and who would n't be glad to?  But I do not believe  you will try to make your old Arrowhead Village

friends stare their  eyes out of their heads with a display meant to outshine everybody  else that comes here.

You can have a yacht on the lake, if you like,  but I hope you will pull a pair of oars in our old boat once in a

while, with me to steer you.  I know you will be just the same dear  Euthymia you always were and always

must be.  How happy you must make  such a man as Maurice Kirkwood!  And how happy you ought to be with

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so much of women, where could he  study all that is best in womanhood as he can in his own wife?  Only  one

thing that dear Euthymia lacks.  She is not quite pronounced  enough in her views as to the rights and the

wrongs of the sex.  When  I visit you, as you say I shall, I mean to indoctrinate Maurice with  sound views on

that subject.  I have written an essay for the  Society, which I hope will go a good way towards answering all

the  objections to female suffrage.  I mean to read it to your husband, if  you will let me, as I know you will,

and perhaps you would like to  hear it,only you know my thoughts on the subject pretty well  already. 

With all sorts of kind messages to your dear husband, and love to  your precious self,  I am ever your 

LURIDA. 

DR. BUTTS TO MRS. EUTHYMIA KIRKWOOD. 

MY DEAR EUTHYMIA,My pen refuses to call you by any other name.  Sweetsouled you are, and your

Latinized Greek name isthe one which  truly designates you.  I cannot tell you how we have followed you,

with what interest and delight through your travels, as you have told  their story in your letters to your mother.

She has let us have the  privilege of reading them, and we have been with you in steamer,  yacht, felucca,

gondola, Nileboat; in all sorts of places, from  crowded capitals to "deserts where no men

abide,"everywhere keeping  company with you in your natural and pleasant descriptions of your

experiences.  And now that you have returned to your home in the  great city I must write you a few lines of

welcome, if nothing more. 

You will find Arrowhead Village a good deal changed since you left  it.  We are discovered by some of those

overrich people who make the  little place upon which they swarm a kind of rural city.  When this  happens

the consequences are striking,some of them desirable and  some far otherwise.  The effect of wellbuilt,

wellfurnished, well  kept houses and of handsome grounds always maintained in good order  about them

shows itself in a large circuit around the fashionable  centre.  Houses get on a new coat of paint, fences are

kept in better  order, little plots of flowers show themselves where only ragged  weeds had rioted, the

inhabitants present themselves in more comely  attire and drive in handsomer vehicles with more carefully

groomed  horses.  On the other hand, there is a natural jealousy on the part  of the natives of the region

suddenly become fashionable.  They have  seen the land they sold at farm prices by the acre coming to be

valued by the foot, like the corner lots in a city.  Their simple and  humble modes of life look almost

povertystricken in the glare of  wealth and luxury which so outshines their plain way of living.  It  is true that

many of them have found them selves richer than in  former days, when the neighborhood lived on its own

resources.  They  know how to avail themselves of their altered position, and soon  learn to charge city prices

for country products; but nothing can  make people feel rich who see themselves surrounded by men whose

yearly income is many times their own whole capital.  I think it  would be better if our rich men scattered

themselves more than they  do,buying large country estates, building houses and stables which  will make it

easy to entertain their friends, and depending for  society on chosen guests rather than on the mob of

millionaires who  come together for social rivalry.  But I do not fret myself about it.  Society will stratify itself

according to the laws of social  gravitation.  It will take a generation or two more, perhaps, to  arrange the strata

by precipitation and settlement, but we can always  depend on one principle to govern the arrangement of the

layers.  People interested in the same things will naturally come together.  The youthful heirs of fortunes who

keep splendid yachts have little  to talk about with the oarsman who pulls about on the lake or the  river.  What

does young Dives, who drives his fourinhand and keeps  a stable full of horses, care about Lazarus, who

feels rich in the  possession of a horserailroad ticket?  You know how we live at our  house, plainly, but with a

certain degree of cultivated propriety.  We  make no pretensions to what is called "style."  We are still in  that

social stratum where the article called "a napkinring" is  recognized  as admissible at the dinnertable.  That

fact sufficiently  defines our  modest pretensions.  The napkinring is the boundary mark  between  certain

classes.  But one evening Mrs. Butts and I went out  to a party  given by the lady of a worthy family, where the

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details of the kitchen and the  laundry; upon the  best mode of raising bread, whether with "emptins"

(emptyings, yeast)  or baking powder; about "bluing" and starching and  crimping, and  similar matters.  Poor

Mrs. Butts!  She knew nothing  more about such  things than her hostess did about Shakespeare and the  musical

glasses.  What was the use of trying to enforce social  intercourse under such  conditions?  Incompatibility of

temper has  been considered ground for  a divorce; incompatibility of interests is  a sufficient warrant for  social

separation.  The multimillionaires  have so much that is common  among themselves, and so little that they

share with us of moderate  means, that they will naturally form a  specialized class, and in  virtue of their

palaces, their picture  galleries, their equipages,  their yachts, their large hospitality,  constitute a kind of

exclusive  aristocracy.  Religion, which ought to  be the great leveller, cannot  reduce these elements to the same

grade.  You may read in the parable,  "Friend, how camest thou in  hither not having a wedding garment?"  The

modern version would be,  "How came you at Mrs. Billion's ball not  having a dress on your back  which came

from Paris?" 

The little church has got a new stained window, a saint who reminds  me of Hamlet's uncle,a thing "of

shreds and patches," but rather  pretty to look at, with an inscription under it which is supposed to  be the name

of the person in whose honor the window was placed in the  church.  Smith was a worthy man and a faithful

churchwarden, and I  hope posterity will be able to spell out his name on his monumental  window; but that

old English lettering would puzzle Mephistopheles  himself, if he found himself before this memorial tribute,

on the  inside,you know he goes to church sometimes, if you remember your  Faust. 

The rector has come out, in a quiet way, as an evolutionist.  He  has  always been rather "broad " in his views,

but cautious in their  expression.  You can tell the three branches of the motherisland  church by the way they

carry their heads.  The lowchurch clergy look  down, as if they felt themselves to be worms of the dust; the

high  church priest drops his head on one side, after the pattern of the  mediaeval saints; the broadchurch

preacher looks forward and round  about him, as if he felt himself the heir of creation.  Our rector  carries his

head in the broadchurch aspect, which I suppose is the  least open to the charge of affectation,in fact, is

the natural and  manly way of carrying it. 

The Society has justified its name of Pansophian of late as never  before.  Lurida has stirred up our little

community and its  neighbors, so that we get essays on all sorts of subjects, poems and  stories in large

numbers.  I know all about it, for she often  consults me as to the merits of a particular contribution. 

What is to be the fate of Lurida?  I often think, with no little  interest and some degree of anxiety, about her

future.  Her body is  so frail and her mind so excessively and constantly active that I am  afraid one or the other

will give way.  I do not suppose she thinks  seriously of ever being married.  She grows more and more zealous

in  behalf of her own sex, and sterner in her judgment of the other.  She  declares that she never would marry

any man who was not an advocate  of female suffrage, and as these gentlemen are not very common

hereabouts the chance is against her capturing any one of the hostile  sex. 

What do you think?  I happened, just as I was writing the last  sentence, to look out of my window, and whom

should I see but Lurida,  with a young man in tow, listening very eagerly to her conversation,  according to all

appearance!  I think he must be a friend of the  rector, as I have seen a young man like this one in his company.

Who  knows? 

Affectionately yours, etc. 

DR. BUTTS TO MRS. BUTTS. 

MY BELOVED WIFE,This letter will tell you more news than you  would  have thought could have been

got together in this little village  during the short time you have been staying away from it. 


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Lurida Vincent is engaged!  He is a clergyman with a mathematical  turn.  The story is that he put a difficult

problem into one of the  mathematical journals, and that Lurida presented such a neat solution  that the young

man fell in love with her on the strength of it.  I  don't think the story is literally true, nor do I believe that other

report that he offered himself to her in the form of an equation  chalked on the blackboard; but that it was an

intellectual rather  than a sentimental courtship I do not doubt.  Lurida has given up the  idea of becoming a

professional lecturer,so she tells me,thinking  that her future husband's parish will find her work enough

to do.  A  certain amount of daily domestic drudgery and unexciting intercourse  with simpleminded people

will be the best thing in the world for  that brain of hers, always simmering with some new project in its  least

fervid condition. 

All our summer visitors have arrived.  Euthymia Mrs. Maurice  Kirkwood and her husband and little Maurice

are here in their  beautiful house looking out on the lake.  They gave a grand party the  other evening.  You

ought to have been there, but I suppose you could  not very well have left your sister in the middle of your

visit: All  the grand folks were there, of course.  Lurida and her young man  Gabriel is what she calls

himwere naturally the objects of special  attention.  Paolo acted as majordomo, and looked as if he ought

to  be a majorgeneral.  Nothing could be pleasanter than the way in  which Mr. and Mrs. Kirkwood received

their plain country neighbors;  that is, just as they did the others of more pretensions, as if they  were really

glad to see them, as I am sure they were.  The old  landlord and his wife had two armchairs to themselves,

and I saw  Miranda with the servants of the household looking in at the dancers  and out at the little groups in

the garden, and evidently enjoying it  as much as her old employers.  It was a most charming and successful

party.  We had two sensations in the course of the evening.  One was  pleasant and somewhat exciting, the

other was thrilling and of  strange and startling interest. 

You remember how emaciated poor Maurice Kirkwood was left after his  fever, in that first season when he

was among us.  He was out in a  boat one day, when a ring slipped off his thin finger and sunk in a  place where

the water was rather shallow.  "Jake"you know Jake,  everybody knows Jakewas rowing him.  He

promised to come to the  spot and fish up the ring if he could possibly find it.  He was seen  poking about with

fishhooks at the end of a pole, but nothing was  ever heard from him about the ring.  It was an antique

intaglio stone  in an Etruscan setting,a wild goose flying over the Campagna.  Mr.  Kirkwood valued it

highly, and regretted its loss very much. 

While we were in the garden, who should appear at the gate but  Jake,  with a great basket, inquiring for Mr.

Kirkwood.  "Come," said  Maurice to me, "let us see what our old friend the fisherman has  brought us.  What

have you got there, Jake?" 

"What I 've got?  Wall, I 'll tell y' what I've got: I 've got the  biggest pickerel that's been ketched in this pond

for these ten year.  An' I 've got somethin' else besides the pickerel.  When I come to  cut him open, what do

you think I faound in his insides but this here  ring o' yourn,"and he showed the one Maurice had lost so

long  before.  There it was, as good as new, after having tried Jonah's  style of housekeeping for all that time.

There are those who  discredit Jake's story about finding the ring in the fish; anyhow,  there was the ring and

there was the pickerel.  I need not say that  Jake went off well paid for his pickerel and the precious contents of

its stomach.  Now comes the chief event of the evening.  I went early  by special invitation.  Maurice took me

into his library, and we sat  down together. 

"I have something of great importance," he said, " to say to you.  I  learned within a few days that my cousin

Laura is staying with a  friend in the next town to this.  You know, doctor, that we have  never met since the

last, almost fatal, experience of my early years.  I have determined to defy the strength of that deadly chain of

associations connected with her presence, and I have begged her to  come this evening with the friends with

whom she is staying.  Several  letters passed between us, for it was hard to persuade her that there  was no

longer any risk in my meeting her.  Her imagination was almost  as deeply impressed as mine had been at

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disturbing impressions of former years.  So, as the result of  our correspondence, Laura is coming this evening,

and I wish you to  be present at our meeting.  There is another reason why I wish you to  be here.  My little boy

is not far from theage at which I received  my terrifying, almost disorganizing shock.  I mean to have little

Maurice brought into the presence of Laura, who is said to be still a  very handsome woman, and see if he

betrays any hint of that peculiar  sensitiveness which showed itself in my threatening seizure.  It  seemed to me

not impossible that he might inherit some tendency of  that nature, and I wanted you to be at hand if any sign

of danger  should declare itself.  For myself I have no fear.  Some radical  change has taken place in my nervous

system.  I have been born again,  as it were, in my susceptibilities, and am in certain respects a new  man.  But I

must know how it is with my little Maurice." 

Imagine with what interest I looked forward to this experiment; for  experiment it was, and not without its

sources of anxiety, as it  seemed to me.  The evening wore along; friends and neighbors came in,  but no Laura

as yet.  At last I heard the sound of wheels, and a  carriage stopped at the door.  Two ladies and a gentleman got

out,  and soon entered the drawing room. 

"My cousin Laura!" whispered Maurice to me, and went forward to  meet  her.  A very handsome woman, who

might well have been in the  thirties,one of those women so thoroughly constituted that they  cannot help

being handsome at every period of life.  I watched them  both as they approached each other.  Both looked pale

at first, but  Maurice soon recovered his usual color, and Laura's natural, rich  bloom came back by degrees.

Their emotion at meeting was not to be  wondered at, but there was no trace in it of the paralyzing influence

on the great centres of life which had once acted upon its fated  victim like the fabled head which turned the

lookeron into a stone. 

"Is the boy still awake?" said Maurice to Paolo, who, as they used  to  say of Pushee at the old Anchor Tavern,

was everywhere at once on  that gay and busy evening. 

"What!  Mahser Maurice asleep an' all this racket going on?  I hear  him crowing like young cockerel when he

fus' smell daylight." 

"Tell the nurse to bring him down quietly to the little room that  leads out of the library." 

The child was brought down in his nightclothes, wide awake,  wondering apparently at the noise he heard,

which he seemed to think  was for his special amusement. 

"See if he will go to that lady," said his father.  Both of us held  our breath as Laura stretched her arms towards

little Maurice. 

The child looked for an instant searchingly, but fearlessly, at her  glowing cheeks, her bright eyes, her

welcoming smile, and met her  embrace as she clasped him to her bosom as if he had known her all  his days. 

The mortal antipathy had died out of the soul and the blood of  Maurice Kirkwood at that supreme moment

when he found himself  snatched from the grasp of death and cradled in the arms of Euthymia. 

 

In closing the New Portfolio I remember that it began with a prefix  which the reader may by this time have

forgotten, namely, the First  Opening.  It was perhaps presumptuous to thus imply the probability  of a second

opening. 

I am reminded from time to time by the correspondents who ask a  certain small favor of me that, as I can only

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would hurry up my answer before it is too late.  They are right, these delicious unknown friends of mine, in

reminding  me of a fact which I cannot gainsay and might suffer to pass from my  recollection.  I thank them

for recalling my attention to a truth  which I shall be wiser, if not more hilarious, for remembering. 

No, I had no right to say the First Opening.  How do I know that I  shall have a chance to open it again?  How

do I know that anybody  will want it to be opened a second time?  How do I know that I shall  feel like opening

it?  It is safest neither to promise to open the  New Portfolio once more, nor yet to pledge myself to keep it

closed  hereafter.  There are many papers potentially existent in it, some of  which might interest a reader here

and there.  The Records of the  Pansophian Society contain a considerable number of essays, poems,  stories,

and hints capable of being expanded into presentable  dimensions.  In the mean time I will say with Prospero,

addressing my  old readers, and my new ones, if such I have, 

    "If you be pleased, retire into my cell

     And there repose: a turn or two I'll walk,

     To still my beating mind."

When it has got quiet I may take up the New Portfolio again, and  consider whether it is worth while to open

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   19. XIII. DR. BUTTS READS A PAPER., page = 69

   20. XIV. MISS VINCENT'S STARTLING DISCOVERY., page = 72

   21. XV. DR. BUTTS CALLS ON EUTHYMIA., page = 77

   22. XVI. MISS VINCENT WRITES A LETTER., page = 79

   23. XVII. Dr. BUTTS'S PATIENT., page = 83

   24. XVIII. MAURICE KIRKWOOD'S STORY OF HIS LIFE., page = 85

   25. XX. DR. BUTTS REFLECTS., page = 97

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   27. XXII. EUTHYMIA., page = 102

   28. XXIII. THE MEETING OF MAURICE AND EUTHYMIA., page = 105

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